The Worst Words in Use

I will never understand people! Especially young people. Why does the younger generation always want to be so hateful to one another??!! I'll just never understand it. And why also use such vulgar language too?! You wonder why I like animals so much better than people, well, this is why. Though I don't know. As I said in a previous post, maybe animals do think this way. We just don't know it because we don't speak their language. We always say animals do not judge us. Well, maybe they do, and we just don't know it. Anyways, back to the original subject. One of my friends posted a picture that I totally agree with. Take a look for yourselves:

Now, Isabella is a BEAUTIFUL little girl!! How someone can look at her and call her ugly or retarded is absolutely beyond me! Like a few months ago, I saw a news clip of a woman who posted a picture of her baby boy, who has Down's Syndrome. He is an adorable baby boy to me. But some dumbass got on the picture and posted that he's ugly. Well, that mom had some words for that troll! She was kind and polite to him, but she told him off! Ya know, it's people like that troll that are the main reason I don't want to have a child with Down's Syndrome. I'd be scared to death my child would get bullied, NO kid should have to go through that! And what if I'm not there to protect my child? What if he or she gets bullied to a point they just want to end it all? With a non-Down's child, it may or may not happen. With a Down's Syndrome child, it's almost guaranteed. Sad as that is, it's the truth. I would NEVER want my children to go through what I went through. I guess that's why I just don't want kids. I'm scared to death I'd have a Down's Syndrome baby. And it's not that I don't think they're just as adorable as any other kids, or that they cannot have good lives, and cannot be upstanding, kind and loving people. I just don't want to have that child subjected to the bullying I happen to know kids with disabilities are sure to be on the receiving end of.

Autism runs in my family too, so I know, first-hand, the amount of bullying a "different" child receives. I also know it can destroy a bullied person's life. I'm lucky in that aspect. I am much more jaded now than I was when I was a kid, I stay away from people, I may not be the friendliest person anyone ever met, but I survived the bullying and teasing. But if I had a child, even a Down's Syndrome child, I would not want him or her to become like me. I would want them to have a magnificent life. In a perfect world, I guess they would. But in a world like this one is, where people think it's funny to put others down, and hurt someone else that they think is not up to their standards, no. Most likely each day in school will be like a trip into the 7th circle of Hell!

You know, I don't believe I'd ever even heard the word "retarded" until my family moved to this house in inner-city Lakewood. Then, I heard it all the time. My first day going to school in that area, all the kids were asking me if my sister was retarded. I had no idea what that meant. Most of the time when I answered them, they would walk away laughing. So, I knew it couldn't be something good. When I saw the first kids (mostly 6th graders) ask me that and then laugh at my response, I got a cold, clammy feeling in my belly. I thought "Wow! That's odd!" And then Valerie, who was Paul Casler's sister, constantly used that word over and over again. I knew Paul before I knew Valerie, and I knew Paul was not a good person. I did know Valerie was Paul's sister though. So, I figured if Valerie was using that word, then it's confirmed, it can't be a good word! I remember that first afternoon I went home and asked my ma what the word retarded meant. She told me that it's a vulgar word people use to describe someone who is slow or different.

As I got older, I started to understand that this is not a word that people with intelligence use. But it seems to be very common. Even when I worked at the Puyallup Fair, I heard one of the workers in the time office for the rides section using that word. I only knew about it after my sis told me that one of the workers in that office said that. I think it was the short, fat, dumpy, black-haired dumbass woman who was working in there. I did not like her from the first instant I saw her at the orientation. She looked too full of herself. Apparently I was right! And if she uses the word "retarded", then it's confirmed she needs lessons in decency.

I also see it all the time among atheists on YouTube. Like that Alex Gorecki guy I encountered some time back. I said on a video, though now I don't remember what video it was, that as long as atheists don't try to push me into believing what they do, I don't care what their beliefs are. And then Alex posted "Retard alert" in response to my comment. IMO, his remark was TOTALLY uncalled for! I said NOTHING bad about atheists! Well, I was totally sick of atheists making me out to be "retarded" just because I don't believe what they do. I could have given Alex a much harsher response. But then that may not have helped my cause. So instead, I just took his own words and threw them right back in his face! LOL! I turned the "retard" remark around on him, and added that he is also a dim-wit and a dumbass. You know, I have not been back to that comment since! I get notifications every now and then about people responding, and even 1+ing my comment, but I don't care to go back to that thread. Most of the people who are responding to that comment are probably some of Alex's own fucktards trying to convince me that Alex has some kind of point. But he doesn't have any point at all. All he's got is just a head with no brains on his shoulders. Because someone made the mistake of putting his brain down between his legs! If he did have a point, it was lost the instant he used the word "retard". Only people with no class and no morals use that word. So, I don't care to read the responses in that thread at all.

You know, people like Alex, I really hope someday they get to have a child, and I hope that their child is born autistic, or with some kind of disability. That way people like Alex Gorecki can see how cruel it really is to use words like "retard". But if he's really as bad as I believe he is, he'd probably call his own child that name too. People like him are the reason I gave up atheism! Kinda the opposite of MrRepzion. He gave up religion because he was bullied (he was a catholic--huh! Big surprise! NOT!) I gave up atheism because of the number of atheist bullies I have seen. I don't want to be a part of ANYTHING that people have to bully others over. That is also why I am not a part of any organized religion either. I know about the religious bullies. I've been there, I've seen them. And I wasn't even catholic. Catholics are the biggest group of bullies there is in religion, next to muslims. I want NO part of them! My "religion" is very simple. I believe in GOD, HE loves me, HE has my life all planned out, HE sent Jesus to Earth to be my savior, I follow and listen only to HIM. It's not a real religion, it's just a belief I have. I don't call it a "religion". It's not my job to convert anyone or recruit followers. I just obey my GOD. You'll also never see me standing on the side of the road holding picket signs that says "GOD hates" anyone! I believe HE loves everyone! Even gays.

I dunno, I don't see the point of bullying at all. And I always hear people say "Ignore the bullies and they will go away". Well, that doesn't always work. I ignored the bullies, and it didn't make them go away. I remember Dr. Phil saying "Tell your parents about the bullies and get them together with the teachers". Well, I did that too. It only made the bullying worse. The only real way of getting away from bullies is to home school. If I had a child that was disabled, and being made fun of, that's exactly what I would do. I would homeschool them. ANYTHING just so my child would not have to deal with bullies. Because no matter what you do to ignore them, it always gets worse. Not better.

Do Not Feed the Trolls

LOL! There is this guy who has commented in a couple of my videos, and he keeps pushing for some recognition. I can tell because each time he comments, he gets more and more obnoxious. LOL! I just keep on ignoring him. He has some kind of greek name, and all he does in his own videos is play video games. You all know what I always say about kids who are into playing video games. I saw his comment on one of my videos a month ago, I accepted his dimwitted comments then, but did not respond to him at all. Then I saw him comment on another video yesterday, I accepted his dumbass comment again, but still did not respond. He keeps pushing for a response. He was pretending yesterday like he'd seen me for the first time. I knew he was bullshitting though. I'd seen him before on my videos. He's looking for recognition from me. He didn't get it a month ago, he didn't get it last night, and I still ain't gonna give it to him today! LOL! I am not going to mention his name at all. Nor what videos he commented on. But I just think it's funny how he tries so hard to get my attention. I laugh every time I see him commenting. Now, a month from now, he'll probably comment again, trying to get my attention by saying how fat I am (as if I can't already see that! LOL!) I mean really! I call myself fat in my own videos. Do dumbasses like this dude think I don't already know I am fat? I mean, how can I not see that? But I am still working out at the fitness center. But NO WAY am I going to tell him that! Let him find out for himself. So far, he seems to not have seen my latest videos. Only the old ones, from before I moved here.

Well, I'll let him comment till his heart's content. Oh wait a minute! He hasn't got a heart! LOL! Trolls never have hearts. They only have the brain between their legs to control them. So, I'll let this bigot comment until the brain between his legs is content. But I will still always ignore him. I am not going to give him the attention he is craving from me. I don't reward trolls with responses. I only ignore them. I reward positive people with responses only. I like to only encourage the positive people to come back to my videos. So, I only respond to positive people now. No longer to negative people. That's the way it's going to be from now on. No matter how hard they push.

