Disclaimer: If you are easily offended by sheer honesty, or you think me having my own opinions is "being negative", then this is not the place for you, and I suggest you leave and head elsewhere. I call a spade a spade, and I don't sugarcoat anything.

Friday, February 27, 2015

RIP Maggie Hill

You won't ever believe this. Remember back in Port Angeles, I wrote about Seattle Pets? Well, I recently found out Maggie Hill, who was the owner of Seattle Pets in Shoreline, WA has now passed away. Well, sorry as I am for her husband (after all, he never did anything to us), I cannot say I truly feel bad for what happened to Maggie. She was an evil person! I know I haven't seen ads for Seattle Pets in a couple years, but I have no idea when Maggie really passed away. Not sure what to think really! She was old and she was a cruel person, pushy and bossy and just plain mean. Well, she is burning in Hell now. Now she will know what true evil and fire feels like. The pet shop has been closed since January this year, so she must have passed away around then. Or pretty close to then. Well, like I said, my heart doesn't bleed purple peanut butter for her. She's in hell now, where she belongs.

Well, upon looking for her obituary, I noticed a site that also spoke of another puppymiller I met around the same time, whose name was Renee Roske. She ran a puppy breeding operation from her home that she called Wags n' Wiggles. I almost bought a puppy from her once, back in 2001. But something about her made me very uneasy. I did NOT like Renee when I met her! She barely talked, and seemed to have a forced smile on her face. She just did not seem to be very friendly at all. And being near her made me feel so uncomfortable. But she brought out a puppy and it was a nice puppy, at 2 weeks old. It wasn't ready to come home with me, but I thought it still looked like a nice pup. Renee also showed me the parents of the pup and they looked nice too. So, I put a $150 deposit down. But ever since the money went from my hands to her's, I completely felt like I was going to regret it! Call it an intuition, but I just felt so uneasy. I never went back. Forget about the pup, and I didn't care that I lost money. I just didn't want to go back there.

While I was there, I tried to hold a conversation with Renee, but it was not easy. Every sentence from her mouth just seemed to be forced. Like she didn't really want to say anything. To this day, I wonder if she was bipolar? And it wasn't just that she seemed so unfriendly that raised the red flags. She would not let us into her house. She also had a friend visiting that evening while we were there, and even that friend was not allowed in her house. That has always made me suspicious! Ever since I was a kid! I remember I had a couple friends after we moved to this one neighborhood, whose parents would not let me come into their house, not even for a minute. I always thought that was suspicious. But I come to find out later on the reason they would not let me come into their house was because my ma was friends with a woman named Mrs. Jones. And those parents hated Mrs. Jones! I liked her though! She was always nice to me and my family, and I was good friends with her grandsons. Those parents most likely just hated Mrs. Jones because she was African-American. I am the last to ever play the race card, but we're talking about deep woods rednecks here!! The most bigoted people there is on the planet! And that is what these parents were.

Anyways, another thing about Renee that made me uneasy was she was letting her dogs breed randomly to other breeds. While I was there, in fact as I was just leaving her place, I witnessed a pom mating with a schnauzer, and Renee didn't seem to care. So, that could mean the pup I was getting would not be the breed she was promising me. It could have been a mutt that just looked like the breed I thought it was. Not good!! Then tonight, I found these comments, all about Renee's business. Check out this site! http://www.citysearch.com/profile/37537077/snohomish_wa/wags_wiggles_teacups.html

These people say she is a confirmed puppymiller, that her dogs are kept in wire cages, stacked on top of one another, that they are drugged, that she hires small children to work for her and mentally and verbally abuses them, and that she barely feeds her animals, and when the animals are too old, or worn out, to breed she kills them and stores their bodies in a freezer in her home, and more! I saw that and I was like "Wow!!" One person even went so far as to say she's a sociopath. Now that one I would believe! I thought she was odd when I met her!

