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Saturday, March 21, 2015

Peace, Love and INXS

I watched my favorite movie again last night, Never Tear Us Apart. Still my #1 favorite movie, I love it! It still makes me weep too. I've been missing Michael a lot lately. I don't know why! But this past week has been very tough on me, thinking about him and remembering him. I love him so much and miss him more than anything. But you know what? I am glad that I have my memory of him in my life, but sometimes I am so glad I did not formally meet him in person. Especially after he had his accident that ruined his sense of taste and smell. Everyone said he was more aggressive and being a dick more often than usual. Even some of the fans who met him after the accident, or came in contact with him.

One fan I've heard from, had met him several times, and even partied with him. She said her last meeting with him, he wasn't very nice to her at all. One of my friends met him the day Kurt Cobain passed away and she said he wasn't very talkative at all that day. He didn't say anything to her. And the band members of INXS all say after his accident he was a different person, much more aggressive. I keep thinking to myself "GOD! I am so glad I never met Michael under those conditions!" Knowing how I am, and drawing from my experience after meeting Kirk, knowing how I took him snubbing me the way he did, I probably would have thought the exact same thing about Michael. I definitely would have taken  his snubbing the wrong way, and probably would have wound up not liking him in the end either. So, I am glad I never met him after his accident. It's enough for me that I got to kiss him.

I'm just that way, if someone snubs me, I take it to mean they just don't like me. From someone I don't care about, it doesn't bother me. I wish more people throughout my life who didn't like me would have just snubbed me and let that be it! But coming from any of the band members of INXS, it would hurt me a great deal. Kirk did and it broke my heart. I used to love him! Almost to a point I loved Timmy. I was reading excerpts from my old MSN blog from 2005, and I saw where I wrote about the video for the INXS song, Time. I fell madly in love with Kirk in that video. I thought he was so gorgeous. That was before I ever met him. So I never said anything bad about Kirk, ever. Not in my early days of blogkeeping. Well, piss on it now! I've forgiven him. But I cannot ever forget what happened. But I can say if Michael had been like that to me, I'd probably be feeling the same way about him even now, as I do about Kirk.

Michael was shy. I can say that. Everyone who knew him very well all said he was very shy and sometimes even reserved. Many people take it the wrong way when you are shy, and nobody knows that better than I do!! If you're shy, most people either think you are stuck up or retarded. Shy kids always get the short end of the stick. I was extremely reserved as a child! And bashing from other kids only made it all worse. So, I never learned how to keep friends. The friends I do have are the strongest and most loyal people you'll ever find anywhere. When I was a kid, I didn't hardly talk to anyone. The friends I did make as a kid, I was always so desperate to hold on to, I guess. I became clingy to them, sometimes I guess it got to a point where they thought I was parasitic. My biggest problem I think is that I became too comfortable with them too fast. When I am so desperate to make friends, that's when I get in the most trouble. I let my guard down.

On the other hand, a lot of people who met Michael said he was a sweet, gentle person. When I kissed him, I could see that. When he smiled I could see how kind and gentle he was. He was always about peace and love. I love that about him. And for the most part, a lot of that seems to have rubbed off on the fans. Most INXS fans I've met have been nice. There are some bad apples out there, I've seen them. But most INXS fans are friendly and inviting. I try to be now. I can be reserved, but I can also be nice as well. It just takes me longer to become that nice friendly person. I "test the waters" to see if the other person approaching me is friendly or not. If they don't seem friendly to me, I don't waste my time on them. If they seem friendly, I'll be nice, warm and friendly in return. Per capita, the best people I've ever met were INXS fans. I was into dog shows and stuff back in the early 2000s, and show breeders are nowhere near as nice as INXS fans!! Even INXS fans at their worst is still friendlier than show breeders at their best. And before I went to dog shows, I used to think pet lovers were the nicest, kindest and most honest people out there. I was wrong!! My experiences with animal lovers have been some of the worst experiences of my life!

Although I have to say, I like animal lovers better than anime fanatics or video gamers. By far, those have been the absolute WORST people I've ever met in my life! I guess because most of them are teenagers, and teenagers don't know any better. But still! I think the reason show breeders are hateful is because their lives are all about dogs, competition, and health testing. They seem to forget they are people too. I think their constant thinking about getting that ultimate show dog blacks out their mind when it comes to being nice to other people. As for video gamers, besides the fact that the majority of them are teenagers, their lives are all about competition. Nothing else. They want nothing more than to get that high score on a video game, the highest score they can ever get, and they want it even if it means stepping on someone else's toes. So, they carry that angry, competitive attitude with them when meeting new people. So they are generally unkind. Whenever I get a negative post on any of my videos on YouTube, I don't even have to look at the person's channel, and I know it will be a video gamer or an anime fanatic. About 99% of the time I check, and I find out I am right.

As for anime fanatics, I don't know what anime cartoons are teaching them, but I have the feeling it is nothing good! Probably has something to do with being competitive as well, because the majority of anime fanatics are also into video games. Anime fanatics don't think anyone who doesn't look like an anime cartoon character is worth being nice to. So, they hate people like me who are not "perfect" in every dimension. Personally, I think anime cartoons are ugly! Uglier than I ever was!! So, IMO, if an anime fanatic thinks I am ugly because I don't look like an anime cartoon character, well I take that as a compliment! :)

But INXS fans are not like those people at all. INXS have always been about peace and love, and that is what I like about them. And will always love about them. I even saw a pic of JD recently and even he has changed!! I used to think he just looked like an overgrown little boy. Kinda like how Aiden Turner looks to me. And speaking of Aiden Turner, I think I saw his twin brother! LOL! Some kid from Duck Dynasty! Looked just like him! Even had the mean look in his eyes! Anyway, JD has changed! He looks more grown up now. Jon Stevens even sang with the band, and has been friends of theirs since Michael was around. But Jon Stevens is ugly!! UGH!! Some fans say he was sexy, well I never thought so! I always puke a little in the back of my mouth when some fan refers to Jon Stevens as being sexy. He was very far from being sexy! Bloated face and close-together eyes do not a sexy man make!! Face it, nobody will ever be as handsome as Michael and Timmy.

Thursday, March 19, 2015

Stop Kanye West!

Oh GOD!!! Did you know there is a petition available online to stop Kanye West? Oh man! Well, I don't know if the music gurus will listen. I hope they do because I can't stand Kanye West!! I don't know why it is he is so popular!! We all know how outspoken he is about music. He thinks no artist in the world deserves to win the grammys more than Beyoncé. UGH!! I don't even like Beyoncé! She's a phony! She's what I call a plastic-label musician. She never writes her own music, she has a team of writers write for her. She has a hired team of musicians (not connected to her at all, except that she pays them) make the music for her songs. She has people who use computers and synthesizers to make her voice sound good. She has no talent of her own. Yet, Kanye thinks she is the only person on the planet that deserves any musical award.

I remember back in 2010 when Kanye made an ass of himself and got on stage at the grammys and took the microphone away from Taylor Swift because he thought Beyoncé should win the award. Made me so mad!! That was her moment! Not his!! He should have left her alone! Well, he did it again this year with another musician named Beck. Again, it was because he thought Beyoncé should win, and she didn't. Kanye just doesn't get it. The whole musical world doesn't give a shit what he thinks!! Well, unlike Taylor Swift, whom I am sure was not expecting such a rude intrusion from Kanye that night, Beck was better prepared. Beck did not let Kanye steal the mic from him. He held his hand out and kept Kanye from getting his hands on the mic. Kanye, for the first time I can recall, took the hint and backed off. A lot of people hate Kanye. I know I do! The man is nothing but one big ego. Face it, the only reason he intervened is because Taylor Swift and Beck were not African-American. That's it!!