I see negative people all the time trying to push me for a response. On Facebook, I just totally ignore strangers. There are some exceptions though, but not many. Sometimes when I see a stranger post my name, all I look at is my name. But most of the time my feed blocks their comment. Most of the time, I just don't push the link that says "See all ## comments" or "see more". It's better that I don't look. They are strangers who do not even know me at all. I don't want them corrupting my friendship with the mutual friend we have. On YouTube, the same thing. I may accept a negative person's response, but that does not mean I take it to heart. It does not mean they will get a response from me either. There has been a few times I have wanted to respond to negative people. But I always  refrain from doing it, because I know that is what the trolls are after.

The one time I can remember recently that I did want to respond to a negative person, I was talking to a friend of mine, and I told her I just totally ignore strangers. Well, one of her friends, a VERY negative person, said to me "Dee mind your own fucking business!" Oh GOD I wanted to respond to that person so very bad!! I wanted to say to him "I am minding my own business. I was talking to my friend. NOT you! YOU DUMBASS!!!!" That's one of the few times I really wanted to respond to a negative person. But I just had this feeling that that person was nothing but a troll who was just yanking my chain. Like if I had said what I really wanted to say, his response would be "I thought you said you ignore strangers! hur hur hur!" So, I didn't say anything. But it's one of the few times I did want to respond to a negative person. And I wanted to slap that person too! LOL! Just for being so disrespectful.

Unfortunate that now it is illegal to slap someone's face! There have been many times I wanted to do it to people, even those on the internet. I kinda miss the days when you could really punch a negative person in the face without worrying about being sued. But anyways, that is why I totally ignore strangers. That incident was probably the only time recently that I have read a comment by someone I do not know. But I sure did want to respond to that person, and a lot more than that too. LOL!

Well, in other news, I finally got a copy of Never Tear Us Apart: The Untold Story of INXS. I got it from one of my good friends on Facebook. I always wanted to see it, and now I have. I gotta tell you, I almost never cry at movies anymore, but I seriously started crying at the end of that movie. And Donna was in the kitchen at the time, and I was trying to keep it quiet, I didn't want to attract her attention and see me crying so hard! LOL! I was glad I had the movie on fairly loud. Well, I wanted to put it onto a DVD, but every time I've tried to burn DVDs on this computer, they don't play on my DVD player, so I went out last night to Staples to buy a DVD burning program. I got one that I am familiar with, and usually never have trouble with. But the first time I tried to burn a DVD, it didn't work. It got to 97% and then froze. So, I had to try again. The next time, it recorded the menu, but nothing else. So I had to trash that disk. I tried again, and this time the third time was the charm. I got it onto a DVD. So then my next task was to find out if my DVD player would play it.

Let me say, what I got is an old DVD player/recorder. It was manufactured in 2005, and has been refurbished. And now, I am running Windows 8.1 on my computer. So every time I have tried to burn a disk from a freebie program, it wouldn't play on my DVD player. I always thought it was that way because the player is so old and my computer is so new, that they were just incompatible. Well, last night, it was kinda late when it finally finished, but I put the disk in my player and it played very well!! Thank GOD!! I thought for a while there I would have to go to my ma's and burn the disk on her computer. I really did not want to do that! LOL! But it works beautifully, and now I have the movie! I love it too. I highly recommend it to other INXS fans! Though there are some fans that are going to find everything wrong with something, just because it tells the truth about Michael. And let me tell you, Michael is not an innocent angel! He actually went crazy at one time in his life, near the end. And Luke Arnold as Michael UGH!!! Man is he gorgeous!! If I were 20 years younger, I would have fallen in love with this man!! He actually has a better looking body than Michael had! LOL! Don't get me wrong, I still love Michael Hutchence. He was a great man! And kissed very well I might add! LOL!

And Speaking of Andy...

A friend of mine on Facebook is asking for prayers for her neighbor Andy, she said he's having brain surgery tomorrow and that it doesn't look good. I ain't gonna pray for him! If anything, I'll pray that GOD takes his soul and then sends it to Hell where he belongs. Just the fact he's having brain surgery is comical to me. Karma at work! I always thought you had to have a brain to have brain surgery, and that leaves Andy out. But if he does die, I'm making a t-shirt. I'll put Hell's fire on the shirt, with his face on it, with a message saying "This man is now in Hell for being so hateful to me and my sister!" Then I will give reference to Matthew 22:39 where it says you are to love your neighbor as you do yourself. This friend, I'm surprised she even wants Andy to survive! She's a large woman like me. Andy probably calls her a cow, or maybe something worse. But I am sure he probably makes fun of her too. She probably just doesn't know it. But if I do make that shirt, I'll be sure to wear it when I am in Bozeman to give the people there an idea of what GOD does to people like Andy who do shit to people like me and my sis and do not repent.

Well, all this sounds wonderful, and I hope it happens, but most likely it won't! People like Andy never die! He'll probably live to be 120 years old! He's so bad, even GOD doesn't want him! Even Satan doesn't want him! LOL! But if he does go, I won't feel bad! I won't feel bad for saying I hope the next person that dies in that building is him. I won't feel bad for saying the next seizure he has I hope kills him. I won't feel bad for the time I said I hope he dies so he can go to Hell where he belongs. I'll only think that now my sis and my Minnie are 100% safe, and don't have to listen to Andy's BS anymore. And I am not going to pray for him. No way! I'll only pray that GOD sends his ass to Hell. That is all.

Andy is the kind of person I always dreaded meeting in my life. As much as I hate to admit this, he has a lot of charisma. People there stick up for him. People there believe him. People there follow him. Deb's husband Mike did. He started following and acting like Andy at one time. That's why he turned into an asshole. Apparently it started right after his friend in New Mexico committed suicide. Apparently Mike thought it was mine and my sis's fault that his friend committed suicide, which is stupid, because I'd never even met his friend, nor have I ever been to New Mexico. Nor have I ever wanted to go to New Mexico!! So, the idea he was blaming me and my sis for his friend committing suicide was stupid! When my sis told me that was the reason Mike turned into an asshole, I asked "What the Hell has his friend committing suicide got to do with us???!!!" My sis answered "Because we are fat." That's still a dumb reason for him to hate on me and my sis! That still has nothing to do with his friend committing suicide! That would have been like me blaming Mike for my grandma's death because he's stupid. But it was probably influenced by Andy. I would not be surprised! I could just picture Mike with that dumb stoned look of his getting angry and pacing around his living room saying "My friend is now dead, and it's all those fat girls' fault!" Then he tells Deb "I'm going to be an asshole to those fat girls now because they made my friend kill himself!" LOL!! The funny thing is, like I said, I'd never even met his friend. Neither has my sis.

Kim is another example of one of Andy's followers. When I heard she was imitating him and calling me and my sis names, I knew there was some evil at work here. Andy has the power to influence people. Of course I truly believe people like Mike and Kim are very easily swayed by evil. They have no minds of their own, so how could they know not to listen to the bullshit that Andy spews about me and my sis? Andy doesn't know us either, he never got to know us. All he saw was a couple of fat women. Because of that, I never let him get close to me, and neither did my sis. I didn't even give him any kind of invite that I wanted to be his friend. None at all! I loved it that he hated my guts! Believe me, the feeling was mutual!

I'm Going Home!

Yet again! Just like the Lone Ranger. I'm heading off here very soon back to the coast! Of course this time, I won't be heading back to Washington. I'm going to become an Oregon resident. Oregon coast resident. I still want to stay along the coast. I wouldn't accept anything but. Being here in Reno has been an interesting trip, but let's face it, I belong on the coast. I love the ocean. I love the sea air. And Reno, well I thought moving here would help cure the stiffness in my shoulder, but it hasn't. I thought it would help my sinuses, but it's only made them worse! I so miss the coast! I've never lived in Oregon before, although a lot of my Facebook buddies think I have. I don't know really where they got that idea from, but I've lived in Washington for most of my life. Not Oregon. But I just miss the coast, I'll be so glad to go back there. Been so hot here in Reno!

