RIP Dennis Farriss

Such sad news I've gotten tonight about Dennis Farriss, who is the father of Timmy, Jon and Andrew Farriss of INXS. I opened up my Facebook and the first thing I saw in my feed was someone who said "Such sad news tonight about Tim", and, believing I knew what was going to come next, I damn nearly had a heart attack and fell off this bed!! It was the way that person worded her announcement. It nearly scared me to death!! I thought she was going to say something terrible happened to my Timmy! I almost started crying!! I had tears already forming in my eyes! Then I read further in her sentence. I was relieved to learn nothing happened to my Timmy, but very sad to hear that his father has passed away. I still feel terrible. I can only imagine how Timmy, Andrew and Jon are now feeling. I want to take this opportunity to send my condolences to the three of them and their sister.

I always thank GOD that my parents are still alive and kicking. I know several people who are my age, or close to my age, whose parents are both dead. It's terrible. I cannot say I know how those people feel, but it must be terrible. Tim, Jon and Andrew are also very lucky they got to enjoy the company of their father this long as well. That's a good thing. May he rest in peace in Heaven now. And to his family left behind, Remember the good times you had with him. That's all I can say. Love you guys! My heart and my prayers are with you all.

Gee, and this is all happening so close to when the anniversary of Michael's death is about to happen. I can only imagine how these guys feel today. I want to send hugs to my favorite guys. Wish I could offer more comfort than that.

Favorite Hutch Pics

This is going to be a picture post. But I have some favorite pics of Michael Hutchence that I've collected over the past few months. I have come to love this man again SOOOOOOOO much!!! I call myself a "born again" Hutch fan. LOL! Between 2000 and this year, I didn't think much of Michael at all. Between 2005 to this year, I was all a Timmy fan. Did not give much pause to Michael at all. Well, this season I am making up for it. I've even began kissing his pics again. LOL! Of course it's not really like kissing the real thing, but it's second best. Of course I still get weak in the knees looking at Timmy too. I still LOVE him to death!!! I am forever hopelessly devoted to Timmy. I'll always be a Timmy fan. But I feel I have to make up for those years lost that I ignored Michael.

Anyways, here are the favorite pics of Michael...

1985 or 86. Love those eyes!!!

Take this one to bed with me every night!

Uh!! Makes me feel hot and tingly, even on the coldest nights!

Sexy eyes and beautiful smile!

Hot baby at the beach!!

Sexy posing baby!!

Very quickly becoming my most favorite pic of Michael ever!!

I remember that smile! Nice and big, lights up the room, makes you feel good!

In other interesting news, the saga from yesterday continues. I was kicked out of the group "Michael Hutchence By My Side". The admin of that group said she was "getting rid of the garbage". She did get miffed because I said that I did not cry when Princess Diana died. Well, she was nothing to me. I was never a fan of her's. She died some months before Michael died, and to me her death was nothing more than an annoyance. Mostly because every one of my TV shows that I used to watch were cut off to report about Princess Diana and showing her funeral and shit. That pissed me off more than anything back then. But I'll tell you, I cried plenty later that year when Michael died. Before Michael, I always used to just say "They're just celebrities, no different than anyone else. They just get their name in the news more often." So it was a big "Who cares" to me when one of them dies. But Michael was something bigger to me. I loved that man. I kissed him (in real life, not just pics). He was once my idol. His death was a huge shocker to me!!!

Well, I also had to tell this admin that she was getting crazy with the posts about the other group, and she said "I'm not crazy!" I was like, "you're acting like it!" She was obsessed! So she deleted me from the group and even from her Facebook friends. But somehow I am not too disappointed. I don't really need her! And her group is not certified by INXS. She has a logo someone made saying it is an INXS Certified fan page, but it's like those images you get off Google. The group doesn't have the blue tick by the title, like INXS's official fan page does. Well, at least I stood up for what I believe was right. I've lost friends before over things like that, so this is not an unusual case. If I have a problem with the way someone is acting, I'm going to tell them to their face! I hide NOTHING!!! And I'm not going to say I wept for Diana, when I didn't. I'm not going to pretend to be a fan of her's, when I wasn't. That's just me. I cannot help it, I can't control it. Michael and Timmy make my heart flutter. Princess Diana did nothing for me.

More INXS Negativity (oh GEEZUS!!!)

Oh GAWD, I've already been through shit like this!! I don't need to go through it again!! Why the fuck do some people feel they need to tear other people down just to bring themselves up?? Yes, I may tear other people down myself, but I don't do it to make myself look better. I do it to get the truth out there. Well, I have this friend who has a group she says is INXS Certified. This friend, I gotta tell you, she scares me sometimes. She's a little too nutty. Every time someone posts a picture of a cat, she always goes "MIAUUUUUUUUUUUU". I used to face that with weird-ass kids in high school! LOL! I love lemurs, you don't see me going around facebook making lemur sounds at pictures of lemurs. I like dogs. I don't go "RAWRAWRAWR" at every dog picture I see. So, it's kinda really weird this friend always goes "MIAUUUUUUUU" every time she sees a cat! But then again, she has 3 cats, she says she cannot live without. I think sadly, the cats have damaged her brain though. I like this person, but sometimes she scares the hell out of me with her behavior.

Now, she is attacking another group of INXS fans that I am on, and that I really enjoy. I wasn't going to choose sides, as I like both groups. But the people on the other group are really upset about being attacked unjustly. I know exactly how they feel! Catsredrum and her friends did the exact same shit to me on their forum. For more or less the same reason this friend is attacking the other group I am on. She's scared. Scared of the other group's success. Well, Catsredrum was scared more for DonnaG than herself. LOL!! Because I was revealing the truth about her, and it scared her. She didn't want to confront me herself, so she got her dumbass friends to do her fighting for her, like she always does. Well, this friend keeps bringing up "This is a CERTIFIED INXS fan page". I don't know why she keeps using that as leverage. I don't care about that!! I go where the fun is, and it happens to be more in the other INXS fan page. And another friend of mine brought up this morning that if her page really is certified, she should have a blue checkmark by the title, and it would read "Certified Page". She doesn't. And those are not easy to get.

Another person, who was once in the other group but quit because of this friend's accusations, said the people in there were mental. What's up with that??!! She griped because one of them likes to take pictures of Michael and Photoshop herself into the pictures. Now, I admit at first I didn't go much for that either, because I thought they were real pics of her with Michael. But for her, it's just a little harmless, humorous fun. I can't object to that! So to that person, who says we're all mental because of that, I say shut the fuck up, get over it and have some fun in your life! GEEZ!!!! I didn't want to choose sides before, but this got out of hand!! I'm worried for these people. Do they think this is how INXS and Michael would want their fans to be acting towards each other??? Michael's favorite slogan was "Peace and Love". Let's live by that now! This friend said the fans in the other group are saying Michael was a mental patient. They are blaming the other group because Michael's sister on Facebook, Christina Hutchence, deleted a majority of her facebook friends. All but a few.

I want to say first off, I have been on the other group for months now. I've never seen anyone call Michael a mental patient. We were just as concerned with what happened to Michael as everyone else. I don't really understand where that accusation came from. As for Christina Hutchence, relax man! I don't think it was one group's fault she deleted a lot of fans from her Facebook friends. She probably just wanted close friends and associates on her page. Her reasons are her own and none of my business!! But if I were to take a guess, she probably just didn't want a lot of Hutch fans who she may have felt only liked her because she is Michael's sister. That's OK by me. No skin off my nose at all. You can't blame a group of fans for that!!

