Hillary Or Bust

Oh GOD! I think one of my friends has lost it. Honestly, I don't know what this friend is thinking. Actually I hate both Hillary and Trump and I let her know this last night. I'm not voting for either one. They are both the sorriest-ass excuses I've ever seen in my life for presidential election. This is what we are down to in our choice to run this country, two of the worst people any one can ever hope for. We got Donald Trump who is a misogynist and a bully, and Hillary who wants to let hardcore muslims in this country that want to kill us and our pets! Remember that post I made about muslims stealing pets, skinning them and tying them to crosses in Malta? You want to bet they are going to do that shit here? I don't want anything happening to my babies! And if it does, and it's because of damn-fucking muslim shit, I'm going to blame Hillary!!! You can bet your britches she's going to get a scathing email from me!

Oh wait! She'd probably just delete that too. Fuck her!

Anyways, this friend said that if anyone of her friends vote for Trump, then she wants them to delete her. She didn't want to be their friend anymore. I still like this friend, and I told her I hate both Trump and Hillary. So I am not voting. It reminds me of the turmoil I had with the Yatesfags earlier this year. I told her how a lot of them deleted me because I don't like Paula Yates. The good thing about that is at least I never have to look at them again. The bad thing is, well, I don't think there was a bad thing about it. But I told her I did not tell them to delete themselves. They did that on their own accord. I did not tell them I wouldn't be their friend if they like Paula Yates. In fact, most of the people who deleted themselves from my friends, I never knew they were Yatesfags until after they deleted themselves. They never acted like fags until then.

But the fact of the matter is, I consider Paula Yates an irresponsible parent and a MURDERER!!!! She killed my Michael!!! I will forever hate her for that!!! But I do still have friends who are fans of her's. The point is is that that does not bother me. I can be friends with people who are fans of hers. I just cannot be friends with the fags. No way! And I'm sorry, but if this friend does not like Trump, and she wants people gone from her friends list who do not like Hillary Clinton, well that makes her a Clintfag. But I am going to wait and watch carefully before I decide if I want to delete her or not. I mean, I still like this person. Don't get me wrong. But if she does not like people who do not vote for Hillary Clinton, then this will never completely work out. Because if it's not "I don't like you if you like Trump!" or "If you don't vote for Hillary Clinton, then I don't want you as a friend!" then it'll be something else down the road. That is why I am so glad the fags deleted me from their friends. There's always going to be something, somewhere that's going to set them off and keep the friendship between us on the rocks.

I don't need friends like that. I had friends like that throughout my school years. I want more mature and stable friendships in my life now. Nothing else. Well, a lot of people dropped this friend, I saw their messages to her, some of them even said they were not voting for Trump, but deleting her because of the childish post stating that she wanted all Trump supporters off her Facebook. I have to agree. For someone to say "if you vote for someone I don't like, then delete me from your friends". I asked her "Don't you think that's just a little bit childish?" Now, I wouldn't be surprised if she deletes me from her friends. A lot of people do when you point out the truth to them.

I'll tell you, I don't know what this world is coming to. All this fag bullshit! People hating each other because they don't like the same things. Makes me want to hate people even more than I already did! UGH!!! I guess this proves we are nearing the end of our world as we know it. I heard some time ago that this will indeed happen. But once it is over, we will enter total world peace. I'm just hoping that time comes soon. I'm sick of meeting someone, getting to know them, getting to like them, building up that trust towards them, only to have them turn out to be radicals. I'd been friends with this woman since 2011. I invested a lot of emotional support into her. Sent loads of prayers, worried with her, chatted with her, everything. I don't want to just drop her. 5 years doesn't sound like very long, but for me to have a friend in that short amount of time that I trust implicitly, is very rare. I don't want to just say sionara to her.

****************************UPDATE 8/2/16******************************

Well this woman deleted me from her friends. I told you all I wouldn't be surprised if she did! LOL! But really, I am not as upset as I thought I'd be. Like I said, it just proves she's a Clintfag. I don't want anything to do with any fags. I never even said if I was voting for Trump or not, which I am NOT! I still hate that evil bastard! Katy deleted me saying "I hope I never have to see you again, I never knew you were that pathetic!" I kinda wonder what she means by "pathetic"? Does she mean "pathetic" because I am not a democrat? Or "pathetic" because I think she's acting like a child? Or "pathetic" because I hate Paula Yates? Well, I ain't a republican neither. I'm a libertarian. And I still think she's acting like a child! And I still can't stand Paula Yates!

Fags, An Abomination?

Ya know, I wonder if the WBC is partially right about this. They are always saying how "fags are an abomination in the eyes of GOD". I know that is about what it says in the Bible and the WBC stands on street corners and shouts those words out at the top of their lungs at everybody. I've been thinking, with all the feminazi, Yatesfag, pantherfag, and Black Lives Matter bullshit I'm beginning to believe the WBC is at least partly right. One thing those 4 groups have in common is they are all made up of fags. 100% fags! No decent person is a feminazi, nor a Yatesfag, nor a pantherfag, nor approves of that Black Lives Matter movement. Even the decent black people don't go for that, because it's doing nothing but magnifying racism in this country and it's giving black people a worse image than what they already had. I'm sorry to sound stereotypical here, but black people have already been seen as being pushy, violent and annoying. All except the conservatives. But with this Black Lives Matter movement going on now, they're proving those stereotypes are true. The conservative black people are the ones against BLM, and they have a good reason to be.

But anyways, this is about fags being an abomination in GOD's eyes. The problem is that the WBC has been saying "fags are what GOD calls gay people", well I think they're wrong! Maybe the Bible does not mean gays when it talks about "fags" being an abomination. Maybe, like me, the Bible is referring to people who are anti-choice, anti-freedom and anti-rights. GOD is apparently offended by war. Fags start wars. They don't know it but they do. So it only stands to reason that possibly it was people like that who GOD sees as an abomination. The WBC themselves are a bunch of fags. They're religious fags. Not even Christfags because I don't believe they believe in Christ. But they are indeed what I call religious fags because they are hot-headed in their beliefs, they preach angrily at people, and they try to get their point across by attempting to strike fear into the people who disprove them. Generally by telling those people they are going to Hell. Well, since the WBC are nothing but a bunch of fags, they're going to Hell too.

Its one thing, I think, to stand up for what you believe in. It's a totally different thing when you're hot-headed in your beliefs. It's those hot-heads that I refer to as "fags". Sometimes the "hot-heads" are not always preachy. Like with the Yatesfags, most of them did not get preachy with me, they just deleted themselves from my friends list, and the really hot-headed fags even blocked me from their facebook. It was subtle faggotry, but it still proves they are fags. For me to block someone on Facebook, they would have had to do something REALLY bad. Like kill a puppy or kitten or person. That to me is really bad. Even though I don't like kittens, I still don't want to see them drowned in a pool or something on purpose by some heartless individual. But a lot of the people who unfriended me also blocked me, and the only reason I could think of that they would do that is because they are fags, seeing as how I was never anything but good to most of them. So, they must have had some guilt on their conscience or something, and my blog brought that out in them. Shoot! Glad I could help! People need to feel guilt when they wrong others or do wrong to GOD.

