Ruined Reputations

This was the subject on Dr. Phil tonight and I thought I would put my 2 cents worth in this discussion. He talked to 2 youngsters whose reputations had been ruined by slanderous people. Or people who got their facts wrong or mixed up. I can tell you that has happened to me many times. I'm certainly not going through life unscathed! LOL! I've been called all kinds of things. I mean, people look at my blogs and how I conduct myself on the internet, and they automatically come to the conclusion that I'm a lunatic. Well, they're not totally wrong!! Yes, I come by it honestly. I don't try to hide the fact that a lot of things I do could be seen as lunacy by some. And in many ways I'm happy that I am not what others perceive as "normal". Hell, I don't want to be "normal"!!!! But the one thing I've found, everybody has their own idea of what is normal in a person and what is not. Now, forgive me for digging up old bones but a perfect example of what different people believe is "normal" behavior puts me in mind of the delusional fans forum and all of it's members.

Catsredrum has some kind of idea that she is a "normal" individual. And I, never actually having met her or spoken to her, did not know what she was really like in person, but the conduct she displayed on the internet was nowhere near what I would have called "normal" behavior. But I'm no expert, so I turned the attention of the delusional fans forum over to some buddies of mine who were experts in psychology (the study of human behavior, including mental states). And they totally agreed with me. Catsredrum and her friends had a very unhealthy obsession with me. Now, I don't know what Catsredrum is like in person, though I did see where she wrote on her forum that she even discusses me to her friends OUTSIDE of her forum. But IMO, as well as the friends I discussed this with, yes they were indeed unhealthily obsessed with me. And most of the things they said about me were untrue. All my friends knew it, including the ones who had studied psychology. Who knows what brought on Catsredrum's obsession. I truly believe, to this day, that it was triggered solely by the fact that I didn't like DonnaG anymore. Because her obsession with me did not even begin until I announced to the World that she and I were not friends anymore. And Donna is infamous for getting all her friends (and anyone who will believe her) to turn on people who don't like her. That is precisely why I don't like her anymore! She would have earned more respect from me if she had confronted me herself and kept her cronies OUT of the debate. But enough of digging up old bones.

I say personally people are always going to think whatever they want to no matter what! But one thing that I always remember is that actions speak louder than words. You can look through my background, I've never been convicted of any crimes, I've never hurt anyone, I'm still a virgin (even though I've been married), I don't drink, smoke or do drugs, I've never posted anyone else's pictures or information on the internet without their permission, and I am working on my attitude!! The worst thing you'll find on my record is driving with expired tabs. And even those can be explained. :P I've had a few dead-end jobs, but I've had some good ones too. And for the most part, the supervisors all adored me! In cases when I've quit jobs, they begged me not to. But to be honest, there were a couple of jobs where I left on a sour note, like the one at the Puyallup Fair. But that job was just one of those dead-end jobs that I didn't want in the first place, run by a stupid company, owned by a stupid family, and the acting supervisor just got a kick out of treating all the workers like crap. Whether they were good workers or not.

I admit I've still got a long way to go as far as my own attitude goes, but I'm still working on it. I'm not quite down where I want to be. Anyway, I am where I figured I'd be. Here it is almost the end of the year, and my attacks on people have lessened. They haven't disappeared, but they've lessened. I have refrained from attacking my usual subjects though. I still have fun with the people on YouTube though. But I figure it's harmless fun! I'm just yanking their chains. That's why I always end with this symbol [:P]. But anyway, we all face people who are going to do anything to ruin our reputations. But people who are truly good, aren't going to care what someone else says about someone. Ya know that's why I am soooooo glad I met Metalraptor. He's taught me a lot. He's taught me that I need to work on my temper issues, he told me that I tend to get all irrational. It's actually been through him that I'm learning to control myself. I'm actually proud of how I've handled myself on YouTube, it's good practice. I didn't lose my temper or get all irrational, and I haven't called anyone names or gotten personal with anyone. I've put that on their shoulders! I have found though through most of my experiences with people on YouTube that if you treat them with respect and be nice to them, even though they are getting all irrational, it makes their attitudes get worse!! I think they mistake kindness as being a sign of weakness or tolerance. But no. For me, it's all part of a master plan. I'm training myself to be a much better person. I only post it on here so my readers can see my progress. I think I've had enough fun with cat-people though. So now I'm moving on to videos that will help me in my future project. I've been trying to learn all I can about frogs, snakes and lizards.

Anyway, I have been slandered a lot in the past, mostly on the internet. The only time I've ever been slandered more was when I was in middle school. But I figure those people who slander me, they know nothing about me! They've never met me, never spoke with me, many of them are only muppets who repeat what they've been told by other people who do not know me either. So, they're only embarrassing themselves. I also believe everything happens for a reason and that we all get what we deserve in the long run. I'm already heading upward. When I do get to the point I'm working so hard to be at, I'm going to look back down at those who tried to bring me down at some point and I'm going to be able to stick my tongue out at them and say "Look at me! I'm here, and you're not! So how do you like that!" But at the same time, I'm going to caress those who supported me. Because it's them who helped me move foreward to where I want to be at. So that is why I pay no attention to those who talk shit about me, and focus solely on the people who have always supported me and kept my head up when things looked down. Two of the biggest conveyers in this has been Katrina and Metalraptor. I owe both of them BIG!!!! And I hope to reward them someday, somehow. The people who shit-talk me, I've been staying away from them. I still don't go into forums at all. Except for a couple of Facebook groups, and of course YouTube. I know there are always going to be people who talk behind my back. Shoot! That's why I quit going to dog shows and why I hate show breeders so much!! Believe me, that's not a random prejudice!!! I've gotten to know several show breeders before! I wouldn't hate them so much if I didn't know what they were really like.

