If I Were On My Death Bed

I just saw a video from a guy I am subscribed to on YouTube about this subject and I thought it would make a very interesting topic for this blog. If I were on my death bed now, what would I be thinking? I think the first thing I would be thinking about is what have I accomplished in life? I have no kids. I did try marriage and didn't really like it. I think my greatest accomplishment in life is my Metazoic project. There is no other like it. I think of these animals the same as modern animals. Also my stories are an excellent accomplishment. Working with UMG Productions the way I have, I am honored to have them think of me as one of their leading illustrators. I must have been the illustrator for at least about 200 stories! And it was fun! I've also collaborated with other creators to help think up different plots to these stories. That too is an amazing accomplishment, and helped to build up and strengthen some great friendships. And I used to love getting other peoples' opinions on my stories. Though my boss does not want me reading any reviews that come into the site. Because she said I would be too tempted to respond, and she doesn't want that. She wants readers to feel comfortable rating and commenting on each story.

Anyway, I think everyone who is on their death bed would be thinking about their life's accomplishments. And for each person, it'd be different. But those are mine. Another thing I would be thinking about, since I am a firm believer in reincarnation, I think I would wonder what my next life is going to be like. Kids today have it so much rougher than they did when I was a kid. When I was a kid, kids were still considered innocent. Today's kids are far from that! It's sad really. Especially now after the age of about 4, kids start getting more diabolical! That's among one of the reasons I chose not to have kids. When I was a teenager, I wanted kids more than anything. Then in 1992, I took a job that would forever change my mind about parenting! It was a babysitting job, and the kids were little hellions! Their mom worked as a secretary in the military hospital and the father was in the army. But they let their kids get away with murder!! Most of the things they let their kids get away with I was never allowed to get away with! I would have been pulverized by my parents! Yet they never got disciplined. Well, I remember the kids said a bunch of things to their parents about me, half was untrue, the other half was taken the wrong way, and that got me fired. The parents would not even let me explain my side of the story. None of it was anything serious, I mean, I never laid a finger on either of those kids. But one of the things I was accused of was swearing in front of the kids, and telling them not to tell their mom. Well, that was taken the wrong way. Yes I said "damn" and "shit" in front of the kids, and yes I said (comically) "don't tell your ma I said that!" But frankly, I didn't care if they did tell her or not. I was just being silly at the time. But that was the kind of thing I was accused of.

Well anyway, after seeing how ticked off the parents, and the kids, got at me for minor things like swearing and being silly, I was like "Is this how today's kids are? They lost all their fun?" It was at that moment I decided I did not want kids at all. Kids don't laugh like they used to, and they are not at all innocent. I'm sure those kids were exposed to cussing from far more people than me after I left, and I never even said any of the really bad words in front of them. Nothing like "fuck" or "cunt" or anything like that. So after that job, I lost my taste for having kids, and in fact, I don't even like kids that much anymore. So I don't want any. I have my nieces and nephews and they are good enough kids for me.

But if I were to come back, what kind of person would I be in my next life? I wonder if I would be pretty much like I am now? Or if I would be a very different person. I will tell you one thing though, I hope to GOD I am not a fanatical vegan in my next life. And I hope I never meet anyone who is. Seeing them online is one thing. Seeing them in real life would be totally different! They actually kinda scare me, because they're so crazy. That's putting it mildly. LOL! They are insane, warped, brainless robots who might kill you if they see you with no forethought or hesitation. :) That's because they are incapable of forethought. That's knowledge I'd like to carry with me into the next life. But I don't really know if we can really take anything we learned with us to the next life. I always thought when we're born, our minds are an empty slate. Fanatical vegans are out to convince the world that those of us with a mixed diet are nothing but evil, fat, lazy drones. I think it'd be cool to keep the knowledge I have about fanatical vegans with me into the next life. After all, forewarned is forearmed. :)

Another thing this person talked about in his video, is he going to die of something stupid or not? LOL! He gave a car crash as a visual. The only way I can think of a car crash being a stupid way to die is if he crashed while texting or drunk or something like that. Because those are preventable ways. The fanatical vegans all think I'm going to have a heart attack and die that way. LOL! Well, I hate to disappoint them, but my family has very healthy hearts, and no one in my family was a vegan. My great aunt lived to be 102 years old and she ate meat every day of her life! No problems. My great grandma lived into her 80s, not a vegan, also ate meat and dairy every day of her life. She did die of pneumonia, but that has nothing to do with not being a vegan. In fact, I read that the vegan's favorite protein, soy, actually makes respiratory problems worse. That's why I won't touch it. The only person in my family to ever have any health problems was my grandma, and she spent the first 50 years of her life as a vegan. She had anemia, she had all kinds of heart problems later on in life, and her mind was not all there (just like the fanatical vegans). Just makes me wonder, how am I going to go? I know how I want to go, I want to go peacefully, in my bed, with my dogs by my side.

I'll tell you if I do go before I get back to the coast, then and only then, will I curse GOD's calling! Because if I have to go, I want to go in my dream house by the beach. Maybe even with an ocean view! I should never have left Ocean Shores! I miss it so much!!! Well anyway, there's how I think about my ultimate demise. Boy! This post went around in circles, but each idea was connected with each other some way.

Story Tweaks

Well, here I am, I am trying to finish this story. It's taking longer than I expected. I haven't been working on much of anything new lately because of the move. I've been putting it off. But my partner is building a new website for UMG Productions, and I would like to have a new story up. I don't want to have him build this whole new website and then not have anything new and different to put up. This story is funny too. I cannot wait to finish it and put it on the site. It's sort of like the Wizard of Oz, with a comical twist. Instead of a girl named Dorothy and a dog named Toto, I have Gracie and all of her buddies getting swept up by a tornado. And instead of the land of Oz, the tornado takes them to the land of Gargantua. Instead of munchkins, they meet giants. But not just any old giants, they are all long deceased actors and actresses. Like Groucho Marx, Marilyn Monroe, Eddie Cantor and more. That was why I had to learn to draw caricatures. I'll tell you though, I am not that great at it! I think I did fairly good though. At least they look like what they are supposed to look like. Well, I'll let the public decide.

I've had to do a bit of tweaking on this story, like several others, but I think I made it funny enough. Now my task is to have it put together with the words and the actual story and all. At first I was going to have just simple random-looking giants. But then I thought about it and decided to make the giants look and act like old movie stars. I thought it was a great idea at the time (the story was originally written in 1996). Even when I wrote it back then, I was not that great at drawing caricatures of old movie stars. But I managed! Don't ask me how, as I had nothing back then to go by. I just did it because I thought it would be funny. These days I have the internet and all to find old pics like that that I need to go by. I think I got it to work.

I plan to do a lot of tweaking. Some of the stories from the past need some serious tweaking! Next I plan to do up the Mount St. Helens story. I remember when I did that story, I got into my first chat room ever and talked about it. The way I described it, everyone said that it sounded a lot like the movie, St. Helens. The movie that starred Art Carney and David Huffman. So, I don't want that, so I have to redo the story. I remember in order to do that story right, I had to look at a lot of pics of David Johnston and Harry Truman. I hadn't seen them since I was a kid! LOL! In doing so, I happened to notice that David Johnston was kinda cute. I didn't think much about him when I was little. I was too little. But now, I think he was cute. Harry Truman should be the center for any Mount St. Helens story! He was the man who refused to come off the mountain. I think when I tweak this story, I'm going to make it child-friendly. Though with Harry Truman, that's going to be a bit tough! The man cussed his way through life! LOL!

Why Pick On Kids?