So this must really be what the Bible means when it says "fags are an abomination". It doesn't mean gays. It means hot-headed nazis. A lot of things in the Bible I truly believe was misinterpreted. This must be one of them. Gays are only trying to make peace between themselves and heterosexuals. Fags don't care to make peace. They just want everyone to see everything their way. They want everyone to agree with them. They want to be told they are right. And when you don't do any of that, that's when they try to silence you. That's why I hate fags. That's probably why GOD hates fags too. And also probably why the WBC hates fags as well. Well, here's a newsflash: I won't be silenced! They are NEVER going to shut me up. I've said that many times before. People can block me on Facebook all they want to, but they will still never shut me up! I got more than one platform. Everything happens for a reason. The people who are out of my life now, are the ones GOD chose to keep out of my life. They were not meant to be in my life at this point in time. I'm finding out it's a good thing. I don't need drama-queens in my life right now. All I need now is positive thoughts. I have wonderful friends and family now who are giving me that too! :)

So here it is now, GOD I sacrifice all this nazi, fag, radical bullshit to you!

Speaking of friends, lately I have been making friends with people I never thought I would make friends with ever again. LOL! Well, I do tend to change my mind a lot. But lately I've been making friends with show breeders. But they are nice show breeders. Not like the old farts in that one e-mail group I was on before my Groucho died. I think these people are closer to my own age. How ironic. I lost a few people on Facebook that I thought were INXS fans, and I used to say INXS fans are the best friends of all. Well, the majority of them really are. It's the ones who are also Yatesfags that are not. You'll be able to sniff them out eventually. Most of them will argue with you once you say anything bad about Paula Yates. I still hate that woman!! LOL! But it's ironic that I've traded the Yatesfags now for show breeders. And I used to say I hated show breeders. Well, I can't say that anymore. Well, I still don't like the way I was treated by show breeders in the past. But again, they were just a bunch of hating old farts who were probably angry at the world for whatever reason. I think in the case of that one guy, John Cipollina, he really did not want me in that email group. I think he was the one ascender on my application before I joined that group.

In that group, you had to be voted in or out by the moderation team. Apparently there were 3 mods on that voting team and I know John Cipollina was one of them. I remember that. I also know there were people on that group that I had seen before in other groups, and they were other groups that also wanted to censor me too. So, I believe that someone said something to him about me, and he voted no when the mods wanted to vote me in. But the other 2 mods said OK. Thus I think John Cipollina was looking for trouble from me, which is why he never said 2 words to me until I filled out this survey that was passed on to the group, and those were very hostile, angry words. He acted like a total raging lunatic. All because I said I preferred European lines to American lines back then. Well, now I've seen some very nice American lines in show dogs. But I still thought AKC should do what the FCI does, which is not allow a dog to be registerable for breeding unless it has been health-checked and cleared. I still say John Cipollina's actions were completely uncalled for. I was never rude or hostile to him. So, how dare he bitch like he did! And how dare he treat me like shit and not expect to get it thrown back in his fat, ugly face! And by ugly I mean "hateful". I'm no better-looking really! LOL!

But these breeders I've been meeting lately, are NOTHING like that!! One of them I really love because she also likes rock n roll music. So, she is someone I can really relate to. Plus, she is going to help me start a wee bit of a business, which is awesome. I cannot do any business now because I've got something special coming up within the next week. But as soon as I am finished with that special thing, I'll be able to do anything I need to to start this business. This reminds me of the saying that goes "One door closes, another one opens". I'm glad I met these breeders. They are once again restoring my faith in show breeders again. I just still need to be extremely cautious about which ones I come to consider friends. Hope that none of them are radical breeder fags like John Cipollina.

Is Suicide Cowardly?

Wow! This is a hot topic on my Facebook page today! No, I am not currently contemplating suicide. Though I have had a tough year with the family problems and the death of a couple of good friends, suicide to me is not an option at this time. Not for me! Though I would be lying if I ever said suicide didn't occasionally cross my mind. It has in the past. But I haven't done it yet to myself because I always believe things get better eventually. One door closes, GOD then opens another one. Plus I always think about my friends and family and how they would feel if something bad happened to me. In fact, it is my friends and family that keeps me going. I just wish they lived closer. Katrina is the closest and now she lives about 100 miles from me. Plus she is pregnant. So it's not like she can come over every weekend to visit. Now I know how Timmy felt in that scene in Never Tear Us Apart when Andrew was moving to the UK, Jon was in Hong Kong and Michael was in Denmark!

I also can appreciate how Michael felt in the last scene with him with his managers in the US, and his daughter in the UK. The difference is Michael was the only one that lost it and did the unthinkable. How long will it take before I finally lose it? Once you've lost it, there is no turning back. Sometimes you may recover, but sometimes like in Michael's case, you don't. A person cannot control it once they've lost it. You don't think about "how is my family going to feel?" I could be together one minute, lose it the next and jump off this balcony and allow myself to fall flat on my neck, then it'd be too late to recover. My neck would be broken and I'm as good as dead. Or in a moment of misery, I could take a knife and slash my wrists, or my own throat. When you've lost it, nothing is on your mind except ending your life. You don't think about your family, you don't think about calling anyone, you don't think about any of the aftermath of your decision, you usually do not think of getting help. You just think about ending it all. Believe me, I was there before. I know what it feels like. But my sis was there to stop me. Now, there's no one here in case that happens again.

But is suicide a cowardly act? I know in the Bible it is considered an abomination and it sends you to Hell. But is it a cowardly act? I don't know. I think it depends on the situation. Having been close to suicide, I know how it feels. Like I said before, nothing is on your mind except ending your life. So, I believe a person who is suicidal is not in their right mind. That would be like punishing an autistic person for not thinking like normal people do. Though I do know a lot of people will do that, even though it's not right. But that's just people being people. But I really think it depends on the situation whether suicide is an act of cowardice or not. For example, Michael's case. Let's say he really did mean to kill himself. I am sure it was due to a lot of things running through his mind, with this movie he was supposed to be in, the solo album, the tour INXS was on, the thought of having Paula's girls and his baby there in Australia with him. All those things going through his mind probably made his mind run a million miles an hour! Then the deal with Bob Geldof, he probably thought was one slap in the face too many and that's when he lost it. He could not think of his baby girl, he could not think of his responsibilities with the band, he could not think about how he'd be missed. All he could think was that he wanted out. And so that is what he did. It's not cowardice. He was just probably feeling overwhelmed.

