Disclaimer: If you are easily offended by sheer honesty, or you think me having my own opinions is "being negative", then this is not the place for you, and I suggest you leave and head elsewhere. I call a spade a spade, and I don't sugarcoat anything.

Tuesday, January 31, 2017

I Hate It!

Ya know, a lot of things have changed since I've gotten older. And especially since my pa passed away. I look back on the posts I made in this blog in the past and I think how irrelevant a lot of my thoughts were back then. Even those as recently as 2015. Things that mattered to me back then just don't seem to matter to me anymore. Things I used to have fun doing back then I don't seem to have as much fun doing anymore. I'm even getting to a point where writing blogs is not so enjoyable to me anymore. As I said in my last 2 posts, I've been having much more fun now making videos. I saw a video last night and the guy said that the rare type of YouTuber is those that are only on YouTube because they just love making videos. That's me! I didn't know that was a "rare kind" of YouTuber. I thought that's why all YouTubers are on that site. But I guess not. Some are indeed on there to make money. I've made some. Not as much as some others, but I have made some in my heyday.

Fact is, I was never on YouTube for the views, subscribers, ratings nor the comments. I have less than 400 subscribers. I may never even see 400 subscribers on my channel. I have a few videos that have more than 500 views, one even has had over 100,000 views. But on average, most of my videos receive less than 200 views. In fact, most of them are lucky to even see 200 viewers! But I never cared. I now have over 200 videos on my channel at YouTube. And I do it because I just love making videos. Simple as that! Don't misunderstand me, I do enjoy it when I get new subscribers and comments on my videos. But I am just saying those are not the only reason I am on YouTube. Believe me, if it was the only reason, I'd be saying "Like and subscribe" after each video. And I don't. Though sometimes when I am looking for other opinions on a subject, I will encourage people to leave me a comment. But even those endings are rare for me. I just like doing my own thing.

Anyways, I just hate being so mean! LOL! This morning, I noticed on my Instagram I got a notification from that Statue For Michael Hutchence group. I was like "Why am I still getting crap from these people?!" Then I wrote to them "Why am I still seeing this shit? You dumb bastards kicked me off your shitty group, remember? Fuck this!" LOL! I've been hanging around Katrina too much lately! I'm starting to talk like her now! She always ends sentences about things she doesn't like with "This sucks" or "Fuck this" or even "Fuck you!" Sentences about things she does like she ends with "cool" or "Awesome" or sometimes even "Oh boy!" I know this girl like a book! She hasn't changed at all in the past 20 years! But anyways, I kinda felt a little bad writing a comment like that, because at least one of those people was my friend at one time, and she was a decent friend. I just think, like I said in my video, that her mind went crazy when she became close friends with that radical Yatesfag, Vincent Lamaro! I still don't like him! I want nothing to do with him, and you know what? Katrina believes that is why this Kelly Poulter is so obsessed with me. She brought it up once before publicly, in that group, before I moved into the shelter, and I did invite her to PM me. But she was too much of a coward to do it. One thing I noticed about Kelly P, she has to have everyone on her side. She's so dependent on her friends to stand by her side and defend her. That's why she would not PM me about blocking Vincent. That's why she brought it up publicly in the group. Because she wanted to get her friends all on her side and wanted to make sure they all stayed there.

I am totally the opposite. I do not depend on my friends that much! That's what makes me so strong. Usually! LOL! But I've never been a clingy-type person like Kelly Poulter is. I love my friends and I communicate with them. But I do not count too heavily on them to come to my defense. I can pretty much take care of myself. Normally, I do it very well. But my immunity was weakened after my father died. I was the same way after Groucho (my dog) died, and also after my grandma died. If this drama had happened before my dad even fell ill, like back in 2015, I'd have just laughed it off and moved on. I would have just said that they were just a bunch of social justice bitches and sent them packing with a "fuck off". That's why I decided to leave Facebook. I need time to heal. I'm also working on getting a puppy. The puppy is going to be THE most important part of my healing process. It's actually quite embarrassing when your friends know you as "the strongest woman they've ever met" and you let a bunch of shithead liberals run you from Facebook. That is embarrassing as fuck! And that's not normally how I am!