The funny thing about this, back in early 2005, just before Sara Weiler went crazy, she and I got into a little disagreement about Renee Roske. It was one of the reasons Sara went crazy on me. I told her Renee was a puppymiller and that soon she will be figured out, exposed, and will no longer have anymore customers to sell to. Well, Sara didn't want to believe me. She totally believed Renee was a good breeder and on the level and I told her "You just wait and see!" My instincts are very rarely wrong! Sure enough, reading some of the comments made on that page, looks like I was right, and Sara was once again WRONG!! LOL! Sara's problem was she did not handle criticism very well, and didn't listen when anyone told her something she was doing was wrong. So, she just kept doing the wrong thing anyways. That is why she'll never succeed in anything. With her ears and eyes closed, and not willing to get educated in any ways, she's going to be a failure in everything she does. She probably still buys from puppymills and backyard breeders. I wouldn't be surprised if she does! She probably would even refuse to read the comments on this site I linked here. But that is OK! As long as I know I am right. That's all I care about now! LOL!

Sunday, February 15, 2015


I gotta say, feminists piss me off!! I remember on an episode of the Golden Girls, Blanche asked what ever happened to the days when gentlemen tipped their hat to a lady, and pulled out their chair for a lady. Men don't do that anymore. I am afraid the term "gentleman" is becoming extinct. They don't exist anymore. One of my friends said that it's because of feminists that gentlemen don't exist anymore. GOD I HATE RADICALS!!!! As I've said many times before, radicals suck!! They ruin everything for everybody! But it may not just be because of feminists that gentlemen are becoming extinct. It may also be because people are just not teaching their kids proper manners anymore. Yes, I admit if a woman beats up on a man he doesn't have to take it. But if the woman is doing nothing bad to the man, and he starts shit with her, well, a gentleman just would never do that to a woman. That's disappearing more and more.

There is this one person on this group, named Jannah, she must be a teenager. She sounds like one. She said I was rude because I don't like Paula. She added "Michael would have wiped up the floor with you if you said anything bad about Paula to his face!" I decided to play around with her a bit. The thought of Michael using me to wipe up the floor actually made me feel hot and tingly! LOL! I said to her "Would that be a promise?" LOL!! Actually I know what she was thinking, but Michael never fazed me as being the kind of guy that would strike a lady. She most likely never met Michael. Michael was a true gentleman. He respected women. He may would have gotten pissed off at me for not liking Paula, and possibly telling him so. But I highly doubt Michael would have "wiped up the floor" with me. And even if he tried, my Timmy would protect me!!

Teenagers these days seem to think it is acceptable for a man to strike a woman. I say, only if the woman strikes the man first. Then, I would advise the man to think about why she struck him before he strikes back. I remember when Andy attacked me in that elevator back in Bozeman, he did not strike me though. He knew better because I warned him once before that I would scratch his eyes out if he tried. But the thing about his attack on me was that he started the whole thing. He's been nothing but disrespectful to me and my sis almost since he moved there. Very soon after anyways. I never did anything to him to start his attacks on me. Don't know about my sis though. But I think she kept his attacks going by responding to him. That's one thing I never did. I learned long ago to ignore people like him. I just released my hatred of him on this blog. I was surprised that he was surprised I fought back on this blog! He should have seen retaliation from me coming from somewhere! Then thought "Boy! Was I really as bad as she describes me on her blog?" Anyone with an ounce of brains would have thought that. Of course when have I ever even implied that Andy had any brains at all? LOL! The man was as dumb as a box of rocks! But I am still very proud of the way I held my own against his attacks! I didn't lose my head, I didn't panic, I didn't touch him (I never wanted to), I just stood my ground!!

When  the dirty dozen mob revealed my blog to the people in Bozeman, I'm sure their objective was to get me to back down and panic. But I didn't. In fact, they made me feel better about myself. Knowing now I am stronger than I ever thought I was!! Even stronger than they probably ever thought I was! Well, I've learned a lot over the years of blog keeping. I said nothing in this blog that was not the truth, or at the very least, speculation. Yes, I would do it all over again, and not change anything!! And yes, I would also hope the dirty dozen would again reveal this blog to whomever I am writing about! Go for it!! I love it!! As for Jannah, she changed nothing. I still hate Paula, and I still think she's ugly! The only reason I don't say it anymore on the group now is because the moderators asked me to tone it down on the group. I do have to abide with the mods. So I do on the group, and then talk about how I feel about Paula on here.

Thursday, February 12, 2015

I Want to See Michael!!