Now, there are some cases where I believe suicide is indeed a cowardly act, and that is when someone commits a crime and doesn't want to go to jail for it. Case in point, when I was working at a factory back in 2000, there was this woman who worked there and was trying to get out of an abusive marriage. When she finally had the guts to leave, her husband killed her, right in front of the eyes of their kids! He then cut her head off, ripped open her chest and pulled her heart out and said "Your heart will always belong to me!" When the police were called, instead of going to jail, he killed himself. Now something like that was a cowardly act, because his wife did not ask to die. He stole her life from her. He didn't want to pay for his crime so he killed himself. That is when I believe it is a cowardly act to kill yourself. The woman's family was never able to get justice served for her murder. I say if you're going to do the crime, you'd better do the time. He chose his actions when he killed his wife. She didn't, he did. When he chose those actions, he accepted the consequences. He should have taken it like a regular person and served his time. Yes, I think it was cowardly of him to kill himself rather than face jail time.

Movies These Days Are So Poorly Made

OK, so I got a lot of time on my hands now, I am waiting for my sis to come and help me pack my things. She's got some boxes she can bring. I do need some more boxes. Not a heck of a lot, but there are some things that still need to be packed that I haven't been able to pack yet. So that is why I am having a surge of ideas for blog posts now. I got more time on my hands now than I did earlier this month. I just finished watching a review of the new Ghostbusters movie by a guy on YouTube, who at first said he was not going to see the movie. Well, I guess he got somewhat curious and buckled down and went to see the movie and says he is sorry now he ever went to see it. He said he did not like it. I said I'm not surprised it sucked. Having seen some of today's movies, I am not at all surprised it sucked! He said even if the movie had had the original cast, it still would have sucked. He said he only laughed a couple of times during this movie. People these days do not know how to be funny anymore!! No one knows how to make a good movie anymore.

Like I said in an earlier post, people need to start turning to books for new ideas. If you cannot find a good book by a known author to make into a movie, then look to indie-authors. Like me. There are plenty of good books out there. Many of which would make great movies! But today's directors, OMG! What is wrong with them??? I'll tell you, we need to trash this CGI animation crap and just go back to the old fashioned ways. I think that may be partly what is making today's movies suck so much. I even keep on seeing these previews for Finding Dory. At first when I started hearing about this movie, I was like "You already did Finding Nemo! Do we really need to also do Finding Dory?" But kids will enjoy it. I doubt it'll ever become the classic that Finding Nemo was though. I'm actually sick and tired of CGI animated movies. It was cute in the beginning. Now, it's being WAY overdone! People today though, they feed off the success of former films and create these crappy sequels that are not really worth seeing. I have all 3 Jurassic Park movies, only the first one is really worth seeing.

It takes a very creative type person to come up with something original that will sell in movie theaters. Unfortunately, we don't seem to have people nowadays who are that good. I partially blame Bush's No Child Left Behind amendment. Kids nowadays who only have brains the size of a mushroom can pass their grade in school. Thus can graduate from college, even though they don't really have a handle on what they are doing. Seems the only movies that do well are those that are about gangs and shootings. Other movies today are just plain rip-offs of other successful movies. Nothing is funny anymore. This guy said this new Ghostbusters movie was trying so hard to be funny that it just wasn't funny. Seriously, we are in a crisis today. We need better directors! The last movie I saw in the theaters was Jackass Number Two. I liked it. But then movies like that are good! Not because they are reality-based. But because they always have new ideas. They do these stunts and give honest reactions. And whatever happens happens. It's all random. But Ghostbusters was already made, and it's original form was a success. I say leave it alone! Move on to other ideas.

I don't know what today's performers and directors are on, but this is getting ridiculous! Maybe they need to take some ideas off of YouTube or something. Of course I don't want to see a lot of stupid cat videos, but a mixture of different kinds of videos would be great. Or maybe get some of the funniest and most popular YouTubers together to come and make one big smash hit movie. Any ideas would be great! Better than what they're doing in Hollywood now! There hasn't been a single movie since Jackass Number Two that I have cared to see. Some movies I saw in the past I wish I could unsee. Like Madagascar. Though I loved the lemurs, that lion was so fricken annoying!! They kept calling that stupid lion "the king", which is about the only hilarious thing they did with that lion in the movie. But then I always laugh when anyone associates lions with being "the king" of anything. But I saw the movie, and I have it in my DVD collection because I liked the lemurs. It's about the only movie I've ever seen that has lemurs as part of the main characters, besides my own. It's just unfortunate that it has to be tarnished by the presence of some kind of panther.

I need to take a crash-course on movie production! Hollywood needs me! LOL! I already know a little about making movies. I know a little bit about how to be funny. I need to get a degree in movie production and I need to hurry!

Stupidest Reasons People Think Cats Are Better Than Dogs

Well, you all know I hate cats. And Katrina hates cats too. She actually has a pellet gun she uses to shoot at them with, since the one time several years ago, stray cats around her place nearly destroyed a $50,000 sports car she invested in. The neighbors didn't stop feeding them, so Katrina started shooting at them every time they would come on to her property. The pet food industry has determined that cats are the most numerous pets around today. I dunno, I have a hard time thinking of cats as "pets". They don't love us, they only love to be fed. They just hang around peoples' homes because it's free food for them. Once they become dissatisfied with the food, I suppose is when they run away. My stepmom is a cat person, more so than a dog person. But she has had 4 cats that have all just up and ran away. So, it obvious cats do not love her back.

Anyways, today I thought I would put down some of the dumbest reasons cat people have said cats are better than dogs. These are not just made up on my part. These are comments I've actually heard cat people use as an excuse to believe cats are better than dogs! Dogs at least love us, and they will do anything to make us happy. More than what can be said about cats!

Stupid comment #1: "Hello Kitty. Not Hello Doggie."

My response: Totally stupid! Unless your whole life revolves around this stupid anime craze. Mine does not, I'm not some delusional dim-wit twat!

Stupid comment #2: "Lions, tigers and leopards all prove cats are superior to dogs."

My response: Who cares?! You put either one in a room with a lion, tiger or leopard, they'd both get eaten!

Stupid comment #3: "Cats don't have owners. They have staff."

My response: OK, if you don't mind being controlled in your own house. Personally, I am controlled enough at work, I won't put up with it when I don't have to in my own house.

Stupid comment #4: "Cats are cleaner than dogs."

My response: Well, I will hand it to them that cats are cleaner. They lick their own butts, using their tongue as toilet paper. But what cats lack in dirtiness, they more than make up for in destructiveness. I've always known cats to be much more destructive than a similar-sized dog.

Stupid comment #5: "The ancient Egyptians worshiped cats."

My response: So what?! The ancient Egyptians worshiped lots of animals! Using that logic, scorpions are better than cats. Crocodiles are better than cats. Cobras are better than cats. Dung beetles are better than cats. Besides, the ancient Egyptians are also extinct. So, worshiping cats did not save them in the end.

Stupid comment #6: "Cats are sweeter than dogs."

My response: Yeah cats are "sweeter", they still don't love you. So don't allow yourself to be fooled by that so-called "sweetness". What they 'love' is your food. Not you. There's a reason I nicknamed dogs "sweets", and not cats. The only nickname I have for cats is "useless flea taxis".

Stupid comment #7: "Dogs are cowards. Cats are not."

