How Will He Respond? Or Will He?

LOL! I know I've said before that I am not going to give people on YouTube more attention than they deserve. But this made me giggle today. I had a little bit of a confrontation with a guy on YouTube who calls himself Chim Chomp, and he has a picture of a dog on his profile. So, I was assuming he's a dog lover. It started with someone who calls herself KittyKat 1890, and she's seriously a cat-fag. This video was one about cat friends vs. dog friends. So, people naturally are in the comments section arguing about which is better. Personally, I know both have good points and bad points. My view is which pet is worth it?  Anyways, KittyKat's response got everyone riled up:

Cats Are The Best If They Bite You It Dosent Hurt If They Scrawl You It Kind Hurts But For like a Min!!! IF A DOG BITES YOU YOU HAVE TO GO TO THE HOSIPTAL 😭 you have to walk dogs... you dont with cats you need to play and throw slobbery balls to dogs just get a ztring for a cat!!! See cats are soo much better And My Cat Saved Me 😘 i Was Being Chased By This Mut And i Tryed To Kick Him Snd He Almost Bit My Leg Then My Cat Prounced On Him And He Ran Away So dogs are very stupid because i was walking down the road on my phone walking to my Own Housez

I figured out, this just had to be a joke!! I think KittyKat saw that video that went viral too much, where the cat saved a toddler from a dog attack. Frankly, I don't believe the cat did that for the toddler. The cat probably just didn't like dogs and attacked the dog out of a personal vendetta. Cats are very vindictive animals! LOL! But KittyKat cannot be this dumb!! She said cats don't hurt when they bite. Ummm, Yes they do!! Unless you are used to it, like I was when I had cats. Not to mention cats carry diseases in their mouths that can seriously infect humans. They've even been known to carry the flesh-eating virus. One of many reasons I don't own a cat!

Well, then someone named "Sugar Glider" spews that dogs are retarded, and that really riled up Chim Chomp. His response was:

Like cats can evan do that cats are lazy some dogs or most of them protect there owner .dogs want to do stuff they don't want to be lazy. Oh ya sure dog r " stupid" hah if try and to play with a cat this claws will sink into your skin and go to the hospital. Dog don't evan bite that hard. Plus dogs r more classy u don't see cat show or competing cats no u c dogs more active doing all the cool stuff. Dogs are cuter then cats

Obviously he is a teenager. My apologies to my readers for the bad spelling errors of his. This post sounds like he is on the side of dogs. But in all fairness, there are cat shows. But he is right when he says dogs don't bite as hard as cats, and this has been proven. That's why I said KittyKat's got to be joking, or trolling. I decided to let Chim Chomp know that I believe KittyKat is joking around with him and everybody else:

+Chim Chomp Gotta be a joke!! No one who actually knows cats can be that dumb!!

I don't think KittyKat is that dumb!! She may know some about cats, I don't know. Well, Chim Chomp's response to me led me to believe he just may be a cat-fag disguised as a dog-lover:

+Dee Timmyfan fat tard . Thinking ur all cool but this is the real world. Every one has there own opinion's

LOL! I'm not so sure what this being the real world has to do with KittyKat joking around, unless Chim Chomp just has no sense of humor. But anyways, I thought maybe I did not make my comment perfectly clear to him. So, I decided to reiterate to him:

+Chim Chomp Uhh, just in case you didn't understand, I meant  KittyKat 1890 is dumb. Not you. Anyways, thanks for watching my video! :)

Nah, if he watched my videos, he's not dumb. LOL! That's what I put them up for. Well, I was thinking IF he responds at all, he'll probably respond with more hatred. I have a couple of theories, in case anyone wants to place any bets:

1. If he responds with hatred, he's a mindless cat-fag defending his title.

2. If he doesn't respond at all, then he's a teenager, just as I suspected.

So far, he hasn't responded at all. My guess is he's a teenager. Teenagers never believe they're wrong. If he apologizes for his mistake, I'll likely die, because that's a response I don't expect. Not from someone who uses such poor spelling and grammar as Chim Chomp does! I actually once had that happen. A long time ago, right after I first signed on to YouTube, another teenager, who was a huge fan of Michael Jackson, saw my video about him after he died, and got angry at me because I am not a big fan of his. Later on he did apologize for saying such disrespectful things to me, and I accepted his apology. But he was a kid who used good grammar and spelling. Plus, he's from India! That says enough there! Kids from India are MUCH better behaved and better brought-up than kids in the USA. I've learned that over the years having friends now from India. But I don't think Chim Chomp is from India. I think he's just a typical American teenager who is into rap music. That's what his posts tell me. I'm a pretty good judge of character, I think I have it pin-pointed pretty accurately what his response will be: No response at all. But that's OK! What he says and thinks does not matter to me anyway. But I left room in case he surprises me and does respond. LOL! I don't expect anything more than a hostile response though. I'd still think he's a teenager. Teenagers usually respond with negativity.

Anyways, anyone want to place any bets about this kid's response? I'm open to bids!! hehehe!

Embarrass Me?

Yesterday I was writing back and forth to a viewer of one of my videos and this person said that people post my videos just to embarrass me. Then they subscribed to me to make me feel better. I just thanked this person for subscribing. I am appreciative of it, believe me. But I am not embarrassed of my videos. If I was embarrassed, I would never have posted the video to begin with. I am proud of each and every one of my videos. Even the ones I am doing something silly on, like my version of the cinnamon challenge. Well, it's to get laughs from people, and I guess I accomplished that task. Except in the case of my parents. LOL! But anyways, I don't care what the trolls, haters and negative people say! I'm not even curious anymore.

Those couple of years I spent totally ignoring negative posts really did me a lot of good. It was the perfect training session for me. I do not respond to negative people anymore who post comments on my videos, because I barely read the posts. I skim them quickly and that is it. Because I do not care what they say. I'm gonna do my own thing, and if they don't like it, then they won't hurt my feelings at all if they just don't watch. Simple as that. I even took down all the videos I used to have that were responses to negative people. That too was part of my training. I say I trained myself well. So please people, who want to subscribe, or who feel bad because of negative people saying negative things about me, don't feel bad for me. I'm fine! I'm still smiling, and going on, and will continue to make videos no matter what. Only death can stop me! LOL! Well, maybe not even that. But if I run out of ideas that might stop me. Until that time comes, I will still continue to make videos. If the negative people don't like it, again, that's fine! It's their tough luck because they will NEVER stop me from making videos! Saying this once and for all.

If the negative people are also posting my videos because they want to point and jeer and laugh because I am fat, well all I can say to them is enjoy it while you can! I am working on losing weight, and I am doing well on that too. Since May, when I joined the fitness center, I've lost almost 50 pounds. To the fat-hating bigots, that may not be anything, but to me it's a HUGE accomplishment!! Something that is rather hard to do when you are my age. So YAY me!! LOL! OK, gotta pat myself on the back once in a while. I haven't even had to change my diet. I don't call this a "diet". Diets don't work! I say that all the time, and I am a living testimony of that! What this is is a change of lifestyle, not a diet. I didn't change what I eat, I just changed how much I eat. I also changed how much I work out. I used to live a rather inert lifestyle. Not so much anymore. Even if I have to push myself, I work out. Last night for example, I was sore and a wee bit tired, but I took myself to the fitness center anyways, and worked out on that treadmill, and walked nearly 3 miles on it in one hour! Then after that, I took myself to Walmart and walked around some more. I no longer park close to the store like I used to. I park all the way in the back of the parking lot, so I can walk more. If it's a big parking lot, even better!! The farther away from the enterance I am, the more I like it!

This is a good thing too, because everybody likes parking close to the enterance. It's almost impossible to find a parking space up close to the store. Especially during the holiday season! Few people want to park as far away from the enterance as they can get. Now, I actively seek out the farthest parking spot from the enterance. Sometimes I do have to push myself, but I'm a good pusher on myself, so it doesn't matter to me! And yes, I still enjoy the sweets, the chocolates and donuts every once in a while. I just have it in moderation. Like, I haven't had donuts now in about 4 months. Then I only get one, maybe 2, and that's it for the next 4 to 6 months. And even then, I still manage to lose weight! I don't go to fast food places either. Well, I never did that much to begin with! I simply hate fast food! I did not get fat because of McDonalds or Burger King or any other places like that. I just love to cook! And everything went into my mouth to either test, or to finish off a little bit of leftovers in the pan. That is how I got fat, coupled with the meds I was taking, which made me lazy, so I couldn't work out. That was how I got as big as I am now. Well, now I am off the meds, so working out is a lot easier.

I was topless one day in the bathroom, and looking in the mirror, and I noticed my lovehandles are disappearing! They are not as big as they used to be! That's good too because they were starting to be painful! The weight loss is definitely working! So, if the trolls, haters and negative people want to make fun of me for being fat, go ahead! Do your worst while you still can! My day of reckoning will come soon enough.