Wow! The dirty dozen mob better forward this blog to Donna fast if they want her to turn against me before I leave! I have no idea how much longer I am going to be here! Oh yes that's right! I never said anything bad about Donna! LOL! So they won't forward this blog to her! LOL! I have nothing bad to say about Donna. There is just no comparison between her and Patti! Patti doesn't even slightly match up. Donna is so much better! I am going to miss Donna. I have never missed Patti! In fact, every day since Patti kicked me out of that house, I have been grateful to GOD that I am no longer living with her! And I am totally grateful she never met my sis! She would have said some horrible things about my sis and I would have hurt Patti really bad for it! I haven't told Donna yet that I am leaving, my mama wants me to wait a while longer until we are sure of an actual date.

Well, I kinda wish it was Ocean Shores I was going home to, but it can't be. It has to be Oregon. Political reasons there. Besides, I love the idea of living on the coast and not having to pay sales tax when I buy anything. So, bring on Oregon! Besides, it would be so nice to be able to hear the rain on my roof again. I just hope we don't get stuck living in a complex again! I want a rental home. I want something like what we had in Ocean Shores. Complexes SUCK!! Too many people and too close by! I like isolation. Of course mama may not like it so much. She's a people person, I am not. Of course I may have enjoyed Bozeman a lot more if there just hadn't been so many crazies living in that complex. But that's what that kind of housing is there for. I just hope none of those nasty crazies there hurts my Minnie!! Believe me, if I even think my Minnie is being hurt, I'll buy myself a rifle and be at the idiot's door that hurt my baby, and I'll shoot them dead!! She's still MY baby!! I'll defend her like a mama bear with her cubs!

My leg has been bothering me so bad these past few days. And it's times like that I want my Minnie back! :( Monday it hurt so bad, I could barely move. And I couldn't go to the fitness center. Yesterday, I pushed myself to go to the fitness center, but I only walked about a little more than a mile and a half on the treadmill. But I managed to burn over 200 calories. The reason is this damn sofa!! I spent all day Saturday scanning pictures for a couple of my latest books and I am still getting used to this scanner. It's wireless, and does everything wirelessly. Including scanning and uploading. I had to sit on this dang sofa the whole time! And this sofa is hard as a rock!!! I need to remember when we buy furniture for our new home, we buy soft furniture. Donna likes her's hard. I like mine soft. Donna hardly uses the furniture. This sofa is one thing I am not going to miss! I also need to buy a good blow-up bed. That will have to do until I can buy a good solid bed! Which hopefully won't take too long after we move.

I've got my eye on a good blow-up bed. One that has a memory foam top. It's expensive, but worth it, I am sure. Well I only have to live in the Seaside-Astoria area for one year, then we can move on. I want to move to Coos Bay. I've heard some nice things about it, but I want to stay close to the coast. Or I don't know, I may stay in the Seaside-Astoria area. But there is no Walmart there to date. So, we'd have to do our shopping in Portland. We used to have to go into Olympia to visit a super Walmart when we lived in Ocean Shores, and it was always a fun road trip. Don't knock it man, I like Walmart!! Even if I win the lottery, I'd still shop at Walmart!! They have great bargains there!! I'm a woman who loves the bargains!

A Milestone Month

Well, I must say, I did reach my goal of losing 50 pounds this summer! I must pat myself on the back for that one. I was looking in the mirror in my bathroom, and I noticed my face is smaller than it used to be. I always lose it in my face first!! But I do still have a LONG way to go before I am finished with the weight loss. I'm still fat! But the loss of 50 pounds this summer is progress. I am grateful for it. I still go to the fitness center every day, and will continue to for as long as I can. At least until I can get a treadmill of my own. That won't be for a while yet.

Well, my ma is now 65 years old and a senior. She's happy about that. Shoot! I remember when 55 was considered officially a senior, and then 60, then 62. Now, you're not officially a senior until you're 65! How strange is that? It changes every year. By the time I am 65, I won't officially be declared a senior until I'm 85! By then I'll probably be in my grave. I expect to be! Well, ma didn't expect to reach 65 years old either. I remember one day she told me that back in 1993, she just woke up in the middle of the night, for no apparent reason, and just said to John "I'm going to die in 10 years". John thought she was crazy then. But ma was so positive she was going to die in 10 years, she even lived by that for a while. But 10 years came and went, she didn't die. I don't know why she thought she was going to die then. Grandma did die in 2001, but even that was not 10 years from that date. I thought perhaps maybe she had the vision for grandma. Not herself. Sometimes those kind of things can get mixed up.

Speaking of visions, I had a strange dream yesterday that still is haunting me to this day. I dreamed I was back in Bozeman and they were having a pizza party for the whole building, my sis and I were there. Well, in my dream, Andy was stealing pizza off another woman's plate. I did not recognize the woman. She was older, tall and thin with long, blond hair. Well, I saw the woman in the dream get frustrated with Andy for stealing her pizza from her plate, and she confronted him about it. Well in this dream, after she confronted him, I saw him chuckle, say something and then grab the woman by the neck and start punching her in the face really hard. So hard, I saw marks on her face. I was angry when I saw him do that in the dream. Well, if I saw him doing it in real life I wouldn't be too happy about it either! There is no doubt in my mind he would do something like that in real life! Not a single shred of doubt! He has even stalked other women in that building. He does it all the time! I was so grateful he was not my friend!!! After I heard of all the shit he did to other people in that building, and even where he worked, I was glad not to call him a friend!!

Well, in the dream, I approached the woman and told her to go to the hospital, so they can phone the cops and fill out a police report, because something needed to be done about this man. I did get tired of people making excuses for him in that building. He was not worthy of it. He is a nasty, vicious, cruel man who has no respect for anyone except himself. Not to mention he stinks! My sis said he said hello to her once, but he never said anything to her that was friendly when she was fat. So, my guess is he's only kissing up to her because she's losing weight. I know my sis knows to keep away from him. I'd prefer if someone hates me now because I'm fat that they still hate me after I lose weight. I'd rather have real enemies than phony friends! If Andy were really trying to be nice to my sis, he would have helped her, or cheered her on to lose weight, instead of calling her names and acting like a hateful bigot. But there is no doubt in my mind Andy would strike a lady, as presented in that dream I had. He slapped Karen in the head with a newspaper once, and he supposedly likes her. He called a woman that worked with him on his job a "cunt", and that's why he got fired. Like I said, he has NO respect for anyone except himself. And he treats people like shit and demands that they respect him. In short, he's like a show breeder, without actually showing and breeding dogs or cats. Although I did hear before he had a stroke, he did show Angus and Lou, and they won purple ribbons. So my ideas about show breeders being like him is not too far off. LOL! I told you all, I'm a damn fine judge of character, and am almost never wrong!

The only time I've ever been wrong about someone else's character is when I've totally let my guard down. Like when I first moved to Bozeman, and made friends with Kim Hedges. I let my guard down because I was trying to make friends. We were in a new town and I was trying to get along as much as I could. But Kim had this sense of entitlement that I think I always knew about. I just never imagined she would turn that on me and my sis. She's only in a wheelchair because it's the best way she knows about to keep people feeling sorry for her. And Karen, though we are now good friends, I think deep inside I knew she did not like us all that much when we first moved in. I sensed that when the complex had a Christmas party. Karen was always nice, but I think I knew deep inside that she did not see me and my sis as good friends. And then she admitted one day that yes, she did go along with Andy and call me and my sis names when we were not around. But she doesn't do that anymore, so I forgave her. I also admire her. She came right out and told me the truth. I like that. Even though finding out I was right all along did hurt me some, because I thought she was our friend. But I like it that she told me the truth. I admire that in a person. Really, I do. That's why I still like Karen and don't like Kim anymore. Kim was blaming her rudeness on someone else. She cannot take responsibility for her own actions. I don't like someone like that. No matter how nice they may seem.