Then this friend said the other group is "stealing fans from INXS admins". Oh GAWD!!! The other group is a CLOSED group!!! You cannot join unless you send them a request and they approve it! NO ONE is stealing ANY fans from INXS admins!!! They may send out invites, but a person has the option to say NO!! That's not stealing! That's giving someone an invitation and they can do that if they want to. "Stealing" would be like if they were kidnapping members from other groups and forcing them to join their page. I remember a long time ago, I created a forum and I invited a lot of people I liked to join the forum. One of those people was a hutch fag who called herself Bittertears. I don't really know why I sent her an invite. I wanted to get to know her better I guess is the best reason I can think of to invite someone, to my forum, that I really did not like in the first place. I never liked Bittertears that much! Something about her made me uncomfortable from the first day I "met" her online. But later, Bittertears told me in a PM that I was "spamming her with invites". "Spamming her with invites" eh? I only ever sent her ONE invite. And she should be grateful I even sent her that one, and that I would even want to risk having her ugly ass in that forum to begin with. I could have (and probably should have) just said "fuck her bullshit" and not invite her at all. But sending someone one invite is hardly spamming. Now, if I had sent her 10 invites, that would have been spamming. LOL! But sending someone one invite is just more like a friendly social invitation. I should have listened to my instincts! LOL!

Another thing this friend keeps complaining about the admins in the other group is that they are new fans. I don't care about that either. She keeps asking "Where were these people 4 years ago????" I don't care where they were. That's none of anybody's business!! I don't care how long someone has been an INXS fan. I don't care what it was that made them become an INXS fan. As long as they love INXS as much as I do, that's all I care about! That's all anybody should care about. I kindof love it that INXS is gaining new fans because of the new movie. Maybe it'll give INXS a little nudge and encourage them to make music and tour again.

Anyways, these storms come and go. They move on. I really hope this one does soon because it's got a lot of my friends upset. One of my friends, who works in a public school, says she could lose her job over what this person is saying about her. It upsets me to see her so upset. This is so uncool, unnecessary and should not be happening. We should all go on with just remembering Michael and loving INXS. Come on people! This is Michael's month! Let's make it a good one!

Old INXS Web Buddies

I miss the old INXS Web chatroom!! I really do! Some of my best and worst moments as an INXS fan were created in that chat room. Of course back then, I was a young, innocent, cute chick. Now, I'm a fucking ugly, bitchy old hag who hates people! LOL!! Although my partner, Jack, says I am still innocent. I just go through life leaving my footsteps in the sand. Nothing else. I may seem ignorant to some people, but I have fun! LOL!! It was a love for INXS, and my just learning a bit about the band, that made me want to join. I gotta tell you all, I miss all my old buds!! I also learned a lot while I was in there. Some people who came in were nice, some were not so nice. Some were just plain annoying! But looking back on it now, I gotta say the people who were just annoying, I'd look at them now and admire them! They spoke their mind, under no uncertain terms, even if what they had to say was not what other people wanted to hear. Shoot! I AM those people now!! LOL!! I speak my mind. I'm brutally honest too! I may have to step on some people's toes, but if the truth has to be told, I tell it. And another thing about me, at least I don't intentionally target one person just to be malicious. I'm not mcgillicutty!! LOL! I'm not being honest to hurt anyone's feelings or get someone in trouble. I'm doing it because I feel the truth needs to be told.

I remember the first time I went into that chat room, the first friend I made was someone who called herself ScarlettSlash, or sometimes Spider69. LOL! She had actually made friends with INXS back in their early rockstar days. Timmy gave her the nickname ScarlettSlash. Timmy never gave me a nickname! If he did, it'd probably be "the crazy one!" LOL!!!! Or something to that effect. But ScarlettSlash made friends with INXS mostly because of her little boy, which she named after Timmy. She was a devoted Timmy fan too! LOL! I used to have her among my Myspace friends for a while, then she deleted her account and went missing for a while. I remember she used to always get so angry with me in the chat room, but strangely, I never stopped liking her. She was just a likable person! And she was funny too. She always made me laugh every night. It was no wonder she had a lot of friends, even the men of INXS. She even told me Michael and Timmy would send her and her boy Christmas cards every year.

ScarlettSlash also had her own personal stalker, a guy who called himself BallsUp. BallsUp was in the chatroom, always bad-mouthing Michael. ScarlettSlash told me he was angry at Michael for killing himself. Back then I didn't understand that, and hated BallsUp for it! I hated hearing him say such horrible things about Michael. Now, it wouldn't make any difference to me. If you look back far enough in this blog, I was not a Michael fan back then myself. For more or less the same reason BallsUp was angry at him. But I was not angry at Michael. I just forced myself not to become a fan again, because remembering him was just too painful! Timmy to me, is just as good. I never had a pic taken with Michael, my friend wouldn't let me!! But I had one taken with Timmy, and to me, that is just wonderful!!! Doesn't even bother me that I never had one taken with Michael. Because it wasn't my fault!! LOL!!! At least I got to kiss him! hehehe!! But anyways, since seeing Never Tear Us Apart, I am a Michael fan again. To be perfectly honest, I think in a small way I always was, even in that period between 2005 and 2013. I mean, how could I not like Michael? He was a big part of my world. He made me feel good, at times when nothing else did. Just that remembering him was painful as heck!

So many interesting people went into that chat room every day, which is why I went in every day I could. I remember there was even a woman who came in named Jan. Incidentally, she was the one Michael wrote the song Jan's Song for. Good song, BTW!! But Jan would never talk to anyone else, but a very few people. ScarlettSlash was one of them. Then there was Kerry, who was her best friend. There was a story behind my meeting Kerry. I remember when I first met Kerry in the chatroom, I didn't like her because I thought she had a bad attitude. I asked her how long she'd been a fan of INXS, and her words were "I've been a fan since the beginning, simple simon". This is where I slipped. I did not know at that time, INXS had a song titled Simple Simon, so I thought Kerry was calling me Simple Simon. LOL!!! Yeah, I admit it!! I was naïve!! Again, I was just learning more about INXS at that time, so I didn't know! And I thought Kerry came into the chat room with an attitude. I messed up. Well, I remember one night after I had had a very bad day with my ma, I could not sleep, so I went into the chat room. Jan and Kerry were frolicking with each other in there. When Kerry left, before Jan, I said "thank GOD she's gone" and Jan turned on me like an angry Rottweiler!! LOL!

After Jan had words for me, and threw in some name-calling too, she left. Everyone was telling me I got Kerry all wrong, that she was really a nice person. Then I started to feel bad. Not just because I got Kerry wrong and Jan pissed off, but also because I was taking the anger I felt for my ma that day out on those people in the chat room, and I had no right to do that. Taught me a valuable lesson! From that night on, I never again would target other people just because I was mad at someone else. Not even on the internet. Well, I remember that night I had a long private chat with a woman who called herself Brat, and she told me how she'd met Jan and Kerry and both were wonderful people. Then I really felt bad!! It's one thing when I am brutally honest with people, and they hate me for it, I can handle that. But it's very different when I am hateful towards someone and it's just due to a misunderstanding on my part. I didn't like Kerry back then and it was all my own fault. And Jan hated my guts and it was all my own fault too. Well, the next time I saw Kerry and Jan, I apologized to them both for my mistake. My friends were right, Kerry was a VERY sweet person! She was a very good sport about it all. Jan, well, I could never tell anything with her. When she got pissed off at me, that was the most action I'd ever seen out of her in that chat room. But I did apologize for disrespecting her, and I meant it too!

I often wondered over the years if Kerry was the same person that Jon married? If so, I'd say Jon got a fine catch! hehehe!

Then there was the time I lost Hutchess. I went into that chat room, and all my friends were comforting me. I mean really, I was literally in tears that night after I lost Hutchess, going into that chat room. It was my friends there who were partially responsible for pulling me through that tough time in my life. Especially the woman who called herself JonsToy and her boyfriend, who called himself GeorgiaKnight. Let me tell you, after their hours of consoling me, I had a higher respect for them! Another friend, who called herself Winnie, also called me on the phone after Hutchess died. I was practically in tears when she called, but I was laughing again by the time our conversation was done. Some people during that time disappointed me, because I thought they were my friends, but it turned out they weren't. They were the ones who knew I was feeling down, but gave me no words of comfort. But they were few in numbers really, and I don't even really remember them. More than anything though, it was INXS and my friends in that chat room that pulled me through.

