Disclaimer: If you are easily offended by sheer honesty, or you think me having my own opinions is "being negative", then this is not the place for you, and I suggest you leave and head elsewhere. I call a spade a spade, and I don't sugarcoat anything.

Saturday, January 31, 2009


OMG!! Now, PETA has crossed the line! Not that they have never done it before, but they want to change the collective name of fish to "sea-kittens", in an attempt to get people to stop hooking, catching and eating fish! I read their article, I even flipped through their online "book" about "sea-kittens" and it is all so ridiculous!! This one I think even beats the campaign they were doing last year to stop Mexican immigrants from coming to this country because PETA said they would be "leaving behind a healthy diet of beans and rice". I tell you, I've been laughing at PETA for years now. They are too stupid for words! I am sorry to my supporters to say all this, but PETA just gets too silly sometimes. I have to air these feelings! Anyone else want to see the redundant article, go to www.peta.org/sea_kittens. I cannot believe people are actually still supporting this organization! I only hope INXS has stopped supporting them. Far as I know though, PETA forced themselves on INXS. But while you are on that page, get a load of that stupid online book they present.

PETA isn't going to ever stop me from eating meat, I love it. Including fish. I've had tuna steaks before and they are so GOOOOOOOOD!!!!! Believe me, I love animals. But some animals were made to be eaten. Like cattle. That's why they have such high reproductive rates. That's why it's natural for meat-eaters in the wild to feed on them. So I wonder what is going to be next? Maybe PETA will go to Africa and pass out fliers to all the troups of lions and hunting dogs begging them not to kill anymore antelope because they think lions and hunting dogs can benefit better by learning to eat a "healthy diet of grass and leaves". I can just see it now. The dogs and lions would be looking at PETA and saying "You've got to be kidding me!" Then they would say "kiss my ass!" just as I would!!

Yesterday when I was putting the dogs out, I noticed a dead mouse on our porch. Must have been killed by one of these stray cats prowling around out here. I don't mind them getting the mice if that's what turns them on, but I wish they would not leave their prey on my doorstep! They aren't even my cats!!! But that's not even the worst of it! When I got a closer look at the unfortunate animal, it looked like a deer mouse. The species famous for spreading the Huntavirus! That was scary! There has got to be more around here. That is really scary! One dry summer here and that disease could spread like wildfire. Already we had bulldozers break down the bushes around here and I knew that would mean trouble from the get-go. That's also a terrific way to spread huntavirus spores, and that can kill in a matter of hours. I just hope that no more construction goes on around here.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Save the Gorillas!

I have joined the DFGF and FirstGiving last night to help raise money for the protection of the mountain gorillas. I plan to help raise $10,000 by 2011. When you get the chance, please sponsor me. I am doing this on behalf of Metazoica and the animals. I want to do all I can as this is a charity that means a lot to me. I try to give to the DFGF every year when I can because I do not want to see the mountain gorillas go extinct. Plus I am a great admirer of Dian Fossey's. I know $10,000 is a small amount for the next 2 years, but hey! The gorillas deserve it.

For those who may be suspicious, I will not be pocketing any of these donations. They all will be going to the DFGF. They will help pay for park rangers, veterinary care, recovery and protection for the mountain gorillas, which is still a critically endangered species in central Africa. I'm merely helping them by looking for sponsors. The internet is just one way of doing it. I think I will also go around town here and post up fliers looking for sponsors to help me in my plight. But every little bit helps. Even if you only donate $5, or even $1, it all helps. I have until 2011.

One has to admire a woman who died fighting for what she believed in, and that is exactly how I feel about Dian Fossey. I am the type that would probably do the same. The only thing that would get me down about all this is knowing that Dian Fossey would have died in vain. That's not a good thing to me. So that is why I really want to do this, for her, for the gorillas she loved, and for the organization she founded. And it isn't just the gorillas who will benefit from all this, every species threatened with extinction in their range will also benefit as well. There are tons of animals in the park now. There's hyrax, bushbabies, antelope, chevrotain, monkeys of all kinds, buffalo, elephants, all kinds of animals! Every single species will do greatly with the goal I am setting out to reach.

Well, I helped Kirk on his quest to walk the Great Wall of China. Maybe some of that good karma will come back to help me. Anyway I did try to help him!! Kirk is not even among my favorite members of INXS. But I wanted to help him anyway. He was doing the walk for the erection of a cancer treatment center. And that is something I also hold dear. I have friends who are battling cancer now, so any center devoted to battling the disease is helpful. Maybe they will find a cure for the disease.

Anyway, please donate today! Go to the widget on the right of this page, click the donate button and it will take you to my page on the FirstGiving website. There, you can click the donate button and give. They take credit cards. Not sure if they take PayPal, but you can surely check!

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Site Repairs

I did a wee bit of repairs of my own on my UMG site. I had to put my knowledge of HTML to use today. But I fixed it so all the character intros can be accessed easily. The pictures and thumbnails have always been accessable, but you could not access the introductory paragraphs about each characters. With the exception of the first 10 or so on the front page. Now, you can see them all. At the base of each introduction, there is a link that says "To Next Character", just click on that and it will take you to the next character in the line-up. All the way down the line. It was actually easier to do that than I thought it would be!

I almost flew off the handle again! But I stopped myself. I joined this group devoted to INXS, and it was asked which band member do we love and why. Of course I said Tim because he is the sexiest and sweetest member of the band. So this other girl took my words I used to describe Tim to say Michael was the most sexy, sweetest and hottest soul ever and said "everyone knows it". Then started dissing JD's talent as a singer. I wanted to have words for her, and for a brief minute I did. But I took them back. I said to myself, "Nah! What I have to say would be considered cruel." So I just chalked it up to it being just her own opinion, deleted my comment and said nothing else. Besides, everyone knows Tim is the sexiest, and has the sexiest buns!! Michael was like me, he had no buns at all.

Odd Jobs

Once I am through scanning this story I have been working on, I have to get started on another one, and that one is one of my favorite stories of 1997! It came from Cathy's genius mind and mine combined. Cathy and I often collaborated in a lot of our stories, but this one is one of the best ones. It's called "To Work or Dress?" and it's about Candi and her husband Leopold. It's kinda based on a few of my own life experiences, with a little twisting and stretching here and there. Candi goes and buys a dress worth $500 and she is terrified her husband will find out. So she has to get the money back before the credit card bill comes. She and her friend and neighbor try to figure out a way that she can get the money and the only logical way is for Candi to get a job. So she looks in a newspaper and sees an ad that reads "Earn $100 per night". So she calls in and gets an interview for the next day. The story is not that great for small children or young teens because Candi "bares it all" in this story. LOL!! But then again I don't know. I remember when I went to see Titanic back when it was in the theaters, Kate Winslet bared it all and Leonardo DiCaprio drew a picture of it. Not so ironically, there were often people in the theater watching that movie that had children and teenagers with them! So maybe I'm a little old fashioned.

The story is based on the struggles I faced once I was out of High school and wanted desperately to begin making money. So I applied for several jobs. I looked in the paper and I saw an ad that read "Earn $100 per night, call *this number*" and nothing else. Did not even have one word saying anything about the job it's self. So I called and the person on the line gave me the address and told me the best time to come down was after 5 PM. I had to catch the bus but I went anyway, just out of sheer curiosity about what kind of a job this was. Well, I knew where the street was the business was on, and I knew how to get there on the bus. When I got to the road, there was a hot dog stand, a big gray building with no windows, and a produce market. The only place that matched the address I was supposed to go to was the big gray building with no windows. So I went there. The door was solid and also had no windows. It looked like a factory of some kind! Really! But when I opened the door and walked inside, I saw a bunch of naked women on the stage doing dances! I was like "Oh my GOD!!!!" I was so embarrassed!! I was only 17 at the time! That was the first time I ever saw a strange, naked woman!!!! Made me uncomfortable, even the manager I was supposed to see sensed that. But I went ahead with the meeting. I just grabbed an application and went home. I never did fill out the application and send it back.

My next job was a telemarketing job, and I hated it!!! They wanted me to sell lightbulbs. And I am not the best salesperson in the World!! It was a commission-based job, so I didn't make much! Plus we had to catch the bus there, and it was late at night, and I got a little worried. I remember after that job ended at about 11 PM, I had to walk a mile up the road to catch the bus and I said I cannot do that every night!! I was worried I wasn't going to be able to get home! It wasn't the walking that bothered me, it was the hour. Some buses don't run to some places after certain hours. I was lucky that night! My bus ran on that particular night until 1 AM to my place. But it didn't run that late every night. So I had to quit that job.

I remember out of desperation in 1997, I got another job doing telemarketing. But not selling anything, this time it was just doing interviews over the phone. The first one I did was for Eddie Bauer, the clothing store. They wanted me to ask their regular shoppers how informal or formal they are living! I had to ask strangers things I wouldn't even ask my closest friends!! But I could not tell the customers the interview was for Eddie Bauer. I was a lowsy interviewer! I was no better at that than I was at selling lightbulbs!! It made me very uncomfortable asking these things of strangers. But at least it was a paycheck every other week! I remember early on this job, I called a woman and I was just getting the interview started the way I was supposed to. I said "Hello, I'm calling to conduct an interview to find out how formally or informally you're living...." and she replied, "That's none of your business!" and hung up! LOL!! I wanted to say to her "Do you really think I personally give a shit how you're living or even IF you're living??!!" I laughed about that for quite a long time really. I swear a lot of people seemed to think I was doing these interviews for myself, but I wasn't. But I couldn't get mad at anyone because I could not get my mind off the fact that I probably would say the same thing if I were them.

I was no damn good at that job, and the supervisors seemed to know it! One woman who was one of the supervisors was a woman named Karen. She was the same age as my father! She was also very obese. I didn't like her, not just because she always copped an attitude with me, but also because she smelled bad!! She always came to work with armpit odor, her hair always greasy, and I swear her underwear was also always dirty because you could smell that too!! I didn't like her to even come near me!! I would have liked it a lot if she was not on that job either!! I never said anything though because she didn't come near me that often. Whenever she did though, she was always loud and overbearing and cruel to me. I swear I did nothing to her!! I never even told her about the body odor she had!! I don't know what her initial problem with me was. I guess she was just nuts.

As bad as that job was, it wasn't the worst one I ever had! The worst job I ever had, by far, was working for the rides and concession stands at the Puyallup Fair. Not just because I didn't like the supervisor there, but also because I just never wanted that job!! I don't know to this day how I got it! I applied for a totally different and unrelated job there working with a man who was going to sell tropical fish. But he never showed up. Somehow though the rides and concession company must have got their mitts on my application and offered me that job instead. Some kind of conspiracy, I think. I hated that job with a passion! Like I never hated a job before!!!

That's what Candi does in the story though. She goes through several jobs. I don't want to give away the ending, it's too good! All I will say is watch for this story! It should be up on the site soon.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

No More Timmy!