I wonder why it is when a child makes a video and puts it up on YouTube, it goes viral and becomes the subject of controversy and hatred? First it was Jessie Slaughter, now it's a chick named Amber Cole. People say "Oh this should not have been done by a 14-year old!" I mean really. Don't sit there and try to tell me you didn't have those kind of urgings when you were 14. I don't know of a 14-year old that didn't! Unless that person was from a very religious family (like I was). But in all honesty, how many of these people, who are sitting at their computers calling Amber Cole a "whore" or a "slut" or a "ho", can really claim to be religious? Now, I admit my ma always told me never to let a guy do me until I get the gold band on my finger, and I followed that advice my entire life. Then when I got married, I didn't want to do it because I hated the feeling of "you know what" going up "you know where". It didn't make me sick, it was just painful as hell!!

As I understand it, Amber Cole just did it with a boy to try and get back at her ex-boyfriend. But I don't think she meant her escapade to be filmed and then put up on YouTube. I haven't seen the video, and I don't want to! Anyone who does, I'd say is a pervert!! Stuff that one in your shoes you viral-video-viewers! I just heard about this young girl last night when I saw a video from one of the guys I'm subscribed to. But I wonder, why do people insist on hassling children on the internet? That's supposed to be against the law! So why aren't these laws being enforced? I don't hassle anyone on the internet, unless they start their shit with me. But to harass a child because someone put a video up of her having sex, that's silly. Doesn't make sense to gripe and fuss on the internet over something like that. I say if you are going to hassle anyone, hassle the kid who took the video and posted it on the internet without that girl's consent. Hassle the parents for not raising their kid up right. Don't blame the child for that, she doesn't know any better! Parents today are just not teaching kids any sense of moral values. How can they? I believe this is a sad commentary to our struggling economy. Parents cannot teach their kids, they have to work. And many homes are single-parent homes. Now, I am not saying that a lone parent cannot train their kids well, but if a single mom has say, 5 kids, there is no way in the world she could bring all 5 of those kids up right, especially if she has a job.

I once worked for a woman who had 3 kids, and she was on welfare. She was a lone parent too. I remember her kids doing some very outlandish things. I don't think she was consistent with them either. I remember babysitting them once, and the kids going out to play and not returning for hours. Then, when I went looking for them, I came across a guy who said the kids had been playing in his yard, and took a dump in his flowerbed. He yelled at me. I told him I was not the one to yell at, I was just a babysitter. Not their mama. He told me "You'd better start watching them more closely then!" I yelled back that I had been looking for them all afternoon at that time, and that guy just huffed and turned away from me. But I knew those kids' mom, and she was a party animal, and stayed out most of the time. I remember one time she was gone for 3 days, and I could not locate her. Even her boss was looking for her because in that 3 days, she hadn't reported to work, and never called. At one point, she called from a friend's house, and I asked her when she would be back, and she kept saying "Oh, I'll be back later." But she never returned. So for 3 whole days, I had to be those kids' mom. I wonder what would have happened had I not been there and she took off like that? When she did come back home, she was drunk, and slammed on the sofa, and slept for the whole following day.

The point is, she didn't raise those kids. I don't know if anything changed after I left there, but I do remember the mom was gone most of the time, and when she was there, she was either drunk or too lazy to do something with her kids. That's why I think kids should have both parents in their lives. Because I would not be surprised if either one, or maybe even all those kids, turned to drugs, premature sex, or even criminal behavior when they got older. The last time I saw either of those kids, or the mom, I was on a bus, and we were still friends, so we exchanged phone numbers. This was 3 years after I had to quit working for her. She never phoned me though. I liked those kids, I would have hated to see them turn their lives to something negative. But I also realize it would not have been their fault. I feel the same way when I hear of kids having problems on YouTube, especially with the trolls there. And I know the trolls on YouTube can be evil, nasty creatures. Some of the worst ones don't have any videos up of themselves. Not all the trolls are like that, but most of them are. I've seen some that actually did have videos up of themselves, showing their own faces and stuff.

Well, people can be very cruel, and kids cannot handle that. I can take name-calling. In fact, I relish it! Especially if they are vegan fanatics, I love their name-calling. They don't realize it, but when they call me names, it just proves that I have given them a strong argument that they cannot disprove. Like I always say, a person knows they've lost the battle when they have to resort to name-calling. That's why I laugh at them, and why I do not feel ashamed of my "Vegan Myths" video like they think I should. Because more vegan fanatics have proven over and over again that I am right in debunking their beliefs. I remember one guy was even bold enough to accuse me of "trolling vegans". LOL! I told him, several times, that was my channel, and I'll put whatever videos I want on there, and it would not be trolling. He doesn't have to watch my videos. I don't recall ever asking him to. I ask no one to watch my videos, ever. I never have. I think people who do that are spammers and deserve to have trolls hassle them. But I just make the videos and put them up. It's the other person's choice to watch them if they want to. Regular viewers who say they love my videos, I always tell them to keep watching. But that's as close as I ever get to inviting anyone to watch my videos. And I save that only for people who have said they love my videos, and I feel that they have actually meant it. I've had a few people (mostly vegan fanatics) say in mocking tones that they love my videos, then they turn around and call me names. That's how I can tell they are vegan fanatics, LOL! But I can tell when a person is really sincere, and I always like hearing from them on my videos.

Jealous of an Animal

Someone on YouTube, undoubtedly some dumb teenager, accused me of being jealous of cats because she said cats are cute. LOL! That struck me as funny. I just told her "My dogs are even cuter." Although what I wanted to say is that if there is one thing that I am not, it's jealous of a cat! Why should I be? Cats are vermin, and IMO they are stinky, disgusting little animals. I don't even like their larger counterparts. I think panthers are the most disgusting of all mammals. Makes me physically sick to look at them. When I tell people that, they think I'm joking, but I am absolutely not. I'm never more serious in my life. I especially don't like large felines (except maybe snow leopards). But lions, tigers, and NON-snow leopards, I think they're much uglier than cats. I'm writing this blog though because until today, I've never even heard of anyone being jealous of an animal. I thought this would make an interesting topic for this blog.

There are some animals that I envy, but cats are certainly NOT among them! What have cats got going for them that no other animal does? Nothing that I can think of. They're good tree climbers? So what?! Lemurs are even better, and they don't have claws to help them either. Cats can leap 3 times their body length? Again, so what?! Lemurs can leap 10 times their body length! Klipspringers can leap 20 times their body length. Now, that's impressive for mammals! Cats are cute? Again, so what?! LOTS of animals are even cuter and have much more charisma. Look at otters, meerkats, back to lemurs, seal pups, penguins, fennec foxes, I could go on and on and on! Cats cannot swim very well, they don't seem to have much fun, they cannot sing (some of the ugliest sounds in nature come from members of the cat family), and they're always getting run over by cars! It's true! I now see more dead cats on the road than squirrels! So, what's to be jealous of cats about?

I'll tell you though, if there was an animal I would be jealous of, I think it'd be otters. Otters are cute, chocked full of charisma, they can swim very well, and they seem to have more fun than any animal on Earth! Even as adults the animals seem to always have fun. Check out this video I found of common otters at play:

That is why I would envy an otter. Those little guys are too cute!! I might even say I envy weasels for having such funny relatives! As for cats, they play a lot when they're kittens. But even when they're playing, they don't look like they are having as much fun as otters. Cats look more serious than otters. I'm about as jealous of a cat as I am of this piece of paper I'm about to throw in the garbage! LOL!

Creative Fat Jokes

I love a good joke as much as anyone, even if they are directed at me. Well, last night I was thumbing through Youtube and I found this video of a very large black guy harassing a couple of white people, one of which called him the "n" word. You all know what I mean. The black guy must have weighed about 600 pounds!! Even I looked at him in amazement! I left a comment saying:

"Man that dude was big! He makes me look skinny!"