Some people on the petition are calling Kanye "scum". I don't think scum is a strong enough word for Kanye. "Scum" is someone like me. I speak my mind yes, and some people may not like it when I do, but at least I am respectful to a point. Kanye has no respect, especially for non-blacks. Now, I am not racist myself, I personally couldn't give a rat's posterior if Beyoncé is black, or Beck is white, or Taylor Swift is Chinese, I don't care! Kanye sticks up for music only if it benefits his people. That is what I don't like! He makes me mad! He is not "scum". Kanye is the shit-smear that is stuck to the toilet paper when I wipe my ass after releasing a 5-pound dump! Kanye is the dingleberry that dangles from a persian cat's behind! Kanye is the nucleus of an e-coli bacteria. Get what I am saying? That is how low Kanye is. He is not scum. He is worse than scum! He's slime!

If I think that about him after he's insulted 2 musicians I personally don't care about, you don't want to know what I'd be saying now about Kanye if he had ever done something like that to my beautiful INXS guys!! Oasis did that to Michael and I want to scratch their eyes out!! I hate them with every ounce of my being! Especially Noel. I want to kick his butt so hard that he tastes his turds for a year!! I get mad just thinking about him. So I say yes, let's stop Kanye! Don't buy his "music"! Don't buy his merchandise, don't buy anything he endorses. Don't have anything to do with him. We need to get this parasite off the wavelengths!

Wednesday, March 18, 2015

Michael vs.....Michael?!

Lately, I've gotten to love Michael again, just as much now as I did in the 90s. I assume sooner or later this immense love will run it's course, but for now, I love Michael, as much as I do Timmy. That's how my life is, I love something and I can love it so immensely, it can seem like an obsession. The only real difference is that I have no desire to wait outside concert halls, or go to their homes and wait for them to come out, and approach them all kissy-faced. I'm not that kind of fan!! Though I would pay good money to see Timmy's boat! Just because I have a fascination for boats. The fact that Timmy owns it would make it worth more to me to see.

Well, I love Michael for just about everything. The way he looks, the way he sings, even the way he talks. He had a cute little lisp and it makes me smile every time I hear him. It only added to his sexiness. He's always swooned me when he sings. I remember when I lost Hutchess back in the early summer of 1998, she was my puppy that I had that died of parvovirus. I was so devastated, I stopped eating for 3 days. By the third day, I had gotten noticeably weak, so weak it took a lot out of me to pull myself out of bed. The only thing that made me feel better was to watch my INXS videos. Because of Michael and Timmy both, I was feeling 100% better by that afternoon. That strengthened my love for INXS. Though I do take periodic "breaks" from the band, I will always love these guys. They will forever be my favorite band. So far, no other band has ever come even as close to being in the same league as INXS. I don't like any of today's bands. They may seem to have talent, but I have no respect whatsoever for any bands that get their start on such programs as Xfactor or American Idol. IMO, nothing makes a good band like old fashioned seasoning from pubs, nightclubs and other small gigs.

Anyways, the reason for my title, Michael had 2 styles through the course of his career. I love Michael forever now, but I was so used to seeing Michael with long, curly hair, and that is how I made him look in my story, INXS Goes to Mount St. Helens:

The gang and their bus driver meets Gracie. Band members from L to R: Andrew, Garry, Kirk, Tim, Michael and Jon.
This story was supposed to have taken place in the summer of 1997, after the Johnston Ridge Observatory was completed. The funny thing is, I made Michael (and Tim) look like they did during the Full Moon, Dirty Hearts album era. That's because those were my favorite styles of those two.

Michael and Timmy during FMDH (1993).
But if this were a real and accurate story for the time period, Michael would have looked something like this:

Michael in 1997.
The reason I didn't make Michael look like this is because to me, that is not the Michael I always knew and fell in love with. I've heard several fans say that Michael switched to this style because Paula wanted him to. Now, I don't know how true that really is. Not saying these friends are lying. I'm just saying I don't know if that is true or not. So far, as much as I can tell, that could be a rumor. But it could also be true. I always thought if it is true, maybe Paula thought it makes him look more mature and less like a rockstar. But recently, I heard that Paula made Michael change his style to make himself look less attractive to other women. And if that is the case, it is proof positive that Paula was obsessed with Michael, and that she trapped him into her sick world. Baby or no baby! If I were Michael, I'd have left Paula. Just take the baby and leave!! I also heard Paula said if Michael ever left her, she'd kill herself and his baby. That is also messed-up! You wonder why I don't like Paula?!

OK, Michael was not perfect either, we've already established that! But did he make Paula change her style to make herself less attractive to other men? Did Michael threaten to kill Paula's other children if she ever left him? IMO, there is a line a person should not cross, and Paula crossed both those lines, IF indeed these things are true and she actually said them. So far, no one has proven these things yet. But also, no one has disproved whether or not they are true either. There is a big difference between being imperfect, and being outright, totally insane! Michael was imperfect. Paula was totally insane!

The saddest thing about Paula making Michael change his style to make himself less attractive to other women, is that it actually worked on me for a long time. For years, I hated that look on him. I used to joke (not in a good way) that it made him look like Marlo Thomas. But this was me! The same person who fell in love with Michael in 1990 on first sight. Love at first sight is supposed to be totally undying love. To this day, I feel bad I let all those years slip, hating Michael for coming up with that look. Well, I didn't "hate" him, per se. I hated that look on him. Because of that, I didn't love him as much as I used to. Well, that was 1998 to 2014. This is today, and for some reason lately, I've been finding myself more drawn to the straight-haired look. It looks a lot more attractive to me now than it did during those years right after he died. Maybe because it made him look more mature, and I am older and more mature myself.

Well, I still love the curly-haired look:

But I also think now there is nothing wrong with the straight-haired Hutch:

Well, now for the dramatic subject change, and I admit I don't like this kind of thinking. The other day, I got into a disagreement with someone on one of the facebook groups I am on, and something she said has bothered me since. Not so much the person who said it, it was what she said and how she said it. It made me mad. I'll tell you why. She posted a pic of Aiden Turner on a group about Michael Hutchence. I don't think it belongs there, but I said to her "Don't tell me we're going to bring this shit here too!" I did not say she couldn't bring it there, I just said "Don't tell me we're bringing this here". I don't go on a group about INXS to discuss Aiden Turner. But that's not what made me mad. What made me mad was when she said to me "You have no taste in men." Then she claimed of herself, "I have excellent taste in men."

Get what I am saying? I do NOT like people like that that think they're better than someone else. That's one thing I didn't do to her. I never talked back to her saying "I have great taste in men!" because what she said was just her own opinion. I just told her her taste in men sucks (a post which seems to have been deleted). This has been bothering me, because I should put someone like that on ignore. I used to like this person, and it bothers me that now, I don't like her anymore. It probably does not bother her (or no doubt she wouldn't admit it if it does), but I happen to remember she used to be a good person. I also have several mutual friends with her, but believe me, I've known her for a while, even had several private chats with her. As good as I am at spotting character, I never knew she was that kind of person! I have a few people on ignore on Facebook, but they are mostly the popular people, but one thing they all have in common, they think their shit doesn't stink. I just don't like people like that. So, I think I'm just going to have to put this person on ignore too. I hope I can!

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Woa! This is Eerie!!!