Well, last night was the last night, and I miss him already!! But I am almost finished with this story, then I can scan it. I'm going to wait though to put it in book form till I can collect a bunch of stories like last time. It's a slow, arduous process. But it can be fun once I put the whole thing together. This is a cute story too! It's a story with Caroline, the lemur. She's cute, just slightly annoying, but someone you just cannot help but love! She was one of the first creations of my supervisor. She has evolved slightly over the years, in appearance. But her personality is the same. She's supposed to display the image of someone who is innocent, clueless, the kind who cannot get on by themselves and loves the company of her friends.

In reality, Caroline is hard to describe, one has to see her stories in order to get to know her. She is quite comparable to Grover, the monster on Sesame Street. Well, at least she's not like Elmo!! Grover at least is somewhat cute. Elmo tries to be cute, but is nothing but annoying!!! I have to put up with his BS when my sister comes over and brings the nieces and nephews!! They like Elmo! I cannot understand that! Elmo's a pussy! Big Bird ROCKS!!!!

Well, one of my buds suggested I join G-mail. While it is a good idea to have a lot of space to store e-mails (one of the reasons I gave up Hotmail), I really do not like G-mail!! Every time I click to access my e-mail box, my screen goes blank!! Then I have to refresh! I kinda wonder if I cleared my cache files it would help? If not, to this buddy: please don't expect me to sign on to G-mail very often. Just a bit of acknowledgement there. I do enjoy e-mails from this guy, he's very knowledgable. We also discuss things that make my day. Something I'd better not mention here, as I want to keep this clean, not roast anyone. I'm roasting enough people here in this post! But Elmo really shouldn't count, he's nothing but a silly puppet. He's not even a real animal of any type. Just a make-believe monster. If he was a real kind of animal, I might actually like him better. Maybe if he were a monkey, a dog, or a rabbit, or a koala even, he'd be better.

How about that Hotmail though? Bill Gates is really turning into a stingy old fart!!! But then again, you got a better way to become one of the richest people on the planet? Last time I was on Hotmail, they only allowed you to have 2 MB of storage space in your e-mail inbox. Stingy, stingy, STINGY!!! My regular e-mail program gives me UNlimited storage space!! I love it!! MSN doesn't even offer you free web sites.

Saturday, January 24, 2009


A bad year for me. Well, the first half of the year anyway. It was the year after I lost my Groucho. But I picked up once I moved to Ocean Shores, a place I had always wanted to move to. It calmed me a little. It was also the last year I would see INXS. I hope it's not the last time ever I see INXS! I want to see them tour the World again. It may not be soon, but I don't want them not to tour again!

I also noticed another thing, Gwen Steffani CAN'T SING!!!! She SUCKS!!!! She should have stayed with No Doubt! At least they sounded good, well! At least Don't Speak sounded good! I didn't much care for their earlier song. To think before I heard Timmy's show tonight I would have considered putting up an app on this blog that would have given the latest biggest hit albums available. There's one problem, it would have seemed I was endorsing Brittney Spears and I HATE that bitch!!!! Face it, I have never been that fond of female singers. Especially not any of these ugly, squaking young sprigs. Nobody sings anymore. I listened to the whole program, and I didn't hear a single song I liked. Nothing sounded good at all. Anna likes this new music, but I surely don't. I guess as far as music is concerned, at least until INXS comes out with another album, real music ceases to exist. I just cannot find anything I like anymore. And I love music.

Seems these days all music is either too slow, or too rappy. Nothing really rocks anymore.

Calmed Down

OK, I have calmed down now. I don't want my regular readers to think I cannot be trusted again. But you know what I just found out tonight? I found out JohnFaa ripped off my idea for the Monodactylopterid bats from my site. That pretty well proves to me that I was right all along, that the only reason he hates my project so much is because he thinks it kicks ass! He just won't admit it. But again, let them have their fun.

Well, I am back to work on my UMG site, and I even did a few more pages of size-charts today for my Metazoic site. These size-charts are hard to work on, but they are fun! The hardest part is drawing them to scale up against an average-sized human (approx. 5 feet, 5 inches). I have to use a bit of eye-measurement to figure out how big like say a 20-foot long animal would look against an average-sized man. The mammals of my site are very large, most of them. The megacollids I just completed today are among the largest land mammals on my site.

I missed Timmy today, if he came on at all! It hasn't been 25 days yet. Tomorrow, in his homeland though, it will be. I miss him, and I don't want to miss the last program. I would have listened in, but something suddenly came up. A program came on that every time it comes on, I always miss it!! One time it came on, and I caught it in the middle of the program, but I missed the beginning. Well, today it came on again and I caught the whole thing. Finally!!! It was a program called Primal Fear, and I enjoy documentaries like that. But I know of some people who are podcasting Timmy's show, so I hope to get the programs I missed from them. Primal Fear even discussed the incident with the band Great White in 2004. In case nobody knows, Great White put on a performance in a small, intimate nightclub in RI, I think it was. Well, they made the mistake of using pyrotechnics in this small gig. So, when the pyrotechnics machine erupted, the whole place went down in flames. Some of the band members were killed in the fire. So were a lot of fans. That's one thing I can say about INXS, they never did explosions during their concerts, not the ones I have been to anyway. Not sure what they do when they play "The Gift". Maybe that's why they never played it on stage. The song is supposed to be explosive.

Well, I am thinking of decorating this blog with some lovely pics of Timmy from my extended collection. We will see though.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

I'm Gonna Do It!!!!

I'm about to do something I shouldn't do, but I almost cannot resist the urge!!! This just had to happen now that I am trying to go for a complete change. I almost cannot help it.

To explain a little of what is going on, I was once a member of a Speculative Evolution forum, and the owner and administrator is a guy who calls himself Proletarian. He used to be on my own Metazoica forum, now out of service. He told me and several people on his own forum that it was my site (metazoica.com) that got him interested in speculative biology in the first place. Actually he has changed that story several times. First he said I was the one who inspired him, then he said it was Paul Valkov that inspired him, then he said it was The Future is Wild that inspired him. He cannot even make up his mind about that!! I consider Paul Valkov a pretty good friend, he's good in biology and speculative evolution and even has his own site. He is even friends with some real good biologists in his native land, Russia. And Proletarian when he was in my forum, got pissed off at Paul when Paul would not agree with Proletarian's ideas about future evolution. That apparently is how he is!! I told Proletarian Paul is a good person and knows all about biology and I made them make up. But I did it nicely. After that, Proletarian was saying Paul was the one who inspired him. I was glad they had made up. Bottom line, when he was in my forum, I always treated him like an equal. Just like I do with everyone else.

Well, my forum is now down, and Proletarian has his own forum. He also has his own group of amateur biologist wanna-bes that go into his forum. Basically, I recently found out, they are the only ones who agree with Proletarian's work. Otherwise they wouldn't be there. I joined there because Proletarian invited me to. When I got there, I found JohnFaa and a few others on that forum actually sneer at my website. At first, Proletarian was defending it. But as time went on, I noticed a little bit of a change in his attitude. An attitude he never had when he was on my forum. I just started going in less and less, didn't think much of it. I thought at first maybe Proletarian was just drunk with the powers of administration. Now, I left the Speculative Evolution forum when Proletarian started acting like Adolph Hitler, which was recently. He and I had a little disagreement. Now, if I had been arguing with a normal and sane individual, it would have ended with 'You have your opinions, and I have mine. Let's just agree to disagree', but Proletarian is not like that. He kicks, fusses, bashes and throws the F-bomb at all who disagree with him. He was definately NOT like that on my forum!! Except that one time he cussed Paul out for not agreeing with any of his ideas. I thought surely he was over that! But I think I know why the sudden change of attitude. An anonymous person has told me that JohnFaa has influenced Proletarian. Not only has JohnFaa influenced Proletarian, but I understand he has been privately e-mailing other forum members and getting them to agree with him that my site in inaccurate and unscientific. Last I heard (I haven't looked in), someone calling himself Pousaz Power is also allowing himself to be influenced by JohnFaa and Proletarian. And they are all dissing my project.

My opinion of all this? I knew when I left the SE forum there was going to be some turmoil. Proletarian is trying to head up the popularity list, he has been ever since I joined there. And since I left, they are absent one member and that just drives them CRAZY!! Well, I am grateful I have some supporters. In fact, I have a lot. Some of my supporters are pretty World-renouned biologists and palaeontologists in fact!! That's COOL!! I get e-mails from them all the time. I've been getting e-mails from people I've only heard of in books and on television! I was like "WOW!!" Proletarian unfortunately cannot say the same. All his supporters are high school students who do not even have a certificate of completion in a 2-year community college. None of them even have their own website, just a free space on Deviant Art. Most people I know would not touch Deviant Art with a mile-long pole. I went there once and I got so frustrated because it was so hard to navigate, I just said "Screw it!" and looked away and never went back!

Well, Proletarian, JohnFaa and those who support them, are the only ones apparently who think my work is inaccurate and unscientific. None of the biologists, palaeontologist nor any one in similar feilds thinks it is, and it is them who keep me going on my site. In fact, it has encouraged me to work even harder on my site! I don't want to disappoint these people! That is why I was up all night last night, I was working on stuff for my site thanks to the encouragement of all my wonderful supporters. And I am sorry, but I would listen to people who have degrees in biology and have been at it for many years LONG before I would ever listen to Proletarian, JohnFaa, Pousaz Power or any of those dip-shits!! Why? Because...
  1. Everyone knows Proletarian is one of the biggest hypocrites and liars there is on the internet. He has bipedal spec mammals (Therizinotapirus in his own Deviant Art page) and his biggest argument with me is mammals will never become bipedal.
  2. JohnFaa is also one of the biggest hypocrites there is. He is bashing my project, but his own projects seem to have a lot of the same ideas mine does. ie, 18-foot tall bats with long necks.
  3. JohnFaa is only 16 and some have told me his own projects are nothing more than collections of video game creatures with only a little bit of science added.
  4. If you don't agree with Proletarian, he will cuss you out and yell at you until he is blue all over.
  5. Proletarian believes mega-squids will walk the Earth and monkey-like squids will swing through the trees.

JohnFaa complains that my ideas are unscientific, yet look at what one person has to say about Mr. Faa's projects. Seems people who know better believe his ideas are nowhere near as scientific as mine are! These are quoted by one of my biologist supporters all about JohnFaa's projects:

Okay, here it is. Firstly, What If World has anurognathid pterosaurs surviving into the Cenozoic. Anurognathid pterosaurs, in case you're not a pterosaur expert, are small, big-headed pterosaurs like Dimorphodon, who lived from the Late Triassic to the Late Jurassic. Like the rest of the rhamphohyncids, they were replaced in the Late Jurassic by birds and pterodactyloid pterosaurs. All of them. There is no evidence for any anurognathids from the Cretaceous (except some possible fossils from the J-C boundary), and NO evidence for non-ornithocheiroid and azdarchid pterosaurs after the Turonian. When confronted with this, they merely said that they were small and inconspicuous, and could have avoided notice. Wrong. Small insectovores have the highest rate of change among ANY group. That's why shrew and rodent genera change like crazy from the Late Miocene to the Pleistocene, while the mastodon never even changes its genus once. In that area, if you aren't competitive, you die. They also state that anurognathids had no competition, WRONG! There was tons of competition from birds and pterodactyloid pterosaurs. (they also state that voltaicotheres were true fliers in the Late Cretaceous, which is wrong). In fact, trilobites, due to the fact that they could survive in deep water, are more likely to survive to the present day than anurognathids.

