RIP Robin Williams

Well, I cannot say he was one of my most favorite actors, but he was a very funny man. So, this is indeed a sad loss. Recently, I learned about him doing a video with a youtuber whose name was Ray William Johnson. And Undertakerfreak was PISSED!!!!! He clobbered his own bedroom wall when he found out!! He thought appearing in a video with a youtuber would make him lose credibility. I told him to relax. RWJ probably paid Robin Williams big to appear in his video. He could afford to. He was the first YouTube made millionaire. But anyways, this is a big loss in comedy, all the greats are dying off.

I remember back in 1990, before ma and John were married, my ma told me that John and Robin Williams used to be neighbors, and friends, before Williams became famous, back in the late 60s and early 70s. John even has pictures of himself with Robin Williams when they were both younger. Of course John is a lot older than Robin Williams. Well, the problem with that is, if you tell people things like that, they tend to not believe you. I mentioned it a couple of times, and already I got one person, who calls himself Doyledeth, who said he calls bullshit! LOL! Well, I really cannot blame him. It's hard to believe celebs can have friends who are just average people. Though John was once a very big DJ in San Diego once. That was where they met. But I personally would think that if I were going to make something like that up, I would have said I knew the man myself, but I never met him. Or, I might have used the name of an actor that I thought was far more attractive than Robin Williams! LOL! This was the message from Doyledeth that I woke up to:

"Yup, you and 100s of other people claiming to either know him themselves or a family member knew him or some BS like that. Or your stepdad just lied about it."

 

And yes I did 1+ his comment. LOL! Well, since I understand how he feels, I could not get angry at him. So, my response was not too long-winded and sweet:

 

"+Doyledeth Well dude, that's your opinion. Frankly I cannot say I have proof, just pictures of the two of them together and letters they wrote back and forth to each other for years after my mom and stepfather married. But personally I'd think if someone were going to make something like that up, I'd have said I was a friend of his myself. But I personally have never met the guy. But hey! That's OK. Obviously you have been damaged by society, and I don't blame you. You'll likely respond with a retort you learned from someone else who has damaged you. I know people like you, so I understand. It's A-OK! You are entitled to your own beliefs. :)"

 

If he does respond, and I am sure he will, I know what he's going to say, he's going to say "that is complete and utter BULLSHIT!!!" or something to that affect. I don't know him, but I know his type. He's no different than the delusional mods, who I dealt with for years and kinda got used to their ways. See, I wish to GOD I could be Tim Farriss' friend, but I am not! I never claimed to be. We've met, and I like him a lot. And he seemed OK with me. But I cannot consider us friends. We didn't exchange phone numbers, or email addresses, or home addresses, you know all those things that friends do. So, if I were going to claim to be friends with any celebrity, it would be Timmy. Not Robin Williams. He and my stepfather just happened to be friends a long time ago. That's all I can say. I will ask my ma tomorrow when we spend the day together if John got the news and how it made him feel.

 

I have friends on Facebook who are friends with famous people, more so than I am! In fact, meeting celebrities is just not my thing. It just happens to me. I think GOD is on my side, but I have too good of luck with celebs. Every time I go to Hollywood (the 2 or 3 times I've been there) I always meet someone famous. Last time, I was taking a pic of my Groucho and they happened to be doing a movie shoot around us. That's what doesn't show up in those photos! Since I saw a full-on camera crew, I'm sure there were actors and actresses around me, but I don't keep up with modern celebs, so I wouldn't know that person even if they spat on me! LOL!! But I know it was a professional camera crew, their cameras were like those you see in big movie studios. Not like the ones you find in any store. But I do not actively go out and meet celebrities like some of my friends do. I am too people-shy for that. And I am always afraid I will meet someone I love and they won't like me. Or they will snub me like Kirk did.

 

I tell you all, I used to LOVE Kirk! He was right up there with Timmy as being one of my most favorite band members of INXS. But almost every time I met him, he was not very friendly to me. He was not mean or hostile, and didn't call me names or anything. It was more like I wasn't good enough for his attention. I said hello to him, and he did not say hello back. Not even so much as a smile. I've seen rock stars before who only give any attention to their prettiest fans, that's one reason I don't like Adam Ant, and I guess Kirk did not think I was pretty enough to say hello to. It hurt me, and hurt me badly. So that is why I have this special shyness about meeting famous people, and do not actively go out and do that. Because I've always been scared to death of something like that happening with a celeb I always loved. It ruined my affinity for Kirk. I am no longer a fan of his. I cannot help it either.

 

But I understand where this guy Doyledeth is coming from, I'm not sure I would be able to believe it myself if someone said something like that at a time like this, on the day Robin Williams died. Yesterday I heard from Sam again, and he said it was 94 in Tacoma. I told him that's a big switch! It was 69 here in Reno when I responded to him. I could not prove that either, and it may have been hard for him to believe too. Most people who think of Reno think of a place that gets up to over 90 degrees every day in summer. All Sam had to go on was my word, and the only proof I had was the gray skies and my roommate's thermometer outside. I could not show that to Sam at that moment. So if he wouldn't have believed me, I would have fully understood, because I may have not believed it either unless I'd seen it with my own eyes. It's the same exact principle. So, if Doyledeth's objective was to piss me off, sorry but he did not succeed. And I know he is still going to retort to repeating that my initial comment about my stepfather and Robin Williams being old friends from the past is bullshit. But hey! I'm fine with that. I still say, RIP Robin Williams, and blessings to his family.

 

Anyways, I'm going to close this post with more shameless advertising for UMG Productions. I've put up 2 more stories. One is a story that I based on the death of my Groucho. It's called Brittney's New Pet. Brittney takes the place of me in this story, well, when I lost Groucho, I felt like a little lost child! But in this story, Brittney's mom, Rosa, tells her she can always get another pet. So, Brittney takes that as permission to go find another pet, and she is happy again. Rosa does have her limits though. But you know how kids are, they always want what they cannot have. So, that is what this story is all about. The other story I put up is called The Break-In. This story is NOT recommended for children! It's based on the guy who tried to rape me back in 1990. So, it's got some mild implied violence and cussing, and also some adult (mature) images. No one is killed, but the rapist does make some threats. Just not something I would expose a child to. Young adults maybe OK with this story, as long as they are mature. The outcome is not so bad, and the rapist does get arrested, thanks to the pet of the house! Anyways, read the story. It's pretty good!

Sam Strikes Again!

LOL! OK funny title done. So far he's not been an evil person. But I did finally send the money I promised to him to send the sketchbooks to me. Now, I know he got it, but I am not sure what to do from here. Since he got it, and I am aware he did, I don't know if he's going to let me know when he sends them or not. I'll probably just have to wait, but if I do not see the books here in a week, I'm going to report him to PayPal. I'll have to! I don't have that kind of money to be throwing around like that. But I'm giving Sam a chance to prove himself, and prove me wrong. I will keep you all informed of what happens.

I done did the stupidest thing I could ever possibly do this month! Even though it is the beginning of the month and I already have a lot of money problems, I ordered a decorative clock that I've been wanting for a long time! It all started back in 1992. I was heavily into Batman. I had just gotten released from that babysitting/nanny/housekeeper job with Patti and Chris, and after that, I had gotten into Batman very heavily. Well, a nearby video store was having a sale and I went there to purchase some videos I wanted. Well, I more fell in love with this clock they had hanging on the wall. It had an image of Batman, the Joker, Penguin, Riddler and Catwoman. I wanted that clock so bad!! I asked the attendant there at the store if I could buy that clock from them. They said no because it is a promotional item created only for video stores. That was heartbreaking! I had to go home with a load of video tapes, and no Batman clock!

Well, the other night, because possibly getting these sketchbooks, I've been thinking about things from my past, I thought again about that clock. I thought about looking on ebay for it, because John said you can get ANYTHING on ebay!! So, I went in looking for that clock. Well, I found it! The seller had where the buyer can make an offer, and I did. I offered the seller $30 for it. With $14 for shipping, I figured that was the most I could afford!! Well, I will be so glad to get that clock!!! I collect clocks anyways, I love them!! I've always been so fascinated by clocks, I don't know why. I also collect Batman stuff. So it's a win-win deal with this clock.

Last night, I had another blast from the past, in the form of a dream. I dreamed about a mediocre and obscure character I created when I was 7 years old. It's the only human character I ever created when I was a kid. His name is Bob. I only drew him a few times, and only because of my mama's discretion. She wanted me to learn to draw people, because I'd mostly been drawing animals all my life. So, I drew this little boy, with a few hairs on his head, big eyes, denim jacket, big smile, and always carrying rubber stamps around (before they became a scrapbooking fad). Bob is also a musician that plays the concertina, and has a little miniature band. Using today's standards, Bob kinda looks like little Tommy on Rug Rats. Only he's like a teenager, still with only a few hairs on his head. Anyway, I only used him in a story once, and I forgot the story until I had that dream last night.

Another obscure character I created for my stories is a character I call 'The Mad Anaconda'. Not mad as in angry, mad as in insane. He is insane. I love anacondas, but this character, you don't want to meet him! LOL! He made his first appearance in 1986 in the story The Mischievous Mongoose, and has made several small appearances since. The last being in 1993. I call him The Mad Anaconda because he gets pleasure out of catching UMG characters and squeezing them into unconsciousness. He gets killed sometimes, but keeps coming back! LOL! He kinda is a representation of myself having grown up an angry child. I was horrible!! And this anaconda in my stories was kindof a release of some of that anger. He doesn't have a name, he doesn't have really a big role in UMG stories, I just call him The Mad Anaconda. And basically his only role was a tension release. Well, he made his last appearance in 1993, because that was the year I turned that part of my life around. I didn't want to remain that angry child anymore, so I began working on that part of my life. Though I admit, when I got on the internet for the first time, I had to work on that all over again. But learning to ignore the trolls and haters has completely changed my internet persona. I'm a happier person now.