And well, he does! The guy is HUGE!!! Take a look for yourself here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y_42_TFPuX0 But that is not why I am writing this. I am writing this because I saw probably the funniest... No wait! Let me rephrase that....I saw unquestionably the funniest fat-related comment I've ever seen in my life! And believe me, I've seen them all. Or I thought I did. It was a comment made by someone who calls himself MrCodgamer1234, about 4 days ago. This is what he said:

"6 Levels of fatness
1. Big
2. Healthy
3. Husky
4. Fluffy
5. DAMN!
6. OH HELL NO!
The guy is OH HELL NO"

LOLOL!!! I had to laugh when I saw this comment! I even gave him another thumbs up! I really wish people would get on my channel and say stuff this funny! This was my response to this guy:

"@MrCodgamer1234 Now why don't the fat haters that get on my channel ever post anything this creative???? All I ever get are the dumb-as-shit fat haters."

It's true too! I get only the stupidest fat-related comments by people who don't even have a half a brain cell between them to come up with something creative. All I get are comments like these:

"fat troll"

"mushrooms are disgusting...LOL
being fat ugly pig like you is disgusting!"

"Fat bitch"

"Fat ass"

"fatty"

"your fat"

None of those are creative. They're things I've heard almost on a daily basis for many years! They're nothing new. I wish to GOD I could get some people with a lot more imagination making comments on my videos. I dunno. Maybe it's that I have too much imagination, and I expect everyone to be more like me. Even the comment about the wild snorlax has gotten old. I see that comment now every time I see a video about a fat person. Besides, I finally found out where these kids got that from. It's a damn character on that stupid Pokemon show! And I hate Pokemon! I hate all anime in fact. When I was a kid, I used to like Mapletown. But now that I found out it's anime, I've lost my taste for it. Kids today live it. And I used to get laughed at because I loved cartoons like Fat Albert and Groovy Goolies. BTW, someone else already made the reference to Fat Albert on that video. But I think that guy qualifies as even bigger than Fat Albert.

Anyway, I wish the creative fat haters would get on my channel and make some comments, and stomp out these uncreative fat haters. I don't mind name-calling, but I like it much better if the jokes were actually funny. I've seen some uncreative fat haters that were just evil, and those people I usually just block out. I got one the other day that commented on my Vegan Myths video, and he was just plain evil! He even went so far as to claim he was not a vegetarian, and said that I give all non-vegans a bad name. Well, I saw through his little scheme instantly! He was obviously a vegan fanatic, he was just hiding it so I would not call him a vegan fanatic! But I can tell vegan fanatics miles away (usually). If he wasn't a vegan, then my video would not have been any issue to him. And no other non-vegetarian has ever complained about me standing up for their rights to choose their own lifestyle. So, this guy was definitely a vegan, and a fanatical one at that. Don't try and tell me you're not a vegan buddy! Or maybe, keep trying. I'll just laugh at you. But I blocked him. He was evil! After his comment about me giving all non-vegans a bad name, I just told him "Allow me to invite you never to return to my channel again." Then I blocked him. For all I know, he could have been MsPearlsGirl in disguise, now trying to convince me she's not a fanatical vegan. LOL!

I don't like blocking people really, but when I think they are behaving in a way that may lead up to them being threatening, I block them. If they show the signs of being the kind of person that is just coming to my channel to gripe and complain, I usually block them. Not always though. But then, I am doing them a service. I'm telling them that if they don't like my channel or videos, then don't come back! Simple as that. And I help them out by blocking them. That should give them a great head start in not returning to my channel! If I don't like someone's channel or videos, I don't comment and I don't return. Anyone who does otherwise can't be right in the head, IMO. Or they like subjecting themselves to torture and drama. I personally don't like drama queens, so I block them.

Peter Shaffer's Amadeus

Oh boy! I went to see this live today, and I loved it!!! It was a great play! Not like the one I remember from when I was a teenager, but it was still awesome!! The cast and crew were a group of great actors and actresses. But like I said, it was very different from the version I remember seeing when I was a teenager. But then that was a different time and place. That was 1987 in Vancouver, WA. I remember ma and pa letting me have only a half day in school so I could get out in time to go see that play! It made me feel special. Just one of those things ya know, where a kid thinks to themself, "Wow! This is such a special occasion for me, my parents even let me skip school!" And boy! What an amazing play it was too!! Most of the actors back then were young, in their 20s. All but a couple of them. I remember having a crush on the man who played Antonio Salieri. He was played by a man named Tom Hammond. I also remember having a crush on another man, the one who played Count Franz Orsini-Rosenburg. He was played by a man named Rocco Dal Vera. And he was a young man!!! Not an older man, like what you see in the movie, or like I saw today. He looked back then like he was in his mid-20s. He may have been too.

I kindof expected to have a crush on the man who would play Mozart. I sort of expected him to look a lot like Tom Hulce, who portrayed Mozart in the most honest way I've seen to date on the movie. But he did not look at all like Tom Hulce. He was a man named Kelley Ray and he was short, fat, bald and dumpy. Not a very attractive man at all. Not like Tom Hulce anyway. He was cute if you like short, dumpy, bald men. Then there was something in the play (both from the 80s and today's) that is not present in the movie, it was a couple of Salieri's venticelli. They were like a combination of court jesters and announcers. The play I saw in the 80s had 2 men playing the venticelli, and one of them, named Daniel Renner, was the cutest man on the stage that day!!! Gorgeous eyes! Gorgeous hair (in his picture in the program)!! Truly a handsome man. Well, today's play had 1 man and 1 woman playing the venticelli. The woman looked like me, and the man was gay. In fact, half the men in today's cast were gay! The man who played Salieri, Mozart, Emperor Joseph II, and the male venticello, they were all gay! That was something that the play I saw back in 1987 did not have. Though I could see a gay man playing Mozart (Tom Hulce was openly gay himself), but gay men playing the emperor and Salieri, well, let's just say that took some getting used to. But no matters, they were pretty good actors.

The only thing that really bothered me about today's play was that Salieri did not have a ponytail and the guy who played Mozart only wore his wig in one scene! Salieri ALWAYS has a ponytail! In every play I've seen him in, and in the movie, Amadeus. I remember even Patrick Stewart playing Salieri in a mock court show, where modern lawyers and the modern supreme court tries to decide if Mozart was actually murdered, or if he did die from disease. It was called 'The Mozart Inquest", and I used to have it on video tape. But even in that show, Salieri had a ponytail. In today's play, he didn't. I wondered if that was part of some new script. If this were really the 1700s, those guys would not have been without them! Mozart also always wore a wig. In the movie Amadeus, the only time you see him without one is when he is in his home. That kinda bothered me. Because without the wigs, they looked fake. Not like they were supposed to be performing characters from the 18th century. Today, Mozart only wore a wig once, and it was in his opening scene. One thing I will give today's portrayal of Mozart credit for, his laugh was exactly like the guy's on the movie! Made me laugh every time!

Another thing that really bothered me, Kappelmeister Bonno was missing! He was not in today's play. I wonder if that is how Amadeus is now being depicted. He was actually a part of the actual court. I cannot see him not being in the play. I wonder if they did that to save time? I remember when I went to see the play as a teenager, he was played by an older man, much older than any of the other cast members. He was also cute and funny, like most old men are. LOL! I remember in one scene where Mozart was talking about Italian singers being fat and stupid, Kappelmeister Bonno stands up and says "Gratze señore". Everyone in the theater laughed, including me! But in today's play, they didn't have the Kappelmeister. I wonder why? I guess they eliminated him because he really does not say much. He didn't in the movie, nor in the play I saw in 1987. Oddly enough, he was mentioned in the scene where he died, and Salieri was asked to take over the role of Kappelmeister.