My response: It's sad that the world has come to this. We know we are nearing the apocalypse when an animal that would give it's life for it's owner is cast-off over a useless beast that would only save it's self in tense situations! There is no animal that is farthest from being a coward than a dog. If you believe dogs are cowards, then I'd have to question what you think real bravery is.

Stupid comment #8: "Cats are smarter than dogs."

My response: Absolutely NOT true. Take it from someone who has studied animals all her life. The reason cats seem smarter is because they are loners, so they have to pretty much train themselves. Dogs are like schoolchildren. They aren't stupid, but they also are not below learning new things from their pack leaders. It takes just as much time to train a cat as it does to train a dog. Besides, Border collies--the world's smartest dogs--have the same intelligence as a 4 year old person.

Stupid comment #9: "Cats don't kill people like dogs do."

My response: Well, back in stupid comment #2, it was discussed that people think cats are better because of lions, tigers and leopards. But how many people have actually been killed by some kind of panther in the past? Truth is, if people had as much contact with panthers as we have with "killer dogs", there would be many more deaths linked to the panthers than there are to dogs. But again, put a person in a room with a hungry pit bull and a hungry tiger or lion, which one do you think would eat the person? Chances are, it'd be the panther. Not the dog. Dogs are only as good as the people behind them. If the dog is bad, don't think bad about the dog, think bad about the owner!

Well, those are some of the comments I've heard from people who think cats are better than dogs. Take it as you will. But personally, I will continue to admire dogs! Cavemen worshiped dogs, and the results of their existence is still around today, unlike the ancient Egyptians. In fact, there would not be human civilizations if it weren't for dogs. And even the ancient Egyptians knew that. That's why the Pharaoh Hound was bred. Did you know that the Pharaoh Hound was actually created before the ancient Egyptians discovered cats? Kinda says something doesn't it?! It says that ancient Egypt did not go under until they began worshiping cats.

What's She Thinking?

I thought this was a cute pic too. Now, I kinda wonder what Lily is thinking here. One of my friends said in this pic she looks sad. I kinda agree. Actually I think she looks kindof emotionless. But that could be just for the picture. And the fact she doesn't have make up on. It is a sad fact that all she has of her father is pictures. But I truly believe pictures capture the soul. Maybe here it shows Lily finally feeling the pain of losing her parents. Well, I am sure there was always some pain there, though she was just a baby when both her parents died. Now, she is old enough to understand what happened and piece it together.

There is no doubt in my mind that Michael loved Lily. Not a shred of doubt. I just wish he would have thought more of her to keep going and not do what he did. Paula, I don't know, I don't care. She was just plain irresponsible! She abandoned Lily! I won't forgive her for that! I don't like what Michael did, but he was the easier of the two for me to forgive. I loved that man more than life it's self. I never liked Paula. So, Michael to me was easy to forgive, even though he abandoned Lily too. And yes, I do think it was irresponsible of him! But Michael touched me in ways Paula never could. Michael was sweet, funny, his words filled my heart with laughter and joy, and his singing made me swoon. Read my story "Hutchess, A Picture Diary" and you will see how Michael (and Timmy both) saved my life. With all that in mind, I could not help but forgive Michael, and to this day, I am not angry at him anymore. Paula Yates was a very different story. Paula meant nothing to me at all. I was never a fan of hers. So all I see when I see Paula Yates is an ugly, irresponsible woman who deserved to die in shame!! She should have wised up for the sake of Lily. I'm angry at her for not being here for her!

Looking back on some of my past posts, I notice I've said some terrible things about Bob Geldof. LOL! Not that I like him at all now, but I have said now that I have more respect for him than I will ever have for Paula. Which really is not saying much, as I have absolutely NO respect for Paula any ways to Sunday!! I never did and I never will. But you know what's funny, I actually knew Paula was going to kill herself soon. I first learned who she was just after Michael died and it was announced to me that he has a daughter out there. I didn't ever blame Paula for Michael's death until after she died. I figured then it was guilt that made her kill herself. It was then I found out that Paula would not visit Michael in Australia and he wanted to see his baby.

Everyone who knew Michael, including myself, knew he was a man who loved life. That's why his death was so shocking to me. That's why I never thought he would do something so dumb as to kill himself! Yes, for a long time, I hated him for that, but loved him so deeply at the same time. It's hard to explain. But it is positive proof that love is indeed a stronger emotion than hate. I had this sort of love-hate feeling for Michael shortly after he died, and after I found out what killed him. More often it was the love that took over my feelings for Michael. Until 2005, when I "rediscovered" Timmy. LOL! That lasted for 9 years. Today I think I have completely forgiven Michael all the way, and I love him much more than I ever have before.

Oh! Speaking of which, UMG Productions now has a new feature! Thanks to Sellfy, now, buyers can name their own price on ebooks. All they really pay is a minimum fee, but they have the option to pay more if they want to. The minimum is mostly about $3.99, which is what I think any ebook should be worth. It is digital afterall. Printed material still costs the same though. But now it's up to the buyer if they want to pay more for an ebook.

Michael and His Girlfriend

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!! Ya know, I think this makes Paula Yates look better actually! The dog definitely has a cuter face than she does. I did this a few days ago, I thought it'd be good for laughs, and believe me, it did get a lot of laughs when I posted it! Of course you know the Yatesfags are going to hate this, but fuck them! Who cares what they like or don't like?! The only thing that bothers me is that this would be insulting to the dog. Well maybe not! It would be awesome to see Michael wrap his hands around a cute puppy! But then again, what dog would want to be Paula Yates? I know I wouldn't! I still can't stand that woman! The funniest thing is the Yatesfags think I am "jealous" of Paula. LOL!!! I still laugh about that too. What they don't know is that I got to kiss Michael. So, if there is one thing I am not, it's jealous. I'm not even jealous of people who were fans of Michael's and got to have pics taken with him. That seriously does not bother me at all. I don't know why, as other fans, who haven't met Michael, do envy those who met him. I kissed him but I never got a pic of myself with him. I guess because I know in my heart that if GOD had wanted me to get closer to Michael, HE would have made the arrangements. And since HE didn't, then it was not meant to be between us. Besides, I also know that big rock stars never fall in love with fans. They always fall in love with other celebrities. That's just a fact. And I was not famous at the time Michael was living.

Heck, I'm still not famous! LOL! I make movies, and yes I put them up on Youtube, but I don't do it to get famous. My videos do not get a lot of views actually. And even that does not bother me. I've never gotten more than 370 subscribers. My videos, on average, will get maybe 100 views in a year, yet I have almost 200 videos on my channel. And my videos get very few comments. But ya know, none of that bothers me at all. Because I am not on YouTube for the subscribers. I am not on YouTube for the views or the comments. I do not post videos every day, I only post videos when I can think of a subject. I am on YouTube because I enjoy making movies. That is all. Believe me, if views, subscribers, comments and ratings was all I was after, then I would have quit long ago. Or I would be saying at the end of each video "Subscribe to my channel", or "Click Like and comment below". Although I do encourage comments, they are not that important to my video production. I just make videos for the fun of it. Kinda like playing jacks.

