Dumb Shit Vegans Say

You all know how much I can't stand vegans. I do have friends who are vegans, but once they accepted me as their friend, they accepted the fact there is no converting me to veganism. Not gonna happen! Well, over the years, I've heard some vegans say some pretty fucked-up shit just in an attempt to con everybody into going vegan. I thought I might compile some of the silliest things I've heard them say that are either too funny, or too stupid. This is not a personal attack on my vegan buds, this is just some quotes I've seen people on YouTube and Facebook post. Plus some of my own responses. So, here it goes:

Stupid Comment #1: "Meat-eating is the most primitive form of diet. Veganism is more advanced."

True, meat-eating is primitive. Actually they say vampirism is much more advanced than anything. But I'm sorry to burst your bubble, but veganism is MUCH more primitive than an omnivorous diet.

Stupid Comment #2: "If you go vegan, you can avoid any form of cancer, heart-disease, colds, flu, chlamydia, ebola, etc"

WRONG!!! Vegans are just as susceptible to all those diseases. The ones who get it are just closed-mouthed about it because of other vegan Nazis that will torment them if they ever spread the truth.

Stupid Comment #3: "Vegans are more empathetic than meat-eaters"

WRONG AGAIN!!! Some of the worst people I've ever met were vegans. They think it's OK to threaten, tease, harass, and scorn anyone who does not want to go vegan. Not to mention it is vegans who bomb schools that are not vegan, or medical labs that experiment on animals. I've never seen anyone who is not vegan do any of this kind of crap for the sake of a dietary choice!!

Stupid Comment #4: "Humans are more closely related to bonobos, which are strictly vegetarian apes"

Yes, we are related to bonobos and chimps. But the notion that bonobos are strict vegetarians is definitely WRONG!! I've been studying animals all my life, and there is no indication that bonobos are less omnivores than regular chimpanzees. The only strictly vegetarian apes are gorillas, and we are not that close in relation to gorillas.

Stupid Comment #5: "If you're not vegan, then you don't like animals!"

HAHAHA!! This one always makes me laugh!! Just because I don't think cows, pigs and chickens have the same rights as humans have (which is what the vegans want), does not mean I don't like animals in general. Now the fur thing I would have to admit is too far-fetched for me. But I eat meat because I like it. Not because I hate those animals. I just don't think they need to have the same rights as humans have. They are PREY ANIMALS. When we decide we want to eat them, they have no rights.

Stupid Comment #6: "How can you love and care for your dogs/cats, and feel so sad when they die, but you don't feel sad when eating meat?"

Simple. Like I said, they are PREY ANIMALS. They have high reproductive rates, which means they were intended for predators to eat. My dogs are not prey, they are family. They are friends. They have whatever rights I want them to have.

Stupid Comment #7: "Cows, pigs and chickens are sentient creatures that just want to live".

A wussy statement. They are not as sentient as humans are. They don't mourn the loss of herd members. They don't mourn the loss of their young. They don't have hopes and dreams for the future. They are prey animals living day to day with very basic emotions, if any at all. I don't deny they want to live, but they have no "rights" to live like humans do. They have yet to fight for it themselves.

Stupid Comment #8: "You don't have the claws and teeth that other carnivorous animals have so you are not intended to eat meat."

I never did understand this argument. I never said I was a pure carnivore! Humans are naturally omnivores, more like foxes and raccoons. I never, in all my years arguing with vegans, said humans are 100% carnivores like cats or killer whales. Look at omnivorous primates, like baboons. They also don't have claws. But they still manage to catch prey. Look at chimps, they don't have claws either, or the teeth carnivores have. They are still able to eat meat. Catch my drift?

Stupid Comment #9: "You have to use guns and spears to catch prey, so you are not meant to eat meat."

Yes, we do use guns and spears to catch prey. So what??!! Guns and spears are to us, what razor-sharp claws and 3-inch fangs are to a lion. It's our weaponry. The only reason lions did not come up with guns and spears to hunt prey is because they were too stupid. So nature gave them built-in weapons to compensate for their lack of brains.

Stupid Comment #10: "If you were meant to eat meat, I want to see you catch your own prey and eat everything, even the eyes and the anus."

LOL! If you want to see me capture prey, I'll do it! I'm from the South bro! I've done it before. But even predators have their preferred meat. Only the scavengers eat ALL the prey, like the eyes and anus. I prefer breast meat. Some people like darker meat, like the hind legs. But I stick to breast meat.

Stupid Comment #11: "Since you like drinking milk, how about if I rape your mother and kill your baby so you will know how a calf feels."

This is why vegans get threatened by normal people. Because they threaten to rape someone's family member and kill their children just because they drink milk. Then they constantly cry "Well meat-eaters have threatened me before!" Well, this is why! They put the dignity of a prey animal over the dignity of a human. It is totally unnatural for any creature to do that! Even more unnatural than one mammal drinking the milk of another mammal. Yes, I have even seen adult animals of one species drink milk from another species before!

Stupid Comment #12: "Vegans live longer than meat-eaters."

WRONG AGAIN!!! My great-great aunt lived to be 102, and ate meat for every meal. My grandma never ate meat until she was in her 50s, and she almost died when she turned 50 because of it.

Yes, believe me when I say I have heard all these sentences before come from vegans! Stupid and messed-up as they sound. Really, they don't know it, but they are no better than the Westboro Baptist Church saying everyone who does not practice their religion is going to hell. They use scare-tactics to get their word across, and they rarely do it for the health benefits. They do it only to save some prey animals' butts.

More Stories Coming Soon!

Well, I dug through my pile of books that I now keep in my van (until I can move out and get a place of my own) and brought out every single book that I still have that I wrote in the past. There was one I was looking for, but never found. It's the one that has the original Celina and the Tyrannosaur from 1993. I figure I may need it. But I also found it in a review from 2000, and I guess that will come in handy. That should be good enough, as long as it is dated before 2006. My biggest fear is that 20th Century Fox will see that story and say that it was ripped off from their movie, A Night At the Museum. When I first saw the movie in 2006, there is a scene with a friendly tyrannosaur skeleton that wants to play ball. Much like Rex in the story with Celina. That was the one part of the movie that made me smile, because it reminded me so much of the story that was written for UMG Productions. But unfortunately I don't have the original anymore. I threw a lot of books away when I moved to Port Angeles, and didn't have enough room for them in that trailer. That sadly must have been among the books I threw away. But I have a piece of it in a review from 2000. Good thing I did that!!! It even has it's release date on there.

I used to do that all the time, every 5 years, I would create a review of all the stories I did in the past, starting from 1980 to the year that review came out. I used to do that! It kinda got to be a hassle. The last of those that I did was in 2000. In 2005, we decided to dispense with the typical review and just create a website to showcase the stories, and we did, and I am still working on it to this day. Poor Trish, she's spent so much to get this site up and going, and this idea I have now has been the most cost-effective. I think I'll stick with this one. No more hiring someone to try and build the site again, just stick with what we got now. It's good enough! It offers both paperback versions and ebook, whatever suits the taste of the readers! I've been working on one story for a while, and it too has the Mad Anaconda in it. Well, he also makes an appearance in a story from 1992, and in that story, his name is Andy Anaconda. So, I guess he does have a name. I just always called him the Mad Anaconda. LOL! But I also have a different character named Andy, in the story the Lemur and the Mermaid, from 1985. Though I think I am going to change it to Andrew. Andrew sounds better. And Andy makes me think of that idiot back in Bozeman. I know I didn't know him when that story was written! But still! Now, my mind has been damaged about that name. But I still love Andrew (Farriss) hehehe! So I might switch to that name instead.

I always did the stories back in the day in compilation format, that is several stories were all in the same sketchbooks. The same book that had Celina and the Tyrannosaur also had this story I am working on. This story also has the Mad Anaconda in it. LOL! His victim here is Caroline, one of the few times I used her in the 90s. It's also the last time I used the Mad Anaconda too. Because the following year, I learned to love snakes. Before, I thought of them as mindless killers who love to bite for fun. But not anymore! That changed after a long talk I had with someone who was a snake expert. I guess that's why I got the urge to work on it. Because it's his last appearance ever, and it kinda represents a turning-point in my life. I was growing up. I was also moving away from the anger I felt as a child. I dunno. Some stories written are stories, with a beginning, plot and end. Some are just purely an anecdote. Not much point to the story, just purely for entertainment. I should label these accordingly.

I feel bad for Donna, I have to sit out in the living room and work on this shit! Well, the cooler does not reach my room, so I need to sit out here in order to keep cool. Otherwise I would be working on this stuff in my room. I am learning quite a bit about Donna while sitting out here. LOL! When she gets angry, she gets PISSED!!! If Donna were as shallow as Patti was, I'd probably have been kicked out by now! But thank GOD Donna is NOT like Patti!! No, when something goes wrong, she doesn't even fully blame me. She takes responsibility herself too. Whereas Patti never took responsibility. Everything with her was always the other person's fault, and was unforgivable. Ya know something, I'd been thinking about the comparison between Donna and Patti, I kinda wonder if Patti was a set-up? Perhaps the people of the Craigslist pet forums told her to take me in and act all pleasant during the interview, and gradually become an asshole. I don't know. But either Patti was a set-up, or I was right all along and her brain is totally fucked up and she was looking for someone to bully. I wonder if she bullied her brothers, and maybe that is why they left her. I know before I moved in with her, she had lived with 2 of her brothers. She probably bullied them to a point where they said "I ain't taking this no more" and moved away from her. Then Patti looked for a younger, more naïve person, like me, to move in with her for her to bully and push around. Thank GOD Donna is altogether. She's had her kids, she's not looking to raise anymore. Patti never had kids, so she was looking for someone to take the frustrations she felt of what was probably years of people bullying her, out on. Even though I had nothing to do with her being bullied. She needs to see a shrink either ways!

Talk about someone who is damaged! LOL! Anyways, I want to close this with a very special announcement. Happy Birthday TIM FARRISS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Luv ya man!! Hope your day is filled with as much laughter and happiness as you have given me all these years!! Tim does not have a Facebook page. I am surprised Jon does!! Jon needs to tell his oldest brother that he needs to get his butt on Facebook and create a page!!! I'd join, for sure. One of my facebook friends said though that he hates social media. Sometimes I don't blame him! That is why I never created a Timmyfan Whispers page on Facebook. Social media can be toxic!! Can you imagine the number of death threats I would receive each day? LOL! Or how much negativity would pour in? People got something to say they can comment on here. Not that I'll read it. LOL! I only read comments my sis posts, and she wouldn't be coming here anonymously. Well, maybe a Facebook page wouldn't be so bad. Someday perhaps.