Well, yesterday on this group I am in I got into a little bit of a battle. Well, sort of! I gave my opinion on Paula. That's all I ever seem to see on that group anymore. Now, I have nothing personal against most of the people in there, but this new person, who keeps posting pics of nothing but Paula, I'm not so sure! I looked on her page, and she even likes Bob Geldof. I think this is a she! For the sake of this story, I'll say it is. Then on the group, she says how much she hates Bob Geldof. When I saw she wrote that, I wanted to say "You have him among your likes! How can you say you hate him?" If I can't stand someone, I wouldn't have them in my likes on Facebook! I can't even stand the sight of Bob Geldof! I don't want him in my likes!!! When I saw she liked him, I said "uh-uh! No way! This person is not my type!" Personally, I don't care if she likes him or hates him, but if she does like him, she's not someone I should be associating with. So, I don't really care to make friends with this person. She also seems to be one of Paula's little fags. Definitely not my kind of friend. She rarely, if ever, posts any pics of Michael or INXS. When she does, it's always a pic of Michael with Paula. I don't go in this group to see blown-up pictures of Paula's ugly mug!! I go there to see INXS!! If I wanted to see Paula, I'd join the Paula page! But I am not because I don't even like Paula. Not even the slightest bit! I'm thinking of starting to post pics of Timmy on the group to kindof counterbalance the outpouring of Paula pics.

Well, yesterday it got kindof heated. It happens with me! Well, I didn't lose my temper, the others lost it with me because I said Paula is ugly. Even as a kid, she was ugly!! I just don't like Paula at all! It's not even just because she's ugly. That's just extra gravy. Shoot! I can't hate someone just because they are ugly, I'm not very attractive myself! I hate Paula because she ruined Michael. According to what Christina said in that interview that I posted on my last post in this blog, Paula loved drama. I realize everyone loves drama, to a certain degree. But Paula would tip off the press where she and Michael would be going and what they would be doing, then she would cry fowl because they would go into a restaurant and be surrounded and hounded by photographers and journalists. Its almost like she seemed to enjoy getting Michael riled up. That's what I got out of that story. And it broke Michael as a person. Well, the mods asked me to tone down the insults on Paula. It's their group, so I have to respect that!! I said if they want me to tone it down then I will. But I may need to bite my tongue every now and then! Maybe posting the Timmy pics will aid in that. LOL! I've never been known for keeping my mouth shut about my opinions, but I also respect the fact that this is not my group. It's their's. So, I have to behave when I am in there. But they cannot stop me from posting about Paula on this blog! I'll keep my mouth shut on the group, but not on here. Sorry guys!!

As for what Lily would feel about my comments about Paula. I really don't care! I say, let her hear the truth about what her mom did to her dad!! It'll be good for her! Who knows what kind of malarkey Bob Geldof fed her all those years about her father!? Bob hated Michael, which is fine! Makes me love Michael all the more! Well hell, I love Michael anyways! With him, it was love at first sight with me! I couldn't love him any more or less than that!! But that is why I join these groups, to see Michael. Not Paula. I don't give two shits about Paula!! Never did, never will. But I am a woman of my word, and I will keep my mouth shut about it from now on in the group, with a little help from Timmy!! You all know how I am.

Friday, February 6, 2015

The Bashing of Paula Yates

Well, I don't know what it is with me. My premonitions are almost never wrong!! Call it instinct, or a knowledge of people in general, but very rarely am I wrong. There is an approximate 15% of the time I am wrong, and I admit to that. Whether it be out of desperation or a miscalculation, whatever it is. But most of the time I am not wrong about what I see in people. Whether it be something positive or negative. And usually, I do try to always be fair. I'd like to think I support all my favorite guys of INXS. It's not always easy to support everything they do. I could not support their last album because I just don't like it. One thing I love about INXS and always have loved about them is because they were so unique in everything they did. But when I heard how they took the song Kick and turned it into something like RnB music, I was completely unimpressed!! I still love my guys, but I was not at all impressed with their last album. No more than I am impressed by that stupid tiger on the cover! But like I've said before, that tiger was the perfect metaphor for that album; lazy, stupid, and fleeting toward extinction. Though I hope INXS are not going extinct!

A lot of other Hutch fans are supporting Michael's choice of Paula Yates. I'd like to be able to say I can too, but I just can't. No matter what, I just cannot say Paula was good for Michael. The woman was crazy!! She was a total lunatic! Some people argue that she had a hard life as a child. Well a lot of people do, it's not the end of the world, and it is something that can be overcome! Why didn't Paula do something to overcome her problems that stemmed from having a bad childhood? And why drag Michael into her troubled world and make his life miserable as well? Not fair at all!! I know I used to kid around with friends saying I would one day marry Michael, but I never actually meant it! I love Timmy and I always say if he was single and looking I wouldn't marry him! Because I feel he deserves better. I have problems I have yet to work out too. Would not be very fair of me to drag Timmy into my world of troubles. Of course I haven't got anything on Paula Yates!! She was the queen-mother of lunatics!! Poor Michael was just an innocent pawn in her sick game. Maybe it was the curse of being beautiful.