I still say NOBODY, throughout the course of history, has ever portrayed Mozart as honestly and effectively as Tom Hulce did. And no fooling there! If the images I've seen of Mozart are truly accurate (hard to tell, since all of them are paintings), Mozart was quite an attractive man! Check this out, compared to Tom Hulce:

Hypocrisy and Contradiction

This is a big subject. People constantly calling others "hypocrites", I hear it all the time, I see it all the time. It's a big thing in INXS fanhood to call someone else a hypocrite. I also hear people say "I hate hypocrites!" I wonder sometimes, do those people realize when they are saying that that in essense, they are saying they hate people, including themselves. It is actually a part of human nature to be hypocritical of something. That is not at all new or different. We all say we're going to do things that we never do. There was an episode of the Brady Bunch like this, where Greg wanted to live by everyone's exact words. He found out pretty quickly that those were very hard to live by. It's because we're only human. Humans are imperfect creatures. Every time I hear someone saying that they hate hypocrites, I always think of this. Because NO human I've ever seen lives completely up to their exact words. In fact, I would love to meet a person who does. You show me a perfect human being and I'll show you Jesus rising again from the dead.
I admit it, I am something of a hypocrite. I used to hate hypocrites myself, until I found out that it is natural for humans to contradict themselves. My style of hypocrisy though stems from me just being one of those types that looks at both sides of everything. There is good and bad in everything out there, and I prefer to just focus on both sides, instead of entirely on the negative or entirely on the positive. For example, I hate show breeders. I know that not all of them are bad though. Just those who demand respect for no purpose except that they have been breeding (and showing) for some number of years, and treat newbies like shit and stomp on them. Those are the show breeders I hate the most. They're annoying anal warts!! As much as I hate show breeders, I also understand how important they are in preserving their breeds. Believe me when I say I take a sigh of disgust when I am forced to look at their positive side. But it's there, there's nothing I can do about it. But I know I cannot sit here and say that show breeders are 100% bad, and do absolutely no good, when I know that isn't true. That's just why I hate so much going into pet forums, and why I refuse to spend my time at dog shows anymore. I haven't been to a dog show since Vegas was a tiny baby! I said it was the last one I was ever going to go to! I didn't like the way this one guy, whom I didn't even know, was looking at me and Anna. He looked at us like he wanted to kill us. An absolute perfect stranger, I never said 2 words to him at all, and he was looking at me and Anna like he was a hungry tiger and we were the steaks! For no reason at all. But I saw Rio B. talking to him earlier, and she must have said something! She barely knew us herself to be talking about us to anyone.

But anyway, that is the reason I hate show breeders so much. They think they know all there is to know, and they judge everyone. Even though (and especially if) they don't know the person, or don't know the person very well. But they hate it when the same thing is done to them. Being famous on the internet now, I've learned pretty well to deal with people talking about me behind my back. It does not bother me like it used to. All of the things said about me are nothing but rumors anyways. And a lot of the things said about me makes me laugh! Those people try so hard to piss me off, but their lack of knowledge about me personally just makes me laugh! I don't reveal everything on the internet. Keep that in mind.

Ohh speaking of show breeders and pet forums, I wonder if that person who posted the link to a post on here is going to post the link elsewhere too? That is, IF that wasn't me!!! I don't even remember if I may have changed the link on my Craigslist profile or not. Anyway, I hope they do! I encourage everyone who comes in here to post links to this site, or any of the posts, elsewhere! It gets me more views, and I like that. I was so excited this past weekend when YouTube asked to monetize one of my videos. It's the video titled "RE: FAT PEOPLE SUCK". YouTube asked to monetize my 2nd Vegan Myths video, but I couldn't accept that one. You cannot have anyone else's face in the video, and I do have clips from Gary Yourofsky's speech on there. So that was a bummer I could not monetize that video!! I bet I could make hundreds of dollars a day just from that video alone! Now why my "New Friends Arrive Today" video has not been asked to be monetized is absolutely beyond me! It was the first video of mine to ever hit 10,000 views! None of the other videos that Youtube wants to make partner, has even come close to hitting that mark yet. You know who I have to thank for that? The trolls and haters! Yep, even in a happy video like that one, trolls and haters have to interfere and leave hateful comments. LOL! Of course some of them got deleted. I can't let Katrina see those, she'll try to rush to my defense and I don't want that! The trolls and haters are actually what ups my views. I even reopened my vegan videos to comments again. I closed the comments before because a lot of the fanatical vegans got too ugly and some of them even threatening. Well, when Youtube wanted to make my Vegan Myths 2 video partner, I said "I think I should reopen the comments section again". But I also warned that if any vegan fanatics get threatening again, the comment sections of those videos will be closed again. And this time, I won't reopen them.

I realize people get frustrated, and say a lot of nasty shit because they cannot get their way. But there is absolutely NO need for threats! I don't mind name-calling, but I don't accept threats! You can't in today's world because you have no idea if the person on the other side of the line really intends to carry out those threats or not. And I hate fanatical vegans! Almost as much as I hate show breeders. I've come to the conclusion that not all vegans are bad. But there are those who are in it for compassion, and those who are in it for egotistical reasons. The fanatics are definitely NOT in it for compassion. I've seen them claim they are compassionate, but they're really not. Like I always say, talk is cheap! And actions speak louder than words. And if talk is cheap, then vegan fanatics must get their's wholesale! LOL! But yeah, fanatical vegans are NOT in it for compassion. They are in it so they can look down on non-vegans and say "I'm better than you because I am more compassionate! And you're nothing but a fat-assed bitch who will never amount to anything!" IMO, you cannot call yourself "compassionate" if you are making fun of another person and telling them they will never amount to anything, or that they are stupid, etc. The two things just don't go hand-in-hand. But that's why I hate fanatical vegans, because they are all like that. And just because you do not agree with someone does not mean that they are really "stupid". Only stupid people think someone with a different opinion or lifestyle is stupid. I don't like show breeders, but I don't think they are stupid people. They're just overly judgmental people. I can't really say the same for fanatical vegans, because they are stupid people. In accordance to when I said only stupid people think someone else is stupid just because they don't agree with them. I don't like how the Chinese love to see animals suffer. But I don't think the Chinese are stupid people. I just don't agree with their lifestyle.

Look anywhere on YouTube, and you will see how the people in China treat animals. It's abominable! For one thing, they feed the predatory animals in their zoos live prey and allow spectators to watch. And they don't kill animals they use for fur before skinning them. They just knock them out and skin them alive. And I've seen them throwing rats, that are fully alive and capable of feeling, into a pot of boiling water. I don't agree with their lifestyle, but I don't think they are stupid. There is a very big difference between not agreeing with someone, and that someone just being stupid. I would hope the fanatical vegans could see that difference, but no. They cannot. Because they are crazy, fanatical lunatics who have no capacity to think for themselves. So they attack anyone, like me, who has a mind of their own. I wouldn't even call me stupid! My IQ has been measured at 140. That's above average. I don't think it's a genius level, but it is above average. What I don't know, I'm pretty good at figuring out.

Anyway, that's my thoughts on human nature and stuff. I've been trying to find myself an apartment back on the coast, because I want to move back there again. I miss it so much!!! It's been difficult though. Nobody seems to allow dogs, and that sucks!! It's such a waste to move close to the ocean and only be allowed to have a cat! You can't walk a cat on the beach. You cannot really have any fun with them at all. So it's such a waste when I see ads for beach apartments or cottages that say only cats are OK, but not dogs. It's annoying and frustrating!!! Makes me want to choke the landlords! LOL! That was a joke BTW, but seriously, it is frustrating and it is such a waste!

Are We Only Normal?

I sometimes wonder if my sis and I and our closest friends here are the only normal ones in this building? Or is it the location? Maybe everyone in Bozeman is normally like this? But there is this woman, named Jane, who lives here in this complex, and she does some weird-ass things! I usually like people who are a little bit wacky, but this woman needs some help. She likes to tell people she is one of the world's greatest dog trainers. According to my friends, she has never been educated in dog training at all. She does have 3 tiny dogs, all of whom are old as dirt, and skinny for their size. You can feel their ribs. And Jane has told Deb (one of my buddies here) that her dog looks sickly. Deb's dog looks perfectly healthy to me! And his ribs are not sticking out either. But Jane likes to believe she is the world's foremost authority on dogs.