You know what else changed me? Believe it or not, and this may sound odd, but this character The Watcher changed my attitude! But not in the way she might have hoped. LOL! I was so flattered when she called me a "stalking whale" I think it went a little to my head! hehehe! Because ever since then, I've been acting like a narcissistic jerk! LOL! Its one thing when someone who likes you says you are beautiful. But when someone who hates you implies you are beautiful, I guess that really makes you feel good! Because they've got to be sincere about it if they don't like you because of it. And calling me a whale, well, I consider that a compliment! Why shouldn't I? Whales are beautiful, graceful creatures, in spite of their bulk. And they are more intelligent than any other mammal. Every fat woman should consider being called a whale a compliment!! Not an insult!

Well, now I'm a completely different person than I was in 1993, when the last story with the Mad Anaconda came out. And yes, I am working on that story, and I am considering putting it on the website. Though I haven't decided yet. Some stories, the meaning is rather hard to see, so I don't know if it's going to be a story that the public will enjoy. But I am working on it anyways, just for the sheer fuck of it.

Oh yes, and one more thing.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY JON FARRISS!!!! I said this to him on Facebook, but I also want to say it here! Love ya man!!!

Blast From The Past!

Today was quite an exciting day, and just a couple hours after I woke up. Yesterday is when it all got started. My mama and I were out together cruising around. When she dropped me off here at my place, we usually start talking among each other. One of the subjects that came up was our old family friends, Brenda, Tara and Lucious. Ma started to remember all the crazy things Tara and I did when we were kids. I met Tara when she was 4 years old, and I was 5. We grew up together and at times, I was closer to her than I was to my own sis. We had our fights and battles, like all friends do, but I never stopped loving her like a sister.

Well, some months ago, I was looking for any of them on Facebook. I knew Tara had gotten married, but I had no idea what her married name is. Brenda, I wasn't even so sure if she was married again, or even still alive. So, I figured my only chance was to find Lucious. But I was not sure if he still lived in Washington state, or if he had done moved to Cleveland, OH like Tara and Brenda did. Well, I searched on Facebook for Lucious, and I did find a 20-year old guy with the same name, and his selfie he has for his profile pic looks just like Lucious did when he was a young boy. Well, as ma and I were talking about them, I wanted to show her this kid's profile, and look at his pic a little better. She agreed he looked just like Lucious did when he was a boy. And he lived in WA, and went to the same high school Tara and Lucious did. Well, when I got to this guy's page, there were a couple of pics he had been tagged in that really caught my attention. They were pictures of a man holding a baby, and the name on the pic said it was Big Lou. Well, the last time I saw Lucious, Tara's oldest child was with him, and called him "uncle Lou". And the man in the pic holding the baby looked exactly like Lucious did the last time I saw him! Ma and I looked and both of us said "That IS Lucious!"

Well, after ma and I were about 85% sure we were looking at a picture of Lucious, I PM'd this kid. I asked him if his father's name is also Lucious, and if he has an aunt named Tara, and a grandma named Brenda. Well, as of now, I haven't heard back from him yet. But last night I was so intrigued by the similarities in the picture, I decided to look further at some more of his pictures. I found someone named Tara among his Facebook friends and so I investigated her page. I looked at some of her pictures and I noticed she had the biggest smile I ever seen! I recognized that smile immediately! This was my old childhood friend, Tara!! If nothing else stood out, that smile of her's did! She always had the biggest, brightest, most beautiful smile I'd ever seen in my life!! She still does! I said, "If she lives in Cleveland then this is definitely her!" So I looked and sure enough, she lives in Cleveland! I wanted to be 100% positive it was her, so I PM'd her too. Well she answered right away, and asked me who I was, because I was under the name Dee Timmyfan. So I told her who I was and who my ma was, and then she remembered me. hehehe! We had a few minutes chat with each other, but someday I would like to have a video chat with her. I wonder if she would remember some of the old crazy things we did as kids that my ma brought up yesterday.

Well, she told me some of the things going on in her life now. She has 4 kids, although when I last saw Brenda in 1994, she said Tara had 6 kids now. Oh well. 2 of her children are all grown up and have kids of their own. She has 2 young ones with her now, she said her daughter does not want kids at all. I told her about Vegas, who I guess one would say is my kid. Tara remembered how I always loved animals. LOL! I was the one drawn to animals, while she always had a baby in her arms. She loved kids! That's for sure! She also remembered how my sis was the one to teach her to ride a bicycle. That's funny, I remembered my sis teaching me to ride one, but until Tara mentioned that, I had forgotten she taught her too. Tara's family and my family were very close! My family taught her things her family didn't, and her family taught me things my family didn't. Her family made our family complete, and vice-versa. I remember her father left Brenda soon after we met. So, the only real father figure Tara and Lucious had growing up in WA state was my father. And they took to him very well. And Brenda was always like a second mother to me.

Now if only I could find more of my childhood friends on Facebook! There's so many I'd love to find. I'd like to find some of my old buddies from High school, maybe from middle school. Who knows? I managed to find Tara and Brenda, maybe I will find others too if I look hard enough.

Odd Song Lyrics

Have you ever listened to a song and heard something that sounds so strange in the lyrics that it makes you repeat what you thought they said, or think "Did he really say that??" I know quite a few songs like that. I hear the singing, and sometimes I hear something that sounds so outlandish that I think to myself "What did he/she say?" I'm very much into songs of the 80s, especially from 1984 and up. Well, there's a few songs from the earlier years that I like, but most of my favorites come from after 1983. Songs I like from the earlier 1980s are very few, and more likely from well-established artists like Donna Summer. Anyways, I was listening to some today and it inspired me to write this blog post.

Funny how when the music is going, we hear things in the songs we probably would not hear if we just heard the singing without the music. Maybe it's because of the way the music is mixed, or maybe while the music is going, our minds concentrate so much on that that it can play tricks on us. I don't know for sure. But I have often heard some weird sentences in songs that I wondered were really there. So, today I decided to do some more research on these songs. One example of a song with strange lyrics, or so I thought, is Because The Night by 10,000 Maniacs. I have that song on my MP3 player. I like it too. I first heard it in 1993, when one night I decided to listen to the radio once again. I started and never stopped, LOL! But there is one line in that song that sounded kinda strange to me. I seriously thought the song was written for the movie Free Willy. This is why...

What I thought it said: "The way I feel I'm the orca man"
Or "The way I feel 'bout the Orkin man"
LOL!
What she is really singing is: "The way I feel under your command"

Even the real lyric there sounds kinda dumb, but it is still a very good song. There is another song that I like that I listen to quite frequently, it is U2's Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For. I love the song, I'm not a great huge fan of U2, but I do like quite a few of their songs. The music in this song is great, reminds me of the days when I was a kid and used to go to this pit near our house and play there all day. But in the middle of this song there is a lyric that every time I heard it, always made me wonder what the heck he was saying! LOL! When you hear it, it'll make you laugh...

What I thought it said: "I have had hands on the tin ball"
I always wondered "Why the heck is he singing about tin balls??"  LOL! That'd sure make Katrina laugh!!
What he really said: "I have held the hand of the devil"

Even INXS has some lyrics that sound different in the songs, and you all know by now how Michael swoons me! Sometimes I am concentrating so on his voice, the hell with the lyrics. Well, for many years I got one set of lyrics wrong in a song titled The Stairs. Though I admit I wasn't too far off.

What I thought he said: "The passion is to keep the faith, where all are different, all are great"
What he really said: "The passion lives to keep the faith, though all are different, all are great"

Sometimes, even when we think we're just hearing things in lyrics, it actually turns out that is what the person is singing. Like the song Mony, Mony by Billy Idol. Another great classic song, I also have this on my MP3 player, just like the last 3. But there is one lyric repeated throughout this song that always sounded to me like he was saying "You make me feel like a pony". As it turns out, that is exactly what he is saying! LOL! I remember in high school, there was this fat, blond girl named Tanya, and she used to meow at me. Maybe I made her feel like a cat! LOL! Heck if Billy Idol can feel good like a pony, then I guess Tanya felt good like a cat! LOL! Anyways those are some of the weird song lyrics I've come up with. Got any yourself? Share in the comments!

OK, subject change. I heard from Sam again yesterday and all he wants is enough money to cover shipping and packaging, which is OK. I would have been pissed if he was going to try and make a profit off of me for my own work! Trisha did not like the idea of that either when I told her, and neither did any of my Facebook buddies. Now my goal is just to get these books back. I'm sending him the money through PayPal, that way if he tries to stiff me, I can get PayPal to refund the money. I don't know this person anymore, if I ever did in the first place. I am still not sure who he is! And all he gave me is a PO box for his address. He's obviously got lots of money if he can afford a PO Box! I told him to give me a week or so to get the money. He did show me pics of the sketchbooks and I saw them and said "Yup! Those are MY sketchbooks!" It'd be cool to have them back! Something I never in my life expected! But I haven't got them yet. We'll see what happens.

"Crazy Cat-Lady" Syndrome

There is just no denying the internet has made cats the most loved animals on Earth. GEEZ!! Where the hell was the internet when I was 7-years old??? Back then I would have had a field day on the internet looking at all the cat videos! When I was 7-years old, I loved cats. I think most little girls do though. But I was so hard-pressed to find any other cat lovers like me. If I were still a child today, I would seem to have no problem at all. But back then, most of the people I met were dog-lovers, and I was not then. Everyone I ever met said cats are too sneaky, or creepy, or are funny-looking, or simply said that dogs are better pets. Even other little girls said that to me. Me and this other girl who loved dogs even got into a bit of a confrontation because she liked dogs and I liked cats. She was mocking how a dog could beat a cat's ass. One day, when I was about 8 years old, I was walking home from school and I saw a black mass on the road ahead of me. I wondered what the heck it was. When I got closer, I found out it was my neighbor's cat, which seemed to have just been killed by a car. It's head was completely crushed! Crushed so bad, one of it's eyeballs had been pushed out of the socket with it's brain, which had oozed out of the socket like toothpaste! Yeah, I saw that graphic sight when I was 8 years old! LOL! I thought it was sad, and horrific.