Again, I know not all show breeders are bad. I've met a handful that were very good people. Just like any other race, there are good ones and there are bad ones. But the good ones unfortunately can only be counted on the fingers of one hand!! The main things that make me so prejudice against show breeders are:

1. They demand respect but give none in return.
2. They think they're GOD, which I believe is why most of them laugh at people who do believe in the real GOD.
3. They judge people they don't even know.
4. They shit-talk people they don't know behind their backs instead of to that person's face. Then they shit their pants when the same thing is done to them.
5. They never let the past STAY in the past, where it should.
6. Many of them are mean-spirited and don't believe in treating others with kindness.

Basically all the same things. The only thing good about show breeders is that they breed to improve the breed they're working with. That's IT. The bad far outweighs the good. The show breeders I like are the ones who truly believe in helping people, who treat other people with kindness and respect, who do not listen to vile rumors going around about someone but instead sit and talk with, and get to know, that person for themselves and build their own opinion of that person. Another trait I would admire in show breeders (if more of them had it) is those who know that whatever they do--good or bad--reflects on the breed and the goal most show breeders are striving for: preservation of the breed!! That's why I always treated everyone with respect when I was trying to better my breeding program. I didn't want to become like some breeders I met who think they could get their word across by being hateful and snippy at others. Though having been in the position to try and educate people who did wrong by the breed, I can sometimes see why show breeders are the way they are. But someone like me, who had attended several dog shows in my day, that should have told the show breeders who doubted me that I was indeed serious about breeding the right way. The people I dealt with bred Taco Bell lookalikes and wanted to keep doing so. They'd never been to a show and some of them even laughed at the idea of breeding dogs the right way, and called the concept of informing those who bred bad specimens "cruel".

Well, I didn't go to many shows, but I went to as many as I could. I'm a busy person, and most of my time I like to devote to my dogs as PETS. Not as things to be pruned and pranced around a cement ring just so one person can give his or her own opinion about which one of which is better than the other. Thus giving the owner and breeder of that animal a head so swelled that they go around and stomp to death on people who look up to them as heros of said breed! IMO, they are no more heros than a mother who drags her daughter from one beauty pageant to another, whether or not the daughter is a willing participant. One thing I've found, show breeders will not even talk to you unless you've been endorsed by another show breeder. And good luck in getting that endorsement!!! Because most of the show breeders that others respect are like the ones I described on my list of things I hate about them!! If having someone who will act like your friend to your face and then turn around and slam you behind your back doesn't bother you, then find a show breeder to be your friend! I've learned to meet all show breeders as if they are enemies!! It's a lot better than thinking they're your friend and later finding out different. Been there, done that, didn't like it, and won't let it happen again!!! It wasn't so bad when it was just one show breeder, I figured, "She's just one bad apple in the bunch." But then I started seeing that kind of behavior in many different show breeders, some may or may not have known this one I don't know, I don't care!! It was then I knew that show breeders are not as good as they like to portray themselves to be.

Many people are going to believe what they want and won't let you tell them any different. I've come to a point where I just say the Hell with them! I let my actions do the talking. If, after I have proven them wrong, they continue to believe what they want about me then I figure they are the ones with the problem, NOT me!! It's just not worth my time or effort to convince them that their ideas about me are wrong. So I just let them think what they want to.......and then laugh in their stupid faces when I do something to prove their ideas about me are wrong. LOL! The only people whose opinions matter anyway are the people I consider my friends, and my family. No one else's opinions matter to me. If I never considered someone a friend, then what they think of me means nothing, as I am no worse off with them than I was before. I've grown up a little more over the past few years in understanding what makes a friend a friend. And it has improved my life 200%!!! When it comes to friends, I prefer quality over quantity. I may not have many friends, but the people I do consider friends are people I know I can trust all the way! They're people that are very trustworthy, as anyone goes. They don't talk about me behind my back, they don't give away my secrets, they would never do anything to hurt me or anyone else, I know all this because their friends are my friends. Or at least acquaintences! If any of them did talk about me behind my back, believe me I'd KNOW it!!! hehe! I get criticism from them all the time, sometimes harsh criticism too. But it's all for the better and I know it. I've seen some people who say "So-n-so has sooooo many friends!" But I say look at the kind of people "so-n-so" considers friends! I know of someone like that, has a lot of friends, but I look at the kind of people that person calls friends. If they are people I wouldn't want as friends, then the fact that "so-n-so" has a lot of friends really doesn't mean shit to me! That's why I favor quality over quantity. I even have one friend that once said Catsredrum sometimes seemed like a nice person. Though she added that she would never make friends with someone who's been cruel to me. But that goes to show the kind of people I call friends. This person has a very good heart, and she gets to know people herself before making judgments about them, and I like that in my friends. I have no respect at all for someone who believes what others say about someone else and not get to know that person for themselves--which is the main reason why I hate show breeders and have lost all respect for them!!!

I'll tell you, I'd probably have a lot more friends if there were only more people like this person. But unfortunately, in this World and age of the internet, people like that are RARE!!! And I don't mean "maybe"!! In this day and age, I've noticed people are much more aggressive, hateful, and disrespectful with others than I ever remember them being!! I'm a small-town girl, I was brought up to treat people with kindness and you will get kindness back from them. That hasn't been proven to be true with the internet. Like I said earlier, I think people now mistake kindness as being a form of weakness. But let me tell you, it's NOT!!

On The Radio

I think I've figured out another great idea. There is a man who owns a radio station out here, and he has people come in once in a while on a volunteer basis. Ma said if you ever want to hear something funny, listen to this guy. She gave me a sample of what he does. I was thinking of going to his station and seeing if he would allow me some time on the radio. I wonder how many people in this town even listen to his station? If it's enough, they might enjoy me. I'm a woman who is not afraid to speak her mind. I could discuss with him on there pretty much what I talk about on here. People LOVE that!! My "Cute Bums" post seems to be the most popular on here so I could discuss it in further detail on there. I could call it "The Timmyfan Show". hehehe!