Strangely, after that night, Winnie changed. She was no longer very friendly. She seemed to have gone crazy. Soon after, she and another guy in the chatroom she had a crush on, whose name was Marcel, got into a fight. Marcel was a nice guy, and he actually made guitars for a living. He made the swordfish guitar that Timmy owns. That's a cool guitar too!!! I don't know what happened between him and Winnie!

Anyways, that was my life in the chatroom at INXS Web. I miss those days. Been years since I've been back to that chatroom, and now every time I go in, nobody is there. I do wish I could go in there and see those people one more time. It'd be so good!!

INXS Inspired Stories

As you all may know, I have a lot of stories on UMG Productions that I wrote. All my stories are either inspired by actual events that happened in my life, or someone's life that is close to me, or by special events that I was a witness to. For example, I have several stories inspired by Mount St. Helens. One of them even involves the men of INXS going to the mountain. The Johnston Ridge Observatory opened in May of 1997, the same year Michael died. But I still have him going there with the rest of the guys. He was still around when the observatory was completed and opened. But he had that Marlo Thomas hairdo. LOL! In the story, I made him look more like he did in the Full Moon, Dirty Hearts era, because that was my favorite look on him. Same thing with Timmy. There actually is a video, and I have a small clip of it, of Michael chasing a tornado! So he obviously had some fascination for things like that. He was very young in the video, I would say it must have been taken around 1985 or 86.

Anyway, I have several stories that in some way, were inspired by INXS, or my love for the band. INXS Goes to Mount St. Helens is just one. I am also rewriting that story and will re-release it soon. Hopefully by the 22nd this month. If not, soon after. I still have to work on some drawings of the guys for the story. I redid the cover pics and they look darn good, if I do say so myself! I asked Jon Farriss what he thinks of them and he hasn't responded to me. LOL! Maybe he doesn't like them. Well, they look better than the last set did I think. Cairo and I both worked on that story together. Well, he came up with some features in the story, and I worked on the rest, and the illustrations. This story does not, and is not meant to, display the true personalities of INXS. In fact, I got the idea to play on Jon a little bit in the story, him being the youngest member of the band. I am also the youngest in my family and got the same thing, so I played on that a bit in the story with Jon. Timmy, being one of the oldest band members, I made him the "alpha wolf" of the band. LOL!

I actually have several stories where I made caricatures of different public figures. The Twister has the most show up, including a meeting with a larger-than-life Jack Benny and Elvis Presley. There is also a story I did back in 1991, and I haven't decided if I want to put it on the site yet, but Roxette appears in the story. I still have a picture preview I did of that story from that year. I made them look pretty darn good too! So I think! I also did a story where Bin Ladin appears, I haven't put that one on the site yet. In the story, Katrina and Eva get lost at sea and find themselves stuck in Afghanistan. That's where they meet Bin Ladin, whose intent is only on "killing the American animals!" LOL! Then there is an old, OLD story, from 1984, where Caroline meets the Marx Brothers. But I need to hit my supervisor up for that story to see if it's good enough for the site.

Anyway, back to the subject. After Michael died in November of 1997, my stories were a bit more dark and sad for a while. Well, that kinda goes without saying, as I was sad Michael was gone. After he died, the first story I wrote was Gracie's Odyssey. And production on that story began just days after I got the news about Michael. The idea for the story was actually Cairo's, because he said he's never seen me so down before. The story was unplanned, unmediated, I didn't kick around ideas or anything for any length of time when I helped him write the story. I just put down what I felt at each moment. Cairo put them together, I did the pics, and we came up with an awesome story! It's one of my personal favorites. The only flaw with that story is I have 2 different endings for the same story. I thought up 2 different scenarios. In one version, which is the original version, Gracie's baby grows up in a small zoo in Australia, and is sold to go live in a home for wild animals in Toutle, WA. Incidentally, it is the exact same home Gracie lives in in the INXS Goes to Mount St. Helens story! LOL! How ironic!! But this story is older than the INXS story. By then, she is living in a zoo in New Zealand. In the original version, Gracie is not really reunited with her baby, who is all grown up when she sees him again.

Then there is the alternate ending, which I completed and perfected in 2012. But Davy (Gracie's baby) is still a baby when he is sold to Lisa and her father. He turns out to be Lisa's 15th year birthday gift. At one point while he is still little, he is reunited with his mother, but Lisa refuses to let Gracie have him back. Months later, Gracie tries to get him back again, this time without the help of her friends. Well, I won't give the ending away, so, check it out on UMG Productions. It's coined a masterpiece!! But the story was originally written based on my feelings about Michael.

Then there is also Hutchess: A Picture Diary. This story is also based on actual events that happened in the early summer months of 1998, when I got a cattle dog puppy and only had her for a week. I thought I would have her forever, but GOD had other plans for her. Anyways, INXS was mentioned a lot in this story, I even named the dog after Michael. And after she died, it was INXS that got me laughing and smiling again. Especially Michael and Timmy. They both had a good hand in making me feel like my old self again. The story will explain it all. It's easier with pics to help tell the story.

What Would I Do?

After watching Never Tear Us Apart, the Untold Story of INXS, which is still my top favorite movie, I often wondered what I would have done if I had been in Michael's circle of friends. If I had been the person he called that night needing someone to talk to. He called several people in need of a caring hand that night before he died. Michelle Bennett was the only person who responded right away. She was the only one who picked up the phone immediately when Michael called. She has reported that Michael sounded drunk and was crying. Just thinking about that breaks my heart! I only got close to Michael once, and when I was, I saw a very happy person, with the biggest smile I've ever seen!! Of course that was back in 1991. I never saw Michael in person after he had his accident the following year that changed his life.

The way I heard the story, Michael was in Copenhagen at the time, on a date with Helena Christensen. He bought the both of them some food and was in the middle of the road eating and having fun when this cab driver came up on them. The cab driver shouted at Michael, and Michael retorted. After that, the cab driver got out of his vehicle and walked up to Michael and just punched him to the curb. Michael hit his head very hard on the cobblestone road and this caused him to lose his senses of taste and smell. Being a connoisseur of fine food and wine, and loving the scent and taste of a woman like he did, this is when Michael became depressed. The other band members and his personal friends all said he was never the same again after that incident. Makes me feel so bad for him! I often ask why Helena didn't do anything to stop that cab driver? She could have stood between them, assuming the cab driver wouldn't strike a woman. Maybe the cab driver would have just left things the way they were and went on his own way. But then again, how could Helena know that is why the driver was getting out of his car? Perhaps she thought all that would happen would be nothing more than a mutual exchange of cuss words and phrases. But no matter what, if I were Helena, I think I would have stood between them, just in case!! Cannot be too careful in this day and age!! I'd have done whatever I could to protect Michael from ANY potential threat! But maybe Helena's instincts sucked!

If you ask me, that cab driver doesn't deserve to live!! Looking at it in retrospect, I wonder if the cab driver often thought about what he did to Michael and if he knew he had some affect on Michael killing himself the way he did. That's blood on the cab driver's hands, and he should pay for that!! It's partly his fault Michael is no longer here with us!!

Now as for Michael being a different person after that incident, I heard he went into rages in a flash. I wonder if those rages he had were brought on by the Prozac he was taking, or if he was upset that he could no longer smell and taste anything, or if he was angry with himself because he did not fight the cab driver back? Could have been either or. I was on Prozac after I lost Groucho because I slipped into a deep depression. But I got the giggles. I didn't get rages. I cannot ever say that I know how Michael felt losing his sense of taste and smell, because that never happened to me. I did once know of someone who could no longer taste anything and she took it in stride. It did not depress her at all. To me, it would be a blessing, because all the healthy foods, the foods I should be eating, all taste terrible!! If I could eat them and not have to taste them, I'd be so glad! As for being mad at himself for not striking back at that cab driver, I know exactly how that feels!! When I was relieved from Patti's clutches after enduring her bullshit for 3 days, I got mad at myself because I never told her off. I essentially let her walk all over me! Just so I could try to get along with her. For quite a while I was mad at myself for allowing that to happen. Even though intellectually I know it wasn't my fault that Patti took advantage of my kindness. I know Patti was the one with the problem, not me. But still!! I was mad at myself for letting her walk all over me, when I know I could have put her in her place, then at least I would have said something to shut her up!! Who cares if it would have gotten me kicked out! I was nice and respectful to her and still got kicked out anyways. If I'd have at least told Patti to shut up once, I could be feeling better about that incident now because I would have stood up for myself. So, I know how Michael feels if that is what caused his rages.