Well, today I am going to talk about the so-called "crazy cat-lady" syndrome. Yes, it is an illness. A mental illness. Since owning cats has been known to affect a person's brain. I see it all the time. A non-cat owner can always tell when someone owns cats because they act all crazy and irrational at times. And it's a certain kind of crazy that you don't see with people who own dogs or any other animals. If a person wants to own a cat, and it has no effect on their brain, I say that's fine. But the "crazy cat-lady" syndrome is something altogether different. Cat people think it's cute. But I think of it from the cat's point of view. Believe it or not, it is nothing more than a passive form of animal abuse. I have one friend who has 3 cats, feeds strays, and has taken in 2 full litters of kittens. I can already see her house in 2 years! Full of cats, litter boxes, and stinking to high heaven! She may think it's cute, but now she can barely feed her own cats! She's asking people for food donations and stuff. I would help her own 3 cats if I could. But I will NOT support the strays or those litters of kittens she insisted on taking in. Which is why I haven't donated anything to her. Much as I'd like to help her 3 pet cats, I will not support stray cats, and I'm afraid that's exactly what she'd do with the food I would donate, feed it to those stupid strays!

Yes, I have hatred for stray cats. They kill birds and other wild life. In a lot of areas, they have caused the extinction of some animals, or endangered status. I think all stray cats should be completely eradicated! Not supported. Before long, there won't be any other animals left in the world except cats. And that would be a dull world! Anyways, back to the subject. The reason I oppose people who want to become "crazy cat people" is because cats were not meant to live in large packs. Cats are not social animals. Keeping so many of them is a bad idea. I've seen cases where people had so many cats, it causes the cats to have respiratory problems, I've seen their eyes burn out literally from all the ammonia in the house, caused by the other cats urinating. They get into constant fights, sometimes killing each other. Large groups of cats are just not meant to live together in the same house. They're not like dogs. But I also would never recommend anyone take in too many dogs either. The most I ever had was 8 dogs at one time. But I was well able to care for them myself. I had no worries about feeding them, I kept the yard clean, and the dogs had proper vet care, and the house was clean too. I didn't ever ask for donations from anyone when I had all those dogs. I would never have had that many dogs if I didn't think I could take care of them all!

The cat people may think this is all so cute, they want to rescue every stray cat they see because they feel so sorry for it. But this is just a form of animal abuse. They may not see it that way because they are looking at it from a human perspective. But think of the cats, not yourself! One or two cats is really enough for any household. Three is pushing it, but still feasible if you can afford it. Any more than that, I'd have to consider it animal abuse. I know this friend does not mean for it to be animal abuse, and I am not saying she is a bad person who intentionally abuses animals. She's not the only crazy cat-person I've met who has taken in every stray cat she sees because she feels sorry for it. None of them think it's animal abuse when they take in 20 or so cats, but it is. Look at it from the cat's perspective. They're not humans. They're not dogs. They're not social animals. They're not safe living in packs. And if you have so many cats that you cannot afford to feed them or get them the vet care they need when they need it, you have WAY too many!! If your cats run away at the sight of you or someone else, they are not properly socialized and could become a nuisance! That person has way too many cats to socialize properly! A person does not need to own all the cats they can find! It's not like they are food or oxygen. And strays should be taken to the shelter to get gassed!! They are the scourge of the animal kingdom!

I thank GOD there is no such thing as a "crazy dog-lady". I would not like that status at all. But then again, dogs don't make people go crazy. And I thank GOD the cats I did have did not make me go too crazy. Not to a point where I took in strays! Or fed them. The most number of cats I ever had at one time was 3. But again, I made sure they were well taken care of. When I couldn't afford them anymore, I sent them to other homes. I'll tell you, I was glad to see those Persians go!! They are gorgeous cats, but they are a pain in the butt to own!!! That's why I prefer cats with little to no hair. Persians have to be constantly groomed and bathed. Their fur is so dense, they can't clean it very well, and start to stink after a while. Plus they cough up hairballs all over the place, and crap often gets stuck to the fur around their butt. When we had Persians, we had to keep a brush in one hand, a bar of soap in the other, and a comb nearby. LOL! That was just to keep them clean. I like Siamese. No hairballs to cough up, no constant bathing and grooming, no crap gets stuck to their butt, and they don't stink! All that stuff you have to contend with when you have a cat with so much hair. But thankfully there are no "crazy dog-lady"s. No, something else has made me crazy. Or maybe I was born crazy. LOL!

Now there is a difference between loving cats and being a total cat-fag. A person who loves cats is someone who has just one or two cats, maybe 3, and does not disrespect people who do not like cats, but just goes on about their own life. A cat-fag is someone who thinks cats can do no wrong, when in fact it is an evil cat, or implies people who don't like cats are stupid, or are not worthy of living. I saw a video one of my buddies posted on Facebook yesterday, and it showed a woman who wanted to get rid of her cat. The cat kept on attacking the woman, and she had to slap at it to get it away from her. Of course all the cat-fags on this friend's list were saying the woman was evil for slapping the cat! But the thing of it is, the cat attacked the woman first! Cat-fags just don't understand some cats are just plain evil! One person even went so far as to say the cat is telling the woman it wants to be left alone. Well, from what I saw in the video, the woman was trying to leave it alone. I think more likely the cat was just doing it for that woman's attention. I see that all the time among cats! See for yourself:

If you can tolerate this behavior from this cat, I say get over there and get it. Otherwise I would recommend this woman put this cat to sleep. Maybe it cannot be rehabilitated, and is just evil.

Cats vs. Panthers

I was thumbing through my posts on Facebook and one of my buddies posted a link to an article that spoke of a child who got his hand bitten off by a tiger that his father took him over the barriers at the zoo to pet. UGH!! Did this father not see that coming?? A tiger is not a pet! It's not something that a person can just reach out and touch without thinking! It's a fucking tiger!! Not a spectacle in a petting zoo!! People piss me off! And this man, as stupid as he is, should never have had a child!!

This is why I hate seeing tv shows and commercials that put panthers in the same light as cats, and why I totally refuse to call panthers "big cats" like everybody else! Because they are not simply "big cats". They are mindless killers and vicious murderers! Never will anyone ever hear or see me calling tigers, lions or leopards "cats"! You put panthers in the same light as cats, people tend to think they are nothing but giant house cats and they're NOT! I  remember on my page on Encyclopedia Dramatica, someone wrote that they said to me that a panther would make a much better pet than a Chihuahua. They said it was a "lulzy conversation". And I said "No, it wasn't a 'lulzy conversation'. That's something you actually believe!" All panther fanatics think panthers will make better pets than dogs. Not true!! Like I said, they are not simply giant house cats! But to those people, I say go ahead and keep some kind of panther in your home! See how that results! I guarantee you, someone will be raking up your dead body parts off your carpet after a year! Then ask a Chihuahua owner if they have any fingers missing because of their Chihuahua.

I hate such movies as The Lion King, first of all for using the word lion and king in the same sentence. Lions are NOT the king of beasts! Any more than I am the queen of the World. But second of all for the way it glorifies lions, making people believe that lions are innocent and harmless animals. Let me tell you the ugly truth about lions; in severe drought, or when the herds have moved away and they no longer have any prey to hunt, males and females will kill their own cubs for food. That's something not portrayed in the Lion King! Lions are often seen killing hyenas, but you notice they never eat them, which means they do not always kill for food, but for fun too. Does that sound nobile? Not to me. Sounds like a bully to me! Usually when you see lions at a kill surrounded by hyenas, chances are the lions stole the kill from the hyenas. But the cat fags always lie about it and say the hyenas steal the kill from the lions. Of all the panthers I hate, it is lions that I hate the absolute MOST!!! I can't stand them. Not even a little bit. I would love to take all lions, put them in some giant enclosure that they cannot escape from, and have them bombed all away. Just wipe the entire species off the face of the Earth! I love it when I see lions getting killed by crocodiles. I cheer the reptiles on!

One of my buds has a child who loves lions. I think if I ever found myself with a child that says lions are her (or his) favorite animal, I'd slap that thought right out of their head!! NO child of mine will ever like lions!! I'd see to that! I'd make their experience with lions so miserable, they'd gladly say they hate them. Lions are not worthy of being loved or glorified! They should all be destroyed!

Another thing you will never hear me say is the words most people use to refer to a female lion, tiger or leopard. Nope, I never use the words "lioness" or "tigress" or "leopardess", because that's just other synonyms people use to give panthers the sound of being "royal" beasts. Like "princess" or "dutchess", or "countess". Instead I just call female panthers what they are; female lions, female tigers and female leopards. And why not? We don't call female eagles "Eagless", or female bears "bearess", or female crocodiles "crocodiless". These are animals that are better hunters than any panther. Most of them can kick any panther's ass too. So, if they don't have special names like that, why should panthers?

I was looking at some videos today on YouTube, and I saw one video of a snake that killed a leopard cub. I always get more entertainment by looking at the comments sometimes than I do watching the video. The number of people who said they would have stopped the snake from killing the leopard cub was phenomenal! Just simply unbelievable! No one would have said that if the snake killed a rat, or a rabbit, or an antelope. Only if it kills a leopard cub. And on another video, where a leopard is killed by a crocodile, people were saying it was set up. They said the filmmakers drugged the leopard. I dunno, he looked no less alert than any average leopard. Just that crocs are so good at hiding, most animals that get attacked could be right on top of them and not even see them! And this was a HUGE croc!! The leopard was about the size of the croc's head alone! So I believe that must have been a 18-20 foot long reptile! The leopard did not stand a chance at all!! Even if he was fully grown.

Yes, there are videos of panthers beating crocodilians. There is a most recent video of a jaguar hunting and killing a caiman. LOL!! Well, let me tell you about caiman and jaguars; caiman are smaller and FAR less aggressive than crocodiles! Caiman are actually not in the same family as crocodiles, they are in the same family as alligators. While alligator attacks have been reported, they are nowhere near as aggressive as crocodiles are. Had that caiman been an Orinoco crocodile, which is rare, but does exist, the chances of that jaguar winning that battle would have been slimmer. Especially if the croc had been larger than the jaguar. The only time I have ever seen any panther beat a crocodile is if it is a small one, usually under 10 feet long, including the tail. While the tail can swing and knock a man off his feet, most of the croc's power is in the head and body, and their jaws are stronger than any other animal's. But small crocodiles, like the ones I see panthers beating up, heck with that! I've even seen baboons beat up crocs that small!! And believe me, the baboon attacking the crocodile impresses me much more than the panthers! Simply because you don't expect a baboon to go after a crocodile!