And I thought Kit Harington looked most like Michael!! I was wrong!!! I think I found someone else who looks more like Michael than he does!! His name is Daniel O'Leary. But who the heck is he?? I cannot find anything about him nor any more pics of him!! There's only one pic in existence and I found it on the official MH website:

My Gosh!! If that is really not Michael, he sure does look like him!! Much more than Kit Harington!! And I thought Kit Harington was IT! Almost makes me want to kiss him!! Almost, but not quite! LOL! I think even the hardcore Aiden Turner fans would be impressed with how much this guy looks like Michael! Of course I never thought Aiden Turner looks anything like Michael. A serial killer, yes. Michael Hutchence, no! I'll tell you, I look more like Michael Hutchence than Aiden Turner does!! Aiden Turner looks far too mean! But this guy, he has that perfect blend of badboy with a hint of innocence in his eyes. Just like Michael had! I can tell that just from looking at this pic!!

But the thing that gets me about this guy is I cannot find anything more about him. I'd like to look at other pics of him, get a good idea of what I am looking at. I cannot even see his lips in this pic! I want to see more of him. I want to know more about him. Can he sing? Can he dance like Michael? Does he have the right moves? How old is he? I don't think Michael should be played by anyone older than 30. A 30 year old can pull off playing a 20-year old nicely. Much better than say a 40-year old, or even a 35-year old. Michael was 18 when they began performing. He was 37 when he died. A 30 year old person could do the part nicely. No older. It's easier to make a younger person look older than to make an older person look younger and still be convincing.

When someone mentions the name of someone who they want to play Michael, one of the first things I always do is google more pics of that person. But I tried that with this guy, and there is nothing! When I googled his name, all I get is a lot of info about some old dude who was an author born in the 1930s, which I know cannot be this guy, or some other dude that was a military general in the 1800s. Good grief!! There is also a Dan O'Leary in football, but I know this isn't him!! That guy weighs 240 pounds! This guy is small framed, like Michael was. If you ask me, he's perfect to play the part of Michael!! If he can muster the moves, he's won my heart!!! 

Monday, March 16, 2015

Average Day on the Internet

Yep, just an average day on the internet! LOL! I woke up, looked at my emails, went to Facebook and that is where it got started. The manager of the MH Fan page is not happy about the things said by a person that I am still friends with, but because I am still friends with her and "liked" the post she wrote about the page, now the manager thinks I shouldn't be on that page. Let me start off the rest of this by saying I have nothing against the manager or this friend. I am still friends with this person, and still on the fan page (as far as I know, LOL!) I did a little playing devil's advocate though. This friend's complaint was mostly that the page seems to have become more about Paula than Michael. Well, I admit the page is supposed to be about Michael's LIFE. That's what the title of the page is. And yes, Paula was a part of Michael's life. But there seems to be an imbalance. At least for a while there was. More posts were going up about Paula than Michael. Even I was beginning to question whether I was on the right page or not. I am still on the group, for now anyways. Anyway, I can honestly say I have nothing against the group myself.

Well, then the manager was angry because I clicked "like" on that person's post about the group. I told the manager it's not my job to tell someone they have to stay when they are just not happy on the group. That's not my business. My duty as a friend is to stand by this friend, in whatever choice they make. Even if I don't agree with it, I am still her friend. I'm not saying I don't agree with this person's choice to leave the group, but I have a lot of friends that I don't agree 100% with. I'm still their friend. When I like someone, I am very loyal! As long as they are not bringing harm to any person or any animal. So far none of my friends have done that. Not that I know of. hehehe!

Then this other member of the group, Karin, posts a pic of Aiden Turner on the MH fan group. I'm sick of seeing that guy!! I can't stand him! And he has NOTHING to do with Michael!!! He should not be posted on a group that is supposed to be only about Michael Hutchence and HIS life! Yes, I feel people who like him are putting him in my face! Like I said, Aiden has nothing to do with Michael. He was not part of Michael's life. So in a sense it feels like she's putting him in my face!! What she doesn't understand is that the more people try to put something in my face that I've already stated I don't like, the more I'm going to hate that thing!! Karin, ironically is the same person who takes pics of Michael and photoshops her own face in them. Well, I remember on another group, someone stated they hated it when she did that. I admit I did in the beginning. But that's how she has her fun! Who am I to say she cannot? As long as she hasn't plagiarized another fan's pic, and so far she hasn't.

Well, over the past week, I've had friends tagging me in posts showing off Aiden Turner, and trying to get me to see him the same way I see Michael and Timmy. I just got sick of him!! I think he's ugly. I groaned "Don't tell me we're going to bring this shit here again!" Well, Karin said that I have bad taste in men, that my comment was overstated, and she claimed her right to post "that shit" anywhere she wants to. I say, that's what her Facebook wall is for. Not a group about Michael and HIS LIFE. There must be a group somewhere on Facebook devoted to Aiden Turner. Go there and post his pic! I don't go to this group to see Aiden Turner!! I go to see Michael and INXS!! Karin also stated she doesn't care what I say. I told her maybe she is the one with bad taste in men as far as I'm concerned. Then I added, "If you're going to post his pic, I'm going to comment!" She argued "That's a shame for you Dee. I have excellent taste in men." Bullshit! How old is she? 45? She's ogling a man half her age? Sounds messed up to me. Well, she doesn't need to agree with me, or even care what I say, just know that if she's going to post a pic of someone on a group about Michael that has nothing to do with him, I'm going to comment. I also reminded her that I think her taste in men still sucks! At least when it comes to Aiden Turner.

Well, at least she likes Michael. I may have even been in something of a bad mood. Looking at Aiden Turner always puts me in a bad mood! And the fact it's finally sunny out and I can't go walking makes the mood worse for me! UGH!! I shouldn't care what Karin says either, and really, I don't. She and I haven't been getting along lately. LOL! I think it's either jealousy on her part because I actually got to kiss Michael in real life and all she has is photoshopped pictures she makes of herself kissing him. Some fans are like that! Or perhaps she found out I am not as big a cat-lover as she hoped I was. But that's OK. We were never friends outside the group. And if she's like this, then I say she needs to grow up. Perhaps she is just not the kind of person I should have for a friend. I'm loyal to my friends, but I can also take a person or leave them, doesn't matter. But I swear if I see another post about Aiden Turner on that group, I will leave!!

Then on YouTube, someone named Brent Lowe is making love to the sight of lions killing hyenas. Personally, I don't like hyenas or lions. Though I hate lions even more. I like the reply this guy AlexDraco gave him. He said "Let's have a blood orgy and get all orgasmic to the sight of animals killing one another shall we?" hehehehe!! He gave it to him!! That's one of the best replies I've ever seen!! Of course I know he was being sarcastic to a stupid person who wants to make love to a lion. I would not normally think getting all orgasmic to the sight of animals killing one another is funny. But the way AlexDraco put it, just made me chuckle!! I loved that reply!! It's one of the funniest I've ever seen on YouTube!! WTG Alex!!!

Yup, just another typical day on the internet.

Sunday, March 15, 2015

An Apology to Michael

I love Michael, I would never do anything to hurt or offend him. I know he's not in this world and cannot read this, but I feel compelled to write out an apology to him, as well as to Lily (no, I don't think she's looking in either). I'm basically just doing this because I want to go on with a clean conscience. The other day I read something someone posted in a group I am in. It was an excerpt from a book by a woman named Belinda, who wrote about Paula and Michael. Now, don't get me wrong, I still don't like Paula, and still feel she was not right for Michael. But for years, on here and elsewhere, I've been saying that Paula had Lily to trap Michael. Sometimes sluts do that, and Paula was obsessed with Michael, everyone around her knew that. Apparently even Paula herself admitted that.