Hey! It never hurts to try!! That's one of my mottos. Even if I get on and everyone hates my guts, it's still a response!! Plus I could get a little bit of advertising for the UMG site. The only problem I might face is that I am losing my voice. On the radio, they like you to have a clear, crisp voice. But I could get on and do a self-styled talk show, strictly for entertainment. I could create a different subject for every weekday, and get on and just talk and have fun. Might add some life to this dude's network. Ma said that John could also get him a good following of sponsors, so if I get this opportunity, we could really do wonders for this guy's radio station. I could even get Anna involved if she wants. I only wish I could get Katrina on there, she'd be a hoot!!! She has a good personality. That's why I like her so much.

Brain-Dead Vegetarians

Consider this blog for your educational value only, if you're thinking of becoming a vegetarian, DON'T DO IT!!!!! Here's why. Well, by now we all know I hate PETA and I don't agree with any of their beliefs. Though I do believe they have a right to believe what they want. But they go so far as to force their beliefs on others. That is why I do not like PETA. And I do not like vegetarians that much either. You want to see an example of what happens to someone when all they eat is roots, leaves and bark? This is a collection of comments made by a vegetarian who calls himself yankovic1234.

1. "YOU CAN BURN IN HELL YOU BASTARD "
2. "how would you like it if some one just came in and cut your stomach open and ate your meat you sick son of a bitch so FUCK YOU, you santan worshiper "

"Santan worshipper"? What's a "Santan"?? How can I worship something that I don't know what it is? LOL! Oh and that's not the end of it. Now little mister yankovic decides he's going to preach the word of the gospel to me:

3. "you can just rott in hell and i don't care do you seriously think god will forgive you for thinking this is okay to do HA it wont happen and your gonna rott in hell. Also i will laugh my ass off when god strikes you down in your foot steps cuz you think its funny "

I think he's funny. But I don't think it's in a manner he thinks. I asked him if he really knows who GOD is? I don't think he does. He never answered me. Anyway, he seems to think I was a man. So indeed I corrected him. This is what I said:

Hm, if this is the kind of language vegans use, then thank GOD I am a meat-eater!!! LOL!! Seriously, you think GOD cares if I eat meat? How well do you know GOD? If at all! Why do you think HE gave those animals such high reproductive rates? Because they were MADE to be EATEN!!!! :P BTW, I'm a woman. That's kinda like why my name ends in "Gal".

To which mister yankovic responds in this manner:

4. "Fine than your a BITCH, WHORE, SLUT"

Well, it was all part of a master plan, and this was a great example of what happens to people who go vegetarian. That's 4 times yankovic1234 lost it, and 4 times I managed to keep my cool. So that should prove a point. This was my closing (so I thought) argument presented on this video:

This just goes to show you all, a vegetarian is a very grumpy person!! So DON'T GO VEGETARIAN!! EAT PLENTY OF MEAT!!!
hehehe!
BTW, the steak came out gooooooood!!!! :P

If you go back to that thread, you'll find I did good in keeping my cool. I put it on yankovic's shoulders to lose his own temper. And it worked! LOL!! So after I mentioned that, yankovic decided he was going to back-peddal. This is his pathetic argument:

"you know something that makes you an even worse person than me is that your 35 and your arguing with a 12 year old so suck it "

Acting all innocent I see. Hm. And of course he's lying! He's not no 12-year old!! He's 15. Believe me, he's not better than me. In fact, he's nowhere NEAR as good as me! He was the one who resorted to name-calling and cussing to try and make his point. And you all know how I am about people like that. LOL! I have ZERO respect for people like that. And I have zero respect for cowards like yankovic1234.

So yankovic1234 finds he cannot get to me by cussing me out for my beliefs, so what does he do next? LOL! You guessed it, he resorts to calling me fat-names. I guess he thinks he's saying something new and different. But believe me, I've heard it all before and it doesn't bother me. But he thinks it does, and I like to entertain people in his position. Just to see how far they will go. These are the messages he sent me off the video thread. Usually I make it a point not to reveal things said in PMs. But when a person like yankovic1234 sends me a message like this, trying to hide who he really is, I feel it is necessary to cross-post:

"fatty,
mabe the reason your so fat is because all that meat you eat so ha look who's healthy now"

I told him I may be fat, but at least I am a healthy fat-person. There is such a thing! This was his response:

"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA you keep telling your self that"

I said I sure will, because it's the truth. This was his response:

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOKAAAAAAAAAAAAAY what ever you say *not*

I told him to keep on talking. He's proving more and more I was right about what happens to peoples' brains that don't eat meat. And I will keep posting his comments here, just in case he decides to continue to hide the person he really is. And I've said it before and I'll say it again, you can't trust ANYONE who makes fun of fat people.

Tough Being A Night Owl

Geez it's boring being a night owl sometimes!! The most fun I've had tonight was harassing an idiot who calls himself booobooo2010. I'm having a little bit of fun, but it sucks sometimes waiting for him to respond. I've been purposefully yanking his chain, and it caused him to call me an insane dumbass. LOL!!! That's the most excitement I've had all day. Anyway, to put a little more spice in my evening, I put on the Marx Brothers Trilogy that I have. I love the Marx Brothers!!!!! Harpo especially. Harpo can look cute and funny and always brings a big smile to my face, along with a lot of giggling. It really sucks that no actors or actresses have personality like they used to! I'd like to see anyone today who has as much distinction as the Marx Brothers or the Three Stooges.