That's another thing about panthers, I don't see the fascination about them. I see people commenting all the time how felines always amaze them. Well, they do NOT amaze me, in any way, shape or form! I've been studying animals all my life, and watching nature shows for as long as I can remember, the one family of animals that always fails to impress me is the felines. Lately, lions have been seen attacking elephants, even adult bulls, usually those weakened by illness. Well, guess what! Dholes also attack elephants in Asia! The reason the dholes impress me more is because they are relatively small, and have no claws on their toes like lions, and their teeth are smaller than those of a lion's. Yet the elephants panic when they see a pack of dholes approach them! Yeah, a whole group of lions can bring down a sick elephant, they're bigger than the dholes, but not bigger than the elephants. But the thing about them that takes away the impressive shock is the fact lions are more endowed than any other land carnivore. They have 3-inch fangs, and razor-sharp claws. With the right weapons, a 90-pound man could easily bring down a 250-pound man! No problem! That is why panthers don't impress me at all. They may not have the size, but they are equipped with the right weapons. So, I see a group of lions bring down an elephant, I'm then like "so what?" It does not impress me at all!

Story Ideas

I was just reading the biography of the author of the Harry Potter series of books, JK Rowling. It says she was at a train station when she thought of Harry Potter, and the train was 4 hours late. I thought I might discuss some of the crazy story ideas I've had and how they got started. I think the only real reason my stories have not sold is because I have not done much myself to distribute them. But I do have plans for the future, which will come into fruition soon. I've been told, even by people who hated my guts, that my stories are good. I saw the smiles as they read the stories, and heard the wow's, and saw the instant look of pleasure on their faces as they read my stories, so I know the potential is there. I just have to get these stories out into the general populace. Not just via the website, but other ways too.

Well, really there is not much to say about the subject. LOL! Most of my story ideas I get when I just let my mind wander. Like when I am out walking around and having fun, I can derive a story idea from that. A lot of my stories are based on my own life experiences. There's been several of those. One thing I always remember when writing, people LOVE drama! So a lot of my stories are based on very dramatic points in my life. Some are only symbolic in their meanings. Like, you'd never know the story Gracie's Odyssey is based on my feelings after Michael Hutchence died. But it is. You don't really see it when you read the story, unless you knew me at that time. It was a very lost and confused feeling, and well I don't want to give the story away too much. LOL! Me and my buddy Cairo both wrote that story. He said I was in a deep funk. We joked around for a while about it, then he got the idea for that story. I've told y'all, I could write a whole novel about what I was thinking when I heard the news!

Most of my story ideas come to me when I am listening to music. Those are the best ways to get ideas. Music makes me think. That's why I love it! My mind is never more active than it is while I am listening to music. I mean, while I am walking most of what I am thinking about is the walk, and where I am going, and worrying about if I am going to step in that big pile of dog shit lying ahead of me on the path! LOL! But sometimes I let my mind wander and have fun. Some stories I get an idea of and get stuck in a certain point, and it can remain unfinished for years. Like this other story I called To Work or Dress. That story I originally began in 1997, but it sat unfinished for years before I finally decided how to finish it. I finally completed it in 2011. That BTW is another story based on personal experience. I added some creativity to it because who wants to hear "I was looking for work, and one of the places I went to was a strip bar"? No one. So I tend to add a little more color to the story, some details and shading. That makes it exciting and worth reading.

That story I got the idea one evening when I was at work on a temporary job. I had just quit a job telemarketing, where I was not treated very kindly, and the pay was lousy! I'm not the kind of person to push herself on others, and if you do telemarketing you have to be. This is also why I do not have many friends on Facebook. Going around asking people to become my friends is just out of my character. Those that I do ask can consider themselves lucky, because that means I really like that person, or I REALLY want to get to know them. I'm not a people-loving person, so not many people can claim that status. Anyways, I don't want to give away too much of the story, but it is on the UMG Productions website. One of the characters in the story is based on one of the people I had to work under while doing the telemarketing job, and she was an asshole!! She is in the story too. But I remember her name was Karen, she was fat, her hair was usually greasy and she often smelled bad. Besides that, she had a bitchy attitude. She was the unfortunately stereotypical picture most people have of fat women. I hated her! I remember when I first started working there, she was nice. I even remember wishing her a happy birthday, she was just turning 53, the same age as my father. Then after I was granted a vacation from there for 2 weeks, when I got back there, Karen was as mean as she could possibly be! I didn't know what caused the sudden change in attitude. But that is somewhat the basis for the story's climax.

I turn every negative into a positive! LOL! That's how I am. I don't like always focusing on the gloomy side. I even wrote a story about my job at the Puyallup Fair, when I worked for a woman named Tracy. Only in this story, I call her Stacy. She was a dyk. She also treated the workers like crap. Some bosses seem to think just because they are paying someone to do a job for them that they can treat the workers like crap. Basically taking advantage of a person does not work either way. I've had jobs I enjoy, the employers did not treat me like crap. I would never treat a working dog like crap, let alone a person! If you want people to work for you, you should be making the working environment a pleasant one. Even if it is temporary employment. Of course, back when I worked at the fair, I had no idea that people always treat temps like they are garbage. But temp or not, there's no excuse for the boss to have such a crappy attitude like Tracy did! That was the worst job I ever had in my life!! Partly because I didn't want it in the first place! But I did write a story about it, and the title is just what the job was; Dead End Job! Instead of me and my sis facing off with Tracy, I had Mushmouth and Kathy face off with her.

Mushmouth was a character I really glorified back in the late 80s and early 90s. Even I was in love with him!! So was everybody else. LOL! I publicized him very well! If we'd had the internet back then, Mushmouth would today be more popular than cats! That's how well I publicized him. I capitalized on that in this story.

I have several stories right now that have not left my head. I have yet to put them down on paper. There may be several reasons for that. Either I am having trouble thinking of a way to start them off, or they have no point to them (yet), or maybe my mind is tossing around ideas and they keep getting jumbled like a deck of cards thrown in the air. Some of these stories I am on the verge of starting, as I think I have pieced them together in a way where they would be enjoyable for the readers. One of them I have already started, I just need to keep it going. If it is good enough, I'll put it on the website.

50% Michael

OK, on to a better subject, INXS. Yet again! LOL! Lately, I've been noticing Michael all over again. This time it's coming on stronger. Of course I have always loved the band members each in their own way. But lately, I've been eyeing Michael much more than I have over the past 10 years. Kindof like it was during the last couple of months before he passed away. Only then, it came on much more gradually than this. I've been at this for the past 2 weeks, and I don't know what's causing it! But then again, I never know what causes it! It just happens when it happens. Sometimes there is no cause. And this time, it is really strong. Usually after a rest from INXS fanhood, it is always Michael that reminds me why I am an INXS fan in the first place.

Last time I got heavily into INXS, Michael was responsible for sparking my interest, but it was Timmy I was more sweet on. I am still sweet on Timmy, but now my old feelings about Michael are coming back. Though I have yet to get really close to him, I think there is a block against it now. But I am gradually working on that block. It helps hearing my friends' stories about him. I have several friends who have actually met Michael. I don't consider what I had with him a "formal meeting". If he were to see me now, he would not recognize me at all. Back in 1991, when I kissed him, I was younger and thinner. He'd see me as this fat, ugly old crone and definitely would not remember me kissing him. If he noticed at all. He was looking at all the fans surrounding him. I remember. I'm not too sure I stood out very much. But I was like a schoolgirl kissing her favorite idol. Or like a puppy dog who was kissing someone she hadn't seen in months.

Oddly enough, I did not remember that experience until I went to an INXS concert with JD fronting in 2006. I mean, I remember Michael coming down the aisle, and I remember reaching out to kiss him, but I did not feel the giddiness I felt when I saw INXS again in 2006. Or I didn't remember feeling it. It could also have been because INXS was not my favorite group in 1991, Roxette was. I still loved INXS, but Roxette was my favorite group back then. Now, not any more, and I find myself constantly going back into and out of INXS fanhood. I don't know, this is just me. This is who I am.

Well, all those old feelings I used to have for Michael are beginning to come back. They have been creeping up on me for the past 2 weeks. I saw some clips on YouTube with him in them, and that was perhaps the beginning of it. I even found the clip where Oasis called Michael Hutchence a "has-been". UGH!!! Made me so mad I wanted to smack them good!!! Michael was so nice, treated those miscreants like royalty! And this is how they repay him. I don't want to sound like a radical INXS fan, and I am trying hard not to, but I HATE Oasis!!! They suck! And I think they are jealous in that clip because they don't even look half as good as Michael did! But unfortunately that was the beginning of the end. Michael, as I understand it, was so sensitive and humble. That remark just broke him. There was one song up for nomination that same day, and I would have loved to seen that one win first place award! Not fucking Oasis!!! I hate them!

I heard the next day a friend of Michael's made a joke about him being called a "has-been", and Michael did not like that joke either. He didn't laugh. Clearly, he was disturbed, and someone should have taken notice, and maybe done something about it! Like kick the two men of Oasis in the teeth for saying that!

Ya know all this comes at a shock to me, and probably lots of other fans. I once said on the old INXS.com site that I may never become a Hutch fan again. I guess the old adage that says "Never say never" is true! LOL! I always avoided getting close to him again before because well, he is gone from this world. As sad a thing as that is to say, it's true. A fact that cannot be denied. But thinking back throughout my history, that kind of thing has never stopped me before. I've always been an admirer of Dian Fossey, even am now in the process of writing a story with a character based on her. I still am an admirer of her's. Been an admirer since around 1988. She's quite a person to look up to. But she's also been dead since 1985. Harpo Marx too, my most favorite actor of all time, I've been an admirer of his since around 1983, and he's been dead since 1964. I also still love my grandma, who has been dead since 2001, and my Groucho. I still call her my baby. She's been gone since 2006. So, just because someone has been gone for a long time does not mean I should stop loving them for what they do or who they are. Or were. Same should go for Michael.