If I could go back in time, to any time in Michael's life, I'd put myself in Michelle Bennett's place on November 22, 1997, when Michael called her, crying and needing someone. I would have hot-footed and high-tailed it over to Michael. But before that, knowing how sad he was and that there was a potential of him to hurt himself, I'd have said to him on the phone, "I'm out the door now baby, don't do anything until I get there! Then we will have some fun!" I remember right after we moved to Bozeman, my sis was depressed, called me crying and needing some cheering up. So, I took her out on the town, and by the time the evening was over, she was feeling MUCH better, smiling and laughing again. I'd have done the exact same thing for Michael.

I remember just before Michael died, I had taken a 5-year break from INXS fanhood. But about 2 or 3 months before he died, I slowly began to get back into them. I would look at old, dust-covered pictures I had of INXS, and at Michael and my heart would pound faster and faster every day, the more I looked at him. It was a very slow process at first, but it did gradually build up. But by the time he died, I was not fully into INXS yet, but just enough that his death had an effect on me. I cried that night when I went into the bathroom to get ready for bed. And then I cried myself to sleep. I often wonder if the Godly forces were preparing me for that event? Or if GOD was signaling to me that eventually Michael would need some serious help from a loving, caring, compassionate person such as me, who once loved Michael before as a performer. I don't know! I don't know what I could have done, since Michael and I were never friends. I only saw him live once. But there are other people who were MUCH closer to him than I was. Much, MUCH, MUCH closer than I was!! Why I got those feelings rebuilding in my body just a couple months before he died, I have no idea and I may never fully know the answer. But that's what I would have done if I could have been there for Michael. We should have been friends. Michael might still be alive if we had.

Most and Least Favorite INXS Song

I have a lot of most favorites among INXS songs, for many different reasons. I think I would have to say Kick would be my most favorite INXS song. Mostly because I used to consider it my life's theme song. When I used to go into the old INXS web chat room, I called myself Kick87 regularly. Unless I was feeling sad, or ashamed, then I would call myself KickMe. Or if I was pissed off, I called myself KickAss. LOL!! But in the lyrics, Michael sang "sometimes you kick--sometimes you get kicked", and that is so true!!! I am living proof of that! LOL! But the times I have gotten kicked have made me stronger. Today, I am proud of the person I am. Believe it or not. And I love Michael for writing those words!! I added that song to the story INXS Goes to Mount St. Helens, mostly because of when Michael sings "When the mountain moves away" while he is singing in front of the mountain, I think of him pointing back at it as he says that line.

Now, I love INXS, but there are a couple songs they wrote that makes me ask "Why did you write that?" I really do not like Never Tear Us Apart that much, because I think the music could have been better. But it's supposed to be a ballad. Some lines in the song I love, like when Michael sings "Don't have to tell you--- I love your precious heart." I always find myself answering him back saying something to the effect of "I love your precious heart too baby!" LOL!!! Another INXS song I don't care too much for is Baby Don't Cry. I dunno, it's so long and drawn out, the words are. Makes the song kinda suck! In the video, Michael has this python wrapped around him, and I don't think I ever seen him look so sexy as he does there!!! He even sings to the snake at one point!! The only animal in that video they should never have got was that stupid panther!! Ugly-ass thing!! It was a total eyesore!!! Ruined the video for me! Other than that, the rest of the animals were awesome!

One song by INXS that I used to not like, but now cannot get enough of, is This Time. I used to not like that song at all, and I would fast forward through it on the Greatest Hits video I have. Now, I love it! How I got to love the song is quite a story. It happened after I lost my cattle dog puppy, Hutchess. I was so distraught after losing her that I did not eat for 3 days! Well, the third day, I was feeling weak and so I needed to do something to cheer up. The one thing I knew I could count on to make me feel better was my INXS videos. So what I would do is just pop them into the VCR, rewind them all the way to the beginning and just let them run. I didn't want to forward through anything, no songs, no scenes, nothing. I just put the videos in and let them run all the way through. Well, when I got to the song This Time, I actually got to hear how cool it sounded, it actually made me head bop and my heart flutter. I loved the song after that day was over. Now, I even have it on my MP3 player. This whole story is mentioned in the story Hutchess: A Picture Diary, from 1998. And every time now that I hear that song, I think of this and it makes me smile.

Well, those are the stories of my best loved songs by INXS.

Lesson Learned: Ignore the Damn Press!!!!

Since this is Michael's month I thought I would not post anything this month that is not related to, or about Michael. I thought this was a very interesting article.

Michael's Hauntingly Prophetic Words Before He Died

This was an article done just a few days before he passed away. I read it and believe me, I feel his pain!! The same shit has happened to me many times. Just like Michael, people have made me out to be the bad guy too. Sometimes it may be well deserved. I mean really! I have been known to be an asshole now and then. LOL! But at the same time, I can be very sweet. I can be the best friend someone ever had. If I really like someone, I am very loyal to them, I love to laugh and have fun. I like to make people laugh, whether they are laughing at me or with me, I don't care. I just like making people laugh and feel good. I also like to think I will always be there for my friends, through thick and thin. But also I couldn't care less if someone doesn't like me or gets angry at me. No skin off my nose!!

One example of something that Michael said in this interview that really got me was this:

"It would be so easy for me to say that I hate what I've become, but then, what I've become, certainly in the public eye, I've had no control over.
"I don't like that.
"It concerns me a great deal that every move that I make is looked at, photographed, and made into gossip, some f---ing sound bite that doesn't resemble the truth."

I know exactly how he feels! I remember when the delusional fans forum went up, they were in their stupid-ass forum saying shit about me too. Catsredrum even designated one of her dumbass friends my "official stalker". That was the one called Mayday06. I remember that came even after months of me not even mentioning them on my blogs or anywhere else. Yet they were still hounding me on their forum, which conveniently for them was closed to the public. But still, I knew some of the people who were members of that forum. I saw their names on the member's list. So, sometimes I wondered if those people were reading what these dipshits were saying about me, and actually believed them. Most of what they were saying in there about me was just their own speculation. But you know how gullible people are!! Catsredrum and her friends took my words and twisted everything I said around to mean something they pulled out of their own asses. People who actually know me in person, and have known me for a long time, would know I would never do any of the things the delusional fans forum was accusing me of doing. But someone on the internet, who doesn't know me as well, would read that stuff and actually believe it's true just because someone said it. So I know exactly how Michael felt.

But then there is this other side of me that says "what you can't control, use it to your advantage." After the people in the delusional fans forum got their stalker situated on me, one of them made the stupid mistake of saying that I killed my dog, Groucho, just so I could attend a concert. She died just before I was due to attend a concert and meet and greet with INXS in Portland. What they didn't know was that the tickets for that concert and meet and greet was bought before Groucho even got sick. It was a birthday gift to me from my sisters. But I do admit that I was concerned about going to that concert because I thought Groucho, who was pregnant at the time, might have needed someone to watch her. But I would never have killed her to go to that concert. In fact, if I thought for one second that it would bring her back, I would have given up going to that concert completely. Well, once I found out one of them accused me of killing my dog, I said "this has got to stop!" You can say whatever you want about me, I don't care. But you cannot accuse me of putting a concert over my animals!! That's a no-no!! I don't tolerate that!! Some lies are just not forgivable!! So what did I do? I got some professional stalkers of my own and told them to go into the delusional fans forum and bring me back some good things I can hound them with. They did, and so I had my own fun, putting their shit right back in their faces!! I don't have to tell you all that it did not take long for them to find some stupid shit they said about me in there! LOL!