If I say something and someone does not like it, I never tell that person "I didn't say that" when I know I did. No, I am not like that. I did that once, and the feeling I got was the worst I've ever experienced in my life! I NEVER want to go through that again! So, if I say something someone doesn't like, I tell them flat out, Yes! I did say that! I remember when I was in 6th grade, I had this friend named Janis. Well, one day, I went to her house, and played with her, and her ma gave us some sweet rolls. I had one and it was good. Well, about a week or so later, Janis went to another friend's house and told her some pretty horrible things about me. That friend kicked Janis out of her yard and told her to go home. Then the following Monday, this other friend posted a note in my desk, saying she wanted to talk to me. I noticed that morning Janis was kindof distant, avoiding me. She'd never done that before. I was perplexed, but didn't think anything about it. I was a naïve child. Then during recess, this other friend told me what Janis said about me. Well after recess I confronted Janis about it, and she painfully admitted that yes she did say that stuff, she also said she was sorry. You know what? I never held it against her, not even then. I completely forgave her. At least she did not deny she said those things, and she did apologize for it. So, I forgave her and never brought it up again.

Well, I got some new stories on UMG Productions. So, now comes the shameless advertising. One is based on a story in those sketchbooks I got back from Sam. I am so glad I got that one back, because that was one of my favorite Uncle Martin and the Gang stories. It's called Rooftop Basketball. It's the first story to ever feature both Mushmouth and Bucky. Bucky is 8 weeks old in this story, and does not stop sucking his thumb. Mushmouth is a little bit older and plays basketball, using his neighbor's chimney as a basket. It's a funny story! An idea of how creative I was back in those days! Even more so than I am now. Though a lot of stories I wrote back then were unfinished, this one was mostly finished, and is good!! Also posted is the Dynamic Dogs. This originally came out in 1992, right after the Kooky Cagebirds. It's only a few pages long, but it is funny! I took dog breed names and made fun of them, much like in the Kooky Cagebirds. I showed this one to Donna, my roommate. She loved it! She was laughing by the time she finished reading it. So, it's good! Another story I put up is called The Big Squeeze. That's the one with the Mad Anaconda, where he makes his last appearance. Brad tells him to get lost and never come back, and he hasn't been back since. LOL! This story is really more of an anecdote, something that keeps the reader in suspense. It does have a surprisingly funny ending though.

Freebie Day on UMG!

Well, I've discussed it with my supervisor, we're going to have a free ebook day on UMG Productions' website. It's going to begin at 7 AM on Sept. 20, and end at 7 PM. This is Pacific standard time. I've been thinking about this for some time. I wanted to offer some things for free. Now, this does not include everything. Some books will not be offered for free. My supervisor only wants to allow a select few for free. But those that will be free are going to have this big, red button on their entry for one day:

When the sale is on, all a patron has to do is click this button, and they will be able to download the full version of the ebook. This sale is only going on for one single day. After 7PM that day, everything will be back to normal. There will be exceptions. No books with adult content will be available for free. Nor will any non-fiction books. My supervisor put her foot down on that. Because it is likely kids will be getting into the site that day and downloading. So, we don't want kids to get their hands on any adult material. Also, this only applies to ebooks. This does not apply to printed books. Those will still be available, but they will cost the customer. Later on, if I can get my supervisor to agree, we will offer those at a reduced price, but we cannot offer them for free. It costs us money to print them. But this free ebook day is great for a start.

Hopefully, this will encourage people to comment on these books, thus advertise. We will see. I am also going to post this on Google groups if I can. That is IF Google Groups is still going on!

In other news, I got a scanner, but I am still trying to figure out how to use the dang thing!! So far, the results I've gotten from it are unfavorable! It scans awful SLOW!! And I usually scan in 400 dpi, this scanner does not have that setting. It has a setting of 300 dpi which you can't see anything on, and then jumps right up to 600 dpi, which is fricken SLOW!! Takes 2 minutes to scan one picture on 600 dpi's. I did the Dynamic Dogs today, which is only 8 pictures. But some of the bigger stories will take all day to scan until I can figure something out! I'm pretty good at this BS. I think I can figure out something.

A Duck Is A Duck

Yesterday I got into an altercation with one of my Facebook buddies. Her cat needs to go to a vet, and she was asking for money to help save it. Incidentally, she is also the person who has been asking her friends to help her buy cat food for her cats, some strays and these 2 litters of kittens she's taken in. I admire her for wanting to do the right thing, but she's got to learn when to say no. When she cannot afford to buy food for her own cats, and doesn't have enough money to take her own cats to the vet, she's trying to do too much. Well, yesterday with her, all I had to do was mention getting rid of those strays and she turned like a rattlesnake! LOL! Well, she just had one cat die of cancer a couple days ago, and now another one is sick, that belongs to her mother, who is disabled. She says it has had no contact with the strays at all. Well, she sent me a PM about that, and also commented on her own post, and deleted my comment, which all it basically said for her to be wary of those strays she insists on feeding. They may be carrying diseases into her yard.

I also still say she should call Animal Control to come out there and take all those strays away! I know she wants to help them. But she gives too much and the strays do nothing in return. I feel bad for this woman, I really do. I am sorry her own cat died on her a few days ago. But the money she is spending feeding those damn strays, she could use to help her own cats. That's my concern. But I am not this woman's family, I really have no right whatsoever telling her to do anything. I just tell her how I feel. Much as I like her though, I feel like deleting her from my facebook. Well, she turned on me, deleted my comment, saying that it was unwarranted. She ended it saying "I know you don't like any other cats other than Siamese, but would you leave your negative comments to yourself" I just told her "That's fine. I still stand by what I said!" What I said was not negative, and it has NOTHING to do with me only liking Siamese cats! I call a spade a spade. I sugar-coat it for friends, but I still call a spade a spade! If she hadn't been my friend, I would have told her she is irresponsible and should not own any cats at all if she has to ask other people to buy food and vet care for them. Sugar-coating doesn't always work, believe me!! But I do it for the sake of softening the blow for friends. But I still tell it like it is! If it walks like a duck and quacks like a duck, it's a duck! And if I were going solely on the fact I only like Siamese, I would have never donated to her vet bill! I would have said "This cat doesn't even deserve to live, it's not even a Siamese!" But no, that has nothing at all to do with what I said to her. She never even thanked me for making a donation. Then she accused me of calling her sick cat a stray, which I NEVER did!! I just told her to be careful of those strays she feeds because they could be carrying diseases into her yard.

I try to help my friends as much as I can, and I like to hope they would be grateful for it. But I am not going to sit by and watch someone who can't even afford the few pet cats they have in their home spend their money to feed some sick strays, 2 litters of kittens, and then become a cat-collector. I've said it on here before, cats are not meant to live in groups of 20. And should not be left to suffer just because their owner wants to collect cats. I would love to have a houseful of pets! But I know I cannot afford it, so I don't get so many I cannot take care of it. And I don't feed strays when I know I cannot afford it either. I only have one TINY dog, because I know that's all I can afford. I had 2, but I gave Minnie to my sis, and believe me, it has helped the both of us! I could not afford Minnie, in case something happened to her, and my sis needs a companion. Now, I only have Vegas, and much as I'd love more, I cannot get another dog. When you have to ask friends or strangers to help feed and pay for vet care, you are in trouble! I don't want that! If I cannot afford it, I don't want another pet! Although things are about to get better for me now. But I still stand by what I said! Because I meant it. I'm sorry she feels the way she does about what I said, but I felt it had to be said!

Believe me, I've lost friends before over something like this. Mcgillicutty and I were friends at one point, but she got angry because I said she was breeding poor quality Chihuahuas. Well she was! I tried to sugar-coat it, but I told her she is breeding poor quality Chihuahuas. Sugar-coating does not always work. People still don't like to be told they're doing wrong. Only strong people don't mind receiving criticism. That's why I prefer the weaker "friends" get weeded out. I speak my mind, I'm that type of person. I don't beat around the bush. I tell it like it is! Believe me, if this woman had not been my friend, I would have been a LOT more harsh on her! I can do it! But I won't. Not only do I like her, she is normally a sweet woman, but I also feel bad for her having lost a pet, and now another one is sick. I cannot even fathom that. I would post this on her facebook, but most likely she would delete it again. That's why I keep blogs! LOL! No one can delete these posts but me. No one can make me delete them either. I may do it as a favor, if someone asks politely. hehehe! Well, I believe in free speech. It's a good thing too, because I was watching a video earlier today about countries that banned the internet. Bloggers in those countries get tortured, jailed and sometimes killed if they say the wrong things! I'd have been dead long ago if I lived in one of those countries! LOL!