It helps that I joined these groups on Facebook dedicated to Michael, and now am seeing pics of him I've never seen before, and love intensely!!! Not only that, but hearing other peoples' stories of him and the first time they saw him, or met him. A lot of them are much more dramatic than my own. Like this one friend I have who went to a concert and Michael gave her one of his water bottles. And another friend who tried to shake hands with Michael, and he wouldn't shake hands with her so she flipped him off. And she said he laughed after she did that. LOL! I think that is the one story that has begun to bring me to this point now. That's the Michael I would have figured he was! To laugh at himself like that. Not the angry, depressed man who appeared in his last year to have this wall built around himself. But that was caused by a dumbass who thought it would be a good idea to kick Michael to the curb, which cracked his skull and caused him to lose his sense of smell and taste permanently. That caused his depression, and then his life took on a downward spiral from there.

And that's not even the end of it all. Then the deal with Bob Geldof taking his daughter away from him. I cannot believe how many people say that Michael stole Paula from Bob, which is insanely untrue!! Paula left Bob to trap Michael! The whole thing was her fault, not Michael's! But Bob kept Michael's baby from his family, even after he was gone. For that reason, I hate Bob Geldof!! When Peaches died this past year, I said Bob Geldof got what he deserved! Karma at it's finest!! People may hate me for saying that, or may think it's a horrible thing to say, but I say tough nookies!! It's true! Bob kept Michael's baby girl from him and his family, so karma came back and bit Bob in the ass, HARD!!! Bob Geldof, if he had been smarter, would have seen this coming sooner or later.

Now, the last thing I ever want to do is sound like a fanatic, I won't become that! But when I see people blaming Michael for what happened, saying things like he stole Paula from Bob, I have to speak up! Bob got his feelings hurt I am sure, but there were strong feeling all around too, not just Bob.

Well, I would say I am about 50% a Hutch fan now, I still love Timmy a lot. I just cannot bring myself to kiss my pics of Michael. Not ready for that yet! LOL! If I were 100% a fan, I'd have done it by now.

The Return of $am

Well, I finally heard back from Sam, who wrote to me a couple weeks ago saying he has some old books of mine from 1988. I had to write to him 2 times before I finally heard something. I still am not certain who this guy is. I have my hunches, but I am not 100% sure. He knows I do want these books back, but he says they won't be free. UGH!!! I knew he was going to say something like this. Even my ma knew he was going to say something like this!! I can offer to pay for the shipping to send the books to me, but I cannot offer much else. So if Sam asks me for $100 for each book, I'm going to tell him he's out of his fucking mind! LOL!!! Well, I know he rescued them fair and square, but still.

I mean, I really don't need these books back. I got all I need out of them already. Plus Trisha has copies of her own of those stories. I can always get them from her for free. So, Sam really doesn't have to send them to me. Besides the fact they are outdated. But it would be nice to have them back for my own personal collection. Not Trisha's. LOL! Like I said, she already has copies of the important stories. So, I won't feel bad if Sam asks me for $100 a piece to tell him he can take that price and stick it up his ass. LOL! They aren't worth that much!! It's not like I am dead now! Though the O'Hara's have moved away. Now, I can give him $25 for each book, that's no problem. That's about what the sketchbooks cost anyways. But anything higher, I'd have to tell Sam to stuff it. LOL!

Trisha only knows Sam has contacted me about these old books. She doesn't know he is asking for money for them. I know I don't really need these books. It's not like my world will come to an end if I don't get them. But to have them back would be a nice thing. Trisha would not really like me giving money to this guy at all. But I say hell with it! I do have a limit though. I'll just have to wait and see what he says. But yeah, if he asks for too much, I'll have to say no. Much as I would like to have these books back, it's not a necessity now, so I'd have to say no. I hope Sam would understand.

Well, I did some things I haven't done in a long time! I made a few more video advertisements for a couple more stories. I really have not worked on anything like that since 2008. These are not easy to do! But they are fun!!! I love putting video ads together for our stories. The trick is finding music that tells the story as well as the words and pictures. I like to use classical music because I think it speaks the loudest. Classical music tells the story in a subtle way, yet it tells it in a manner that is understandable, even though a lot of modern people don't realize that. Well, I made presentation videos for The Mountain is Exploding and Timmyfan in Montana. They are near the base of the page. Hope you all like! I think I did these better than any other video presentation I have on that site. And several stories do have them.

Timmyfan AKA ...?

Well, I have decided that I'd like to write a post about all the online names I have gone by over the years. Since the dirty dozen mob accuses me of "hiding behind" nicknames! LOL! Yeah! Like they NEVER do the same thing! HAHAHAHA Bullshit! All except for CrystalK, they ALL hide behind anonymous names! They don't mind giving out other peoples' real names, but most of them hide their own identity ALL the time! Although I found out Eddie's Mom's real name is also Rosemary. hehehe! I also have her real address too. I kept it all these years. But if you ask her what her real name is, she'd never tell you. Most of the DDM won't. At least everyone knows who I am. The reason they hide behind anonymous names is because they know they can get sued, because they are fully aware that they slander more people than I do! At least what I say is true. And the people I talk about, if they are going to be honest about it, will vouch for it. The only reason the DDM accuses me of slander is because they don't want anyone to know the truth about them.

Anyway, I began getting on the internet in 1996, and the first social site I went to was the online chat rooms. I mostly went in there to meet up with my ma. It was a site called Pirch, and it was an IRC chat community. Though I recently tried to look for Pirch, and now it's an online dating site. I don't know if it was derived from the original chat community, or if the domain name was bought by a dating site. But it is not the same Pirch I knew back in 1996 and 97. I typically went into the Babyboomers chat room to chat with ma there, and several other people. This was my first online social experience. The people in that chat room were so nice. Back then, I went in under the name "Catcraze". And this was LONG before cats became such a huge thing on the internet! This was back when we had those Persians and were going to breed them. Everyone on there got to know me by the name Catcraze. I stayed on that chat room for several months, then ma said we were actually too young to be in that chat room. Everyone else that was in there were babyboomers. So, after she said that, I felt she didn't want us going in there anymore, so I left.

I went into another chat room, my second one, but I only went in there a couple times. This chat room was not through Pirch, this was just a regular online chat room, I don't remember how I found it, but it was rather early in 1997 then. I don't even remember what the subject of the chat room was, but most everyone in there were teenagers, and teenagers are not very friendly people! Especially online. Well, in that chat room I used the name "Vulcan", because at the time I was working on the Tribute to Mount St. Helens story. There were these two teenagers who were talking publicly amongst each other, and kept calling each other "nigger". I asked them to stop because it was disturbing me. Back then, I had no idea that teenagers always called each other that in affection. One of them voiced up saying "Fuck that!" he said he was talking to this other guy. Someone else asked them to take it into private chat and they did. Thank GOD!! Well, I had to stop using the name Vulcan because someone thought I was a Star Trek fan, and I'm not. I didn't want everyone thinking I was. So I tossed that name.

Throughout most of 1997, I went in and out of chat rooms, just for the fun of it. I remember I investigated one chat room on Pirch and it was owned by this guy named Greg. I was back to calling myself Catcraze then. Greg and I got really into it then, he didn't like it that I had my WAV downloader on and told me that if he sees me with that on again, he was going to ban me from the chatroom. I was so angry at him for that, I never thought I could feel that much anger towards anyone online. I yelled and screamed and cussed him out! Everybody in there was trying to calm me down, but I refused to calm down and I said I was leaving and I won't ever go into that chatroom again. I didn't even feel that much anger towards those two teenagers who kept calling each other niggers. But that was the first time I think I was ever personally attacked online. Anyways, that was the first time I felt personally attacked. And I got pissed!!

I decided after that to stay out of chat rooms for a while. It was not easy, because I rather enjoyed it when I found someone I could converse with. Then I began working on my Metazoic Checklist. Before all this started, I had a Macintosh computer, which I got rid of because I could not find any programs to go with it. My Metazoic Checklist was on one of those Mac disks, and before I got rid of the Mac, I had printed out what was, at that time, the most updated list of Metazoic mammals. I wanted to keep the list accessible on the computer, so I typed up the list on the new computer so I could put it onto a disk. It was during my work on this list that I got the news that Michael Hutchence had died. I was right in the middle of working on that list when I got the news. My world stopped right there. I think my heart stopped too! I was definitely in shock. That night, I wanted to continue working on the list for a while longer. It wasn't until I took a shower that night that it hit me, and hit me HARD the fact that Michael was gone. I could not stop crying then. I've never cried over the death of any celebrity before, ever! Michael was the first one. And so far, has been the only one. I've felt sorrow for other celebs who've passed, but not like the total melancholia I felt when Michael died.

Anyways, after he passed, I gathered all my pics of him and kept myself surrounded by them. Then my interest in INXS began to deepen again. I thought about going into chat rooms once again and maybe finding one whose subject was about INXS. I couldn't find any on Pirch. So, I looked on the internet. I found one on a site called "An Excess of INXS". The first time I went in there, I went in under the name Catcraze. The first few times I went in there under the name Catcraze. But then I got sick and tired of people calling me "cat". By this time, I had begun to get tired of those Persians we had! They'd messed up my house, torn my furniture and screens, coughed up hairballs everywhere, spread disease all through the family, and I had just had it!! I was looking for a new home for them by this time. So, I didn't want to become known as "cat", so I looked for myself another nickname. I thought since this is an INXS related chat room, I should call myself something related to INXS. So I called myself "Kick Cat". I was hoping everyone would take the hint and start calling me Kick, which is my favorite INXS album. But no! Everyone still kept calling me "cat". So, I completely dropped the "cat" and just called myself "Kick". But someone told me that name was already taken by a regular. So, I thought for a while, then decided to call myself "Kick87", after my favorite INXS album and the year it came out. And that name stuck with me for the rest of that year going in that chat room.