My Cinnamon Challenge

LOL! A couple weeks ago, I did the cinnamon challenge, which is popular on YouTube. The reactions you see in peoples' faces is supposed to be funny. So, I decided to try it, just to see if I could do it. I even posted it on Facebook so my friends could see that I am a wuss. Well, apparently one friend did not like me doing the cinnamon challenge because the next day, I went into Facebook and noticed one of my friends was gone from my list. Well, I just found out who it was. Ya know I wish Facebook would let us know these things, then I can know not to expect posts from that person again. Well, all I can say is thank GOD!! LOL! This particular friend is someone I have been trying to get rid of for quite some time. She's always complaining!! There has been more than one or two times I've nearly deleted her myself!

The first time she complained to me about something, I had posted a pic that my ma posted on her page, and it was about how real men like women with curves, and only a dog lays down with a bone. Well, this hurt this person's feelings because she told me she would kill to be able to gain some weight, but can't because she had some health issues. I didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings, so I took the picture down. If I had known she was going to end everything this way, I would have just said to her "Fuck you! How dare you tell me what I shouldn't post on my wall! You're not my friend anymore! Delete!" But then because she had some health issues that would have made me look like an insensitive ogre. I didn't want that. I always like to think I'll always be there for my friends. But from that day on, I got nothing but complaints and griping from her. UGH!! Like I said, I've wanted to delete her myself more than just once. Her constant complaining got old fast!!! But you all know me, I'm too kind-hearted to delete anyone. I let them make that choice. And this person just saved me the trouble, and probably more months of aggravation! I'll tell you, it's like Sara (Mcgillicutty). You do something nice for them once, and they expect they can control everything you do from there on out!! I have to learn to STOP giving in to people, and just shut their asses off! Even if I like them.

Once more, I do NOT censor myself. I say exactly what is on my mind. If someone does not like it, I'd rather they leave and not look back than to constantly complain about everything I post, or take those cartoons I post on Facebook WAY too seriously and ask me to delete, which I will never do again for anybody! Would I accept this person back on my friends list? Hell NO!! If someone cannot handle my worst, they don't deserve my best. And that was the last time I am ever letting anyone tell me what I can and cannot post on my own page! I still say I have the most awesome friends on Facebook, the strongest of the strong! And each day, the weaker gets weeded out more and more. And that's a good thing! Well, there are a few people I'd still like to get rid of, but again, I say let them make that choice. I don't want to. Most of them are people who do not communicate with me hardly at all. One used to communicate with me a lot, and even sent me  a box of chocolates once. But she and I just have totally different interests. Like, she loves INXS's latest album, and I just don't. Simple as that. Since we disagreed with each other on that, she has stopped communication. Lately I have begun to break any ties with her too, because it seems she does not want me commenting to her again. I can sense things like that! Even over the internet. I have a great knack for that. I may delete her, or I may let her delete herself (I know it will happen one way or another sooner or later).

Even my ma didn't like me doing the cinnamon challenge much. She thought it was stupid. LOL! She said I was a grown woman and know better than to do things like that. I asked her if she wanted me to give her the address she can go to to rent a sense of humor. LOL! I told her to chill, it's supposed to be FUNNY! And I added "Laugh a little!" And my father, when I spoke to him over the phone, he asked me why I would do something like that, and I replied "for laughs". LOL! It's supposed to be funny. The peoples' reaction when they put that heaping spoon of pure cinnamon in their mouths is supposed to make people who view the video laugh. And it usually does. But not my parents! Seemed to make them angry. Oh well! LOL! At least it got some laughs from youtube!

Now, I have a lot to do today. I want to get all the books I ever wrote out of the van, where I have been storing all my books. I need to bring them in here so I can look through them. I am getting rather serious about finishing UMG Productions. So, I will be working earnestly on that.

Bittersweetness

Well, on a positive note today, I did get my sketchbooks. But it wasn't exactly the reunion I was hoping for. One book is from 1988, but most of it is unusable for the site. It's so obscure, I even forgot I wrote it!! Most of it is nothing but nature/animal reviews. One story that is in it has some potential, I need to tweak it a bit, with some of Cathy's help because I think she wrote the story. But it is unfinished. So, I need to have her dig in her memory bank and see if she can remember how the story is supposed to go. It's about a young woman named Maxie (who I later changed to Misty) who is horse-riding along in a forest by a river when she almost runs over a baby sifaka. The story has potential, but like I said, it needs some tweaking, and needs to be finished. A lot of my stories depict people on horseback, especially from this era, because back then, that was my most favorite pastime. I always LOVED horseback riding!!! But did it more back then.

The other book is from 1989, and it does have the story I wanted to use. But it too needs some tweaking, and an ending. That was commonplace back then for me to begin a story, lose interest in it, and not finish it. Again, I have to dig back into my own memory bank and try to remember how I wanted that story to end. I re-wrote the story in 1994, when Mushmouth came back from a long vacation, so I might can go on that. These I will work on, first chance I get, and will put them up on the site. They should be seen! They both have quite a bit of potential! But I am afraid the rest of the stories in these books are unusable. Either they are bits and pieces of scenes, or they are too much like other stories (or TV shows) that inspired them. Though a great deal of my stories are influenced in some way by stories, or shows that were trending at the time, they are still mostly my own ideas put together. Like in some of my stories from 1995, Beavis and Butthead were a big thing with me, and in some ways, you can see the affect they had on my stories of the time. Stupidity was the key factor there. People LOVE stupidity in cartoons, stories and TV shows, so I capitalized on that.

But unfortunately, I did not get back the books from earlier in 1988. I guess Sam did not have them! :( The book that has the story of how Martin met Genny is gone forever. I guess I didn't throw them away in the same trash can and so no one rescued that story. But hey! That's OK. Trisha has a copy, and I have it on the website. But I look at these stories from long ago, and I look at my drawings today, I improved 1000%!!! I remember back in middle school, there was this boy named Jason Ellis, who was one of those kids who bullied me throughout my last year in middle school. Thank GOD he did not go to my high school!!! Anyways, I remember he always knew me as the girl who drew pictures of dogs, but did not do them very well in his eyes. Some people loved my drawings, but he did not. Not at all! LOL! One day I was doodling on my notebook, and Jason came up to me and said "You're still drawing those dogs! God they don't look so good!" Well, he was entitled to his opinion, so I just didn't say anything. But I always wondered why, if he did not like my drawings, did he even bother to look. But hey! That's a person's right. But looking back on these drawings I did in 1988 and 89, I can actually see what Jason meant!! LOL! My drawings were crappy! Even I think so now, looking at these. But I will keep them anyways. They are a piece of UMG history.

I was thinking back to my turning point in my drawing, and remembering how I got better over the years. I think I got better when I got away from drawing mammals, and turned to drawing other things, like birds, and even dinosaurs. Then came the animals of the future. That was my big turning point. These are animals that do not exist today, so no one can look at them and say "this animal is not supposed to look like this" or something to that effect. These are animals I created, so they can look any way I want them to look! And really, each year even that changes as I learn more about evolution. I don't know, Sam might even have those books, but perhaps he just doesn't want to let them go. They were better creations. I might ask him that, but I don't know. I don't think he'll answer, he probably just wants to get rid of me now. LOL!

Well, on a bad note, my sis needs help. She called me this morning crying, and not feeling too good. She was thinking about Odessa again, and one of her best friends in the building has moved out. I know how she feels! I've lost friends before too. I hope she is able to still contact her through Facebook. But I remember growing up and either having good friends move away, or us move away from them. I never got over this one move we made and I lost my Brownie and Girl Scout troup friends. Only to move to a rotten neighborhood with rotten kids who sucked donkey balls!! The worst thing about that is that is where I had to go to middle school and high school at, so from 3rd grade to high school, I was miserable!! But now, my sis's best buddy in that building has moved out, and it makes her all the more sad. And I am not there to help her in person. As for Odessa, that is something that I cannot help. She just needs more time to get used to the fact she is not there anymore. But I know how that feels too. I had a hard time learning to cope after I lost Groucho. It takes a while.

I remembered dogs I've lost in the past, and the one that came to mind was Hutchess. I was so pensive after I lost her to parvo, it was 5 years before I could even say her name. Before that time, I mostly just referred to her as "that dog I had that died of parvo", or I would just not talk about her. But that's how bad I was. Pretty much the same after I lost Groucho. I had a pic of Groucho and Odessa together that I planned to use for Christmas cards in 2006, but Groucho died that year, so I could not even look at that picture anymore for a LONG time! Much less turn them into Christmas cards. My mama thinks I should not even have pets, because we get so depressed when they die on us. I told her it would be no different than if we had kids that something bad happened to. But you live, you go on, you get a new dog, and start all over again. I for one, cannot live without a pet. That's just me. They become my children. Just NO cats!! LOL! I'd never be that fricken desperate for a pet!!!

Timmyfan vs. Doyledeth and the Big Bad Fox???

Well, after I got Doyledeth's opinion and another like him that gave his idea, who calls himself the Big Bad Fox??? (that's his handle, question marks and all) and I gave mine, I thought I would write some more happenings that went on after my last post. As usual, I directed them both to this blog. I always do, if I am talking about someone, I always let them know it. I want their response, if they want to give it. Well, after I gave Doyledeth my response to his initial post, I heard back from him saying something to the effect of "What the fuck are you talking about???" He got angry because I said he's been broken by society. I still believe that! That was when the Big Bad Fox??? came in and basically was trying to talk me out of saying that Doyledeth is a broken person.