Secondly, Terra Avis has gigantic ground sloth-like hoatzin in the Americas. Just one problem. Hoatzin don't even appear in the fossil record until the Late Miocene, and the closest thing that can be considered to a proto-hoatzin is still Eocene in age. There were no Cretaceous hoatzin. On that note, please notice that all of the birds of Terra Avis have no fingers. Even the hoatzin descendants, even though fingers and claws would be beneficial to them. Finally, in Terra Avis there are apparently no marsupials or placentals, just basal therians, despite the fact that placentals are known from the Late Cretaceous (Purgatorius, and even if you don't agree with that there is still Gypsonictops). So, did they just magically vanish?

Then, Terra Alternativa. Not counting the boring name, there are many problems with this Spec project. First, JohnFaa is unimaginably unimaginative with this project...aetosaurs take the place of stegosaurs, dicynodonts take the place of ceratopsians, etc. And not to mention he has several herbivore groups (ctenosauriscids, effigian rauisuchians) being carnivores, and many adaptable groups like prestosuchids die out. And then he has Therocephalians existing in the Late Triassic, even though they already went extinct. And THEN he somehow has mosasaurs and azdarchoid pterosaurs reappearing out of the blue. And if mammals only evolved because of dinosaurian competition, then how did cynodonts survive the K-T if they produced no small, scurrying forms. In fact, a crocodile (crocodilians were the weasels of the Triassic) works better than Terra Alternativa's current set-up.

Finally, their latest project, Dragons of the Ice Age. So, I think they might have scrapped What If World, and now are creating a post no-K-T world where dragons take over....that's right, dragons....gigantic monitor lizard descendants somehow drive dinosaurs mostly into the ground, and then take over...what the heck.

What the heck is right!! Seems JohnFaa only believes what he wants to believe, not what is true or scientific! The same person who said all this about JohnFaa, has been mentoring me a little bit in tweaking some of my ideas around. I like him a lot!! He is the only person in history who has ever been able to talk me into putting felines into my Metazoic project!! NOBODY has ever been able to do that!! In the 17-or-so years I have been working on this project! This guy is pretty convincing! He is so convincing, if he asked me to jump off a cliff, I would do it! With little or no argument! That is how convincing he is! Few people can get me to bow to their command like this guy can! He just has a natural way with the art of persuasion. Except to people like Proletarian, and Pousaz Power. But then again, those people have no brains! And the SE forum is nothing but a cult of stupidity. I'd say the same thing about JohnFaa, but I have this strict personal rule against attacking children. But looking at the layout this guy gave me of his projects, and the stuff he said about my project being unscientific, and going around e-mailing people with threats that they'd better think his way about my project, or else. Well, you can pretty much guess what I think of him. I just won't say it until he is 18! LOL!

I told one of my supporters yesterday that I actually love it that JohnFaa hates my project so much! Especially now, knowing about his sanctimonious beliefs. It shows just how much ass I kick with my project!! So, I'm just letting them have their fun! But I am telling you, if they go too far it could put a damper on my efforts to change!! I really do not want that to happen!!

Happy Birthday Michael Hutchence

Today is a special day it is a day to remember Michael. Though I can say I am not attracted to Michael anymore, and the feelings I do have for him are too complicated to put into words, I must remember him this day. My feelings for him are nothing like the feelings I have for Timmy, which is really not that complicated! No more than saying I love the guy!!! But I never formally met Michael, so I cannot say I love him in that way or not. Though he did let me kiss him! LOL! He didn't even know I did it though. But by "love" I don't mean like a "lover, boyfriend-girlfriend" type thing. Though I cannot deny in the case of Tim, Jon and Andrew, there is some physical attraction involved. I mean love as in how I love and adore my friends. Since I didn't meet Michael in a formal manner, I never spoke to him nor nothing, I cannot say I love him. I do however love his singing. One doesn't have to formally "meet" singing in order to love it. One just has to listen to it. And I do love his singing.

I've been busy, I finally finished a 160-page book I've been working on. In between that I managed to work on 4 size-charts for my Metazoic site and a herps page. By "herps" I mean vertebrates that are not mammals or birds. Though the phrase really only refers to snakes. A reptile is a reptile to me though. I am still tired but I managed to make up a page for herps. Took all night and all morning, and I haven't even eaten yet!! Not good! But I wanted to punch out that page and wish Michael a Happy Birthday. This is a day to celebrate!! As for the herps page, don't expect it to be spectacular, but it will do for now. If there are any herps fans out there who would like to see one woman's notion about the future evolution of these creatures, you can view the page here: http://www.metazoica.com/herps.html.

I'm going to bed.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

I Want Something!

I have this incredibly ugly feeling that I want something right this minute and I don't know what it is!!! I HATE this feeling!!!! It's like a fire churning the pit of my belly! But it's not really hot. Just creates an anxious feeling I have to do something!! My head feels fuzzy, and full, and it's trying to think, but it cannot. It takes over my body and my mind, and I cannot control it. The nagging part is I don't know what it is I want! So I cannot get it to get rid of this feeling. No, it's not a snake-charmer! LOL! I can feel it is something within reach..... I just cannot identify the thing I crave.

Ever have this feeling before? It is depressing! I'm not hungry, I'm not tired, everything I need is right here. Just that there is something I need and I need it now, and I don't know what it is. I feel like I am a 1970's computer trying to run Windows Vista. My head is so fuzzy, I'm looking around a very familiar room and I'm going "what?" My legs want to get up and go somewhere, but I don't know where. This is the worst feeling in the World! I kinda wonder if listening to music will dull the feeling. I missed Timmy last night, Monday nights are my TV time. Not even Timmy could take me away from my Monday night programs. But I am sure it isn't Timmy I want!!! Because I know all I have to do is get up, go into my room, grab a pic of him and come back out here. Or I could just open up the Timmy folder on my computer here and I have Timmy-pics a-plenty! I really don't know what it is I want, but it is driving me nuts!!!

Snake Charmer!

Ever since Steve Irwin's demise in 2006, these kind of performers have become quite popular. I vowed that I am going to see one of these shows even if it kills me! And it might!! I contacted a couple of people who do these kind of shows. So far I have heard nothing from anyone. I guess because my audience is so small, it's just me and Anna. They don't want to travel here just to perform a show for 2 people. I cannot say as I blame them, it really isn't worth it! So if I want to see a show like this, I'm gonna have to probably go to them!! There is one problem, most of them live in Florida or Texas or some place like that!! Either way, there are none here. I thought a live show like that would be great for my next birthday party! I always like doing the unique and unusual!

I know there is a snake-charmer from Texas who does his bit with rattlesnakes. I've seen him on TV several times too. I just cannot remember his name at the moment. Maybe not necessarily him, but I would love to see somebody like that doing a show like that. None of my other family will be there though, just me and Anna. We're the only ones in the family that really likes snakes. No one else in my family wants snakes in their zip code! There would be no way I could get them to come to a show with me. So the audience would be small, but it would be a very appreciative one. Maybe I could invite some friends to come with me. All but a couple of them don't like snakes either!! So finding someone else to go with me and Anna would be a big challenge! I want to see one of those kind of shows before I die though. If I have to go all the way south to do it then, one of these days maybe, so be it! But I don't really care for Florida, too much heat and humidity there, people say it'll kill you! Texas is also very hot! It's worse there than LA! All I remember when I was a kid and going to Lousiana to visit grandma was that I always wore shorts and tank tops. I don't even remember how hot it got there.

I want a show that is going to put me on the edge of my seat. Snakes are just scary enough for me! Especially like rattlesnakes! And I've always been fascinated by cobras. Poisonous snakes are really scary to me! Boas and pythons, as beautiful as they are and I do like them, they just wouldn't keep me on the edge of my seat the way wrestling a rattlesnake or a cobra would! That is why I would die to see one of those kind of shows. I used to always get that effect watching Steve Irwin do those kind of things with venomous snakes and crocodiles. Seeing a show like that in person would be a sight to behold. One thing I could say about Steve, he was good at it! He was the lucky one, IMO. He died doing what he loves. There is no better way to go than that. I've seen many people trying to imitate his act. As good as most of them have been, no one beats Steve! In this country there is one man who comes close. His name is David Weathers. I've seen his act on TV, and he is pretty good. Not "Steve Irwin" good, but good in his own way. But he too is in Florida. But he seems to be almost able to "hypnotize" snakes. That's a figure of speech BTW.

Well, some day, some time I would like to see one of these kinds of acts in person. I need a good rush of adrenaline. This would be just the thing to do it.

Sunday, January 18, 2009


This was the topic of Timmy's show tonight. Of course this is a year I will not soon forget! I lost my grandma this year. But I like to think now she is back with her husband John, who died when I was a kid, and he and grandma were only married for 2 years. But he was the best man in the World for her, he was always good to her. I only met him once, when he and grandma married. I was a little sprig then.

This was also the year I learned about forums. In a bad way. I was used to chatting in chat rooms, which is a very different experience. You can play with people, and that is just how they take it. As playing. But you try to do the same thing in forums, and everybody gets in your face and gives you a bad attitude about it. I like to play around with people I like, so I got people on my back all the time. It was just this past year I finally said screw it!! I'm sick of forums. So, I stay off them. This year, I came across one of the worst! It was a pet forum called AcmePet, it was originally sponsored by Petsmart. But Petsmart wised up and stopped sponsoring it when the posters got too ugly. Believe me, people get passionate about pets! Even more so than they get if you're talking about their husbands, wives or children!! Not everyone is as level-headed as me! hehe! The experiences at AcmePet were the first and worst encounters I ever had with a forum.

This was also the year we moved out of my pa's rental homes and moved to Olympia to be on our own. It was the best thing we ever did! I finally became an independant woman. I got to have as many pets as the park owner would allow us to. At one time, I had 5 chihuahuas. That was fun!! Of course I was breeding chi's then, and I had 3 girls and 2 boys. Unfortunately one of our boys threw big chihuahuas, so I had to adopt him out. One girl was not conformationally correct and didn't throw any pups that were, so she was adopted out. Another boy was beautiful in conformation and pedigree, but he didn't throw himself to his pups so he was also adopted out. Another girl went because she was not so great in conformation, though she did have the pedigree, but she was a lousy mom and killed her baby! That left only Groucho out of my original crew, and the last time she got pregnant she died. When Groucho was like 2 years old, we got Odessa and she is still with us, but she is spayed. Which is just as well because I don't want to breed anymore.