I once saw a person, who used to comment on my videos. He actively sought out videos of fat people, just so he could spread his negativity. He commented twice on my Fat People Sucks video, about 6 months apart. He said that he always calls out fat people on the streets. He probably only does it as he is passing by them on his bicycle, which makes his butt the cowardliest of all cowards! No doubt in my mind he would not do that shit if he was standing in front of a fat person and couldn't get away. Anyways, I saw on another video he posted a comment to the person who made the video. The person announced how she has lost a lot of weight and was feeling good about herself. Well, this jerk commented saying something to the effect of "You're no better than a rapist who rapes a child and then says I'm sorry. I hate you for getting fat in the first place!" After I saw that comment, I blocked him! He's obviously nothing but a troll and a bigot. I hate bigots! So, I blocked him. I didn't ever want to see his ass ever again! Yeah, call fat people names on the streets, while you're sitting tall in your bike, passing by them like the wussy-ass bitch you are! Instead of saying it to their faces! The only reason people don't do that is because they know they will get clobbered by the person they are talking shit about. When I was leaving Bozeman, and people were pissed off at me about my blog, I was proud of myself in how I stood my ground! It proved to me I am stronger than I ever thought I was! So now, I am not afraid to say anything! And I don't shout at people from a moving vessel either!

People like that bigot don't seem to realize they are actually part of the obesity problem. Most people who binge eat do so for comfort. Everyone likes to feel comfortable. Everyone finds comfort in different ways. I find comfort in writing my stories and listening to music. Some people binge-eat. You never know who those people are who binge-eat for comfort. When they hear a bigot like this guy, calling them names when they are outside, walking and trying to lose weight, it makes them feel bad. So what do they do? They go home and eat to make themselves feel better. That's common sense! Not rocket science! Bigots should not exist at all. I hate bigots of any kind, whether they hate fat people, thin people, black people, white people, short people or tall people, etc, etc, etc. I just hate bigots!! The worst thing about bigots is they don't realize all the damage they do. Not just the person they are targeting at that moment, but it can also destroy the family life and their friends. The only thing I am bigoted against is bigots. And gray tabby cats, but that's an animal! It doesn't count! LOL! And people always excuse cats for everything anyways. People are just dumb! That's why I hate people.

10 Things You Didn't Know About UMG Productions (Because I Never Mentioned Them)

I decided to have some fun, I've been thinking about some facts about UMG Productions that I have never mentioned online before. Though those close to us did know these facts. Anyways, I decided to compile some facts about UMG Productions that nobody knows on the internet. Maybe it'll make our company a little more interesting. But I don't know.

1. UMG Productions was called Black Panther Studios from 1979 to 1988 because the leader, Trish, has a life-sized plush black panther as a decoration in her home, which became the studio's mascot.

2. Bandit was the first character created in the studio in 1978, followed by some friends in 1980. But they were dropped in 1982, due to a popular story that came out called Creepy Day, with a bunch of ghost dogs haunting a single Pomeranian dog named Sabrina. This led to the Halloween Hall series that lasted from 1982 to 1986.

3. Martin's "gang" began in 1988, with a few characters, himself, Timothy, Lamont, and Bill. The rest were added early in 1989, these included Bucky, Mushmouth and Odel.

4. Pablo was added in 1990, and used to have a sister. Her name was Lady, and she was only used in stories 2 times. By late 1990, Lady was gone, though no story ever mentions what happened to her. She was simply dropped.

5. Bandit's real name is Trish, same as her creator. But in stories she is only referred to as "Bandit".

6. UMG Productions is basically a hobby. Not to make money from.

7. Swen arrived in 1992, and was briefly a member of Martin's "gang". But went solo in 1993, and in 1995, teamed up with Odel, who was also dropped from Martin's gang that year.

8. My best story ideas come when it is raining. For some reason, the sound of raindrops on the roof makes me think better.

9. There has been more than one character named Brad in our stories, and they are not all the same character. Same with the name Katrina.

10. Until Metazoica was created in 1994, I was never satisfied with the species of animals being used, so they constantly changed about every 4-5 months. Which is why in a story from the summer of 1989, one character looks very different than he did in a story written in December of 1989.

Well, that's 10 odd and unknown things I never mentioned about UMG Productions. If I think of more, I'll post them on here.

Bonus: Rosa's real full name is Rosalyn Mary Addington. Candi's real full name is Candice Marie Rivera. She used to be called DeeAnna. Lisa's real full name is Lisa Lynn Raphael. She used to be named Melissa.

Sketchbook Originals

Well, I recently heard from Sam. I asked him if he had anymore of my books, because these were not exactly the books I was hoping to get back. He told me he found these books at a Goodwill store in Lakewood. I was not sure whether to believe him or not. Why would Goodwill sell books like that? They are hand-written, not published books. At least, not yet! They will be when I get through with them, as there are still a couple of stories I want to have published from those books. I'll be working on them today.

The worst thing about the idea that Goodwill was selling these books is that my others may be out there somewhere, and someone else has them. When I got these books back from Sam, I noticed a lot of stories, and even several pictures, were unfinished. I have to go back through my memory bank and try to remember how I wanted these stories to finish. That's not easy! First, I have to go back to the year 1989 and think like I did back then, IF I can remember it!! Heck! Looking at the cover, I even just realized I called gay people "fags"! That was very common in the 80s though. Well, I am in for quite a task!! Better get to work!

Just thought I would touch up, as I haven't made a blog post in quite a while. But if anyone has any of these sketchbooks, let me know! If they really were sold in a Goodwill store, most likely in the Lakewood-Tacoma area. They would have dark yellow covers, and be either 11"x17" or 8.5"x11", and have weird pictures of animal faces all over the cover. That was my style back then. Send me pics, I'll pay for shipping, and let you know where to send it to.

Dumb Shit Vegans Say

You all know how much I can't stand vegans. I do have friends who are vegans, but once they accepted me as their friend, they accepted the fact there is no converting me to veganism. Not gonna happen! Well, over the years, I've heard some vegans say some pretty fucked-up shit just in an attempt to con everybody into going vegan. I thought I might compile some of the silliest things I've heard them say that are either too funny, or too stupid. This is not a personal attack on my vegan buds, this is just some quotes I've seen people on YouTube and Facebook post. Plus some of my own responses. So, here it goes:

Stupid Comment #1: "Meat-eating is the most primitive form of diet. Veganism is more advanced."

True, meat-eating is primitive. Actually they say vampirism is much more advanced than anything. But I'm sorry to burst your bubble, but veganism is MUCH more primitive than an omnivorous diet.

Stupid Comment #2: "If you go vegan, you can avoid any form of cancer, heart-disease, colds, flu, chlamydia, ebola, etc"

WRONG!!! Vegans are just as susceptible to all those diseases. The ones who get it are just closed-mouthed about it because of other vegan Nazis that will torment them if they ever spread the truth.

Stupid Comment #3: "Vegans are more empathetic than meat-eaters"

WRONG AGAIN!!! Some of the worst people I've ever met were vegans. They think it's OK to threaten, tease, harass, and scorn anyone who does not want to go vegan. Not to mention it is vegans who bomb schools that are not vegan, or medical labs that experiment on animals. I've never seen anyone who is not vegan do any of this kind of crap for the sake of a dietary choice!!

Stupid Comment #4: "Humans are more closely related to bonobos, which are strictly vegetarian apes"

Yes, we are related to bonobos and chimps. But the notion that bonobos are strict vegetarians is definitely WRONG!! I've been studying animals all my life, and there is no indication that bonobos are less omnivores than regular chimpanzees. The only strictly vegetarian apes are gorillas, and we are not that close in relation to gorillas.

Stupid Comment #5: "If you're not vegan, then you don't like animals!"

HAHAHA!! This one always makes me laugh!! Just because I don't think cows, pigs and chickens have the same rights as humans have (which is what the vegans want), does not mean I don't like animals in general. Now the fur thing I would have to admit is too far-fetched for me. But I eat meat because I like it. Not because I hate those animals. I just don't think they need to have the same rights as humans have. They are PREY ANIMALS. When we decide we want to eat them, they have no rights.

Stupid Comment #6: "How can you love and care for your dogs/cats, and feel so sad when they die, but you don't feel sad when eating meat?"

Simple. Like I said, they are PREY ANIMALS. They have high reproductive rates, which means they were intended for predators to eat. My dogs are not prey, they are family. They are friends. They have whatever rights I want them to have.

Stupid Comment #7: "Cows, pigs and chickens are sentient creatures that just want to live".

A wussy statement. They are not as sentient as humans are. They don't mourn the loss of herd members. They don't mourn the loss of their young. They don't have hopes and dreams for the future. They are prey animals living day to day with very basic emotions, if any at all. I don't deny they want to live, but they have no "rights" to live like humans do. They have yet to fight for it themselves.

Stupid Comment #8: "You don't have the claws and teeth that other carnivorous animals have so you are not intended to eat meat."

