Tonight's show represented the year 1994. Another great year, it was the first year my sis Anna and I came to Ocean Shores by ourselves without our family. We stayed at a cute little hotel here, it was one of few around at that time. There were few powerlines then in this town, all the homes, land and hotels were on septic systems, that's how primitive it was out here. Basically it was just a cute little get-away town. It was the Easter weekend and every year around that time, all the kite-fliers come to this area to take advantage of the high ocean winds. Well, that little weekend trip sparked my imagination and ever since then, I've wanted to move to this town. Another thing that piqued my interest in this town was the Disney movie, "Pete's Dragon". It too was taken in a small, oceanside town, and it was such a cute movie! I was so fascinated by the town being so small and nestled up against the ocean it made me want to move out here so bad I was almost ready to pack up and leave the mountains and move to the ocean right then. Now, I am glad I moved here, even though it has taken me several years.
That was also the year I got heavily into the future of evolution. When I was younger the thought of evolution always made me cringe, but then I started studying it further, partly because of Jurassic Park, and I realized it was the best explaination there was for why dinosaurs and humans were not around at the same time. I actually created my first critters in 1992, but they were more akin to "make-believe" animals, much like one would see in a Dr. Seuss book, or on Star Wars. It wasn't until 1994 that I made these animals a little more scientifically accurate. I started with lemurs, the therapeds and deinognathids and carnivorous rats. The carnivorous rats I got from my copy of After Man. Dixon became quite famous for his predator rats. But he made them look too much like modern rats on stilts. I made them look more advanced. For one thing, I got rid of the naked tail, giving them a well-haired tail. From those first creations I radiated out into a World dominated by mammals. From that day on you could say my life focused on creating a mammal-dominated world, with no humans, and lacking those species who hinder the evolutionary advancement of other animals. Some animals I believe have many more millions of years to go.
This was also the year Kurt Cobain died. He grew up here, about 15 miles away from me in Hoquiam. The town even did a statue, funded by MTV, of Cobain. It's an awesome sight!!! Last time I saw it though it was still in the production stage. I didn't go to the unveiling, I'm not the biggest Nirvana fan, but my friend Cathy is.
Well, Australia had their own headlines that year, something about brushfires in northern Australia. Boy! I know how that feels! I get sick of hearing about brushfires in California!! But I guess that's what happens with global warming. That was a great year for music, not saying all of it was good, but I did hear a lot of songs tonight that has brought back some fond memories!
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Day 10
I missed day 9, so I'll just skip to what I have heard tonight. Day 10, represents 1993. I didn't know Prince did that song that year!! I'd have swore that was an 80s song!!! Either I'm wrong or Timmy is. Most likely me, I never cared for Prince. He never did anything really good as far as I'm concerned. But the rest of the songs I recognize very well. Well, except that last song. That was a weirdo song! Someone who would do anything for love except he won't do that. Whatever "that" is, I don't know. It was a weird song anyway.
1993 was a pretty good year. That was the year my sis Eva married a man, a wealthy man I might say. Lucky her! She doesn't want me to say what he does or where he works, so I won't. I cannot say why, so don't ask. hehe! That was the year me and Cathy finished the "Batman" series in our stories. It ended with a bang! Quite literally. We had UMG characters playing Batman characters, and it ended up being the character named Bucky was just waking up from a nap after dreaming he was Batman battling the Joker, Penguin, Catwoman, Riddler, Mr. Freeze, and the Mad Hatter. It was a funny way to end the series that extended over a year. We started the series just before Batman Returns started in the theaters, in August of 1992 with Batman battling the Joker and Penguin. I loved writing those Batman series because it gave me a chance to let my imagination really go wild. It was never meant to replace the original Batman comics or movies, it was just a fun way of being trendy. Bucky is a lemur that is used in quite a few stories and he turned out to be a Batman fan, so this is why he was dreaming these things happening to him while wearing a Batman costume. They were not the only stories I had that ended up being a dream someone in the story was having. A couple years later, I had a story with me sitting in a college biology class studying Dian Fossey, and dreaming I was going up to study gorillas with her. In the beginning of the story though I fell asleep, and at the end of the story I was woken up. That was all that story was based on. I dunno, the plot worked well for Alice in Wonderland!! In the story Alice apparently dreamed the whole thing up, then woke up at the end. The same concept applies to these stories.
That was also the year my pa moved in with the woman who was soon to be his wife and left us his house as a rental. He still visited quite often. But back then everytime he visited it was a roll of the dice whether he would be in a good mood or a bad mood. I hated it when he came to visit!!! He may have left us the house, but he didn't leave us our privacy!! He still wanted to control everything we did, even though we were not children anymore and he was renting us the house and we paid our rent on time every month.
Well geez, I am awful tired tonight! I loved hearing Tim on the radio again, but I am so tired. When my eyes start stinging me, that means they are TIRED!!!!
1993 was a pretty good year. That was the year my sis Eva married a man, a wealthy man I might say. Lucky her! She doesn't want me to say what he does or where he works, so I won't. I cannot say why, so don't ask. hehe! That was the year me and Cathy finished the "Batman" series in our stories. It ended with a bang! Quite literally. We had UMG characters playing Batman characters, and it ended up being the character named Bucky was just waking up from a nap after dreaming he was Batman battling the Joker, Penguin, Catwoman, Riddler, Mr. Freeze, and the Mad Hatter. It was a funny way to end the series that extended over a year. We started the series just before Batman Returns started in the theaters, in August of 1992 with Batman battling the Joker and Penguin. I loved writing those Batman series because it gave me a chance to let my imagination really go wild. It was never meant to replace the original Batman comics or movies, it was just a fun way of being trendy. Bucky is a lemur that is used in quite a few stories and he turned out to be a Batman fan, so this is why he was dreaming these things happening to him while wearing a Batman costume. They were not the only stories I had that ended up being a dream someone in the story was having. A couple years later, I had a story with me sitting in a college biology class studying Dian Fossey, and dreaming I was going up to study gorillas with her. In the beginning of the story though I fell asleep, and at the end of the story I was woken up. That was all that story was based on. I dunno, the plot worked well for Alice in Wonderland!! In the story Alice apparently dreamed the whole thing up, then woke up at the end. The same concept applies to these stories.
That was also the year my pa moved in with the woman who was soon to be his wife and left us his house as a rental. He still visited quite often. But back then everytime he visited it was a roll of the dice whether he would be in a good mood or a bad mood. I hated it when he came to visit!!! He may have left us the house, but he didn't leave us our privacy!! He still wanted to control everything we did, even though we were not children anymore and he was renting us the house and we paid our rent on time every month.
Well geez, I am awful tired tonight! I loved hearing Tim on the radio again, but I am so tired. When my eyes start stinging me, that means they are TIRED!!!!
Road Trip With the Wees!
Yesterday we went on a long trip with our little ones. I mean a LONG trip!!! At first we went to Astoria, our intent was to do some grocery shopping. But the store we went to did not have all we wanted, so as long as we were in the state, I thought let's go to Portland. So we did. They had everything we wanted so we got what we wanted and needed and came back home. It was a long way there from Astoria, where we originally started. We stopped at a rest stop to let the little ones go potty, they always attract a lot of attention, and Anna met a woman who just lost her husband yesterday. I thought when the woman looked at me she had that lost look in her eyes, kinda like how I looked when I lost my Groucho. She said he went in for heart surgery and died in the operation. I felt so bad for her, I told her she is in my prayers. That's all I could do, but she said seeing our babies made her day. I get so awkward in those kind of situations. I never had a husband die on me, I've lost friends and close family before, and kind words are enough to help me feel better. All I could offer was my condolences.
Well, we got our shopping done. You know what? I think I'm going to go shopping there more often! Everything is cheaper there! I was able to get twice as much as I usually do. But we were so tired upon returning we were falling asleep on the ride home! Thank GOD we made it before we got too tired. Usually on a long trip like that during the last 10 miles toward home I start feeling woozy, and last night was no exception. I had to turn off the music and start talking just to keep Anna and myself awake! I didn't think I was going to make it home awake! But we did, us and the wees made it home unscathed. There were still a lot of road closures due to flooding!! Thank GOD by yesterday most places were cleared, but passing through Chehalis, Centralia and Elma I noticed most of those areas were underwater! It's like a sea out here! I think in the future World this whole area is going to be part of the Pacific Ocean! No land anywhere. The Cascades are going to maybe be an island chain, or underwater volcanoes. The area Katrina lives with her family is not so bad, but then she lives on a hill too. But I also remember her mentioning yesterday that she could not go to work because most of the highway around her area was flooded.
Well, when I got home, I wanted to try my all-new portable DVD player I got yesterday, but I was too tired. Even today I am still too tired! NUTS!! But I will get to try it out, possibly tonight. I just cannot wait is all! It even plays VCDs, which I have quite a few of. My old player won't even touch VCDs!! Anna has no use for VCDs so I gave the player to her. This one is cool! It's like a flat-panel player, with a cute little mini remote. I can hook this baby up to my stereo on one side of the room and control it from the other. Look out Rockstar: INXS!! I'll be watching it maybe tonight! I miss Timmy. These radio programs are cool, but I want to see Tim's face! I missed last night's program! I'm sure they did the year 1992. Tonight they might do 1993. That was the year I got back into listening to the radio after like a 2-year break.