I heard Jane's called the police on so many people so many times that the police told her never to call them again. LOL! The police said that they were going to start fining her when she calls. Another weird-ass thing Jane does is she chews her dogs' food for them and then spits it out into their mouths. Disgusting!!! That's probably why her dogs are so "ribby". When I heard she does that, I was like "Hello? Ever hear of putting water in your dogs' food?" If her dogs cannot chew their own food, she should try that. Or get the dogs food that comes in smaller chunks. Dogs really do not chew their food, they are supposed to swallow it whole. Another wierd-ass thing that Jane does is she picks up her dogs' droppings and sniffs them! She claims that's the only way to tell if your dog is sick or not. This woman is obviously too weird for me! After hearing about all this nasty shit she does, I'm not sure I want anything more to do with her! Sure she seems nice, but this stuff is nasty! And I don't think I want to see her when she does all this! And she will do it in public! Think nothing of it, she will do it in public with everyone looking.

Well, Sharon loves Jane! I always knew Sharon was wacked in the head. I could tell just by the people she hangs out with! That Helga for one thing. That woman I always refer to as "that wacky woman", because that's what she is. And that Raymie, the woman who threatened to break Odessa in half. Everyone knows that woman is wacked in the head too. But she is that way because of a stroke. So, she really cannot help it. But Jane is a vegan. And according to the vegan fanatics, you never will suffer a stroke if you are a vegan. LOL! Your mind just goes wacky.

Actually to reiterate that, if you eat a lot of potatoes you will never have a stroke. And I LOVE potatoes!!!!! I prefer them baked. But I read that in Woman's World magazine. I love those magazines! They have shown me a lot of things I didn't know before. For example, the thing about acupressure. Using that, you can get rid of sinus problems, belly aches, and insomnia, just by rubbing different areas of your hands. I think I will make a video about that soon. I did a video this past weekend about how to boost your self-esteem, and it was based on what I read in one of those Woman's World magazines. Of course they were methods I already used, but to find the methods I've known for years in a magazine, well, it proved to me that I know more than I thought I did! But then I always go by sheer instinct. I do what works well for me and that's it. I don't care if people oppose it or laugh. At least I don't go around sniffing my dogs's poo! LOL!! Or chewing their food for them and spitting it into their mouths! YUK!!!

I mentioned in my latest video about how I can be struck by trolls and haters and still keep on laughing and smiling and just being myself. I never let them get to me because there are things that I have that they will never have, and those are mostly the good memories and fun I have of good friends and family, and of Tim Farriss. Plus I've accomplished quite a bit! I am especially proud of my Metazoic project. I put a lot of work into that, and some World-renouned scientists have praised it. That's something I never expected when I started this project! It's just a bonus. But I have achieved it because I am so dedicated to my project. I have to say, Metalraptor played a huge part in getting me more motivated about my project. So I have to give him some of the credit too. Family and friends also played a large role in that too, because they believed in it. That may sound corny, but it's true. Some of my friends even inspired it. Particularly those who I worked with in the UMG Productions studio. There is nothing like writing stories in the manner of Dr. Seuss. LOL! I don't mean with the rhymes, but with the hypothetical creatures. Like in his ABC book.

Well, some people may scoff, or say "that's not so great", or even say I'm delusional, but the accomplishments speak for themselves! They are things I am particularly proud of. And NO troll or hater could ever possibly take those away from me. They can only dream of taking them from me. LOL! :)

Rikki Tikki Tavi

This is the story of a mongoose. One of few (if not the only) cartoons about mongooses. I used to love mongooses when I was a teenager, they ranked right up there among my most favorite animals. I still like mongooses. Just not as much as lemurs now. LOL! Anyway, I recently saw this movie again, and it brought back a lot of memories. Mostly of a time when I collaborated with a friend (now deceased) to help create a story that she originally wrote. It was called "The Mischievous Mongoose". It was also about a mongoose, doing what mongooses do, which is kill snakes. Well, I remember when the story was completed, I took it to school with me and showed it off to the other kids. One of the most common remarks I got about the story was "It's too much like Rikki Tikki Tavi". Boy!! Was that frustrating. Rikki Tikki seemed to set the ground for mongoose stories! No one else could build on top of it or around it. So, what did I do? Well, with the permission from Katie's family, I rewrote the story in 1994. Instead of having a small, weasel-like mongoose, as Rikki Tikki is, I made the main character a mongoose from my Metazoic checklist. I used Tarboailurus smilus. It's a very large mongoose, and if it were around today, could very easily kill a full-grown anaconda! It's kindof a sabre-toothed mongoose with a long, stiff tail and reaches a full adult size of about 18-20 feet long. That's something Rikki Tikki could never top! So if you were to check out this story on our UMG Productions site, you would be getting the updated version. I'm sure Katie would have been proud! Of course she is still doing what mongooses do best. But she does it on a greater scale, and I took out all the overtones that would make it sound too much like Rikki Tikki Tavi. Just the fact I have the story made about a 20-foot long mongoose should be enough to drown out any similarities! LOL!

Well, Rikki Tikki Tavi is not perfect it's self. At least not the version Chuck Jones made in the 70s. There are numerous errors made in the movie. Check out this picture of a cell from the original movie:

One of the things I don't like about this picture is that Jones gave Rikki Tikki rodent-like teeth. It's misleading! No mongoose ever has had, or ever will have, rat-like teeth. Mongooses are NOT rodents! In fact, mongooses are feliformes, which means they are related to cats. So Rikki Tikki should be displaying cat-like teeth. It is because of this picture that Katie and I made this mistake too. In fact, it seems Jones made Rikki Tikki look rat-like in almost every way! Except the tail. It's really misleading.

Another thing I don't like is here Rikki Tikki is battling what appears to be a small sand viper. Mongooses usually only attack cobras. In fact when I found out that mongooses only attack the slower-striking snakes, like cobras, I was unimpressed. They almost never attack faster moving snakes, like vipers. I still like mongooses, even though I am not really impressed with their snake-killing abilities anymore. I like them because they are just so darn CUTE!!!!! And so much potential for the Metazoic! Perhaps in the Metazoic, mongooses will become fast enough to take care of snakes like the vipers, which are deadlier than cobras. Now, none of this means I don't like snakes! Don't even think it! But I understand the importance of an ecosystem with balance. If there were no mongooses, or other snake killers, the world would be overrun with venomous snakes, and it wouldn't be safe to walk outside anymore. But I am more impressed with this guy than with a mongoose as snake-killers go:



And anyway, at least mongooses always eat what they kill. Not like on Rikki Tikki Tavi, where the snake is killed, but never eaten. It is shown being thrown away. Or like lions who kill hyenas and never eat them. They just kill them for the fun of it. That's why I don't like lions at all. Well, that's one reason. Another is they're so fricken ugly I can't stand looking at them.

Anyway, it was fun seeing Rikki Tikki Tavi again. I'm trying again to rekindle my childhood. Though here I don't much feel like it. When I still lived in Ocean Shores, it was fun to do that. Here, it's not as much fun. Well anyway, the story brought back some good memories!

Mysterious Mr. X

So who is INXS's new lead singer? If you had gone to the INXS site, you would hear their new track "Tiny Summer". Andrew said that the singer for that song is some young Irish bloke. Almost all the INXS fans think it's Bono. When I heard the track, my first thought was not Bono! Then when I read Andrew's message, I knew I was right! He said it's a YOUNG Irish dude. Bono is not young! Bono is an old fart. And besides, that does not sound like him at all. So I don't know what is wrong with the fans that believe wholeheartedly that that's Bono, but I can tell you it surely isn't him. I don't have a clue who it is, but I do know it is not Bono. I never thought for one second it was. Well! Let me rephrase that. At first I expected to hear his voice, because other INXS fans said it was him. So for the first 1/2 second of the singing, I thought it was him. Then after hearing the following 5 seconds of singing, I knew it was NOT Bono. But some other INXS fans believe it is with all their heart and soul and won't let up. Well, that's on them! Not me. They'll eat crow when they find out they are wrong.