Doyledeth started accusing me of being an attention seeker. I said to him "If I did come here seeking attention dude, I'm sure doing a damn good job of getting it from you now!" LOL! Then the Big Bad Fox??? asked me why I would say Doyledeth is a broken person just because he gave an opinion. I said because he seems like a person who has been lied to a lot. Well then Doyledeth came and retorted with sarcasm, he said "No shit! Oh you are so observant! Everyone has been lied to at some point in their lives" Well, yes I would say that is a good observation. I have been lied to many times before too. The difference between me and Doyledeth is that he has completely let it go to his head. To a point where it has damaged him. Doyledeth thought he made me angry, and then said that instead of me making him angry, I made him laugh. Then he said thanks for the chuckles. I said to him "Who's angry? Not me." I said something to the effect of "If I were angry as you say I am, don't you think I would have said something to the effect of fuck you by now?" Katrina would have said it long ago. LOL! But no, I couldn't be angry with this guy. I told him if anything I am laughing at him as much as, if not more than, he is laughing at me, because he is trying (I think too hard) to piss me off. But that is not my style. I don't get angry at people for having their own opinion, like he was accusing me of. I reminded him that I was the one who said first in this conversation that he is entitled to his beliefs.

I am not mad at Doyledeth or the Big Bad Fox??? But now I understand why John never goes around and discusses his celebrity friends from his past. Because of ass-clowns like these. Well, I should not say that, as I don't know if they are ass-clowns. LOL! I did not even try to convince these two that I was telling the truth. In fact, I only mentioned that my stepfather is an old friend of Robin Williams once or twice. I didn't mention it again simply because I didn't feel the need to. I had my say. If they didn't believe it, that's fine. Like I said, I'd have thought the same thing if I were in their shoes. But someday I might ask ma if I can borrow John's scrapbook and scan those pics of him with Robin Williams. They were from the late 60s or early 70s, well before Mork and Mindy. I'm not out to change anyone's opinion. I just state what I know, and that's it. But today, I decided it'd be fun to have a little fun with these people. My last message was from the Big Bad Fox??? But I didn't read it. I didn't because I did not want to carry on that conversation with them all day. I had better ways to spend my afternoon. Besides, I ran out of things to say, and I was not going to keep repeating myself to them. No sense in it!

John was once a big country music station DJ in the early 70s in San Diego. He met a lot of people through that. Some big-name buddies he had (and still has) is Kenny Rogers, the Judds, Dolly Parton, and he has letters and pics of these people in his scrapbook. It's not a far cry that he is also friends with Robin Williams. But the reason he doesn't go around talking about them is because obviously people like Doyledeth and the Big Bad Fox??? It's just hard for anyone to believe that celebrities can have friends that are just average people. But I am sure a lot of them do. John being the best example I can think of. He's also met Adam Ant, and didn't like him. He's also met Chubby Checker and Andy Warhol. John does NOT like Adam Ant! LOL! I told him I only like a few of his songs, one from 1983 and one from 1990. He doesn't sing too bad, but when I heard that he only likes fans of his that are pretty, I stopped any deep interest in him before it started.

Well, I got my Batman clock today, but when I tried it to see if it runs, I found that the movement is crappy. LOL! Oh well, it's only a standard clock motor that you can get at a craft store, I might could fix it myself. Tomorrow, I should get my sketchbooks. So this is what Sam needed the $20 for! LOL! Well, at least I will be getting it. I cannot wait to see them again! Copies are fine, but nothing beats the real thing. I thought though for sure there were 3 books. But I only saw 2 in the picture Sam sent me. I could have just been mistaken. Anyways, I will find out tomorrow, they are on their way, and supposed to reach here tomorrow. I just cannot wait to see them! It'd be so neat just to have my full collection of sketchbooks back from the past. Even the far-distant past. There is one story I am trying to remember that I would just love to put on the site. It's like the Discouraged Lemur part 2. I remember the beginning of it, and it would not be in any of these sketchbooks coming. It's a story that Katie started but I don't remember if she ever finished it before she died. I helped her write it though. Unfortunately the little black sketchbook that one would have been in was thrown away a LONG time ago!! I remember the beginning, bits and pieces of it anyways. But I don't remember if it was ever finished. I remember Tony the tyrant lemur being captured and taken to the circus in the USA. But he wants to get back home to his master and the sheep farm. And I remember a sympathetic rat who aims to help him, and a small group of penguins, who are akin to the 3 Stooges, who help them as well. That's all I remember. I've been trying to remember the rest.

RIP Robin Williams

Well, I cannot say he was one of my most favorite actors, but he was a very funny man. So, this is indeed a sad loss. Recently, I learned about him doing a video with a youtuber whose name was Ray William Johnson. And Undertakerfreak was PISSED!!!!! He clobbered his own bedroom wall when he found out!! He thought appearing in a video with a youtuber would make him lose credibility. I told him to relax. RWJ probably paid Robin Williams big to appear in his video. He could afford to. He was the first YouTube made millionaire. But anyways, this is a big loss in comedy, all the greats are dying off.

I remember back in 1990, before ma and John were married, my ma told me that John and Robin Williams used to be neighbors, and friends, before Williams became famous, back in the late 60s and early 70s. John even has pictures of himself with Robin Williams when they were both younger. Of course John is a lot older than Robin Williams. Well, the problem with that is, if you tell people things like that, they tend to not believe you. I mentioned it a couple of times, and already I got one person, who calls himself Doyledeth, who said he calls bullshit! LOL! Well, I really cannot blame him. It's hard to believe celebs can have friends who are just average people. Though John was once a very big DJ in San Diego once. That was where they met. But I personally would think that if I were going to make something like that up, I would have said I knew the man myself, but I never met him. Or, I might have used the name of an actor that I thought was far more attractive than Robin Williams! LOL! This was the message from Doyledeth that I woke up to:

"Yup, you and 100s of other people claiming to either know him themselves or a family member knew him or some BS like that. Or your stepdad just lied about it."

 

And yes I did 1+ his comment. LOL! Well, since I understand how he feels, I could not get angry at him. So, my response was not too long-winded and sweet:

 

"+Doyledeth Well dude, that's your opinion. Frankly I cannot say I have proof, just pictures of the two of them together and letters they wrote back and forth to each other for years after my mom and stepfather married. But personally I'd think if someone were going to make something like that up, I'd have said I was a friend of his myself. But I personally have never met the guy. But hey! That's OK. Obviously you have been damaged by society, and I don't blame you. You'll likely respond with a retort you learned from someone else who has damaged you. I know people like you, so I understand. It's A-OK! You are entitled to your own beliefs. :)"

 

If he does respond, and I am sure he will, I know what he's going to say, he's going to say "that is complete and utter BULLSHIT!!!" or something to that affect. I don't know him, but I know his type. He's no different than the delusional mods, who I dealt with for years and kinda got used to their ways. See, I wish to GOD I could be Tim Farriss' friend, but I am not! I never claimed to be. We've met, and I like him a lot. And he seemed OK with me. But I cannot consider us friends. We didn't exchange phone numbers, or email addresses, or home addresses, you know all those things that friends do. So, if I were going to claim to be friends with any celebrity, it would be Timmy. Not Robin Williams. He and my stepfather just happened to be friends a long time ago. That's all I can say. I will ask my ma tomorrow when we spend the day together if John got the news and how it made him feel.

 

I have friends on Facebook who are friends with famous people, more so than I am! In fact, meeting celebrities is just not my thing. It just happens to me. I think GOD is on my side, but I have too good of luck with celebs. Every time I go to Hollywood (the 2 or 3 times I've been there) I always meet someone famous. Last time, I was taking a pic of my Groucho and they happened to be doing a movie shoot around us. That's what doesn't show up in those photos! Since I saw a full-on camera crew, I'm sure there were actors and actresses around me, but I don't keep up with modern celebs, so I wouldn't know that person even if they spat on me! LOL!! But I know it was a professional camera crew, their cameras were like those you see in big movie studios. Not like the ones you find in any store. But I do not actively go out and meet celebrities like some of my friends do. I am too people-shy for that. And I am always afraid I will meet someone I love and they won't like me. Or they will snub me like Kirk did.

 

I tell you all, I used to LOVE Kirk! He was right up there with Timmy as being one of my most favorite band members of INXS. But almost every time I met him, he was not very friendly to me. He was not mean or hostile, and didn't call me names or anything. It was more like I wasn't good enough for his attention. I said hello to him, and he did not say hello back. Not even so much as a smile. I've seen rock stars before who only give any attention to their prettiest fans, that's one reason I don't like Adam Ant, and I guess Kirk did not think I was pretty enough to say hello to. It hurt me, and hurt me badly. So that is why I have this special shyness about meeting famous people, and do not actively go out and do that. Because I've always been scared to death of something like that happening with a celeb I always loved. It ruined my affinity for Kirk. I am no longer a fan of his. I cannot help it either.

 

But I understand where this guy Doyledeth is coming from, I'm not sure I would be able to believe it myself if someone said something like that at a time like this, on the day Robin Williams died. Yesterday I heard from Sam again, and he said it was 94 in Tacoma. I told him that's a big switch! It was 69 here in Reno when I responded to him. I could not prove that either, and it may have been hard for him to believe too. Most people who think of Reno think of a place that gets up to over 90 degrees every day in summer. All Sam had to go on was my word, and the only proof I had was the gray skies and my roommate's thermometer outside. I could not show that to Sam at that moment. So if he wouldn't have believed me, I would have fully understood, because I may have not believed it either unless I'd seen it with my own eyes. It's the same exact principle. So, if Doyledeth's objective was to piss me off, sorry but he did not succeed. And I know he is still going to retort to repeating that my initial comment about my stepfather and Robin Williams being old friends from the past is bullshit. But hey! I'm fine with that. I still say, RIP Robin Williams, and blessings to his family.

 

Anyways, I'm going to close this post with more shameless advertising for UMG Productions. I've put up 2 more stories. One is a story that I based on the death of my Groucho. It's called Brittney's New Pet. Brittney takes the place of me in this story, well, when I lost Groucho, I felt like a little lost child! But in this story, Brittney's mom, Rosa, tells her she can always get another pet. So, Brittney takes that as permission to go find another pet, and she is happy again. Rosa does have her limits though. But you know how kids are, they always want what they cannot have. So, that is what this story is all about. The other story I put up is called The Break-In. This story is NOT recommended for children! It's based on the guy who tried to rape me back in 1990. So, it's got some mild implied violence and cussing, and also some adult (mature) images. No one is killed, but the rapist does make some threats. Just not something I would expose a child to. Young adults maybe OK with this story, as long as they are mature. The outcome is not so bad, and the rapist does get arrested, thanks to the pet of the house! Anyways, read the story. It's pretty good!