Well, we got our shopping done. You know what? I think I'm going to go shopping there more often! Everything is cheaper there! I was able to get twice as much as I usually do. But we were so tired upon returning we were falling asleep on the ride home! Thank GOD we made it before we got too tired. Usually on a long trip like that during the last 10 miles toward home I start feeling woozy, and last night was no exception. I had to turn off the music and start talking just to keep Anna and myself awake! I didn't think I was going to make it home awake! But we did, us and the wees made it home unscathed. There were still a lot of road closures due to flooding!! Thank GOD by yesterday most places were cleared, but passing through Chehalis, Centralia and Elma I noticed most of those areas were underwater! It's like a sea out here! I think in the future World this whole area is going to be part of the Pacific Ocean! No land anywhere. The Cascades are going to maybe be an island chain, or underwater volcanoes. The area Katrina lives with her family is not so bad, but then she lives on a hill too. But I also remember her mentioning yesterday that she could not go to work because most of the highway around her area was flooded.
Well, when I got home, I wanted to try my all-new portable DVD player I got yesterday, but I was too tired. Even today I am still too tired! NUTS!! But I will get to try it out, possibly tonight. I just cannot wait is all! It even plays VCDs, which I have quite a few of. My old player won't even touch VCDs!! Anna has no use for VCDs so I gave the player to her. This one is cool! It's like a flat-panel player, with a cute little mini remote. I can hook this baby up to my stereo on one side of the room and control it from the other. Look out Rockstar: INXS!! I'll be watching it maybe tonight! I miss Timmy. These radio programs are cool, but I want to see Tim's face! I missed last night's program! I'm sure they did the year 1992. Tonight they might do 1993. That was the year I got back into listening to the radio after like a 2-year break.
Friday, January 9, 2009
Day 6
This article was from Day 6 of Tim-Tim's radio show, so I thought I'd better save it here.
I was finally able to free up some time tonight and listen to Tim's radio program on a livestream from the River 94.9 FM, for the first time. Here I was talking about not missing it and I missed the last 6 days!! Tonight, he was doing the songs from 1989. Anyone else want to hear it, it comes on at 6:00 PM here in WA state. So that's PT zone. I missed the first 6 years, but I guess it's just as well. The songs from 1982 and 1983 are stupid and boring. In 1984 songs began getting better, but not the ones other people think were so great. But that's JMO.
1989, a good year. I was in high school. Cathy and I were on a story-writing frenzy that year, a number of my creations were based on the life of Dian Fossey. Though not necessarily Gorillas in the Mist. I also "discovered" music this year. Well, I discovered I like it. That was also the year I got Amadeus, my siamese cat. The only cat I would ever have that I would love. He still got on my nerves a lot though!! That was also the year my ma and pa got divorced. They both agreed it was the best thing for them. My pa met his now wife, and my ma met her now husband and now both are happy. That was also the year I met my first boyfriend, the man I hoped to marry someday. Well, that was before he joined the service.
When I first tuned in to the program, I kinda expected it to be like those Oprah Winfrey and Jerry Springer talk shows, a mix of both Tim Farriss talking about his experiences with INXS and talking about other groups. He did have some nice things to say about Roxette, which was always my favorite group next to INXS. But basically all Tim was doing was talking about musical history in general, and introducing what songs will be played. I did enjoy the songs, one song that was played I haven't heard in years! More than anything I enjoyed hearing Tim's commentary. To think I even recognized his voice among the other DJs. Been a long time since I spoke to him, but I still remember him even without seeing him. I was hoping though he'd be cracking jokes and being funny as I know he is capable of. Well, either way I did enjoy the program, and I thank my buds from OBINXS for referring me to the site.
I was finally able to free up some time tonight and listen to Tim's radio program on a livestream from the River 94.9 FM, for the first time. Here I was talking about not missing it and I missed the last 6 days!! Tonight, he was doing the songs from 1989. Anyone else want to hear it, it comes on at 6:00 PM here in WA state. So that's PT zone. I missed the first 6 years, but I guess it's just as well. The songs from 1982 and 1983 are stupid and boring. In 1984 songs began getting better, but not the ones other people think were so great. But that's JMO.
1989, a good year. I was in high school. Cathy and I were on a story-writing frenzy that year, a number of my creations were based on the life of Dian Fossey. Though not necessarily Gorillas in the Mist. I also "discovered" music this year. Well, I discovered I like it. That was also the year I got Amadeus, my siamese cat. The only cat I would ever have that I would love. He still got on my nerves a lot though!! That was also the year my ma and pa got divorced. They both agreed it was the best thing for them. My pa met his now wife, and my ma met her now husband and now both are happy. That was also the year I met my first boyfriend, the man I hoped to marry someday. Well, that was before he joined the service.
When I first tuned in to the program, I kinda expected it to be like those Oprah Winfrey and Jerry Springer talk shows, a mix of both Tim Farriss talking about his experiences with INXS and talking about other groups. He did have some nice things to say about Roxette, which was always my favorite group next to INXS. But basically all Tim was doing was talking about musical history in general, and introducing what songs will be played. I did enjoy the songs, one song that was played I haven't heard in years! More than anything I enjoyed hearing Tim's commentary. To think I even recognized his voice among the other DJs. Been a long time since I spoke to him, but I still remember him even without seeing him. I was hoping though he'd be cracking jokes and being funny as I know he is capable of. Well, either way I did enjoy the program, and I thank my buds from OBINXS for referring me to the site.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Day 8
Tim was in good voice tonight! As he talked about the year 1991. Of course I realize these shows are pre-recorded!!! LOL! Anyway, I never realized how little I listened to the radio in '91 until I heard tonight's show. I have these periods, just like everything else, that are neutral and periods where I cannot get enough of something. Radio was among those things. In 1989 and 1990, I listened to the radio constantly! In 1991, I only listened to the radio a little, for maybe a few months of the year and then I stopped. I don't remember listening to the radio at all in 1992 or most of 1993. Then about around September of 1993, I started listening to the radio again. That started a long trend of constant radio and music that lasted several years. Between 1993, '94, '95 and most of '96 I never had the radio off!! I'd be in my stereo room and I'd listen to the radio, in my bedroom, I'd listen to the radio, the car sure enough the radio was always on. Then late in 1996 I suddenly stopped listening except in the car, and that was only occasionally. In 1997 I hadn't started up yet, 1998 I was more into INXS so I listened more to my CDs than the radio. But in 1999 I started listening to the radio once again and didn't stop for a while. All of 1999 and 2000 I was constantly listening to the radio, especially on my way to work. In 2001 I didn't listen to the radio at all though. That was the year we moved to Olympia and I lost my favorite radio station when we did that. So, that was a bummer! I hardly ever listened to the radio unless I was in the car and just didn't have anything to say to whomever was in there with me. Usually the dogs. I'd take the dogs when Anna wasn't there so I'd have someone else to talk to. Unless it was hot out. After 2001 I never listened to the radio again, and out here there is only one radio station and it only plays country music. A big no-no in this house unless my stepfather is DJing, and then only to show him family support.
Anyway, I only recognized a few songs tonight. It could also be that I am not from Australia, but most of the songs I either barely remember or do not recognize. But who cares? I just enjoy hearing Tim's voice!! He even sounds beautiful! Forgive me for lusting!
Speaking of forgiveness, I wanted to announce I forgive the dirty dozen mob for what they did, I forgive DonnaG and her supporters for what they did in the past, that includes Catsredrum, Netrage, Mayday06 and NetsAngel. I forgive you all. I forgive those who have trashed me for no reason, I respect their decision to not want anything to do with me anymore. I forgive the people on the Anti-PETA forum for what they did. I'm not sure I'm supposed to list everything, they know what they did, and I really do not want to get into it, as I want to keep this clean. May GOD have mercy on them all.
Anyway, I only recognized a few songs tonight. It could also be that I am not from Australia, but most of the songs I either barely remember or do not recognize. But who cares? I just enjoy hearing Tim's voice!! He even sounds beautiful! Forgive me for lusting!
Speaking of forgiveness, I wanted to announce I forgive the dirty dozen mob for what they did, I forgive DonnaG and her supporters for what they did in the past, that includes Catsredrum, Netrage, Mayday06 and NetsAngel. I forgive you all. I forgive those who have trashed me for no reason, I respect their decision to not want anything to do with me anymore. I forgive the people on the Anti-PETA forum for what they did. I'm not sure I'm supposed to list everything, they know what they did, and I really do not want to get into it, as I want to keep this clean. May GOD have mercy on them all.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Day 7
Well, tonight Timmy did the show for the year 1990. A great year! I was in the Voc school that year, and became something of a grown up. It was a part of my high school continuing education program. Yippee!! I was glad to get away from the high school kids and become a grown up. Though even then, on the bus to the school, I still had kids barking at me. Don't ask why!! It was their thing, not mine! They were nutty kids! They were on their way to a school for troubled kids, so that should give you some idea why they acted that way. I was also madly in love with my first boyfriend this year, and hoped to marry him once I graduated from high school. He couldn't wait either. But later I found out he was being transfered across the country. He wanted me to come, but I couldn't. My family and friends are here, and it's not easy for me to make friends (back then we didn't have the internet), so I opted to stay here. He couldn't stay, so he had to go. I thought we would keep in touch, he had my phone # and all, but he never called, wrote or anything.