I Like Animals Better

Have you ever heard someone say this? You've probably seen me say this over and over again on this blog. But it's true!! Measuring my experiences with humans and animals, I'd have to say my love for animals is greater than any love I feel for humans. Of course I have friends, and I do like them a lot. But knowing humans the way I do, if one of them decides to let me go, I can just as easily and quickly accept that too. In fact, throughout my history, there has only been one friend I ever had that I was in some way sad to lose. That was this girl named Jennifer, she and I went to the voc school together, and we became very good friends! We were friends to the point even we were exchanging Christmas cards and gifts. That is how close we had become. That is why I say losing her was probably the only time I ever mourned losing a friend. My sis and I were not that close when we were kids. So, I became closer to Jennifer than I was to my own sis at one time. I never understood why she cut off the friendship like she did. I have my theories, but am not definitely sure.

Now, I could have let that bring me down to a state of absolute depression, and just not want to make another friend again as long as I live, but I'm so glad I didn't. What doesn't kill you definitely makes you stronger. But this is just the beginning of why I don't like people very much. People judge. Animals don't. At least they don't judge us. I often wonder though how many animals say "I don't like others of my own kind because they judge me. I like people better because they don't judge me" hmmm. Like dolphins are intelligent enough, I wonder if they judge one another and sometimes don't like another dolphin of the same species because that individual is not up to that dolphin's standards. Am I the only one that has thought of this? Maybe animals do judge us. We just don't know it because we cannot speak their language.

I know there are some animals that just don't like humans. I don't think cats are people-lovers, no matter what cat fanciers say. They only love those people because they feed them. Bears don't like people. If we disturb a bear, they would maul us to death! Most wild animals don't like people because we hunt them, or have taken away their land. For some reason, animals always associate us with bad news. They see us as a threat, or as dinner. Some people don't like me at all either. My guess is they probably see me as a threat too. I am multi-talented. I can do almost anything I set my mind to. I can completely destroy a person if I want to, but I don't ever want to. Because I believe in live and let-live. If someone leaves me alone, I will leave them alone. The only reason I haven't left the dirty dozen mob alone is because they have not yet learned to leave me alone. But hey! That's OK. Every encounter they set up I've learned has made me a stronger person. MUCH stronger than them! Even stronger than I expected myself to be! They can't even handle the fact that someone doesn't like them. I say, so what?! If someone doesn't like me. So, bring it on! Do your worst!

So, who has been the most judgmental people I've ever met? By far, it has also been the people I've known to be the biggest hypocrites on the planet; pet people. How ironic! I cannot say show breeders, because some of the pet people I've met that were the absolute most judgmental have not been breeders at all. They were mostly rescue workers. I remember before I moved to Bozeman, and I was a regular on the Craigslist pet forum, me and this girl who called herself LuvsMyChis got into a scuffle. She even accused me of being a breeder. I haven't bred anything since Vegas, I would not call myself a breeder, and I gave that business up after Vegas was born. I was even proud of the way I carried myself in that argument. I remained completely calm, while she totally lost it! LOL! She was the one who got all irrational and called me names. I could have called her names back, but I chose to keep my maturity in tact. That pisses immature people off more than anything!! LOL!

Anyways, can you taste the irony in that?? The people who hate other people the most, probably because they've been judged by other people, tend to be the ones to judge others themselves, and the loudest at that. Not to mention, they are the most closed-minded. I was labeled a "breeder" by someone who did not even know me at all. I don't know if she knew at that time I had a hatred for show breeders. By the time I stopped going in there, I'm sure everybody knew, because I made it perfectly clear. I stopped going in there after I moved to Bozeman because I wanted to use that time for other things. Not going into a forum and watching people tear each other apart. Sometimes I lurk in there, but it's very rare. I just go in there to see sometimes if they are still tearing each other apart. Then I leave, because yes they do still tear each other apart in there. I haven't commented since just after I moved to Bozeman, it was enough! I did not want to get drawn back into days-long battles with them again. Apparently the dirty dozen mob had taken over there too, not sure though. But I did get a surge of views from there (thank you!) to this blog, especially the post I made where I discuss the battle I had that one day. But that was a good thing! Of course I did not see what they said about it there, I had better things to do. But if any of it was important, and I doubt any of it was, they would have posted a comment on that post.

I've learned in my years of being on the internet, that most things cannot be taken seriously. Lots of people do take things that way, but I've learned to take things said over the internet with a grain of salt. Some things I take seriously, like when this guy said that panthers would make a better pet than a dog. Well, I've met more than one panther fanatic in my life, who did think panthers make good pets, better pets than dogs. So I know that person believed what he was spewing! That wasn't the first time I heard some dumb panther fanatic say that! I like animals but I have my limits. I don't like spiders, they terrify me. I don't like panthers, they disgust me. I don't like people. Some animals I have a moderate distaste for, but I cannot say I dislike them. I'm not too crazy about koalas. Other people are, but I don't share their fascination for them. My favorite marsupials are kangaroos. Koalas do nothing but sleep. Kangaroos are more exciting! I don't hate or dislike koalas, I just don't care for them as much as I do kangaroos. Or kitty cats. Of course I can't stand gray tabby cats, because I've seen them so often I get disgusted by them. Its like when a person has a favorite food. They can eat it so much they start to get sick of it. That's me with gray tabby cats. I prefer dogs, but if a cat is in someone else's house I would pet it and play with it if it wanted to play. Unless it's a gray tabby. Then I just wouldn't have anything at all to do with it.

Even among dogs I have my limits. I can't stand labs, golden retrievers or mongrels. I like poodles, but I don't want them near me. I'm not too crazy about big dogs, because they are notorious butt-sniffers. I like smaller dogs, with shorter noses, like Chihuahuas. I've never known a Chihuahua that was a butt-sniffer. At least not the ones that don't resemble the Taco Bell dog! Or Pekingese, I've never known one of those that was a butt-sniffer too. Minnie was a butt-sniffer when I first got her, but I quickly cured her of that! She never did it again!

Stereotyping and Human Nature

I don't care who you are, or how many times you tell people you never stereotype anyone, EVERYONE stereotypes!!! It's human nature to do so. We cannot help it. It's a survival mechanism. We try to deny it, or cover it up, but everyone does stereotype in one way or another. Some people deny it by calling it something else, or they stereotype a person that no one else will defend. But everyone does stereotype. It's a sad commentary to our warped human ways. But believe it or not, it has helped us survive, whereas humans should have went extinct long ago. Human instincts are weak, compared to other animals. So, we basically survived by stereotyping. After all, our instincts didn't always tell us that a predator was on the hunt for food or if it's just strolling by. So we stereotyped, based on previous experience with that predator. Or if we saw a snake, and didn't know if it was a harmless snake or not, we would stereotype it because a venomous snake will kill with one bite.

I've mentioned this on this blog before, but I tend to also stereotype. I was watching a segment of a program this morning that one of my Facebook buddies posted, and it showed a woman who judges people by their names. Kids pick up a lot of things from their parents. They tend to imitate them. The child's names are a reflection of the kind of parents they have. Usually there is something in a name. I tend to hate the name Kristin, because everyone I've ever met by that name was hostile, bad-tempered and rude. So, I have a tendency to stereotype people by that name as having the same personality. I am not saying that maybe there aren't some nice people out there by the name Kristin. I'm just saying I have never met them. Usually when I see someone by that name commenting on a post I commented on on Facebook, I don't even read their comment because I know it's not going to be a friendly comment. And that is nothing personal against that person, it just comes from YEARS of bad experiences with different individuals with the same name that I have met that have all been unfriendly people.

Same goes for the name Kim. Now, I've met numerous people throughout my life by the name Kim, most have been good people. Only one has been not so good that I can think of. The one bad one though that I know is not going to ruin my image of those that I've met by that name that I liked. But if I were to meet more people named Kim, that were the same as the bad one I know, it would start to make me a little more suspicious of people with that name. But not as suspicious as I would be of a person named Kristin.