Now, that is not to say I don't appreciate subscribers. I do love my subscribers. But I am saying that having subscribers is not the reason I am on YouTube in the first place. I have even removed some videos in the past, some that I felt were far too negative, as I am trying not to give negative people any publicity. I even did one episode of a semi-animated video called "Eva the Trollinator", featuring one of my characters. But I took it down because I didn't want to give the trolls any publicity. Though I may put videos like that up again in the future, they won't stay up for long. They're not designed to. Just long enough to give people a warning about the troll that will be discussed. But no, I won't keep videos like that up because I do not want to give trolls too much publicity. Besides, trolls tend to always delete their accounts and then create new ones. So, it wouldn't make sense to keep that video up. The last one I did was about some guy who called himself SMDTURBO, who most likely does not exist under that name anymore, and has deleted that account and maybe even created a new one, like all trolls always do. So, I took down that video.

I did notice when I did that video, I lost quite a few subscribers. But again, it doesn't bother me. That's their prerogative. Nobody "owns" subscribers. And for the life of me, I cannot understand why when some people unsubscribe to someone on YouTube, they always say "I was a loyal subscriber of yours for a lot of years, but now I am unsubscribing! Because you hurt my feelings!" I always say "Well, don't let the door hit you as you leave!" Again, they can come and go as they please. I will still continue to make videos as always. As soon as I am finished this month, or next month, I will be back to making videos as I have before. I will also commence posting blogs.

So anyways, what do you all think about having a statue of Michael Hutchence? I think it would be an awesome addition to the city Michael grew up in. One of my friends has now made it her legacy to have a statue of Michael in Sydney, and she has a lot of VIPs on her side. She has also created a group to promote this idea. I've been telling people in my group to get over there and tell their story of what Michael means to them. Every story counts. A couple of the mods on that group I suspect of being radicals, but that doesn't matter. I'm there for my friend, to support her in her quest to make this happen. Not to associate with the radicals. I hate Facebook though! UGH!!! Lately, I've noticed a problem when sometimes I post a comment, it disappears. Yet I know I made a comment! No matter what I try, I can never get that comment to show up again! This is getting annoying! Because sometimes I will get a notice saying "So-n-so has responded to your comment", and I cannot read it or respond! And I don't want "so-n-so" to think I am stuck up. But I cannot help it. It's obviously Facebook doing it! Like I said, if I could communicate with my family without it, I would give up Facebook altogether.

Well, I posted a few videos on the group. One of them is the full version of Michael's Rough Guide to Hong Kong. You can apparently get chapters 2 and 3 still on YouTube, but chapter 1 for some reason, was taken down. Thank GOD I got it when I did! I put it together and remade the whole video out of it. I even got contacted by Richard Lowenstein. He thanked me for posting it and asked me some things about it. I can't say any more. Anyways, go there and tell your story! Michael meant many things to many people. I know he saved my life once. Him and Timmy are both my heroes!! I will love them forever! I only hope this statue looks good! Not like that crappy one they have at that wax museum!

Speaking of which, I am thinking about having mini statues made of all the guys. The problem is it'll cost a lot, but in the end, it'll be worth it! I'm going to do it!! I just hope the little figures look the way I want them to look! I have a line-up of artists of my own to work on this project. I cannot contact them now, as I have other things on my mind at this time. But I want to do this! I always wanted little INXS figurines made! This would be perfect!

This Must Be It LOL!

Shoot! Now I think I understand why men love panthers so much. Look at this...

And this....

And this...

This must also be why some people perceive panthers as being "sexy" beasts. LOL! Mystery solved. I never understood it until now. Personally, I always thought panther noses were ugly. But then that's me. To me, EVERY part of a panther's body is ugly. I can't stand them. Maybe this is also why cats are sometimes called "pussies". Kinda gross when you think about it. I haven't called cats "pussies" since I was 6 years old. Long story there!

Well, I call small dogs "boobies". I also say boobies are more fun to play with. LOL! I hate cats. Cats are totally useless. And a woman is usually thought of as being sick if they continuously play with their pussy. Or like they have a yeast infection. But to play with boobies is fun! I tell my Booby to go get his toys and he gets them. He loves bubbles!!

Still Around The Block

I know I haven't written anything in my blog in quite some time. But I am still kicking. I just happen to have something wonderful in the works, so I've been incredibly busy. No time to sit and think of a blog post to type up, nor even any time to sit and type it. I won't mention what that thing is, as it hasn't happened yet, but it is something big, and my friends and family know what it is. So, I will be back shortly after this break. Once this break is over, I will be back permanently, as this is a once in a lifetime deal, and will not be repeated again.

Thank all you readers for your patience.

Nightclub Shooter Identified

Yesterday was buzzing on Facebook about the shooter being identified. It was a man named Omar Mateen. From his name, I could tell he was of islamic descent. So yes he was a muslim! I knew it! He pledged allegiance to ISIS, and as you may know, ISIS is a very radical christian group. If ISIS takes over the USA, anyone who commits a sin of any kind will be put to death. Much like in those islamic countries. That means if I am caught ogling my pics of Michael and Timmy, I could be put to death because that would be considered "adultery". LOL! I learned that when I was living in the van and I had to stay at this shelter that I hated! They too were a radical christian group, and in fact, I was kicked out of there because I refused to give up my pics and they said that looking at these guys was "committing adultery". But these guys are a source of comfort to me. If I had had my dogs, I would have been able to give up the pics, no problem. Just keep the dogs near me. But I didn't have them, so the only thing I could turn to was these guys. And all I have of them are my pics.

Well, believe me when I say that I am glad I was kicked out of that shelter. Not just because they were going to make me give up my babes, but they had a lot more rules that I would have found very hard to live with. Not being able to go out for one thing, without being accompanied by the house attendant, and she was big, fat and lazy. It was a lot for her to even walk down the hill to the convenience store with me, and I remember she griped all the way. Not that the house attendant was mean, mind you. She was actually a nice person. But she was fat and lazy. I'm not that lazy. I'm much more sedentary than my sis is, but I am not that lazy.

But anyways, Mateen killed 49 people and injured 53 in his attack before he was gunned down by police. Again I say I HATE RADICALS!!!!!!!! Even though I myself am a christian woman, I am not an islamic fag! It may have been a gay club that was shot up, but it is the shooter that I call a fag! Because he IS! He is what the very definition of a fag is. He obviously must have had a very fiery temper to pull off a stunt like that. So, he's a fag! And I hate fags. They're even worse when they go out and physically harm someone. But the reason he did it, just as I suspected, is because being gay is against islamic beliefs. That's exactly what fags do, they argue, fuss, and sometimes even kill when they meet someone who does not agree with them and will not bend their will to follow them. Some don't argue, as I've seen on Facebook. They just drop you and put you on ignore with no explanation and for no reason except that they are fags themselves. Well like I said, at least I don't have to look at them on Facebook! LOL! Hopefully I won't see them anywhere else either.