I bash Paula on a daily basis, love me or hate me for it, I don't care!! But I truly believe Michael would still be here today if not for Paula! Some of my friends argue that people would have blamed what ever girl Michael was with when he died if it hadn't been Paula. But no, there was something about her! She did something to Michael. I cannot say what exactly, but Michael was a lot happier in pictures I've seen with him and Helena. I'm sure there are plenty of fans out there that would have been the type to blame whatever girl Michael was with, whether it had been Paula or not. But I am not one of those kind of fans. Like I said, I always try to be fair. Lots of people blame the accident in Denmark where Michael was clobbered by a cab driver that hit Michael, causing him to go down and hit his head on a curb, which caused him to lose his sense of taste and smell. I am sure that did have a hand in making Michael depressed, but he was with Helena for a long time after that accident, and he still looked happier in pictures I've seen with her. His smiles didn't look forced then as they did during the period he was with Paula.

It's not jealousy that drives me, that's for sure! Michael could have been with Helena at the time he died, or with Michelle Bennett, or that new girl Ericka, or with Godzilla for all I care! If he had died in a motorcycle accident, I would never have blamed Paula, but he died by suicide. People don't normally commit suicide unless they are miserable. And he looked more miserable with Paula than he did with any other girl he was with. That is what I go by. Though I'd like to believe it was just a simple accident that he died by a miscalculation during a sex game, but the final verdict was suicide. Until a bolt from the blue comes down and says different, I have to go by what the official verdict is here. I love Michael, I would have hated to think he was ever so miserable.

I remember back in 2009, I had some troubles with a character online who called himself Viergacht. I don't even remember how to spell his name, but anyways, I remember he got pissed off at me because I criticized his project on the Speculative Evolution forum. He spent several days bashing me, my friends, my stories, my favorite INXS guys, my drawings and my Metazoica project. One of the things I always say when people criticize my ideas is "Well, people laughed at Van Gogh and DiVinci." Viergacht quoted that and said himself something to the effect of "I love it when people use the Van Gogh argument never realizing that for every single genius out there, there were a few hundred dunderheads whose chuckles were well deserved!"  I remember saying in response to that that the only problem I had with someone like Viergacht saying that is that he would have called Van Gogh and DiVinci "dunderheads" as well. All that would have had to happen in order for him to think that would be to take him back to their times, erase everything from his head that he ever learned about DiVinci or Van Gogh, introduce him to them, have them criticize anything Viergacht ever did, and instantly, Viergacht would have said they were a couple of dunderheads too. LOL! Viergacht was just that kind of person. That's why I didn't listen to him. I may not have known Viergacht personally, I didn't even know him on that forum, but I do know his type, and that's the kind of person he appeared to be to me. But I am not like that, and I always try to be fair. There are people I don't like out there either, but I always point out their good AND bad points. There's good in all people. I point out what I know for sure. Just if their bad points outweigh the good, I don't tend to like said person.

Same with Paula, if Michael had looked just as happy with her as he did with Helena, I would never have blamed her for his death. But she did something to him, and it made Michael miserable!! And then there is also this interview I found by A Current Affair with Tina Hutchence...

Even she admits that if Michael hadn't gotten in with Paula that he would still be alive, and I am inclined to agree with her. She also states that Paula was the one who tipped off the press where they were going and what they were going to be doing. She said Michael never knew that. She gives a pretty bleak description of Michael's life with Paula, and I said "No wonder he killed himself!" But that is all why I still bash Paula, and will continue to! I hate that woman!! Sure, she had a baby with Michael, and I am in no way blaming that young woman because her mom was a sick lunatic, it's not Lily's fault! But Michael paid a hefty price to have that baby! And Paula only did it to trap Michael. Not because she loved him or loved Lily. She used Lily to trap Michael. Nothing else. The Paula fans may hate me for it, but I don't care. I love Michael. He's the only one I truly care about! I don't give a shit about Paula! And Lily should know what a dumbass her mom was. I do this because I love Michael so much! If he was here today, I would tell him Paula was not good for him. He may not have liked it at first, but later he would have thanked me for it, I'm sure!