If only Michael knew how to do that himself. He could have had some fun with the press. Screw not hurting their feelings! Do what you gotta do! They said Michael was one of the most hated people in the UK. That's bullshit!! Lots of people still love Michael. But do you think the person who said that cared if he hurt Michael's feelings or not?? I don't think so!! Michael should have turned that around to his advantage. It can be done. Even people constantly taking his picture. Someone even did that to me at a gas station once. And I looked terrible!! I had been standing on my feet for hours then. I was tired and my hair was all messed up. But I even made a joke about that. I said "If I had known she was going to take my picture, I'd have fixed my hair up and smiled!" I dunno, maybe that girl was looking for candid shots. LOL!! I should have been angry, but I wasn't. Making jokes about things like that helps a lot. It did me, anyways.

Well, before I learned to laugh at myself, I did get upset a lot with people who would say shit about me on the internet. I do get depressed still sometimes, but I work hard at it not to let it all get me down. But it is very hard being myself. Sometimes I wonder how I've handled it all these years, just being the complex person I am. But I know I cannot change, and I don't really want to change. Some things I admit needs work, and I am working on them. But for the most part, this is as good as I am ever going to get. Take it or leave it!! And it's just as fine with me if you leave it!

Michael was also very insecure about his singing, which I don't understand at all. He also said he has no real friends, which I also don't know why he said that!! He has more friends than I do! And if he was as shy as everyone said he was, I find hard to believe. I guess he was just a likable guy!! I liked him. And I am VERY shy!! Not only am I shy, I am also very reclusive. I'm very reserved around other people. I don't go out and chit chat with people, I don't even smile at anyone when I am walking around. Unless they smile at me first. That's just how I am. I used to smile and talk to everyone. But then too many people have given me evil looks back when I smiled at them. So, I just don't do it anymore. When I saw Timmy walking around outside the Paramount Theater that one time I had a picture taken with him, it was a LOT for me to even ask him if he would allow me to have a pic taken with him. I love Timmy! But like I said, I am very reserved around people. I've been hurt by people WAY too many times. I remember at that meet and greet with INXS in Portland, I smiled and said hello to Kirk, and he just totally snubbed me. That hurt me really bad! Because I used to love Kirk!! He wouldn't even look at me, let alone say hello. I didn't understand it, and won't try to. But it's incidents like that, where I really liked someone, and it turned out they just don't like me, that has made me so reclusive. Now, I just don't care about that anymore.

I know Kirk is just a public figure, and he didn't know me. So he couldn't know if he liked me personally or not. But if I am standing there in front of them, smiling at someone and I say hello to them, that's rare for me! I'd have to really, REALLY love someone, and feel comfortable around them, in order to do that. And I really, REALLY loved Kirk! When he snubbed me like he did, it really, REALLY hurt bad! Actually I have yet to hear of any fans who are as large as I am that said they had a good experience with Kirk. So, all I could deduce is that he just doesn't like oversized fans. Doesn't make me feel any better about him as a person, but it may shed some light on what his problem was with me. I just don't like him anymore. And I will never again try to be nice to someone like that. I can forgive him though, and I am trying to work on that as we speak. But I will never forget it. I'll just know, next time I see him, not to even try to be nice to him. And just for the delusional mods, I am not going to hurt him!! I'll just ignore him. That's one thing the delusional mods always said about me is that I am crazy enough to shoot someone through the head. Like what happened to John Lennon. But no. I may be crazy, but I would never do that to anyone!

"TimmyHutchFan"

So I have decided to just go for it and change my nickname on Facebook! I now call myself "Dee TimmyHutchFan", because lately I have been eyeing Michael more than I have over the past 10 years. That'll give the dirty dozen mob something to talk about! LOL!!! Or, in their case, something to gripe about. LOL!!! Remember folks, I'm supposed to be "hiding" behind the nickname Dee Timmyfan. LOL! Personally, I barely call it "hiding" seeing as everyone by now knows who Timmyfan is. But that's the dirty dozen mob for you. Now, everyone will know who TimmyHutchFan is. I thought it was only fair to add Michael to my nickname, I am still very much a Timmy fan. But lately I have been looking at Michael like I did back in my early days as an INXS fan. Back in the early 90s I didn't even know Timmy's name. I only learned Michael's name. He was the only one really back then that I cared about. Though I always thought Timmy had the best set of buns in the band!! Him and his AWESOME ass!!! LOL!!! I love you Timmy!! But I didn't learn the names of the rest of the men until Michael died. Even though I did go see them live back in 1991. And I kissed Michael then too (LOL! Always have to add that!)

Well, this month is Michael's month. This is the month I celebrate his life. I love him so much!! Even when I wasn't a huge fan of his, I never did let this month go without celebrating Michael's life. Michael did so much in his life that I am so grateful I was there to enjoy it!! Some people were not so lucky. I mean really! Look at the role models around today. Nothing but a bunch of talentless nudniks like Justin Bieber and Jonas Brothers. IF the Jonas Brothers are still around. But all of today's musicians seemed to have done nothing but got their start on reality tv shows like X Factor and American Idol, or childish channels like the Disney Channel. And I am sorry, but I have ZERO respect for musicians who got their start that way. INXS got their start the way any good musicians should; seasoned and flavored by years of performing in front of real drunken music lovers in a bar who demanded good entertainment!

I am still miffed because someone said Michael was a cat!! YUK!!!! I can compare Michael to a lot of animals, but cats are NOT one of them!! I mean really! What have cats got? Saggy bellies. No buns. They can't sing. They can't dance. All they got is this dumb look constantly on their faces. When panthers do try to sing, they sound like a toilet flushing. So it kinda irks me that some people out there think Michael had a saggy belly, no buns, a stoned look constantly on his face, and could not sing. And they think when he did sing, he sounded like a toilet flushing. That's not how I see MY Michael. Michael had beautiful eyes, more like a lemur.

Michael had a cute smile, much like a dolphin.

Michael had cute buns, like a puppy dog.

And I LOVE his monkey-like poses!!!!

 

And Michael could sing very well, just like a bird.

And his moves were sexy, sensual, and graceful, like a slithering snake.

Ohh baby!!! That is how I see MY Michael. The Michael Hutchence we all know and love so well. He definitely does NOT have a saggy belly like a cat. He doesn't sing like a toilet flushing like a panther. And he definitely had buns. Unlike a cat or panther. Cat butts are UGLY!! Next to their saggy bellies, their butts are their ugliest features!! I know I said I love Siamese cats, but I would not have one unless I was absolutely desperate for a pet. So far, I've not been THAT desperate!! And even if I did have one, I would NEVER touch it's belly!! YUK!!!! IMO, that would be as gross and disgusting as someone sticking their bare hand in a pile of cat shit. Unlike Michael. If Michael Hutchence was alive and standing here right in front of me now, I would LOVE to touch his belly!!! And several other places too. hehehehe!!

Well anyways, this is his month. I've been thinking of offering the INXS Goes to Mount St. Helens story again for free to friends. I am working on the story now, trying to make it better, and make the drawings better too. I also want to offer my other INXS story "One Day In November..." to friends as well for free. But only on the 22nd. I am not trying to make money off these books, so I don't mind offering them for free. Not really fair of me to make money off of INXS. Even though I did do the drawings, and usually I would be compensated for that. But that is why I often offer these stories for free. Because I am not trying to make money off the backs of INXS. That is not right to me. I love these guys, I would NEVER do anything that is unfair to them. I just have to charge something on the site, because the platform I use charges me each time someone downloads a story. But for my INXS stories, my profit is very small.