I cannot really watch TV and YouTube at the same time, so I've been tuning to different videos about herps, and muting the volume. Tonight I was shocked that Tenille was released from Hell's Kitchen. I really thought she was improving her performance on the show and she would make it to the finals. But she made it all the way to the final 4. I will hand her this: She is indeed a fighter. Well, I'm still pretty sure that Kevin will make it to the finals. At least Tenille didn't leave on a sour note. She did good tonight, she won the competition! But it's a shame she got eliminated tonight. Anna guessed early on that she would be eliminated though. Her performance during dinner service was not up to par.

Well, I think I know how to start this herp hobby, I think I'm going to build my own cages. That should really give me something to do this winter. And I can make the cages as wide or as long as I want.

Kidding Around

This is just a random post about anything. I've been playing with the people on YouTube. Actually, I've been getting in there to learn more about the different kinds of exotic animals I want to get into. I've seen some very interesting videos about many different kinds of animals. I've seen enough to get myself some encouragement. I'm not saying I am ready right now to go out and get some little critters, but I know enough now which species are good to begin with. And that is very encouraging.

I've also been playing around with the cat-people. One time, I saw a person who viewed a video of a dog eating a cat. It was all fake!!! But this person took it so seriously and got pissed off at the dog, and said when she got older she was going to get one of those big snakes and feed it small dogs. So now, when I see a snake-feeding video, or a cat video, I tell all those people that from now on, I'm going to feed my supervisor's pet python these stray cats around here! Of course I'm kidding!! I would never really do that!! Though she feeds it rabbits (already dead of course). I never really understood this "Safari Syndrome" I see in some people! There is a video on YouTube of a flowerhorn cichlid eating a leopard gecko. It looked like an albino too. That's a plenty expensive meal to give a fish!!! Normal colored leopard geckos cost about $75, approximately. Add much more to that for an albino morph, and you're literally flushing $200 down the fish hole! I'm the first one to say Nature is Nature. I used to watch Nature programs so I know a lot of animals kill for a living. That doesn't bother me. But let's face it, in Nature a cichlid would not be feeding on a leopard gecko!! I think some people do things like that just to see some animals die. I've been calling it "the Safari Syndrome". Lately, I've been getting a lot of angry posts from the cat people on YouTube. But I am having fun!! I always end my posts with this little figure: ":P" that usually indicates that I'm kidding!! LOL! That's a sure sign I am. But I don't tell them that. I got one person saying I'm crazy, and I'm like "Cool! I still got it!" hehehe! Anyway, I think it's funny that these cat people take me so damn seriously!!! That's why I choose to have my fun with them.

Well, speaking of crazy happenings, Garry Beers did not accept my friendship request on Facebook! LOL! Oh well! No big deal! hehehe! It's not like I expected him to accept. And I still love the guy anyway. Now, I am just waiting for Tim to turn me down too, and I am SHOCKED!!!! He hasn't responded to my request in any way, shape or form, and I asked him LONG before I asked Garry!!! But I fully expect him to turn me down too, and it's OK. I will always be a Timmy-fan no matter what.

What's The World Coming To?

Remember when we had 3 celebs all dying in the same week? BIG name celebs too! Not one of these little one-hit wonders. Well, this past week we've had 3 major disasters that took many lives. First the earthquake that happened in American Samoa, and the tsunami that followed that struck the Hawaiian Islands. Now, a typhoon in Indonesia that has also taken many lives. What is this World coming to? I don't know. It seems our World is getting more and more violent by the year. No wonder today's people are getting worse in attitude. Of course that could be because we have the internet and now no one has to look at anyone in the face anymore and say what they have to say. That could be one reason, but the events that went on in the past decade are terrifying.

I remember when I dug out my old diary from the year 2000. I was never into this Y2K hype that went on that year, but in one journal entry I was talking about my step-grandmother dying, and several other people that I knew who passed that year or had children that year. Well, at the end of that entry, I said "I don't know what, but something big is coming!" Looks like I was right! There have been several World-shattering events. Look at 9-11. Look at the war in Iraq. Look at Hurricane Katrina. Look at the 2004 tsunami in SE Asia. I could go on and on and on, including the death of my own grandma, whom I was very close to!! And now, all this is happening. It is scary! I keep thinking what's going to be next! Sooner or later something major is bound to happen in this country as well. Maybe even in this state. Obama is one of the fastest-acting presidents we've ever had in this country, but I don't really like the way he's spending the country's money. He's blowing it left and right! That can't be good for this country's welfare. And so far he hasn't done much to get us over this recession. It's gotten worse! But no matter what he says, even he cannot do the impossible.

I noticed gas prices did go down for a while, but now they are back up. Thank GOD though they didn't go back up to over $3/gallon for long. I heard some people say that we are running out of oil, and having to bring it in from other countries, and then I hear others say we are NOT running out of oil at all. I'm not sure who to believe!! If we aren't running out of oil then why the hefty gas prices??? I sometimes wish I could trade my car in for an electric!! Or one that runs completely without gas that are coming out now. There is a device that you can get now that converts water to fuel, right inside your car's engine! I want that device!!! I don't know how well it works, but they do have a website where they're selling this little gadget in! I have the site bookmarked somewhere. But it can convert ANY car into a car that uses water for fuel. It's COOL!!!! And according to the site, it's easy to install.