Well, if it is indeed true Kelly P. does have cancer, I do hope she makes it. Yeah, I'm even questioning if that is really true. But I do hope she gets better if it is, and I hope she takes that as an opportunity to grow up. Stop letting her friends do her thinking for her and start standing on her own 2 feet. Like Katrina said in one of her videos, you can't keep running home to suck your mama's titty every time someone insults you. LOL!! I love Katrina's videos!! Check them out!

Katrina Hates You's videos

Sunday, January 29, 2017

Longest Time Away!

Except for the times I didn't have a computer on me, this is the first time I've been away from my blog for so long! LOL! But I am still here. I've just been making more videos than writing blogs. I've been like a kid with a new toy! Because I got a new toy. I got this new video editing program, and I've been having some fun with it. Now that I have it, I've been able to slow videos way down, or speed them up, I've been able to stop videos as well, and make them go backwards too. So I've been having fun! I can do all kinds of things now with videos, and so I've been making more videos and trying to learn all the little tricks I can do with this video editing software. So that is why I haven't been writing more blog posts lately. But I have been having fun! I plan to do more nature videos as well. I also want to make more full-length movies as well. I know for sure I want to make one of the day I get my puppy. If the breeder will let me, I'd love to film the process of picking which puppy I want. I want to put that in the movie. That is the fun part of picking a puppy! I can already imagine my face is going to be like that of a kid in a candy store!

I'm going to get one puppy this year, and another one next year too. LOL! This apartment complex allows each tenant to have up to 2 pets. So I am going to take full advantage of it. I'll get this one now, train it, raise it, train it to my specifications, and next year get another puppy, and the older one can help raise the newer one. That's my plan. Maybe even, as an adult, the older dog can kinda take the newer one under his/her wing. Been in touch with some breeders, and I will be ready to get my baby by the beginning of June.

Anyways, I've even shared this software with Katrina. She had a cute idea for videos too. If my sis wants this software, I can share with her too. I'm trying to help Katrina learn how to use this program. At the same time, trying to learn it myself. She's using her character from UMG Productions to do these videos. People love drama. So, I told her to make her videos dramatic. She's like me, she hates political correctness, she's got the Beavis and Butthead influence, she's cute and funny, so I think she could do good making videos. But I know she cannot do it every day. Only for a little while as she is still off on maternity leave. Although she said she is getting more hours at work. That makes her happy, because she is not used to being cooped up in the house all day. She even said she's put on 30 pounds that she needs to take off.

I also discovered Dailymotion, and they allow you to put up pay-per-view videos. I like that! And lately, I've been using Pivotshare. Don't get me wrong, Pivotshare is a good site. But they charge per minute. Dailymotion doesn't. The only thing I don't like about Dailymotion is the time limit. They only allow you to post up to a 60-minute video. They need to fix that. Some of my movies are longer than that! Like my Montana movie. I might even do that movie over again in HD, now that I have this software! I recommend it if you love making videos and like using special effects! It's from Cyberlink, it's called Power Director and they got version 15 out now. I love it! It does a lot of cool things with your videos!

Sunday, January 22, 2017

Back To Video Blogs

I'm still here, just so you all know. I know it has been a while since I last wrote in this blog. That's because I've been having more fun creating videos. I am actually beginning to enjoy making videos now more than writing blogs. People reading words on a screen seems to cause them to misinterpret what is being written, or they make assumptions about what I am writing about. But in a video, it's a totally different story. In a video, you can say things, even sarcastically, and people know by your expressions and tone of voice that you are just being sarcastic. Whereas if the words are just written, they assume you really mean what you are saying. Shoot! That's why I miss having video comments allowed on my videos on Youtube. Not that many people really used that feature, and the last ones that did were a couple of teenagers who wanted to bash me because I'm a fat chick with her own opinion on why fat shaming does not work. But even then, I accepted their video comment because they had a right to their own opinions!