I probably should have kept our boy who threw big chihuahuas, they were gorgeous even though they were big. It wouldn't have been so bad if only we had gotten a little girl every now and then!! No one could explain why we only got boys in our kennel. I can't, no veterinarian, breeder, dog expert, NO one could explain why we only got boy pups born in our kennel. The only time we've had girls was with Bambi's first litter, and every other girl thereafter was stillborn, or died shortly after birth. We fed the females good quality feed, took good care of them, kept them warm and safe. I don't know why our females only ever had male pups. I have a theory, I think someone from the AcmePet site must have put some kind of curse on our kennel, especially someone from the Chihuahua forum on that site after the disagreement I had with them. It's the only explaination, even though it makes no sense. But then again, neither does only having male puppies in 6 years of breeding make sense!! It's very perplexing, and I defy anyone to come up with a more logical explaination for that! I even wanted Vegas to be a girl! I wanted something to take Groucho's place and girl chihuahuas are more prone to become sincere cuddlers. I even prayed, begged and pleaded with GOD to send me a baby girl! But no soap! I wound up with a boy. Well, Vegas is a good boy! But I cannot rub or kiss his belly like I can with Odessa.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

What Happened?

No Timmy last night! The program didn't come on. Shucks! OK, this is the last one-liner you will ever see from me.

Friday, January 16, 2009


I was supposed to write this earlier. Tonight's program focused on the year 1998. WTG Timmy!! That was quite an active year for me!! That was the year I "rediscovered" INXS for the first time in like 4 years, I still felt bad because Michael died, and one of the best ways I could think of to remember him by was to name one of my pups after him. I got a blue heeler puppy in June of that year, and I named her Hutchess. Yep, after Michael. Unfortunately, like Michael, Hutchess died too early in her life too. I only got to enjoy her for one week, then she succumbed to parvo. She was the sweetest puppy too! Blue heelers have always been one of my favorite breeds. I had an older one that passed shortly before I got Hutchess, that one went from old age.

I remember after Hutchess died, I had a terrible time getting over losing her, pretty much like when I lost Groucho. I dealt with losing Hutchess by writing about my experiences with her. We did have one wonderful week together. So I put that in a book and titled it "Hutchess, A Picture Diary". One of my best methods of getting over something is to write about it, and so that was my tool for getting over Hutchess. It turned out to be a good, dramatic story. So that is why I am offering it on my site. That was also the point where I learned how very useful INXS's music and videos would become to me. Listening to their music made me feel good, and seeing them on video, especially Michael's singing and Tim's clowning around, made me feel better! I also recently wrote a story about Groucho, but I don't know. I was a younger woman when I lost Hutchess. It was easier then to just pick up the pieces and learn to live without her. I was older and much more prone to depression when I lost Groucho.

There were quite a few celebrity deaths that year. Cher wrote an album and the same year her former husband Sonny Bono passed away. You know my ma told me that Cher held me in her arms when I was a baby. I was about 2 years old and we lived in LA at the time. Ma worked for the mayor, and the mayor loved her so much she was invited to a private party at the mayor's home. A lot of celebs were there, but the biggest names I remember ma mentioning were Sonny and Cher. Ma took me with her because pa was in the field and Anna was in school and ma couldn't get a babysitter fast enough. I was too young to remember any of that. In fact, I completely forgot it until ma told me the story again one day at work back in 2001. I remember living in LA, and going through there back in 2005, some things actually refreshed my memory. But not much. Anyway, that year, Cher released the song "Believe". I kinda wonder if she wrote it in honor of Sonny, because she mentions "Do you believe in love after life?" Tonight's show was a good one!

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Martin Luther King Jr. Day

Happy Birthday to Martin Luther King, Jr! I saw his birthday posted up on the Star Celeb. He was a great man! He was one of my all-time favorite American heros! I commented that if it wasn't for him, me and my lifelong friend would never have been friends. If it weren't for him, I would never have been able to fall in love with my first boyfriend. If it weren't for him, I would never have met all the wonderful African-American people who have had such a profound influence in my life. So Martin Luther King, Jr. was definately a hero in the truest sense of the word! Of course I have met some African American people who were not so good, but that is true for all races. I've met many Caucasians I wouldn't give the time of day to. But like Martin Luther King, Jr. himself implied, judge not by the color of their skin, but by the content of their character. It is what is inside that counts. Even Obama better get down on his knees and thank GOD such a person existed! Obama could learn a great deal from Martin Luther King, Jr.

Oh my GOD! I wonder what the people from PETA Sucks are thinking of this day? Knowing what bigots they are! Well, most of them were. Well, I don't really want to think of people like them, knowing it'll get me started again. I deleted about 100 posts imported from my old blog today! Among them were the posts about that forum. The only roasting posts I left up were the ones directed to the Bible-thumpers. Especially the one I titled "If", because I still haven't got all those questions answered. I always wanted to find a hard-core creationist that can answer those in a believable way. But so far, I never have.

I can never remember sometimes if Martin Luther King, Jr's birthday is really the 15th of January or the 16th of January!! But then again, sometimes I still think my sis Anna's birthday is on the 6th and not the 8th! I'd make a lousy wife!! Always forgetting birthdays!! The man I did marry, I had no clue when his birthday was!!! I never asked him, believe it or not!! And he never told me. I'm not good at bringing questions like that up in a conversation either. Let's face it, conversation is a game I suck at! But hanging around my friends and family, I am trying to get better.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009


This was the topic of tonight on Tim-Tim's talk show. I knew he would talk about Michael! I like it that he told the story with some of their most sensitive songs playing in the background. I am glad I recorded that clip! He also played a few songs he's dedicated to Michael. I know how that goes. I have some songs I dedicated myself to Groucho. One of the songs Timmy played was "Change the World" by Eric Clapton. A great song for Michael!! He did change the World, through his singing. I will always confess Michael was a good singer. Just cuz he's not that attractive in my eyes anymore, is no reason to dis his singing, because he was good. I still keep a lot of the back-catalogue of INXS albums and songs. But for looks as well as talent, one need not look further than the wonderful and beautiful Tim Farriss. Timmy's got it ALL!! *sigh* I just love that man sooooo much!!! I so enjoy his shows! I only wish it was television and not radio, because I want to see his face!

Well, a little this week, I am going to be putting up more posts from my other blog. I need to look them over before I post them because I don't want to add any of my roasting posts on here. Some of them were funny, but I don't really want to trash anyone here. I haven't got much of a chance to do anything today because I've been busy with other things. Perhaps tomorrow I will post up more of my other blogs. There's some about JD and INXS and I want to repost those on here. Yesterday as I was saving the posts from my other blog, I noticed on the thread about Complaining Christians, someone offered me a free gift for joining landoverbaptists.net. Funny how I never noticed that before! Well, sorry. Unless the free gift is a private gig with INXS in my backyard and flying all my MySpace buds in to join me, or a trip to Australia to view Tim doing his radio show, I am not interested. I know the latter would be impossible!! Tim's program is pre-recorded. Or so I heard. And I don't want to go to his home!!! Not unless he invites me himself!!! Since that will never happen, there is no need for me to go to Oz just for that.

In fact some day I do plan to move to Australia. I heard there is a job opportunity there that pays $100,000 for 6 months, and gives you an oceanfront home. There is a catch though. You have to scuba-dive every day. Scuba-diving is not one of my things! I've done it before. Here, it's OK. In the Australian Great Barrier Reef, you couldn't pay me enough to scuba-dive there! I'm scared to death I'll get approached by sea snakes, or get into a swarm of box jellies or Irukandji, or be attacked by blue-ringed octopus! Not to mention, Australia is a hot-spot for Great White shark attacks!! Australia is known for having some of the most dangerous sea creatures in the World, and that is what I'd have to risk if I got that job. If it weren't for that, if I could just go out in a boat and grab these creatures for study, it wouldn't be a problem. I'd take the job in a heartbeat! Well, I have another way of getting to Oz, and it's virtually free! Ever hear of WOOF? I will be looking into that. Why not? I've worked on farms before! Only thing I've never done was drive a tractor.

Done Finally!

I was going to post this yesterday, but I was a bit too busy. But anyway, I don't know how I did it but I was able to import my last blog to this one. I kept the better posts, and did a little bit of clean-up to take out all the bad stuff. I didn't publish the ones that requires too much clean-up. In fact I tossed those away. Katrina, Eva and Anna are all happy that I am turning over this new leaf. This is the first step. Katrina says I need to tear down these walls I have over myself and I know she is right. That is the next step and the hardest part. These "walls" are basically my protection and have been for so many years, I don't know how I can do without them. And every time I am nice to someone I get kicked down. I always manage to get back up again, usually by doing what Katrina calls "putting another brick on the wall". Not only does another brick go on the wall, but also the big guns come out and I shoot blindly at everyone. I think for the past couple of years I've been getting this "get them before they get me" notion, and we all know I need to stop that. Well, I am working on it. I will not promise to change by tomorrow, but I will not be airing my grievances on here any more. Because Katrina said she'd knock my blocks off! LOL! She packs a lot of power in a body that is only 5-feet tall and 98 pounds!!

Kindof a shame! It was those grieving and crazy posts that kept the regular readers coming back! I almost hate to give them up. Now I don't think I will be getting anymore readers at all. People don't go to blogs that are all lovey-dovey. Though I think that is what drew the people of the DF forum to me in the first place, my deep devotion to Tim Farriss. Only problem was they misinterpreted everything. But not getting into that!! There is always going to be people who will read what I write and misinterpret it or make stuff up from it. Well, part of the reason may be me. I am very precise in what I write. It's a habit. When I first started writing, someone told me that in order for a book to be good enough to publish a writer has to be very descriptive and detailed. Like you cannot say in a story "we watched the clouds roll by". A writer has to say something to the effect of "We sat on the cool, green grass and looked up to the sky and watched the clouds roll slowly by." So that is how I learned to put all these descriptive phrases in my writings. Even on these blogs. So I figured maybe I put too much description on my blogs. Who is going to read these blogs anyway? Usually common people. Not necessarily people who know all about writing.