My big question is this: Why so secretive now??? INXS used to be an open book. Now, it seems everything with them is so hush-hush. And why the Hell every time they put up a new album do they change their website???? It's getting to be annoying. I realize that is their right, but I'm getting sick of this constant change. I cannot even view the tour comments anymore. That sucks!! Not that I went in there that often, but still! It's getting to be annoying. I really wish INXS would keep their site up and stop taking it down every time they get a new album going. I didn't particularly care for INXS's last album. Maybe that's why they had a tiger illustrating their last album. They wanted people to know they are being lazy, and putting a tiger on the front cover would be the best way I can think of to get that kind of message across. Tigers are the perfect symbol for laziness! I couldn't think of a better animal to represent that. I hope their next album turns out better. But if that dumb tiger is still on that cover, I probably won't buy that album either. Because that pic would still be telling me that INXS are being lazy again, and I won't support laziness. Still LOVE Timmy though! To me, he's still the most handsome man I've ever seen.

Now, what happened to JD????? Why is he not still with INXS? That doesn't make sense. They hired him, took them a whole summer to announce he was right for "Our band, INXS". So what's the beef? Why is JD canned now?

**********************UPDATE******************************
That young Irish bloke has now been identified as Ciaran Gribbin, also known as Joe Echo. Apparently he will also be touring with INXS later on. I think it'll be next year. But so far, no plans are in place to come to the USA. Let alone Montana. Heck Timmy doesn't even know this state exists!!

Haven't Posted For A While

I just don't have time anymore. My life now is so busy it is unbelievable. I haven't even looked in on this blog in a few days. Well, tonight I noticed my blog has got a lot of attention from the Craigslist forums. Especially the post about my incident last winter in the CL Pet forums. I actually have more than one post about that forum, you'd have to look back a few months to see them. I haven't even had much time to get in that forum in a long time. In fact, this past week was the first time since I moved here that I have even posted on the pet forum. But once I posted, I didn't go back for days. The people in that forum are just so uppity, they make me sick!! So, going back there is not a priority for me. I posted once, then didn't go back for a few days. Then posted again, and I haven't been back since. I don't even remember what I posted. Well, I posted to one person about box turtles. I remember I had one when I was 15 years old. I named her Shelley.  And this poster asked about how to hibernate them. I told the poster about my experience in hibernating Shelley. Usually when I post there, the posts disappear so fast into the archives, I don't have time to go back and read any responses, and I don't ever activate the button that says "email responses". The one time I did that, my mailbox was FULL of responses. So full, it jammed my inbox. So I never did that again.

Well, at least now I understand why my views on this blog have jumped! I think that's awesome! It not only made my views go up on this blog, but also on my AdSense too!! I get paid each time someone opens this blog, so I don't mind if the links are posted elsewhere. The more views I get, the more money I get!! :) I don't even ask anyone to view this blog! But it's awesome when they do. Especially when they go whining to their cronies that I was saying nasty shit about them. hehehehe! That gets me more views than anything! I just hate pet forums. Simple as that. The people are always such assholes. You may find one or two nice people. But mostly, if the forum is crawling with show breeders, the majority of them are likely to be asinine jerks. In that forum, I disliked more people than liked. Not saying there weren't a few nice people, but the majority of them were assholes. I just don't go in much anymore (I noticed their views only in my online "spy" device. hehehe!) If someone posted a link to this blog, I wouldn't know who it is. Unless it was me. LOL! I expect the threats of lawsuits will begin pouring in at me now. LOL! Now that I understand a little more about free speech, it can't faze me anymore.

Funny thing! I love pets, and if there was ever a group I would think I could talk to on a friendly level, it'd be other pet-loving people. But that is totally NOT the case! Pet people, especially if they show, are some of the WORST people I've ever met anywhere!! But since I don't go into any pet forums anymore, that's all water under the bridge. But I hope they enjoyed that post! hehehe!

Well, on another note, I finally did that interview with one of my vegan buddies. Nice guy! And the interview came out great. I enjoyed it! I'm still not a vegan and have no intention of becoming one in the forseeable future. But it was fun to be interviewed. My first interview. I wonder how many more will follow. Well, he said he hopes that I get to know more friendly vegans, and get better comments. I said I hope so too. But honestly, I don't expect any nice comments to come from vegan fanatics. They're just fanatics! Fanatics are all lunatics. So, I expect nothing more than shitty comments from them. I got a comment from one of them this morning. He started off being rather nice. I didn't agree with him, but at least he was OK. At first! He said humans are closest in relation to gorillas and bonobos, and I told him that we are actually not related to bonobos, but to chimpanzees. I was nice about it! Believe me I was. But since he is only 18 years old, he's got a LOT of growing up and maturing to do. 18-year olds NEVER like it when they are told they are wrong, and being a fanatical vegan makes them much worse. So the next time he posted, he was nastier. MUCH nastier. He even told me to shut up. LOL!!! I get that alot from fanatical vegans! I always give them the same response! I said "You can't make me shut up on my own channel. But I can make you shut up if I want to!" I don't know why the dumbass vegan fanatics think they can shut me up on my own channel! LOL! It's funny when they think they can!

This kid thinks he knows more than me. He's only 18, and like all vegan fanatics, he has a closed mind. You know what is funny about that statement? I've been told I have a closed mind (also by other fanatical vegans). When I noticed they are the ones with the closed mind. Not me. They still believe the bonobo and human relationship theory, which has been debunked 4 years ago. We only share 97% of our genes with bonobos. Even less with gorillas (around 90%). Gorillas are the only purely herbivorous apes. I read even bonobos hunt for meat sometimes. But we share 99.9999% of our genes with chimpanzees (that's Pan troglodytes). But that's the vegans last desperate hold with the vegan vs. meat eating argument. Even though it's already been debunked, they still cling to it like it's their last lifeline. But little do they realize that it makes no difference. According to proper studies, bonobos eat just as much meat as chimpanzees. Though the fanatical, closed-minded vegans will tell you that bonobos are strictly herbivore/frugivores. My friends in the science field will tell you that they are not. So, this 18-year old can go screw himself. :) I told him that I have been studying animals AND evolution for more years than he has been alive, then I blocked his butt, just to prove a point. That he cannot make me shut up on my own channel. On HIS channel, he can. On MY channel, he cannot. I don't tell people to shut up unless I actually can make them do so. Doesn't make any sense otherwise. LOL!!

Oh! And MsPearlsGirl came back! LOL! She came back under a different name, but I recognize her style anywhere. She thought she could fool me by creating another account (and hiding it from public view) and giving it another name. But I saw right through her evil ways! LOL!!! I know evil when I see it, and I blocked her immediately! hehehe!

Lest We Remember

Well, tomorrow will be the 10th anniversary of the attack on NYC's Twin Towers. I always felt terrible about that happening, and about the numerous people who suffered in that attack or that died in the attack. It was terrible. Today at the dog park, we did a little bit of reminiscing about what we were doing when we first heard the news. Well, I remember I had just woke up, and I went into the living room to watch my usual early morning TV shows that I liked back then. That was back when TV was still good. Not crappy like it is today. Well, when I tried to change the channels, all I saw was this disaster posted on every channel. My shows never did come on. But I somehow did not care, because this was a big deal!! I watched it, I could not take my eyes off it. I remember some scenes of firemen going into the building some time before it collapsed to help people get out. I also remember seeing people falling out of windows and being squashed on the pavement like bugs on a windshield. It was horrible!! And sad! That was a sight I will always remember.