I did respect those teenagers for putting a video up of themselves bashing me though. Not many trolls do that. Most of them go trolling and bitching about how someone else looks and they have no pics or videos up of themselves. A couple days ago, I finished off a battle with this guy who called himself The Blythonian. He's from England. But he was bashing me because I love dogs and I hate cats, so he's a catfag. He hates dogs and thinks everyone else should too. But I cannot help how I feel. Cats are the spawn of Satan. Dogs are not. Look at how cats turn people against each other. I even saw it when my sis and I had cats. We had a cat that had kittens, and I actually grew to HATE those damn kittens!! Because they kept tearing up the house! They kept bringing fleas into the place. I couldn't wait to get rid of those damn kittens! I said I'm going to find whatever homes I can get for them, and I don't care if they are good homes with loving families, or bad homes where the takers feed them to a pet python, I just wanted those damn kittens OUT of my house!! My sis didn't like me saying that, and we almost got into a fist fight because I said that. That is a good example of how cats turn people against each other, which is why I will always believe cats are the spawn of Satan. Not real animals, but demons in disguise. Satan often comes in the form of something cute and overly friendly, so much so that people want to turn against others who don't like them. And ask any catfag why they like cats and they will all tell you "because they are so cute and sweet". It is said that when Satan comes, he will turn man against one another and all things good. Well, cats have done that. You should see some of the nasty comments I get from catfags on YouTube. And ALL of them are for nothing more than because I don't like cats. Also all those same people will tell you that they don't like dogs. And dogs actually love us. There is no logical reason not to like dogs.

I love animals. Not demons. So I don't like cats.

Anyways, The Blythonian began talking loudly about how fat I am and how ugly I am. And not just me! He began to attack Michael Hutchence too. He called Michael ugly and a philanderer, and called Lily Paula's "bastard child". Those were HIS words! And like I always do, I go to his channel to try and observe how much better he looks than me or Michael, knowing he's from England, I don't expect to find much. But I do notice he doesn't have a single picture or video up of himself. So, that night when he tried to bring that shit up again, I told him to shut the fuck up! I said I noticed he doesn't have any videos of himself on his channel so he's obviously hiding something. I told him at least I have the guts to put my ugly self on the internet! I have zero respect for anyone who comments so harshly about how bad I look, and yet they do not show their own faces online because those people are nothing more than a troll. It's like "grow some balls, put up a picture or video of yourself, THEN come to me about how ugly Michael or I look!" And I'll tell you, that troll had better look like a goddamn fucking Adonis!!! Because my Michael is damn-near perfect!

Well, I never heard back from The Blythonian, so I assume he could not handle the challenge. But seeing as how he doesn't like dogs, and he prefers cats, I guess I can safely assume he looks very similar to this...

Or since he's also from England, chances are he probably more looks like this...

Either way, neither one is as good looking as Michael was.

Anyways, I've been having fun making videos over the past week or so. I did one video about the radicals, and why I hate them.

The beginning of this video is rather disturbing, so watch with caution.

I also did one about a pitbull type dog attacking it's owner, and in this one I describe why sometimes I can understand why some people don't like dogs. Though I like dogs, and even pitbulls, what I don't like is bad owners and backyard breeders and puppymillers who breed the dogs that do this kind of shit.

But what has become most famous now are my videos where I talk about Onision. He is a hot topic now. Well, Onision is a radical! And I can't stand radicals! He really burned me up when I found out that he made some girl sign a contract. Not a job contract. But a dating contract. Kindof like a prenup contract. Coming from a feminist, I'd say that is very wrong! No one should sign a "dating contract". I told Onision if he had made me sign a contract before accepting me into a relationship, I'd tell him to shove it up his ass! Especially the fact that he would not let the girl see her family except on holidays. I wanted to rip him a new asshole! Yes, I was triggered!

I had to say something! I barely ever watch Onision's videos. Not much he puts out is worth watching. But ever since Katrina brought him to my attention, I've felt the need to see these and respond to his actions. I have another response video to his pedophile test, and you can see that on my channel.

One last thing; to Michael, Happy birthday boo!! Love ya!! Here's 57 kisses for you!