Thursday, February 5, 2015

Good News Tim Farriss

Well, yesterday I wasn't doing so well, with the news of Timmy. I know Timmy will be OK, and as one of my friends on the group pointed out, at least he is still with us. But I just felt sad that he is now grounded and cannot play guitar. But I know he will make it. I could not stop crying yesterday, or the night before. I cried myself to sleep that night, and I couldn't stop once I woke up. The only thing that stopped me from carrying on to last night was hearing from Timmy on his Facebook page. He said he is overwhelmed by the outpouring of love and support. He thanks his fans for the messages and well-wishes. I told him I am just so glad to hear from him. Hearing from him yesterday made my day even better. I love that man SO much!! He means the world to me. But he is still with us. He hasn't died. And I know he is strong and will recover. I know I will live to see him play that guitar again. I just couldn't help but feel bad for him. It was like November 24, 1997 all over again!

I was exactly the same way when I found out Michael died. Cried myself to sleep that night and didn't stop the next day. But there was no relief from that nightmare. No one was there to tell me it was not true. No one could tell me that Michael would be OK. No amount of well-wishing, fan love or prayers could bring him back. He was gone. If only Facebook, or some social network like that existed back when Michael was alive. He would have had fans boosting his confidence up after his accident. He would have had fans telling him not to listen to Oasis when they called him a "has-been". He may have even had someone to turn to instantly that last night in the hotel room, when he found out Lily was not going to be able to join him in Australia right away. He needed that. We lost Michael, a great singer. I couldn't bear to lose Timmy! I think it'd kill me emotionally.

Well, like this friend pointed out, Timmy is not dead. And I know he wouldn't have died from this. I just worry so much about him. Not being able to play the guitar, I know he loves playing! It's his passion. I hope he has enough patience to let this run it's course, and work on his physiotherapy so he can get all better and do the thing he loves doing. As a true-blue Timmy fan, I will be there cheering him on, every step of the way! He's a strong man. I know he is. Its not his physical injury that really worries me. Though I know it must have been horrific! Its his emotional state that worries me the most. I hope he doesn't let this injury get him down. Michael's injury got him down, and it deteriorated him emotionally, leading to his death years later. I couldn't stand it if that also happened to my Timmy!!

I visited one page where someone actually said something to the effect of "lots of people get injuries on the job, no one is like woe is me like this guy (Timmy) is". Well, there are so few among us who hasn't had at least one moment like that in our lives where we feel sorry for ourselves. And we have a right to. I probably do it more than anyone else out there! LOL! I certainly do it more than Timmy ever has! So if Timmy wants to have a few "woe is me" moments, let him!! I'm here to comfort him and stand by him in those moments. But it is up to him to pick himself up and say "I'm going to do this today!" and accomplish what he wants to do. He's the only one that can get his hand working again. He's the only one that can pick up his guitar and say "I'm going to play that riff again". And I know he will do it. And I will be there cheering him on as a fan, with every accomplishment he progresses to. I'll love him for it! I just want him to know that. I feel that is my job as a fan.

Well, in other news, I got some furniture. My house is slowly but surely looking up. I am concentrating on the basics right now. I needed a bed and an easy chair, and I got one. I love my bed! It's a huge queen-sized springless mattress. It is so comfortable!! I don't even need mattress toppers like I did with my last bed!! This mattress is comfortable by it's self. I also got an easy chair. It has an automatic lift for the footrest. I love my new furniture!! I got it on a rent to own deal, so I make payments every month. And at the end of 4 months, I can pay it all off. I hope I can!! I can't start saving for that this month, but I surely can next month!! Going to be tough for a few months, but in the end, it will be worth it!

Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Timmy Needs Prayers

In the midst of everything in my household looking up, I just got a new easy chair and a bed, and I was finally happy there for a while, with hopes of getting more furniture soon. But tonight I got struck with some very sad news. Timmy is in the hospital! Basically he is OK, but he had a bad accident that nearly tore off one of his hands. He's been stitched up, but may have to go through lots of physical therapy in order to regain the use of his hand again. He was involved in a boating accident. I love that man so much! More than life it's self. He means the world to me! This news just breaks my heart to pieces! The doctors are now saying he will never play guitar again. I know that is his passion. I hope this doesn't get him down. I want Timmy to know I am saying many prayers for him through my own tears. I sure hope he will be OK. I hope after his physical therapy he will be able to learn to pluck at his guitar again. I would so hate for him to lose that ability!