I was watching a video yesterday and I noticed there is another guy, MrRepzion, who pretty much said the same thing I said in my last blog post. He used to be religious. For a while there, he was even anti-religion. But he says he doesn't mind religion as long as people don't go out and harm others over it, and I agree with him. But like I said about radicals, most of them are under the age of 35. Mateen was 29! Those people have not completely come to terms with their fanhood yet. Most people, until they have reached 35 years old, do not know how to handle fanhood. Therefore, they do not know the difference between being a fan, and being a radical. Sometimes, even if they are over 35, it can happen, like if they are a newbie to that particular type of fanhood. The woman I spoke of in my last blog post, Kimberly. I found out she's well over 35 years old! In fact, she's older than me! She's older than my sis! But she is also a newbie amongst INXS fans. She's never seen them in concert before, she told me that herself once. So, obviously she has not come to terms with INXS fanhood yet.

It takes a while to come to terms with things like that. I didn't learn until I was in my early 30s, and a chat with Timmy changed my whole attitude. I used to feel like I had to viciously defend Timmy at all costs, and that anyone who didn't like Timmy was not my friend! But Timmy did not feel that way at all. He took everything in stride. I love that about him. So I said to myself "If it doesn't matter to him, then it shouldn't matter to me." So, that is how I handle fanhood. Now, I don't care if I meet someone who does not like Timmy or even INXS. As long as I stay loyal to my guys, that is all I care about. I even have friends who are not INXS fans, and that's fine with me. Of course there are other cases where a fan has not come to terms with their own fanhood and they are over 35, but those are like extreme mental challenges. That is to say, people who are psychotic, or schizophrenic. But those people will likely never come to terms with any kind of fanhood. They can't help it though.

Well anyways, I am sure such was the case with this Omar Mateen guy. He even has his smug little picture up on the internet. This is what he looks like:

Gay Club Shooting

So yesterday I heard about the gay club being shot up in Orlando, which killed almost 50 people. It is believed the shooter was a muslim. Just as I suspected! Another fucking radical!! GOD I hate radicals!! And you know how those muslims are, they push their beliefs on everyone else! Just like any damn radical!! For muslims, they push their religious beliefs on others. Gay people, as you may know, are seen as an abomination in the eyes of GOD (or for muslims, HE is called Allah). Now, don't get me wrong, I know there are some nice muslims out there. I don't mind them. It's the radical muslims I hate so much. Just as much as I hate every other radical out there! And Hillary Clinton wants to allow these people to come freely into our country! Once she takes office, we can all kiss everything we've come to know in this country goodbye! All the comforts and freedoms we once enjoyed, that'll all be gone. The people who were shot yesterday by an islamic madman were gay, people who were at a club to have fun, and enjoy the company of others of their own beliefs. I feel bad for the people who were shot, and my heart goes out to those who lost friends and family in this incident. It's all very sad! And what's even more sad is how it looks like this is going to become the norm in this country.

I gotta say, my sis believes this is a trick pulled off by the government to start the banishment of owning guns. But I don't believe that is what this is. She and one of my friends got into it this afternoon. LOL! When my sis goes off like that, I just don't get involved. She has her beliefs, I have mine. Just like when I discuss INXS, she doesn't get involved. I love my sis and I love my friends so, I stay out of it. I click "Like" on each of their posts and that's as involved as I get. But thankfully so far, this friend has not blamed me for my sister's beliefs. I think someone has though. LOL! I'm down one friend since that took place. I don't delete comments, and I think because I don't that people think I agree with them. But that's not always the case. I just don't believe in silencing others or censorship. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions. Whether I agree with them or not. I just wish radicals would learn to understand the same. But then again, if they did, they wouldn't be radicals.

Speaking of radicals, I found out yesterday one of them was still in my group, a woman named Kimberly. I got myself another mod and was in Facebook chat with her and said "I want that fag OUT of my group!" I don't want no radicals in my group! But if Hillary Clinton becomes our next president, people like that will be allowed to control everything. I used to be friends with Kimberly, but she changed that when she showed she was a radical. More likely another Yatesfag. I don't like Yatesfags! And they are not welcome in my group! So, together we got rid of the fag and hopefully now the group can be a bit more peaceful. One thing I noticed about the Yatesfags, almost all of them are young (no older than maybe 35), newer fans, who've never seen Michael in concert, or probably never even have seen INXS in concert, and never met Michael. I know that's not the case for all of them, I know of at least a couple who are older than me who did see Michael in concert, though I doubt they've ever met him. One such person even went to Wembley in 1991, so he said. But what I described constitutes at least 98% of what the radicals are.

Anyways, Kimberly is a classic example of what a fag is. I thought she was a nice person when I met her. But deep inside was the guts of a hater. I would say "there beat the heart of a radical", but then again, radicals don't have hearts. That didn't show up until the time I needed friendly support. I remember she even left me a comment saying "Hang in there." All along deceiving me into believing she was a good person and a loyal friend. Well, I wish I had known she was a radical or else I never would have asked her to become my friend. I would bet she'd even turn her back on Michael once she found out he was not like her. But people like Kimberly are what the people in this country are fated to become. I'd like to be accepting of all muslims. I know there are good ones out there somewhere. But just like Kimberly, they may act friendly and put up a front to your face, but once you let your guard down, they'll shoot you in the back of your head and not even think twice about it. Just as I learned from the radicals on Facebook, you have to learn who the bad people are by trial and error before you learn who the good ones are, and the bad people don't always appear bad at first. And sometimes before you can even learn from your mistake, the bad people will shoot you dead. I'm sure such was the case in this nightclub shooting. And it's sad this is what people today have become.

I blame this whole thing on political correctness. That's why Hillary wants to allow muslims into this country, because she's afraid she'll be called a bigot if she doesn't. But it scares me because of the radical muslims. We may never learn who the radical muslims are until it's too late. How many more people have to be killed before we can figure that out?? Like I said to all of my friends yesterday, this is the beginning of the end. We are heading straight for the apocalypse! It sure does feel like the end of our days here! All the good people are dying off, leaving all the bad ones here.

Anyways, on to a happier subject. Somewhat. I may be about to plan another move. I really wanted to stay here, I never wanted to move away from the coast again. I love it here so much! But I've been facing so many problems here. No busline is the biggest thing. I can't even get a dial-a-ride! And I want to go walking! Been thinking about this for some time, but I might consider moving back to Reno. Not that I really want to! I hated the heat there! And the dryness. But at least I will be close to ma and somewhat close to my pa. Somewhat. And he needs me. And I'd like to visit him sometime too. I need to see him. And ma and I can have our fun days every week again. I do miss that. It's not permanent. I am only going to move there for a while as I save up some money to get a car and a house. I want to get a mobile home and move back here to the coast. So, I am going to be saving my money while I am there. Hopefully it won't take long to at least save enough to make a down payment.

So The Radicals Have Done It Again!

