Disclaimer: If you are easily offended by sheer honesty, or you think me having my own opinions is "being negative", then this is not the place for you, and I suggest you leave and head elsewhere. I call a spade a spade, and I don't sugarcoat anything.

Friday, October 31, 2014

Life In A Van

Boy! This is an adventure!!! LOL!! And yet I am maintaining a positive attitude. Well, things could be worse. MUCH worse. For the past month, I've been here in Seaside, OR, basically living in my van. All my things are in storage, and I am looking for an apartment. Sometimes I stay in the local shelter, and have made friends with the person who runs it. Her name is Alisha. She's really nice, but lately I have not been staying there, because believe it or not, the van is actually more comfortable. I made up a little bed in the back of the van with my old mattress toppers, and it is really quite comfortable. I sleep very well at night. My ma and pa are worried about me sleeping in the van, but Seaside is actually a very quiet town. Nothing bad happens here, not that I have seen. Pretty much I stay in the Safeway parking lot, because their store is open until 1AM. So, if it's late, up until 1AM, and I need to use the restroom, I can just go in there and do it. And usually by 1AM I am already asleep anyways. I become quite narcoleptic when I first move into a place, I don't know why. Stress, I guess. I remember how pissed off Patti got with me because when I first moved in with her, I slept most of the time. But moving is HARD work!! So far, of all the moves I have made through my life, this move has been the most stressful, and has been the least prepared for. I had to move out FAST in order to get here in time for the orientation. If you miss that orientation, you get taken off the list. Then that's 4 and a half years of my life that is wasted!! I am hoping to find an apartment soon. I've got all my family and friends saying prayers for me.

I was completely approved for one apartment, but then the landlord did not want to deal with lowering the rent through housing in the first year. Especially since it's just me and it was a 2 bedroom apartment. So that apartment fell through. Bummer!! It's been the only rental I've seen so far that has a washer/drier hookup!!! But I've done shed my share of tears. No use crying over something I cannot control. But finding a one-bedroom unit is damn-near impossible!! I almost have no choice but to go with a 2-bedroom unit. This town does not give me a heck of a lot of choices!! But we will see. I keep telling myself something will come up! Meanwhile, I keep my days pretty busy driving and looking around, hoping against hope that I can find something before my time runs out. If nothing else comes available, I may have no choice but to move back to Reno. I really don't want to. My sinuses were so bad in Reno!! Here at least they have gotten back to normal. And here when I buy something expensive, I don't have to pay tax. When you get up in the $100 range, taxes build up heavily!! I hate that!! But if I do move back to Reno, ma, John and I are going to have to discuss moving into a 3 bedroom rental home and split the rent 3 ways. I am not moving back in with Donna!! No way!!! One of the things about moving out of her place that I don't miss is that darn kiddie bed she had me sleeping in! I'd have it hauled away and replaced with a full size bed at least! That bed was the reason my leg went so bad. Now it is back to it's old self again and I can climb stairs once again. I struggled every night to stay on that damn bed, and I think that's how my leg got weak.

I will never forget that one horrible day I found out how weak my leg was! I tried to climb the 3 stairs that led up to the front of the porch. I stepped on a step, and my leg just buckled!! Completely collapsed! I did not expect it, and I went down. I sat on the steps and just wailed "I can't climb stairs anymore!! WAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!" I think everyone in the neighborhood heard me, but since most of them are Mexicans who don't speak English, I don't think they understood what I said. Or why I was sitting on the steps, crying out loud. LOL! Well, now I have been working on it, and my leg is almost back to it's old self again, so I can take a second-floor apartment with no trouble.

Well, I have even made some friends with some furniture dealers here, and they are willing to work with me. So, as soon as I can get an apartment, I have 2 furniture stores that are ready and willing to help me out with new furniture at payments I can easily afford.

Friday, October 3, 2014

Pleasant vs. Honest

Everyone knows the truth hurts. What is true is not always what we want to hear, but the truth is the truth. I'd rather someone be honest with me than to just tell me what they think I want to hear. I cannot believe how many INXS fans out there do not want to see the new movie about INXS because they say Michael was portrayed in a distasteful way. Well, I always say "Maybe it's the truth?" I don't know, I never lived with Michael. But the movie was supervised by Tim Farriss and Chris Murphy, and these two people spent more time with Michael than anyone else. I have to take what was created in that movie as the gospel. Well, most of it anyways. Rockstars are usually edgy, and Michael had some hardships in his life I know that. I also know what hardships can do to a person. But people are afraid for Lily's sake. They don't think Michael should ever be portrayed that honestly because it may hurt Lily's vision of her father.