Well, that's all I have to say. I think I cleaned out most of these posts, but if anyone sees anything "impure" let me know! I am still redoing this one story "Gracie's Odyssey". It's coming out great. But it is taking forever!! I know it will eventually get done, it's just taking such a long time. This story has officially been written twice. The first time was in 1998, and the second time was in 1999. In the first version, Davy grows up in a zoo, and then goes off to live with other animals. In the 1999 version, he lives in a zoo for a little while, then is bought by a man who brings him home to his teenage daughter, Lisa. I am actually the one responsible for the second version! I thought up Lisa and her father the summer before, in 1998. They came to me in a dream. But at that time, I had been watching too much Titanic, the movie with Leonardo DiCaprio and Kate Winslet. I saw it about a hundred times in the theater!! I loved it! Then I had that dream of Lisa and her father buying Davy from the zoo. Now, you know how it is that dreams tend to exaggerate things. Like if you are asleep and someone knocks on your bedroom door, in a dream it can sound like gunshots firing. Well, in this dream, it took the ritzy-looking people I saw on Titanic and made people look even more ritzy. So in this original "re-write", Lisa was a princess in a huge, frilly dress and a tiara, and her father was the king of the land. And they were not on a boat, they lived in a castle. LOL! I actually put that down on paper because it seemed like a cute idea at the time. But when I finished it and looked back on it, I decided it was overdoing things too much and I didn't like it at all!! I didn't even present it to Cairo, the original writer of that story!

Well, several months later, in 1999, I re-wrote that story. I still liked the idea of Lisa and her father buying Davy from a zoo, but I wanted to tone down their position. So, Lisa's father, instead of being king of the land, is now a judge in a Supreme Court. Lisa is still a simple teenage girl in middle school and they both live in a mansion on top of a hill, not a castle in some far-off land! Besides, children have enough books about princes and princesses and stuff like that. Let them have someone they can really relate to. Cairo really liked that idea too, so this is how the story has been written up all these years. The story is not available on our website yet, but it will be very soon.

Monday, January 12, 2009

Obama's Dog

Well, I was reading an article at The Star Celeb, and Obama has narrowed down the feild of breeds. Well, ONE breed, and the other a mutt. He wants to get either a Portuguese Water Dog or a mixed labrador and poodle (better known to other people as "labradoodles"). IF he does go with the labradoo, that would be catastrophic!! Next thing you know, everyone will be seeking these mutts. Even the person who wrote the article thinks they are the best choice. Bad idea! Mongrels never have a fixed personality. I personally have never seen a mongrel whose personality was 100% better than those of any purebreeds. The trouble is the public is pushed to believe they are better, so they get these mutts not expecting them to give any problems. And then when they do, the mutts wind up in the pound. Some of the worst dog attacks I've ever heard of were committed by mongrels. If Obama does get a mongrel, I can only hope he gets it from a shelter. At least they put down dogs that have bad temperaments! That's the only way they'd find a mixed-breed guaranteed to have a good personality. Don't go to a breeder of mixed breeds! They'll only tell you what they think you want to hear because all they are interested in is pocketing the money from the sale.

Personally, if it were me, a lover of pure-breed dogs, I'd go for the Portuguese Water Dog. But you're less likely to find them in shelters. In fact I've never seen one in a shelter. A tribute to how good a personality pure-breeds have over mongrels. Personally if it were me, I'd never get either dog with girls under 10 years old! I don't trust labradors at all. And poodles are too hyper. But then so are the water dogs. But then again, poodles and the Water Dogs are the only non-allergenic dogs. Labradors are a totally different story, and that's another problem with getting a labradoo, they may wind up with one that has a labrador-coat, even if it resembles a poodle, and it could shed, causing Obama's daughter undue allergies. But it's really his choice. If it were me, I'd have gone for a purebreed toy poodle.

Yellowstone Quakes and Shakes!

This should please my sis Anna, she is a self-proclaimed volcano junkie! She's often said that if David Johnston was still around today he would be the man she would have loved to marry. He was a rather good-looking man!

Nice guy! I met the guy but I was too young to really care! He was the one who uttered those famous last words just before Mount St. Helens blew up and claimed him as one of her victims, "Vancouver! Vancouver! This is it!!" That's the only man my sis Anna ever fell in love with. She doesn't like guys. She's not gay, she just doesn't trust men. But hey! If he was still around now, and Anna married him, they could have gone off on volcano-hunting trips together! But anyway, there is seismic activity at Yellowstone (and Anna wants to move there???) and it is causing some concern. If it blows, Anna says there is no way out! It'd cause a disaster of epic proportions. Pretty much most of the NW would be affected, so would the east coast. Anyway, here's an article I found about the activity going on at Yellowstone.
Yellowstone Quakes Shake Loose Eruption Fears
Mead Gruver, Associated Press
Jan. 12, 2009 -- Run for your lives ... Yellowstone's going to explode!

Hundreds of small earthquakes at Yellowstone National Park in recent weeks have been an unsettling reminder for some people that underneath the park's famous geysers and majestic scenery lurks one of the world's biggest volcanoes.

In the ancient past, the volcano has erupted 1,000 times more powerfully than the 1980 blast at Mount St. Helens, hurling ash as far away as Louisiana. No eruption that big has occurred while humans have walked the earth, however, and geologists say even a minor lava flow is extremely unlikely any time soon.

Some observers are nonetheless warning of imminent catastrophe.

"To those of us who have been following these events, we know that something is brewing, especially considering that Yellowstone is over 40,000 years overdue for a major eruption," warned a posting on the online disaster forum Armageddononline.org.

Another Web site contained a page entitled "Yellowstone Warning" that encouraged "everyone to leave Yellowstone National Park for 100 miles around the volcano caldera because of the danger in poisonous gasses that can escape from the hundreds of recent earthquakes."

That site, which carried the U.S. Geological Survey logo, has since been taken down.

"A casual observer would be led to believe that was an official source," Yellowstone spokesman Al Nash said, pointing out that the Yellowstone Volcano Observatory, which monitors the park for seismic activity, hasn't changed the volcano's alert level from "normal."

Working with the Geological Survey, Nash issued a news release Thursday, saying no evacuation had been ordered.

Jessica Robertson, a Geological Survey spokeswoman in Reston, Va., said the Web page violated the USGS trademark and that the agency's attorneys were investigating whether a federal offense was committed.

Phone and e-mail messages left with the contact named on the Web site weren't returned Thursday.

Earthquakes are hardly unusual in Yellowstone. Hundreds occur in the park every year. Earthquake "swarms" like the recent activity also aren't uncommon, although the 900 or so quakes that began Dec. 26 and significantly tapered off about a week later appear to have been the most energetic swarm in more than 20 years.

The most powerful temblor was magnitude 3.9, just short of being able to cause moderate damage. The vast majority of quakes were too weak to be felt by people.

Scientists knowledgeable about Yellowstone's geology aren't publicly speculating about what caused the swarm before they can analyze data. That will take months.

"I could come up with 100 different theories without any evidence for them and they would all be equally likely," said Jake Lowenstern, the Menlo Park, Calif.-based scientist in charge of Yellowstone Volcano Observatory. "Unless you have some reason to say that's what's going on, then you're not going to get a whole lot of people convinced by your speculation."

Park geologist Hank Heasler said the odds of a cataclysmic eruption at Yellowstone any time soon are astonishingly remote -- about the same as a large meteorite hitting the Earth. The last such eruption occurred 640,000 years ago. The last eruption of any kind at Yellowstone was a much smaller lava flow about 70,000 years ago.

"Statistically, it would be surprising to see an eruption the next hundred years," Lowenstern said.

Much more likely, he said, would be a hydrothermal explosion in which underground water encounters a hot spot and blasts through the surface. Small hydrothermal explosions producing craters a few feet wide occur in Yellowstone perhaps once or twice a year. Large hydrothermal explosions leaving craters the size of a football field occur every 200 years or so, according to a 2007 paper co-authored by Heasler, Lowenstern and others.

Lowenstern said new equipment installed deep within bore holes in the park over the past two summers eventually should provide a clear picture of what's causing the earthquake swarm. That data could help scientists make better predictions about Yellowstone's geology.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Day 11

Tonight's show represented the year 1994. Another great year, it was the first year my sis Anna and I came to Ocean Shores by ourselves without our family. We stayed at a cute little hotel here, it was one of few around at that time. There were few powerlines then in this town, all the homes, land and hotels were on septic systems, that's how primitive it was out here. Basically it was just a cute little get-away town. It was the Easter weekend and every year around that time, all the kite-fliers come to this area to take advantage of the high ocean winds. Well, that little weekend trip sparked my imagination and ever since then, I've wanted to move to this town. Another thing that piqued my interest in this town was the Disney movie, "Pete's Dragon". It too was taken in a small, oceanside town, and it was such a cute movie! I was so fascinated by the town being so small and nestled up against the ocean it made me want to move out here so bad I was almost ready to pack up and leave the mountains and move to the ocean right then. Now, I am glad I moved here, even though it has taken me several years.

That was also the year I got heavily into the future of evolution. When I was younger the thought of evolution always made me cringe, but then I started studying it further, partly because of Jurassic Park, and I realized it was the best explaination there was for why dinosaurs and humans were not around at the same time. I actually created my first critters in 1992, but they were more akin to "make-believe" animals, much like one would see in a Dr. Seuss book, or on Star Wars. It wasn't until 1994 that I made these animals a little more scientifically accurate. I started with lemurs, the therapeds and deinognathids and carnivorous rats. The carnivorous rats I got from my copy of After Man. Dixon became quite famous for his predator rats. But he made them look too much like modern rats on stilts. I made them look more advanced. For one thing, I got rid of the naked tail, giving them a well-haired tail. From those first creations I radiated out into a World dominated by mammals. From that day on you could say my life focused on creating a mammal-dominated world, with no humans, and lacking those species who hinder the evolutionary advancement of other animals. Some animals I believe have many more millions of years to go.

This was also the year Kurt Cobain died. He grew up here, about 15 miles away from me in Hoquiam. The town even did a statue, funded by MTV, of Cobain. It's an awesome sight!!! Last time I saw it though it was still in the production stage. I didn't go to the unveiling, I'm not the biggest Nirvana fan, but my friend Cathy is.

Well, Australia had their own headlines that year, something about brushfires in northern Australia. Boy! I know how that feels! I get sick of hearing about brushfires in California!! But I guess that's what happens with global warming. That was a great year for music, not saying all of it was good, but I did hear a lot of songs tonight that has brought back some fond memories!

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Day 10

I missed day 9, so I'll just skip to what I have heard tonight. Day 10, represents 1993. I didn't know Prince did that song that year!! I'd have swore that was an 80s song!!! Either I'm wrong or Timmy is. Most likely me, I never cared for Prince. He never did anything really good as far as I'm concerned. But the rest of the songs I recognize very well. Well, except that last song. That was a weirdo song! Someone who would do anything for love except he won't do that. Whatever "that" is, I don't know. It was a weird song anyway.