This woman even went so far as to say she would never let her kids become friends with someone named Tyler or Chardonnay. She doesn't like kids with these weird names like what celebrities give their children, and she just doesn't like people with the name Tyler. Probably for the same reason I don't like people with the name Kristin. She got a lot of backlash on that show, let me tell you!! LOL! But I think if I had kids, I would rather let them make friends with someone with a "weird celebrity name" than with someone whose name is so uncreative. Well, maybe a boy named John would be OK. Most people I've ever met named John (or Jon) were rather sweet, kind and gentle. In fact I can only offhand think of one boy I've ever met named John that was an asshole. That was when I was in middle school, and he had a sister named Jennifer, who I was friends with. I did not see John again in high school, but I did see his sister. She was in my English class my junior year.

Well that John was an ass. He'd make fun of people who were different from himself. He always made fun of me because he was 6 feet tall and I was only 5 feet tall, and a little chunky. I remember his sister was fat. Much fatter than I was. I asked her if he made fun of her a lot and she said yes. Yep, he was definitely an ass! But most boys I've met by the name John were decent. When I was growing up, it was usually boys named Paul I had the most trouble with. That is until I got to the voc school. But they were grown men there. I was still in high school, and most grown men will not give a high school kid any trouble. That was mainly why I liked going there. Though there was a group of men, some of them old enough to be my grandfather, who were jerks and assholes. But I only had to deal with them whenever I went into the cafeteria, they were not in my class. I don't know any of their names at all, but I did see some of them again after I graduated.

I also tend to stereotype teenagers. I try not to be hostile with them, but I know what teenagers are like, and they can be a regal pain in the ass!!! One of the reasons I never did want to have kids. I didn't want to deal with teenagers. Usually I leave teenagers alone, because well, they're just teenagers! They're big kids trying to identify themselves. On YouTube, there have been times I wanted to slap some teenagers, like that one I came across last Friday, Chim Chomp. Yes, I did want to slap him! LOL! But at the same time, I also realized he's just a kid. A teenager. Being a teenager. Most likely his attitude is not his parent's fault. That's just how teenagers are. But if I were taking an elevator and there was nothing but teenagers in that elevator, I'd cut out and take the stairs instead!! I do not want to get mixed up with teenagers. I have almost no teenage friends, don't want any either, I just don't want to get mixed up with them. There are exceptions to everything though. But I don't totally rely on them. I have one friend on Facebook, a woman who says her BFF is a girl, and I saw this girl's pic, and she is a teenager!! This woman has a teenage daughter, and she says her BFF is another teenager! At my age, I could never do that! I could never become BFFs with a teenager!! I'm not even comfortable making friends with someone who is in their early 20s. Well, that's Patti and Chris's fault. Long story. LOL!

Well, I do tend to stereotype teenagers because I've seen far too many teenagers that would beat up older people and kill animals. Not saying they all do that, just saying I've seen it too many times. At my age, I've seen everything more than once. I once saw on a TV show, a teenager who knocked down an older man. In the show, the man's wife mentioned it isn't natural to knock down an old man. Morally, it's wrong. But nature-wise, that's as natural as it gets! The young always overpower the elderly, every chance they get. Humans these days are so crammed with morals we've forgotten about our natural human instincts. That's why I didn't beat the living crap out of Patti, when I lived with her. Because I've been taught all my life to respect my elders. They're supposed to know better. Well, whomever made up that morale never met Patti. I think even Dr. Freud would have wanted to smack her after a while of getting to know her! LOL!

Patti is another name of people I've had the most trouble with. And usually only if it is spelled with an "I" at the end. Not if their name ends with a "Y", or if they call themselves Pat or Patricia. But I've met 2 people named Patti, in that exact spelling, and had problems with both of them! The first one I met was a woman I worked for. She was Japanese, and ran her household accordingly. Now, before you all go on about "what has her being Japanese got to do with anything" and all that BS, I am coming to that. I have NOTHING against Japanese people at all. I realize their culture is different from ours, and I think they are some of the most beautiful people in the world. But I am not used to their customs because I am not from a Japanese household. But Patti was, and they are very hard-working people and immaculate housekeepers. That's one reason I was not able to work there anymore, because I am not that immaculate. I can do basic housecleaning, but I am not one of those that takes a white glove and goes over every picture frame looking to see if it's clean. Patti was. She told me herself that is how the Japanese live. They don't even allow you to wear shoes in the house, it's against their beliefs.

I did learn a lot from her, I will say! I still don't wear shoes inside the house! LOL! Well, it makes sense! Look at all the things your shoes walk on outside. People smoke cigarettes and plop them on the ground. Animals go to the bathroom outside, including birds, and rats, and their droppings can be dangerous. Rat urine can contain leptospirosis, and bird droppings are known to carry a fungus that if it gets in your lungs, can cause them to fill with fluid and kill someone. A person wouldn't want that in their house on their carpets!! People also spit on the ground and you don't know what that person has!! They may have that Spanish flu, or tuberculosis for all you know! You don't want to get that on your carpet in your home either! So that's why I have this thing against wearing shoes that I wear outside, inside the house. That's what I learned from that woman named Patti. So at least some good came of my time with her. The other Patti, that I tried being a roommate with, she taught me nothing! She was just evil! Well, I guess I cannot say that. She did teach me what I don't want to see in a future roommate. She also has made me more cautious of people I choose to live with. Because I don't want another one like her in my life!

Well, that's the nature of stereotyping. Its a part of who we are as humans. Now, bigots I don't like. But they are very different than people who just stereotype. I admit, I do stereotype, but I don't hate on everybody just because I stereotype them. Stereotyping someone is just a way of staying on the alert. Bigotry is something totally different! That's when someone just hates a certain group of people, and they act all hostile to that group of people just because they don't like them. I may not like women or girls named Kristin, but I would never be hostile with them. I just stay away from them, and hope they'd do the same with me. And I am open-minded. Bigots are usually closed-minded, but I am open-minded. If I ever meet someone named Kristin, and that person is nice, I won't hold their name against them. But so far in my life, I have never met anyone by that name that was nice. It's just so easy, when you meet so many people with either the same name, or race, religion, or creed, who act the same way, whether it's friendly or not, it's easy to stereotype them. We may not want to do it, or we may try to deny it, but as humans, it's part of our nature to put labels on other people and stereotype them. We've been doing it for thousands of years, it's hard-wired into our brains. We may fight it off for a while, but it's typical human nature to stereotype.

Conspiracies And Toilet Talk

Do you think the government is really out to get us? I've heard some very scary things about the government lately. The biggest thing is the 9/11 conspiracy, everyone seems to believe the government bombed the Twin Towers on purpose. I just don't understand that! Why would the government deliberately bomb a building full of innocent men, women and children? I was actually on the fence about that theory until I found out Patti was in favor of blaming the government for that disaster, and Patti is a fucking lunatic! So, if it's something Patti believes in, it has to be phony! Or something that only a dumbass would believe! The only reason I was once on the fence about that belief was because of a documentary I saw, a few ideals did make some sense and put some doubt in my mind, like the thing about metal in the building not melting in spite of the heat. But then again, I know the world is not all black and white. That would make me look like those damn radical vegans if I thought that! No, there is probably a better reason the metal in the building did not melt. There could be thousands of reasons the metal did not melt! But if it's things like that that puts doubt in a person's mind as to whether the planes crashing into the WTC was real or not, then a person like that is to be pitied, because they are only looking at a small part of the bigger picture.

As an artist and a perfectionist, I have learned to see the world in the bigger picture. Still the question always lingered that if that was really concocted by the government, why kill thousands of innocent people??? Another fact the documentary pointed out was that George Bush did not look at all surprised when he got the news that the Twin Towers had been bombed. I saw the video of him after he had received the news, and he may not have looked surprised. But he did have a look on his face that was like "oh no!" But conspiracy theorists did not catch that. My guess is they are not as good at reading facial expressions as I am. I've spent my life learning to read facial expressions, and reading the tone in peoples' voices. I can tell if someone doesn't like me, probably before they know it! I wasn't great at it when I was a little kid, but my predictions about things like that now are almost impeccable. And I could tell George Bush did not know that airplane was going to crash into the WTC. And he did NOT plan it!

I don't know, maybe they expected Bush to be surprised. Everybody reacts to tragedy in different ways. Maybe Bush's initial reaction was shock. Maybe that's normal for him. My initial reaction when I heard my grandma passed away was pretty much the same. I was in shock. I did not hold my hands to the sides of my face, bug out my eyeballs and hang my mouth wide open, like Kevin from Home Alone became famous for. I did not laugh, or smile. I didn't get an angry look on my face. My expression was much like Bush's was when he got the news the WTC had been attacked. Plus you have to remember George Bush was in a classroom with a bunch of little kids. I'm sure he felt he had to keep it together for their sake. He didn't want to alarm the children over what was happening in New York.