About a year later, I decided on a bit of a change. I had gotten myself a black, tan and white Chihuahua that I named Bambi. He was marked like a toy fox terrier, and a lot of TFT enthusiasts kept mistaking him for one because he did not have that babydoll face a Chihuahua should have. So, I went into the INXS chat room under the name Bambi. Well, I only went in there for a few months. It was worse in there at that time than it was when I was a regular visitor there the year before, all because of this guy named Nick. Nick was generally nice, but sometimes he could be an asshole too, and would F-bomb everyone in there. He may be the one responsible for running everybody off that chat room. I made quite a few friends in that chat room, even Nick. Even though he could be an asshole, when he was nice, he could be really nice. But the chat room was not the same place I remembered. A lot of my fondest memories on the internet took place in that chat room the year before.

Well, by 2000, I began to investigate other sources of entertainment. This was also the year the INXS chat room lost all of it's visitors. I tried going in there again this year, but no one was in there anymore. I learned of a new site, Napster. There, I could download music, and they had chat rooms set up, so I had a lot of fun on that site. But this was the year I learned about cyber-wolves. There were people who got on there and just wanted to get some nooky. My guess was because they couldn't get any in real life. I made a friend with a 16 year old girl whose nickname was something like gofunky. I was in the chat room under the name INXSgirl. Well, this girl was smart beyond her years. I remember one time I had a problem with my computer, and thankfully her uncle, as it were, was a computer technician, and she told me how to fix the problem. She also told me what 69 meant! LOL! I had heard it in relation to sex before, but I didn't know how. She told me. LOL! There were also some who were not so friendly. The first time I got into the chat rooms in Napster, there was this cyber-wolf who called himself something like "Sweetchick" looking for cyber sex. I said none for me, and he went ballistic!!!! LOL! Cussed me out, called me every name he could think of, including "fat ass". LOL! I wasn't even fat then! I weighed about 110 pounds. For me, back then, that was fat, but not for everyone else. No one else except maybe sweetchick. But after talking with him for about 5 minutes, I could understand why no girl wanted him in real life.

Well, that was back when Napster was free. I don't go there anymore. I only saw this gofunky girl a few times, but I looked forward to our visits. After a while I didn't see her in there anymore. So, I stopped going in. I think those were the last chat rooms I became a regular in. I didn't even go into Pirch anymore. That was when I discovered forums. Forums are more permanent than chat rooms. Things get posted up on there and they stay there. People on forums, if you piss them off, they never let you forget it! LOL! The first forum I went into was actually pet related. It was the USDA forum. But they had different beliefs than I had. I used AKC when I register my pups, but they were more fans of APRI. Until I went into that forum, I'd never even heard of APRI. Then later on I found out it was a bogus pet registry set up for puppymillers who didn't want to deal with AKC's DNA standards.

I first went in there in 2001, just after my grandma had passed away. My Chihuahua, Bambi (not the same one I had before that looked like a toy fox terrier) had just had puppies, and I made a big announcement on several forums. The USDA forum being one of them, and the AcmePet forum being another. The USDA forum was more accepting than the AcmePet forum, but for some reason I stuck with the AcmePet forum. I guess because I believed more in their ethics about breeding. I know Bambi was not a good specimen of a Chihuahua, but back then I knew nothing about backyard breeders or puppymillers or even show breeders, and what makes an ethical breeder. But I was not treated very kindly on the AcmePet forum. I called myself Bambi on that forum, after my dog. It wasn't until later on that I found out people linked the name Bambi with someone who is a dumb blond bimbo. One person mentioned it, and since she did, I was sure everyone believed that. I think I stayed on that forum for about 5 months. I started going in there in April, after Bambi had her pups, and stopped when 9/11 happened. I got sick of the people in there tearing me apart, and tearing everyone apart too. So, I dropped that forum.

I tried going into the forums at An Excess of INXS, but there was one person in there, who called herself Mystify, that kept on accusing everyone of being someone called Cherry Baby! UGH!! She even accused me! I didn't even know, and still don't know, why those two hated each other so much! I never asked because it was none of my business! So, I didn't stay in that forum for long.

In 2002, I learned about MSN groups, and started going into a few of them. But I could not find any that I fit in well with. There were several that was run by the same person, all about Chihuahuas. She did not like having people around who disagreed with her, and kicked several people out. I think her name was Sandra. She even kicked me out of her forum once. Not just me, but several ethical people too. Then, I was going under the name Luvapuddy, which was our kennel name back then. I had taken on breeding Chihuahuas, and I named our home Luv-A-Puddy Chihuahuas. Later on I changed it to TG's Babies. I was thinking of taking on another breed, so the Chihuahuas would not have fit.

Well, the MSN groups were dull and boring! So, I looked for another forum, that was when I discovered the BuyBelowCost forum, now called the Pluba forum. When I first went in there, I called myself Luvapuddy. Later on, after I got Groucho and was so proud of her, I changed my handle to Grouchosmommy. I remember Tanya used to call me "Grouchosdummy". LOL! We didn't get along well back then. But it wasn't so bad. If I could be a slave to my Groucho, or in essence, her "dummy", I would have! I loved my baby. I'd do anything to spoil her! LOL! For a short while, I went under the name MuffN'Mose, because of a couple of Chihuahua puppies I was going to get, but never did. I should have got them anyways! Just to see what they would have produced! I was going to name one, a blue and white female Muffin, and a small cream male Moses. But when I showed a pic on that forum, someone told me they looked unhealthy. So, I changed my mind about getting them. To this day, I regret that! Especially after I lost Groucho in 2006. So that name did not last long on that forum. I went back to being Grouchosmommy.

Well, after that incident with Pal, I left that forum. I had gotten back into INXS and found the INXS Fan Forum, and loved it in there. The people were much nicer than the people on the BuyBelowCost forum! So, I said "Sayonara suckers!" to them and just went to the Fan Forum. The first time I went into that forum, I called myself LAPchis, after my kennel. Then someone posted an awesome pic of Tim Farriss and I was in LOVE with him at that point. There were people in there who called themselves Garry's Girl, and Hutch Girl, and I think there was someone who called herself "Jon's Girl", so I took the name Timmy's Girl. I didn't see any harm in it. A few months later, after I got over the business with "Pal" on the BuyBelowCost forum, I went back, and I kept the name Timmy's Girl there too. I went in with a new attitude. I said I was no longer going to let the things those people did get to me anymore, and I was going to try and get along with everybody there. At least show them what real internet friendship is like! LOL! I took all 1000 of my Timmy pics there with me too. For me, posting Timmy pics when someone annoyed me was like the equivalent of counting to 10 to cool off. It helped me keep a positive attitude. But those people were so asinine, it was very hard to keep a positive attitude toward them! They could not go one day without attacking someone else. So, I left again.

After a while, I decided I did not like the name Timmy's Girl. Because I am NOT Timmy's girl! Only one person in the world should have that nickname, and that's Tim's wife, Beth. That's how I felt about it. So I dropped that name and called myself TimGal, which is basically a shortened version (and more accurate) of Timmy's Girl. Sometimes I call myself TimmyGal too. But lately I've stuck mostly with Timmyfan, because that is all I am, just a fan of Tim Farriss. Nothing more. I'm nobody to him. Just a mere fan, and I like it like that. So, I think I am going to stick with this name for as long as I am a fan of his, which may be a LONG time! So, get used to it. And to the dirty dozen mob, if you don't like it, then tough nookies!! Go screw yourselves!!

What I Love & Hate About Reno

As many of you may know, I moved to Reno back in January, and sometimes I regret it, and sometimes I just love it here!! Reno, like most large towns, has it's good points and it's bad points. It is a big town! Not anywhere as big as Las Vegas or even Seattle, but it's a big town that has a lot! My ma moved here in March of last year, and it was her that invited me to move here back in January when I had to live in that trailer for 3 days without any running water. It was difficult. But that was the final straw that made me decide it was time for another move. I didn't say much about it in this blog because it was really a last minute decision. As much as I miss WA state, I decided to move here until Noah calls me from Oregon. Then I can get out of here, and start looking for a place to move to there. From that point on, I am going to become an Oregonian. I'm probably never moving back to WA state again. Though I cannot really say that, I love WA state. It's where I spent the majority of my life. So, who knows?

Well, before I made the final decision to move here, I sat down and made a pro and con list of things that I knew about Reno. The biggest con was the heat. I know here it gets to above 100 degrees in the summer. But honestly, I didn't think I would be here that long! I actually thought I would be out of this state by now! And if I had been in this state by now, I would have thought the place I got stuck in would be air conditioned. Well, Donna has a swamp cooler, and now it works, but it didn't when the heat outside got to over 100 degrees. Then again, she said that is a fluke because it worked very well last year. So I don't know. But now that she has fixed it, it works great! That was one thing about living in Bozeman, at least that apartment was air conditioned. In the summer, that was great!!

There is a pro to this place, well sort of!! LOL! If you get hungry, and it's too hot to cook, you can always go to one of the many restaurants in this town. I've been to several! But since I am going for a lifestyle change, I cannot eat out too much! But the food in most of the places in this town is very good!!! My favorite place to go is the Peppermill. I was hooked on their mashed potatoes there for a while! It had a flavor like I'd never tasted before! As a great cook myself, I think I detected what flavors they used. I think they use a little garlic and parmesan cheese in their recipe, and it was AWESOME!!! They were the very best mashed potatoes I ever had anywhere! Let me emphasize, they WERE the best! They are not anymore. They must have hired a new chef because the first time I had their mashed potatoes, right after I moved here, they were smooth and creamy and the flavor was just right. Now, they're lumpy, crusty and seem to have lost that good flavor. Last time I had their mashed potatoes, they were not as good as they were when I first had them. It's sad!!