1993 was a pretty good year. That was the year my sis Eva married a man, a wealthy man I might say. Lucky her! She doesn't want me to say what he does or where he works, so I won't. I cannot say why, so don't ask. hehe! That was the year me and Cathy finished the "Batman" series in our stories. It ended with a bang! Quite literally. We had UMG characters playing Batman characters, and it ended up being the character named Bucky was just waking up from a nap after dreaming he was Batman battling the Joker, Penguin, Catwoman, Riddler, Mr. Freeze, and the Mad Hatter. It was a funny way to end the series that extended over a year. We started the series just before Batman Returns started in the theaters, in August of 1992 with Batman battling the Joker and Penguin. I loved writing those Batman series because it gave me a chance to let my imagination really go wild. It was never meant to replace the original Batman comics or movies, it was just a fun way of being trendy. Bucky is a lemur that is used in quite a few stories and he turned out to be a Batman fan, so this is why he was dreaming these things happening to him while wearing a Batman costume. They were not the only stories I had that ended up being a dream someone in the story was having. A couple years later, I had a story with me sitting in a college biology class studying Dian Fossey, and dreaming I was going up to study gorillas with her. In the beginning of the story though I fell asleep, and at the end of the story I was woken up. That was all that story was based on. I dunno, the plot worked well for Alice in Wonderland!! In the story Alice apparently dreamed the whole thing up, then woke up at the end. The same concept applies to these stories.

That was also the year my pa moved in with the woman who was soon to be his wife and left us his house as a rental. He still visited quite often. But back then everytime he visited it was a roll of the dice whether he would be in a good mood or a bad mood. I hated it when he came to visit!!! He may have left us the house, but he didn't leave us our privacy!! He still wanted to control everything we did, even though we were not children anymore and he was renting us the house and we paid our rent on time every month.

Well geez, I am awful tired tonight! I loved hearing Tim on the radio again, but I am so tired. When my eyes start stinging me, that means they are TIRED!!!!

Road Trip With the Wees!

Yesterday we went on a long trip with our little ones. I mean a LONG trip!!! At first we went to Astoria, our intent was to do some grocery shopping. But the store we went to did not have all we wanted, so as long as we were in the state, I thought let's go to Portland. So we did. They had everything we wanted so we got what we wanted and needed and came back home. It was a long way there from Astoria, where we originally started. We stopped at a rest stop to let the little ones go potty, they always attract a lot of attention, and Anna met a woman who just lost her husband yesterday. I thought when the woman looked at me she had that lost look in her eyes, kinda like how I looked when I lost my Groucho. She said he went in for heart surgery and died in the operation. I felt so bad for her, I told her she is in my prayers. That's all I could do, but she said seeing our babies made her day. I get so awkward in those kind of situations. I never had a husband die on me, I've lost friends and close family before, and kind words are enough to help me feel better. All I could offer was my condolences.

Well, we got our shopping done. You know what? I think I'm going to go shopping there more often! Everything is cheaper there! I was able to get twice as much as I usually do. But we were so tired upon returning we were falling asleep on the ride home! Thank GOD we made it before we got too tired. Usually on a long trip like that during the last 10 miles toward home I start feeling woozy, and last night was no exception. I had to turn off the music and start talking just to keep Anna and myself awake! I didn't think I was going to make it home awake! But we did, us and the wees made it home unscathed. There were still a lot of road closures due to flooding!! Thank GOD by yesterday most places were cleared, but passing through Chehalis, Centralia and Elma I noticed most of those areas were underwater! It's like a sea out here! I think in the future World this whole area is going to be part of the Pacific Ocean! No land anywhere. The Cascades are going to maybe be an island chain, or underwater volcanoes. The area Katrina lives with her family is not so bad, but then she lives on a hill too. But I also remember her mentioning yesterday that she could not go to work because most of the highway around her area was flooded.

Well, when I got home, I wanted to try my all-new portable DVD player I got yesterday, but I was too tired. Even today I am still too tired! NUTS!! But I will get to try it out, possibly tonight. I just cannot wait is all! It even plays VCDs, which I have quite a few of. My old player won't even touch VCDs!! Anna has no use for VCDs so I gave the player to her. This one is cool! It's like a flat-panel player, with a cute little mini remote. I can hook this baby up to my stereo on one side of the room and control it from the other. Look out Rockstar: INXS!! I'll be watching it maybe tonight! I miss Timmy. These radio programs are cool, but I want to see Tim's face! I missed last night's program! I'm sure they did the year 1992. Tonight they might do 1993. That was the year I got back into listening to the radio after like a 2-year break.

Friday, January 9, 2009

Day 6

This article was from Day 6 of Tim-Tim's radio show, so I thought I'd better save it here.

I was finally able to free up some time tonight and listen to Tim's radio program on a livestream from the River 94.9 FM, for the first time. Here I was talking about not missing it and I missed the last 6 days!! Tonight, he was doing the songs from 1989. Anyone else want to hear it, it comes on at 6:00 PM here in WA state. So that's PT zone. I missed the first 6 years, but I guess it's just as well. The songs from 1982 and 1983 are stupid and boring. In 1984 songs began getting better, but not the ones other people think were so great. But that's JMO.

1989, a good year. I was in high school. Cathy and I were on a story-writing frenzy that year, a number of my creations were based on the life of Dian Fossey. Though not necessarily Gorillas in the Mist. I also "discovered" music this year. Well, I discovered I like it. That was also the year I got Amadeus, my siamese cat. The only cat I would ever have that I would love. He still got on my nerves a lot though!! That was also the year my ma and pa got divorced. They both agreed it was the best thing for them. My pa met his now wife, and my ma met her now husband and now both are happy. That was also the year I met my first boyfriend, the man I hoped to marry someday. Well, that was before he joined the service.

When I first tuned in to the program, I kinda expected it to be like those Oprah Winfrey and Jerry Springer talk shows, a mix of both Tim Farriss talking about his experiences with INXS and talking about other groups. He did have some nice things to say about Roxette, which was always my favorite group next to INXS. But basically all Tim was doing was talking about musical history in general, and introducing what songs will be played. I did enjoy the songs, one song that was played I haven't heard in years! More than anything I enjoyed hearing Tim's commentary. To think I even recognized his voice among the other DJs. Been a long time since I spoke to him, but I still remember him even without seeing him. I was hoping though he'd be cracking jokes and being funny as I know he is capable of. Well, either way I did enjoy the program, and I thank my buds from OBINXS for referring me to the site.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Day 8

Tim was in good voice tonight! As he talked about the year 1991. Of course I realize these shows are pre-recorded!!! LOL! Anyway, I never realized how little I listened to the radio in '91 until I heard tonight's show. I have these periods, just like everything else, that are neutral and periods where I cannot get enough of something. Radio was among those things. In 1989 and 1990, I listened to the radio constantly! In 1991, I only listened to the radio a little, for maybe a few months of the year and then I stopped. I don't remember listening to the radio at all in 1992 or most of 1993. Then about around September of 1993, I started listening to the radio again. That started a long trend of constant radio and music that lasted several years. Between 1993, '94, '95 and most of '96 I never had the radio off!! I'd be in my stereo room and I'd listen to the radio, in my bedroom, I'd listen to the radio, the car sure enough the radio was always on. Then late in 1996 I suddenly stopped listening except in the car, and that was only occasionally. In 1997 I hadn't started up yet, 1998 I was more into INXS so I listened more to my CDs than the radio. But in 1999 I started listening to the radio once again and didn't stop for a while. All of 1999 and 2000 I was constantly listening to the radio, especially on my way to work. In 2001 I didn't listen to the radio at all though. That was the year we moved to Olympia and I lost my favorite radio station when we did that. So, that was a bummer! I hardly ever listened to the radio unless I was in the car and just didn't have anything to say to whomever was in there with me. Usually the dogs. I'd take the dogs when Anna wasn't there so I'd have someone else to talk to. Unless it was hot out. After 2001 I never listened to the radio again, and out here there is only one radio station and it only plays country music. A big no-no in this house unless my stepfather is DJing, and then only to show him family support.

Anyway, I only recognized a few songs tonight. It could also be that I am not from Australia, but most of the songs I either barely remember or do not recognize. But who cares? I just enjoy hearing Tim's voice!! He even sounds beautiful! Forgive me for lusting!

Speaking of forgiveness, I wanted to announce I forgive the dirty dozen mob for what they did, I forgive DonnaG and her supporters for what they did in the past, that includes Catsredrum, Netrage, Mayday06 and NetsAngel. I forgive you all. I forgive those who have trashed me for no reason, I respect their decision to not want anything to do with me anymore. I forgive the people on the Anti-PETA forum for what they did. I'm not sure I'm supposed to list everything, they know what they did, and I really do not want to get into it, as I want to keep this clean. May GOD have mercy on them all.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Day 7

Well, tonight Timmy did the show for the year 1990. A great year! I was in the Voc school that year, and became something of a grown up. It was a part of my high school continuing education program. Yippee!! I was glad to get away from the high school kids and become a grown up. Though even then, on the bus to the school, I still had kids barking at me. Don't ask why!! It was their thing, not mine! They were nutty kids! They were on their way to a school for troubled kids, so that should give you some idea why they acted that way. I was also madly in love with my first boyfriend this year, and hoped to marry him once I graduated from high school. He couldn't wait either. But later I found out he was being transfered across the country. He wanted me to come, but I couldn't. My family and friends are here, and it's not easy for me to make friends (back then we didn't have the internet), so I opted to stay here. He couldn't stay, so he had to go. I thought we would keep in touch, he had my phone # and all, but he never called, wrote or anything.

Now, I wish I had gone with him. I stayed there and lived in my father's house for many years, and every day was a constant battle with him!!! I never knew from one minute to the next if he was going to be in a good mood or bad mood, he changed with the wind!! Ya know, I think that's what turned me into a bitter old woman?! A woman who doesn't trust anybody! Maybe if I had gone with my first boyfriend to NC, I would not have become such an ogre! Being overly-defensive at every turn, hating everybody, or not trusting them, thinking everyone is either out to get me or is only being nice because they want something from me. I got so used to living that way staying at my father's house. But he was nice enough to let me live there on a minimal rent. It was just every time I saw him, he was either very very sweet, or very very mean. And I didn't know what he was which days. Sometimes he would come to the house nice, and later turn mean and nasty, for no apparent reason. Well, those days are behind me. He's a very different person now. I honestly think it took us moving out here, almost 100 miles away from him, to tame him down. Now whenever I see him, he's always very thoughtful, kind and polite. Miracles never cease.

Anyway, 1990 was also the year I discovered INXS. It was the summer of 1990. I'd been hearing INXS's music for a couple of years, and it was one of the first bands to capture my attention, and my imagination. When I saw a video of their's for the first time that summer, at first I fell in love with Michael. It was Need U Tonight/Mediate. Michael was so cute I fell in love right away. But it was Tim who caught my attention in Mediate, though he was at the end of the video, he had the best set of buns in the band!! So round, and fully-packed!! Let's face it, I'm a butt-woman!! I love a man with big, round buns like Tim's!!! I never seen one like his on a man! Michael had the face, but Tim had the buns!!! Michael had a cute face, but Tim was nice everywhere else! But like everyone else, I went for the lead singer of the band back then. I wasn't really like I am now. Now, I like to think independently.