Now, I wish I had gone with him. I stayed there and lived in my father's house for many years, and every day was a constant battle with him!!! I never knew from one minute to the next if he was going to be in a good mood or bad mood, he changed with the wind!! Ya know, I think that's what turned me into a bitter old woman?! A woman who doesn't trust anybody! Maybe if I had gone with my first boyfriend to NC, I would not have become such an ogre! Being overly-defensive at every turn, hating everybody, or not trusting them, thinking everyone is either out to get me or is only being nice because they want something from me. I got so used to living that way staying at my father's house. But he was nice enough to let me live there on a minimal rent. It was just every time I saw him, he was either very very sweet, or very very mean. And I didn't know what he was which days. Sometimes he would come to the house nice, and later turn mean and nasty, for no apparent reason. Well, those days are behind me. He's a very different person now. I honestly think it took us moving out here, almost 100 miles away from him, to tame him down. Now whenever I see him, he's always very thoughtful, kind and polite. Miracles never cease.
Anyway, 1990 was also the year I discovered INXS. It was the summer of 1990. I'd been hearing INXS's music for a couple of years, and it was one of the first bands to capture my attention, and my imagination. When I saw a video of their's for the first time that summer, at first I fell in love with Michael. It was Need U Tonight/Mediate. Michael was so cute I fell in love right away. But it was Tim who caught my attention in Mediate, though he was at the end of the video, he had the best set of buns in the band!! So round, and fully-packed!! Let's face it, I'm a butt-woman!! I love a man with big, round buns like Tim's!!! I never seen one like his on a man! Michael had the face, but Tim had the buns!!! Michael had a cute face, but Tim was nice everywhere else! But like everyone else, I went for the lead singer of the band back then. I wasn't really like I am now. Now, I like to think independently.
Well anyway, I enjoyed the show. Timmy is really a damn good DJ. He should also make a career of this! I heard one song tonight I haven't heard since 1990! I think it's called "Onion Skin" or something like that. I used to hear it all the time on the radio station I was hooked on back then. I used to HATE that song!! I did at first. Then I started listening to it and learned to like it better. When I was ready to record it one day I discovered that they had actually stopped playing the song! I was upset, and I never heard it again. EVER!! Not until tonight anyway. I had even completely forgotten about that song until I heard it tonight!!! Thanks again Timmy!!!! Luv ya, and keep up the good work!
Now, I wish I had gone with him. I stayed there and lived in my father's house for many years, and every day was a constant battle with him!!! I never knew from one minute to the next if he was going to be in a good mood or bad mood, he changed with the wind!! Ya know, I think that's what turned me into a bitter old woman?! A woman who doesn't trust anybody! Maybe if I had gone with my first boyfriend to NC, I would not have become such an ogre! Being overly-defensive at every turn, hating everybody, or not trusting them, thinking everyone is either out to get me or is only being nice because they want something from me. I got so used to living that way staying at my father's house. But he was nice enough to let me live there on a minimal rent. It was just every time I saw him, he was either very very sweet, or very very mean. And I didn't know what he was which days. Sometimes he would come to the house nice, and later turn mean and nasty, for no apparent reason. Well, those days are behind me. He's a very different person now. I honestly think it took us moving out here, almost 100 miles away from him, to tame him down. Now whenever I see him, he's always very thoughtful, kind and polite. Miracles never cease.
Anyway, 1990 was also the year I discovered INXS. It was the summer of 1990. I'd been hearing INXS's music for a couple of years, and it was one of the first bands to capture my attention, and my imagination. When I saw a video of their's for the first time that summer, at first I fell in love with Michael. It was Need U Tonight/Mediate. Michael was so cute I fell in love right away. But it was Tim who caught my attention in Mediate, though he was at the end of the video, he had the best set of buns in the band!! So round, and fully-packed!! Let's face it, I'm a butt-woman!! I love a man with big, round buns like Tim's!!! I never seen one like his on a man! Michael had the face, but Tim had the buns!!! Michael had a cute face, but Tim was nice everywhere else! But like everyone else, I went for the lead singer of the band back then. I wasn't really like I am now. Now, I like to think independently.
Well anyway, I enjoyed the show. Timmy is really a damn good DJ. He should also make a career of this! I heard one song tonight I haven't heard since 1990! I think it's called "Onion Skin" or something like that. I used to hear it all the time on the radio station I was hooked on back then. I used to HATE that song!! I did at first. Then I started listening to it and learned to like it better. When I was ready to record it one day I discovered that they had actually stopped playing the song! I was upset, and I never heard it again. EVER!! Not until tonight anyway. I had even completely forgotten about that song until I heard it tonight!!! Thanks again Timmy!!!! Luv ya, and keep up the good work!
Welcome!
This is my newest blog. As you can see I am just getting started. Actually, I hope to begin this blog in the next week, after I delete my last blog. I'm trying to go for a new start for the new year and I figured this is one way to do it. I'm hoping this blog will be more tame. But anyway, this isn't going to be a blog to bash people with! I'm trying to make a change in my life. I don't want to become known as an internet bully, so I am trying to move foreward. And this new blog will be the way to do it.
Hope you all enjoy this one this time. I will be talking a lot about my own personal experiences, and also about the stories presented on my UMG site. It'll be fun here!! And I promise not to fly off the handle anymore. I will also try to get a much better layout going. I really do not like this one!
Hope you all enjoy this one this time. I will be talking a lot about my own personal experiences, and also about the stories presented on my UMG site. It'll be fun here!! And I promise not to fly off the handle anymore. I will also try to get a much better layout going. I really do not like this one!
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Well, Here it is
Here's to a productive New Year. Hope that I keep up with fixing my attitude problem!! LOL! I heard from the anonymous e-mailer again and he told me that he didn't want to see me turn out like a couple of other scientists he knows who everyone knows is nuts and never listens to them. Well, I told him I like it that I am a little bit crazy, but I don't want to be known for being psychotic. The problem was no one ever told me I am like this. Well!!! No one meaningful!! The only people who have told me I'm psychotic are all DonnaG supporters or the dirty dozen mob, and I wouldn't listen to any of them either way! Why not? First of all, because DonnaG and the dirty dozen mob are all crazier than I will ever be!! So it's like the pot calling the kettle black. This e-mailer, even though I just "met" him, does not act crazy at all, so I would believe him if he said I was acting irrational or freaky. Second of all, this e-mailer does not approach me like the dirty dozen and DonnaG supporters do. When they approach me, they do it in a way like they are poking fun and acting like a bunch of 6th graders, so naturally enough I won't listen to them. But this e-mailer seems to have class and finesse, yet very upfront. And I like that. I don't mind constructive criticism, but how it is delivered is what really counts. That is why, after hearing what he thinks of my attitude, I was able to take a long hard look at my behavior, and I am now ready to go for a change.
I will not promise to change within like the next few weeks, but hopefully by the end of the year, barring BS from the dirty dozen and DonnaG supporters, I can say the change will be noticeable. The only real way to avoid conflicts with them is to stay off the forums. I got one thing going for me, the dirty dozen have stated they don't care to comment on my blogs :) So at least I don't have to look at them if I don't want to. Cool!!! And I never go into the Rockband lounge or the Switchboard so no chance of butting heads with the DonnaG supporters either. Way COOL!!! I'm not even on inxs.com anymore so that too is off. Maybe with this I can put my life on 'Reset'. hehe! I'm just shocked none of my friends, buds or family ever told me any of this! Took a stranger, though a kind stranger, to bring it to my attention!!
So anyway, here's to a change. 
Retiring??
I looked in on a group I am a part of still and someone posted up an interview that Kirk's new fiance did, she mentioned Kirk is a "retired musician". OK, so what is up with that? Not that I care about Kirk really, but it makes me think, is INXS retiring? I only hope that is just a rumor. I hope it's not true. Then someone else mentioned that a couple of the Farriss's got different jobs and I was like "oh no!" INXS cannot retire!!! 30 years in music is not long enough!! Considering the fact the Rolling Stones have been in music for 40+ years, it's by far not long enough. And what about JD Fortune? What about his career? He became their new lead singer. What's going to become of him now if INXS do retire? What is he going to do with all that talent? What about the new CD INXS was supposedly coming out with? What about the 80+ songs that Andrew was supposedly working on while INXS were on their extended break? Aren't they going to go into publication? This brings up so many questions and concerns it's not funny!
On the other hand it sort of makes sense. Maybe INXS touring for 3 years straight was sort of their way of saying goodbye to the World. What a shame! I wanted to see Tim again, I miss him so much! And JD's career was just getting started. That sucks!!! So what is the point of having an INXS fan club now if they are retiring? Geez, I guess now would be the best time to move to Australia. Not that I believe whole-heartedly I would ever get to meet Tim even there, but at least I might have something of a chance of seeing him again. Maybe they will tour only through Australia instead of going around the World, like small pub shows or something of the like. I can go to those easily and still see them.