Looking for an apartment in this town was not easy! All the apartments I could afford were in areas that were loaded with garbage, probably had mice and cockroaches. Then I found Donna in the Nickelsaver ads. I thank GOD every day that I found her! I almost didn't want to call her because of the bad experience I had moving in with Patti, another stranger who was looking for a roommate. But Patti didn't know what she was doing. Donna does. I will say that my experience with Patti has made me much more alert, and before even consenting to an interview with Donna, I asked her what she is looking for in a roommate, and she told me. One of the things she elaborated on was that she is a loner and she doesn't want anyone who is going to hang out under her feet. This is why I get along so well with her. Neither one of us is in each others' business. I'm a loner too. One thing I never do is poke my nose in someone else's business. I just go about my daily routine, and that's it. If I feel Donna needs help, I help her as much as I can. Like yesterday with the screens. She was having trouble putting the screens back in place, so I helped her out.

One thing about Donna that bugs me, she won't let me help her out in the yard. Every time I ask her, she says she doesn't need any help. But I feel so bad when she does all that work by herself. She is very spry!! LOL! She has a lot of get-up-and-go for someone her age. I like that! But I just feel bad when she does all that work herself. But I guess she's used to being a do-it-yourselfer. That's good for her. But it makes me feel bad not doing much around here to help. For my daily exercise, I go to the fitness center, and I do love it! Since I've started, I've lost around 35 pounds. I only started 3 months ago. My sis is still my inspiration! I'm not calling this a diet. I don't like to use the word "diet". I'm calling this a change in lifestyle. I haven't changed what I eat, I've changed how much of it I eat. Before I started this change, I used to could eat 2 hot dogs in one sitting. Now, I can't anymore. One hot dog fills me up very well. The only time I splurge is when I go to the buffet, and that really is not very often. But then again, if I am going to pay $10 to go to one of those places, I am going to make it worth the money!! A person pays more than that for a good prime rib dinner in a restaurant. So, yes, I am going to splurge when I go to a buffet. I just limit how often I go to those kind of places to maybe once a month. IF that often! But I find I still lose weight, even after going to a buffet!

Well, one of the things I hate about summer, knowing both Donna and I are loners, I have to sit out in the living room to work on my computer. I cannot just do it in my bedroom. The living room is where the cooler is, and the cool air does not reach to my bedroom very well. I feel bad because I feel like I am invading Donna's space. Of course I did warn her that when summer set in, I was going to be spending a lot more time in the living room because of the cooler. I can't stand heat. Too much heat makes me cranky! So I am hoping to be able to move out soon. Though it's going to be a dark day for Donna! She says I am the best roommate she's ever had. And I am going to miss her besides! I don't want to leave her in a bind, but when Noah calls me, I have to be there, no matter what! I don't know if they are going to allow me to give Donna 30 days notice. But I do hope she can find a good roommate just like me that will treat her well and pay their rent on time. That's one thing I always make sure I do is pay my rent when I am supposed to. I may not pay much else, but I always pay my rent.

Another bad thing about Reno, the damn traffic!! Yesterday was HOT as Hell!! And I got caught in traffic. Vegas was with me, and he was panting, poor baby. But both of us were stuck in traffic in that damn car! Nothing I could do about it. Just comfort Vegas and give him some water. He was the one who was mostly in the shade though, I was the one who wound up getting sunburned! LOL! But thankfully we got home and everything was OK. Vegas was fine. I will say I have met some nice people in this town. One time I was walking Vegas and a couple of guys pulled up and offered me and him a ride where we needed to go. At first I said no because we were almost home anyways, and that was where I was headed. But they said it was OK anyways. They felt bad for Vegas because poor baby, he looked tired. So I accepted. The people here don't appear to be as helpful as they were in Port Angeles, but some people here do seem nice. And that is good!

Well, those are some reasons I like and some reasons I hate this place. I know no place is perfect.

Amy's Baking Company, The Sequel

OMG the crazy woman is back!! LOL! And yes, she is crazy. Some guy said she acted like a cat with her claws out and all she had to say about that was "meow". She is definitely crazy! It's a shame she does not see that. But then again, cat people can never see how crazy they are. Some admit it, but Amy will not admit it. You can't admit something you don't acknowledge. For that reason alone, I would never eat at their restaurant! I wouldn't eat anything made by some cat-fag! She'd probably put a hairball in the food! I used to hate having to pick those damn things up! Let alone have it put in my food. That's why I don't have cats and don't want cats either. Though I wouldn't mind a Siamese or a hairless cat. No hairballs to cough up. Having Persians, they cough up hairballs several times a day. Ours did! Siamese, well let me put it this way; I had a Siamese for 3 years, in that time, he never coughed up a hairball.

Well, as nutty as Amy is, she's nowhere near as bad as her husband, Samy. Samy is the one with the big mouth. Not to mention he is greedy and unprofessional. They both made an appearance on Dr. Phil, and Dr. Phil had someone, who was an expert in business consulting, come in and give some advice to Amy and Samy. One of the things he suggested is to give things away for free. It's one way to pique the curiosity of new customers. Samy sat in the chair shaking his head. He absolutely opposed the idea of giving anyone any discounts or free samples of anything. Like I said, he is greedy! He said something to the effect of "If they wanna come in and try the food, they can afford to pay for it!" That's all Samy thinks about is the money! Not the customers! Meaning money means more to him than people. I wouldn't have married him! Besides, I think he's a bad influence on Amy.

Amy told Dr. Phil that she can't eat, she can't sleep, all because she gets death threats and offers from people who want to fuck her. I remember a LONG time ago, I used to let things like that bother me. But not anymore. I remember I lost 60 pounds once because I was angry over some things that happened on an internet forum. I got myself down to about 90 pounds! I was anorexic, believe it or not! LOL! Then I thought to myself, what the heck am I doing?? Why am I allowing an incident that happened over the internet to get to me this way? Though part of it could have been because I was vulnerable after losing my grandma, as it happened about the same time, also because I was young and didn't know how to handle situations like that yet. I was also rather new to the internet and message boards. Those piled up together may have been contributors to why I let things like what happened do physical harm like that to me. Things that today, would not affect me at all.

This business consultant also told Amy and Samy that they need to give up this urge to read every post on their Facebook page, and Yelp, and Twitter, and just focus on those that love their business and are loyal customers. Now, there I totally agree with him! On UMG Productions, we are not allowed to respond to customers who leave feedback. We have staff who reads each comment posted, and if it is irrelevant to the story they are commenting on, the post gets deleted. But I, as a simple author and contributor, am forbidden to read any of the comments, or respond to them. Like Dr. Phil says in this episode (and my supervisor always said the same thing) sometimes the comments are poison! Some can be a learning experience, but only from those who have actually read the story (not the free samples). So, I do not read comments on there. That's for another team of workers, not me. I barely read the comments posted on this page anymore! LOL!

But most of the reason my supervisor does not let me read any comments left on the UMG site is because I could get the urge to respond. Though I have now had years of practice at not responding to negative comments (and not even really reading them), she doesn't even want me to be tempted. So, I don't read the comments. My supervisor wants both the customer and contributor to have a good experience with the website. Unlike at Amy's Baking Company, where if you don't like the food, you get cussed out. My supervisor wouldn't stand for that at all!! Not from any of us! She'd have my head on a platter if I did that!! But Samy has such a big mouth, he cannot stop himself from responding to negativity. Amy thinks if she doesn't respond, the trolls win. Well, that's not true at all! If you respond to trolls, which is exactly what they want you to do, the trolls win, and you've just shown you are weak and vulnerable. When a troll or hater posts a negative comment on one of my videos, I don't really look. I give a quick glance and look for a few key words, and if I see those words, I don't read anymore of the comment and pass it by and ignore it. Just move on to something else. I never let it get me down. Not anymore! Life is so much more pleasant when you just knock over the trolls and haters and go on with your own day to day life! It's kept me smiling all this time! And the trolls get butthurt when you stop responding to them, and sometimes that is even funnier than what they were trying to accomplish.

I still say Amy needs to do 3 things in order to succeed in life. Since Dr. Phil's staff gave her cooking 100% thumbs up, all Amy has to do now is get rid of Samy, get rid of the cats, and grow a thick skin. Ignore the haters, and listen to legitimate complaints from people actually trying her food. Not just the compliments.

Anyways, this is the video where they go on Dr. Phil and ask for help with their business. Notice how Samy acts throughout the whole show. Also notice Dr. Phil's reaction to Samy's doubting.

 

 

More Excess of INXS

Yesterday was Lily's birthday, she is Michael's little girl. Well, that little girl is not so little anymore! She's 18 now! A grown woman. She had better get herself out there now and look for a boyfriend, if she doesn't already have one yet. She should do her part to carry on Michael's genes. He's got some good ones! He had a lot of talent, and he was handsome to boot! Lily looks just like him! She's sure to have beautiful children, if none of those ugly Paula genes show up!! GOD forbid!!

Anyways, I kinda celebrated by watching an INXS video I put together myself from videos I collected about INXS. One of the videos I collected was a series of interviews of the men of INXS. I saw Timmy again for the first time in a long time! Ya know, my love and fascination for Timmy has now been dormant for a couple years. But seeing him again last night on TV, I remembered why I love him so much! Not only is he talented, he is also really funny! When he pointed out his "incredibly awesome ass", as he put it himself, I laughed! I said "Well at least he acknowledges it!" LOL! Well, I always thought that myself! LOL! He does have an incredibly awesome ass! I love his buns! It's what made me notice him in the first place, back when I first fell in love with INXS back in 1990. Actually it was Michael who first caught my attention, but it was Tim who kept my attention going.

I never actually formally met Michael, I did see him perform live only once. And I did kiss him! LOL! Well, I was a teenager then. Teenagers don't care about personal space. I didn't. Any parent of a teenager certainly knows that! Since the last time I saw INXS perform live on stage, I even forgot how it feels to see them perform live! I was reminded last night, which is why my first INXS concert back in 1991 did not stand out in my mind. At that time, there were other groups that I actually liked better than INXS. Especially this one Roxette. I had a huge crush on Per Gessle. And yes, I did see them live too, that same year in fact. Well, I am no longer such a huge fan of Roxette. I actually stopped crushing on Per Gessle in 1992 when that incident with this couple named Patti and Chris happened. A long story! And I think I have told that story on here before. But thankfully I was not as into INXS as I was into Roxette back then, or INXS would have been extinct in my mind too.