Saturday, January 14, 2017

Angry Millennials

My goodness! And people thought I was an asshole? Wow! And I have nothing to do with this. This is a thread from a video of a guy who is doing the census. No one likes the census, I admit to not wanting to do it myself! But I also know the people who go door to door, taking the census are just doing their job. They have no control over what the government wants. I never wanted to delve into peoples' private lives!! No way! But this was back in 2000 in a small town. I needed a job, and this one was available. But anyways, I made a comment on this video some guy filmed of the census people coming to his house. Yes, I know I probably should have not commented at all, but sometimes you just cannot help it!

Well, the next thing I know, I am getting smashed with a bunch of those over-privileged, internet brave, foul-mouthed millennials my sis has been telling me about. Really!! As if I had any control over how to do the job! I don't know why these people are coming after me over a job that I had almost 20 years ago! Just a bunch of keyboard warriors who just want to kick someone in the gut because they have too much time on their hands! Or because everyone else is doing it. They're talking at me as if I had that job yesterday, and that I had control over what I had to do. I just don't know how else to say it, they're griping to the wrong person. I only had that job once, and that was back in 2000, and I only had it for a couple days. Makes no sense to complain to me, I don't know what I could have done about it. Besides I had a family to take care of. I needed a job, ANY job! It's no different than someone who takes a job flipping burgers for money. Katrina was living with me and my sis at the time, so I had to make sure she was fed and clothed.

Here's an example of some of the hate-filled comments I got on that thread.

My response: Like I said, it's no different than someone flipping burgers for money. Why else would anyone take any job? Money is not going to just come to you if you ask. So, I had to take whatever job I could get. I had bills to pay.

Here's another:

LOL!! I had to laugh at this one! My response is: Well, I really wanted to supervise the launching of the rockets for the United States Space Program, but the census job came along first. Sorry dude, but the bill collectors would not wait for their money!

And to the literal people, that was SARCASM!

There was one that shit I cannot post! I unfortunately blocked him before I saved his comment, but he was trashing me as a person and then said something to the effect of "You want respect for doing that job? Cry, cry, cry, waa, waa, waa! Well fuck you too!" I remember his name was Roger, but don't remember his last name now! Bummer! I tend to block people who sound like they belong behind bars, and he was one of them. I told all these people to leave me alone! I had nothing to do with the job description! I just did what I had to do to take care of my family! Geez!! Now you all can again see why I hate people! Especially these damn keyboard warriors!!

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

When And How To Be Honest

OK, let me first point out, I am not a liberal. I am not a democrat. I speak my mind too, and yes I have been through drama because of it, so I know how it feels. But Katrina showed me a video of a man named Onision. I just have to say something. I don't care for the guy, and yes I also am known for being something of an asshole too, and I am not exactly calling him a pedophile. Though I do believe, in a small way, he is one. I mean really, he married a teenage girl when he was almost in his 30s! There's something about it that doesn't sound right to me. Anyways, the video was Onision giving people his opinion of their bodies. Well, he says the girls asked for it, so he gave it to them. Yes, I will also give my opinion, and especially if people ASK me! I will give them my honest opinion. And I too say don't get angry at me if you ask me for it and I give it to you. That's what I do. I am an honest person. But my opinion is just my opinion. I do not state it as fact. The only "fact" is that it is my opinion. Opinions are not facts. It is just how one person sees the world, whether it is me or Onision, or anyone else. I think some INXS fans are stupid for thinking I think cancer is a joke, especially since they knew cancer killed my father. But I am sure they don't agree with me that they are stupid. But that's their opinion.

Yeah I know! I just had to throw that ball in the park one more time! LOL!

What ticks me off about the way Onision did his video, is he is dealing with young girls (and possibly young boys). OK, it's one thing to give your most honest, brutal opinion. But what he did was attack children. You are not dealing with adults. You say to an adult "Hey. Your body looks like Shrek's body. You should go on a diet. I would suggest veganism." What's the worst they are going to do? Probably punch you in the nose. But you say to a child, especially one that has been looking up to you as a hero, that her body looks like Shrek's and you find her "disgusting", well, you're going to scar that child for life. What he should have done was think. Think about the person he was talking to. I may be an asshole sometimes, but one thing I have never said to anyone is that I think they are disgusting or ugly or anything like that. Well, usually when I call someone "ugly", I mean it as in their attitude. Unless I am talking about Paula Yates. I never met Paula Yates, although I do know someone who has. So, I can't judge on her personality. But I can talk about how she looks. Yes that is fair, because she is a celebrity. No matter that she has children out there. She put herself out there, just like me. It's like the shark scenario. You go in the ocean, and you may get attacked by sharks. The sharks do not care about your rights, or your children. All it knows is that it is hungry and you are potential food. But you put yourself in a situation where a shark can attack you.