I never did understand this argument. I never said I was a pure carnivore! Humans are naturally omnivores, more like foxes and raccoons. I never, in all my years arguing with vegans, said humans are 100% carnivores like cats or killer whales. Look at omnivorous primates, like baboons. They also don't have claws. But they still manage to catch prey. Look at chimps, they don't have claws either, or the teeth carnivores have. They are still able to eat meat. Catch my drift?

Stupid Comment #9: "You have to use guns and spears to catch prey, so you are not meant to eat meat."

Yes, we do use guns and spears to catch prey. So what??!! Guns and spears are to us, what razor-sharp claws and 3-inch fangs are to a lion. It's our weaponry. The only reason lions did not come up with guns and spears to hunt prey is because they were too stupid. So nature gave them built-in weapons to compensate for their lack of brains.

Stupid Comment #10: "If you were meant to eat meat, I want to see you catch your own prey and eat everything, even the eyes and the anus."

LOL! If you want to see me capture prey, I'll do it! I'm from the South bro! I've done it before. But even predators have their preferred meat. Only the scavengers eat ALL the prey, like the eyes and anus. I prefer breast meat. Some people like darker meat, like the hind legs. But I stick to breast meat.

Stupid Comment #11: "Since you like drinking milk, how about if I rape your mother and kill your baby so you will know how a calf feels."

This is why vegans get threatened by normal people. Because they threaten to rape someone's family member and kill their children just because they drink milk. Then they constantly cry "Well meat-eaters have threatened me before!" Well, this is why! They put the dignity of a prey animal over the dignity of a human. It is totally unnatural for any creature to do that! Even more unnatural than one mammal drinking the milk of another mammal. Yes, I have even seen adult animals of one species drink milk from another species before!

Stupid Comment #12: "Vegans live longer than meat-eaters."

WRONG AGAIN!!! My great-great aunt lived to be 102, and ate meat for every meal. My grandma never ate meat until she was in her 50s, and she almost died when she turned 50 because of it.

Yes, believe me when I say I have heard all these sentences before come from vegans! Stupid and messed-up as they sound. Really, they don't know it, but they are no better than the Westboro Baptist Church saying everyone who does not practice their religion is going to hell. They use scare-tactics to get their word across, and they rarely do it for the health benefits. They do it only to save some prey animals' butts.

More Stories Coming Soon!

Well, I dug through my pile of books that I now keep in my van (until I can move out and get a place of my own) and brought out every single book that I still have that I wrote in the past. There was one I was looking for, but never found. It's the one that has the original Celina and the Tyrannosaur from 1993. I figure I may need it. But I also found it in a review from 2000, and I guess that will come in handy. That should be good enough, as long as it is dated before 2006. My biggest fear is that 20th Century Fox will see that story and say that it was ripped off from their movie, A Night At the Museum. When I first saw the movie in 2006, there is a scene with a friendly tyrannosaur skeleton that wants to play ball. Much like Rex in the story with Celina. That was the one part of the movie that made me smile, because it reminded me so much of the story that was written for UMG Productions. But unfortunately I don't have the original anymore. I threw a lot of books away when I moved to Port Angeles, and didn't have enough room for them in that trailer. That sadly must have been among the books I threw away. But I have a piece of it in a review from 2000. Good thing I did that!!! It even has it's release date on there.

I used to do that all the time, every 5 years, I would create a review of all the stories I did in the past, starting from 1980 to the year that review came out. I used to do that! It kinda got to be a hassle. The last of those that I did was in 2000. In 2005, we decided to dispense with the typical review and just create a website to showcase the stories, and we did, and I am still working on it to this day. Poor Trish, she's spent so much to get this site up and going, and this idea I have now has been the most cost-effective. I think I'll stick with this one. No more hiring someone to try and build the site again, just stick with what we got now. It's good enough! It offers both paperback versions and ebook, whatever suits the taste of the readers! I've been working on one story for a while, and it too has the Mad Anaconda in it. Well, he also makes an appearance in a story from 1992, and in that story, his name is Andy Anaconda. So, I guess he does have a name. I just always called him the Mad Anaconda. LOL! But I also have a different character named Andy, in the story the Lemur and the Mermaid, from 1985. Though I think I am going to change it to Andrew. Andrew sounds better. And Andy makes me think of that idiot back in Bozeman. I know I didn't know him when that story was written! But still! Now, my mind has been damaged about that name. But I still love Andrew (Farriss) hehehe! So I might switch to that name instead.

I always did the stories back in the day in compilation format, that is several stories were all in the same sketchbooks. The same book that had Celina and the Tyrannosaur also had this story I am working on. This story also has the Mad Anaconda in it. LOL! His victim here is Caroline, one of the few times I used her in the 90s. It's also the last time I used the Mad Anaconda too. Because the following year, I learned to love snakes. Before, I thought of them as mindless killers who love to bite for fun. But not anymore! That changed after a long talk I had with someone who was a snake expert. I guess that's why I got the urge to work on it. Because it's his last appearance ever, and it kinda represents a turning-point in my life. I was growing up. I was also moving away from the anger I felt as a child. I dunno. Some stories written are stories, with a beginning, plot and end. Some are just purely an anecdote. Not much point to the story, just purely for entertainment. I should label these accordingly.

I feel bad for Donna, I have to sit out in the living room and work on this shit! Well, the cooler does not reach my room, so I need to sit out here in order to keep cool. Otherwise I would be working on this stuff in my room. I am learning quite a bit about Donna while sitting out here. LOL! When she gets angry, she gets PISSED!!! If Donna were as shallow as Patti was, I'd probably have been kicked out by now! But thank GOD Donna is NOT like Patti!! No, when something goes wrong, she doesn't even fully blame me. She takes responsibility herself too. Whereas Patti never took responsibility. Everything with her was always the other person's fault, and was unforgivable. Ya know something, I'd been thinking about the comparison between Donna and Patti, I kinda wonder if Patti was a set-up? Perhaps the people of the Craigslist pet forums told her to take me in and act all pleasant during the interview, and gradually become an asshole. I don't know. But either Patti was a set-up, or I was right all along and her brain is totally fucked up and she was looking for someone to bully. I wonder if she bullied her brothers, and maybe that is why they left her. I know before I moved in with her, she had lived with 2 of her brothers. She probably bullied them to a point where they said "I ain't taking this no more" and moved away from her. Then Patti looked for a younger, more naïve person, like me, to move in with her for her to bully and push around. Thank GOD Donna is altogether. She's had her kids, she's not looking to raise anymore. Patti never had kids, so she was looking for someone to take the frustrations she felt of what was probably years of people bullying her, out on. Even though I had nothing to do with her being bullied. She needs to see a shrink either ways!

Talk about someone who is damaged! LOL! Anyways, I want to close this with a very special announcement. Happy Birthday TIM FARRISS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Luv ya man!! Hope your day is filled with as much laughter and happiness as you have given me all these years!! Tim does not have a Facebook page. I am surprised Jon does!! Jon needs to tell his oldest brother that he needs to get his butt on Facebook and create a page!!! I'd join, for sure. One of my facebook friends said though that he hates social media. Sometimes I don't blame him! That is why I never created a Timmyfan Whispers page on Facebook. Social media can be toxic!! Can you imagine the number of death threats I would receive each day? LOL! Or how much negativity would pour in? People got something to say they can comment on here. Not that I'll read it. LOL! I only read comments my sis posts, and she wouldn't be coming here anonymously. Well, maybe a Facebook page wouldn't be so bad. Someday perhaps.

My Cinnamon Challenge

LOL! A couple weeks ago, I did the cinnamon challenge, which is popular on YouTube. The reactions you see in peoples' faces is supposed to be funny. So, I decided to try it, just to see if I could do it. I even posted it on Facebook so my friends could see that I am a wuss. Well, apparently one friend did not like me doing the cinnamon challenge because the next day, I went into Facebook and noticed one of my friends was gone from my list. Well, I just found out who it was. Ya know I wish Facebook would let us know these things, then I can know not to expect posts from that person again. Well, all I can say is thank GOD!! LOL! This particular friend is someone I have been trying to get rid of for quite some time. She's always complaining!! There has been more than one or two times I've nearly deleted her myself!

The first time she complained to me about something, I had posted a pic that my ma posted on her page, and it was about how real men like women with curves, and only a dog lays down with a bone. Well, this hurt this person's feelings because she told me she would kill to be able to gain some weight, but can't because she had some health issues. I didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings, so I took the picture down. If I had known she was going to end everything this way, I would have just said to her "Fuck you! How dare you tell me what I shouldn't post on my wall! You're not my friend anymore! Delete!" But then because she had some health issues that would have made me look like an insensitive ogre. I didn't want that. I always like to think I'll always be there for my friends. But from that day on, I got nothing but complaints and griping from her. UGH!! Like I said, I've wanted to delete her myself more than just once. Her constant complaining got old fast!!! But you all know me, I'm too kind-hearted to delete anyone. I let them make that choice. And this person just saved me the trouble, and probably more months of aggravation! I'll tell you, it's like Sara (Mcgillicutty). You do something nice for them once, and they expect they can control everything you do from there on out!! I have to learn to STOP giving in to people, and just shut their asses off! Even if I like them.

