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Thursday, December 18, 2014

My Legacy

Boy! It's been a tough 2 months!! I thought I would never make it but I did. I am so glad I finally found a place to stay. It's not the greatest, but it'll do for now. I'm making it a little homier. I got all my INXS pics up in my room, so it feels more like home now. I don't have a pet yet, and probably won't get one while I am here. I am only going to be staying here for a year. But getting here is what I am here to discuss today. It was a rough 2 months. Occasionally I stayed in hotels, usually only when it was going to be freezing cold outside. Much as I was grateful I had the van, and thanked GOD for it every day, it still got cold when it was freezing out.

Well, this will be the last state I move to. I've lived in 4 different states now in my lifetime, and this is going to be the last one. I'm never leaving Oregon!! Not even to go back to Washington. I already feel right at home here. Over the past weeks, I have gotten to know it here pretty good. It's always rough though getting used to a different state, which is why I never want to move away from here. But one good thing about this place, I don't have to pay any sales tax when I make a purchase. It's always the sales tax that gets me on everything. And a year from now, I can move to Coos Bay, where I really want to be at.

Well, as you all know, I've had to leave my booby with Donna, my former roommate. I know he's being taken care of, no doubt in my mind about that. But now my ma wants me to let Donna keep him, and I said no way! I want him to stay in the family. But I cannot have him back. I want to stay on the coast, and because of an accident Vegas had when he was little, the moisture here does not agree with him. He gets shoulder pains. So, he has to stay where it's dry. So I am letting my sis have him. It hurts me deeply to have to give him up, but at least he is still in the family. And I am doing it for his own good. I thought about that until I was in tears! I've been clingy to every dog I've met on this quest because I miss my own.

One day, I was in Astoria walking around, and I met this woman who was walking her parent's maltese dog. She let me pet the dog, and when I was done and went back into the car, I started crying because I miss my babies so much! I wish I could have Vegas back! I miss him like everything, but for his own good and well-being, I just can't. I don't want him to suffer those shoulder pains again, and he never did when we were in Bozeman. So, I'm letting my sis keep him. My ma said that Donna is getting so attached to him, and I said I understand that, but I still want him to stay IN the family! What happens if Donna passes away? Or if for some reason ma and John loses touch with her? Then what becomes of my baby? No, I cannot let Donna keep him. I have to let my sis have him for my own peace of mind.

Well, there have been times I've been grateful I didn't have him with me for the past 2 months living in the van. I wouldn't have been able to stay at the hotel I was staying at if I'd had him. He would have gotten too cold in there. The only thing that kept me going all that time was the inspiration that INXS gave me. I love these guys! And as bad off as Michael was, he still sang so beautiful and strong! I love him for it too! He was my biggest inspiration through this whole ordeal. It was these guys that kept me going. Well, as apartments go, I didn't get the ultimate winner, but I got what I consider a pretty good one. I like it so far. All I need now is a bed and an easy chair, which I will get next month. Little bit at a time. Right now for a bed, I am using the mattress toppers I slept on when I was living in the van. It's still quite comfortable. The only problem is it's so close to the floor, and for someone my age, it's difficult to get up off the floor. Well, I have a solution to that problem too. I moved my coffee table in here. I use that to pull myself up. I also have some of my favorite pics spread out on it too. Better than spreading them out on the floor!

I'm so glad now I have an apartment, I got sick of going to sleep every night terrified that I would be kicked out of the parking lot again, and fined $700! Well, the other day, all that missed sleep caught up with me, and I slept from 2:30 in the afternoon all the way until after 6. I was exhausted! And grateful! The only thing wrong with this place so far, is that steep staircase, and no elevators. But I am getting better at climbing the stairs. Just hurts my legs if I do it too many times. I'm telling you all, this staircase is STEEP!!! But I am glad to be into a place, I thought for a while I wasn't going to make it. But I did! Thank GOD!! I did not want to move back to Reno! I'm not saying Reno was all bad, I just don't like Nevada! It's a greedy state!
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