Well, according to Belinda, Michael signed an affidavit that stated it was not Paula's idea to have Lily, and he did not want the press to write things like that and have Lily growing up believing them. Michael stated in his testimony that NOBODY wanted that baby more than he did! This made me think of something that Christina (Michael's sister) wrote on another website where she said something to the effect of he used to watch her kids growing up and he had a look in his eye that showed he really wanted to have kids of his own. Even though his mouth would say different. LOL! Michael was a complex person, I always knew that. But I thought for years Paula had Lily just to trap Michael. I have a hard time believing Paula had fertility issues, and had to see a fertility expert before having Lily. But if it is indeed true that nobody wanted Lily more than Michael did, then I owe him an apology. Sorry Michael! Luv ya baby!

I still don't like Paula. I truly believe she did something to Michael. Michael was miserable the whole time he was with Paula. I know the tabloids may have had a hand in pushing Michael over the edge, but from what I heard from reliable sources, Paula would tip off the press to where they were going and what they would be doing. She loved drama, and I think she just liked parading Michael around like a trophy. I truly believe that! I could also blame the accident he had in 1992 for his downward spiral. But he was with Helena for several years after that accident and even then he still looked happier than he ever did with Paula! So that is why I will always hate Paula.

I'm not saying Paula is stupid!! I'm not mcgillicutty! I don't say someone is stupid just because I don't like them, or I don't agree with them. No, I think Paula was very intelligent! Like a fox!! She was smart enough to trap Michael in her web!

Missing Michael

I miss him so much!! Sometimes it brings tears to my eyes how much I miss him! Almost anything can set it off. For the past week, I've been running my Beavis and Butthead series, and well this morning I played the last episode in the series, the one where Beavis and Butthead are dead. It made me feel sad. Not for Beavis and Butthead! But because the one thing I remember about that episode is that it aired around the same time Michael died. Since I've been grieving all over again for Michael for the past year or so, watching that episode just brought back some painful memories, and it made me feel sad. I felt sad that Michael is gone, and he won't be coming back. That episode ends with I'll Be Seeing You sung by Frank Sinatra, who Michael also admired. It's a beautiful song too! He sings it like this:

"I'll be seeing you in all the old, familiar places
That this heart of mine embraces all day through
In that small cafe, the park across the way
The children's carousel, the chestnut tree, the wishing well

I'll be seeing you in ev'ry lovely summer's day
In everything that's light and gay
I'll always think of you that way
I'll find you in the morning sun and when the night is new
I'll be looking at the moon but I'll be seeing you"

Ya know, I don't think that episode has ever been aired since! I haven't seen it. It was supposed to be the last episode ever of Beavis and Butthead. But back in 2012, they actually came back. Though it was only a few episodes, still it was good to see Beavis and Butthead make a comeback. Unfortunately the same thing cannot be said for Michael. There will NEVER be another Michael. I think I found his lookalike though when I discovered Kit Harington! I swear he looks exactly like Michael. Though how good his song-writing skills are, I have no idea. But this has kinda given me an idea.

When other people hear that last theme song from the final episode of Beavis and Butthead, they simply think of the closing images of them from over the previous seasons. But today, when I heard the closing theme of that last episode, this was what went through my head:

And that made me feel sad. Even tonight, just now as I was working on this, it made me feel sad. I just miss Michael so much! I totally regret only seeing him live once! I wish I had never gotten that job with Patti and Chris! I may have still been a fan of INXS enough to go see them more often in the mid-90s. Yes I did use the closing theme to the last episode of Beavis and Butthead in this video, that's the exact same song they closed the series with. But today, because I've been thinking of Michael more often lately, it made me think of him today. I remember this was big news on MTV, the same week Michael died. So, I started thinking of him the moment this episode began.

Saturday, March 14, 2015

What If I Did?

What if I made up things like this Amy Lee whom I wrote about here a month or two ago. That woman whose blog is full of crap that she actually believes she did. One thing I will say for her, she is creative! One has to admit that! She has to have a lot of imagination to be able to bring events together that would seem to be connected, but really are not. I like that! I go to her blog now and then to read it for the entertainment value. One of her latest blogs talks about the death of Kurt Cobain, which happened on April 5, 1994, and how it was somehow linked to the death of Howard Hughes some years earlier. Apparently on the same date. This Amy Lee is delusional, but she is really good at seeking out patterns in things that are in no way related!! I have to hand her credit for that!! LOL!! I'm a creative person and even I cannot do it to the degree she does! She could make a bundle writing fiction novels.

You know a lot of the things Amy says are lies, and I'll tell you why. She talks a lot about spending a lot of time with Kurt Cobain as early as 1983. Well, I commented once on Amy's blog (a comment which was rejected, naturally) asking how was it that she spent all this time with Kurt Cobain in 1983, when he grew up in Hoquiam, WA and she grew up in Birmingham, TX? That's a long way to go every day just to meet a boy who was not even famous in 1983! And apparently, she was only 14 in 1983, not old enough to travel on her own. I know when my sis and I were 14, my parents didn't let us travel a lot, especially not as far as from Washington to Texas!! Well, Amy has to approve all comments on her blog, and she does not approve those that opposes her blog posts in any way. She doesn't want her regular fans to read them and discover the possibility she is lying.

She can hide behind clever little patterns she's found. She can excuse her lies by making a quote by Napoleon, who is one of history's most notorious liars. I realize this is the internet and a lot of people make up things to sound important or make themselves sound special. I do it sometimes too. Who doesn't? But Amy Lee cannot hide behind facts. I know a lot of the things she says, especially about Kurt Cobain, is nothing but a bunch of lies. She may have seen him in concert, and maybe even met him. But I don't think she had the closeness to him that she displays in her blog. I would love to have been close to Michael Hutchence and Tim Farriss myself. But I'm not. That's life. Accept it and move on.

But what if I did make up some stories like her's? What could I say? I'm not sure I can make something up that she hasn't already about someone I'm most likely to be close to in the entertainment industry. I'm not a fan of Kurt Cobain. Don't get me wrong, I thought he was very talented, and I like a few of his songs, but I am not a Nirvana fan whatsoever. I don't see them the same way I did INXS. You won't find a single Nirvana song on my MP3 player. I like a few songs, but not enough to hear them every day. But I could make up some believable bullshit like "On April 5, 2004, a memorial statue that I suggested to the town of Hoquiam, went up in honor of Kurt. It was made in Hoquiam, but I told them they should put it in Seattle, where Cobain put on his first famous performance, and they agreed. I called MTV associates and told them what was going on, and they agreed to fund the project, and came to honor Kurt on the day the statue went up. When the statue did go up, a lot of rock stars were in attendance that day, as well as Kurt's parents and other relatives. They thanked me for suggesting the statue and kissed me with tears in their eyes."

Well, that whole story was bull! It doesn't even sound believable to me! LOL!! But it was a fun story to write. I get a lot of pleasure out of writing my stories. I don't mean the stories on this blog, I'm talking about my stories like what I got up on my UMG Productions website. Maybe writing stories like this gives Amy Lee some pleasure. Like I said earlier, she's got quite an imagination. She really should consider writing fictional novels. I think she'd be great at that!