I know what the Obama supporters are probably thinking. They're thinking "If Obama had been present at the time, you would have said he didn't look surprised either" which would have likely led to the notion that I would believe then that Obama was responsible. I admit I do not like Obama at all. But even if he had been president at the time of the 9/11 attacks, I would still not believe he did it. Because I just do not believe that it was an inside job! I admit a lot of questions have been put in my mind about why such and such happened, but the one question I always go back to is why would the US government want to kill thousands of innocent civilians? And in such a horrible way? People who believe everything bad that happens in this country is the work of the government make me sick! Now, I've even heard the Sandy Hook shooting was an inside government job. Also, people think the Boston Marathon bombing was also an inside job. Gimme a break!!! That's why these people piss me off who think that! Seems there is nothing that can happen in this country that the government isn't responsible for, including bad things. Is this because of the warmongers that say things like this that now everybody believes it?

I am beginning not to like this country at all. Too many people like Patti, who are gullible, fascist dumbasses and socialist bullies! Two very great reasons I am so glad I am no longer living with her. And I only had to suffer for 4 days. For that, I am grateful to GOD. Donna is better than Patti by a longshot!! There aren't any words in the English language to describe how much better Donna is than Patti!! Hitler would have been a better roommate than Patti! But then again I don't know, the way she acted I'd swear Patti was the reincarnation of Hitler! LOL! I won't say sometimes Donna doesn't have her moments, but she is nowhere NEAR as bad as Patti!! Not even close to being near as bad! Well, things could have been worse with Patti. I could still be living there! LOL! Of course I wouldn't have. If she'd have kept up her bullshit, I'd have ran away eventually. I couldn't live with a person like her for long.

Now, I am beginning to believe her asking me to move in with her was something of a conspiracy. So many things while I was there pointed to it being a conspiracy. Who could have perpetrated it, I don't know for sure. It might have been the dirty dozen mob. They did mention Patti on this complaint they posted about me on the Complaints Board. Whether they actually talked to her or not, I don't know. Even if they did talk to her, they'd believe everything she says because she does not know them, and does not hate them yet. And no doubt she told them a lot of lies about me. Well, some things she was honest with my ma about. I did overflow the toilet there. But that was probably Patti's fault too. I think I was poisoned while I was there. But I am thinking Patti probably told her brother and maybe my ma that I flushed a feminine napkin down the toilet. She told me she thought I had. And Patti was one of those very unfortunate types of people that once she gets an idea in her head, no matter what proof is brought up against it, it stays there! No reason for it, no proof to back it up, just Patti's own warped belief system.

I don't know why everyone thinks just because the toilet overflows that a woman flushes a feminine napkin in the toilet. I've overflowed a lot of toilets in my day (sounding a little too much like Undertakerfreak1127 here) but I never once even thought about flushing down a feminine napkin! I never even heard of that. I asked Donna about that once and she said you used to could do that. LONG ago! But as long as I have gone through cycling, I've always heard if you flush them, it'll clog the toilet. So I never did it. My problem that night was I got sick, and I was puking out both ends. Part of it was semi-solid, the other part was runny. And bleeding, but I won't get into that! LOL! But anyways, just what I did in that toilet alone that night made it's water level higher than usual. But it was the semi-solid stuff that was having trouble flushing down. There was too much of it. It was the consistency of hard ice cream, but not over-all solid. That was why the toilet clogged that night. But Patti just continued to believe I flushed a feminine napkin down the toilet, and there is very little doubt in my mind that is what she told her brother and my ma. I thank GOD Donna is not like that!!

I was watching a couple of videos someone posted up about how to handle bullies, and I was remembering Patti, who so far has been the last person to bully me. But I have been bullied by other kids my entire life. When I was in kindergarten and first grade, I usually fought back. But by the time I was in third grade, I guess I got tired of fighting my own battles, so I let other kids do it for me. I was lazy! LOL! There had been times I wanted to fight back! Believe me! One kid I'd had trouble with since the third grade was a boy named Paul. He was the kid with the deformed head (NOT the one who was my boyfriend), yet he used to call me ugly. Not saying he was wrong, just saying he was no better looking than I was. It was obvious he said that only to make himself feel better. Maybe his stepfather told him every day he was ugly. So Paul took that out on me because I was too kind-hearted to tell him off. I remember one day, I was walking through the gym room in high school. I was a sophomore, and Paul was a junior. Well, Paul was walking behind me, and he was shouting obscenities at me, calling me names, saying things to the effect of "hey baby, wanna fuck?" Well, I reached the exit door before Paul did, and when I got out the door, I stood back and waited!

I knew Paul would eventually come out that door, and when he did, I was going to KILL him!! I was ready to! I was going to grab him by the throat, throw him to the ground and punch him in the face until my arm got tired. I was so mad, I wasn't even thinking straight! I'd had to endure all kinds of abuse from this fool since third grade, and I was ready for a show-down. I had literally reached my limit with him at that moment. I never did anything to Paul. I always left him alone. He was always the one who would come up to me just to harass me. Well, this day I had HAD it!! I was ready to kill him. I waited for him behind that door, and I had my hands tightly clenched in fists, my teeth were burning, I was literally hot in the head, I was ready for him. When the door opened, I said to Paul, as my teeth were still grinding (yes, I was that mad) "You want to fuck with me? Let's do it!" I was looking at him straight in the eyes. But Paul started whining, pleading for his life, saying things to the effect of "Nah, I would never say anything bad about you! You're my friend!" I told him I am NOT his friend, and don't insult me like that! He proceeded to tell me he was talking about another little boy that was there in the gym. I said "You were calling a boy baby asking him if he wants to fuck?!" Paul couldn't get me to believe that in a million rosaries!! But I believe Paul knew I was there to kill him. Somehow though he had the grace of GOD on his shoulders, because I somehow got talked out of beating the living piss out of him. He told me he wanted me to draw him a picture of a unicorn. I told him it would cost him $20. So he told me he would bring the money to me the next day. I guess that's why I let him live.

Well, I never did see that $20. Not that I ever expected to. But that's OK. I never drew the picture either! LOL! I'll tell you one thing, after that day, Paul never bothered me again. But I was going to do that without thinking. This guy on the video, he was talking about a bully he knew in school who, while he was in gym class jogging, the bully pushed him from behind, knocking him down to the floor. So he got back up and pushed the bully down to the floor. He did it without thinking. It was not premeditated or anything, he just temporarily lost his mind. Bullies tend to do that, push their victims to their limit and beyond. The bully looked at him as if he was surprised. Well, when you think about getting even with a bully, it does things to you. When you do it without thinking, it surprises the bully. The guy on this video said that bully never bothered him again after that. So, that was good! But he added he never would have done anything if he'd just stood there and thought about it. I remember that third night I had with Patti, after I had been sicker than a dog all day long, and she trapped me in the kitchen, would not let me go back into my bedroom, I wanted to punch her smug little grin off her face. The only thing stopping me from doing that was #1, she was a lot older than me, and #2, what would my ma and stepfather say if I was kicked out of that house because of that?

That's what happens when you try to think about how to handle a bully. But my biggest consolation for that night was that I was not the first one who probably ever wanted to punch Patti in the face. She told me her ex-husband was a beater too. Well, after that night with Patti in the kitchen, I finally understood why he beat her!! I'm not a violent person, and I almost beat her up too! I came within millimeters of telling Patti "Ya know, I am not an angry or violent person, but right now, you are beginning to really piss me off!! You've been non-stop bitching at me all fucking day! So if I were you, and didn't want to get hurt really bad, I'd march my ass right back up those stairs to my bedroom and leave me alone!" But again, morality stopped me from saying that. Bummer!! Damn morality!! LOL! That would have pretty much been the same scenario as I had back in high school with Paul. It takes a lot to piss me off really, and I do not like fighting, but when I am pissed, watch out!! I become Tsunami Timmyfan!! Especially if I am not thinking straight. hehehe!