Tonight I got an e-mail from an anonymous e-mailer who has been exchanging messages with me all week. He (or she) kept on asking me why I hate felines so much. I tried to avoid telling this person, but finally I gave them an explaination. Well, today I got a message from this person telling me how I get irrational and foam at the mouth when I answered. This person said it freaked him (or her) out. I admit I do get quite passionate when I talk about things I don't like, and I tend to fly off the handle. The best explaination I have for that is that it is my handicap. It's something that for some reason, I cannot control. I think the reason for that is because I never acknowledged it. But I thanked this person for bringing that to my attention, because to be honest, I knew that went on but I couldn't figure out if it was me or the other person. No one else ever told me any of this, but it has actually made me open my eyes and look at myself. The only indication I ever had about this, believe it or not, was just my sisters occasionally telling me to "chill out". I've asked this before, am I really a monster? I guess this person answered my question!! And probably the main reason I dislike cat-people is because most of them are hypocrites!! I've met many, especially on the YouTube site, and they are nothing but whiny hypocrites!! They say they hate dogs because dogs kill people. Dogs don't kill people, people kill people!! If a dog kills a person, the one to really blame is the owner because they brought the dog up to be killers by either not socializing it, or just getting a puppy and training it to fight, and keeping it in the back yard, tied to a tree and never showing it any love. That would make anyone develop a lust to kill!! Even a person raised like that would more likely kill others! But then what about all the larger feline species that have killed many people in the past? How do these cat people, who hate dogs so much because they say they kill people, explain when some tiger or lion or cougar kills a person? At least if a dog kills a person, their alibi is they were brought up that way by a person. But felines have no alibi. Nobody brings them up to kill, that is how they are wired. A difference? Not really! Not to those people anyway. I've had cat-people who have threatened me with a gun because I don't like cats, and I tell you, it did NOT make me see cats in any better light after that!! In fact that is what formed the basis I have that cat-people are no damn good!! Both of those incidents did. Those plus the fact the dirty dozen mob are all made up of cat-fanciers and everyone by now knows how I feel about the dirty dozen mob!! I need not mention that anymore. I try not to judge people by what they like, I said I wasn't going to do that anymore after all the stuff I said about the Garry fans and having met the man!! But when I meet cat-people who are all basically nothing but a bunch of bad apples, what am I supposed to think? The only cat-fanciers I've met that I still like is my sis Eva and Cathy, one of my best friends. Both have and adore kitty cats, both prefer cats over dogs. But they both also understand that I am not a cat person, and have never threatened me with shooting or any other form of bodily harm or anything else. I can honestly say I've never harassed anyone because they didn't like dogs. I just puzzle over it because I cannot see what is so special about cats over dogs. I've had both before, and it's dogs I enjoy more. Especially the small breeds.
Well, with this anonymous person bringing this to my attention, and Katrina suggesting I make a New Year's resolution again to take on a more positive attitude, maybe I should try it all again. I made that resolution last year and I did not follow through. Especially after the dirty dozen mob broke into my Hotmail account. I don't give a shit what CrystalK says!! She knows who did it! Maybe this time it will be easier to keep that resolution, as long as I stay out of forums and only talk to people I genuinely like. I have my MySpace, my Facebook, this blog, and my UMG and Metazoic sites. Admittedly there are a few people on MySpace and Facebook that I don't know too well, I never say anything to them, but there are those who I talk to that I do like a lot. There is also my chihuahua site that still gets many views daily and many viewers leave me messages in my guestbook. Some are good, a few have been bad, but only a few. One person told me some time ago that Anika was saying on her website I was a puppymill. I always felt sorry for that woman!! She's too crazy for me, but I feel sorry for her. Apparently she's not breeding anymore, but she was a show breeder. Even had the #3 chihuahua in the country at one point. But she charged exorbitant prices for spayed and neutered dogs. Well, I never got angry at her because I knew she was nuts. Everyone knew!!! I just asked her who gave her permission to use my kennel name on her website. I never got a response from her. I searched her site and found nothing about my kennel though. Either she took it down or it was never really there in the first place. Don't know. But oh well!! It's dead and stinking now.
On the other hand it sort of makes sense. Maybe INXS touring for 3 years straight was sort of their way of saying goodbye to the World. What a shame! I wanted to see Tim again, I miss him so much! And JD's career was just getting started. That sucks!!! So what is the point of having an INXS fan club now if they are retiring? Geez, I guess now would be the best time to move to Australia. Not that I believe whole-heartedly I would ever get to meet Tim even there, but at least I might have something of a chance of seeing him again. Maybe they will tour only through Australia instead of going around the World, like small pub shows or something of the like. I can go to those easily and still see them.
Tonight I got an e-mail from an anonymous e-mailer who has been exchanging messages with me all week. He (or she) kept on asking me why I hate felines so much. I tried to avoid telling this person, but finally I gave them an explaination. Well, today I got a message from this person telling me how I get irrational and foam at the mouth when I answered. This person said it freaked him (or her) out. I admit I do get quite passionate when I talk about things I don't like, and I tend to fly off the handle. The best explaination I have for that is that it is my handicap. It's something that for some reason, I cannot control. I think the reason for that is because I never acknowledged it. But I thanked this person for bringing that to my attention, because to be honest, I knew that went on but I couldn't figure out if it was me or the other person. No one else ever told me any of this, but it has actually made me open my eyes and look at myself. The only indication I ever had about this, believe it or not, was just my sisters occasionally telling me to "chill out". I've asked this before, am I really a monster? I guess this person answered my question!! And probably the main reason I dislike cat-people is because most of them are hypocrites!! I've met many, especially on the YouTube site, and they are nothing but whiny hypocrites!! They say they hate dogs because dogs kill people. Dogs don't kill people, people kill people!! If a dog kills a person, the one to really blame is the owner because they brought the dog up to be killers by either not socializing it, or just getting a puppy and training it to fight, and keeping it in the back yard, tied to a tree and never showing it any love. That would make anyone develop a lust to kill!! Even a person raised like that would more likely kill others! But then what about all the larger feline species that have killed many people in the past? How do these cat people, who hate dogs so much because they say they kill people, explain when some tiger or lion or cougar kills a person? At least if a dog kills a person, their alibi is they were brought up that way by a person. But felines have no alibi. Nobody brings them up to kill, that is how they are wired. A difference? Not really! Not to those people anyway. I've had cat-people who have threatened me with a gun because I don't like cats, and I tell you, it did NOT make me see cats in any better light after that!! In fact that is what formed the basis I have that cat-people are no damn good!! Both of those incidents did. Those plus the fact the dirty dozen mob are all made up of cat-fanciers and everyone by now knows how I feel about the dirty dozen mob!! I need not mention that anymore. I try not to judge people by what they like, I said I wasn't going to do that anymore after all the stuff I said about the Garry fans and having met the man!! But when I meet cat-people who are all basically nothing but a bunch of bad apples, what am I supposed to think? The only cat-fanciers I've met that I still like is my sis Eva and Cathy, one of my best friends. Both have and adore kitty cats, both prefer cats over dogs. But they both also understand that I am not a cat person, and have never threatened me with shooting or any other form of bodily harm or anything else. I can honestly say I've never harassed anyone because they didn't like dogs. I just puzzle over it because I cannot see what is so special about cats over dogs. I've had both before, and it's dogs I enjoy more. Especially the small breeds.
Well, with this anonymous person bringing this to my attention, and Katrina suggesting I make a New Year's resolution again to take on a more positive attitude, maybe I should try it all again. I made that resolution last year and I did not follow through. Especially after the dirty dozen mob broke into my Hotmail account. I don't give a shit what CrystalK says!! She knows who did it! Maybe this time it will be easier to keep that resolution, as long as I stay out of forums and only talk to people I genuinely like. I have my MySpace, my Facebook, this blog, and my UMG and Metazoic sites. Admittedly there are a few people on MySpace and Facebook that I don't know too well, I never say anything to them, but there are those who I talk to that I do like a lot. There is also my chihuahua site that still gets many views daily and many viewers leave me messages in my guestbook. Some are good, a few have been bad, but only a few. One person told me some time ago that Anika was saying on her website I was a puppymill. I always felt sorry for that woman!! She's too crazy for me, but I feel sorry for her. Apparently she's not breeding anymore, but she was a show breeder. Even had the #3 chihuahua in the country at one point. But she charged exorbitant prices for spayed and neutered dogs. Well, I never got angry at her because I knew she was nuts. Everyone knew!!! I just asked her who gave her permission to use my kennel name on her website. I never got a response from her. I searched her site and found nothing about my kennel though. Either she took it down or it was never really there in the first place. Don't know. But oh well!! It's dead and stinking now.
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Honor Roll
My sis Anna got a letter from her school today, and because she did so well last quarter, she is now on the honor roll! My sis is an honor roll student!!! I can hardly believe it myself, no one I've ever known has made the school's honor roll!! I almost feel like Anna is a celebrity! She's going to get her picture in the newspaper. I cannot tell you all how high I am walking on air now, I am so proud of her!!! I just had to shout it out. Geez!! This sure does shoot to death the theory Mcgillicutty came up with that my sis is a "stupid sis". LOL!!! I guarantee you all, mcgillicutty would not know anyone who has ever even come close to being on the honor roll. Oh yea, I'm going to gloat a little!! hehe! When the newspaper comes out with her story and her picture, I'm going to buy lots of copies and pass them out to all our family and friends.
I just had to spread the word!!
I just had to spread the word!!
Friday, January 2, 2009
John Travolta's Son Jett Dies
And at only 16 years old. What a shame!! So young, it's always sad when people (or animals) die so young when they have so many good years ahead of them. My heart really goes out to John Travolta and his wife tonight.