Once more, I do NOT censor myself. I say exactly what is on my mind. If someone does not like it, I'd rather they leave and not look back than to constantly complain about everything I post, or take those cartoons I post on Facebook WAY too seriously and ask me to delete, which I will never do again for anybody! Would I accept this person back on my friends list? Hell NO!! If someone cannot handle my worst, they don't deserve my best. And that was the last time I am ever letting anyone tell me what I can and cannot post on my own page! I still say I have the most awesome friends on Facebook, the strongest of the strong! And each day, the weaker gets weeded out more and more. And that's a good thing! Well, there are a few people I'd still like to get rid of, but again, I say let them make that choice. I don't want to. Most of them are people who do not communicate with me hardly at all. One used to communicate with me a lot, and even sent me  a box of chocolates once. But she and I just have totally different interests. Like, she loves INXS's latest album, and I just don't. Simple as that. Since we disagreed with each other on that, she has stopped communication. Lately I have begun to break any ties with her too, because it seems she does not want me commenting to her again. I can sense things like that! Even over the internet. I have a great knack for that. I may delete her, or I may let her delete herself (I know it will happen one way or another sooner or later).

Even my ma didn't like me doing the cinnamon challenge much. She thought it was stupid. LOL! She said I was a grown woman and know better than to do things like that. I asked her if she wanted me to give her the address she can go to to rent a sense of humor. LOL! I told her to chill, it's supposed to be FUNNY! And I added "Laugh a little!" And my father, when I spoke to him over the phone, he asked me why I would do something like that, and I replied "for laughs". LOL! It's supposed to be funny. The peoples' reaction when they put that heaping spoon of pure cinnamon in their mouths is supposed to make people who view the video laugh. And it usually does. But not my parents! Seemed to make them angry. Oh well! LOL! At least it got some laughs from youtube!

Now, I have a lot to do today. I want to get all the books I ever wrote out of the van, where I have been storing all my books. I need to bring them in here so I can look through them. I am getting rather serious about finishing UMG Productions. So, I will be working earnestly on that.

Bittersweetness

Well, on a positive note today, I did get my sketchbooks. But it wasn't exactly the reunion I was hoping for. One book is from 1988, but most of it is unusable for the site. It's so obscure, I even forgot I wrote it!! Most of it is nothing but nature/animal reviews. One story that is in it has some potential, I need to tweak it a bit, with some of Cathy's help because I think she wrote the story. But it is unfinished. So, I need to have her dig in her memory bank and see if she can remember how the story is supposed to go. It's about a young woman named Maxie (who I later changed to Misty) who is horse-riding along in a forest by a river when she almost runs over a baby sifaka. The story has potential, but like I said, it needs some tweaking, and needs to be finished. A lot of my stories depict people on horseback, especially from this era, because back then, that was my most favorite pastime. I always LOVED horseback riding!!! But did it more back then.

The other book is from 1989, and it does have the story I wanted to use. But it too needs some tweaking, and an ending. That was commonplace back then for me to begin a story, lose interest in it, and not finish it. Again, I have to dig back into my own memory bank and try to remember how I wanted that story to end. I re-wrote the story in 1994, when Mushmouth came back from a long vacation, so I might can go on that. These I will work on, first chance I get, and will put them up on the site. They should be seen! They both have quite a bit of potential! But I am afraid the rest of the stories in these books are unusable. Either they are bits and pieces of scenes, or they are too much like other stories (or TV shows) that inspired them. Though a great deal of my stories are influenced in some way by stories, or shows that were trending at the time, they are still mostly my own ideas put together. Like in some of my stories from 1995, Beavis and Butthead were a big thing with me, and in some ways, you can see the affect they had on my stories of the time. Stupidity was the key factor there. People LOVE stupidity in cartoons, stories and TV shows, so I capitalized on that.

But unfortunately, I did not get back the books from earlier in 1988. I guess Sam did not have them! :( The book that has the story of how Martin met Genny is gone forever. I guess I didn't throw them away in the same trash can and so no one rescued that story. But hey! That's OK. Trisha has a copy, and I have it on the website. But I look at these stories from long ago, and I look at my drawings today, I improved 1000%!!! I remember back in middle school, there was this boy named Jason Ellis, who was one of those kids who bullied me throughout my last year in middle school. Thank GOD he did not go to my high school!!! Anyways, I remember he always knew me as the girl who drew pictures of dogs, but did not do them very well in his eyes. Some people loved my drawings, but he did not. Not at all! LOL! One day I was doodling on my notebook, and Jason came up to me and said "You're still drawing those dogs! God they don't look so good!" Well, he was entitled to his opinion, so I just didn't say anything. But I always wondered why, if he did not like my drawings, did he even bother to look. But hey! That's a person's right. But looking back on these drawings I did in 1988 and 89, I can actually see what Jason meant!! LOL! My drawings were crappy! Even I think so now, looking at these. But I will keep them anyways. They are a piece of UMG history.

I was thinking back to my turning point in my drawing, and remembering how I got better over the years. I think I got better when I got away from drawing mammals, and turned to drawing other things, like birds, and even dinosaurs. Then came the animals of the future. That was my big turning point. These are animals that do not exist today, so no one can look at them and say "this animal is not supposed to look like this" or something to that effect. These are animals I created, so they can look any way I want them to look! And really, each year even that changes as I learn more about evolution. I don't know, Sam might even have those books, but perhaps he just doesn't want to let them go. They were better creations. I might ask him that, but I don't know. I don't think he'll answer, he probably just wants to get rid of me now. LOL!

Well, on a bad note, my sis needs help. She called me this morning crying, and not feeling too good. She was thinking about Odessa again, and one of her best friends in the building has moved out. I know how she feels! I've lost friends before too. I hope she is able to still contact her through Facebook. But I remember growing up and either having good friends move away, or us move away from them. I never got over this one move we made and I lost my Brownie and Girl Scout troup friends. Only to move to a rotten neighborhood with rotten kids who sucked donkey balls!! The worst thing about that is that is where I had to go to middle school and high school at, so from 3rd grade to high school, I was miserable!! But now, my sis's best buddy in that building has moved out, and it makes her all the more sad. And I am not there to help her in person. As for Odessa, that is something that I cannot help. She just needs more time to get used to the fact she is not there anymore. But I know how that feels too. I had a hard time learning to cope after I lost Groucho. It takes a while.

I remembered dogs I've lost in the past, and the one that came to mind was Hutchess. I was so pensive after I lost her to parvo, it was 5 years before I could even say her name. Before that time, I mostly just referred to her as "that dog I had that died of parvo", or I would just not talk about her. But that's how bad I was. Pretty much the same after I lost Groucho. I had a pic of Groucho and Odessa together that I planned to use for Christmas cards in 2006, but Groucho died that year, so I could not even look at that picture anymore for a LONG time! Much less turn them into Christmas cards. My mama thinks I should not even have pets, because we get so depressed when they die on us. I told her it would be no different than if we had kids that something bad happened to. But you live, you go on, you get a new dog, and start all over again. I for one, cannot live without a pet. That's just me. They become my children. Just NO cats!! LOL! I'd never be that fricken desperate for a pet!!!

Timmyfan vs. Doyledeth and the Big Bad Fox???

Well, after I got Doyledeth's opinion and another like him that gave his idea, who calls himself the Big Bad Fox??? (that's his handle, question marks and all) and I gave mine, I thought I would write some more happenings that went on after my last post. As usual, I directed them both to this blog. I always do, if I am talking about someone, I always let them know it. I want their response, if they want to give it. Well, after I gave Doyledeth my response to his initial post, I heard back from him saying something to the effect of "What the fuck are you talking about???" He got angry because I said he's been broken by society. I still believe that! That was when the Big Bad Fox??? came in and basically was trying to talk me out of saying that Doyledeth is a broken person.

Doyledeth started accusing me of being an attention seeker. I said to him "If I did come here seeking attention dude, I'm sure doing a damn good job of getting it from you now!" LOL! Then the Big Bad Fox??? asked me why I would say Doyledeth is a broken person just because he gave an opinion. I said because he seems like a person who has been lied to a lot. Well then Doyledeth came and retorted with sarcasm, he said "No shit! Oh you are so observant! Everyone has been lied to at some point in their lives" Well, yes I would say that is a good observation. I have been lied to many times before too. The difference between me and Doyledeth is that he has completely let it go to his head. To a point where it has damaged him. Doyledeth thought he made me angry, and then said that instead of me making him angry, I made him laugh. Then he said thanks for the chuckles. I said to him "Who's angry? Not me." I said something to the effect of "If I were angry as you say I am, don't you think I would have said something to the effect of fuck you by now?" Katrina would have said it long ago. LOL! But no, I couldn't be angry with this guy. I told him if anything I am laughing at him as much as, if not more than, he is laughing at me, because he is trying (I think too hard) to piss me off. But that is not my style. I don't get angry at people for having their own opinion, like he was accusing me of. I reminded him that I was the one who said first in this conversation that he is entitled to his beliefs.