Mr. Field Mouse

This morning when I got up, I went to put some of our watched Netflix movies in the mailbox and on the ground right in front of our garbage cans, I found a baby wood mouse just sitting there. It looked like it's mama had abandoned it, it was cold and shivering. I felt bad for the little guy, he didn't look well, so I decided to help it out. I came inside and got a box and put the little baby inside the box. I then went to take it to an expert who could really help the animal out. He said the baby wood mouse was not a baby, and it was a field mouse. It must have been sick because it did not even try to get away from me. Even when I tried to put it in the box. Wild animals generally do not like being touched, but this little guy offered no resistance. The guy said I could keep it as a pet, but then there is the problem of it possibly having lice (which we found it didn't). But lice or no, I didn't want to keep it as a pet. I'm a firm believer in Nature stays with Nature. I won't even get wild-caught herps in my collection. I would prefer captive-bred.

So I took care of the mouse until it looked better, and sent it on it's way. I hope it does well. It seemed happy to go home!

Well, I had a bit of an adventure as well today. There is a lot of construction going on here! And I mean a LOT!!! These assholes blocked off my favorite routes in this town, all because they want to put in some dumb round-abouts!!!! I was detoured from coming up this one street I normally came through, and had gone through just a couple hours before. So I had to take my own detour. I went by way of the ocean! Well, silly me, I got caught in some deep, soft sand and could not get out. Thankfully this kind gentleman was driving by in a big pickup and he helped us out. Poor man had a terrible time though trying to hook our car up to his. I should have got his name, I owe him a LOT!! One of the first things he said was "Who's idea was this?" I answered that it was mine. It was just plain and simple bad judgment.

It Is Silly!!!

Well, since my last post I've been looking into different kinds of exotic animals that I wondered were available. I mentioned at the end of my last post that I wondered if dormice are still available. Well, apparently there's been a ban on selling these adorable little furballs! Seems it all started in 2003 when a shipment of them from Africa came infested with monkeypox. I spent yesterday reading this whole article by the CDC all the way through. Seems it was a shipment of all kinds of African rodents, not just dormice. There were also striped (zebra) mice, brush-tailed porcupines, Gambian pouched rats, and rope squirrels, as well as the American prairie dogs. So now the export of African rodents has been banned, and the ban hasn't yet been lifted. You cannot even get captive-bred African rodents anywhere!! They won't let them be shipped out of their home states! I think that's silly!

I had a dormouse back in 1995, I also had zebra mice. I enjoyed them! They were so unique looking! I think keeping the ban going this long is silly! It should have been lifted by now. That was all based on just one shipment that occured so long ago now and all those animals had been destroyed! And anyway, look at how many people have caught salmonella from handling reptiles. How come the keeping/breeding/exporting of reptiles hasn't been banned? Monkeypox is no more serious a disease than salmonella. And according to the CDC, people who've had smallpox vaccinations are less likely to get monkeypox. I've had the vaccine for smallpox. So when I've had the small rodents I never caught anything. The CDC however, does not want to take any chances! So they put a ban on even sending out captive-bred animals. Just seems silly to me! The only people who are really at risk are children, the elderly, and anyone else with compromised immune systems. But I miss having dormice! I think they're so cute! Almost worth the risk.

Well, with that ban in place now I've turned my attention to specific herps. I've been reading up and doing all kinds of research. I've even ordered books that the experienced herpetologists have suggested about my selected species. Nothing beats hands-on training though. Well, we'll see what happens. I've already found out some things I didn't know before. So I am hoping with all this studying I've been doing that I'll do good. If there is one thing I've noticed from the time I bred chihuahuas, it's that everyone has their own experiences about what is successful and what isn't. A lot of people succeed by way of trial and error. I prefer not to do it that way. That's why I'm studying BEFORE buying any species of anything. It'd help too if I had a mentor. Someone who has been in the field a lot longer than I have. Gee, I sure do hope herp breeders are more willing to help than chihuahua breeders I've met in the past have been!! If not, then like the chihuahuas, I may have to go it alone again, and I'd really prefer not to do that. But if I have to I will. I had to learn how to breed dogs the right way through books. My favorite was Dog Breeding For Dummies. LOL! Hey! It was a GOOD book!!! I couldn't put it down to do nothing! Of course I liked The Joy of Breeding Your Own Show Dog, but it seemed to be more of a book that talked to more experienced breeders. But I read the book from cover to cover! Believe it or not! I still have the book in hopes that maybe someday I might begin dog breeding again. I don't have the updated version just yet though, I am thinking of getting it. I don't know when I will begin dog breeding again, no time in the forseeable future I can tell you that! I was really upset by losing Groucho. Though I can tell you one thing about getting Minnie, she's helped me get over losing Groucho! I'm so busy hand-taming her, I don't have time to think about mourning Groucho anymore! Another thing is I still am prejudiced against show breeders! I'm kinda stuck between rocks and a hard place on that one. I hate show breeders, but I also realize their importance. Just like I hate spiders, but I also understand how important they are because they kill mosquitos, and I hate mosquitos even more!!!! But I can say I've had equally bad experiences with both spiders AND show breeders!! Both of which still gives me nightmares! :P

Well anyway, that's my plans for the future. But I don't intend on starting until Anna is gone to Bozeman. She wasn't too thrilled to find out I'm going to be using her room as a breeding room for the herps! I need to get some plastic and cover her windows to keep drafts from coming in. I've got lots to do before I get my first specimen. But already I know what species I want. Which one to begin with is the tough question! I don't want to start all at once.

Herps, Herps and More Herps

As many of my readers here may know, I've been getting on YouTube quite a bit. One of the things that keeps me going back are looking at other peoples' videos about snakes, lizards, and fish. It makes me think, I miss my birds, and fish and all those other exotics that I used to have!!! I used to keep small herps, and one creature that I've always wanted to keep, but never got the chance to was poison dart frogs. In captivity, they lose most of their toxic properties, but they still retain their glamorous colors! I've been seriously thinking about getting into collecting herps of different kinds!! I'm thinking about it. I mean, if Anna is going to go live in Bozeman, I need something here to occupy my time! I can get into all the different herp shows, which I just find sooooo fascinating!!!! MUCH better than dog shows! LOL! A lot less politics are involved in herp shows. And herp breeders aren't nearly as unkind as dog breeders. I've been to several herp expos, and the breeders there are much friendlier than many of the dog exibitors I've met at dog shows. There are annual herp shows going on in this state and in Oregon every year, several times a year.