Life In A Van

Boy! This is an adventure!!! LOL!! And yet I am maintaining a positive attitude. Well, things could be worse. MUCH worse. For the past month, I've been here in Seaside, OR, basically living in my van. All my things are in storage, and I am looking for an apartment. Sometimes I stay in the local shelter, and have made friends with the person who runs it. Her name is Alisha. She's really nice, but lately I have not been staying there, because believe it or not, the van is actually more comfortable. I made up a little bed in the back of the van with my old mattress toppers, and it is really quite comfortable. I sleep very well at night. My ma and pa are worried about me sleeping in the van, but Seaside is actually a very quiet town. Nothing bad happens here, not that I have seen. Pretty much I stay in the Safeway parking lot, because their store is open until 1AM. So, if it's late, up until 1AM, and I need to use the restroom, I can just go in there and do it. And usually by 1AM I am already asleep anyways. I become quite narcoleptic when I first move into a place, I don't know why. Stress, I guess. I remember how pissed off Patti got with me because when I first moved in with her, I slept most of the time. But moving is HARD work!! So far, of all the moves I have made through my life, this move has been the most stressful, and has been the least prepared for. I had to move out FAST in order to get here in time for the orientation. If you miss that orientation, you get taken off the list. Then that's 4 and a half years of my life that is wasted!! I am hoping to find an apartment soon. I've got all my family and friends saying prayers for me.

I was completely approved for one apartment, but then the landlord did not want to deal with lowering the rent through housing in the first year. Especially since it's just me and it was a 2 bedroom apartment. So that apartment fell through. Bummer!! It's been the only rental I've seen so far that has a washer/drier hookup!!! But I've done shed my share of tears. No use crying over something I cannot control. But finding a one-bedroom unit is damn-near impossible!! I almost have no choice but to go with a 2-bedroom unit. This town does not give me a heck of a lot of choices!! But we will see. I keep telling myself something will come up! Meanwhile, I keep my days pretty busy driving and looking around, hoping against hope that I can find something before my time runs out. If nothing else comes available, I may have no choice but to move back to Reno. I really don't want to. My sinuses were so bad in Reno!! Here at least they have gotten back to normal. And here when I buy something expensive, I don't have to pay tax. When you get up in the $100 range, taxes build up heavily!! I hate that!! But if I do move back to Reno, ma, John and I are going to have to discuss moving into a 3 bedroom rental home and split the rent 3 ways. I am not moving back in with Donna!! No way!!! One of the things about moving out of her place that I don't miss is that darn kiddie bed she had me sleeping in! I'd have it hauled away and replaced with a full size bed at least! That bed was the reason my leg went so bad. Now it is back to it's old self again and I can climb stairs once again. I struggled every night to stay on that damn bed, and I think that's how my leg got weak.

I will never forget that one horrible day I found out how weak my leg was! I tried to climb the 3 stairs that led up to the front of the porch. I stepped on a step, and my leg just buckled!! Completely collapsed! I did not expect it, and I went down. I sat on the steps and just wailed "I can't climb stairs anymore!! WAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!" I think everyone in the neighborhood heard me, but since most of them are Mexicans who don't speak English, I don't think they understood what I said. Or why I was sitting on the steps, crying out loud. LOL! Well, now I have been working on it, and my leg is almost back to it's old self again, so I can take a second-floor apartment with no trouble.

Well, I have even made some friends with some furniture dealers here, and they are willing to work with me. So, as soon as I can get an apartment, I have 2 furniture stores that are ready and willing to help me out with new furniture at payments I can easily afford.

Pleasant vs. Honest

Everyone knows the truth hurts. What is true is not always what we want to hear, but the truth is the truth. I'd rather someone be honest with me than to just tell me what they think I want to hear. I cannot believe how many INXS fans out there do not want to see the new movie about INXS because they say Michael was portrayed in a distasteful way. Well, I always say "Maybe it's the truth?" I don't know, I never lived with Michael. But the movie was supervised by Tim Farriss and Chris Murphy, and these two people spent more time with Michael than anyone else. I have to take what was created in that movie as the gospel. Well, most of it anyways. Rockstars are usually edgy, and Michael had some hardships in his life I know that. I also know what hardships can do to a person. But people are afraid for Lily's sake. They don't think Michael should ever be portrayed that honestly because it may hurt Lily's vision of her father.

Well, there is no denying her father had a hard life. He was battling depression. But just because we don't want to know the truth about Michael does not mean it should remain hidden. I personally do not care what bad shit Michael did! I still love him. He could have been a hatchet murderer behind the scenes and I still wouldn't care. I love Michael for his grace and beauty, I love him for the inspiring words he wrote and sang to the world. I love him for his comforting voice which has cheered me up out of bad days many times in the past. That is why I love Michael. It's like Dian Fossey. I am a great admirer of her's, always have been. Always will be. I don't care about how she treated poachers. Some people say she went too far, that she mistreated everyone around her. I don't care about that at all. I love Dian Fossey for her accomplishments. She was like a pioneer in wildlife conservation. I love her for that! I know she burned down villager's houses, I know she used to whip poachers in the genitals with stinging nettles. I know all about her shooting the cattle of local herdsmen. But I don't care about none of that. She is still my hero because she single-handedly saved the mountain gorillas from extinction.

Ya know, I think Dian Fossey is the main reason why I was so tolerant with Patti! LOL! I put up with a lot of Patti's shit in the days I lived there, and I still was kind and respectful with her. I think deep inside I was thinking which one would be worse to live with? Patti or Dian Fossey? LOL! Probably Dian Fossey, and I love her to death! There was a difference though. Dian Fossey loved kids and animals, and a person with that kind of morale cannot be all bad. Patti did not like kids, and was fanatical about rescuing animals from shelters as opposed to breeding. Besides that, she was shallow. She thought of nobody but herself. So, there was NO good whatsoever in Patti.

Same thoughts about Michael Hutchence. I don't care what he did. I don't care if he tried to punch Timmy in the face, I don't care about the bad shit he did portrayed in the movie, whether it was the gospel truth or not. I'll always love Michael, no matter what. He always has been, still is, and always will be my most favorite lead singer of all time! To the people who did not want to see the movie because they thought it was in bad taste, all I have to say is get over it! I got nothing against these people personally, but Michael's life was not all roses and unicorns. No one's is. We all have our ups and downs. We all have our good points and bad points. I can overlook them. If I can, then anyone can. *smiles*

I look at Michael's life and I think mine was not too far off from his. I love the movie, Never Tear Us Apart. I think Luke Arnold did a fine job of portraying Michael! Shoot! If I were 20 years younger, I would have fallen in love with that man!! He has a nice ass!! But he's only 30 years old (born in 1984-- a great year BTW!) But he's too young for me. Another complaint I typically hear is people complaining because Luke looked nothing like Michael. Well, I found a pic not too long ago where he does. I still think he did a fine job! Other people were giving their ideas about who would have been great to play the part of Michael. Someone suggested some actor named Gavin Rossdale. But he's OLD!! He may have been great to play the part of Michael as an older man, but not as a young teenager, when his career as a singer got started. Another suggested a guy named Aiden Turner, but he looks far too mean!! And he's kinda ugly too!

Michael Hutchence had this look on his face, that was halfway between dangerous and innocent. That is very hard to mimic! That's what I like about Luke Arnold playing the part of Michael. He almost has that look. There will NEVER be another Michael Hutchence!! Not even among modern actors. Even his own brother Rhett doesn't look anything like him!! Michael was a one of a kind! Finding someone who looks exactly like him is impossible. Luke Arnold came close, but could not go all the way. No one ever will. So if other INXS fans are looking for an actor who is going to look exactly like Michael, with his voice, they are going to be very hard-pressed. There just isn't another Michael out there, and never will be.

Well, in personal news, I am going to OR this weekend. I am leaving here on the 5th, and have to be there by the 8th. I am giving a little leeway for any trouble that might occur. But I have a slew of people praying for me. It's kinda bittersweet because I am going to have to leave Vegas with my sister. I need to concentrate on finding an apartment, and the very last thing I need to worry about right now is if that apartment will allow pets. It's only for a year, and Vegas will at least be with family. Once I've lived there for a year, I can move to a more pet-friendly area in OR and get Vegas back. But looking on the NW OR coast, it's been nearly impossible to find a pet-friendly place. I don't know why it is! NW OR is so not pet friendly!! I don't know what I am going to do during that year without a booby to cuddle!! I guess my favorite guys of INXS will have to be my surrogate "pets". LOL!