I am not mad at Doyledeth or the Big Bad Fox??? But now I understand why John never goes around and discusses his celebrity friends from his past. Because of ass-clowns like these. Well, I should not say that, as I don't know if they are ass-clowns. LOL! I did not even try to convince these two that I was telling the truth. In fact, I only mentioned that my stepfather is an old friend of Robin Williams once or twice. I didn't mention it again simply because I didn't feel the need to. I had my say. If they didn't believe it, that's fine. Like I said, I'd have thought the same thing if I were in their shoes. But someday I might ask ma if I can borrow John's scrapbook and scan those pics of him with Robin Williams. They were from the late 60s or early 70s, well before Mork and Mindy. I'm not out to change anyone's opinion. I just state what I know, and that's it. But today, I decided it'd be fun to have a little fun with these people. My last message was from the Big Bad Fox??? But I didn't read it. I didn't because I did not want to carry on that conversation with them all day. I had better ways to spend my afternoon. Besides, I ran out of things to say, and I was not going to keep repeating myself to them. No sense in it!

John was once a big country music station DJ in the early 70s in San Diego. He met a lot of people through that. Some big-name buddies he had (and still has) is Kenny Rogers, the Judds, Dolly Parton, and he has letters and pics of these people in his scrapbook. It's not a far cry that he is also friends with Robin Williams. But the reason he doesn't go around talking about them is because obviously people like Doyledeth and the Big Bad Fox??? It's just hard for anyone to believe that celebrities can have friends that are just average people. But I am sure a lot of them do. John being the best example I can think of. He's also met Adam Ant, and didn't like him. He's also met Chubby Checker and Andy Warhol. John does NOT like Adam Ant! LOL! I told him I only like a few of his songs, one from 1983 and one from 1990. He doesn't sing too bad, but when I heard that he only likes fans of his that are pretty, I stopped any deep interest in him before it started.

Well, I got my Batman clock today, but when I tried it to see if it runs, I found that the movement is crappy. LOL! Oh well, it's only a standard clock motor that you can get at a craft store, I might could fix it myself. Tomorrow, I should get my sketchbooks. So this is what Sam needed the $20 for! LOL! Well, at least I will be getting it. I cannot wait to see them again! Copies are fine, but nothing beats the real thing. I thought though for sure there were 3 books. But I only saw 2 in the picture Sam sent me. I could have just been mistaken. Anyways, I will find out tomorrow, they are on their way, and supposed to reach here tomorrow. I just cannot wait to see them! It'd be so neat just to have my full collection of sketchbooks back from the past. Even the far-distant past. There is one story I am trying to remember that I would just love to put on the site. It's like the Discouraged Lemur part 2. I remember the beginning of it, and it would not be in any of these sketchbooks coming. It's a story that Katie started but I don't remember if she ever finished it before she died. I helped her write it though. Unfortunately the little black sketchbook that one would have been in was thrown away a LONG time ago!! I remember the beginning, bits and pieces of it anyways. But I don't remember if it was ever finished. I remember Tony the tyrant lemur being captured and taken to the circus in the USA. But he wants to get back home to his master and the sheep farm. And I remember a sympathetic rat who aims to help him, and a small group of penguins, who are akin to the 3 Stooges, who help them as well. That's all I remember. I've been trying to remember the rest.

RIP Robin Williams

Well, I cannot say he was one of my most favorite actors, but he was a very funny man. So, this is indeed a sad loss. Recently, I learned about him doing a video with a youtuber whose name was Ray William Johnson. And Undertakerfreak was PISSED!!!!! He clobbered his own bedroom wall when he found out!! He thought appearing in a video with a youtuber would make him lose credibility. I told him to relax. RWJ probably paid Robin Williams big to appear in his video. He could afford to. He was the first YouTube made millionaire. But anyways, this is a big loss in comedy, all the greats are dying off.

I remember back in 1990, before ma and John were married, my ma told me that John and Robin Williams used to be neighbors, and friends, before Williams became famous, back in the late 60s and early 70s. John even has pictures of himself with Robin Williams when they were both younger. Of course John is a lot older than Robin Williams. Well, the problem with that is, if you tell people things like that, they tend to not believe you. I mentioned it a couple of times, and already I got one person, who calls himself Doyledeth, who said he calls bullshit! LOL! Well, I really cannot blame him. It's hard to believe celebs can have friends who are just average people. Though John was once a very big DJ in San Diego once. That was where they met. But I personally would think that if I were going to make something like that up, I would have said I knew the man myself, but I never met him. Or, I might have used the name of an actor that I thought was far more attractive than Robin Williams! LOL! This was the message from Doyledeth that I woke up to:

"Yup, you and 100s of other people claiming to either know him themselves or a family member knew him or some BS like that. Or your stepdad just lied about it."

 

And yes I did 1+ his comment. LOL! Well, since I understand how he feels, I could not get angry at him. So, my response was not too long-winded and sweet:

 

"+Doyledeth Well dude, that's your opinion. Frankly I cannot say I have proof, just pictures of the two of them together and letters they wrote back and forth to each other for years after my mom and stepfather married. But personally I'd think if someone were going to make something like that up, I'd have said I was a friend of his myself. But I personally have never met the guy. But hey! That's OK. Obviously you have been damaged by society, and I don't blame you. You'll likely respond with a retort you learned from someone else who has damaged you. I know people like you, so I understand. It's A-OK! You are entitled to your own beliefs. :)"

 

If he does respond, and I am sure he will, I know what he's going to say, he's going to say "that is complete and utter BULLSHIT!!!" or something to that affect. I don't know him, but I know his type. He's no different than the delusional mods, who I dealt with for years and kinda got used to their ways. See, I wish to GOD I could be Tim Farriss' friend, but I am not! I never claimed to be. We've met, and I like him a lot. And he seemed OK with me. But I cannot consider us friends. We didn't exchange phone numbers, or email addresses, or home addresses, you know all those things that friends do. So, if I were going to claim to be friends with any celebrity, it would be Timmy. Not Robin Williams. He and my stepfather just happened to be friends a long time ago. That's all I can say. I will ask my ma tomorrow when we spend the day together if John got the news and how it made him feel.

 

I have friends on Facebook who are friends with famous people, more so than I am! In fact, meeting celebrities is just not my thing. It just happens to me. I think GOD is on my side, but I have too good of luck with celebs. Every time I go to Hollywood (the 2 or 3 times I've been there) I always meet someone famous. Last time, I was taking a pic of my Groucho and they happened to be doing a movie shoot around us. That's what doesn't show up in those photos! Since I saw a full-on camera crew, I'm sure there were actors and actresses around me, but I don't keep up with modern celebs, so I wouldn't know that person even if they spat on me! LOL!! But I know it was a professional camera crew, their cameras were like those you see in big movie studios. Not like the ones you find in any store. But I do not actively go out and meet celebrities like some of my friends do. I am too people-shy for that. And I am always afraid I will meet someone I love and they won't like me. Or they will snub me like Kirk did.

 

I tell you all, I used to LOVE Kirk! He was right up there with Timmy as being one of my most favorite band members of INXS. But almost every time I met him, he was not very friendly to me. He was not mean or hostile, and didn't call me names or anything. It was more like I wasn't good enough for his attention. I said hello to him, and he did not say hello back. Not even so much as a smile. I've seen rock stars before who only give any attention to their prettiest fans, that's one reason I don't like Adam Ant, and I guess Kirk did not think I was pretty enough to say hello to. It hurt me, and hurt me badly. So that is why I have this special shyness about meeting famous people, and do not actively go out and do that. Because I've always been scared to death of something like that happening with a celeb I always loved. It ruined my affinity for Kirk. I am no longer a fan of his. I cannot help it either.

 

But I understand where this guy Doyledeth is coming from, I'm not sure I would be able to believe it myself if someone said something like that at a time like this, on the day Robin Williams died. Yesterday I heard from Sam again, and he said it was 94 in Tacoma. I told him that's a big switch! It was 69 here in Reno when I responded to him. I could not prove that either, and it may have been hard for him to believe too. Most people who think of Reno think of a place that gets up to over 90 degrees every day in summer. All Sam had to go on was my word, and the only proof I had was the gray skies and my roommate's thermometer outside. I could not show that to Sam at that moment. So if he wouldn't have believed me, I would have fully understood, because I may have not believed it either unless I'd seen it with my own eyes. It's the same exact principle. So, if Doyledeth's objective was to piss me off, sorry but he did not succeed. And I know he is still going to retort to repeating that my initial comment about my stepfather and Robin Williams being old friends from the past is bullshit. But hey! I'm fine with that. I still say, RIP Robin Williams, and blessings to his family.