I have a list of species I want too. They're species I've studied, but I'll tell you nothing beats one-on-one learning. I don't mean I'm going to get common species like iguanas, bearded dragons and leopard geckos. No way! I'm going for the rarer species. I used to keep herps and I love them!! I used to have pythons, corn snakes, milksnakes, geckos of varying types. I remember an old Tokay gecko I used to have. That thing was MEAN as heck!!!!! It hated my dog Andy. Every time Andy got within 3 feet of that gecko's tank, it would open it's mouth wide and hiss! Then it would strike. Poor old Andy!! It never bit him, but it would strike really good! Good enough to make a loud crashing sound on the side of the tank! I've seen some people who have tamed tokays, and that's cool! I'd love to have one. They charge more for the hand tamed tokays though.

I personally like the natural colors, I don't go for these man-made morphs. They aren't as pretty in my eyes. No one can paint like Mother Nature can!! hehe! I have to be careful of what I get. No giant pythons or boas. They get too big and could pose a threat to my babies. So nothing like that!!! If I do get any boids, they'd have to be smaller, like the ball pythons, which is what I had last time. They wouldn't be big enough to see my babies as food. But nothing like a burmese or reticulated python! But mostly my focus will be on smaller creatures, like small lizards and frogs. I've always liked frogs, and always enjoyed keeping them. Now I think I am ready to take on the poison dart frogs. That'll be loads of fun!!!

I won't be starting this until Anna goes to Bozeman. Not that I think she wouldn't enjoy it, but I want it to give me something to do and look foreward to while she's away. I wonder if they still sell dormice as pets? Those were awfully cute too!

On Hell's Kitchen

I knew Suzanne would be eliminated tonight! I just knew it! I've been watching for some time and I noticed her performances were getting worse, I was surprised she wasn't eliminated last week. But I knew she was going to be on her way out this week! Before the show started I even said to Anna that Suzanne will be eliminated tonight. I'm surprised that she lasted this long. He's eliminated better people than her sooner than this. I was so surprised!! I think Tenille is going to be one of the finalists, along with Kevin.

So now they are accepting new contestants for next season's Hell's Kitchen. Sometimes I think I would like to get on that competition. But no. I'm not THAT good of a cook!!! I can cook and it's good enough for home and family, but not good enough for someone whose standards are as high as those of Chef Ramsay's! Besides, I'm really not used to hearing that much cussing first hand. I hate it when people use cuss words (like he uses) online! Much less would I like hearing it up close and personal. But I do admire the man. He's got a good head for gourmet cooking. Though I can handle criticism really well. Much better than most other people can, that's the truth! His criticism wouldn't bother me at all. Just his cussing would.

Well, Operation Repo didn't come on this week, which is a total bummer!! But Anna checked and she said it will be coming on again in November. I don't really know how she found that out, but I thank GOD she found out!! My ma is doing better here too. She found a job that she loves! So it's a good thing, she won't be moving back to Olympia! So if she's not moving then that means I don't have to move either. I'm so glad!!! Anna can move into the dorm at Bozeman, Ma's going to stay in town, though she says she might get a bigger apartment here. My stepfather may get himself a job out here, and I can stay here and remain living in this apartment. Or I might move into a one-bedroom apartment since it'll be just me here. But I don't know. I think I should stay in this one, because Anna would need a home to come home to during holidays and vacations.

Ma and I were talking and she told me everything is coming into play. Before she moved here, she said a prayer to GOD that he would guide her out here IF she was meant to stay here. I told her the funny thing is, I also prayed to GOD that she would make it out here. At first it was very rocky! She got a job at the Ramada, and lost it due to a completely stupid misunderstanding on the part of the supervisor. She was without a job all summer, and things looked bleek. But now, not only is she on a job she loves, but also the supervisor of this job wants to test her for something bigger and better!! I'm so glad!! Now, we are waiting for John to find a job out here. He should go back to work at the radio station. He's got really good credentials for a job like that! I think he should go for it! But ultimately the choice is his. But he has worked at radio stations before and he's got the voice for it. Much better than me! hehehe!! Well, we will see what happens.

Married AND Divorced

Well, I heard from dustingrey again. But he wouldn't respond to me directly today. I guess he lost his backbone. LOL! I had to go to the video myself just to see if he responded. He's finally flipped, he knows he lost the battle and just as I expected, he's getting more desperate. His name-calling is progressing. hehehe!! I continue to laugh at him, not with him! This is what he thought he was writing behind my back without my knowing it:

You could lose weight IF you wanted to? You're lying now chubs. Is it any wonder how I knew you were fat as shit based solely on your replies? Believe me, it was no random guess. I'll bet at one point you really were just a chub, but after an embarrassing attempt at a marriage you blew up like a blimp--leading to a divorce you truly believe you initiated. Am I right or what?

Just FTR: I KNOW how he found out I am fat, he saw my video about Vegas. After being stuck at 76 views for weeks, it jumped to 82 views just before he chose the nickname "chubs" for me. Which incidentally, I still think is a cute nickname. hehehe!! Looking at this, he sounds a lot like Viergacht. He thinks he knows me, but he is sooooo far off!!! I know what his problem is, he read my profile on YouTube and added some theories of his own that he thinks is true. But anyone who knows me and has read any little bit of my blogs would know, I am NOT like other people! Anyway, this is how I responded to his last sentence:

Nope. I weighed 100 pounds when I married AND divorced. It was my own decision, but enough about my ancient past...

