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Friday, March 25, 2016

Caught Between

oh Wow! I'm not even sure I want to write about this. How hefty is that??!! If even I don't want to write about this, you know it's going to be bad. One of my friends is throwing a party and wants me to go. It's an INXS party. I would like to go. But there are a few problems. First, I'm moving to Coos Bay. The party is in Seattle. That's a long way to go for someone who currently doesn't even have a car. Though I probably will get a car in the near future, I don't have one now. And I don't know for sure if I will have one by the time this party rolls around. I even need to make sure the place I move to will have proper buslines, or at the very least, a dial-a-ride service. My ma is coming up soon to take me to Coos Bay to try and find a place to move to. Anyways, I need to get out of this area. There is nothing here! I did find a ride service in Portland, but I don't know if they have drivers here. And it may be expensive as heck!! I don't even like taking a cab. Not unless I definitely have to. For what the cabbies cost, in a year, I could have a brand-spanking new car all bought and paid for. This place needs more services! There's no bus here! No dial-a-ride! No nothing!! All there is is a taxi company and they are too expensive! What is one supposed to do if its the middle of the night and there's an emergency?

Second, the radicals. I don't want to meet the radicals! And I don't want them to meet me. If I see a damn radical there, I might just want to come home. I actually discussed this with Katrina, that I don't want to meet up with any radicals. Her response was "Fuck them! Just go for yourself and have fun!" She is right. I would go for me and my friends, and of course INXS. But as I've said many times before, radicals ruin everything for everybody! I'd no doubt know who the radicals are. The way they probably look thinking about me now, you'd think I'd murdered Michael. LOL! Katrina should come with me. She likes INXS. But she likes Jon and JD. I'm a Michael and Timmy fan. Knowing Katrina the way I do, she would tell the radicals to fuck off. Face it, I am a recluse. The radicals will never understand me. LOL! Not that I want them to.

Third, my movie. I want to do my movie about Michael. I have been planning this for a while now, and I really want to do it. If I go to this party, it's going to cut deeply into my budget. I have to take a bus to the event, and that will make it harder for me, because I'd have to catch the bus home too. On the other hand, this would make a very interesting addition to the movie. It is a gathering for INXS fans. It is to celebrate their 40th year, even though they are not a band anymore. I want to make this a good movie, the subject being all about INXS. And maybe, one of the guys might show up. Though I don't know. I don't think they show up for things like that. But if they did, it would definitely punch up the movie some. But it probably won't be worth it unless they do show up. But it'd be great! I do want to make this the best INXS reality movie the USA has ever seen! Michael deserves to be remembered here too. And fans in the USA deserve to have something available to us that would help. I'd have to think of a way to present this in a manner that will be interesting to watch. Maybe I can do some interviews with the fans. No radicals though!!! The problem is most of the fans that I know of that are going have never had any contact with Michael at all. Well, we'll see. If I cannot think of a way to make this interesting for the movie, I might not go.

I actually do this all the time. Every time I plan something, I hesitate. I balance out whether or not I should do it. If the no's outweigh the yes's then I stay home. Either way, I am going to do this movie. I'd invite a companion to come with me to Australia (it may actually be cheaper if I did), but until someone comes up out of the blue and says to me "Hey I want to go with you!" I'm planning this whole thing for myself. Even then, I'll still plan for myself. We can split the cost of the hotel room, but that's it. Other than that, the companion is on their own. The reason for that is simple. I believe it's bad luck when one or both of the travelers cancel. I'm going, regardless. Even if it kills me. I've never flown before and I am terrified of flying, but I want to do this! At least I'd know that if I go down, then the whole plane goes down with me. I won't die alone. LOL! I like to think I am ready when GOD decides it's time for me to come home, but I am not ready yet. Let me at least do this movie!!

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