Hutch-Sightings

Someone posted an article not too long ago in a Facebook group I am a member of, saying that it's possible that Michael Hutchence is still living today. It was based on a video someone posted of him that was shot after 2005, and said that it was Michael in the film. The video was put up on YouTube and went viral apparently. Well, forensics in Australia are very much open to interpretation, but I doubt this to be true. Though there are some unanswered questions, like why did Michael's money run out after he died, leaving Lily with nothing? Who the heck was using his estate while the courts kept it in limbo?? The article also stated that there have been several sightings of Michael since 1998.

Well, don't get me wrong, as any INXS fan from the beginning, I would LOVE for all this to be true, and to know that Michael's death was really nothing more than a bad nightmare. The problem I have of this is that Elvis fans have been saying the exact same thing since Elvis died. The so-called "Hutch-sightings" are most likely nothing more than impersonators of Michael's, or look-alikes. I cannot take the word of this article unless I actually see a video or picture taken of Michael himself that is dated after November 22, 1997. Believe me, I have been looking at Michael's face for a long time, I would know him! Michael has a very unique look. He has soft, innocent-looking eyes, his nose is somewhat long and pointed, and his lips would be what gives him off to me. They were not too pouty, and not to small. Just right. I love Michael's lips!! I think they were his sexiest feature!! Timmy's got his beautiful, sexy buns, and Michael had sexy lips! hehehe!

I was  watching a documentary the other night about INXS remembering Michael, and Timmy showed off a picture of himself saying "There I am with my awesome-AWESOME ass!" Every time I come to that part of his interview, I always laugh!! I say "Well, at least he knows it!" Probably thanks in no small part to me! I mention it all the time. Hell, some INXS videos I only watch just to get a good glimpse of Timmy's awesome ass!!! Mediate is basically a dull video, until the end when you can see Timmy's ass! Then it's totally AWESOME!!! Same with the video for Don't Change. Timmy's just got the sexiest butt I've ever seen on anyone! I love good buns on a man!!

Well, I would love nothing more than to see Michael come back to life. It would be great if all this about his death was not true. I hate it that INXS is now retired. I guess they just gave up looking for a new lead singer. Well, it is very hard to find one. Michael's sexual appeal is no doubt what made INXS go as far as they did! JD, he was a great singer and a nice guy, but he had NONE of Michael's sexual appeal and charisma. Nor would he ever have it. Michael was Michael and JD was JD. JD could never be Michael. In the end, JD just got dumped. Ciaran, some like him, some don't. I haven't seen him perform yet. As a person I like him though. He must be a very nice person. But again, he can never be Michael. No one can. Michael was totally irreplaceable. We can search for a thousand years, there will never be another Michael. GOD made him once, and threw away the mold!

We may find another good songwriter like Michael, but I'd bet he wouldn't have Michael's good looks. We may find someone else with Michael's good looks, but I'd bet he would suck at songwriting! Face it, Michael had it all. He was part of what made INXS successful. Not to mention, the rest of the guys are good looking too. I personally think Timmy is more handsome than Michael was. Don't get me wrong, Michael was sexy! But Timmy does it for me! I wish Timmy would have kept his hair long. I loved that look on him!!

Why Not Call It Obese?

I was reading some articles this past weekend on Yahoo. There was one that mentioned not to use the word "obese", to just call fat people "fat". Well, I have to ask, why not? "Obese" actually sounds a lot better than "fat". Makes the person using the term sound a lot more intellectual. A person who simply says "fat" by comparison, sounds uneducated and stupid. I am obese, I admit it! "Fat" is a catch-all term that can refer to anyone of any size. There are people who are a size 6 that are merely "fat". I am not a size 6. I'm too big right now for a size 6. Actually I have no idea what size I am. Whenever I go to get clothing, I like getting size XXXL, because I like my clothing loose. I don't like anything that's going to hug against my skin. Though I can fit comfortably in a size XL. One shirt that I have that is a size XL is now very loose on me. It used to be somewhat snug.

I think political correctness has gone too far! Now, there are people complaining about others using the term "Christmas", because it's based on religion. I tell those people to suck it! That is why I keep blogs, I say what I want to on here. If you are looking for a blog that is inoffensive and politically correct, then I suggest you look elsewhere. I say what I want to on here! I don't care if it offends anyone! If you're that big of a wussy, then please leave and don't come back! I call a spade a spade. I call myself fat, or I might start calling myself obese now. That is what I am.

Now, just because I call something what it is does not mean that I believe in shaming fat people. I've heard some people do that to "encourage" fat people to lose weight. I have mentioned this before on this blog. I would guess those people that say that have never been fat before, because if they had, they would know that fat-shaming does not "encourage" a fat person to lose weight! It might work with some people, maybe a handful of people. But it does not always work. Fat-shaming only makes the person feel worse, not better. If they feel bad, they are going to go home and eat to make themselves feel better, and I have also mentioned that before on this blog too. Well, I also found an article that supports my theory. Check it out! http://www.bbc.com/news/health-29155765. Why don't these bigots just admit they do NOT shame fat people just to encourage them to lose weight! They do it because they are miserable with their own lives, so they feel they need to bring others down to their level of misery. That is the real reason why they do it. Don't believe anyone who tells you otherwise!

Even when I was thin, I never made fun of a fat person. I don't judge a person based on race, religion, beliefs, or whether they are fat or thin, I judge a person based on whether or not they are an asshole. One of the things I love about other INXSaries, so far, I haven't met one that has made any remarks against me just because I am ugly or obese. Not even the ones who are not so friendly. I sure cannot say the same thing about other groups I've been in. Sure cannot say that about show breeders! LOL! I wish Michael was still here. It's Bob Geldof's fault he's not! For that reason, I will forever HATE him!!!! I still say he deserved to lose his daughter! I am very sorry for Lily, but Bob can only blame himself for that! He should have been kinder to Michael and his family!

I remember when I was in high school, there was this girl named Tanya, and she was FAT!! Not only was she fat, she was blond and had an attitude, and she was weird. She was unfortunately the kind of person a lot of people think of fat people to be. And that is why fat people get judged harshly. Let me tell you how weird Tanya was. She was so weird, often when I passed by her in the hallway, she would be literally either barking like a dog, or meowing like a cat. I mean, she would actually go "woof-woof-woof!" or she would say "Meow-meow-meow!" That's why these cat fags who go "meow" whenever someone mentions a cat creeps me out! Because to me, that is just plain weird! And I see that a lot in people nowadays unfortunately. Well, Tanya was fatter than me, and one day when I passed by her in the hallway, and she said "meow-meow-meow" to me, I came within nanoseconds of saying back to her "Oooh, nice fat kitty!" But I couldn't say it!! I couldn't bring myself to say it, because I knew how it felt to be bullied and called names. I think she only did that to me probably because she knew I love animals. People used to make fun of others who loved animals back then.

Well, I used to be obsessed with animals. I'm finding now in my old age, I am not as obsessed with them as I was back in high school. There are some animals I find I just don't like. Everyone by now knows how much I HATE panthers of all kinds. I don't like baboons too well. I can't stand hyenas! I'm not too crazy about big dogs, or most house cats. I can't stand bugs or spiders. I like mice, but not in my house. I don't mind pet rats though. I guess what I really love is birds. I've never seen a bird I don't like. I don't trust large hookbills, but I don't hate them. I would just never want to touch one. Anyway, Tanya was the perfect example of someone I could have made fun of, but chose not to. I could have called her fat names up the wazoo, and it wouldn't have hurt me (back then), because I wasn't fat. A lot of people did make fun of her because she was fat. I remember one incident that happened, Tanya was the office attendant for the last hour of high school, and it was her job to go around through all the classes and pick up the attendance sheets at the end of the day. Well, when she got to the class I was in, this boy named Terry, who was sitting right next to me, started calling Tanya all kinds of fat names when she entered the room. Tanya kept telling Terry to shut up. Everyone in the class was laughing as Terry continued making jokes about Tanya. Everyone but me. I know I didn't like Tanya and she was weird as all-be-heck, and I was a friend of Terry's, but I just couldn't laugh at his jokes. It's different when you know how it feels to be called names like that. I knew that even back then.