Sam Strikes Again!

LOL! OK funny title done. So far he's not been an evil person. But I did finally send the money I promised to him to send the sketchbooks to me. Now, I know he got it, but I am not sure what to do from here. Since he got it, and I am aware he did, I don't know if he's going to let me know when he sends them or not. I'll probably just have to wait, but if I do not see the books here in a week, I'm going to report him to PayPal. I'll have to! I don't have that kind of money to be throwing around like that. But I'm giving Sam a chance to prove himself, and prove me wrong. I will keep you all informed of what happens.

I done did the stupidest thing I could ever possibly do this month! Even though it is the beginning of the month and I already have a lot of money problems, I ordered a decorative clock that I've been wanting for a long time! It all started back in 1992. I was heavily into Batman. I had just gotten released from that babysitting/nanny/housekeeper job with Patti and Chris, and after that, I had gotten into Batman very heavily. Well, a nearby video store was having a sale and I went there to purchase some videos I wanted. Well, I more fell in love with this clock they had hanging on the wall. It had an image of Batman, the Joker, Penguin, Riddler and Catwoman. I wanted that clock so bad!! I asked the attendant there at the store if I could buy that clock from them. They said no because it is a promotional item created only for video stores. That was heartbreaking! I had to go home with a load of video tapes, and no Batman clock!

Well, the other night, because possibly getting these sketchbooks, I've been thinking about things from my past, I thought again about that clock. I thought about looking on ebay for it, because John said you can get ANYTHING on ebay!! So, I went in looking for that clock. Well, I found it! The seller had where the buyer can make an offer, and I did. I offered the seller $30 for it. With $14 for shipping, I figured that was the most I could afford!! Well, I will be so glad to get that clock!!! I collect clocks anyways, I love them!! I've always been so fascinated by clocks, I don't know why. I also collect Batman stuff. So it's a win-win deal with this clock.

Last night, I had another blast from the past, in the form of a dream. I dreamed about a mediocre and obscure character I created when I was 7 years old. It's the only human character I ever created when I was a kid. His name is Bob. I only drew him a few times, and only because of my mama's discretion. She wanted me to learn to draw people, because I'd mostly been drawing animals all my life. So, I drew this little boy, with a few hairs on his head, big eyes, denim jacket, big smile, and always carrying rubber stamps around (before they became a scrapbooking fad). Bob is also a musician that plays the concertina, and has a little miniature band. Using today's standards, Bob kinda looks like little Tommy on Rug Rats. Only he's like a teenager, still with only a few hairs on his head. Anyway, I only used him in a story once, and I forgot the story until I had that dream last night.

Another obscure character I created for my stories is a character I call 'The Mad Anaconda'. Not mad as in angry, mad as in insane. He is insane. I love anacondas, but this character, you don't want to meet him! LOL! He made his first appearance in 1986 in the story The Mischievous Mongoose, and has made several small appearances since. The last being in 1993. I call him The Mad Anaconda because he gets pleasure out of catching UMG characters and squeezing them into unconsciousness. He gets killed sometimes, but keeps coming back! LOL! He kinda is a representation of myself having grown up an angry child. I was horrible!! And this anaconda in my stories was kindof a release of some of that anger. He doesn't have a name, he doesn't have really a big role in UMG stories, I just call him The Mad Anaconda. And basically his only role was a tension release. Well, he made his last appearance in 1993, because that was the year I turned that part of my life around. I didn't want to remain that angry child anymore, so I began working on that part of my life. Though I admit, when I got on the internet for the first time, I had to work on that all over again. But learning to ignore the trolls and haters has completely changed my internet persona. I'm a happier person now.

You know what else changed me? Believe it or not, and this may sound odd, but this character The Watcher changed my attitude! But not in the way she might have hoped. LOL! I was so flattered when she called me a "stalking whale" I think it went a little to my head! hehehe! Because ever since then, I've been acting like a narcissistic jerk! LOL! Its one thing when someone who likes you says you are beautiful. But when someone who hates you implies you are beautiful, I guess that really makes you feel good! Because they've got to be sincere about it if they don't like you because of it. And calling me a whale, well, I consider that a compliment! Why shouldn't I? Whales are beautiful, graceful creatures, in spite of their bulk. And they are more intelligent than any other mammal. Every fat woman should consider being called a whale a compliment!! Not an insult!

Well, now I'm a completely different person than I was in 1993, when the last story with the Mad Anaconda came out. And yes, I am working on that story, and I am considering putting it on the website. Though I haven't decided yet. Some stories, the meaning is rather hard to see, so I don't know if it's going to be a story that the public will enjoy. But I am working on it anyways, just for the sheer fuck of it.

Oh yes, and one more thing.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY JON FARRISS!!!! I said this to him on Facebook, but I also want to say it here! Love ya man!!!

Blast From The Past!

Today was quite an exciting day, and just a couple hours after I woke up. Yesterday is when it all got started. My mama and I were out together cruising around. When she dropped me off here at my place, we usually start talking among each other. One of the subjects that came up was our old family friends, Brenda, Tara and Lucious. Ma started to remember all the crazy things Tara and I did when we were kids. I met Tara when she was 4 years old, and I was 5. We grew up together and at times, I was closer to her than I was to my own sis. We had our fights and battles, like all friends do, but I never stopped loving her like a sister.

Well, some months ago, I was looking for any of them on Facebook. I knew Tara had gotten married, but I had no idea what her married name is. Brenda, I wasn't even so sure if she was married again, or even still alive. So, I figured my only chance was to find Lucious. But I was not sure if he still lived in Washington state, or if he had done moved to Cleveland, OH like Tara and Brenda did. Well, I searched on Facebook for Lucious, and I did find a 20-year old guy with the same name, and his selfie he has for his profile pic looks just like Lucious did when he was a young boy. Well, as ma and I were talking about them, I wanted to show her this kid's profile, and look at his pic a little better. She agreed he looked just like Lucious did when he was a boy. And he lived in WA, and went to the same high school Tara and Lucious did. Well, when I got to this guy's page, there were a couple of pics he had been tagged in that really caught my attention. They were pictures of a man holding a baby, and the name on the pic said it was Big Lou. Well, the last time I saw Lucious, Tara's oldest child was with him, and called him "uncle Lou". And the man in the pic holding the baby looked exactly like Lucious did the last time I saw him! Ma and I looked and both of us said "That IS Lucious!"

Well, after ma and I were about 85% sure we were looking at a picture of Lucious, I PM'd this kid. I asked him if his father's name is also Lucious, and if he has an aunt named Tara, and a grandma named Brenda. Well, as of now, I haven't heard back from him yet. But last night I was so intrigued by the similarities in the picture, I decided to look further at some more of his pictures. I found someone named Tara among his Facebook friends and so I investigated her page. I looked at some of her pictures and I noticed she had the biggest smile I ever seen! I recognized that smile immediately! This was my old childhood friend, Tara!! If nothing else stood out, that smile of her's did! She always had the biggest, brightest, most beautiful smile I'd ever seen in my life!! She still does! I said, "If she lives in Cleveland then this is definitely her!" So I looked and sure enough, she lives in Cleveland! I wanted to be 100% positive it was her, so I PM'd her too. Well she answered right away, and asked me who I was, because I was under the name Dee Timmyfan. So I told her who I was and who my ma was, and then she remembered me. hehehe! We had a few minutes chat with each other, but someday I would like to have a video chat with her. I wonder if she would remember some of the old crazy things we did as kids that my ma brought up yesterday.

Well, she told me some of the things going on in her life now. She has 4 kids, although when I last saw Brenda in 1994, she said Tara had 6 kids now. Oh well. 2 of her children are all grown up and have kids of their own. She has 2 young ones with her now, she said her daughter does not want kids at all. I told her about Vegas, who I guess one would say is my kid. Tara remembered how I always loved animals. LOL! I was the one drawn to animals, while she always had a baby in her arms. She loved kids! That's for sure! She also remembered how my sis was the one to teach her to ride a bicycle. That's funny, I remembered my sis teaching me to ride one, but until Tara mentioned that, I had forgotten she taught her too. Tara's family and my family were very close! My family taught her things her family didn't, and her family taught me things my family didn't. Her family made our family complete, and vice-versa. I remember her father left Brenda soon after we met. So, the only real father figure Tara and Lucious had growing up in WA state was my father. And they took to him very well. And Brenda was always like a second mother to me.

Now if only I could find more of my childhood friends on Facebook! There's so many I'd love to find. I'd like to find some of my old buddies from High school, maybe from middle school. Who knows? I managed to find Tara and Brenda, maybe I will find others too if I look hard enough.

Odd Song Lyrics

Have you ever listened to a song and heard something that sounds so strange in the lyrics that it makes you repeat what you thought they said, or think "Did he really say that??" I know quite a few songs like that. I hear the singing, and sometimes I hear something that sounds so outlandish that I think to myself "What did he/she say?" I'm very much into songs of the 80s, especially from 1984 and up. Well, there's a few songs from the earlier years that I like, but most of my favorites come from after 1983. Songs I like from the earlier 1980s are very few, and more likely from well-established artists like Donna Summer. Anyways, I was listening to some today and it inspired me to write this blog post.

Funny how when the music is going, we hear things in the songs we probably would not hear if we just heard the singing without the music. Maybe it's because of the way the music is mixed, or maybe while the music is going, our minds concentrate so much on that that it can play tricks on us. I don't know for sure. But I have often heard some weird sentences in songs that I wondered were really there. So, today I decided to do some more research on these songs. One example of a song with strange lyrics, or so I thought, is Because The Night by 10,000 Maniacs. I have that song on my MP3 player. I like it too. I first heard it in 1993, when one night I decided to listen to the radio once again. I started and never stopped, LOL! But there is one line in that song that sounded kinda strange to me. I seriously thought the song was written for the movie Free Willy. This is why...

What I thought it said: "The way I feel I'm the orca man"
Or "The way I feel 'bout the Orkin man"
LOL!
What she is really singing is: "The way I feel under your command"

Even the real lyric there sounds kinda dumb, but it is still a very good song. There is another song that I like that I listen to quite frequently, it is U2's Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For. I love the song, I'm not a great huge fan of U2, but I do like quite a few of their songs. The music in this song is great, reminds me of the days when I was a kid and used to go to this pit near our house and play there all day. But in the middle of this song there is a lyric that every time I heard it, always made me wonder what the heck he was saying! LOL! When you hear it, it'll make you laugh...