 

Anyways, I'm going to close this post with more shameless advertising for UMG Productions. I've put up 2 more stories. One is a story that I based on the death of my Groucho. It's called Brittney's New Pet. Brittney takes the place of me in this story, well, when I lost Groucho, I felt like a little lost child! But in this story, Brittney's mom, Rosa, tells her she can always get another pet. So, Brittney takes that as permission to go find another pet, and she is happy again. Rosa does have her limits though. But you know how kids are, they always want what they cannot have. So, that is what this story is all about. The other story I put up is called The Break-In. This story is NOT recommended for children! It's based on the guy who tried to rape me back in 1990. So, it's got some mild implied violence and cussing, and also some adult (mature) images. No one is killed, but the rapist does make some threats. Just not something I would expose a child to. Young adults maybe OK with this story, as long as they are mature. The outcome is not so bad, and the rapist does get arrested, thanks to the pet of the house! Anyways, read the story. It's pretty good!

Sam Strikes Again!

LOL! OK funny title done. So far he's not been an evil person. But I did finally send the money I promised to him to send the sketchbooks to me. Now, I know he got it, but I am not sure what to do from here. Since he got it, and I am aware he did, I don't know if he's going to let me know when he sends them or not. I'll probably just have to wait, but if I do not see the books here in a week, I'm going to report him to PayPal. I'll have to! I don't have that kind of money to be throwing around like that. But I'm giving Sam a chance to prove himself, and prove me wrong. I will keep you all informed of what happens.

I done did the stupidest thing I could ever possibly do this month! Even though it is the beginning of the month and I already have a lot of money problems, I ordered a decorative clock that I've been wanting for a long time! It all started back in 1992. I was heavily into Batman. I had just gotten released from that babysitting/nanny/housekeeper job with Patti and Chris, and after that, I had gotten into Batman very heavily. Well, a nearby video store was having a sale and I went there to purchase some videos I wanted. Well, I more fell in love with this clock they had hanging on the wall. It had an image of Batman, the Joker, Penguin, Riddler and Catwoman. I wanted that clock so bad!! I asked the attendant there at the store if I could buy that clock from them. They said no because it is a promotional item created only for video stores. That was heartbreaking! I had to go home with a load of video tapes, and no Batman clock!

Well, the other night, because possibly getting these sketchbooks, I've been thinking about things from my past, I thought again about that clock. I thought about looking on ebay for it, because John said you can get ANYTHING on ebay!! So, I went in looking for that clock. Well, I found it! The seller had where the buyer can make an offer, and I did. I offered the seller $30 for it. With $14 for shipping, I figured that was the most I could afford!! Well, I will be so glad to get that clock!!! I collect clocks anyways, I love them!! I've always been so fascinated by clocks, I don't know why. I also collect Batman stuff. So it's a win-win deal with this clock.

Last night, I had another blast from the past, in the form of a dream. I dreamed about a mediocre and obscure character I created when I was 7 years old. It's the only human character I ever created when I was a kid. His name is Bob. I only drew him a few times, and only because of my mama's discretion. She wanted me to learn to draw people, because I'd mostly been drawing animals all my life. So, I drew this little boy, with a few hairs on his head, big eyes, denim jacket, big smile, and always carrying rubber stamps around (before they became a scrapbooking fad). Bob is also a musician that plays the concertina, and has a little miniature band. Using today's standards, Bob kinda looks like little Tommy on Rug Rats. Only he's like a teenager, still with only a few hairs on his head. Anyway, I only used him in a story once, and I forgot the story until I had that dream last night.

Another obscure character I created for my stories is a character I call 'The Mad Anaconda'. Not mad as in angry, mad as in insane. He is insane. I love anacondas, but this character, you don't want to meet him! LOL! He made his first appearance in 1986 in the story The Mischievous Mongoose, and has made several small appearances since. The last being in 1993. I call him The Mad Anaconda because he gets pleasure out of catching UMG characters and squeezing them into unconsciousness. He gets killed sometimes, but keeps coming back! LOL! He kinda is a representation of myself having grown up an angry child. I was horrible!! And this anaconda in my stories was kindof a release of some of that anger. He doesn't have a name, he doesn't have really a big role in UMG stories, I just call him The Mad Anaconda. And basically his only role was a tension release. Well, he made his last appearance in 1993, because that was the year I turned that part of my life around. I didn't want to remain that angry child anymore, so I began working on that part of my life. Though I admit, when I got on the internet for the first time, I had to work on that all over again. But learning to ignore the trolls and haters has completely changed my internet persona. I'm a happier person now.

You know what else changed me? Believe it or not, and this may sound odd, but this character The Watcher changed my attitude! But not in the way she might have hoped. LOL! I was so flattered when she called me a "stalking whale" I think it went a little to my head! hehehe! Because ever since then, I've been acting like a narcissistic jerk! LOL! Its one thing when someone who likes you says you are beautiful. But when someone who hates you implies you are beautiful, I guess that really makes you feel good! Because they've got to be sincere about it if they don't like you because of it. And calling me a whale, well, I consider that a compliment! Why shouldn't I? Whales are beautiful, graceful creatures, in spite of their bulk. And they are more intelligent than any other mammal. Every fat woman should consider being called a whale a compliment!! Not an insult!

Well, now I'm a completely different person than I was in 1993, when the last story with the Mad Anaconda came out. And yes, I am working on that story, and I am considering putting it on the website. Though I haven't decided yet. Some stories, the meaning is rather hard to see, so I don't know if it's going to be a story that the public will enjoy. But I am working on it anyways, just for the sheer fuck of it.

Oh yes, and one more thing.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY JON FARRISS!!!! I said this to him on Facebook, but I also want to say it here! Love ya man!!!

Blast From The Past!

Today was quite an exciting day, and just a couple hours after I woke up. Yesterday is when it all got started. My mama and I were out together cruising around. When she dropped me off here at my place, we usually start talking among each other. One of the subjects that came up was our old family friends, Brenda, Tara and Lucious. Ma started to remember all the crazy things Tara and I did when we were kids. I met Tara when she was 4 years old, and I was 5. We grew up together and at times, I was closer to her than I was to my own sis. We had our fights and battles, like all friends do, but I never stopped loving her like a sister.

Well, some months ago, I was looking for any of them on Facebook. I knew Tara had gotten married, but I had no idea what her married name is. Brenda, I wasn't even so sure if she was married again, or even still alive. So, I figured my only chance was to find Lucious. But I was not sure if he still lived in Washington state, or if he had done moved to Cleveland, OH like Tara and Brenda did. Well, I searched on Facebook for Lucious, and I did find a 20-year old guy with the same name, and his selfie he has for his profile pic looks just like Lucious did when he was a young boy. Well, as ma and I were talking about them, I wanted to show her this kid's profile, and look at his pic a little better. She agreed he looked just like Lucious did when he was a boy. And he lived in WA, and went to the same high school Tara and Lucious did. Well, when I got to this guy's page, there were a couple of pics he had been tagged in that really caught my attention. They were pictures of a man holding a baby, and the name on the pic said it was Big Lou. Well, the last time I saw Lucious, Tara's oldest child was with him, and called him "uncle Lou". And the man in the pic holding the baby looked exactly like Lucious did the last time I saw him! Ma and I looked and both of us said "That IS Lucious!"

Well, after ma and I were about 85% sure we were looking at a picture of Lucious, I PM'd this kid. I asked him if his father's name is also Lucious, and if he has an aunt named Tara, and a grandma named Brenda. Well, as of now, I haven't heard back from him yet. But last night I was so intrigued by the similarities in the picture, I decided to look further at some more of his pictures. I found someone named Tara among his Facebook friends and so I investigated her page. I looked at some of her pictures and I noticed she had the biggest smile I ever seen! I recognized that smile immediately! This was my old childhood friend, Tara!! If nothing else stood out, that smile of her's did! She always had the biggest, brightest, most beautiful smile I'd ever seen in my life!! She still does! I said, "If she lives in Cleveland then this is definitely her!" So I looked and sure enough, she lives in Cleveland! I wanted to be 100% positive it was her, so I PM'd her too. Well she answered right away, and asked me who I was, because I was under the name Dee Timmyfan. So I told her who I was and who my ma was, and then she remembered me. hehehe! We had a few minutes chat with each other, but someday I would like to have a video chat with her. I wonder if she would remember some of the old crazy things we did as kids that my ma brought up yesterday.