There is a new story going around this morning. A young singer named Christina Grimmie was unfortunately gunned down by a suicidal madman while she was handing out autographs in Orlando, FL. Why she was gunned down I don't know just yet. There has been not much of a release of information about this story. But she was still alive when she was taken to the hospital last night, yet unconscious. She died some time later though. The gunman died at the scene with a self-inflicted gunshot. Just like a typical radical coward to try to kill someone and instead of facing punishment, turn the gun on himself and kill himself! UGH!! Makes me think of that dumbass Matt Burney! Though I know he couldn't have been the gunman, it's the exact same mentality! I wouldn't put it past him to do something like this himself!

Well, I don't know this chick at all, I never heard her sing, and frankly, I don't care to. I have no interest in someone who got their start on shows like The Voice, or some other reality singing TV show! What makes me mad about this is this idiot that shot her while she was innocently handing out autographs! This is no doubt why it's getting increasingly harder to meet your favorite celebs. This is also why I hate radicals with a passion and I want to avoid them at all costs! One of my friends pointed out that Prince stated once that fans today have become fanatics. I agree with him too! And it ruins everything for everybody else. Even us non-radical fans. Everybody today is a fanatic! Or some kind of radical. I even saw a video this morning of a woman on an ESPN news show who was offended by the term "hard work". I heard that and was like "WHAT?!?!?!" The problem was she was an African-American, and she said that the term "hard work" makes her think of the old slaves who used to gather sugar cane and cotton in the fields, and she said "THAT was 'hard work'!"

Like I said before, people today are wussies!! There is no doubt whatsoever in my mind that it was some radical of some kind that shot and killed this young woman. Whether he was just an obsessed fan, or someone who was pissed off because Grimmie took someone else's place in The Voice, someone that the gunman liked more, or whatever! No one knows at this time. But either way, I'll wager you this guy was a radical. People like him are the reason why I hate radicals so much! And people like me, who stand up for what's right, are what radicals fear and hate the most. I will always stand up for what's right! I say this young woman should never have been shot or killed! Whether you like her or not, that's a horrible thing to do!

I'm glad I am not one of those kinds of fans. I'm one of the more decent fans. I love Timmy! I love him to the moon and back! Maybe beyond. When I love someone that much, I want to see them happy. All I'd ever want is to see them happy. And I am not one of those kinds of fans that would say "I think he'd be so much happier with me in his life". No, I'm not like that at all!! I know Timmy has a family, and I know he's happy with them. And that is all I'd care about. If Michael were here, I'd be saying the same thing about him. But unfortunately he never looked happy with Paula. So, I don't believe he was happy with her. That's why I hate Paula Yates so much! She made him miserable. She hurt my baby and I don't dig that!! But I don't ever want to see Timmy dead. EVER!!! It'd break me physically and emotionally. It hurt me bad enough when Michael died. I couldn't stand to lose Timmy too. That's why I do not understand people like this guy who shot this Grimmie woman. If he was merely nothing but an obsessed fan, why in the world would he want to see Grimmie dead??? Why not be happy for her??? Why wouldn't he want to just see her happy? I always thought murder is what you do to people you don't like (not that I condone it, but it would make better sense). Not what you do to someone you like.

Ya know, I heard about the guy who was obsessed with the singer Bjork. Back in 1996, he sent a bomb to the singer (which fortunately never got to her) and made a video stating that he wanted to kill her, and then kill himself and then the two of them could live happily together in a paradise world. So he sent that bomb to her, intending to kill her, and then he shot and killed himself on camera. I just don't understand fans like that! Bjork had just gotten married at that time. Shouldn't this fan have been happy that Bjork found someone who makes her happy? That's what I would have felt. Besides that, you have no idea for real if a "paradise world" really exists! He could have meant Heaven, but you don't marry in Heaven. And you don't go to Heaven if you intentionally kill yourself or another person! You just lie in the ground and rot. That's not "paradise". And if Bjork had also been killed, then that would have been murder, which is a sin. And a sin like that sends you straight to Hell! Not exactly my idea of a "paradise world".

Well anyways, RIP Christina Grimmie. So sad your life was cut so short because of some dumbass radical! Believe me, I can relate!

The Third Bathroom

The world is so full of wussies right now and everything has to be so damn politically correct. Well, this is going to be another brutally honest post. So if you don't like it, tough nookies!! I saw a video last night that gives me a good reason to fear this new trend going around now. You know how these transsexuals are now, they can be men who identify themselves as women, or women who identify themselves as men. OK, I get it already. But now, they want to be able to use the bathroom for the sex that they identify with, and now no one is allowed to stop them, or say anything against it. I completely call bullshit!! Now I don't want anyone to misunderstand my message, I have nothing against transsexuals, as long as they are legit. But how do you know they are actually legit? That is what scares me.

I have a real problem with a man who would claim to identify himself as a woman, when that really is not the case. Same goes for a woman who claims to identify herself as a man. But now I am not saying there are not female rapists, but the majority of rapists are indeed men who target women. Let's be honest here! How do I know for sure the man, who says he identifies himself as a woman, is really a person who does identify himself as a woman, or if he's just using that as an excuse to walk into a woman's restroom so he can kidnap some young, unsuspecting girl, haul her into his stall and rape her? This is something that has been bothering me ever since I started hearing about transsexuals now wanting to use the public restrooms of the sexes they identify with, instead of the sexes that they really are. But about a week ago, I began to hear of some problems with this new trend.

It all started with a high school boy, who identified himself as a girl, wanted to start using the girl's restroom. Well, the school was against it, because they did not want to make the other girls uncomfortable. The boy even wanted to start using the girls' locker room. A very big concern! The school was against that too. But they did allow the boy another option. He could use one of the staff's unisex, single-stalled bathrooms. But the boy refused. He wanted to be treated like an equal. OK, this is what gets me. Why would he refuse something like that? If I were that boy, I think I wouldn't give a shit about being treated like an equal! I'd be thinking "Wow! The staff must be thinking I am something special, allowing me to use their restrooms, where no other student can!" LOL! OK I know that's not really the case, but that is what would cross my mind. He would have had a bathroom all to himself. No one else had to look at him, and he would not have to look at another girl. But then again, maybe he's not really a boy who identifies himself as a girl. Maybe he's a young pervert who really just wants to make his way legally into a girl's restroom and locker room so he can look at nude, or semi-nude, girls and quietly ogle them.

That is what scares me! A man can claim he identifies himself as a woman, but how do you know for sure that he really does? How do you know for sure he's not just claiming he does so he can stalk women in one of their most private moments? Or so perhaps he can grab some young girl, take her into an empty stall and rape her? Then I saw this video from a friend last night. It is a video of a man who grabbed a young teenage girl and tried to drag her off...