You know, this is weird! It was only a few short nights ago I was thinking heavily about John Travolta!! I even wrote about him on this blog!! I kinda wonder if that was a signal of some kind. This same thing happened about a week before Michael Hutchence died. I had a picture of INXS over my sofa and I started to look at Michael for several minutes at a time for the first time in something like 3 years. For some reason back then, even though I was in a neutral period with INXS, I just started thinking a lot about Michael. And it just came on all of a sudden! One minute, I was basically indifferent to Michael, the next minute, I couldn't get my eyes off him. Then, it just progressed, my interest in him just grew and grew. I couldn't explain it! It wasn't a "love" per se, it was just a growing interest. Something somewhere was trying to tell me something. Then 9 days later I heard Michael had been found dead in a hotel room in Sydney. It isn't often I think about John Travolta. Not often at all!! Well, not since I was a little kid and had a minor crush on him. But that night I wrote about him on this blog, I was thinking of him quite a bit! Is it irony or coincidence? Or did I get some kind of early signal of an impending tragedy?
I don't know why when I got back into INXS again in 2005, I was more sweet on Tim than on Michael this time around. I hope that does not mean he'll be next to go!!! I don't think so though. That's really laughable!! I think I just like Tim a lot! I more believe at that time I sensed INXS was going to make a big comeback. And they did!! That was before I heard about Rockstar: INXS coming out. It wasn't until after I already made up my mind that I love Tim so much that I found out about Rockstar: INXS. It was my "re-discovery" of INXS that made me interested in INXS news in the first place. So I couldn't have known about Rockstar before. Either way, it's eerie!! I knew my senses were good, but I never imagined they were that good!!!
You know, this is weird! It was only a few short nights ago I was thinking heavily about John Travolta!! I even wrote about him on this blog!! I kinda wonder if that was a signal of some kind. This same thing happened about a week before Michael Hutchence died. I had a picture of INXS over my sofa and I started to look at Michael for several minutes at a time for the first time in something like 3 years. For some reason back then, even though I was in a neutral period with INXS, I just started thinking a lot about Michael. And it just came on all of a sudden! One minute, I was basically indifferent to Michael, the next minute, I couldn't get my eyes off him. Then, it just progressed, my interest in him just grew and grew. I couldn't explain it! It wasn't a "love" per se, it was just a growing interest. Something somewhere was trying to tell me something. Then 9 days later I heard Michael had been found dead in a hotel room in Sydney. It isn't often I think about John Travolta. Not often at all!! Well, not since I was a little kid and had a minor crush on him. But that night I wrote about him on this blog, I was thinking of him quite a bit! Is it irony or coincidence? Or did I get some kind of early signal of an impending tragedy?
I don't know why when I got back into INXS again in 2005, I was more sweet on Tim than on Michael this time around. I hope that does not mean he'll be next to go!!! I don't think so though. That's really laughable!! I think I just like Tim a lot! I more believe at that time I sensed INXS was going to make a big comeback. And they did!! That was before I heard about Rockstar: INXS coming out. It wasn't until after I already made up my mind that I love Tim so much that I found out about Rockstar: INXS. It was my "re-discovery" of INXS that made me interested in INXS news in the first place. So I couldn't have known about Rockstar before. Either way, it's eerie!! I knew my senses were good, but I never imagined they were that good!!!
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Happy New Year!
Well it is 2009. Another ending decade. Isn't it funny? I still feel like it was only yesterday that it was 1999. The years seem to be going by faster and faster every decade. I'm not going to get into "is this a sign" kind of discussion. I just want to say Happy New Year. Yesterday was a long, tough day, Anna and I went to Olympia to do a little after-Christmas shopping. Today, nothing is open, except maybe the 24-hour shops (even those I'm not sure). I'll never find out here because we don't have any 24-hour shops in this town. We drove past a store and someone was selling puppies last night! They were too CUTE!!!! Do you know how long it's been since I touched a puppy? It's been 2 whole years!! Since Vegas was a puppy. I never realized how much I miss having a puppy until I got to hold those little babies last night!! I never even realized how long it's been since I've held a puppy until last night!!! It felt so GOOOOOOOOOD!!!! Those things were so sweet!!! They were so soft and cute, and had such floppy ears and beady eyes and waggly tails!! And so light!! Uhh! They were as light as thistle down! I could hardly feel one in my arms as I held it. And the puppy breath! That's something I miss more than anything! Nothing smells sweeter than puppy breath and I got befuddled on that last night!! I tell you, if I had my way, I'd have brought one of those flocculent babies home and that puppy by now would be singing my praises as a mommy! LOL! I'd have cuddled with it all night long. But I couldn't. We went to Olympia for the same reason we always do, to shop for groceries. And they are more important than a puppy right now. Besides, I really do not like the idea of getting a puppy from someone who is standing in front of a store trying to unload them. I'd have preferred to see the parents. It gives me a good idea how the puppy is going to look when it gets older. But anyway, it was a definite high! Anyway, it was the light of my day yesterday!
When we got home last night, it was dark, windy and rainy. But we had a lot to unload. One of the first things I always grab is my little MP3 player (my old one). I thought I grabbed it last night and brought it into the house, but I looked for it last night and realized it wasn't here. But I was so exhausted I didn't really want to bother with it. I just figured it was still inside the car. So I said I'd get it the next morning. Well, this morning I got up about 7 AM (unusual for me), and I looked out the window and I saw a small, pink object lying right next to the car. I was like "oh no!" I knew instantly what it was. I rushed out there and sure enough, it was my little MP3 player. I thought for sure it was doomed! I brought it back into the house and pushed the play button and it actually played!!! I thought "What a tough little device!" I could not believe it was still playing! Now, hooking it up to the stereo might be a different matter. I haven't tried that yet. I just could not believe that little device survived a whole night of cold wind and punishing rain!! It was raining hard last night!! I could hear it pounding on my window. The funny twist in this is that I was laying in bed last night thinking I was so glad that my MP3 player was in the car and not out in that rain, because I have actually dropped it before, but I never just left it to lay on the ground!! I would have almost sworn I brought it back into the house though! I'd have bet my life on it!! LOL!
Well, I was tired last night, but I wanted to stay awake to make my New Year's wish. Every year, I make my New Year's wish and every year it comes true. One way or another. In 2006 and 2007 I wished for INXS and to go to more concerts. In 2007 I only had time to go to one concert though, and it was all the way in Michigan. But still, it was a good show, even though I thought the opening band SUCKED!!!! Their music wasn't so bad, but the killer for their songs were the long, instrumental bridges!!! They went on too long!! 20 or so minutes on average!! Too long, when I go to a concert I want to hear some singing dammit!! That's one of the things I love about INXS. But even if they didn't sing, just seeing my Timmy is a great enough reward! I tended to keep my eyes on him a lot. Not to say I didn't enjoy seeing JD, Andrew, Jon and Garry as well. But the real reward was seeing the very handsome and beautiful Tim Farriss!!! I hated that trip!! The area was so dry! And getting there was no picnic either! My feet kept swelling up like balloons!! It was the first and only time in my life I felt like a freak!!! Like I was deformed or something. And it just struck all of a sudden! I never had my feet swell up like that before. But seeing Tim at the end of the line made it all worthwhile!! Anyway my feet got back to normal when I got home, but honestly, I thought for a moment they were going to be that way forever! LOL!!!
When I got home last night I got an anonymous e-mail about my Metazoic site. I always get people who have some kind of problems with the site. But this was about my little spat with the owner of the SE forum. Everyone thinks I don't like the owner!! He calls himself Proletarian. I never said I don't like him!! I said he needs to grow up, and he does. Especially if he's going to be the administrator of a forum. He was starting to act like Adolph Hitler! Kinda like the personality Vicki took on in the Switchboard. Only I like Proletarian a lot better than I ever did Vicki. In fact, I never liked Vicki at all. Something about her from day 1 was very disturbing. Not so with Proletarian. I think, for such a young man, he's just drunk with the powers of administration. He was never like this on my forum (now torn down). But on my forum, I always treated him like an equal. I never cussed him out because I didn't like the fact he believed in The Future is Wild's terrestrial squids. But he was cussing me out because I believe mammals can evolve to walk like ostriches, which I’ve gotta say is a lot more conceivable than giant, walking squids, or squids that swing through the trees like gibbons. He doesn’t believe it. I always say they have their opinions and I have mine. I think like I do for a reason and I stand by it. Admittedly there are those who are a lot less stubborn than I am in their points of view, but at least I can say I have my reasons for thinking like I do and not be so easily yielded. I said Proletarian is being a typical cat-person, and everyone by now should know what I think of cat people. I’ve met so many.