Well, she told me some of the things going on in her life now. She has 4 kids, although when I last saw Brenda in 1994, she said Tara had 6 kids now. Oh well. 2 of her children are all grown up and have kids of their own. She has 2 young ones with her now, she said her daughter does not want kids at all. I told her about Vegas, who I guess one would say is my kid. Tara remembered how I always loved animals. LOL! I was the one drawn to animals, while she always had a baby in her arms. She loved kids! That's for sure! She also remembered how my sis was the one to teach her to ride a bicycle. That's funny, I remembered my sis teaching me to ride one, but until Tara mentioned that, I had forgotten she taught her too. Tara's family and my family were very close! My family taught her things her family didn't, and her family taught me things my family didn't. Her family made our family complete, and vice-versa. I remember her father left Brenda soon after we met. So, the only real father figure Tara and Lucious had growing up in WA state was my father. And they took to him very well. And Brenda was always like a second mother to me.

Now if only I could find more of my childhood friends on Facebook! There's so many I'd love to find. I'd like to find some of my old buddies from High school, maybe from middle school. Who knows? I managed to find Tara and Brenda, maybe I will find others too if I look hard enough.

Odd Song Lyrics

Have you ever listened to a song and heard something that sounds so strange in the lyrics that it makes you repeat what you thought they said, or think "Did he really say that??" I know quite a few songs like that. I hear the singing, and sometimes I hear something that sounds so outlandish that I think to myself "What did he/she say?" I'm very much into songs of the 80s, especially from 1984 and up. Well, there's a few songs from the earlier years that I like, but most of my favorites come from after 1983. Songs I like from the earlier 1980s are very few, and more likely from well-established artists like Donna Summer. Anyways, I was listening to some today and it inspired me to write this blog post.

Funny how when the music is going, we hear things in the songs we probably would not hear if we just heard the singing without the music. Maybe it's because of the way the music is mixed, or maybe while the music is going, our minds concentrate so much on that that it can play tricks on us. I don't know for sure. But I have often heard some weird sentences in songs that I wondered were really there. So, today I decided to do some more research on these songs. One example of a song with strange lyrics, or so I thought, is Because The Night by 10,000 Maniacs. I have that song on my MP3 player. I like it too. I first heard it in 1993, when one night I decided to listen to the radio once again. I started and never stopped, LOL! But there is one line in that song that sounded kinda strange to me. I seriously thought the song was written for the movie Free Willy. This is why...

What I thought it said: "The way I feel I'm the orca man"
Or "The way I feel 'bout the Orkin man"
LOL!
What she is really singing is: "The way I feel under your command"

Even the real lyric there sounds kinda dumb, but it is still a very good song. There is another song that I like that I listen to quite frequently, it is U2's Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For. I love the song, I'm not a great huge fan of U2, but I do like quite a few of their songs. The music in this song is great, reminds me of the days when I was a kid and used to go to this pit near our house and play there all day. But in the middle of this song there is a lyric that every time I heard it, always made me wonder what the heck he was saying! LOL! When you hear it, it'll make you laugh...

What I thought it said: "I have had hands on the tin ball"
I always wondered "Why the heck is he singing about tin balls??"  LOL! That'd sure make Katrina laugh!!
What he really said: "I have held the hand of the devil"

Even INXS has some lyrics that sound different in the songs, and you all know by now how Michael swoons me! Sometimes I am concentrating so on his voice, the hell with the lyrics. Well, for many years I got one set of lyrics wrong in a song titled The Stairs. Though I admit I wasn't too far off.

What I thought he said: "The passion is to keep the faith, where all are different, all are great"
What he really said: "The passion lives to keep the faith, though all are different, all are great"

Sometimes, even when we think we're just hearing things in lyrics, it actually turns out that is what the person is singing. Like the song Mony, Mony by Billy Idol. Another great classic song, I also have this on my MP3 player, just like the last 3. But there is one lyric repeated throughout this song that always sounded to me like he was saying "You make me feel like a pony". As it turns out, that is exactly what he is saying! LOL! I remember in high school, there was this fat, blond girl named Tanya, and she used to meow at me. Maybe I made her feel like a cat! LOL! Heck if Billy Idol can feel good like a pony, then I guess Tanya felt good like a cat! LOL! Anyways those are some of the weird song lyrics I've come up with. Got any yourself? Share in the comments!

OK, subject change. I heard from Sam again yesterday and all he wants is enough money to cover shipping and packaging, which is OK. I would have been pissed if he was going to try and make a profit off of me for my own work! Trisha did not like the idea of that either when I told her, and neither did any of my Facebook buddies. Now my goal is just to get these books back. I'm sending him the money through PayPal, that way if he tries to stiff me, I can get PayPal to refund the money. I don't know this person anymore, if I ever did in the first place. I am still not sure who he is! And all he gave me is a PO box for his address. He's obviously got lots of money if he can afford a PO Box! I told him to give me a week or so to get the money. He did show me pics of the sketchbooks and I saw them and said "Yup! Those are MY sketchbooks!" It'd be cool to have them back! Something I never in my life expected! But I haven't got them yet. We'll see what happens.

"Crazy Cat-Lady" Syndrome

There is just no denying the internet has made cats the most loved animals on Earth. GEEZ!! Where the hell was the internet when I was 7-years old??? Back then I would have had a field day on the internet looking at all the cat videos! When I was 7-years old, I loved cats. I think most little girls do though. But I was so hard-pressed to find any other cat lovers like me. If I were still a child today, I would seem to have no problem at all. But back then, most of the people I met were dog-lovers, and I was not then. Everyone I ever met said cats are too sneaky, or creepy, or are funny-looking, or simply said that dogs are better pets. Even other little girls said that to me. Me and this other girl who loved dogs even got into a bit of a confrontation because she liked dogs and I liked cats. She was mocking how a dog could beat a cat's ass. One day, when I was about 8 years old, I was walking home from school and I saw a black mass on the road ahead of me. I wondered what the heck it was. When I got closer, I found out it was my neighbor's cat, which seemed to have just been killed by a car. It's head was completely crushed! Crushed so bad, one of it's eyeballs had been pushed out of the socket with it's brain, which had oozed out of the socket like toothpaste! Yeah, I saw that graphic sight when I was 8 years old! LOL! I thought it was sad, and horrific.

Well, today I am going to talk about the so-called "crazy cat-lady" syndrome. Yes, it is an illness. A mental illness. Since owning cats has been known to affect a person's brain. I see it all the time. A non-cat owner can always tell when someone owns cats because they act all crazy and irrational at times. And it's a certain kind of crazy that you don't see with people who own dogs or any other animals. If a person wants to own a cat, and it has no effect on their brain, I say that's fine. But the "crazy cat-lady" syndrome is something altogether different. Cat people think it's cute. But I think of it from the cat's point of view. Believe it or not, it is nothing more than a passive form of animal abuse. I have one friend who has 3 cats, feeds strays, and has taken in 2 full litters of kittens. I can already see her house in 2 years! Full of cats, litter boxes, and stinking to high heaven! She may think it's cute, but now she can barely feed her own cats! She's asking people for food donations and stuff. I would help her own 3 cats if I could. But I will NOT support the strays or those litters of kittens she insisted on taking in. Which is why I haven't donated anything to her. Much as I'd like to help her 3 pet cats, I will not support stray cats, and I'm afraid that's exactly what she'd do with the food I would donate, feed it to those stupid strays!

Yes, I have hatred for stray cats. They kill birds and other wild life. In a lot of areas, they have caused the extinction of some animals, or endangered status. I think all stray cats should be completely eradicated! Not supported. Before long, there won't be any other animals left in the world except cats. And that would be a dull world! Anyways, back to the subject. The reason I oppose people who want to become "crazy cat people" is because cats were not meant to live in large packs. Cats are not social animals. Keeping so many of them is a bad idea. I've seen cases where people had so many cats, it causes the cats to have respiratory problems, I've seen their eyes burn out literally from all the ammonia in the house, caused by the other cats urinating. They get into constant fights, sometimes killing each other. Large groups of cats are just not meant to live together in the same house. They're not like dogs. But I also would never recommend anyone take in too many dogs either. The most I ever had was 8 dogs at one time. But I was well able to care for them myself. I had no worries about feeding them, I kept the yard clean, and the dogs had proper vet care, and the house was clean too. I didn't ever ask for donations from anyone when I had all those dogs. I would never have had that many dogs if I didn't think I could take care of them all!

The cat people may think this is all so cute, they want to rescue every stray cat they see because they feel so sorry for it. But this is just a form of animal abuse. They may not see it that way because they are looking at it from a human perspective. But think of the cats, not yourself! One or two cats is really enough for any household. Three is pushing it, but still feasible if you can afford it. Any more than that, I'd have to consider it animal abuse. I know this friend does not mean for it to be animal abuse, and I am not saying she is a bad person who intentionally abuses animals. She's not the only crazy cat-person I've met who has taken in every stray cat she sees because she feels sorry for it. None of them think it's animal abuse when they take in 20 or so cats, but it is. Look at it from the cat's perspective. They're not humans. They're not dogs. They're not social animals. They're not safe living in packs. And if you have so many cats that you cannot afford to feed them or get them the vet care they need when they need it, you have WAY too many!! If your cats run away at the sight of you or someone else, they are not properly socialized and could become a nuisance! That person has way too many cats to socialize properly! A person does not need to own all the cats they can find! It's not like they are food or oxygen. And strays should be taken to the shelter to get gassed!! They are the scourge of the animal kingdom!