Well anyway, I enjoyed the show. Timmy is really a damn good DJ. He should also make a career of this! I heard one song tonight I haven't heard since 1990! I think it's called "Onion Skin" or something like that. I used to hear it all the time on the radio station I was hooked on back then. I used to HATE that song!! I did at first. Then I started listening to it and learned to like it better. When I was ready to record it one day I discovered that they had actually stopped playing the song! I was upset, and I never heard it again. EVER!! Not until tonight anyway. I had even completely forgotten about that song until I heard it tonight!!! Thanks again Timmy!!!! Luv ya, and keep up the good work!


This is my newest blog. As you can see I am just getting started. Actually, I hope to begin this blog in the next week, after I delete my last blog. I'm trying to go for a new start for the new year and I figured this is one way to do it. I'm hoping this blog will be more tame. But anyway, this isn't going to be a blog to bash people with! I'm trying to make a change in my life. I don't want to become known as an internet bully, so I am trying to move foreward. And this new blog will be the way to do it.

Hope you all enjoy this one this time. I will be talking a lot about my own personal experiences, and also about the stories presented on my UMG site. It'll be fun here!! And I promise not to fly off the handle anymore. I will also try to get a much better layout going. I really do not like this one!

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Well, Here it is

Here's to a productive New Year. Hope that I keep up with fixing my attitude problem!! LOL! I heard from the anonymous e-mailer again and he told me that he didn't want to see me turn out like a couple of other scientists he knows who everyone knows is nuts and never listens to them. Well, I told him I like it that I am a little bit crazy, but I don't want to be known for being psychotic. The problem was no one ever told me I am like this. Well!!! No one meaningful!! The only people who have told me I'm psychotic are all DonnaG supporters or the dirty dozen mob, and I wouldn't listen to any of them either way! Why not? First of all, because DonnaG and the dirty dozen mob are all crazier than I will ever be!! So it's like the pot calling the kettle black. This e-mailer, even though I just "met" him, does not act crazy at all, so I would believe him if he said I was acting irrational or freaky. Second of all, this e-mailer does not approach me like the dirty dozen and DonnaG supporters do. When they approach me, they do it in a way like they are poking fun and acting like a bunch of 6th graders, so naturally enough I won't listen to them. But this e-mailer seems to have class and finesse, yet very upfront. And I like that. I don't mind constructive criticism, but how it is delivered is what really counts. That is why, after hearing what he thinks of my attitude, I was able to take a long hard look at my behavior, and I am now ready to go for a change.

I will not promise to change within like the next few weeks, but hopefully by the end of the year, barring BS from the dirty dozen and DonnaG supporters, I can say the change will be noticeable. The only real way to avoid conflicts with them is to stay off the forums. I got one thing going for me, the dirty dozen have stated they don't care to comment on my blogs :) So at least I don't have to look at them if I don't want to. Cool!!! And I never go into the Rockband lounge or the Switchboard so no chance of butting heads with the DonnaG supporters either. Way COOL!!! I'm not even on inxs.com anymore so that too is off. Maybe with this I can put my life on 'Reset'. hehe! I'm just shocked none of my friends, buds or family ever told me any of this! Took a stranger, though a kind stranger, to bring it to my attention!!
So anyway, here's to a change.


I looked in on a group I am a part of still and someone posted up an interview that Kirk's new fiance did, she mentioned Kirk is a "retired musician". OK, so what is up with that? Not that I care about Kirk really, but it makes me think, is INXS retiring? I only hope that is just a rumor. I hope it's not true. Then someone else mentioned that a couple of the Farriss's got different jobs and I was like "oh no!" INXS cannot retire!!! 30 years in music is not long enough!! Considering the fact the Rolling Stones have been in music for 40+ years, it's by far not long enough. And what about JD Fortune? What about his career? He became their new lead singer. What's going to become of him now if INXS do retire? What is he going to do with all that talent? What about the new CD INXS was supposedly coming out with? What about the 80+ songs that Andrew was supposedly working on while INXS were on their extended break? Aren't they going to go into publication? This brings up so many questions and concerns it's not funny!

On the other hand it sort of makes sense. Maybe INXS touring for 3 years straight was sort of their way of saying goodbye to the World. What a shame! I wanted to see Tim again, I miss him so much! And JD's career was just getting started. That sucks!!! So what is the point of having an INXS fan club now if they are retiring? Geez, I guess now would be the best time to move to Australia. Not that I believe whole-heartedly I would ever get to meet Tim even there, but at least I might have something of a chance of seeing him again. Maybe they will tour only through Australia instead of going around the World, like small pub shows or something of the like. I can go to those easily and still see them.

Tonight I got an e-mail from an anonymous e-mailer who has been exchanging messages with me all week. He (or she) kept on asking me why I hate felines so much. I tried to avoid telling this person, but finally I gave them an explaination. Well, today I got a message from this person telling me how I get irrational and foam at the mouth when I answered. This person said it freaked him (or her) out. I admit I do get quite passionate when I talk about things I don't like, and I tend to fly off the handle. The best explaination I have for that is that it is my handicap. It's something that for some reason, I cannot control. I think the reason for that is because I never acknowledged it. But I thanked this person for bringing that to my attention, because to be honest, I knew that went on but I couldn't figure out if it was me or the other person. No one else ever told me any of this, but it has actually made me open my eyes and look at myself. The only indication I ever had about this, believe it or not, was just my sisters occasionally telling me to "chill out". I've asked this before, am I really a monster? I guess this person answered my question!! And probably the main reason I dislike cat-people is because most of them are hypocrites!! I've met many, especially on the YouTube site, and they are nothing but whiny hypocrites!! They say they hate dogs because dogs kill people. Dogs don't kill people, people kill people!! If a dog kills a person, the one to really blame is the owner because they brought the dog up to be killers by either not socializing it, or just getting a puppy and training it to fight, and keeping it in the back yard, tied to a tree and never showing it any love. That would make anyone develop a lust to kill!! Even a person raised like that would more likely kill others! But then what about all the larger feline species that have killed many people in the past? How do these cat people, who hate dogs so much because they say they kill people, explain when some tiger or lion or cougar kills a person? At least if a dog kills a person, their alibi is they were brought up that way by a person. But felines have no alibi. Nobody brings them up to kill, that is how they are wired. A difference? Not really! Not to those people anyway. I've had cat-people who have threatened me with a gun because I don't like cats, and I tell you, it did NOT make me see cats in any better light after that!! In fact that is what formed the basis I have that cat-people are no damn good!! Both of those incidents did. Those plus the fact the dirty dozen mob are all made up of cat-fanciers and everyone by now knows how I feel about the dirty dozen mob!! I need not mention that anymore. I try not to judge people by what they like, I said I wasn't going to do that anymore after all the stuff I said about the Garry fans and having met the man!! But when I meet cat-people who are all basically nothing but a bunch of bad apples, what am I supposed to think? The only cat-fanciers I've met that I still like is my sis Eva and Cathy, one of my best friends. Both have and adore kitty cats, both prefer cats over dogs. But they both also understand that I am not a cat person, and have never threatened me with shooting or any other form of bodily harm or anything else. I can honestly say I've never harassed anyone because they didn't like dogs. I just puzzle over it because I cannot see what is so special about cats over dogs. I've had both before, and it's dogs I enjoy more. Especially the small breeds.

Well, with this anonymous person bringing this to my attention, and Katrina suggesting I make a New Year's resolution again to take on a more positive attitude, maybe I should try it all again. I made that resolution last year and I did not follow through. Especially after the dirty dozen mob broke into my Hotmail account. I don't give a shit what CrystalK says!! She knows who did it! Maybe this time it will be easier to keep that resolution, as long as I stay out of forums and only talk to people I genuinely like. I have my MySpace, my Facebook, this blog, and my UMG and Metazoic sites. Admittedly there are a few people on MySpace and Facebook that I don't know too well, I never say anything to them, but there are those who I talk to that I do like a lot. There is also my chihuahua site that still gets many views daily and many viewers leave me messages in my guestbook. Some are good, a few have been bad, but only a few. One person told me some time ago that Anika was saying on her website I was a puppymill. I always felt sorry for that woman!! She's too crazy for me, but I feel sorry for her. Apparently she's not breeding anymore, but she was a show breeder. Even had the #3 chihuahua in the country at one point. But she charged exorbitant prices for spayed and neutered dogs. Well, I never got angry at her because I knew she was nuts. Everyone knew!!! I just asked her who gave her permission to use my kennel name on her website. I never got a response from her. I searched her site and found nothing about my kennel though. Either she took it down or it was never really there in the first place. Don't know. But oh well!! It's dead and stinking now.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Honor Roll

My sis Anna got a letter from her school today, and because she did so well last quarter, she is now on the honor roll! My sis is an honor roll student!!! I can hardly believe it myself, no one I've ever known has made the school's honor roll!! I almost feel like Anna is a celebrity! She's going to get her picture in the newspaper. I cannot tell you all how high I am walking on air now, I am so proud of her!!! I just had to shout it out. Geez!! This sure does shoot to death the theory Mcgillicutty came up with that my sis is a "stupid sis". LOL!!! I guarantee you all, mcgillicutty would not know anyone who has ever even come close to being on the honor roll. Oh yea, I'm going to gloat a little!! hehe! When the newspaper comes out with her story and her picture, I'm going to buy lots of copies and pass them out to all our family and friends.

I just had to spread the word!!

Friday, January 2, 2009

John Travolta's Son Jett Dies

And at only 16 years old. What a shame!! So young, it's always sad when people (or animals) die so young when they have so many good years ahead of them. My heart really goes out to John Travolta and his wife tonight.

You know, this is weird! It was only a few short nights ago I was thinking heavily about John Travolta!! I even wrote about him on this blog!! I kinda wonder if that was a signal of some kind. This same thing happened about a week before Michael Hutchence died. I had a picture of INXS over my sofa and I started to look at Michael for several minutes at a time for the first time in something like 3 years. For some reason back then, even though I was in a neutral period with INXS, I just started thinking a lot about Michael. And it just came on all of a sudden! One minute, I was basically indifferent to Michael, the next minute, I couldn't get my eyes off him. Then, it just progressed, my interest in him just grew and grew. I couldn't explain it! It wasn't a "love" per se, it was just a growing interest. Something somewhere was trying to tell me something. Then 9 days later I heard Michael had been found dead in a hotel room in Sydney. It isn't often I think about John Travolta. Not often at all!! Well, not since I was a little kid and had a minor crush on him. But that night I wrote about him on this blog, I was thinking of him quite a bit! Is it irony or coincidence? Or did I get some kind of early signal of an impending tragedy?

I don't know why when I got back into INXS again in 2005, I was more sweet on Tim than on Michael this time around. I hope that does not mean he'll be next to go!!! I don't think so though. That's really laughable!! I think I just like Tim a lot! I more believe at that time I sensed INXS was going to make a big comeback. And they did!! That was before I heard about Rockstar: INXS coming out. It wasn't until after I already made up my mind that I love Tim so much that I found out about Rockstar: INXS. It was my "re-discovery" of INXS that made me interested in INXS news in the first place. So I couldn't have known about Rockstar before. Either way, it's eerie!! I knew my senses were good, but I never imagined they were that good!!!