That was another thing brought up by this e-mailer. He asked me why I hate cats so much. I don’t hate house cats, as long as they belong to other people and stay in their homes and not come to mine. I do hate panthers of any kind—lions, tigers, leopards, cheetahs, cougars—I hate them all!! Well, the only exception is snow leopards. I have a thing though, the more popular something is, the less I like it. Since panthers seem to be the most popular animals of all, I don’t like them. I used to like them, but that was ages ago!! Since I’ve seen them in so many movies, tv shows, documentaries, etc, I got sick of looking at them. Especially when everyone told me that I cannot hate panthers because everyone else likes them. I especially said I didn’t like them then. Now, don’t think that just because I think this way about felines that it means I feel the same way about people. LOL! I know some idiots will think that. But being popular does not make a person to me. Look at me. I’m probably one of the most unpopular people, especially on the internet. But my friends, who know me in person, say I’m one of the most lovable, unobjectionable people they’ve ever known. Contrariwise, I’ve met some people that everyone on the internet likes who are the most insufferable and hateful people I’ve ever met anywhere!! I can tell. And my instincts are almost impeccable! For example, for the past couple of weeks, I’ve been getting some bad vibes from someone I thought I would like. This person has always been nice in the past, and I really don’t want to say anything until I am 100% positive. Unfortunately, most people don’t say anything until it’s too late, and in the meantime they fool you into thinking nothing is wrong by just not saying anything. But I have a natural knack for picking up on these little things, that later turn out to become bigger things than I first thought.
Yeah, I admit it, I may be a little paranoid, but I have good reason for that. I’ve been “played on” before. The worst recollection I can think of was a young woman I knew in vocational school. We became fast friends, maybe too fast? We called each other almost daily, we went on long rides together; we even went so far as exchanging Christmas and birthday gifts, and that lasted for 3 years. I thought we’d be friends forever. It sure seemed that way! Then one day I called her and for the first time since I knew her, she didn’t call back. I called her again, and no response. Both times I left a message on her answering machine so she knew it was me. I puzzled over that for quite a while. But I thought nothing of it because at that time she had just recently moved into a new apartment and I figured she was just getting settled in. That is until I went back to the voc school and noticed she was acting strangely when I said hello to her. Usually, she and I were always happy to see each other, followed by hugs, smiles and laughter. Well, this time there was none of that at all, and she acted more like “Oh no! Not you again!” I sensed that in her voice and facial expressions almost immediately. But still thought nothing of it. I went home and continued my day. That evening I called her again, got her answering machine and left another message. Waited 3 days and she still never responded. Then we had an adventure Christmas shopping, and I met a nice young man. I wanted to tell this friend about him, since she’d tried to get me back together with a man since my first boyfriend moved away. So I left a message on her answering machine again, waited and still got no answer from her. I figured the friendship must be over for sure now. Such a shame too! I really did like her.
I cannot say for sure why she chose to end it so abruptly, as usual I can only speculate based on events and little signals that began just shortly before they began showing up. One of the biggest things that comes to mind was she had a guy friend who was looking for a roommate. I was still quite young and looking to get a place out of my father’s house. This friend introduced me to him saying he has a room for rent. So I said I would move into this guy’s empty room. Well, he set a time and date to meet, and I was going to go. But I never showed up. But this friend of mine I guess got angry at that, and honestly I could not blame her. But if she had bothered to ask me, she would have found out the reason why I didn’t show up at that appointment. Somehow my father caught wind of the news that I would be rooming with a guy, and said he would completely disown me if I moved in with him. Well, I didn’t want my father to disown me, as I would have wanted to see him again! So, I just didn’t go. I had no way of letting this guy know this either. Back then, cell phones were not as popular and widespread as they are today. And I didn’t have his home number. The only one I could call was the woman friend of mine. And if I recall correctly, I did try to call her to tell her I wasn’t going to be able to make it there, that was the first time I called and left a message on her machine and she never answered back. I still, to this day, remember the corny message on her machine: “Hello. I’m cooking dinner. Leave me a message…..BEEP!” And I said “Jennifer, it’s DeeDee, call me back, it’s important.” And no response from her in days. Of all the friendships I’ve had and lost over the years, I think that was the one that hurt me the most, simply because I put so much of an emotional investment in that woman. I trusted her like no one else. I was always there for her and she was always there for me. I won’t say we were without an occasional spat, but it seemed like we were going to be friends forever.
I have a thing, I never explain why I do anything unless someone asks me. Most people I’ve noticed don’t ask. Those that don’t ask, I always just assume they don’t give a shit so I just drop the subject altogether. But then, it always seems that it meant more to them than they let on from the beginning. Especially when they just choose to drop the loving friendship I gave them. I’m not like that. Someone does me wrong, I always have to know why! I want to give the person a fair chance at explaining themselves. I don’t want to condemn someone I like over a misunderstanding. I’ve been wrong before, and I want to hear from the other person proving that I am wrong, and how so. I know there are some people, like Passion Wolf, who think they don't have to explain themselves even to their friends. People like that you know don't care about others in general. But what my [real] friends and family thinks means everything to me, but I always go on their lead. I don't want to talk out of turn. Maybe that's my handicap. And this other person I've been getting bad vibes from, well, I just don't want to say anything yet. But it may be better if I just let go.
OK, this has turned into a novel for the first day of the year! LOL!
When we got home last night, it was dark, windy and rainy. But we had a lot to unload. One of the first things I always grab is my little MP3 player (my old one). I thought I grabbed it last night and brought it into the house, but I looked for it last night and realized it wasn't here. But I was so exhausted I didn't really want to bother with it. I just figured it was still inside the car. So I said I'd get it the next morning. Well, this morning I got up about 7 AM (unusual for me), and I looked out the window and I saw a small, pink object lying right next to the car. I was like "oh no!" I knew instantly what it was. I rushed out there and sure enough, it was my little MP3 player. I thought for sure it was doomed! I brought it back into the house and pushed the play button and it actually played!!! I thought "What a tough little device!" I could not believe it was still playing! Now, hooking it up to the stereo might be a different matter. I haven't tried that yet. I just could not believe that little device survived a whole night of cold wind and punishing rain!! It was raining hard last night!! I could hear it pounding on my window. The funny twist in this is that I was laying in bed last night thinking I was so glad that my MP3 player was in the car and not out in that rain, because I have actually dropped it before, but I never just left it to lay on the ground!! I would have almost sworn I brought it back into the house though! I'd have bet my life on it!! LOL!
Well, I was tired last night, but I wanted to stay awake to make my New Year's wish. Every year, I make my New Year's wish and every year it comes true. One way or another. In 2006 and 2007 I wished for INXS and to go to more concerts. In 2007 I only had time to go to one concert though, and it was all the way in Michigan. But still, it was a good show, even though I thought the opening band SUCKED!!!! Their music wasn't so bad, but the killer for their songs were the long, instrumental bridges!!! They went on too long!! 20 or so minutes on average!! Too long, when I go to a concert I want to hear some singing dammit!! That's one of the things I love about INXS. But even if they didn't sing, just seeing my Timmy is a great enough reward! I tended to keep my eyes on him a lot. Not to say I didn't enjoy seeing JD, Andrew, Jon and Garry as well. But the real reward was seeing the very handsome and beautiful Tim Farriss!!! I hated that trip!! The area was so dry! And getting there was no picnic either! My feet kept swelling up like balloons!! It was the first and only time in my life I felt like a freak!!! Like I was deformed or something. And it just struck all of a sudden! I never had my feet swell up like that before. But seeing Tim at the end of the line made it all worthwhile!! Anyway my feet got back to normal when I got home, but honestly, I thought for a moment they were going to be that way forever! LOL!!!
When I got home last night I got an anonymous e-mail about my Metazoic site. I always get people who have some kind of problems with the site. But this was about my little spat with the owner of the SE forum. Everyone thinks I don't like the owner!! He calls himself Proletarian. I never said I don't like him!! I said he needs to grow up, and he does. Especially if he's going to be the administrator of a forum. He was starting to act like Adolph Hitler! Kinda like the personality Vicki took on in the Switchboard. Only I like Proletarian a lot better than I ever did Vicki. In fact, I never liked Vicki at all. Something about her from day 1 was very disturbing. Not so with Proletarian. I think, for such a young man, he's just drunk with the powers of administration. He was never like this on my forum (now torn down). But on my forum, I always treated him like an equal. I never cussed him out because I didn't like the fact he believed in The Future is Wild's terrestrial squids. But he was cussing me out because I believe mammals can evolve to walk like ostriches, which I’ve gotta say is a lot more conceivable than giant, walking squids, or squids that swing through the trees like gibbons. He doesn’t believe it. I always say they have their opinions and I have mine. I think like I do for a reason and I stand by it. Admittedly there are those who are a lot less stubborn than I am in their points of view, but at least I can say I have my reasons for thinking like I do and not be so easily yielded. I said Proletarian is being a typical cat-person, and everyone by now should know what I think of cat people. I’ve met so many.
That was another thing brought up by this e-mailer. He asked me why I hate cats so much. I don’t hate house cats, as long as they belong to other people and stay in their homes and not come to mine. I do hate panthers of any kind—lions, tigers, leopards, cheetahs, cougars—I hate them all!! Well, the only exception is snow leopards. I have a thing though, the more popular something is, the less I like it. Since panthers seem to be the most popular animals of all, I don’t like them. I used to like them, but that was ages ago!! Since I’ve seen them in so many movies, tv shows, documentaries, etc, I got sick of looking at them. Especially when everyone told me that I cannot hate panthers because everyone else likes them. I especially said I didn’t like them then. Now, don’t think that just because I think this way about felines that it means I feel the same way about people. LOL! I know some idiots will think that. But being popular does not make a person to me. Look at me. I’m probably one of the most unpopular people, especially on the internet. But my friends, who know me in person, say I’m one of the most lovable, unobjectionable people they’ve ever known. Contrariwise, I’ve met some people that everyone on the internet likes who are the most insufferable and hateful people I’ve ever met anywhere!! I can tell. And my instincts are almost impeccable! For example, for the past couple of weeks, I’ve been getting some bad vibes from someone I thought I would like. This person has always been nice in the past, and I really don’t want to say anything until I am 100% positive. Unfortunately, most people don’t say anything until it’s too late, and in the meantime they fool you into thinking nothing is wrong by just not saying anything. But I have a natural knack for picking up on these little things, that later turn out to become bigger things than I first thought.