I think Walmart has the best idea ever. Some locations have installed unisex bathrooms. They are single-stalled bathrooms with doors that lock, only one person can use them at a time. I think the transsexuals should consider using those where available. And I know I am definitely going to get a lot of hate for saying this, but if you are a man who identifies himself as a woman, and you don't feel comfortable using a man's restroom, then that's too bad! You were given a penis! Not a vagina! You still have to stand up, with your penis over the bowl, to take a piss. That is why they have urinals in men's restrooms. Not in womens' restrooms. You still have to lift up the toilet seat to piss. I, for one, do not want to have to put the seat back down because you cannot identify yourself as a man! That's not my problem! That's your's! If you don't want to use the men's room, then hold your piss until you get home! Don't bring your nasty male habits where I have to clean up after them. Or right your wrongs! Using a public restroom is bad enough. I don't want to have to put my hands on more than is necessary!

Status Symbol

ARGH! This is what I hate most, talking about shit like this! Well hell, I don't know if I will be able to go to this gathering, I've accepted a challenge which is going to cost me every month. Well, maybe I can get away with only getting the pills. But I would like to get both items. Trouble is, even with the discount they are still expensive! But I want to do this. My sis cannot be the only one of us losing weight! And I want to look good for my trip to Australia. I also want to help celebrate my Michael. I love that man so much! More than anything in this world!! LOL!! I act like I was married to the man, and I actually wasn't. Just feels like it from the way I fell so deeply in love with him. That was a love like I'd never felt before in my life. But the thing is, so many other people felt it too. I don't think I will ever understand why Michael believed he was not loved. I loved him! So did a lot of others. But you know the British press! They're dumb!! Michael should have learned to take anything they say with a grain of salt. I bet he'd still be here if he could.

Well, I asked my sis to come up here while I go to the gathering, and bring the dogs. I need something there to help balance out the number of strangers that will be in attendance there. Not to mention the damn fags. I'm sure some of those will be there too. My loony pig of a sister (sometimes) and I were chatting the other night, and she thinks I am going to be "using my dogs" to "get back at" the damn fags. In other words, she thinks the only reason I want to bring my dogs is so I can show off to the fags like "Hey. Look what I got that you don't".  I said to her "Not to get back at them you fool! More like to divert my attention away from them." I love my sis dearly, believe me I do. But she has a habit of totally misinterpreting everything she reads. It's not just the fags I need to divert my attention away from. It's the people too. That's what happens when you have social anxiety. If I were to go and not bring the dogs, I'd be paying for a ticket for nothing, because I would be too nervous to even walk through the door. Even if I had friends there. I'm just uncomfortable around so many people.

It was hard enough when I went to INXS concerts back in the day. I didn't bring my dogs, or any animals (although I did consider it once). But I knew once I walked in those doors, my Timmy (and in one case, my Michael) would be there, and seeing them would be comforting enough. That eased the social anxiety in those cases. But that wouldn't be the case in this gathering. But I do want to go, and support this friend of mine who is putting it together. And it sounds like fun anyways. But no, the reason I want to bring my dogs is not to say to the fags "Hey look what I got". It's more like this:

Me: Oh dear! Look at all those people. I don't think I want to go in there.
The dogs: It's OK. I'm here. If you get scared, just lean on me.
Me: OK babies. Then let's go.
Then I pet the dogs and walk in.

It's a proven fact that the simple act of petting a dog lowers anxiety. That is why I want to bring them there with me. That is why I don't want to go without them. Believe me, if my only objective was to "get back at" the fags, there are plenty of more reasonable ways I could do it. Looking good for one thing. Pepper spray would be another, but I'd only use that in cases where I felt really threatened. I never use my pets as a "status symbol". My sis knows that but she gets crazy ideas in her head about some messed-up shit. Other people may resort to using their pets as status symbols, but I've never been that kind. That's like those men who own rottweilers or pit bulls, and then laugh at those of us who own chihuahuas or pomeranians and say we are lesser people because we have smaller dogs. Like that dustingrey character. He uses his pets as status symbols. And you wanna bet, he probably does not even have a dog. I bet he really only has a cat. Which means he's all talk and trying to sound tough, when he's really nothing but a wussy.

Weirdest Deep-Sea Creatures

Well I really just love the ocean. That's undeniable. I love living here. Now, at this point in my life, wild horses cannot tear me away from the ocean. Well, to start this month off, I wanted to make an unusual post about some of the strangest deep-sea creatures I've ever seen. These are just what I believe are some of the strangest deep sea animals. Perhaps you know of some that you may think are stranger than mine. So let's begin...

Dragonfish
Like many deep sea animals, this fish attracts bioluminescent bacteria to it's body. But instead of only glowing blue like all other bioluminescent animals, this fish also glows red as well. But it is a good thing. Most animals in the deepest parts of the ocean cannot see red light anyways.

Fangtooth
Like many deep-sea fish, this is the stuff nightmares are made of! This is a highly-predatory fish that is obvious how it got it's name. The teeth on the bottom of it's jaws are so long, the fish cannot completely close it's mouth, so it is a permanent wide gape. Because of their long fangs, these fish are also known as "viper fish".

Fan-Fin Sea Devil
This is an unusual fish in the same family as the anglerfish also found in the deep ocean. This one has all kinds of extra "feelers" all over it's body. This fish uses a long lure-like appendage on it's head to attract prey to it's mouth. It is believed the "whiskers" all over it's body also aid in feeling for prey. Once prey is felt, this fish wastes no time in capturing it in their large jaws.

Gulper Eel
As you can see, this fish has the widest gape for it's size in the animal kingdom. The huge mouth is useful for capturing prey. They are also equipped with small, sharp teeth to also help them out.

Snipe Eel
Like the gulper eel, the snipe eel is not a true eel. But it is an elongate eel-like fish of the deep ocean. It has a long, narrow jaw, much like the beak of a snipe (bird), that does not close at the end. However, they still manage very well to capture small fish and tiny deep-sea crustaceans using their small, sharp teeth.

Goblin Shark
This shark has become quite well-known in recent years. Like all sharks, it can shoot it's jaws out of the socket, to capture prey. All sharks have this ability, but none to the extent of the goblin shark. It can shoot it's jaws out almost the entire length of it's paddle-shaped nose.

Spookfish
Though it looks a little bit like a cartoon owl, this fish is superbly adapted to see in the blackness of the deep ocean. The large eyes enable it to distinguish between sunlight and bioluminescence, which means the creatures of the deep that depend on luminescence as camouflage, are not able to put a fast one over on this fish!

Hatchetfish
There are actually 2 different fish that bears the name "hatchetfish". There are the tiny, freshwater fish that are popular aquarium fish, and then there is this guy. The deep-sea hatchetfish is an unusual sight. They use their slender, silvery bodies to hide from predators. However, this fish is a predator it's self, which feeds on tiny crustaceans. There are no vegetarian deep-sea fish, as no plants are able to grow in the blackness.

Deep-Sea Anglerfish
This is one of the most famous deep-sea fish. They are well-known for their glowing lures, which they use to attract prey close enough for them to grab and devour. One of the most notable features of this family is how much larger the female is than the male. The male lives his life as a permanent parasite on the female, feeding off her, and also fertilizing her eggs. There are actually several different varieties of anglerfish in the deep ocean. I think one of my favorites is this dog-faced variety: