Another Loss

 Well, it's sort of family. I just found out this morning that someone I've known since I was a child just passed away. It was Lucious. He was the brother of my very best childhood friend. I could not believe it happened at first. But I got the message from my mom who got it from his mom, Brenda. She told my mom that he had blood cancer, like leukemia I think. By the time he felt any symptoms of the disease, he was already in the 4th stage, which I don't think anyone gets out of when they contract cancer. My sis sent Brenda condolences from both of us. So did my mom.

Strangely, my mom thought Brenda had blocked her on Facebook. But she thought enough of my ma to write to her about Lucious. Even though ma didn't really care for him after she found out he raped my sis. Lucious had always been evil. I was not as good of friends with him as I was with Tara, his sister. I never did forgive him for what he did to me when I was about 7 years old. We were out playing, and Lucious wanted to mow this man's yard who lived across the field from them. I saw the man had a beautiful calico cat and I said out loud "Hmm, that's a pretty pussy cat!" Lucious suddenly went "Ooooo!" Next thing I know Tara and Lucious were running back to Brenda and Lucious told her, with my mom standing there, "Dee said a naughty word! She said to this old man 'you pussy!'" I was blown away!!! I never said that! But as soon as my mom got the word, she took me behind the stairs and spanked me. She didn't even ask me or Tara if it was true. I also remember seeing Lucious pass by us while me and mom were standing there, and he was looking at us out the corner of his eye, with a big smirk on his face.

Later on, I started to feel unsure myself. I turned to Tara and asked her if she heard me call that man a pussy. She said "No. Lucious just wanted to see you get in trouble!" I figured that too. Like I said, Lucious was evil! But I have to put that behind me now, he's gone. I felt very sad hearing this news. He left behind a wife and 2 children. Both grown up now.

Well, ma said Brenda blocked her on Facebook a few years ago. She believes it may have been because of something Felicia Hollis said. I wouldn't put it past her! Felicia is nuts! I used to think she was a nice, level-headed person. But after she went completely apeshit crazy during those BLM riots, called my mom a racist, and said the Holocaust never happened, I figured she must have gone absolutely insane. I no longer had, nor even wanted to have, anything to do with her at all! I told mom it was just unfair that Brenda stopped talking to her because of Felicia. Brenda has known us longer than she knew Felicia, and Felicia is nutso-coo-coo now. Well, like my mom said, it's their loss. But at least Brenda thought enough of my mom to tell her about Lucious. I just wish Brenda would stand by my mom too, like she used to, instead of listening to one loony shit-wit who does not deserve to be friends with my mom anyway.

Well, I'm thankful Tara is still around. And she's not lonely at all. She has her husband, kids, grandkids, and cousins, and her mom. And don't feel too bad about Lucious. Hopefully he is now in a better place. If I can forgive him without him repenting, surely GOD can. Afterall, we were friends with his family. It's just such a sad thing. He was younger than my sis. And cancer sucks anyway! Cancer has no place in this world! I'm sick of hearing of people I love dying from cancer. I wish it could be completely eradicated now!