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Friday, March 11, 2016

This Is Not Easy!!

I did a massive cull last night. Still working on it today. I cut out nearly 100 people from my friends. LOL! I'm trying to figure out who to keep and who to let go. I don't want to say delete, as I am not doing this out of malice. This isn't easy, I'm telling you!! I have to go back and look at who has communicated well with me. Though that is not necessarily the finalizer. Some people I thought were trustworthy packed up and left themselves. One person was even friends with my sis as well. Funny that. She didn't even have anything in common with my sis. I honestly don't know why she asked her to become her friend. My sis is not an INXS fan, just so you all know. LOL! Oh well. But the point is, this is not easy! I also left most of the larger groups. Just for now. I really want to keep my own friend count down to a bare minimum. I think that is what is best for me. It's either that or give up Facebook altogether. I can't really do that. My family and closest childhood friends are there. Took me forever to get back in touch with my childhood friend, I don't want to lose her again!!

I just don't think I am ready for a lot of human contact. I may never be ready. I just don't understand people. I probably never will. Animals at least are much easier to understand. And really, I don't like people! I don't even like myself half the time. LOL! That's a joke, BTW. But I am unpredictable, and it is because of that that I think it's best I stay in my own little circles. I am still in some groups, but they are small and intimate groups. I'm still in my own group. I have to be there! That's where I go to post my favorite pics of INXS, and share them with other fans. This is actually the best thing I've ever done. Believe it or not! Now, I am seeing posts from friends I haven't seen in quite a long time! I couldn't see them because they were taken up by a bunch of useless posts from other people who have contributed nothing (or not much) to my Facebook page. Well, I always say everything happens for a reason. Good or bad, and this proves it. Maybe I will get closer to those I still have. Maybe I will learn to trust people again. But don't count on it. Like I said before, I will just never understand people. It's hard to trust something you don't understand. But the people I will keep around are people that I have some amount of respect for.

Another thing that is hard for me to let go of is dog-lovers! One person told me I can delete her and I said it's hard for me to delete dog-lovers! Seriously. Dog-lovers is such a rare thing these days among INXS fans. Cat-lovers are a dime a dozen. Now, I am not saying I don't appreciate my friends who do like cats. But dog-lovers are very rare and a treasure usually when I can find them. But if this person wants to delete herself, she can. It's OK. All I ask is that she kiss her baby for me one last time. I miss my own dogs!

I wanted a puppy. I had begun saving for a puppy! But I did a chat with my sis last night, and I need to finish taking care of the dogs I have with her. Vegas needs his teeth cleaned. So, I must take care of that. I promised to pay half if she takes care of the other half. Well, this is what being a mommy is all about, even a doggie mommy. We make sacrifices. What a shame!! I still want to get a puppy sometime down the line. But I did some tall thinking last night after I had that chat with my sis, and I am thinking perhaps I'd better wait. I also want to take a trip to Australia for a movie I want to make. If I get the pup before I go, I'd have to have someone here to watch it, and I still don't know anyone here. I have quite a few breeds in mind that I want, I won't mention them here. I intend to make the announcement when I get the pup, and I don't want to say I'm going to get one breed and wind up with another. Don't worry dog people! I know what I am doing. I know my breeds! LOL!

As for my movie in Australia, well, hopefully that will be out next year. I know exactly what I am going to do and how I am going to do it. I don't intend on going there and making this movie while looking like a fat ugly old crone!! I'm going to have myself made up, and looking like a real actress! heehehe!! Well, most of the movie is going to be myself sitting in front of a camera reading my story, but I've also got an idea to put a few little surprises in there. When I make this movie, you're going to see an all-new me! Hopefully by then I'll have lost some weight. One thing I don't want to do is go there and contribute to this stereotype of a "fat American tourist". I also hope to bring home some souvenirs. Maybe meet some kangaroos. I'll try to get them on film. LOL! As for availability, now it's a toss-up, whether I want to put this movie on YouTube or just on UMG Productions for rent.

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