Yeah, I admit it, I may be a little paranoid, but I have good reason for that. I’ve been “played on” before. The worst recollection I can think of was a young woman I knew in vocational school. We became fast friends, maybe too fast? We called each other almost daily, we went on long rides together; we even went so far as exchanging Christmas and birthday gifts, and that lasted for 3 years. I thought we’d be friends forever. It sure seemed that way! Then one day I called her and for the first time since I knew her, she didn’t call back. I called her again, and no response. Both times I left a message on her answering machine so she knew it was me. I puzzled over that for quite a while. But I thought nothing of it because at that time she had just recently moved into a new apartment and I figured she was just getting settled in. That is until I went back to the voc school and noticed she was acting strangely when I said hello to her. Usually, she and I were always happy to see each other, followed by hugs, smiles and laughter. Well, this time there was none of that at all, and she acted more like “Oh no! Not you again!” I sensed that in her voice and facial expressions almost immediately. But still thought nothing of it. I went home and continued my day. That evening I called her again, got her answering machine and left another message. Waited 3 days and she still never responded. Then we had an adventure Christmas shopping, and I met a nice young man. I wanted to tell this friend about him, since she’d tried to get me back together with a man since my first boyfriend moved away. So I left a message on her answering machine again, waited and still got no answer from her. I figured the friendship must be over for sure now. Such a shame too! I really did like her.
I cannot say for sure why she chose to end it so abruptly, as usual I can only speculate based on events and little signals that began just shortly before they began showing up. One of the biggest things that comes to mind was she had a guy friend who was looking for a roommate. I was still quite young and looking to get a place out of my father’s house. This friend introduced me to him saying he has a room for rent. So I said I would move into this guy’s empty room. Well, he set a time and date to meet, and I was going to go. But I never showed up. But this friend of mine I guess got angry at that, and honestly I could not blame her. But if she had bothered to ask me, she would have found out the reason why I didn’t show up at that appointment. Somehow my father caught wind of the news that I would be rooming with a guy, and said he would completely disown me if I moved in with him. Well, I didn’t want my father to disown me, as I would have wanted to see him again! So, I just didn’t go. I had no way of letting this guy know this either. Back then, cell phones were not as popular and widespread as they are today. And I didn’t have his home number. The only one I could call was the woman friend of mine. And if I recall correctly, I did try to call her to tell her I wasn’t going to be able to make it there, that was the first time I called and left a message on her machine and she never answered back. I still, to this day, remember the corny message on her machine: “Hello. I’m cooking dinner. Leave me a message…..BEEP!” And I said “Jennifer, it’s DeeDee, call me back, it’s important.” And no response from her in days. Of all the friendships I’ve had and lost over the years, I think that was the one that hurt me the most, simply because I put so much of an emotional investment in that woman. I trusted her like no one else. I was always there for her and she was always there for me. I won’t say we were without an occasional spat, but it seemed like we were going to be friends forever.
I have a thing, I never explain why I do anything unless someone asks me. Most people I’ve noticed don’t ask. Those that don’t ask, I always just assume they don’t give a shit so I just drop the subject altogether. But then, it always seems that it meant more to them than they let on from the beginning. Especially when they just choose to drop the loving friendship I gave them. I’m not like that. Someone does me wrong, I always have to know why! I want to give the person a fair chance at explaining themselves. I don’t want to condemn someone I like over a misunderstanding. I’ve been wrong before, and I want to hear from the other person proving that I am wrong, and how so. I know there are some people, like Passion Wolf, who think they don't have to explain themselves even to their friends. People like that you know don't care about others in general. But what my [real] friends and family thinks means everything to me, but I always go on their lead. I don't want to talk out of turn. Maybe that's my handicap. And this other person I've been getting bad vibes from, well, I just don't want to say anything yet. But it may be better if I just let go.
OK, this has turned into a novel for the first day of the year! LOL!
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Something I Forgot....
I was supposed to put this up on my last blog post and I forgot. I mentioned the story Gracie's Odyssey, but I never really showed anything from it. This is a little advertisement I made. It's just some pics from the story (in color) put to some narrative words and music. I like to use classical music in my movies because it's the kind of music that reaches the soul. Like it or not, you've got to agree the way I put the music in these movies really captures your spirit. You can listen with the sound off, but I don't really recommend it. IMO, the music tells the story.
I made quite a few of these little advertisements. Here's one I am really proud of, for a story by Cathy. It was the first story she ever did for our group, in 1987. I had just met her, we went to school together and I showed her some of the stories I did. She liked them and she showed me one that she did earlier. Well, in June of 1987 we both pooled our talents together and came up with this story about a bushbaby and an otter shrew. At first she wanted to make the story about a bushbaby and a cheetah, but I said I ain't a-drawing no cheetah!! By that time, my interest in panthers of any kind had completely diminished. I liked otters though, but that would have been too big an animal to make friends with a tiny bushbaby, so we took the next best thing, an otter lookalike, the otter shrew. And it is indeed small enough to fit in the story. This one is also already available on our site, it's called Growing Up is Hard to Do. And sure enough, the little otter shrew faces the hardships of growing up alone. It's a hilarious look at how sometimes some things don't always go the way we want them to. But the shrew is made a stronger individual because of these things. He just picks up the broken pieces and says 'life goes on.' Again, you can listen with the sound off, but I don't recommend it.
I made quite a few of these little advertisements. Here's one I am really proud of, for a story by Cathy. It was the first story she ever did for our group, in 1987. I had just met her, we went to school together and I showed her some of the stories I did. She liked them and she showed me one that she did earlier. Well, in June of 1987 we both pooled our talents together and came up with this story about a bushbaby and an otter shrew. At first she wanted to make the story about a bushbaby and a cheetah, but I said I ain't a-drawing no cheetah!! By that time, my interest in panthers of any kind had completely diminished. I liked otters though, but that would have been too big an animal to make friends with a tiny bushbaby, so we took the next best thing, an otter lookalike, the otter shrew. And it is indeed small enough to fit in the story. This one is also already available on our site, it's called Growing Up is Hard to Do. And sure enough, the little otter shrew faces the hardships of growing up alone. It's a hilarious look at how sometimes some things don't always go the way we want them to. But the shrew is made a stronger individual because of these things. He just picks up the broken pieces and says 'life goes on.' Again, you can listen with the sound off, but I don't recommend it.
John Travolta Double Feature
LOL! He's a cool old guy, I like him. I loved him in Grease. Unfortunately Saturday Night Fever was not as good or as funny as Grease. I think they used the same characters. Not sure though. I remember I saw SNF once and I never wanted to see it again. In one scene in the movie, one of the guys killed himself and I remember it literally made my belly churn. It really made me physically ill!! I was just a kid back then, but it really did make me physically ill, just the thought I guess of this one guy killing himself. I guess that is why I never had the desire to really kill myself, even though I've been through some pretty far down moments. The only time I seriously contemplated doing anything harmful was when my Groucho died. But Grease is funny. In all fairness though, Saturday Night Fever does have the better soundtrack. I've been listening to it for many years. I even remember having the album as a child, and having the maddest crush on the Bee Gees. Especially Barry Gibb. Of the three of them, he was the one that looked more like a man. LOL! Kinda hard to explain there, but it is true. I've seen a recent picture of him, this is what he looks like today:
Still not bad!! I love a man holding a guitar!!!! (nothing like someone who is loyal to her childhood fantasies, eh?) Even though this was the guy who used to trip my fancy:
Now, his brother Robin was not too bad looking either. But he was too skinny.
More than anything when I was a kid, I think it was his hair I was more attracted to. LOL! Not really his face, lips or anything. I like guys with a bit of meat on their bones. But you know Robin is still that skinny? Believe me. I used to pretend like me and my sis were at a concert of their's and they were playing on the stage in front of us. Then Anna had the good destiny to actually attend one of their concerts. I was too young to go so I didn't get a chance to. I stayed home with my pa, and my kitty cat that I had at that time. There was one song the BeeGees did, called Tragedy, that is a good song. That is until they come toward the end when you hear what sounds like cannon guns firing off. Anna told me that when she was at the concert, those things that sounded like cannon guns are actually pyrotechnics. Now, I can believe it. But when I was a kid, I'd never even heard of pyrotechnics. Imagine the BeeGees going for those, like some major heavy-metal rockers. INXS never has used pyrotechnics. Not that I've seen, anyway. IMO, the BeeGees should not have used them in that song, it was a bad idea. It kinda ruins the ending for me.
Actually, Travolta himself used to be kinda good-looking too. He's not a bad singer either. I never had a crush on him, per se. I just liked his appearance on Grease and a few other movies. Grease was the funnier of his movies back then, and Saturday Night Fever was more on the dramatic side. That's how I saw it. I haven't seen SNF since I was about 7 years old. It was enough.