Well, between 1992 and 1997 I didn't even much think about INXS. I was taking a bit of a rest from INXS fanhood. And any rock star fanhood I believe! I still liked music, but there were no bands that I particularly liked in that time period. None that I can think of. I remember in 1995 I had a dream that I married a famous rock star. Guess who that rock star was. It wasn't Michael, Timmy or Per Gessle. It was not MC Hammer or Richard Marx. It was actually Tom Petty! LOL!! I don't know why I had a dream like that. While I like a few of Tom Petty's songs, he is not among my most favorite musicians. He's not even really all that great looking!! He kinda looks like a lanky version of John Denver. But in '95 I wasn't even looking at any rock stars at all.

I probably never would have gotten back into INXS except in 1997, something happened. It was a couple months before Michael passed away, and for some unknown reason to me, I began to look at my pics of the guys again. Little by little, day by day, I would stare more at my pics. By the time Michael passed away, I was just enough into INXS again to take notice. And for it to have an effect on me. I remember I cried. But not right away, because I couldn't. When I first heard the news, I was working on my Metazoic checklist. I didn't have time to cry. But it hindered my accuracy. There are probably some animals from the original list that I never got to transfer to this current list, and are now completely lost somewhere in cyberspace. I cried that night in the shower and when I went to bed, I cried myself to sleep, thinking of Michael.

For several years after, even hearing Michael's name made me cry all over again. That must have went on for about 4 years. Then in 2002, I took another break from INXS fanhood. In 2005, for some reason, I woke up from a sound sleep, thinking about INXS, and started looking all over the internet for INXS things. That was when I discovered the Fan Forum. That's also when I discovered a nudie pic of Michael, which made me fall in love with INXS all over again! LOL! Well, that only lasted a couple weeks, then someone posted an incredibly awesome pic of Timmy, and I saw him in a whole new light!! I had loved Tim before, when I acquired some INXS videos in 1998 and found out how funny and spontaneous he was. But I never really thought he was handsome (aside from his cute buns) until I saw this pic posted on the INXS Fan Forum. Then, I fell completely head-over-heals for him!! I even liked him better than Michael! In the pic, he was standing looking so sexy in a most sexy pose!! And after seeing that pic, I was in absolute fucking LOVE!!!!! Too bad the Fan Forum is no longer up! I don't trust the Switchboard!

Well, for the past week or so, I have been looking once again at Michael a lot. I even kissed his pic yesterday for the first time since 2005. I did it without even thinking! It just happened! But I remember I said to myself "Hey! I haven't done that in a long time! And it felt GOOD!!!" Maybe I will do it more often. LOL!

Why I Hate the Westboro Baptist Church

Another "Why I Hate" article, this time I will be discussing the WBC, which are a group of religious fanatics. They are known for picketing the funerals of fallen soldiers, using politically incorrect terms like "fag", "whore" and "cunt". They are glad when people are killed in disasters like 9/11 and the tsunamis in Asia and Japan. Basically, they make GOD look evil! They preach all the wrong stuff, and someone who does not live by their standards they claim is in Hell, or is going there. I wonder if they have now said that their leader, Fred Phelps is now in Hell? I was always taught that GOD is not the evil one, that HE is the one who loves us. Satan is the one who is supposed to be the bad guy. But not in the eyes of the WBC.

Now, I will begin by saying that there are some things I do admire about the WBC. Yes, you read that correctly....admire!! Anyone who comes from one of the most hated groups in America and is brave enough to stand on the corners of this country and preach hate the way they do, has got to be some of the bravest people on the planet!!! For that reason I admire their gut and grit! But there are more things I hate about them than admire. Their bravery is probably mostly derived from the old instinct that there is safety in numbers. Plus, they employ the local police to stand by them at every corner and protect them. So, I guess their bravery is not really brave. If it was, they would have no need for police protection.

The #1 reason I hate the WBC is they are no different than the dirty dozen mob. They do shit to people, but hate it when the same thing is done to themselves. Some of the members' own children who have abandoned the church have even stated that the members of the church don't hold themselves up to the same high standards that they hold the public up to. They expect strangers to be better people than they are, which makes them kindof hypocritical. If not wholly hypocritical! I expect nothing of strangers, because I just don't give a shit about strangers. People are just people to me. If I am a certain way to a person, or a group of people, I expect them to be the same way to me. Or maybe I was that way to them because they were that way to me. But if someone is going to do shit to me, expect to get the same treatment back! And don't act like a pussy when I do. Actually I get more angry when someone disrespects my family than if they disrespect me.

Another reason I hate the WBC, they think being gay is the worst sin a person can be convicted of. I will admit there are some things about being gay that I just don't understand, but I don't think it's the worst sin a person can commit! If being gay is so bad, why did GOD create gays in the first place? HE must have a decent plan for them if HE created them. I just cannot see why GOD would create something just so HE can destroy it, that doesn't make sense to me. A person would have to be totally insane to create something only to have it destroyed! Or would have to be working for a television company! And I don't think GOD is doing that without telling us! I think personally that by creating gay people, GOD is trying to send a better message to the world that we need to learn to get along and live peacefully, no matter what differences we may have.

Now, I am probably going to receive some hateful messages because of this, but I have to admit, transvestites do scare the crap out of me! They are the only ones though. I have to admit, there is something creepy about a man who dresses up like a woman. And what if I fall in love with a guy only to find out the guy I fell in love with wasn't a guy??!! And if a transvestite wants to use the bathroom, which one do they go into? I'd feel rather uncomfortable if a man, who is dressed like a woman, came in the bathroom while I'm trying to take a wizz. How would I know if that person is a transvestite because he is really mixed up with his sexuality, or if he just wants to come into the ladie's restroom to get a glimpse of something he should not be glimpsing? He could just be a pervert using the female apparel to go into restricted places that he should not be going for all I know! I am not saying a true transvestite has no right to live, and I don't feel hate towards them, I'm just saying that there could be those who are perverts, phonies and fakers, and it's just hard to tell who is whom.

I remember there was a woman like that at Optiva when I worked there. I think she was a woman with the mind of a man. A perverted man! She was in her late 40s, or early 50s, was German I think, she was also fatter than I was, and rarely did I ever hear her speak English, but she communicated with the Asians there very well, so she must have been bilingual. Anyway, I caught her trying to look in on me in the restroom one day. I saw her little eyeball peeking in the crack of the stall's doorway where I was. I almost flipped the bird at her too. LOL! I wish I had! But she scared me sometimes when she did things like that. She seemed to be obsessed with me too.

Another reason I hate the WBC, they make Christians look bad!! A lot of people these days are turning to atheism, and I have the distinct feeling that the reason for that is because of the hate the WBC spews, especially about gays! We're turning into a friendlier, more accepting world, and the WBC hates it. They think we should all hate gay people just because they do and that they should be put to death. Another group of people the WBC spreads hate about are Jewish people. I have to ask, what the fuck is wrong with the Jewish???? Why is every religious group so against them?? I don't get that at all!! They are the best doctors, the best cooks, even the best comedians! I don't see anything wrong with Jewish people at all! Why is the WBC so against them?? It just doesn't make sense to me.

That's probably just part of their ridiculous notions. The WBC is full of them. Another reason I hate the WBC, they live their lives by the Bible's Old Testament and think that is OK by today's standards too. They seem to have forgotten that GOD sent Jesus to Earth to die for our sins. All we have to do is ask for forgiveness and HE will grant it to us. And I understand that in order to be forgiven, you have to repent and not do the same thing over again. But if GOD created gays, that does not mean they are living in sin! They are doing what comes natural to them. They are doing what GOD intended them to do.

Another reason I think the WBC is ridiculous, they don't believe in having boyfriends or girlfriends or dating. Their philosophy is "One man, one woman, and the marriage bed is sacred". Well, how is a man or a woman supposed to know that is the person they want to be with, if they don't shop around? I'm not going to take the first man I see, he could be a jerk for all I know! A woman can't be too careful these days. Back in the days of the Old, OLD Testament, that might have been an easier rule to follow. But today, you just have to shop around to find the perfect soulmate. If I took the first roommate I ever had the way the WBC wants everyone to take the first man/woman they find, I'd still be miserable living with Patti!! I would not have wanted that!! I'm glad I shopped around, and found Donna. She's a good person. Nothing at all like Patti!!  Donna even did a video chat with my sis, and that was cool. My sis is glad she never met Patti, and I am too!! Patti might have said some awful things about my sis. She would have surely found something bad to say about her, whether it was true or not! Of course then I would have had a good excuse to shut her up by slapping the shit out of her! I wouldn't stand for her being disrespectful to my sister!

Another reason I hate the WBC, they rejoice in disasters that kill people, as I mentioned in the opening paragraph in this blog. Some of the disasters they have praised was 9/11, the Asian and Japanese tsunamis, the Sandy Hook Elementary School shootings, etc. They think we need to thank GOD for ALL HIS righteous judgments. Especially those that kill people. They say when people die, that is an act of GOD. Yet, when something bad happens to one of them, the people who committed the act are nothing but "rebels", or basically bad people. Excuse me, but if a 20-year old messed-up man enters an elementary school and starts shooting at small children, that is NOT an act of GOD! If it happened to them, the WBC would have called that shooter a "rebel", not someone who was sent by GOD. So, if he would be a rebel if he attacked the WBC, he was surely a rebel attacking a school with small children! There is no difference there! But to them, there is, because it did not affect them in any way. Refer once again to my #1 reason for hating the WBC.

Anyways, this is the reasons I can't stand the Westboro Baptist Church. They're a bunch of pussies who act tougher than they really are and spread hate and half-truths. And as long as it doesn't directly affect them, they love all the evil in the world and blame it all on GOD. When I get to Heaven, I am going to ask GOD what HE really thinks of the WBC going around the country making HIM look evil.