The band has been having some bad luck lately. I wonder if Michael is offended by what they did with the INXS movie last year? But first Timmy's father dies, then the bad publicity Garry got from his daughter, and now Timmy almost loses his hand in a boating accident. Is Michael up there angry at the band? I wonder. INXS should be celebrating their "reemergence". They should be rejoicing at their new found popularity. Instead, they've been having a run of bad luck. I can't imagine what is going to be next. I hope these guys will be OK.

Monday, February 2, 2015


My friends are a little bit miffed at me because I said in a post I don't give a darn about Lily. LOL! Well, I have nothing personal against these people, but they need to understand me a little better. One of them said that Michael would not be happy with me saying I don't give a damn about Lily. I told her I didn't say I don't give a damn about Lily, I said I don't give a darn about her. I sugar-coated it as much as I could. And that is rare for me! LOL! I normally don't sugar-coat anything! But because there are lots of people on that site I do care about, and I do love Michael, I sugar-coated what I said about Lily as much as I could. I did not say I don't like Lily. I didn't say because I don't have any dealings with her at all that I hope she has a miserable life!! No! I never said those things. Those would have been cruel to say. But what is Lily to me? She is Michael's daughter. Now, I don't give a damn about Paula, I can't stand that woman! But Michael was everything to me! He meant the world to me. But Lily, I am afraid the only reason I would care about her is because she is Michael's daughter. That's it. And to me, that would not be fair. It's like when I was growing up, there were kids who were friends of my sis, and there were kids who were enemies of my sis too. Those same people would feel the same way about me as they did about her, and that is not fair! In any way, good or bad! Because I am not my sister. I am ME.

Now if Lily and I were to become friends and I were actually to get to know her, that would be completely different. Then I would "give a darn" about her. LOL! But until that time comes, again I have to ask, what is she to me? Nothing except Michael's daughter. That's it. That is where my relationship with her ends. I wasn't even a friend of Michael's! I love his singing, and I loved the way he moved and looked, and I did kiss him when I was a teenager. And it's always been because of him that I loved INXS. But again, that is where the relationship ends. Despite what Catsredrum thinks, well no one should care what she thinks anyways, but despite what she thinks, I am not one of those deluded fans that thinks just because I love a rock star, and had a small amount of contact with them, that they are my best friend. To me, friendship is more than a fleeting contact with someone. I'm not saying I would not like to become friends with Timmy, just saying I haven't yet. And only if GOD and fate wants it to happen, will it happen.

I've always been very particular in my likes and dislikes! LOL! It drives everyone around me crazy too! Even my sis. But that is the way I am. That's the way I've always been. Cats are a very good example of how specific I am in my interests! I love Siamese, and a few other cat breeds. But it does not mean I love cats in general. I can't stand gray tabbies! But it doesn't mean I hate all house cats. And I like snow leopards, but I hate every other kind of leopard there is. There is a fine line there, but it is there. I am sure Lily is a sweet person, and she is beautiful. She looks just like her daddy!! And I am in no way closing my mind to her. If I were to get to know her better, I am sure I would like her. But again, that has not happened yet. And I am afraid the only interest I have in her right now is that she is Michael's daughter. And I am sure she would not like it if that were the only reason I would like her. Especially when I can't stand her mom. That is also why I won't ask Christina to become my Facebook friend again. I did once, and that was enough. She did not communicate with me at all. She didn't communicate hardly at all with any of her friends who were fans of her brother's. I'm sure if we were to actually get to know each other, we'd probably like each other, but that hasn't happened. So, I won't force it. Again, if GOD wants it to happen, it will.

I leave everything in GOD's hands. HE has a pattern set for us all. And I will not curse HIM if I never become friends with any of the band members of INXS, or their families. I'd just chalk it up to not being meant to be. Maybe HE only wants me to be a fan, sitting on the sidelines cheering the band on, and that being the only contact I would have with them. If that's the way GOD wants it, that's what I will accept. But my mind is not closed to the idea. If they wanted to become friends, I'd gladly accept it. But I am not expecting it to happen either.