What I thought it said: "I have had hands on the tin ball"
I always wondered "Why the heck is he singing about tin balls??"  LOL! That'd sure make Katrina laugh!!
What he really said: "I have held the hand of the devil"

Even INXS has some lyrics that sound different in the songs, and you all know by now how Michael swoons me! Sometimes I am concentrating so on his voice, the hell with the lyrics. Well, for many years I got one set of lyrics wrong in a song titled The Stairs. Though I admit I wasn't too far off.

What I thought he said: "The passion is to keep the faith, where all are different, all are great"
What he really said: "The passion lives to keep the faith, though all are different, all are great"

Sometimes, even when we think we're just hearing things in lyrics, it actually turns out that is what the person is singing. Like the song Mony, Mony by Billy Idol. Another great classic song, I also have this on my MP3 player, just like the last 3. But there is one lyric repeated throughout this song that always sounded to me like he was saying "You make me feel like a pony". As it turns out, that is exactly what he is saying! LOL! I remember in high school, there was this fat, blond girl named Tanya, and she used to meow at me. Maybe I made her feel like a cat! LOL! Heck if Billy Idol can feel good like a pony, then I guess Tanya felt good like a cat! LOL! Anyways those are some of the weird song lyrics I've come up with. Got any yourself? Share in the comments!

OK, subject change. I heard from Sam again yesterday and all he wants is enough money to cover shipping and packaging, which is OK. I would have been pissed if he was going to try and make a profit off of me for my own work! Trisha did not like the idea of that either when I told her, and neither did any of my Facebook buddies. Now my goal is just to get these books back. I'm sending him the money through PayPal, that way if he tries to stiff me, I can get PayPal to refund the money. I don't know this person anymore, if I ever did in the first place. I am still not sure who he is! And all he gave me is a PO box for his address. He's obviously got lots of money if he can afford a PO Box! I told him to give me a week or so to get the money. He did show me pics of the sketchbooks and I saw them and said "Yup! Those are MY sketchbooks!" It'd be cool to have them back! Something I never in my life expected! But I haven't got them yet. We'll see what happens.

"Crazy Cat-Lady" Syndrome

There is just no denying the internet has made cats the most loved animals on Earth. GEEZ!! Where the hell was the internet when I was 7-years old??? Back then I would have had a field day on the internet looking at all the cat videos! When I was 7-years old, I loved cats. I think most little girls do though. But I was so hard-pressed to find any other cat lovers like me. If I were still a child today, I would seem to have no problem at all. But back then, most of the people I met were dog-lovers, and I was not then. Everyone I ever met said cats are too sneaky, or creepy, or are funny-looking, or simply said that dogs are better pets. Even other little girls said that to me. Me and this other girl who loved dogs even got into a bit of a confrontation because she liked dogs and I liked cats. She was mocking how a dog could beat a cat's ass. One day, when I was about 8 years old, I was walking home from school and I saw a black mass on the road ahead of me. I wondered what the heck it was. When I got closer, I found out it was my neighbor's cat, which seemed to have just been killed by a car. It's head was completely crushed! Crushed so bad, one of it's eyeballs had been pushed out of the socket with it's brain, which had oozed out of the socket like toothpaste! Yeah, I saw that graphic sight when I was 8 years old! LOL! I thought it was sad, and horrific.

Well, today I am going to talk about the so-called "crazy cat-lady" syndrome. Yes, it is an illness. A mental illness. Since owning cats has been known to affect a person's brain. I see it all the time. A non-cat owner can always tell when someone owns cats because they act all crazy and irrational at times. And it's a certain kind of crazy that you don't see with people who own dogs or any other animals. If a person wants to own a cat, and it has no effect on their brain, I say that's fine. But the "crazy cat-lady" syndrome is something altogether different. Cat people think it's cute. But I think of it from the cat's point of view. Believe it or not, it is nothing more than a passive form of animal abuse. I have one friend who has 3 cats, feeds strays, and has taken in 2 full litters of kittens. I can already see her house in 2 years! Full of cats, litter boxes, and stinking to high heaven! She may think it's cute, but now she can barely feed her own cats! She's asking people for food donations and stuff. I would help her own 3 cats if I could. But I will NOT support the strays or those litters of kittens she insisted on taking in. Which is why I haven't donated anything to her. Much as I'd like to help her 3 pet cats, I will not support stray cats, and I'm afraid that's exactly what she'd do with the food I would donate, feed it to those stupid strays!

Yes, I have hatred for stray cats. They kill birds and other wild life. In a lot of areas, they have caused the extinction of some animals, or endangered status. I think all stray cats should be completely eradicated! Not supported. Before long, there won't be any other animals left in the world except cats. And that would be a dull world! Anyways, back to the subject. The reason I oppose people who want to become "crazy cat people" is because cats were not meant to live in large packs. Cats are not social animals. Keeping so many of them is a bad idea. I've seen cases where people had so many cats, it causes the cats to have respiratory problems, I've seen their eyes burn out literally from all the ammonia in the house, caused by the other cats urinating. They get into constant fights, sometimes killing each other. Large groups of cats are just not meant to live together in the same house. They're not like dogs. But I also would never recommend anyone take in too many dogs either. The most I ever had was 8 dogs at one time. But I was well able to care for them myself. I had no worries about feeding them, I kept the yard clean, and the dogs had proper vet care, and the house was clean too. I didn't ever ask for donations from anyone when I had all those dogs. I would never have had that many dogs if I didn't think I could take care of them all!

The cat people may think this is all so cute, they want to rescue every stray cat they see because they feel so sorry for it. But this is just a form of animal abuse. They may not see it that way because they are looking at it from a human perspective. But think of the cats, not yourself! One or two cats is really enough for any household. Three is pushing it, but still feasible if you can afford it. Any more than that, I'd have to consider it animal abuse. I know this friend does not mean for it to be animal abuse, and I am not saying she is a bad person who intentionally abuses animals. She's not the only crazy cat-person I've met who has taken in every stray cat she sees because she feels sorry for it. None of them think it's animal abuse when they take in 20 or so cats, but it is. Look at it from the cat's perspective. They're not humans. They're not dogs. They're not social animals. They're not safe living in packs. And if you have so many cats that you cannot afford to feed them or get them the vet care they need when they need it, you have WAY too many!! If your cats run away at the sight of you or someone else, they are not properly socialized and could become a nuisance! That person has way too many cats to socialize properly! A person does not need to own all the cats they can find! It's not like they are food or oxygen. And strays should be taken to the shelter to get gassed!! They are the scourge of the animal kingdom!

I thank GOD there is no such thing as a "crazy dog-lady". I would not like that status at all. But then again, dogs don't make people go crazy. And I thank GOD the cats I did have did not make me go too crazy. Not to a point where I took in strays! Or fed them. The most number of cats I ever had at one time was 3. But again, I made sure they were well taken care of. When I couldn't afford them anymore, I sent them to other homes. I'll tell you, I was glad to see those Persians go!! They are gorgeous cats, but they are a pain in the butt to own!!! That's why I prefer cats with little to no hair. Persians have to be constantly groomed and bathed. Their fur is so dense, they can't clean it very well, and start to stink after a while. Plus they cough up hairballs all over the place, and crap often gets stuck to the fur around their butt. When we had Persians, we had to keep a brush in one hand, a bar of soap in the other, and a comb nearby. LOL! That was just to keep them clean. I like Siamese. No hairballs to cough up, no constant bathing and grooming, no crap gets stuck to their butt, and they don't stink! All that stuff you have to contend with when you have a cat with so much hair. But thankfully there are no "crazy dog-lady"s. No, something else has made me crazy. Or maybe I was born crazy. LOL!

Now there is a difference between loving cats and being a total cat-fag. A person who loves cats is someone who has just one or two cats, maybe 3, and does not disrespect people who do not like cats, but just goes on about their own life. A cat-fag is someone who thinks cats can do no wrong, when in fact it is an evil cat, or implies people who don't like cats are stupid, or are not worthy of living. I saw a video one of my buddies posted on Facebook yesterday, and it showed a woman who wanted to get rid of her cat. The cat kept on attacking the woman, and she had to slap at it to get it away from her. Of course all the cat-fags on this friend's list were saying the woman was evil for slapping the cat! But the thing of it is, the cat attacked the woman first! Cat-fags just don't understand some cats are just plain evil! One person even went so far as to say the cat is telling the woman it wants to be left alone. Well, from what I saw in the video, the woman was trying to leave it alone. I think more likely the cat was just doing it for that woman's attention. I see that all the time among cats! See for yourself:

If you can tolerate this behavior from this cat, I say get over there and get it. Otherwise I would recommend this woman put this cat to sleep. Maybe it cannot be rehabilitated, and is just evil.

Cats vs. Panthers

I was thumbing through my posts on Facebook and one of my buddies posted a link to an article that spoke of a child who got his hand bitten off by a tiger that his father took him over the barriers at the zoo to pet. UGH!! Did this father not see that coming?? A tiger is not a pet! It's not something that a person can just reach out and touch without thinking! It's a fucking tiger!! Not a spectacle in a petting zoo!! People piss me off! And this man, as stupid as he is, should never have had a child!!

This is why I hate seeing tv shows and commercials that put panthers in the same light as cats, and why I totally refuse to call panthers "big cats" like everybody else! Because they are not simply "big cats". They are mindless killers and vicious murderers! Never will anyone ever hear or see me calling tigers, lions or leopards "cats"! You put panthers in the same light as cats, people tend to think they are nothing but giant house cats and they're NOT! I  remember on my page on Encyclopedia Dramatica, someone wrote that they said to me that a panther would make a much better pet than a Chihuahua. They said it was a "lulzy conversation". And I said "No, it wasn't a 'lulzy conversation'. That's something you actually believe!" All panther fanatics think panthers will make better pets than dogs. Not true!! Like I said, they are not simply giant house cats! But to those people, I say go ahead and keep some kind of panther in your home! See how that results! I guarantee you, someone will be raking up your dead body parts off your carpet after a year! Then ask a Chihuahua owner if they have any fingers missing because of their Chihuahua.