Well, there is no denying her father had a hard life. He was battling depression. But just because we don't want to know the truth about Michael does not mean it should remain hidden. I personally do not care what bad shit Michael did! I still love him. He could have been a hatchet murderer behind the scenes and I still wouldn't care. I love Michael for his grace and beauty, I love him for the inspiring words he wrote and sang to the world. I love him for his comforting voice which has cheered me up out of bad days many times in the past. That is why I love Michael. It's like Dian Fossey. I am a great admirer of her's, always have been. Always will be. I don't care about how she treated poachers. Some people say she went too far, that she mistreated everyone around her. I don't care about that at all. I love Dian Fossey for her accomplishments. She was like a pioneer in wildlife conservation. I love her for that! I know she burned down villager's houses, I know she used to whip poachers in the genitals with stinging nettles. I know all about her shooting the cattle of local herdsmen. But I don't care about none of that. She is still my hero because she single-handedly saved the mountain gorillas from extinction.

Ya know, I think Dian Fossey is the main reason why I was so tolerant with Patti! LOL! I put up with a lot of Patti's shit in the days I lived there, and I still was kind and respectful with her. I think deep inside I was thinking which one would be worse to live with? Patti or Dian Fossey? LOL! Probably Dian Fossey, and I love her to death! There was a difference though. Dian Fossey loved kids and animals, and a person with that kind of morale cannot be all bad. Patti did not like kids, and was fanatical about rescuing animals from shelters as opposed to breeding. Besides that, she was shallow. She thought of nobody but herself. So, there was NO good whatsoever in Patti.

Same thoughts about Michael Hutchence. I don't care what he did. I don't care if he tried to punch Timmy in the face, I don't care about the bad shit he did portrayed in the movie, whether it was the gospel truth or not. I'll always love Michael, no matter what. He always has been, still is, and always will be my most favorite lead singer of all time! To the people who did not want to see the movie because they thought it was in bad taste, all I have to say is get over it! I got nothing against these people personally, but Michael's life was not all roses and unicorns. No one's is. We all have our ups and downs. We all have our good points and bad points. I can overlook them. If I can, then anyone can. *smiles*

I look at Michael's life and I think mine was not too far off from his. I love the movie, Never Tear Us Apart. I think Luke Arnold did a fine job of portraying Michael! Shoot! If I were 20 years younger, I would have fallen in love with that man!! He has a nice ass!! But he's only 30 years old (born in 1984-- a great year BTW!) But he's too young for me. Another complaint I typically hear is people complaining because Luke looked nothing like Michael. Well, I found a pic not too long ago where he does. I still think he did a fine job! Other people were giving their ideas about who would have been great to play the part of Michael. Someone suggested some actor named Gavin Rossdale. But he's OLD!! He may have been great to play the part of Michael as an older man, but not as a young teenager, when his career as a singer got started. Another suggested a guy named Aiden Turner, but he looks far too mean!! And he's kinda ugly too!

Michael Hutchence had this look on his face, that was halfway between dangerous and innocent. That is very hard to mimic! That's what I like about Luke Arnold playing the part of Michael. He almost has that look. There will NEVER be another Michael Hutchence!! Not even among modern actors. Even his own brother Rhett doesn't look anything like him!! Michael was a one of a kind! Finding someone who looks exactly like him is impossible. Luke Arnold came close, but could not go all the way. No one ever will. So if other INXS fans are looking for an actor who is going to look exactly like Michael, with his voice, they are going to be very hard-pressed. There just isn't another Michael out there, and never will be.

Well, in personal news, I am going to OR this weekend. I am leaving here on the 5th, and have to be there by the 8th. I am giving a little leeway for any trouble that might occur. But I have a slew of people praying for me. It's kinda bittersweet because I am going to have to leave Vegas with my sister. I need to concentrate on finding an apartment, and the very last thing I need to worry about right now is if that apartment will allow pets. It's only for a year, and Vegas will at least be with family. Once I've lived there for a year, I can move to a more pet-friendly area in OR and get Vegas back. But looking on the NW OR coast, it's been nearly impossible to find a pet-friendly place. I don't know why it is! NW OR is so not pet friendly!! I don't know what I am going to do during that year without a booby to cuddle!! I guess my favorite guys of INXS will have to be my surrogate "pets". LOL!