I thank GOD there is no such thing as a "crazy dog-lady". I would not like that status at all. But then again, dogs don't make people go crazy. And I thank GOD the cats I did have did not make me go too crazy. Not to a point where I took in strays! Or fed them. The most number of cats I ever had at one time was 3. But again, I made sure they were well taken care of. When I couldn't afford them anymore, I sent them to other homes. I'll tell you, I was glad to see those Persians go!! They are gorgeous cats, but they are a pain in the butt to own!!! That's why I prefer cats with little to no hair. Persians have to be constantly groomed and bathed. Their fur is so dense, they can't clean it very well, and start to stink after a while. Plus they cough up hairballs all over the place, and crap often gets stuck to the fur around their butt. When we had Persians, we had to keep a brush in one hand, a bar of soap in the other, and a comb nearby. LOL! That was just to keep them clean. I like Siamese. No hairballs to cough up, no constant bathing and grooming, no crap gets stuck to their butt, and they don't stink! All that stuff you have to contend with when you have a cat with so much hair. But thankfully there are no "crazy dog-lady"s. No, something else has made me crazy. Or maybe I was born crazy. LOL!

Now there is a difference between loving cats and being a total cat-fag. A person who loves cats is someone who has just one or two cats, maybe 3, and does not disrespect people who do not like cats, but just goes on about their own life. A cat-fag is someone who thinks cats can do no wrong, when in fact it is an evil cat, or implies people who don't like cats are stupid, or are not worthy of living. I saw a video one of my buddies posted on Facebook yesterday, and it showed a woman who wanted to get rid of her cat. The cat kept on attacking the woman, and she had to slap at it to get it away from her. Of course all the cat-fags on this friend's list were saying the woman was evil for slapping the cat! But the thing of it is, the cat attacked the woman first! Cat-fags just don't understand some cats are just plain evil! One person even went so far as to say the cat is telling the woman it wants to be left alone. Well, from what I saw in the video, the woman was trying to leave it alone. I think more likely the cat was just doing it for that woman's attention. I see that all the time among cats! See for yourself:

If you can tolerate this behavior from this cat, I say get over there and get it. Otherwise I would recommend this woman put this cat to sleep. Maybe it cannot be rehabilitated, and is just evil.

Cats vs. Panthers

I was thumbing through my posts on Facebook and one of my buddies posted a link to an article that spoke of a child who got his hand bitten off by a tiger that his father took him over the barriers at the zoo to pet. UGH!! Did this father not see that coming?? A tiger is not a pet! It's not something that a person can just reach out and touch without thinking! It's a fucking tiger!! Not a spectacle in a petting zoo!! People piss me off! And this man, as stupid as he is, should never have had a child!!

This is why I hate seeing tv shows and commercials that put panthers in the same light as cats, and why I totally refuse to call panthers "big cats" like everybody else! Because they are not simply "big cats". They are mindless killers and vicious murderers! Never will anyone ever hear or see me calling tigers, lions or leopards "cats"! You put panthers in the same light as cats, people tend to think they are nothing but giant house cats and they're NOT! I  remember on my page on Encyclopedia Dramatica, someone wrote that they said to me that a panther would make a much better pet than a Chihuahua. They said it was a "lulzy conversation". And I said "No, it wasn't a 'lulzy conversation'. That's something you actually believe!" All panther fanatics think panthers will make better pets than dogs. Not true!! Like I said, they are not simply giant house cats! But to those people, I say go ahead and keep some kind of panther in your home! See how that results! I guarantee you, someone will be raking up your dead body parts off your carpet after a year! Then ask a Chihuahua owner if they have any fingers missing because of their Chihuahua.

I hate such movies as The Lion King, first of all for using the word lion and king in the same sentence. Lions are NOT the king of beasts! Any more than I am the queen of the World. But second of all for the way it glorifies lions, making people believe that lions are innocent and harmless animals. Let me tell you the ugly truth about lions; in severe drought, or when the herds have moved away and they no longer have any prey to hunt, males and females will kill their own cubs for food. That's something not portrayed in the Lion King! Lions are often seen killing hyenas, but you notice they never eat them, which means they do not always kill for food, but for fun too. Does that sound nobile? Not to me. Sounds like a bully to me! Usually when you see lions at a kill surrounded by hyenas, chances are the lions stole the kill from the hyenas. But the cat fags always lie about it and say the hyenas steal the kill from the lions. Of all the panthers I hate, it is lions that I hate the absolute MOST!!! I can't stand them. Not even a little bit. I would love to take all lions, put them in some giant enclosure that they cannot escape from, and have them bombed all away. Just wipe the entire species off the face of the Earth! I love it when I see lions getting killed by crocodiles. I cheer the reptiles on!

One of my buds has a child who loves lions. I think if I ever found myself with a child that says lions are her (or his) favorite animal, I'd slap that thought right out of their head!! NO child of mine will ever like lions!! I'd see to that! I'd make their experience with lions so miserable, they'd gladly say they hate them. Lions are not worthy of being loved or glorified! They should all be destroyed!

Another thing you will never hear me say is the words most people use to refer to a female lion, tiger or leopard. Nope, I never use the words "lioness" or "tigress" or "leopardess", because that's just other synonyms people use to give panthers the sound of being "royal" beasts. Like "princess" or "dutchess", or "countess". Instead I just call female panthers what they are; female lions, female tigers and female leopards. And why not? We don't call female eagles "Eagless", or female bears "bearess", or female crocodiles "crocodiless". These are animals that are better hunters than any panther. Most of them can kick any panther's ass too. So, if they don't have special names like that, why should panthers?

I was looking at some videos today on YouTube, and I saw one video of a snake that killed a leopard cub. I always get more entertainment by looking at the comments sometimes than I do watching the video. The number of people who said they would have stopped the snake from killing the leopard cub was phenomenal! Just simply unbelievable! No one would have said that if the snake killed a rat, or a rabbit, or an antelope. Only if it kills a leopard cub. And on another video, where a leopard is killed by a crocodile, people were saying it was set up. They said the filmmakers drugged the leopard. I dunno, he looked no less alert than any average leopard. Just that crocs are so good at hiding, most animals that get attacked could be right on top of them and not even see them! And this was a HUGE croc!! The leopard was about the size of the croc's head alone! So I believe that must have been a 18-20 foot long reptile! The leopard did not stand a chance at all!! Even if he was fully grown.

Yes, there are videos of panthers beating crocodilians. There is a most recent video of a jaguar hunting and killing a caiman. LOL!! Well, let me tell you about caiman and jaguars; caiman are smaller and FAR less aggressive than crocodiles! Caiman are actually not in the same family as crocodiles, they are in the same family as alligators. While alligator attacks have been reported, they are nowhere near as aggressive as crocodiles are. Had that caiman been an Orinoco crocodile, which is rare, but does exist, the chances of that jaguar winning that battle would have been slimmer. Especially if the croc had been larger than the jaguar. The only time I have ever seen any panther beat a crocodile is if it is a small one, usually under 10 feet long, including the tail. While the tail can swing and knock a man off his feet, most of the croc's power is in the head and body, and their jaws are stronger than any other animal's. But small crocodiles, like the ones I see panthers beating up, heck with that! I've even seen baboons beat up crocs that small!! And believe me, the baboon attacking the crocodile impresses me much more than the panthers! Simply because you don't expect a baboon to go after a crocodile!

That's another thing about panthers, I don't see the fascination about them. I see people commenting all the time how felines always amaze them. Well, they do NOT amaze me, in any way, shape or form! I've been studying animals all my life, and watching nature shows for as long as I can remember, the one family of animals that always fails to impress me is the felines. Lately, lions have been seen attacking elephants, even adult bulls, usually those weakened by illness. Well, guess what! Dholes also attack elephants in Asia! The reason the dholes impress me more is because they are relatively small, and have no claws on their toes like lions, and their teeth are smaller than those of a lion's. Yet the elephants panic when they see a pack of dholes approach them! Yeah, a whole group of lions can bring down a sick elephant, they're bigger than the dholes, but not bigger than the elephants. But the thing about them that takes away the impressive shock is the fact lions are more endowed than any other land carnivore. They have 3-inch fangs, and razor-sharp claws. With the right weapons, a 90-pound man could easily bring down a 250-pound man! No problem! That is why panthers don't impress me at all. They may not have the size, but they are equipped with the right weapons. So, I see a group of lions bring down an elephant, I'm then like "so what?" It does not impress me at all!