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Monday, March 14, 2016

Whew!! I Think I Am Done

I just finished a massive cull on Facebook. Believe me when I say it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do on Facebook! I haven't felt this bad in a LONG time!! Some people I may even have culled out by accident. Such was the case with one person! LOL! But I got that one person back. hehehe! She was a good sport about it too. This was not easy!! It was tough trying to figure out who should stay and who should go. Because of the couple of people who unfriended me that I thought were loyal friends, I could not let recent communication be a deciding factor. Even if that recent communication was seemingly "friendly". Most of the people I have left are people that I really, really, REALLY love and trust, or people I want to get to know a lot better. If the ones I want to get to know better decide it's not going to work out, or if I decide, they'll leave I'm sure. Anyways I am glad that's over! Now is the point where I start all over.

I like to think of myself as being a very loyal person. Very trustworthy. Very forgiving. I tend to ignore the drama going on with anyone I consider a friend, as long as that person has always been good to me, there's no reason for me to get involved in the dramas that go on. The sad thing is that if you are that way with the wrong kind of people, they will take full advantage of it. It's tough though to find the right kind of people, because someone who can seem nice and friendly could possibly just be putting up a front. To your face, they could be saying "Oh Dee you are so funny and cute!" But behind the scenes, they're probably thinking "Dee is a stupid bitch, I hate her so much! And her Timmy squeal gets on my nerves!" That's why if I have a problem with someone, I'm going to tell them. And I have MUCH more respect for people who are not afraid to tell me how they feel about me. Kinda like on YouTube, when I get commenters saying "I hate fat people because they are disgusting!" I have actually a lot more respect for that person than I have for the person who says "I hate fat people because they cause my insurance rates to go up!" I have zero respect for someone who says that because I don't buy for one second that they are grouping all fat people into one category and calling us names because they are concerned about the cost of health care. Otherwise teenagers wouldn't do it. Really, anyone who knows anything about obesity wouldn't do it. But that's another story.

I dunno, sometimes I think I need to stop being so loyal and trustworthy. A lot of people don't deserve it. But I can't stop. This is who I am. I love the idea that I can help some person in need feel like I'll always be their friend no matter what. I like the feeling I get when I hear a person say "I have had a hard day, and Dee, you made me feel so much better!" I like to think I can be the one who understands how they feel when they're going through a rough time in their lives. I've had many of them myself. I like to think that when I do my Timmy thing, I've made someone smile, even if just for a moment. I like to laugh with my friends, even cry with them. I like to offer prayers and well-wishes to those who need them. I love to post pics of the guys that make my friends happy. I just can't change!

Well, it has literally been years since I did a cull. I normally hate deleting anyone. There have only been a few times in my life I've ever done it. This really is the best thing I've ever done! I'm now hearing from people I thought were long gone! I am grateful to GOD for the people who have deleted themselves. They saved me the trouble of trying to figure out who the radicals are! Good riddance! Don't ever think of coming back either! I don't want radicals among my friends. And if they're thinking "She's a crazy bitch!" I'll just say "Thank you!" I'm an artist and a writer, I'm supposed to be crazy. In fact, you'd be hard pressed to find a good artist of any kind that isn't crazy. I'm more offended if someone says I'm not crazy than if they say I am. LOL! If I ain't crazy then I ain't a worthy artist or writer! Simple as that. I remember one of the guys who deleted himself from my friends said he was a writer, but at the same time, implied he was a normal person. Well, if that was really the case, then I don't want to read his stories! I've read stories from so-called "normal people", and believe me, they are BORING! Well, his thing was zombies and I am not into that myself anyways. My best stories were all written whenever I just turn my mind loose and let it run wild. But then I've become quite famous for my slapstick humor.

However, maybe some people are just not really aware how crazy they are. Maybe they only see it in others because they haven't come to terms with their own craziness. I came to terms with mine back when I did the UMG style Batman stories. Up until then, I thought I was "normal" too. But I found my stories were a lot better when I let my crazy side take over. That was when I always wrote the best stories. Some of them became masterpieces. I was never more crazy than I was after Michael died. That was when I wrote my best story of all. One that took me years to complete, literally! The idea was there, but I did not really complete the story until 2012. The only kind of stories I could see a normal person successfully write would be an autobiography. Surely NOT a fictional story! You need to be crazy to write good fiction. It's almost an unwritten requirement.

As for art, my thing is mostly cartoon caricaturist. Mostly animals. Like I said, I connect better with animals. Actually, I can do most anything I put my mind to. I've even done painting. I don't do it very well, but I figure I could with some practice. My paintings are not too bad really. They do need work, but all-in-all not a bad  beginning. But you can compare my temperament to Van Gogh. Or Picasso. LOL!! Yup, there I go again comparing myself to Van Gogh and Picasso! Well, I don't paint like they did, but I do have the artistic temperament. LOL! What I wish I could learn to draw very well is men!! I can draw women with no problems. But I can never draw men! The only reason I do women so well is because I was my own model for a long time when I was younger and thinner. When I do try to draw men, I tend to make them look too feminine! Even the guys of INXS. Or somehow I just don't make them look right. I need to work on that.

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