I hate such movies as The Lion King, first of all for using the word lion and king in the same sentence. Lions are NOT the king of beasts! Any more than I am the queen of the World. But second of all for the way it glorifies lions, making people believe that lions are innocent and harmless animals. Let me tell you the ugly truth about lions; in severe drought, or when the herds have moved away and they no longer have any prey to hunt, males and females will kill their own cubs for food. That's something not portrayed in the Lion King! Lions are often seen killing hyenas, but you notice they never eat them, which means they do not always kill for food, but for fun too. Does that sound nobile? Not to me. Sounds like a bully to me! Usually when you see lions at a kill surrounded by hyenas, chances are the lions stole the kill from the hyenas. But the cat fags always lie about it and say the hyenas steal the kill from the lions. Of all the panthers I hate, it is lions that I hate the absolute MOST!!! I can't stand them. Not even a little bit. I would love to take all lions, put them in some giant enclosure that they cannot escape from, and have them bombed all away. Just wipe the entire species off the face of the Earth! I love it when I see lions getting killed by crocodiles. I cheer the reptiles on!

One of my buds has a child who loves lions. I think if I ever found myself with a child that says lions are her (or his) favorite animal, I'd slap that thought right out of their head!! NO child of mine will ever like lions!! I'd see to that! I'd make their experience with lions so miserable, they'd gladly say they hate them. Lions are not worthy of being loved or glorified! They should all be destroyed!

Another thing you will never hear me say is the words most people use to refer to a female lion, tiger or leopard. Nope, I never use the words "lioness" or "tigress" or "leopardess", because that's just other synonyms people use to give panthers the sound of being "royal" beasts. Like "princess" or "dutchess", or "countess". Instead I just call female panthers what they are; female lions, female tigers and female leopards. And why not? We don't call female eagles "Eagless", or female bears "bearess", or female crocodiles "crocodiless". These are animals that are better hunters than any panther. Most of them can kick any panther's ass too. So, if they don't have special names like that, why should panthers?

I was looking at some videos today on YouTube, and I saw one video of a snake that killed a leopard cub. I always get more entertainment by looking at the comments sometimes than I do watching the video. The number of people who said they would have stopped the snake from killing the leopard cub was phenomenal! Just simply unbelievable! No one would have said that if the snake killed a rat, or a rabbit, or an antelope. Only if it kills a leopard cub. And on another video, where a leopard is killed by a crocodile, people were saying it was set up. They said the filmmakers drugged the leopard. I dunno, he looked no less alert than any average leopard. Just that crocs are so good at hiding, most animals that get attacked could be right on top of them and not even see them! And this was a HUGE croc!! The leopard was about the size of the croc's head alone! So I believe that must have been a 18-20 foot long reptile! The leopard did not stand a chance at all!! Even if he was fully grown.

Yes, there are videos of panthers beating crocodilians. There is a most recent video of a jaguar hunting and killing a caiman. LOL!! Well, let me tell you about caiman and jaguars; caiman are smaller and FAR less aggressive than crocodiles! Caiman are actually not in the same family as crocodiles, they are in the same family as alligators. While alligator attacks have been reported, they are nowhere near as aggressive as crocodiles are. Had that caiman been an Orinoco crocodile, which is rare, but does exist, the chances of that jaguar winning that battle would have been slimmer. Especially if the croc had been larger than the jaguar. The only time I have ever seen any panther beat a crocodile is if it is a small one, usually under 10 feet long, including the tail. While the tail can swing and knock a man off his feet, most of the croc's power is in the head and body, and their jaws are stronger than any other animal's. But small crocodiles, like the ones I see panthers beating up, heck with that! I've even seen baboons beat up crocs that small!! And believe me, the baboon attacking the crocodile impresses me much more than the panthers! Simply because you don't expect a baboon to go after a crocodile!

That's another thing about panthers, I don't see the fascination about them. I see people commenting all the time how felines always amaze them. Well, they do NOT amaze me, in any way, shape or form! I've been studying animals all my life, and watching nature shows for as long as I can remember, the one family of animals that always fails to impress me is the felines. Lately, lions have been seen attacking elephants, even adult bulls, usually those weakened by illness. Well, guess what! Dholes also attack elephants in Asia! The reason the dholes impress me more is because they are relatively small, and have no claws on their toes like lions, and their teeth are smaller than those of a lion's. Yet the elephants panic when they see a pack of dholes approach them! Yeah, a whole group of lions can bring down a sick elephant, they're bigger than the dholes, but not bigger than the elephants. But the thing about them that takes away the impressive shock is the fact lions are more endowed than any other land carnivore. They have 3-inch fangs, and razor-sharp claws. With the right weapons, a 90-pound man could easily bring down a 250-pound man! No problem! That is why panthers don't impress me at all. They may not have the size, but they are equipped with the right weapons. So, I see a group of lions bring down an elephant, I'm then like "so what?" It does not impress me at all!

Story Ideas

I was just reading the biography of the author of the Harry Potter series of books, JK Rowling. It says she was at a train station when she thought of Harry Potter, and the train was 4 hours late. I thought I might discuss some of the crazy story ideas I've had and how they got started. I think the only real reason my stories have not sold is because I have not done much myself to distribute them. But I do have plans for the future, which will come into fruition soon. I've been told, even by people who hated my guts, that my stories are good. I saw the smiles as they read the stories, and heard the wow's, and saw the instant look of pleasure on their faces as they read my stories, so I know the potential is there. I just have to get these stories out into the general populace. Not just via the website, but other ways too.

Well, really there is not much to say about the subject. LOL! Most of my story ideas I get when I just let my mind wander. Like when I am out walking around and having fun, I can derive a story idea from that. A lot of my stories are based on my own life experiences. There's been several of those. One thing I always remember when writing, people LOVE drama! So a lot of my stories are based on very dramatic points in my life. Some are only symbolic in their meanings. Like, you'd never know the story Gracie's Odyssey is based on my feelings after Michael Hutchence died. But it is. You don't really see it when you read the story, unless you knew me at that time. It was a very lost and confused feeling, and well I don't want to give the story away too much. LOL! Me and my buddy Cairo both wrote that story. He said I was in a deep funk. We joked around for a while about it, then he got the idea for that story. I've told y'all, I could write a whole novel about what I was thinking when I heard the news!

Most of my story ideas come to me when I am listening to music. Those are the best ways to get ideas. Music makes me think. That's why I love it! My mind is never more active than it is while I am listening to music. I mean, while I am walking most of what I am thinking about is the walk, and where I am going, and worrying about if I am going to step in that big pile of dog shit lying ahead of me on the path! LOL! But sometimes I let my mind wander and have fun. Some stories I get an idea of and get stuck in a certain point, and it can remain unfinished for years. Like this other story I called To Work or Dress. That story I originally began in 1997, but it sat unfinished for years before I finally decided how to finish it. I finally completed it in 2011. That BTW is another story based on personal experience. I added some creativity to it because who wants to hear "I was looking for work, and one of the places I went to was a strip bar"? No one. So I tend to add a little more color to the story, some details and shading. That makes it exciting and worth reading.

That story I got the idea one evening when I was at work on a temporary job. I had just quit a job telemarketing, where I was not treated very kindly, and the pay was lousy! I'm not the kind of person to push herself on others, and if you do telemarketing you have to be. This is also why I do not have many friends on Facebook. Going around asking people to become my friends is just out of my character. Those that I do ask can consider themselves lucky, because that means I really like that person, or I REALLY want to get to know them. I'm not a people-loving person, so not many people can claim that status. Anyways, I don't want to give away too much of the story, but it is on the UMG Productions website. One of the characters in the story is based on one of the people I had to work under while doing the telemarketing job, and she was an asshole!! She is in the story too. But I remember her name was Karen, she was fat, her hair was usually greasy and she often smelled bad. Besides that, she had a bitchy attitude. She was the unfortunately stereotypical picture most people have of fat women. I hated her! I remember when I first started working there, she was nice. I even remember wishing her a happy birthday, she was just turning 53, the same age as my father. Then after I was granted a vacation from there for 2 weeks, when I got back there, Karen was as mean as she could possibly be! I didn't know what caused the sudden change in attitude. But that is somewhat the basis for the story's climax.

I turn every negative into a positive! LOL! That's how I am. I don't like always focusing on the gloomy side. I even wrote a story about my job at the Puyallup Fair, when I worked for a woman named Tracy. Only in this story, I call her Stacy. She was a dyk. She also treated the workers like crap. Some bosses seem to think just because they are paying someone to do a job for them that they can treat the workers like crap. Basically taking advantage of a person does not work either way. I've had jobs I enjoy, the employers did not treat me like crap. I would never treat a working dog like crap, let alone a person! If you want people to work for you, you should be making the working environment a pleasant one. Even if it is temporary employment. Of course, back when I worked at the fair, I had no idea that people always treat temps like they are garbage. But temp or not, there's no excuse for the boss to have such a crappy attitude like Tracy did! That was the worst job I ever had in my life!! Partly because I didn't want it in the first place! But I did write a story about it, and the title is just what the job was; Dead End Job! Instead of me and my sis facing off with Tracy, I had Mushmouth and Kathy face off with her.

Mushmouth was a character I really glorified back in the late 80s and early 90s. Even I was in love with him!! So was everybody else. LOL! I publicized him very well! If we'd had the internet back then, Mushmouth would today be more popular than cats! That's how well I publicized him. I capitalized on that in this story.

I have several stories right now that have not left my head. I have yet to put them down on paper. There may be several reasons for that. Either I am having trouble thinking of a way to start them off, or they have no point to them (yet), or maybe my mind is tossing around ideas and they keep getting jumbled like a deck of cards thrown in the air. Some of these stories I am on the verge of starting, as I think I have pieced them together in a way where they would be enjoyable for the readers. One of them I have already started, I just need to keep it going. If it is good enough, I'll put it on the website.

50% Michael

OK, on to a better subject, INXS. Yet again! LOL! Lately, I've been noticing Michael all over again. This time it's coming on stronger. Of course I have always loved the band members each in their own way. But lately, I've been eyeing Michael much more than I have over the past 10 years. Kindof like it was during the last couple of months before he passed away. Only then, it came on much more gradually than this. I've been at this for the past 2 weeks, and I don't know what's causing it! But then again, I never know what causes it! It just happens when it happens. Sometimes there is no cause. And this time, it is really strong. Usually after a rest from INXS fanhood, it is always Michael that reminds me why I am an INXS fan in the first place.