Thursday, March 12, 2015

Michael's Hispanic Features

Well, while the cat-people are comparing Michael to a panther, which I still think is dumb (not the people, the fact they still think Michael was a panther of some kind), I look at the person Michael was. Like I said in my last post, I knew Michael was Hispanic all along. Comparing him to my own father, when he was younger, their features are quite the same! When my father was younger, he was quite a handsome man! I have to say! I have to be somewhat respectful too, because he is my father! But if he wasn't my father, and I was a young woman at the time he was in his 20s, I would have been in love! LOL! I've always heard that women often fall in love with men who remind them of their fathers. Not all, but most women. That was likely the case with Michael. I also have a lot of pics in my now extended collection that very well shows off these Hispanic features of his! I'll post them here.


With the little moustache, he looks exactly like my pa did. Only my pa never let his hair get this long. But if he had, Michael probably would have looked like his twin! LOL! Also, my pa has black hair. But in these pics, you can really see Hispanic features in Michael's face. Of course the British in him subtles the Spanish features, like it does on me. But definitely, you can see he does have Hispanic features in his face in these pics. It is these pics and other images like these that made me fall in love with Michael in the first place!!

Of course not all people with Hispanic features are attractive. I remember ol' Craig Pajares when I used to go to the voc school, he was also Mexican, Irish and English, and frankly, he was ugly as shit! Nowhere near as beautiful as my Michael!! Not to mention he STUNK!!! So he was a good example of someone who had Hispanic lineage, and was not attractive at all. Of course I know I may be blinded by Michael's beauty. I seem to lately only have eyes for him and Timmy. Apparently Richard Lowenstein is still planning this movie, he titled Michael, about the life of INXS. The fans keep on saying they want Aiden Turner to play the part of Michael. I still say he's too ugly! Even shirtless he looks ugly! I don't find his figure attractive at all! His ribs are weird. And his belly is concave. Yeah! I know, I'm a perfectionist!!! I say Kit Harington could play Michael much better and be much more convincing. He has a much more innocent look than Aiden Turner.

He was also voted one of the sexiest men of 2014! When I first saw him, while flipping through a magazine, I had to do a double-take because I thought I was looking at a picture of Michael in a magazine that was talking about the sexiest men of 2014!! LOL!! In 1994, Michael looked just like this! He has the same shaped head as Michael did, his hair, his hairline, his eyes, his nose, his chin, even the semi-innocent look in his facial expression! He even has Michael's lips!! Somewhat pouty, but not too pouty. Aiden Turner's lips are not pouty at all, not even a little bit! Aiden Turner's jawline is also more square than Michael's. Aiden Turner does have a cleft in his chin, but it's more pronounced than Michael's was. I dunno, I look at Kit Harington and I think everything Hutch! I look at Aiden Turner, and I see a serial killer. He's that ugly to me. If he is picked to do the part of Michael, I will refuse to see the movie. To me, Aiden Turner just wouldn't be convincing enough.

Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Dreams of INXS

I know INXS are retired now, but sometimes I still have dreams about them. Just because. I've never been shy about sharing my dreams about Michael and INXS, even though some people may interpret them as being psycho ramblings-on from an obsessed fan. LOL! Nah really! Who sees fan dreams as being anything leading to obsession? The only people I know who have ever taken these dreams so seriously is the delusional mods. Thus also the dirty dozen mob, since they decided to copy the shit the delusional mods did. I remember once I wrote about my story INXS Goes to Mount St. Helens I think it was on the old INXS.com blogs. Well, Catsredrum caught wind of that and said she counted about 5 "distinct personalities" in that post. Then she added "WTF is up with the storyline?" The thing about that is this is a fictional story. It's always been a fictional story. It's not meant to portray the true personalities of the original guys of INXS. And I added some characters of my own to the story. Those could be the 5 "distinct personalities" Catsredrum thought she saw. I couldn't just build a story only around the guys of INXS. It had to contain some characters of my own. But only Catsredrum and her dipshit friends would think something like that. I think the 5 personalities she thought she saw in my description of the story were 5 distinct personalities she has in her own head. If indeed her brain is big enough to house 5 different people.

Anyways, Catsredrum must be the absolute stupidest person on the face of the planet! She read some excerpts from my old MSN blog about some dreams I had about INXS and said pretty much the same thing (no wonder her banter got so old so fast!) I remember after her gripe about my INXS/St. Helens story, I replied on my Myspace blog to her saying something like "Hold on to your patooties, it's just a story! It's not supposed to be based on their real personalities!" Actually, I have no idea what made Catsredrum think my story represented 5 different personalities! Like I said though, must have been frustration on her part because she has them in her own head. I never take fictional stories seriously. I sure never take dreams about INXS seriously. To me, they are just sources of harmless fun. Anybody who would take any dreams someone describes about these guys seriously has got to be stupid! I understand all dreams have hidden messages, and could very well represent an inner desire we may not know about in the outside world, but most INXS dreams I've had at least have been nothing but harmless fun.

I have rarely dreamed about Michael. Really! Until quite recently, after I saw the movie Never Tear Us Apart. But I have had him pop up in dreams I've had over the years. Back in 2002, one dream I had with the guys inspired the home repair scene in the INXS/St. Helens story. And back in 2008, Duran Duran did a home repair show that aired on the DIY Network. How eerie is that??? Duran Duran is often associated with INXS, and were good friends of the band. In 2005, after I came home from the taping of Rockstar: INXS in LA, I was so elated with seeing Timmy so close to me, that I had a dream I was lying naked in my bed and he was lying next to me. We began kissing. In the background, throughout the dream, I heard light piano music. In 2005, I rarely dreamed of Michael. Only once. It was close to Christmas time, and I dreamed INXS were on stage singing. The one song I clearly remember Michael singing was Feliz Navidad. In Michael's voice, it sounded so good! Timmy and Kirk were playing guitars, Jon was playing the conga drums, Andrew was playing maracas, Gary had this huge bass fiddle he was plucking, and there was a mariachi band in the background playing the rhythm. To this day, every time I hear that song at Christmas time, I think of that dream I had with INXS doing that song!

The funny thing about that, I recently heard Michael is half Spanish. Just like me! I wonder what kind of Spanish though. Is it Basque? Mexican? Puerto Rican? Portuguese? I recently found out my father's mother (my grandma on his side) is Basque. Michael also had Irish and English in his background, just like me. LOL! His mama was a Kennedy. There's quite a few Kennedys in my background too, all of whom lived in Ireland. Not that I think Michael and I are related, my ma has no Spanish whatsoever in her background. Just a coincidence I think. I think I kinda always knew Michael was a Hispanic. When someone has lived with Hispanics all their life, as I have, you can spot another without coaxing! I also always heard that most women usually fall in love with men who remind them of their fathers. Such was the case with Michael. I fell in love with him on first sight. That could have also been attributed to the Spanish influence. I also have a lot of pictures where you can actually see Hispanic features in Michael's face! I should post some of those on here. Plus the fact he has curly hair. A lot of basque people do.

Anyways, my most recent dream with Michael was just less than a week ago. I dreamed I was in a field, and just sitting in the grass. The grass was lush and green. I was just sitting there, and suddenly I look up and Michael is standing over me. He doesn't say anything, neither one of us speak in this dream. But when I looked at him, he looked down at me and smiled. I tried to get up to give him a kiss, but when I tried, I found I could not move my legs. It was like I was pinned to the ground! When I finally was able to get up, Michael was walking away from me, and that is where I woke up. Now, I wish I had stayed asleep long enough to have caught him. Perhaps I could have kissed him (again). But would my dream let me kiss him? You know the funny thing about dreams is that when you go to kiss someone, especially if it is someone who has passed away, usually you wake up before it can happen. That SUCKS!!!! I always wondered why that happens!