Well, on to a subject I know I'll love, Timmy again. The DJ. Unfortunately, I was right all along, the shows are only going to be broadcast in Australia. I thought the show was going to cost $175!! Apparently that was to subscribe to some other radio station for the news about the stations that will be broadcasting this series. But still!!! I won't get to hear it. According to this one person who told me about all this, there will be livestreaming, but no podcasting. And the livestreams are only for Aus. It still SUCKS!!! I was confused for a slight second. I probably would have understood more if I was still on inxs.com and able to read everyone's responses to that. But I am not, and I am not ready to return yet. I still love Tim, but still taking a "break" from INXS. Now, I am still new to computers and gadgets and how stuff works, but I still don't see why someone in Aus cannot record the programs as they come on the radio there and make podcasts of them and post them up on like inxs.com or somewhere. Well Tim, I still love you man. I hope someone can think of some way the rest of the World can hear this! I'd sure love to! I can bet it would be priceless!!!
Well, I'm also taking a break from working on my Metazoic website. I'm back to working on my UMG website. I've been hard at work on a story called Gracie's Odyssey. It is a UMG masterpiece!!! It's kindof a combination of Finding Nemo and Brother Bear, but this story is twice as old as those movies. It was first completed in January of 1998 by one of my best friends, Cairo. In fact, he based the story on my life at that time. hehe! Cairo has retired from our little group, and is now writing poetry and hang-gliding. HA!! He likes that stuff. Now, our group is down to about 3 individuals, not counting my sis Anna, who has also written for us. But Anna doesn't seem to want to make a career of writing. The story is about a fawn, named Davy, born in a zoo, and he is undersized compared to his brother and sister. Gracie is the mother. When Davy's brother and sister are sold, he is left behind with his mom. Gracie develops a special kinship with Dave and does not want to part with him, and he doesn't want to part from her. But one day the zoo keeper slips into their pen in the middle of the night and takes Dave away from his mom and sells him to another zoo far away. Gracie is pissed! And Dave is upset his mom isn't with him anymore and he feels he will never see her again. Well, I cannot give too much of the story away, but that is the jist of how it begins a long conquest for Gracie to try and get her fawn back. The story is based on me. That was a bad time for me, for several obvious reasons. So the story represents me, and Davy represents a small, but important, part of my soul that was lost at that time. It's a long explaination. But it did turn out to be a very good story!!! It will be up on our UMG site very soon.
Still not bad!! I love a man holding a guitar!!!! (nothing like someone who is loyal to her childhood fantasies, eh?) Even though this was the guy who used to trip my fancy:
Now, his brother Robin was not too bad looking either. But he was too skinny.
More than anything when I was a kid, I think it was his hair I was more attracted to. LOL! Not really his face, lips or anything. I like guys with a bit of meat on their bones. But you know Robin is still that skinny? Believe me. I used to pretend like me and my sis were at a concert of their's and they were playing on the stage in front of us. Then Anna had the good destiny to actually attend one of their concerts. I was too young to go so I didn't get a chance to. I stayed home with my pa, and my kitty cat that I had at that time. There was one song the BeeGees did, called Tragedy, that is a good song. That is until they come toward the end when you hear what sounds like cannon guns firing off. Anna told me that when she was at the concert, those things that sounded like cannon guns are actually pyrotechnics. Now, I can believe it. But when I was a kid, I'd never even heard of pyrotechnics. Imagine the BeeGees going for those, like some major heavy-metal rockers. INXS never has used pyrotechnics. Not that I've seen, anyway. IMO, the BeeGees should not have used them in that song, it was a bad idea. It kinda ruins the ending for me.
Actually, Travolta himself used to be kinda good-looking too. He's not a bad singer either. I never had a crush on him, per se. I just liked his appearance on Grease and a few other movies. Grease was the funnier of his movies back then, and Saturday Night Fever was more on the dramatic side. That's how I saw it. I haven't seen SNF since I was about 7 years old. It was enough.
Well, on to a subject I know I'll love, Timmy again. The DJ. Unfortunately, I was right all along, the shows are only going to be broadcast in Australia. I thought the show was going to cost $175!! Apparently that was to subscribe to some other radio station for the news about the stations that will be broadcasting this series. But still!!! I won't get to hear it. According to this one person who told me about all this, there will be livestreaming, but no podcasting. And the livestreams are only for Aus. It still SUCKS!!! I was confused for a slight second. I probably would have understood more if I was still on inxs.com and able to read everyone's responses to that. But I am not, and I am not ready to return yet. I still love Tim, but still taking a "break" from INXS. Now, I am still new to computers and gadgets and how stuff works, but I still don't see why someone in Aus cannot record the programs as they come on the radio there and make podcasts of them and post them up on like inxs.com or somewhere. Well Tim, I still love you man. I hope someone can think of some way the rest of the World can hear this! I'd sure love to! I can bet it would be priceless!!!
Well, I'm also taking a break from working on my Metazoic website. I'm back to working on my UMG website. I've been hard at work on a story called Gracie's Odyssey. It is a UMG masterpiece!!! It's kindof a combination of Finding Nemo and Brother Bear, but this story is twice as old as those movies. It was first completed in January of 1998 by one of my best friends, Cairo. In fact, he based the story on my life at that time. hehe! Cairo has retired from our little group, and is now writing poetry and hang-gliding. HA!! He likes that stuff. Now, our group is down to about 3 individuals, not counting my sis Anna, who has also written for us. But Anna doesn't seem to want to make a career of writing. The story is about a fawn, named Davy, born in a zoo, and he is undersized compared to his brother and sister. Gracie is the mother. When Davy's brother and sister are sold, he is left behind with his mom. Gracie develops a special kinship with Dave and does not want to part with him, and he doesn't want to part from her. But one day the zoo keeper slips into their pen in the middle of the night and takes Dave away from his mom and sells him to another zoo far away. Gracie is pissed! And Dave is upset his mom isn't with him anymore and he feels he will never see her again. Well, I cannot give too much of the story away, but that is the jist of how it begins a long conquest for Gracie to try and get her fawn back. The story is based on me. That was a bad time for me, for several obvious reasons. So the story represents me, and Davy represents a small, but important, part of my soul that was lost at that time. It's a long explaination. But it did turn out to be a very good story!!! It will be up on our UMG site very soon.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Operacion Repo
I was watching a marathon of this last night. Man!! I never seen a bigger bunch of roughnecks in my life!! But I guess you've gotta be a roughneck to do the kind of job they do. But this one guy named Matt, oh man!! He's the roughest roughneck of all of them. He manhandles everyone, man, woman, short, tall, fat, skinny, he doesn't care, he roughs them all up!! Man! I've seen gangsters who were not as quick-tempered as this guy! He is built like a bear with the temper of one of those honey badgers.
These people repossess cars and other vehicles from those who do not keep up the payments. They do come up against some pretty rough characters themselves. I'll never forget that woman in a pizza parlor who threw her whole pizza on this one woman Sonya's head. Sonya always seems to go to these repossessions like she's going to a ball. She always wears this big, huge, lacy dress, but she's got an attitude like I've never seen before. She kinda reminds me of a woman I lived with for 2 weeks once. That's a different story though but it was a live-in babysitter position and the mom was a roughneck too. And a hard-rocker. I had to quit that job when my pa was pestering me because she was paying me little more than room and board. At least I got a new sofa out of the deal! But anyway, she is who Sonya reminds me of.
Anyway, I've been rather lucky I've never had to have my car repossessed, I always pay for them in full. That way I know there will never be any threat of repossessions. I may not have the prettiest and flashiest cars on the road, but at least they are all mine from the get-go. I've never had a car repossessed and I never will. :) Well, I'm not like most of these other people who were trying to stop these people, hitting them over the head with pizzas and stuff. LOL! I'm more the type that would say "Go ahead and take the car! It's more trouble than it's worth!" Out here, I can always catch the bus. Not a big problem. But anyway, if you like watching roughnecks repossessing the cars of idiots, I recommend this show. It's funny as heck!! Don't get Matt angry though!
These people repossess cars and other vehicles from those who do not keep up the payments. They do come up against some pretty rough characters themselves. I'll never forget that woman in a pizza parlor who threw her whole pizza on this one woman Sonya's head. Sonya always seems to go to these repossessions like she's going to a ball. She always wears this big, huge, lacy dress, but she's got an attitude like I've never seen before. She kinda reminds me of a woman I lived with for 2 weeks once. That's a different story though but it was a live-in babysitter position and the mom was a roughneck too. And a hard-rocker. I had to quit that job when my pa was pestering me because she was paying me little more than room and board. At least I got a new sofa out of the deal! But anyway, she is who Sonya reminds me of.
Anyway, I've been rather lucky I've never had to have my car repossessed, I always pay for them in full. That way I know there will never be any threat of repossessions. I may not have the prettiest and flashiest cars on the road, but at least they are all mine from the get-go. I've never had a car repossessed and I never will. :) Well, I'm not like most of these other people who were trying to stop these people, hitting them over the head with pizzas and stuff. LOL! I'm more the type that would say "Go ahead and take the car! It's more trouble than it's worth!" Out here, I can always catch the bus. Not a big problem. But anyway, if you like watching roughnecks repossessing the cars of idiots, I recommend this show. It's funny as heck!! Don't get Matt angry though!
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