Last time I got heavily into INXS, Michael was responsible for sparking my interest, but it was Timmy I was more sweet on. I am still sweet on Timmy, but now my old feelings about Michael are coming back. Though I have yet to get really close to him, I think there is a block against it now. But I am gradually working on that block. It helps hearing my friends' stories about him. I have several friends who have actually met Michael. I don't consider what I had with him a "formal meeting". If he were to see me now, he would not recognize me at all. Back in 1991, when I kissed him, I was younger and thinner. He'd see me as this fat, ugly old crone and definitely would not remember me kissing him. If he noticed at all. He was looking at all the fans surrounding him. I remember. I'm not too sure I stood out very much. But I was like a schoolgirl kissing her favorite idol. Or like a puppy dog who was kissing someone she hadn't seen in months.

Oddly enough, I did not remember that experience until I went to an INXS concert with JD fronting in 2006. I mean, I remember Michael coming down the aisle, and I remember reaching out to kiss him, but I did not feel the giddiness I felt when I saw INXS again in 2006. Or I didn't remember feeling it. It could also have been because INXS was not my favorite group in 1991, Roxette was. I still loved INXS, but Roxette was my favorite group back then. Now, not any more, and I find myself constantly going back into and out of INXS fanhood. I don't know, this is just me. This is who I am.

Well, all those old feelings I used to have for Michael are beginning to come back. They have been creeping up on me for the past 2 weeks. I saw some clips on YouTube with him in them, and that was perhaps the beginning of it. I even found the clip where Oasis called Michael Hutchence a "has-been". UGH!!! Made me so mad I wanted to smack them good!!! Michael was so nice, treated those miscreants like royalty! And this is how they repay him. I don't want to sound like a radical INXS fan, and I am trying hard not to, but I HATE Oasis!!! They suck! And I think they are jealous in that clip because they don't even look half as good as Michael did! But unfortunately that was the beginning of the end. Michael, as I understand it, was so sensitive and humble. That remark just broke him. There was one song up for nomination that same day, and I would have loved to seen that one win first place award! Not fucking Oasis!!! I hate them!

I heard the next day a friend of Michael's made a joke about him being called a "has-been", and Michael did not like that joke either. He didn't laugh. Clearly, he was disturbed, and someone should have taken notice, and maybe done something about it! Like kick the two men of Oasis in the teeth for saying that!

Ya know all this comes at a shock to me, and probably lots of other fans. I once said on the old INXS.com site that I may never become a Hutch fan again. I guess the old adage that says "Never say never" is true! LOL! I always avoided getting close to him again before because well, he is gone from this world. As sad a thing as that is to say, it's true. A fact that cannot be denied. But thinking back throughout my history, that kind of thing has never stopped me before. I've always been an admirer of Dian Fossey, even am now in the process of writing a story with a character based on her. I still am an admirer of her's. Been an admirer since around 1988. She's quite a person to look up to. But she's also been dead since 1985. Harpo Marx too, my most favorite actor of all time, I've been an admirer of his since around 1983, and he's been dead since 1964. I also still love my grandma, who has been dead since 2001, and my Groucho. I still call her my baby. She's been gone since 2006. So, just because someone has been gone for a long time does not mean I should stop loving them for what they do or who they are. Or were. Same should go for Michael.

It helps that I joined these groups on Facebook dedicated to Michael, and now am seeing pics of him I've never seen before, and love intensely!!! Not only that, but hearing other peoples' stories of him and the first time they saw him, or met him. A lot of them are much more dramatic than my own. Like this one friend I have who went to a concert and Michael gave her one of his water bottles. And another friend who tried to shake hands with Michael, and he wouldn't shake hands with her so she flipped him off. And she said he laughed after she did that. LOL! I think that is the one story that has begun to bring me to this point now. That's the Michael I would have figured he was! To laugh at himself like that. Not the angry, depressed man who appeared in his last year to have this wall built around himself. But that was caused by a dumbass who thought it would be a good idea to kick Michael to the curb, which cracked his skull and caused him to lose his sense of smell and taste permanently. That caused his depression, and then his life took on a downward spiral from there.

And that's not even the end of it all. Then the deal with Bob Geldof taking his daughter away from him. I cannot believe how many people say that Michael stole Paula from Bob, which is insanely untrue!! Paula left Bob to trap Michael! The whole thing was her fault, not Michael's! But Bob kept Michael's baby from his family, even after he was gone. For that reason, I hate Bob Geldof!! When Peaches died this past year, I said Bob Geldof got what he deserved! Karma at it's finest!! People may hate me for saying that, or may think it's a horrible thing to say, but I say tough nookies!! It's true! Bob kept Michael's baby girl from him and his family, so karma came back and bit Bob in the ass, HARD!!! Bob Geldof, if he had been smarter, would have seen this coming sooner or later.

Now, the last thing I ever want to do is sound like a fanatic, I won't become that! But when I see people blaming Michael for what happened, saying things like he stole Paula from Bob, I have to speak up! Bob got his feelings hurt I am sure, but there were strong feeling all around too, not just Bob.

Well, I would say I am about 50% a Hutch fan now, I still love Timmy a lot. I just cannot bring myself to kiss my pics of Michael. Not ready for that yet! LOL! If I were 100% a fan, I'd have done it by now.

The Return of $am

Well, I finally heard back from Sam, who wrote to me a couple weeks ago saying he has some old books of mine from 1988. I had to write to him 2 times before I finally heard something. I still am not certain who this guy is. I have my hunches, but I am not 100% sure. He knows I do want these books back, but he says they won't be free. UGH!!! I knew he was going to say something like this. Even my ma knew he was going to say something like this!! I can offer to pay for the shipping to send the books to me, but I cannot offer much else. So if Sam asks me for $100 for each book, I'm going to tell him he's out of his fucking mind! LOL!!! Well, I know he rescued them fair and square, but still.

I mean, I really don't need these books back. I got all I need out of them already. Plus Trisha has copies of her own of those stories. I can always get them from her for free. So, Sam really doesn't have to send them to me. Besides the fact they are outdated. But it would be nice to have them back for my own personal collection. Not Trisha's. LOL! Like I said, she already has copies of the important stories. So, I won't feel bad if Sam asks me for $100 a piece to tell him he can take that price and stick it up his ass. LOL! They aren't worth that much!! It's not like I am dead now! Though the O'Hara's have moved away. Now, I can give him $25 for each book, that's no problem. That's about what the sketchbooks cost anyways. But anything higher, I'd have to tell Sam to stuff it. LOL!

Trisha only knows Sam has contacted me about these old books. She doesn't know he is asking for money for them. I know I don't really need these books. It's not like my world will come to an end if I don't get them. But to have them back would be a nice thing. Trisha would not really like me giving money to this guy at all. But I say hell with it! I do have a limit though. I'll just have to wait and see what he says. But yeah, if he asks for too much, I'll have to say no. Much as I would like to have these books back, it's not a necessity now, so I'd have to say no. I hope Sam would understand.

Well, I did some things I haven't done in a long time! I made a few more video advertisements for a couple more stories. I really have not worked on anything like that since 2008. These are not easy to do! But they are fun!!! I love putting video ads together for our stories. The trick is finding music that tells the story as well as the words and pictures. I like to use classical music because I think it speaks the loudest. Classical music tells the story in a subtle way, yet it tells it in a manner that is understandable, even though a lot of modern people don't realize that. Well, I made presentation videos for The Mountain is Exploding and Timmyfan in Montana. They are near the base of the page. Hope you all like! I think I did these better than any other video presentation I have on that site. And several stories do have them.

Timmyfan AKA ...?

Well, I have decided that I'd like to write a post about all the online names I have gone by over the years. Since the dirty dozen mob accuses me of "hiding behind" nicknames! LOL! Yeah! Like they NEVER do the same thing! HAHAHAHA Bullshit! All except for CrystalK, they ALL hide behind anonymous names! They don't mind giving out other peoples' real names, but most of them hide their own identity ALL the time! Although I found out Eddie's Mom's real name is also Rosemary. hehehe! I also have her real address too. I kept it all these years. But if you ask her what her real name is, she'd never tell you. Most of the DDM won't. At least everyone knows who I am. The reason they hide behind anonymous names is because they know they can get sued, because they are fully aware that they slander more people than I do! At least what I say is true. And the people I talk about, if they are going to be honest about it, will vouch for it. The only reason the DDM accuses me of slander is because they don't want anyone to know the truth about them.

Anyway, I began getting on the internet in 1996, and the first social site I went to was the online chat rooms. I mostly went in there to meet up with my ma. It was a site called Pirch, and it was an IRC chat community. Though I recently tried to look for Pirch, and now it's an online dating site. I don't know if it was derived from the original chat community, or if the domain name was bought by a dating site. But it is not the same Pirch I knew back in 1996 and 97. I typically went into the Babyboomers chat room to chat with ma there, and several other people. This was my first online social experience. The people in that chat room were so nice. Back then, I went in under the name "Catcraze". And this was LONG before cats became such a huge thing on the internet! This was back when we had those Persians and were going to breed them. Everyone on there got to know me by the name Catcraze. I stayed on that chat room for several months, then ma said we were actually too young to be in that chat room. Everyone else that was in there were babyboomers. So, after she said that, I felt she didn't want us going in there anymore, so I left.

I went into another chat room, my second one, but I only went in there a couple times. This chat room was not through Pirch, this was just a regular online chat room, I don't remember how I found it, but it was rather early in 1997 then. I don't even remember what the subject of the chat room was, but most everyone in there were teenagers, and teenagers are not very friendly people! Especially online. Well, in that chat room I used the name "Vulcan", because at the time I was working on the Tribute to Mount St. Helens story. There were these two teenagers who were talking publicly amongst each other, and kept calling each other "nigger". I asked them to stop because it was disturbing me. Back then, I had no idea that teenagers always called each other that in affection. One of them voiced up saying "Fuck that!" he said he was talking to this other guy. Someone else asked them to take it into private chat and they did. Thank GOD!! Well, I had to stop using the name Vulcan because someone thought I was a Star Trek fan, and I'm not. I didn't want everyone thinking I was. So I tossed that name.