Well, those are some of my dreams about INXS.

Tuesday, March 10, 2015

I Feel Like Teasing Show Breeders

I remember back when I was a kid, I would say the best people in the world were animal lovers. I would never make a friend with anyone who didn't like animals. In fact, when I was a teenager, and did Bible studies every week, there was this one girl that used to conduct the study and I found out one day that she didn't like animals because she would have cats that would take a dump in her closet and she would not find out about it until weeks, or even months, later. Pretty much the same reason why I don't like cats now! LOL! But back then I wouldn't hear of anyone who did not like animals. I asked my friend, who also performed the Bible studies, not to bring that girl back to my house. I didn't want anyone there that did not like animals. ALL animals! So she never brought her back again. She got another girl to come with her, a girl who did like animals.

Well, that was then. This is now. I don't like animals as much as I used to. A lot of it does have to do with having some bad experiences with animals. Especially cats. I raised Persians for a while, and all they did when they lived in my house was tear everything up, bring in fleas, take a shit on the carpet, and wipe their asses on the carpet, and cough up hairballs every day! I had to get rid of the carpet because no matter how often I shampooed it, it still STUNK!!! And it always felt soiled. I hated having cats after that. I haven't had one of my own since getting rid of those Persians. That was in 1998. I never caught on to this internet cat craze, I HATE that grumpy cat!! I've deleted friends on Facebook because all they ever talked about was cats. I HATE that thing!! I think it's stupid that dumb cat has a movie out now. UGH!! All it is is a dumb cat with a birth defect! Not cute at all! I won't watch the movie. Never!! If I'm a fan of anything that has to do with that grumpy cat, it's the guy who created the first "grumpy cat" meme. (S)He must be creative to have come up with that. If you ask me, that person, whoever he or she was, is the one who should be profiting off of that cat's fame, and (s)he's not the owner of the beast. It was just some random person on Reddit.

Well, I still like dogs. I miss my babies every day. Well, I gave Minnie to my sis because of how much she was missing Odessa. And I remembered how after Groucho died, she let me borrow Odessa (for a couple days!) And Vegas, I cannot have him back because he has a bad shoulder that gets worse in wet climates. He was fine when I lived in Bozeman though, so I let my sis have him there. Since she likes the desert and I like to stay on the coast. I mostly agreed to move to Reno because of Vegas's shoulder. But I myself was not happy there. I don't like the desert. I like the ocean. I'm happiest on the coast. So I cannot have Vegas with me anymore. Giving him up hurt more than anything. Giving both of them up cut me deeply!! But I did it for Vegas's own good. And another consolation; at least they are still in the family, so I will be seeing them again. But I've found I am clingy to every dog I see now! I go on my walks on the pier, and I cannot pass a dog without looking and smiling! They are stark reminders of how much I miss my babies.

Funny thing, when I had dogs, I would go walking with them and other passers-by would look at them and smile, especially other dog owners, and they would say hello to me. Of course I go to the pier to walk, not talk or make friends, but still, I notice without my dogs, other dog owners seem a bit anti-social. But I know its because they just don't understand what I am going through. They can't know. I don't tell anybody these things unless they happen to ask. They can't know the reason I look at their dogs is because I miss my own so much. They have no way of knowing how much I want to pet their sweet baby, but I don't because it's not mine. They have no idea how I look at them and think "what a lucky person to have such a gorgeous dog!" They'll never know how much I wish I had my own babies walking with me on their leashes. So far, no one has asked me these things. So I never mention it. I even find myself looking at Labradors! When I've gone that far, I know I am really missing my babies! I usually don't give labs a second glance! LOL! There was one instance a few days ago, there was a guy walking a big yellow Labrador and they came quite close to me. The dog seemed friendly enough, it came up to me and I reached down to pet it. Well, before I could pet the dog, the man jerked the dog away from me, almost like he thought I was going to hit the dog or something. But anyway, it was a good encounter. Felt good almost touching a dog again. But that's how I've noticed dog owners here are. Was I supposed to be this way too with my dogs? I always liked it when people would want to pet my dogs, whether they were dog owners themselves or not, and it was good for my dogs too. They need socialization.

Ya know, after remembering all this stuff, and looking at the picture I have on the wall of Minnie and Vegas, all of a sudden, teasing show breeders has lost it's appeal. At least for today. Now, I just miss my babies. I remember one time I went to the pier to walk, there was a woman walking a maltese dog, and she did let me pet the dog. It was so adorable and sweet! But when I got back to the car, I started bawling like a baby!! Because I missed my babies so much. And now, I've got tears running from my eyes again because I keep looking at that picture on my wall. Maybe I should take that picture with me on walks. I remember I was this same way when Patti told me her brother said I had to move out. Not because I was being kicked out! Believe me! If that was all I had to deal with, I'd have been so happy!! But the thought of having to give my babies up once again just made me miserable. I just should never have taken them to Patti's! But I was so anxious to have them back again, I did, and it was the stupidest thing I did that year!

Sunday, March 8, 2015

It Rhymes With "Muck"

LOL!! I like that!! hehehe! This was quoted from one of my Facebook friends. I like it! It has to be the funniest and most creative quote I've ever seen on Facebook!! Made me laugh anyways. She said that after an encounter with one of those all-too common INXS fans that uses their friendship with Michael as a status-symbol to look down on us "mere fans". Believe me, not all INXS fans are friendly and innocent. Just that per capita, most of us are friendly towards newcomers. And yes, there are even some of those who were friends of Michael's that are good, and not uppity. It's the uppity people you have to watch out for. Those are the people I don't like, and want nothing at all to do with. I don't care if they were friends of Michael's or not!

I don't know why it is that these people even exist! But they think that just because they were friends of Michael's, or ANY member of the band INXS, they think their shit doesn't stink. The majority of them probably only had a few short encounters with Michael and the band, or forced themselves on the band, and they think that is being friends with the band. Mind you, not all people who were friends of Michael's are like that. I'm not saying that. I'm just saying the majority of these people are. Michael was such a beautiful, humble man. No ego in his body and mind whatsoever. I would think he'd be totally ashamed these egotistical people are calling themselves his "friends", and ashamed of how they treat other fans who were not friends of the band (in an intimate way). I kissed Michael once, but I am not his friend. Not that I wouldn't be if he wanted me to be his friend, just saying I am not his friend. I never claimed to be. I met Timmy several times, but I am not his friend. To me, Timmy is an acquaintance. Not a friend. He's a sweet guy, but he's not my friend. I never said he was. Again, it's not that I would not like to be his friend, it's just that it hasn't happened yet. And if it does, I would seriously hope I would not become like these people I've seen who claimed to be friends with the band, and use that little fact to look down on other fans.

I am very specific in what I believe a real friend is. Friendship to me means exchanging phone numbers, addresses, going to that person's house for a visit, turning to them if one of them needs someone to talk to, helping each other when they need it, being there for that person, going out together and having fun, accepting each other's faults, and liking that other person for who they are, and letting them know that nothing will ever break that bond. Now, for some people I consider friends, I realize there is a space barrier there. Some of them live many miles away from me. But still, there are other ways of communicating. I actually have very few good friends, but they are the most loyal people on the planet, and all the time, the bad ones get weeded out, and I like that. My grandma always said if you make one good friend in your life, you're doing fine. Well, I do have at least one really good friend. So, I guess I am doing fine.