But really, you've got to think of the person you are talking to, especially if they are children. You can be honest without being a jerk. You could have left out the mocking overtones; calling the child "disgusting" and saying she looks like Shrek, and instead just said something to the effect of "I think you could be super cute if you would lose some weight." And leave out the vegetarian-vegan advice! No one asked you for that and you have no right to tell them what to eat!! There are ways you can eat even red meat and still lose weight! Katrina said that if she ever meets Onision, she's going to kick her 3-inch high heel shoe up his butt and pull it out slowly. Those were her words, not mine! LOL!! But she said that people like him are the reason she won't let her kids post pics of themselves online. She doesn't even post pics of her kids online! She told me she never will either. Just to me and my sis, that's it. And her messages are always private.

Well, since Katrina showed me this video, I did a little research of my own. Someone said in a video that one of the girls Onision posted in his online video was the 13-year old little sister of one of his subscribers, and the subscriber asked Onision to remove her picture from the video and Onision wouldn't do it. The fact that Onision used a child's half-nude picture in his video is bad enough, but since the sibling asked Onision to remove the picture and he wouldn't, that kind of thing pisses me off more! Now, I confess to using other peoples' pics in my videos, I recently did a video and put some pics of Tess Obrien in it. But she is a grown woman, and I did not attack her child! I draw the line at attacking children, especially now that I am in my 40s. The video is still up, but no one has asked me to take it down yet. If they did, I might. But hey, it's doing pretty good on YouTube. Onision says these kids posted these pics on his forum under their own will. But he should have said no. If that were my forum, I would have said to the first person that posted pics of themselves half-naked not to do that or they would be banned! Especially if I even suspect it's a child. Onision uses the excuse that "most of" his fanbase is between 18-25 years old. The problem with that is he's going by the stats on YouTube. You can't go strictly by that, because kids lie! Believe me they do! Some get on YouTube to view adult videos! So, they lie about their age. I've heard one person admit that before. Long time ago, some guy who calls himself JackSpicer2311 admitted he said his age was 25-30 on his YouTube profile because he wanted to watch a video of Saddam Hussein's execution. He was really 15 at the time. I saved that video before he went and made it private. I won't post it here, out of respect for him, since he made it private, but anyways, it proves that kids often lie on their YouTube profile so they can watch age-restricted videos. Something to think about, Onision.

Just a few words of advice, not an attack. I'm not a fan of Onision's, never was subscribed to him, he always seemed a bit too edgy to me. But I cannot hate the guy. I won't jump on the bandwagon, I know what it's like myself to have so-called "friends" abandon me. Though I have to say none of them ever met me personally. I pray to GOD they never do either. But if they did, and really got to know me, I'm pretty sure their hostile opinions of me would change. Heck! We don't want to do that, now do we? LOL!! But one thing they can never accuse me of doing, is saying to a child she is disgusting or she looks like Shrek, or some kind of shit like that.

OK, I saw a post from back in 2009, and this yankovich kid did pester me, but he was one fat kid making fun of another fat person. He deserved it. It was more like an eye-opener for him. And I wasn't even in my 40s in 2009! LOL!

Tuesday, January 3, 2017

Timmyfan Rides The Great Wheel

I finally did it! I finally made my video riding the Great Wheel! I think it's one of my best video creations! But that's my own opinion. Check it out yourself. I actually filmed this in 2013, when I was living in Port Angeles. I had to ride the ferry at one point in the video. But it made for an interesting part of the video. Anyone who wants to travel to Seattle, this makes a great attraction to come and visit.