Throughout most of 1997, I went in and out of chat rooms, just for the fun of it. I remember I investigated one chat room on Pirch and it was owned by this guy named Greg. I was back to calling myself Catcraze then. Greg and I got really into it then, he didn't like it that I had my WAV downloader on and told me that if he sees me with that on again, he was going to ban me from the chatroom. I was so angry at him for that, I never thought I could feel that much anger towards anyone online. I yelled and screamed and cussed him out! Everybody in there was trying to calm me down, but I refused to calm down and I said I was leaving and I won't ever go into that chatroom again. I didn't even feel that much anger towards those two teenagers who kept calling each other niggers. But that was the first time I think I was ever personally attacked online. Anyways, that was the first time I felt personally attacked. And I got pissed!!

I decided after that to stay out of chat rooms for a while. It was not easy, because I rather enjoyed it when I found someone I could converse with. Then I began working on my Metazoic Checklist. Before all this started, I had a Macintosh computer, which I got rid of because I could not find any programs to go with it. My Metazoic Checklist was on one of those Mac disks, and before I got rid of the Mac, I had printed out what was, at that time, the most updated list of Metazoic mammals. I wanted to keep the list accessible on the computer, so I typed up the list on the new computer so I could put it onto a disk. It was during my work on this list that I got the news that Michael Hutchence had died. I was right in the middle of working on that list when I got the news. My world stopped right there. I think my heart stopped too! I was definitely in shock. That night, I wanted to continue working on the list for a while longer. It wasn't until I took a shower that night that it hit me, and hit me HARD the fact that Michael was gone. I could not stop crying then. I've never cried over the death of any celebrity before, ever! Michael was the first one. And so far, has been the only one. I've felt sorrow for other celebs who've passed, but not like the total melancholia I felt when Michael died.

Anyways, after he passed, I gathered all my pics of him and kept myself surrounded by them. Then my interest in INXS began to deepen again. I thought about going into chat rooms once again and maybe finding one whose subject was about INXS. I couldn't find any on Pirch. So, I looked on the internet. I found one on a site called "An Excess of INXS". The first time I went in there, I went in under the name Catcraze. The first few times I went in there under the name Catcraze. But then I got sick and tired of people calling me "cat". By this time, I had begun to get tired of those Persians we had! They'd messed up my house, torn my furniture and screens, coughed up hairballs everywhere, spread disease all through the family, and I had just had it!! I was looking for a new home for them by this time. So, I didn't want to become known as "cat", so I looked for myself another nickname. I thought since this is an INXS related chat room, I should call myself something related to INXS. So I called myself "Kick Cat". I was hoping everyone would take the hint and start calling me Kick, which is my favorite INXS album. But no! Everyone still kept calling me "cat". So, I completely dropped the "cat" and just called myself "Kick". But someone told me that name was already taken by a regular. So, I thought for a while, then decided to call myself "Kick87", after my favorite INXS album and the year it came out. And that name stuck with me for the rest of that year going in that chat room.

About a year later, I decided on a bit of a change. I had gotten myself a black, tan and white Chihuahua that I named Bambi. He was marked like a toy fox terrier, and a lot of TFT enthusiasts kept mistaking him for one because he did not have that babydoll face a Chihuahua should have. So, I went into the INXS chat room under the name Bambi. Well, I only went in there for a few months. It was worse in there at that time than it was when I was a regular visitor there the year before, all because of this guy named Nick. Nick was generally nice, but sometimes he could be an asshole too, and would F-bomb everyone in there. He may be the one responsible for running everybody off that chat room. I made quite a few friends in that chat room, even Nick. Even though he could be an asshole, when he was nice, he could be really nice. But the chat room was not the same place I remembered. A lot of my fondest memories on the internet took place in that chat room the year before.

Well, by 2000, I began to investigate other sources of entertainment. This was also the year the INXS chat room lost all of it's visitors. I tried going in there again this year, but no one was in there anymore. I learned of a new site, Napster. There, I could download music, and they had chat rooms set up, so I had a lot of fun on that site. But this was the year I learned about cyber-wolves. There were people who got on there and just wanted to get some nooky. My guess was because they couldn't get any in real life. I made a friend with a 16 year old girl whose nickname was something like gofunky. I was in the chat room under the name INXSgirl. Well, this girl was smart beyond her years. I remember one time I had a problem with my computer, and thankfully her uncle, as it were, was a computer technician, and she told me how to fix the problem. She also told me what 69 meant! LOL! I had heard it in relation to sex before, but I didn't know how. She told me. LOL! There were also some who were not so friendly. The first time I got into the chat rooms in Napster, there was this cyber-wolf who called himself something like "Sweetchick" looking for cyber sex. I said none for me, and he went ballistic!!!! LOL! Cussed me out, called me every name he could think of, including "fat ass". LOL! I wasn't even fat then! I weighed about 110 pounds. For me, back then, that was fat, but not for everyone else. No one else except maybe sweetchick. But after talking with him for about 5 minutes, I could understand why no girl wanted him in real life.

Well, that was back when Napster was free. I don't go there anymore. I only saw this gofunky girl a few times, but I looked forward to our visits. After a while I didn't see her in there anymore. So, I stopped going in. I think those were the last chat rooms I became a regular in. I didn't even go into Pirch anymore. That was when I discovered forums. Forums are more permanent than chat rooms. Things get posted up on there and they stay there. People on forums, if you piss them off, they never let you forget it! LOL! The first forum I went into was actually pet related. It was the USDA forum. But they had different beliefs than I had. I used AKC when I register my pups, but they were more fans of APRI. Until I went into that forum, I'd never even heard of APRI. Then later on I found out it was a bogus pet registry set up for puppymillers who didn't want to deal with AKC's DNA standards.

I first went in there in 2001, just after my grandma had passed away. My Chihuahua, Bambi (not the same one I had before that looked like a toy fox terrier) had just had puppies, and I made a big announcement on several forums. The USDA forum being one of them, and the AcmePet forum being another. The USDA forum was more accepting than the AcmePet forum, but for some reason I stuck with the AcmePet forum. I guess because I believed more in their ethics about breeding. I know Bambi was not a good specimen of a Chihuahua, but back then I knew nothing about backyard breeders or puppymillers or even show breeders, and what makes an ethical breeder. But I was not treated very kindly on the AcmePet forum. I called myself Bambi on that forum, after my dog. It wasn't until later on that I found out people linked the name Bambi with someone who is a dumb blond bimbo. One person mentioned it, and since she did, I was sure everyone believed that. I think I stayed on that forum for about 5 months. I started going in there in April, after Bambi had her pups, and stopped when 9/11 happened. I got sick of the people in there tearing me apart, and tearing everyone apart too. So, I dropped that forum.

I tried going into the forums at An Excess of INXS, but there was one person in there, who called herself Mystify, that kept on accusing everyone of being someone called Cherry Baby! UGH!! She even accused me! I didn't even know, and still don't know, why those two hated each other so much! I never asked because it was none of my business! So, I didn't stay in that forum for long.

In 2002, I learned about MSN groups, and started going into a few of them. But I could not find any that I fit in well with. There were several that was run by the same person, all about Chihuahuas. She did not like having people around who disagreed with her, and kicked several people out. I think her name was Sandra. She even kicked me out of her forum once. Not just me, but several ethical people too. Then, I was going under the name Luvapuddy, which was our kennel name back then. I had taken on breeding Chihuahuas, and I named our home Luv-A-Puddy Chihuahuas. Later on I changed it to TG's Babies. I was thinking of taking on another breed, so the Chihuahuas would not have fit.

Well, the MSN groups were dull and boring! So, I looked for another forum, that was when I discovered the BuyBelowCost forum, now called the Pluba forum. When I first went in there, I called myself Luvapuddy. Later on, after I got Groucho and was so proud of her, I changed my handle to Grouchosmommy. I remember Tanya used to call me "Grouchosdummy". LOL! We didn't get along well back then. But it wasn't so bad. If I could be a slave to my Groucho, or in essence, her "dummy", I would have! I loved my baby. I'd do anything to spoil her! LOL! For a short while, I went under the name MuffN'Mose, because of a couple of Chihuahua puppies I was going to get, but never did. I should have got them anyways! Just to see what they would have produced! I was going to name one, a blue and white female Muffin, and a small cream male Moses. But when I showed a pic on that forum, someone told me they looked unhealthy. So, I changed my mind about getting them. To this day, I regret that! Especially after I lost Groucho in 2006. So that name did not last long on that forum. I went back to being Grouchosmommy.

Well, after that incident with Pal, I left that forum. I had gotten back into INXS and found the INXS Fan Forum, and loved it in there. The people were much nicer than the people on the BuyBelowCost forum! So, I said "Sayonara suckers!" to them and just went to the Fan Forum. The first time I went into that forum, I called myself LAPchis, after my kennel. Then someone posted an awesome pic of Tim Farriss and I was in LOVE with him at that point. There were people in there who called themselves Garry's Girl, and Hutch Girl, and I think there was someone who called herself "Jon's Girl", so I took the name Timmy's Girl. I didn't see any harm in it. A few months later, after I got over the business with "Pal" on the BuyBelowCost forum, I went back, and I kept the name Timmy's Girl there too. I went in with a new attitude. I said I was no longer going to let the things those people did get to me anymore, and I was going to try and get along with everybody there. At least show them what real internet friendship is like! LOL! I took all 1000 of my Timmy pics there with me too. For me, posting Timmy pics when someone annoyed me was like the equivalent of counting to 10 to cool off. It helped me keep a positive attitude. But those people were so asinine, it was very hard to keep a positive attitude toward them! They could not go one day without attacking someone else. So, I left again.

After a while, I decided I did not like the name Timmy's Girl. Because I am NOT Timmy's girl! Only one person in the world should have that nickname, and that's Tim's wife, Beth. That's how I felt about it. So I dropped that name and called myself TimGal, which is basically a shortened version (and more accurate) of Timmy's Girl. Sometimes I call myself TimmyGal too. But lately I've stuck mostly with Timmyfan, because that is all I am, just a fan of Tim Farriss. Nothing more. I'm nobody to him. Just a mere fan, and I like it like that. So, I think I am going to stick with this name for as long as I am a fan of his, which may be a LONG time! So, get used to it. And to the dirty dozen mob, if you don't like it, then tough nookies!! Go screw yourselves!!