I remember thinking that this decade was going to be a bad one! I quoted that in 2000 in my journal. I still have the journal too. I look back at it and think how eerie it was I said that then. That was more than a year before this tragedy happened. Unfortunately, 9/11 was only the beginning. It was a very sad day in our history. Of course my heart goes out to those who lost friends and loved ones on 9/11/01. My prayers will always be with them. Even now, 10 years later. I do happen to know some people who had lost friends and family in that incident. So this day is going to hit them hard I'm sure. It's hard to imagine it's been 10 years since that happened. And so far, as far as I know, they have no plans to rebuild the World Trade Center there. Though I do remember Obama wanted to build a mosque there for the muslims (the very people who caused that disaster). I could not believe him!! That's like a total slap in the face to those who were killed by those people!!

Well, in honor of 9/11, and those who were lost in the tragedy, I will be putting a candle on this page. It's a candle of rememberance. Feel free to pass it around!

In other news, I have ALWAYS wanted to do this!! I was just waiting for the right opportunity! I always get some crackhead skanks on YouTube who act like they know my every move, when they really don't know the first thing about me. Well, tonight, it was someone who calls himself chorn000. It was so funny!! He said and I quote:

"You know those snakes never came out of those tubs"

So I responded, rather sarcastically:

"@chorn000Oh yeah, tell everyone how you showed up at my house while I was unpacking those snakes, and my 12-foot tall pair of rottweilers hated you so much, they gave you a wedgie and put you over the outside banister, and then President J.F. Kennedy came to my neighborhood and saw you hanging there and pointed and laughed like a child and my ma's pet unicorn came down from the Heavens and kicked your jaw loose that very same day (off camera). LOL!"

LOL!! I have always wanted to do that with these people who think they know it all! hur-hur-hur!! :D The funny thing is, there is no way he could ever know what I did with my snakes after that film was made. Just like there is no way President JFK could ever have visited me in my neighborhood. Or any way rottweilers are 12-feet tall, or that my ma really does have a pet unicorn. I'm just matching his story with another one. Mine is more truthful than his though. LOL!

Expensive Lesson Learned

Well, this past week has been very trying. I ordered some tropical fish through the internet. I figured I once tried it with snakes and so I thought I would try doing the same thing with tropical fish. I thought it was going to be a great experience! That way, I could get some fish that I could never get around here! Tropical fish stores are so rare here in Montana! The one that I work at, they deal 90% in saltwater fish. Their freshwater section is VERY small!! And it mostly consists of very common, run-of-the-mill type fish, like goldfish, zebra danios and cichlids. All the rest are saltwater fish. I love marine fish just as much as the next person, but I like having freshwater fish. I will probably always have nothing but freshwater fish! A saltwater aquarium would be nice, but a freshwater aquarium gives me the opportunity to have more. You can only have so many saltwater fish in an aquarium. And if you spend $50 or more on one saltwater fish, and it dies 2 or 3 weeks later, then you're out a LOT of money!! I'd be pissing blood if that happened to me!! So I don't care to take that kind of chance, and I stick with the freshwater tropical fish. There are some of those that look really pretty!

So anyway, I ordered some fish off of thatpetplace.com, and I know it's a good store. Most of what I ordered was rainbowfish. I got some Celebes rainbows, some Madagascar rainbows and some Pacific blue-eyed rainbows, and paid about $88 for them, including shipping costs. These were some beautiful fish. I actually originally ordered swordtail tetras, African ground tetras and a whiptail pleco, but by the time my order went through, those were out of stock. Which was a bummer!!! Swordtail tetras are very rarely available! So that sucked not being able to get them! So, instead I got the rainbow fish. They arrived the next day, and I was so happy and excited, I could not wait to see them in my tank! But I knew I had to acclimate them to the aquarium. So I did that for about an hour before releasing them. That is what you are supposed to do. First, you put the unopened bag into the water and let it float, then you gradually mix the tank water in with the bag water. Simple enough procedure. Well, by the second day after I had got the fish, they started dying, one by one. I could not understand it. First, it was the Madagascar rainbows, then the Celebes rainbows, and then the Pacific blue-eyed rainbows. All those fish are now gone, all but one Madagascar rainbow! He's in quarantine now though, because he appears to have what looks like Ick. I was certain those fish brought something with them! Which is why all but one is now dead. It suddenly started to attack some of my other fish, I lost 3 bleeding heart tetras and one congo tetra.

Well, the tank is being treated now. I got some cure-all medicine and put it in the tank to take care of the fish. it stinks, but it's supposed to get rid of anything. And I must say, I learned a very expensive lesson! NEVER order fish through the internet!! Such a shame too! That's the only way now I can get some really exotic species. Out here in Montana, if you are not into saltwater fish that much, you're screwed!! Because all the freshwater fish they carry out here is all common stuff. Nothing unusual, exciting or exotic!

I notice I've been cantankerous lately! LOL! Well, before I moved here, Katrina told me not to let the Youtube trolls walk all over me. So I noticed, I've been especially rough with them lately. That is so not like me! I should have stuck with just ignoring them. No matter how much a person deserves it, I hate being mean and nasty! I don't understand why I am that way. People don't seem to care if they are nasty to me. I don't know why I care if I am nasty to them! I guess it's because I know better. I was brought up to treat other people with respect. It's hard though when they totally disrespect me. Most of the time, I am nasty to them because it's funny. (SHHEEESH that makes me sound like Hobofart!!) But I've noticed lately I've been REALLY nasty!!! What is it with me?? I know Katrina wants me to bash back at the trolls, and they do deserve it. I should not let people walk all over me. But I actually felt better when I was just ignoring them. Is it really worth going against what I know is better just to bash back at the trolls and get a few minutes of pleasure? Not sure. I guess that is for my inner self to decide. Trolls are humans too (I think). They deserve human rights. Among those, the one I am most familiar with, freedom of speech.

Angry People Piss Me Off

There is a site called angry.com and it's kinda like this blog, only public domain. It's a place where anonymous people go to rant about things in their lives. Well, I saw some posts from there (via Google) where a bunch of whiny-ass thin people were griping about us fat people. Well, that's normal really. Thin people gripe about fat people all the time. That is nothing new. What gets me is the thin folks who gripe about fat people and then have the nerve to say that fat people are rude to them. I mean really!! What do you expect? You go up to a fat person and start calling them names, giving them the evil eye, or point and laugh like we are monkeys in the zoo or something, and then bitch because the fat person you are harassing does the same thing back at you?! How fair does that sound? Not at all. In fact it sounds just dumb. Oh and here's a pip I love the most: Thin people thinking fat people are giving them the "go-to-Hell" look because we're "jealous of their thinness"! BWAH!!! That one makes me laugh every time!! Those same people who were making that gripe probably were standing around harassing some fat person, and the fat person sensed the thin person was talking shit about them, and that is why the fat person gave the thin person the look.

Well, I can tell you something, I am NOT "jealous" of your "thinness". LOL!! I am happy with who I am. I may be fat, but I am no fool. I've accepted the way I am. If you are a thin person and you don't like it that I am confident in myself, well that's your tough luck! I am no more "jealous" of you being thin than you are of me being fat. Let me put it that way. And don't tell me that you hate fat people because we are "unhealthy" and "unmotivated" and all that gibberish. What do you really care about our health or motivation!? I'll tell you now, I have a lot more respect for someone who says "I hate fat people because they smell bad" or "are rude" or "are just disgusting" than I do for someone who says they hate fat people because we are "unhealthy" or "unmotivated". Stop acting like you care about our health or motivation!! Because you don't!! I agree that some fat people do make excuses for the reasons they are fat, which is why I refuse to ever discuss my condition with anyone. But some people are fat because they have a legitimate problem. Here's a newsflash for you: Slow metabolism is a big problem in some people. For those unfortunate people, it takes a lot for them just to get out of bed in the mornings.