There are ways you can tell who the bad INXS fans are. One of the ways I always look for is if they are friends of DonnaG. They seem to see DonnaG as some kind of god, as Donna herself does. But chances are, if that person is friends with the band, then they are also friends with DonnaG, as she never makes friends with anyone who is a mere fan. And those people, if you say one word against DonnaG, they will attack you like a swarm of army ants, and carry that grudge for the rest of their born days! So they are not good people. And DonnaG herself is no good either. She's very pushy and is something of a bully. A lot of people I know who have had dealings with her will vouch for this fact. She loses her temper at the drop of a hat, and then loses her mind with anger. And she admitted to me the fact that she is using people to get in good with the men of INXS, especially Jon. Most people who are still friends of Donna's (and friends of INXS) don't realize that either.

Now, I do have a few mutual friends with DonnaG, not many but a few. But they are the people who do not get involved in Donna's little sick game of vengeance. I don't know if she purposely charges her little clique out to harass people who do not like her (so far, they've mostly left me alone), or if they just do it on their own because they want to harass people who don't like DonnaG. My guess would be a little bit of both. They haven't bothered me in a long time, perhaps they know that to harass me for a stupid reason such as that I don't like DonnaG, does nothing with me. It sure as hell wouldn't make me like Donna any better. In fact, knowing her friends did this in the past, only makes me despise her even more.

Another thing, the bad INXS fans always boast about how they were friends of the band's and call everyone else "mere fans". Like this: "You're a 'mere fan', you wouldn't understand". This is because these people can't get down from their "god tier" long enough to remember that they were once nothing but "mere fans" too. Sometimes I just want to slap those people! Or throw a brick at their face! Something to knock that "godly complex" they have out of their minds! It kinda makes me think that I'm in one of those movies about the ancient Greek gods who say "You mere mortals will never understand!" Like that Ben Hur movie!

Another way to tell the bad fans from the good ones, the bad ones are always too serious. The only time they laugh is when it is at the expense of one of us "mere fans". Personally, I don't care if they laugh at me, but people have been known to kill themselves over being bullied this way. And yes, it is bullying! I don't care what they call it. But if you tell them someone has killed themselves over something like this, they will have the attitude like "Well then that person deserves to die!" Or if you show any hint of sadness or depression over what they say, they will display an attitude like "Aww are we too mean for you?! Awwww poor baby! AHAHA! Get over it!" Kinda like the delusional mods and their dumbass friends! Their attitudes were all like that and they thought they were being funny. But they weren't funny. They were just a bunch of cock-suckers. They would have LOVED it if someone ever killed themselves over anything they said on their forum. They would have spent days, even months, laughing over it. To them, that was funny, people feeling depressed and committing suicide. They thought that was funny stuff.

Well, you know what I heard this morning? One of my Facebook friends posted something interesting that said if you tell someone to go kill themselves, it's a $20,000 fine. And if that person actually does kill themselves, that's a manslaughter charge. I didn't know that. I would think that violates our freedom of speech rights. It's not something a person with good morals should say under any circumstances, I know I would never tell anyone to go kill themselves. But I have heard people say things like that. Even other INXS fans. But I have the people who said things like that, or support people who do say things like that, blocked from my Facebook page. Except I haven't blocked DonnaG. Because I want to know who is friends with her so I can watch them like a hawk! LOL! At least for a little while so I would know if they are friendly or not, despite being friends with DonnaG, who does make a mockery of depression and suicide.

Another way to tell the bad fans from good ones, if the bad ones don't agree with everything you say or everything you do, or if you have any opinions that differ from their's, they hate you for it. I once knew of someone (not a friend) who was one of INXS's official photographers for the Switched On Tour. Well, she also came on the INXS.com forum, and her signature said it all; "If you don't like what I like, you suck!" Whatever it was she liked, I knew I was not going to like, because I don't like people like her not even slightly. And I would be willing to bet she was friends with DonnaG! I'd bet my life on it at gunpoint! I think she was from Seattle too.

There is another group of bad INXS fans I like to call "the stalkers", or "the watchers". Not to be confused with "The Watcher", who was Rhonda from the Pluba forum, and did not like INXS, only liked herself. Too much! LOL! I don't really know what is wrong with these fans, but they only talk to certain people. Probably, like the last entry, they're always people who agree 100% with them. But anyone they don't agree 100% with, they will say nothing to. Just sit back and watch them. Some of those people may go so far as to "like" some of your posts on Facebook, but as time progresses, you notice they never speak directly to you. I like to give people a chance, so I don't always notice this right away. But if I say something to these people and they never respond to me, or they never say anything at all to me, I begin to get suspicious after a while. And I do know a few people like this on some of the groups I am on. One person I've recently stopped speaking to altogether. She always likes my posts, or almost always, I was always nice to her, and she talks to everyone else, but has never said anything to me. So I finally just said "OK fuck you. I won't speak to you either." And I haven't since. LOL! These kinds of fans are actually kinda creepy! Kindof like a peeping tom, who watches your every move, but never says anything.

Well, that's my take on what makes a good INXS fan vs. a bad one. Most of us fans are nice though. And some of the kinds of people listed above can seem nice at first. My advice though is just watch out for them! They may seem nice at first, but they can turn on you on a dime at the slightest difference.

And one last word I want to add to those people who claim to be such close friends with Michael; if that's so true, where were you on November 21-22, 1997 when Michael needed someone the most to talk to? Did he call you? If not, then you're not really his friend!

Thursday, March 5, 2015

The Next INXS

One of my Facebook friends told me about Chris Murphy's newest project. Chris Murphy was INXS's manager from 1980 to 1996, and then managed them again in 2009. He's every bit a part of the band as Timmy is. Or Jon, or Andrew, or any of the men in fact. He was the one who brought INXS to the utmost fame. He was the one that took them to international heights. Well, now Chris Murphy has a new project. He found another band that is similar to INXS, and it is an Australian band. It's a band called Lepers and Crooks. The lead singer is a young man by the name of Sam Baker, and I've seen some pics of him where he looks just like my Michael! He's a rather cute looking young man. Check these pics out:

Lepers and Crooks performing.
A look at the band it's self.
Yes, the lead singer does look a little bit like Michael, and this friend of mine, who is a close friend of this band's, says Sam Baker's moves are like Michael's too. I can certainly see the resemblance!! But for me to see him the same way I see Michael, it'll never happen. He's young enough to be my child!!! He's only 23 years old!! As cute as he may be, he's too young for me. But if Chris Murphy sees potential in them, then I will keep my eyes open with them! After all, look what Chris Murphy did for INXS!! They became international celebrities! He'll no doubt do the same thing for these guys! I don't doubt it! I haven't heard these guys yet, but I do trust Chris Murphy! If he believes they will be big, then they will be big!!

Sam Baker may not be much to look at now, but he is cute. And I'll tell you, at 23, Michael wasn't much better looking. He had a certain amount of boyish charm, but he wasn't spectacular. Same with this Sam Baker. He's cute and I can see potential for a handsome man, as long as he doesn't change his style too drastically, by the time he is 30 years old, he could be drop-dead gorgeous!!!

Sam Baker (left) with Chris Murphy (right).
Not too sure though I like their group name. It's too corny. But in a way, so was INXS. It was the uniqueness that first attracted me to INXS's name. Thus later on, to the group. I just did a video the other day saying how I look for another band to take INXS's place as my favorite band, since they are now retired. It kills me, but that's the reality of the situation. Who knows? Perhaps this band will be it. But again, I have to remember the lead singer's age. He's too young for me. And really, his eyes are the wrong color. LOL! I have a tendency to only fall in love with men with darker features. Most of the time, that's how it's been. But my mind is not closed to the idea. Falling in love with Michael was mostly what kept my interest in INXS alive.