Yep it's true, I only weighed 100 pounds when I married and divorced. And I divorced YEARS before I even started to put on weight. But like Viergacht, I'll entertain dustingrey, for the most part. I mean, in all realism, why I divorced is really none of his business, he's not family. He's not even my friend! I don't have to tell him anything about why I divorced my ex-husband. But I will say my ex-hubby and I are still friends, he's not the type of person to let something like a weight issue stand in the way of his own true personal feelings. I'd never have even been friends with him if he was that kind of person because I did have friends who were overweight back then.

Anyway, I want to also take this time to answer dustingrey in response to this comment he made:

You made the claim that people who own rats are friendlier, and then did nothing to prove that.

You want proof? I'll give you proof. Here's some random quotes from said person, all this aside from the quote I put at the beginning of this post:

1. Purse dogs are for cunts and fags
2. I have noticed [owners of small dogs] are generally overweight, ignorant women possessing an undeserved sense of accomplishment
3. fucking stupid
4. I never claimed to be friendly at all chubs
5. I don't pretend I'm not
6. The term "rat [dogs]" is used in this situation strictly in a demeaning manner
7. Yeah, but TimmyGal fits right into that fat, ignorant stereotype.
8. You might not be fat (can't tell as easily as I could with "Chubs" aka TimmyGal), you certainly don't come off as especially bright. (This comment was made to a 12 year old, so he hates animals AND children.)
9. spelling errors and grammatical fallacies, though certainly not a guaranteeing ignorance, is a definite cause for alarm. (Again, this comment was made to a 12-year old)
10. I'd sooner drag one [small dog] behind my car than allow it in my presence. (Sounds like a future Michael Vick, I think I'll notify the ASPCA about little mister Dustin Grey)

This is just the beginning. More to come I'm sure. LOL!!! :) Such a shame too. He's apparently studying music. With this kind of an attitude, he's more likely to be another Adam Ant. Nobody would buy music from an asshole. I saw his pic, he's not even that good-looking either. Believe me, I'm not just saying that! But it's people like him that is making modern music go all to Hell.

"Chubs"

Hehehe! I'm beginning to love that little nickname that dustingrey gave me. Now, he calls me "chubs". So far, he hasn't called me "fat-ass", as of this typing, but then I haven't been to YouTube just yet. But last night, at least I found out what is stuck up his ass to give him such an attitude. He actually likes being a total asshole to everyone. He admitted that. I checked out his profile last night too, and he's only 20 years old. I remember that age!! And when I was that age, I used to be a jerk to everyone too and I thought it was cute. I can still be a jerk if I want to. But this past year I've been trying hard to keep from doing that.

Well, now that I know what his deal is, I don't take it personally. Of course I didn't before, because I knew he was a teenager (at least), and I know how teenagers are (most of them). But now that I know this is just how he is, it makes it much easier to understand and makes me feel better about him. hehe!! When he mentioned that, I was like "OK, so you think you're an asshole. So I'm fat, and you're an asshole." I've actually seen bigger assholes than him, he's not the worst I've ever seen, but then it could be because he's young and inexperienced. hehehe! Anyway, I ended my statement to him with "You have my love and sympathy dude." Not that I expect him to understand why or what that means. Teenagers usually don't. Another complaint of his is that me and those who agree with me are ignorant. I said to him the only ignorant one his himself, and added "A person can lose weight (IF I want to), but you will always be ignorant." Frankly, I don't want to lose weight. If it happens, OK. If it doesn't, OK. But yesterday when my pa was here, and we walked down the beach, I found I could still walk a mile on the sand without even huffing and puffing. So, I may be a fat person, but at least I am a healthy fat person! :) And that doesn't bother me.

Anyway, that's what went on last night. I'd like to tell dustingrey more, but all I will say from now on is that he has my love and sympathy.

Open Heart Surgery

I meant to post this earlier this week, but it slipped my mind. Not surprisingly! It's not like it's about someone I care about. But Jon Stevens, who did some singing for INXS between 2000 and 2002, has had open heart surgery this past week. The only reason this story interests me at all is because Jon Stevens is a friend of Tim Farriss's. I personally don't care about him. But because he is a friend of Tim's I am glad he is doing OK.

Jon Stevens

Also in other news, What's-his-face Marilyn Manson is struck with swine flu. He was joking around that people think you can only catch the illness from pigs. Then he states that that's impossible. He stated the doc said his past choices in women had nothing to do with how he caught the disease. On The Star Celeb, the writer asks how his ex-pigs feel now that he has publicly labeled them as a filthy farm animal. My response is it can't be too bad! Any woman who can stomach being with a man with a face like this:

must have the intestinal fortitude of a pig!

The Battle Continues

Well, finally yesterday dustingrey responded to me. But I am keeping my cool. I'm letting him lose his instead, and I think it's working. He called me fucking stupid. LOL! He called me that because I said people who prefer smaller dogs are friendlier and more in tune with themselves. Now today he is saying that I haven't come off as friendly. He has no one to blame but himself, he started the debate by calling me a cunt because I have small dogs. Of course he's debating in a calm manner, but he is using more and more name-calling as the days go on. I'm still keeping my cool! This morning I noticed he made a comment in reference to my weight. He's now saying that the only people who own "rats" are overweight, ignorant people who have accomplished things they don't deserve. The only name I've called him so far is a jerk. Because that's what he is, just judging by his initial comment.