The next day, my friend Robert said to me "wasn't Terry funny yesterday when he made those jokes about Tanya?" I answered, "Well, I just couldn't laugh at his jokes. Because I know how it feels to be made fun of like that." I'd faced it since I began school. Kids would call me all kinds of nasty names. I wasn't a fat child, but I often was called names that referred to me being skinny or ugly. Robert was saying how much Tanya deserves it because she is an asshole to everyone. He said Tanya is one of those types that only likes people she thinks are 'cool'. Well, I had no idea what Tanya's idea of "cool" was, but I still didn't think Terry's jokes were funny. I liked Terry and I liked Robert, but I just could not say Terry's jokes were funny. Now, I would, because I can even laugh at myself. But back then, I hadn't learned how to do that yet.

Free Ebooks Today!

I am taking one big, huge risk! I am giving away free copies of UMG Productions ebooks! For me, it's a big risk. I gained a little confidence giving away copies of my story about my thoughts on Michael, but I am still nervous. I made a category for free ebooks today, and only for today. After tonight, they will not be available anymore for free. So, go to this link: http://www.umgproductions.com/search/label/Free%20Ebook download as many as you want! They are safe for all ages. Just remember to post a comment on each book you read. I would really appreciate it! Thank you all!

Unfortunately for this sale, I do not have any adult material available. I didn't want kids coming to this sale and getting adult images or words in their minds, and then the parents come back to me. So, no adult material is included in this sale. Also, the newest entries are not included either. Sorry about that too. Maybe next year.

9-22-2014 The sale is OVER. It was for ONE DAY only. If you missed it, well, don't blame me. Just hope I have the same thing next year.

WAY Better Than Oasis!

I keep getting more and more back into INXS each day! Could be because I am ovulating, I don't know. LOL! I always heard women are most lovey-dovey when they are ovulating. UGH! Anyways, I've even begun kissing Michael's pics again, which is something I have not done in many a year! But it started off with me looking at him again. Between 2005 to the present, I hardly ever gave Michael much attention. I was focusing mostly on Timmy. Well, don't misunderstand me, I still LOVE Timmy!!! I am still a Timmy fan. But I guess I am now a sprouting Timmy-Hutchy fan. LOL! I was a fan of Michael's long ago, before 2005, it was always Michael that led me back to INXS fanhood. Then in 2005, that changed. I saw a pic of Timmy standing, looking so sexy, and it was him I became more sweet on that year. After that, Michael kinda slipped my mind. Well, there is just no denying Michael is DEAD! I cannot escape that fact. But I just don't like looking at him and thinking "Well, he's just a dead guy now." It may be true, but it just sounds so disrespectful to me, after all Michael did in his life. He always made me feel so good with his singing. He was beautiful too! That's another fact I cannot deny. But I guess part of the reason I stayed away from looking at Michael and even thinking of him is because it was just too painful to remember him.

Another reason I was not into him back then is because of the Hutch fans I met. Or perhaps I should say they were Hutch fags. Just like with cat fags, there is a BIG difference between just loving Michael Hutchence, and being a Hutch-fag. GOD willing I hope I never become a Hutch fag! If I do, I want someone to take me into the field and shoot my brains out! I love INXS, but I refuse to become one of their fags. I almost became something to that effect about Timmy. But I learned to stop myself. If someone else does not like Timmy, I say that's fine! I don't get angry at them or cuss them out. I love Timmy, and that is all that counts. I don't demand everyone else loves him. But at the same time, I don't want people saying I should not like him, or trying to convince me of their reasons why they think I should not love him. I can judge that for myself. I'm generally very forgiving with people I like. I love INXS. The only band member I don't care too much for is Kirk. But I don't hate him. I never hated Kirk. The feeling I have for him is more like disappointment, not hate. Matter of fact, Kirk makes me laugh sometimes. He'd have been a great stand-up comedian. But my meetings with him have always been a less-than-favorable experience. But I will say this; the guy who played Kirk in Never Tear Us Apart was awfully CUTE!

Anyways, I met these Hutch fags on the VH1 forum back in 2005, and they were shit-talking the remaining band members of INXS. There was also a forum devoted entirely to Michael back then. So, I invited them to join me there to talk about Michael. Well, this one member responded exactly how I would expect a Hutch fag to respond. She refused to go into that forum at all. She just maintained she could post any damn where she pleased. I told her to suit herself, but not to get all pissy at me because I would be talking about Timmy on a forum devoted to INXS, which she had gotten with me before then. I love Michael, but I totally refuse to become a Hutch fag! No way! That's not something I would be proud of! I believe everyone has a right to their opinions and beliefs, and I want to keep that for the rest of my life. If someone does not like Michael, well it's not my place to tell them they have no right not to. Because I believe they have every right not to if they don't want to. I love Michael and Timmy, to me that's all that matters. But I believe it was meeting those people that made me get out of Michael and not want to go back. But like I said, they were just Hutch fags. Not real fans. Well, they are fans, but they are the scary, over-obsessed type fans.

I heard that at the beginning of one of Michael's last songs, Elegantly Wasted, Michael says "I'm better than Oasis". LOL! Gotta love Michael! He is WAY better than Oasis! I mean really! If you were a young teenage girl with sense, getting into rock music for the very first time, which one of these bands would you go for? Top or bottom?

I would go for the ones on the bottom. More cute guys in the bottom picture. The guys on top look dirty! And I mean dirty as in unclean, like they need good, long showers and hair scrubbings! I can't stand Oasis! I've heard them sing before and I don't like them. Then when I heard Michael presented them with the Brit Award they said something to the effect of "Has beens should not give awards to gonna be's" I wanted to slap the jerk for saying that! Made me so mad!

 

I have to ask Noel, "Gonna be" what? "Gonna be" a loser! That's what! They aren't even popular anymore! And most INXS lovers hate them. I hate them! And look at them. They look terrible! Michael is WAY better looking than them by a longshot, not to mention he's got more talent. So yes, he was WAY better than Oasis! Though I am so sorry to say now INXS are "has beens" But they will always be "somethings" to me. I still love them, and each day my love gets stronger and stronger. I almost feel today the same way I did back in 2005, when I had gotten back into INXS again for the first time in like 5 years. DOH! Seems when I take a break from INXS, they always last 5 years. But I always bounce back to them. I guess INXS is my "safety net". They are my one link to music that I still enjoy.

Another thing I always hear, people ask if anyone else thinks Michael Hutchence looked like Jim Morrison. I say HELL NO!! Michael was WAAAAYYYYY better looking than Jim Morrison!!! Not to mention he sang better, and his songs were better. The Doors SUCK!! I can't stand them! I don't think Michael looked even one little tiny bit like Jim Morrison!

There is just no comparison there! Morrison had smaller eyes, that were too close together. His lips are too curly, short, almost Neanderthal-like. His hair isn't curly enough, and he's WAY too skinny!! Michael at least has beautifully, proportioned lips, eyes, nose, curly hair, and some muscle on his bones. Michael is definitely more beautiful!! And I don't like ANY song by the Doors! I love almost all of INXS's songs! Yes, there are some I don't like, but they are few, and I chalk it up to everyone is entitled to have one song that's not up to par. And other INXS fans like those songs, so it's not like my opinion on those songs is the only one that matters. Only on this blog. hehehe! But ask me which of the songs by the Doors I think is best and I will tell you NONE. I hate them ALL!

Well, thanks to Never Tear Us Apart, I am again becoming a Hutch fan. I just hope it doesn't progress to being a Hutch fag from here! I don't think so though. I'd be lying if I said sometimes I don't get bothered by people who don't like Michael or INXS. But it's just not my place to tell anyone they should, and I understand that. But I also hope others understand they have no right saying I am not a real INXS fan either, just because I take occasional breaks from the band. I've been in a slump with them, but like I said, I always bounce back. I think I've been in a slump with INXS since I moved to Bozeman, I know I once wrote about it on this blog. I notice though my INXS slumps last 5 years, or close. And when I bounce back, I bounce back strong!