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Happy New Year!

Well it is 2009. Another ending decade. Isn't it funny? I still feel like it was only yesterday that it was 1999. The years seem to be going by faster and faster every decade. I'm not going to get into "is this a sign" kind of discussion. I just want to say Happy New Year. Yesterday was a long, tough day, Anna and I went to Olympia to do a little after-Christmas shopping. Today, nothing is open, except maybe the 24-hour shops (even those I'm not sure). I'll never find out here because we don't have any 24-hour shops in this town. We drove past a store and someone was selling puppies last night! They were too CUTE!!!! Do you know how long it's been since I touched a puppy? It's been 2 whole years!! Since Vegas was a puppy. I never realized how much I miss having a puppy until I got to hold those little babies last night!! I never even realized how long it's been since I've held a puppy until last night!!! It felt so GOOOOOOOOOD!!!! Those things were so sweet!!! They were so soft and cute, and had such floppy ears and beady eyes and waggly tails!! And so light!! Uhh! They were as light as thistle down! I could hardly feel one in my arms as I held it. And the puppy breath! That's something I miss more than anything! Nothing smells sweeter than puppy breath and I got befuddled on that last night!! I tell you, if I had my way, I'd have brought one of those flocculent babies home and that puppy by now would be singing my praises as a mommy! LOL! I'd have cuddled with it all night long. But I couldn't. We went to Olympia for the same reason we always do, to shop for groceries. And they are more important than a puppy right now. Besides, I really do not like the idea of getting a puppy from someone who is standing in front of a store trying to unload them. I'd have preferred to see the parents. It gives me a good idea how the puppy is going to look when it gets older. But anyway, it was a definite high! Anyway, it was the light of my day yesterday!

When we got home last night, it was dark, windy and rainy. But we had a lot to unload. One of the first things I always grab is my little MP3 player (my old one). I thought I grabbed it last night and brought it into the house, but I looked for it last night and realized it wasn't here. But I was so exhausted I didn't really want to bother with it. I just figured it was still inside the car. So I said I'd get it the next morning. Well, this morning I got up about 7 AM (unusual for me), and I looked out the window and I saw a small, pink object lying right next to the car. I was like "oh no!" I knew instantly what it was. I rushed out there and sure enough, it was my little MP3 player. I thought for sure it was doomed! I brought it back into the house and pushed the play button and it actually played!!! I thought "What a tough little device!" I could not believe it was still playing! Now, hooking it up to the stereo might be a different matter. I haven't tried that yet. I just could not believe that little device survived a whole night of cold wind and punishing rain!! It was raining hard last night!! I could hear it pounding on my window. The funny twist in this is that I was laying in bed last night thinking I was so glad that my MP3 player was in the car and not out in that rain, because I have actually dropped it before, but I never just left it to lay on the ground!! I would have almost sworn I brought it back into the house though! I'd have bet my life on it!! LOL!

Well, I was tired last night, but I wanted to stay awake to make my New Year's wish. Every year, I make my New Year's wish and every year it comes true. One way or another. In 2006 and 2007 I wished for INXS and to go to more concerts. In 2007 I only had time to go to one concert though, and it was all the way in Michigan. But still, it was a good show, even though I thought the opening band SUCKED!!!! Their music wasn't so bad, but the killer for their songs were the long, instrumental bridges!!! They went on too long!! 20 or so minutes on average!! Too long, when I go to a concert I want to hear some singing dammit!! That's one of the things I love about INXS. But even if they didn't sing, just seeing my Timmy is a great enough reward! I tended to keep my eyes on him a lot. Not to say I didn't enjoy seeing JD, Andrew, Jon and Garry as well. But the real reward was seeing the very handsome and beautiful Tim Farriss!!! I hated that trip!! The area was so dry! And getting there was no picnic either! My feet kept swelling up like balloons!! It was the first and only time in my life I felt like a freak!!! Like I was deformed or something. And it just struck all of a sudden! I never had my feet swell up like that before. But seeing Tim at the end of the line made it all worthwhile!! Anyway my feet got back to normal when I got home, but honestly, I thought for a moment they were going to be that way forever! LOL!!!

When I got home last night I got an anonymous e-mail about my Metazoic site. I always get people who have some kind of problems with the site. But this was about my little spat with the owner of the SE forum. Everyone thinks I don't like the owner!! He calls himself Proletarian. I never said I don't like him!! I said he needs to grow up, and he does. Especially if he's going to be the administrator of a forum. He was starting to act like Adolph Hitler! Kinda like the personality Vicki took on in the Switchboard. Only I like Proletarian a lot better than I ever did Vicki. In fact, I never liked Vicki at all. Something about her from day 1 was very disturbing. Not so with Proletarian. I think, for such a young man, he's just drunk with the powers of administration. He was never like this on my forum (now torn down). But on my forum, I always treated him like an equal. I never cussed him out because I didn't like the fact he believed in The Future is Wild's terrestrial squids. But he was cussing me out because I believe mammals can evolve to walk like ostriches, which I’ve gotta say is a lot more conceivable than giant, walking squids, or squids that swing through the trees like gibbons. He doesn’t believe it. I always say they have their opinions and I have mine. I think like I do for a reason and I stand by it. Admittedly there are those who are a lot less stubborn than I am in their points of view, but at least I can say I have my reasons for thinking like I do and not be so easily yielded. I said Proletarian is being a typical cat-person, and everyone by now should know what I think of cat people. I’ve met so many.

That was another thing brought up by this e-mailer. He asked me why I hate cats so much. I don’t hate house cats, as long as they belong to other people and stay in their homes and not come to mine. I do hate panthers of any kind—lions, tigers, leopards, cheetahs, cougars—I hate them all!! Well, the only exception is snow leopards. I have a thing though, the more popular something is, the less I like it. Since panthers seem to be the most popular animals of all, I don’t like them. I used to like them, but that was ages ago!! Since I’ve seen them in so many movies, tv shows, documentaries, etc, I got sick of looking at them. Especially when everyone told me that I cannot hate panthers because everyone else likes them. I especially said I didn’t like them then. Now, don’t think that just because I think this way about felines that it means I feel the same way about people. LOL! I know some idiots will think that. But being popular does not make a person to me. Look at me. I’m probably one of the most unpopular people, especially on the internet. But my friends, who know me in person, say I’m one of the most lovable, unobjectionable people they’ve ever known. Contrariwise, I’ve met some people that everyone on the internet likes who are the most insufferable and hateful people I’ve ever met anywhere!! I can tell. And my instincts are almost impeccable! For example, for the past couple of weeks, I’ve been getting some bad vibes from someone I thought I would like. This person has always been nice in the past, and I really don’t want to say anything until I am 100% positive. Unfortunately, most people don’t say anything until it’s too late, and in the meantime they fool you into thinking nothing is wrong by just not saying anything. But I have a natural knack for picking up on these little things, that later turn out to become bigger things than I first thought.

Yeah, I admit it, I may be a little paranoid, but I have good reason for that. I’ve been “played on” before. The worst recollection I can think of was a young woman I knew in vocational school. We became fast friends, maybe too fast? We called each other almost daily, we went on long rides together; we even went so far as exchanging Christmas and birthday gifts, and that lasted for 3 years. I thought we’d be friends forever. It sure seemed that way! Then one day I called her and for the first time since I knew her, she didn’t call back. I called her again, and no response. Both times I left a message on her answering machine so she knew it was me. I puzzled over that for quite a while. But I thought nothing of it because at that time she had just recently moved into a new apartment and I figured she was just getting settled in. That is until I went back to the voc school and noticed she was acting strangely when I said hello to her. Usually, she and I were always happy to see each other, followed by hugs, smiles and laughter. Well, this time there was none of that at all, and she acted more like “Oh no! Not you again!” I sensed that in her voice and facial expressions almost immediately. But still thought nothing of it. I went home and continued my day. That evening I called her again, got her answering machine and left another message. Waited 3 days and she still never responded. Then we had an adventure Christmas shopping, and I met a nice young man. I wanted to tell this friend about him, since she’d tried to get me back together with a man since my first boyfriend moved away. So I left a message on her answering machine again, waited and still got no answer from her. I figured the friendship must be over for sure now. Such a shame too! I really did like her.

I cannot say for sure why she chose to end it so abruptly, as usual I can only speculate based on events and little signals that began just shortly before they began showing up. One of the biggest things that comes to mind was she had a guy friend who was looking for a roommate. I was still quite young and looking to get a place out of my father’s house. This friend introduced me to him saying he has a room for rent. So I said I would move into this guy’s empty room. Well, he set a time and date to meet, and I was going to go. But I never showed up. But this friend of mine I guess got angry at that, and honestly I could not blame her. But if she had bothered to ask me, she would have found out the reason why I didn’t show up at that appointment. Somehow my father caught wind of the news that I would be rooming with a guy, and said he would completely disown me if I moved in with him. Well, I didn’t want my father to disown me, as I would have wanted to see him again! So, I just didn’t go. I had no way of letting this guy know this either. Back then, cell phones were not as popular and widespread as they are today. And I didn’t have his home number. The only one I could call was the woman friend of mine. And if I recall correctly, I did try to call her to tell her I wasn’t going to be able to make it there, that was the first time I called and left a message on her machine and she never answered back. I still, to this day, remember the corny message on her machine: “Hello. I’m cooking dinner. Leave me a message…..BEEP!” And I said “Jennifer, it’s DeeDee, call me back, it’s important.” And no response from her in days. Of all the friendships I’ve had and lost over the years, I think that was the one that hurt me the most, simply because I put so much of an emotional investment in that woman. I trusted her like no one else. I was always there for her and she was always there for me. I won’t say we were without an occasional spat, but it seemed like we were going to be friends forever.

I have a thing, I never explain why I do anything unless someone asks me. Most people I’ve noticed don’t ask. Those that don’t ask, I always just assume they don’t give a shit so I just drop the subject altogether. But then, it always seems that it meant more to them than they let on from the beginning. Especially when they just choose to drop the loving friendship I gave them. I’m not like that. Someone does me wrong, I always have to know why! I want to give the person a fair chance at explaining themselves. I don’t want to condemn someone I like over a misunderstanding. I’ve been wrong before, and I want to hear from the other person proving that I am wrong, and how so. I know there are some people, like Passion Wolf, who think they don't have to explain themselves even to their friends. People like that you know don't care about others in general. But what my [real] friends and family thinks means everything to me, but I always go on their lead. I don't want to talk out of turn. Maybe that's my handicap. And this other person I've been getting bad vibes from, well, I just don't want to say anything yet. But it may be better if I just let go.

OK, this has turned into a novel for the first day of the year! LOL!