Well, Lepers and Crooks are not trying to be like INXS. They actually admit their inspiration is from Ella Fitzgerald. But the fact that they hooked up with Chris Murphy is good enough for me. Whomever their inspiration is. I am sure they'll do good. But to achieve the heights that INXS had, it takes a LOT of work and effort. I just hope these guys are willing to pull it off. Maybe I will see them here in OR at a concert. And who knows? Maybe meet them.

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

An Obscure Premonition

A couple weeks ago, the group I am a regular in had a little thing going where the members can participate in a Q&A with a guy who was a close friend of Michael's, whose name is Richard. I didn't participate because I could not think of anything to ask that I didn't already know. Or that probably wasn't already asked. But the others had some pretty good questions. One of which was if Richard thought Michael actually killed himself. To which Richard's answer was yes, he truly believed Michael killed himself. Well, I gotta believe him, because he would know, he'd seen Michael just days before he died. As sad as it is, and as much as I'd hate to believe it, Michael did kill himself, and I still blame both Paula and Bob for it!

Well, when I read Richard's answer to that question, it actually reminded me of a nagging premonition I had back in 1995 that I never told anybody about, not even my sister. I even forgot completely about it until I saw Richard's answer to that question! I was not into INXS that year, and had not thought of them, or given them any more than a passing interest when I heard one of their songs, or heard Michael's name. I had no idea Paula was in Michael's life, and no idea if he'd even had children or not. The only picture I had of INXS back then was a dust-covered picture that I kept in one corner of my sofa that was a promotional poster for the X album. Well, I remember one day I was watching Batman (the 1966 series) and recording it. For some reason, I was looking at my dusty picture of INXS, and I was thinking a little bit about Michael. And I don't know why, but from that moment on, I just had this feeling that of all the men of INXS, I just knew that Michael was going to be the first one that was going to die.

I have NO idea why I thought that! Don't ask me! I don't know what made me think of that at that particular time, and I sure as Hell didn't know it was going to happen as soon as it did after I had that feeling. I didn't think he would kill himself though, but I just always had that strange feeling that Michael was going to be the first band member of INXS to go. A lot of people would read this and think "Oh that's easy for you to say that now, because he is already dead." I don't have it written down anywhere, so I cannot prove it. I was never the kind of person to write about things like that, and back then I was not into INXS, and not even sure if I'd ever get back into them again. In fact, I almost threw that picture away half a dozen times!! But always stopped myself short of actually doing it! I'm glad too! I think through that picture, was some kind of portal into Michael's mind. LOL!

OK that's a joke, but when I did have that picture, a lot of weird premonitions came to me about Michael! I remember that pic used to be up on my wall in my bedroom from 1990 to 1992. It also followed me to Patti and Chris's house when I did a nannying job for them. I hung that pic right over the bed in the room they put me in. And when I left their house, the pic surely came with me! I wasn't even into INXS in 1992! I was more into Roxette. But for some reason, I felt more comfortable with that INXS poster over my bed. It gave me a reason to go back to their house after spending weekends, and days off, at my real home. Michael has such an expression on his face and in his eyes, that I almost felt like he was my protector. This is the same pic:

This is the same poster that I had
X promo poster

It was that look in his eyes that was the main reason I wanted to keep this picture over my bed when I was living with Patti and Chris. When I left Patti and Chris's house, I remember I put away all my pictures of Roxette, MC Hammer, New Kids on the Block, all those bands that I had been into before. But NOT this poster of INXS! That one, I wanted to keep with me. I cannot explain why! I kept it in that corner on the sofa next to me where I would lie down. It may have gotten very little attention, and it got covered with plenty of dust over the years. But I demanded to have that picture with me. And I am so glad I did keep it.

You know why I have the habit of talking to my pics and kissing them? I always heard, and believed, that pictures capture the soul. And even though Michael was still living in 1992, I felt like that poster I had may have had a little piece of Michael's soul attached to it. Maybe that was why I got so many weird premonitions about him, even in times when I was not an INXS fan.

Sunday, March 1, 2015

The Bible Code

Ya know, I always wondered something. Why is it only when a political figure is murdered, it's called "assassinated", and the killer is known as an "assassin"? Murder is never called "assassinated" when it is just an ordinary celebrity, or when it is just an average person. You notice it's only called "assassinated" if the victim is a political figure, like the president, or vice president, or some UN leader. Like this guy, Yitzhak Rabin. Today is his birthday apparently, and he was "assassinated" in 1995. I guess that is just one of those many mysteries of political lingo.

Anyways, the reason this is being brought up now by me, I remember a segment on Unsolved Mysteries that profiled this guy's assassination. A few days before he was killed, he received an anonymous message from someone who warned him that every time his name is mentioned in the Bible, the words "assassin will assassinate" crosses his name like a crossword puzzle. Well, Rabin dismissed that completely and even destroyed the message. Well, as the story goes, he was asked to speak at a rally for world peace, and after Rabin had finished his speech and stepped off the podium, he was shot dead. It was scary to think he had been warned and there could have been a way to stop that from happening, and he ignored it. I think if it were me, at the very least, some red flags would have gone up.

I know I don't always believe everything mentioned in the Bible, but this is interesting. There is a book about this even. I always believed that GOD has a plan written out for each one of us. It may be inscrolled in the Bible, or it may not be. Makes me wonder, I would like to know if my name is in there? If so, what purpose does GOD have for me? Am I here to educate or alert people with my blogs, as I have been doing for a long time now? Well, I always heard that people who are out to do blatant favors for the public are often hated. I guess I can honestly say I have achieved that status. Hey! At least I am not like the WBC. They take random swings at everyone. I just take swings at people I think everyone should be warned about. And really, I don't mind being hated. I look at it as a status symbol. If you're not hated, then that means you've never taken a stand. I'm a fighter now. I stand up for what I believe in. Some people may not like it. In fact, I can put my finger on a lot of people I know who hate it! LOL! But that's the way I am. I would rather leave this Earth knowing I stood up for what I believed in, and never backed down, and made enemies at every turn, than to die without my self-respect and have lots of friends.

That is why I can come across as being so hateful sometimes, because I say what I feel. But I don't do it out of hate. In the end, I do it out of love. Well, if you stripped the negativity out of what I say, and look deep into why I say these things, you'd see that it is for love. I love it when what I say pisses someone off. It makes them think. Whether they admit it or not, I'm sure in some way or another, it makes them think where they never thought before. And I like that. Believe me, it hurts me when I don't stand up for what I believe in. Like that incident I always talk about on the old AcmePet forums! I still, to this day, feel terrible that I felt I had to lie to those people just to get them to like me again, after I took a stand. I should have just said the hell with them, laughed and continued doing what I always did. I've always regretted that! But I've come to terms with it now. I swore I would never bring myself to do that again, and I haven't. Not everything I say on the internet may be the whole truth, some of it may even be lying. But who cares? This is the internet! Unless I like someone and have every intention of meeting them face to face, I'm going to keep them from knowing some things about me as long as I can. I made the mistake once of revealing more than I should have to someone I barely trusted on the internet. I'm not going to make that same mistake again.

So, I wonder what the Bible has in store for me? Maybe I will live a long, happy life by myself? Maybe I will meet someone? Maybe I will be assassinated by a raging madman? Who knows? Do I really want to know? No. I'm quite happy waking up to thinking "I wonder what this day will bring to me?" Perhaps a new story idea will come? I have a spare room to work in now. I can use that to it's fullest advantage.