Anyway, I told him the only thing he's got right in that comment is that I am overweight. The rest is his own opinion. Like I posted on here before, people rarely see genius in someone who has offended them. Obviously I offended dustingrey. So all he's going to see from now on is a fat woman who owns rats. I'll keep you all informed of what happens next. I'll bet you by tomorrow, I'm going to have this guy calling me "fat-ass"!! LOL!! Wait and see if I am not right! He's losing the battle, and he knows it. The only thing left for him to do now is resort to childish-level name-calling. He's already called me "chubs", so I can feel it! A storm of name-calling will be coming from him soon! But I promise I will still be keeping my cool. I've heard so many fat-names over the years I'm used to it. So don't worry about me snapping or being hurt by him. It ain't a-gonna happen!!! Maybe I'll tell him that I'll sit on him!! LOL!!! I've ALWAYS wanted to say that!! Just to see what kind of a response I get!! LOL!! Maybe I'll say something to the effect of "How'd you like my fat ass to sit on you!?" LOLOL!!!!

Well!!! He did start it!!!! It's not like I provoked it in any way! Anyway, this is good practice for me. I haven't got all freaky or irrational on this guy. I just called him a jerk and said that he needs his dog to make him feel like a man. And I never would have even said that if he hadn't chimed in and called me a cunt just because I have small dogs. But let's see if I am not right about what happens next. I usually am, because I know the type of person he is.

Big Dog vs. Little Dog

I've seen this debate go on and on. People saying bigger dogs are better than little dogs. The fact of the matter is no matter how small or how big a dog is, they are all just dogs. Just because a dog is smaller, people think they are not even dogs, and refer to them as 'rodents'. I used to see it all the time in the PETA Sucks forum. Analogy or not, I don't care. I am here today to say that little dogs are NOT rodents!! Quit fooling yourselves! But then the people on PETA Sucks also think anything that is not a lion, tiger or bear is a rodent too. And then they shit their pants if you disagree with that. So, they are not the most reliable sources on the internet. But then this morning on YouTube, I got someone saying that purse dogs are for fags and cunts. I very calmly stated to the guy "What makes you say that? Because we are more in tune with ourselves? Because we are friendlier and more empathetic with other people? Because we don't see dogs as some kind of "status symbol", but as living things to be loved? Or maybe all of those things! Hey! If that makes me a "cunt" then bring it on! I'm proud of it!! :) Better to be that than be a total-ass-jerk to everyone, dustingrey! LOL! "

There is apparently a typical stereotype going on that people who own "purse dogs", or little dogs, dress the dogs up and carry them around in their purses. Well, as anyone who has read my blogs in the past would know, I am not a typical person. I love being an eccentric. Or different, or kooky, crazy, call it what you will! I love it that I am not like everyone else. I have never dressed my dogs up. Occasionally I have put a Santa hat on our dogs, but it doesn't stay there. I used to put Vegas in a little jacket to keep him warm when it's cold out, but then I found out that if you do that, it messes up the natural development of their undercoat during the cold months. Vegas has a very nice plush coat, and I want to keep it that way. Odessa has a lovely full coat and I don't want to ruin that either. Minnie, I don't know yet. When I first got her, she was shedding like crazy!! I want her to grow a nice, full coat. So I'm leaving her hair alone to see what it does.

As for carrying my dogs in purses, well, I don't do that either. The only dog I have that would fit in a purse is Vegas. And I'd be scared to carry him like that!! I'd be afraid he would jump out! So that is why I don't do those typical things. I remember a long time ago when I had my chihuahua forum, there was a man who joined and he was this big, tough, motorcycle guy, and his main companions were his little chihuahua dogs. I thought it was so cute!! And he seemed like a very nice guy. I've seen it happen over and over again, people who like smaller dogs are indeed nicer folks. I think it may be because we don't see dogs as "status symbols". Don't get me wrong now, I'm not dissing the bigger dogs! When I was younger, skinnier and had more energy, I prefered the big dogs too. I used to raise Australian Shepherds. And I had a collie and a blue heeler that I was very fond of! But now that I am getting older and have less energy, smaller dogs are my thing. I can say though that I've never owned any dog because it was a status symbol for me. I never looked at bigger dogs as being more "macho". I am actually more impressed by little dogs that think they're bigger than they are! Just like my chihuahuas! Kinda like my comparison of larger wild animals. A leopard can kill a female baboon. Big friken deal!!! They won't touch the males, and females are a lot smaller than the leopards are, and a lot less aggressive than the males. But when I saw this video of baboons facing off against a 6-foot long crocodile, THAT was impressive to me!!

Well the one thing that clinches the debate about big dogs vs. little dogs with me, the one and only thing I completely despise about dogs is the fact they like to sniff our butts!! I hate that!! Even though to dogs it's their only way of identifying who is top dog, I still hate it! And that is the main reason why I like the smallest dogs, because they're too small to just reach up and poke their nose in anyone's butt. You can surely train a bigger dog not to do that, it takes a while though for them to get the message. My bigger dogs always learned never to do that with me! They always went to Anna and did it. LOL! Anna never learned how to completely keep a dog from doing that to her. She's too slow on the draw! Anyway, that is the main reason why I always keep the smallest dogs. Don't be fooled though, there are some dogs that are just about big enough to reach that high. Like miniature poodles, and poodles are very notorious butt-sniffers!!! I'm not saying chihuahuas don't do that, it seems to be rare though! My chihuahuas don't do that at all. Even when I am lying in bed with them. I never even trained them not to do that. Minnie doesn't seem interested in that at all either. My other papillon, Andy, used to do it all the time however.

Well, I truly believe that most people who have bigger dogs have them as some kind of status symbol and I don't think that's a good thing. Dogs are not status symbols. They were not bred to make the owners feel "macho". And any dog will defend it's master, no matter what size it is. Cats on the other hand are different. Most of them will save themselves before they'd save their owners from any intruders. I've met some nice cats, I don't completely hate cats. But those cats are few and far between.