And this one about how fat people blame thin people for everything. Bull-fucking-shit!!! I think you got it backwards. The way I've seen it, it's the thin people who blame fat people for everything. But then I don't know. Maybe it's just me. I never blame anyone for anything. If I have created a problem, I don't blame some random thin stranger for it! If I have a problem, I don't blame anyone unless I feel someone else really is to blame. But it's not just a random thin person I blame. Or even ALL thin people! Because that's a lot of bull! Now, thin people are taking a lot to blaming fat people for healthcare insurance costs. I still believe that's nothing but a bunch of bull! I think it is nothing more than inflation that is causing insurance rates to go up so high. Everywhere you look, people are going to try and find something or someone to blame, and it's so easy to blame fat people now because fat hate is the only really acceptable prejudice there is now. I think those people are spineless jellyfish for not revealing how they really feel. They should just go ahead and say it: "My insurance rates have gone sky-high because I am (or once was) a smoker" or "a drinker" or "a drug abuser". DUH!!! No, they won't admit it. So they made up this thing that fat people are the cause of insurance rates going so high. And I'll wager you most of those griping do not even have any insurance of any kind! Most of them are teenagers.

And the fact they say fat people could never get a decent boyfriend, and those guys who love fat women are "freaks". Excuse me! One of my previous boyfriends lifted weights that weighed more than most of these skinny curmudgeons, and he fell in love with me while I was fat. He was no freak. He was an A and B student in school and smart as a whip! He was even working to become a lawyer. We are still friends too.

Well, I may be fat, but walk a day in my shoes, you might actually be surprised. I've always prided myself on being UNlike everyone else. For one thing, I don't hardly ever go to fast food places. Only VERY occasionally. But no, it's not an "every day, 3 times a day" thing for me. It's more like a "once in a 6-month period, or when I'm far away from home" type thing for me. And no, that is no lie. Thin people like to believe all fat people lie about their lifestyles. I readily admit I indulge in chocolate more than once a day. But in the same breath, I say I almost never go to fast food places. And I only drink sodas when I need to. My problem is I usually do not eat breakfast. So, my body is in starvation mode. But that is only part of the problem with me. The rest I will not talk about. As for fat people who smell bad, well that is not me either! I can't stand body odor any more than the next person! In fact, if I think I smell too bad, I don't leave the house until I have got rid of the problem.

As for me being a rude fat person. The ONLY time I am ever rude is when someone starts it with me. I'm not going to just stand back and take someone else's shit. I don't go out into the World, saying to myself "Hmm, I think I will give every thin person I see the evil eye today." No way! That's not how I work. I can be very, very sweet. But it depends on how you behave around me. If you are rude, then expect to get your shit thrown back at you by me. If you are nice and polite, I will give you the same kindness. But don't come up to me, giving me your bull, and not expect to get it back! And if I do give it back to you, don't go saying "The big, bad, fat woman was mean to me! Oh, woe is me!" And then accuse all  fat people of being rude, when in fact YOU were the one who started it! I'm not going to just stand there and let you walk all over me. I did too much of that when I was a little kid, and I'll be damned if I'm going to let anyone do it to me now that I am an adult. I've been known to make peoples' lives miserable that I don't like. Ask this idiot Andy who lives in this complex. Ask him how he's getting along here. You will see the results of my work.

Irene Bashes the East

Well the east coast has been having a rough week. First a major earthquake, and now Hurricane Irene. I hope all my friends and my sis and her family are OK. I tried to call Eva and I could not get in touch with anyone. I am a little bit worried, but at the same time I know she knows how to take care of herself. But to date, I heard Irene has killed 8 people. That number could rise. Who really knows? But I do hope all my friends and family are OK. The only one that I know that I hope this storm claims is Hobofart. If he dies in this storm, I'm going to celebrate!! LOL! I know! That's an awful thing to say, but fuck him! He'd deserve it. It's not like he contributes anything to society, or ever will. So LORD, take him now!

Someone I know in this complex also has family in New Jersey. He's a roughneck! LOL! But he's an OK guy. His daughter and him were talking on the phone when I got out to the dog park this afternoon. She doesn't have any power now. I told him I hope his daughter is OK. He just said she's just waiting for her power to come back on. Did you ever notice that some of the most destructive hurricanes have female names? LOL! Women can give Hell! I still remember teasing Katrina when Hurricane Katrina hit the southern US. I wasn't doing it to make fun of the storm or the people who had to endure it. I just did it to tease Katrina a bit. Something I liked to do back then.

In other news, Minnie had a little bit of an incident this morning at the dog park. Brandie, the landlord's wheaton terrier, attacked my Minnie. It was partly my fault! I had forgotten about Brandie's temper! When Brandie is being petted, or babied, she does not like any other dogs to interfere. I never in a million years thought she would hurt the little ones! She's always been so good and gentle with them before. But this morning, I noticed Brandie was limping, and holding her paw above the ground. I felt bad for her and I wanted to see if maybe she had a pebble between her toes or something. So I had her paw on my lap, and I was looking it over. I had no idea Minnie was near me until I saw Brandie lunge at her! Next thing I know, Minnie is pinned down by Brandie, and Brandie is shaking her! I'm there trying hard to grab Brandie's collar to pull her off, but she was moving so fast I couldn't get a grip. Poor Minnie was screaming! Kim, my friend, was screaming in horror in the background, and Karen rushes up to grab Brandie. I don't know if Minnie got Brandie back, but I did see her curl her lips at Emma, who was after Minnie to see that she was OK. I went after Minnie myself. She was fine, but she was all shook up! I knew Brandie had a temper, I just didn't think she'd ever harm the little dogs. She knows them by now!

Minnie got away with nothing more than a tiny little puncture wound on her shoulder. Brandie's leg however, is another story. Her leg is much worse off now than it was when I got there. Lois told Karen that Brandie's leg is now swollen to twice it's normal size. Poor old gal! But in a way, she earned it. She should not have just lunged at Minnie like she did! But Brandie is a dominating dog. She loves attention and babying. She loves it TOO much! She loves it so much that she will attack any other dog that gets in her way when she is getting attention. I just never thought Minnie would be one of her victims! I thank GOD Minnie wasn't hurt worse. I know she could have been! She's so tiny and delicate, and Brandie is so big and tough. Wheaton terriers are nothing to mess with! They were bred to kill small vermin. There was no doubt in my mind that if she wanted to, Brandie could have finished Minnie off. I don't know if I could ever even look at Brandie again and trust her around my babies! I feel so bad that happened to Minnie. So does Karen and Lois. But I really feel bad. Because it's my job, as Minnie's mommy, to protect her from harm. And I failed at it this morning. I did try! But I failed. And that makes me feel bad! But now, Minnie is back to being her old self again. It's as if she's forgotten about this morning's incident.

Well Lois, who is the landlord and Brandie's mom, was so sorry about what happened, she sent Minnie and me a card apologizing for Brandie's actions. I was out at the dog park and Anna came to me saying there is a note attached to my door. At first I was thinking it was going to be a gripe from someone. Karen kept hinting that it wasn't a gripe, that it was something very nice. Anna asked her how she knew and Karen responded with "I'm not going to tell!" LOL! She's funny! Sure enough when I came back to my apartment, it was a nice little card from Lois apologizing for Brandie's actions. Well, I wrote one back to her, and I'll put it on her door tomorrow. I just wanted to tell her I appreciated her concern for Minnie and that Minnie is OK. Minnie didn't even go into shock. And all she has now is a little puncture that is healing up nicely. I'm putting some antibacterial ointment on it now. I think the worst thing that happened was that it scared the daylights out of me and Minnie! Then there is that post-traumatic stress I'm going through now because I could not really help Minnie before it got as far as it did. You know it's going to take YEARS for me to get over that? I still feel sad for what happened to Vegas when he was little.