How Will He Respond? Or Will He?

LOL! I know I've said before that I am not going to give people on YouTube more attention than they deserve. But this made me giggle today. I had a little bit of a confrontation with a guy on YouTube who calls himself Chim Chomp, and he has a picture of a dog on his profile. So, I was assuming he's a dog lover. It started with someone who calls herself KittyKat 1890, and she's seriously a cat-fag. This video was one about cat friends vs. dog friends. So, people naturally are in the comments section arguing about which is better. Personally, I know both have good points and bad points. My view is which pet is worth it?  Anyways, KittyKat's response got everyone riled up:

Cats Are The Best If They Bite You It Dosent Hurt If They Scrawl You It Kind Hurts But For like a Min!!! IF A DOG BITES YOU YOU HAVE TO GO TO THE HOSIPTAL 😭 you have to walk dogs... you dont with cats you need to play and throw slobbery balls to dogs just get a ztring for a cat!!! See cats are soo much better And My Cat Saved Me 😘 i Was Being Chased By This Mut And i Tryed To Kick Him Snd He Almost Bit My Leg Then My Cat Prounced On Him And He Ran Away So dogs are very stupid because i was walking down the road on my phone walking to my Own Housez

I figured out, this just had to be a joke!! I think KittyKat saw that video that went viral too much, where the cat saved a toddler from a dog attack. Frankly, I don't believe the cat did that for the toddler. The cat probably just didn't like dogs and attacked the dog out of a personal vendetta. Cats are very vindictive animals! LOL! But KittyKat cannot be this dumb!! She said cats don't hurt when they bite. Ummm, Yes they do!! Unless you are used to it, like I was when I had cats. Not to mention cats carry diseases in their mouths that can seriously infect humans. They've even been known to carry the flesh-eating virus. One of many reasons I don't own a cat!

Well, then someone named "Sugar Glider" spews that dogs are retarded, and that really riled up Chim Chomp. His response was:

Like cats can evan do that cats are lazy some dogs or most of them protect there owner .dogs want to do stuff they don't want to be lazy. Oh ya sure dog r " stupid" hah if try and to play with a cat this claws will sink into your skin and go to the hospital. Dog don't evan bite that hard. Plus dogs r more classy u don't see cat show or competing cats no u c dogs more active doing all the cool stuff. Dogs are cuter then cats

Obviously he is a teenager. My apologies to my readers for the bad spelling errors of his. This post sounds like he is on the side of dogs. But in all fairness, there are cat shows. But he is right when he says dogs don't bite as hard as cats, and this has been proven. That's why I said KittyKat's got to be joking, or trolling. I decided to let Chim Chomp know that I believe KittyKat is joking around with him and everybody else:

+Chim Chomp Gotta be a joke!! No one who actually knows cats can be that dumb!!

I don't think KittyKat is that dumb!! She may know some about cats, I don't know. Well, Chim Chomp's response to me led me to believe he just may be a cat-fag disguised as a dog-lover:

+Dee Timmyfan fat tard . Thinking ur all cool but this is the real world. Every one has there own opinion's

LOL! I'm not so sure what this being the real world has to do with KittyKat joking around, unless Chim Chomp just has no sense of humor. But anyways, I thought maybe I did not make my comment perfectly clear to him. So, I decided to reiterate to him:

+Chim Chomp Uhh, just in case you didn't understand, I meant  KittyKat 1890 is dumb. Not you. Anyways, thanks for watching my video! :)

Nah, if he watched my videos, he's not dumb. LOL! That's what I put them up for. Well, I was thinking IF he responds at all, he'll probably respond with more hatred. I have a couple of theories, in case anyone wants to place any bets:

1. If he responds with hatred, he's a mindless cat-fag defending his title.

2. If he doesn't respond at all, then he's a teenager, just as I suspected.

So far, he hasn't responded at all. My guess is he's a teenager. Teenagers never believe they're wrong. If he apologizes for his mistake, I'll likely die, because that's a response I don't expect. Not from someone who uses such poor spelling and grammar as Chim Chomp does! I actually once had that happen. A long time ago, right after I first signed on to YouTube, another teenager, who was a huge fan of Michael Jackson, saw my video about him after he died, and got angry at me because I am not a big fan of his. Later on he did apologize for saying such disrespectful things to me, and I accepted his apology. But he was a kid who used good grammar and spelling. Plus, he's from India! That says enough there! Kids from India are MUCH better behaved and better brought-up than kids in the USA. I've learned that over the years having friends now from India. But I don't think Chim Chomp is from India. I think he's just a typical American teenager who is into rap music. That's what his posts tell me. I'm a pretty good judge of character, I think I have it pin-pointed pretty accurately what his response will be: No response at all. But that's OK! What he says and thinks does not matter to me anyway. But I left room in case he surprises me and does respond. LOL! I don't expect anything more than a hostile response though. I'd still think he's a teenager. Teenagers usually respond with negativity.

Anyways, anyone want to place any bets about this kid's response? I'm open to bids!! hehehe!

Embarrass Me?

Yesterday I was writing back and forth to a viewer of one of my videos and this person said that people post my videos just to embarrass me. Then they subscribed to me to make me feel better. I just thanked this person for subscribing. I am appreciative of it, believe me. But I am not embarrassed of my videos. If I was embarrassed, I would never have posted the video to begin with. I am proud of each and every one of my videos. Even the ones I am doing something silly on, like my version of the cinnamon challenge. Well, it's to get laughs from people, and I guess I accomplished that task. Except in the case of my parents. LOL! But anyways, I don't care what the trolls, haters and negative people say! I'm not even curious anymore.

Those couple of years I spent totally ignoring negative posts really did me a lot of good. It was the perfect training session for me. I do not respond to negative people anymore who post comments on my videos, because I barely read the posts. I skim them quickly and that is it. Because I do not care what they say. I'm gonna do my own thing, and if they don't like it, then they won't hurt my feelings at all if they just don't watch. Simple as that. I even took down all the videos I used to have that were responses to negative people. That too was part of my training. I say I trained myself well. So please people, who want to subscribe, or who feel bad because of negative people saying negative things about me, don't feel bad for me. I'm fine! I'm still smiling, and going on, and will continue to make videos no matter what. Only death can stop me! LOL! Well, maybe not even that. But if I run out of ideas that might stop me. Until that time comes, I will still continue to make videos. If the negative people don't like it, again, that's fine! It's their tough luck because they will NEVER stop me from making videos! Saying this once and for all.

If the negative people are also posting my videos because they want to point and jeer and laugh because I am fat, well all I can say to them is enjoy it while you can! I am working on losing weight, and I am doing well on that too. Since May, when I joined the fitness center, I've lost almost 50 pounds. To the fat-hating bigots, that may not be anything, but to me it's a HUGE accomplishment!! Something that is rather hard to do when you are my age. So YAY me!! LOL! OK, gotta pat myself on the back once in a while. I haven't even had to change my diet. I don't call this a "diet". Diets don't work! I say that all the time, and I am a living testimony of that! What this is is a change of lifestyle, not a diet. I didn't change what I eat, I just changed how much I eat. I also changed how much I work out. I used to live a rather inert lifestyle. Not so much anymore. Even if I have to push myself, I work out. Last night for example, I was sore and a wee bit tired, but I took myself to the fitness center anyways, and worked out on that treadmill, and walked nearly 3 miles on it in one hour! Then after that, I took myself to Walmart and walked around some more. I no longer park close to the store like I used to. I park all the way in the back of the parking lot, so I can walk more. If it's a big parking lot, even better!! The farther away from the enterance I am, the more I like it!

This is a good thing too, because everybody likes parking close to the enterance. It's almost impossible to find a parking space up close to the store. Especially during the holiday season! Few people want to park as far away from the enterance as they can get. Now, I actively seek out the farthest parking spot from the enterance. Sometimes I do have to push myself, but I'm a good pusher on myself, so it doesn't matter to me! And yes, I still enjoy the sweets, the chocolates and donuts every once in a while. I just have it in moderation. Like, I haven't had donuts now in about 4 months. Then I only get one, maybe 2, and that's it for the next 4 to 6 months. And even then, I still manage to lose weight! I don't go to fast food places either. Well, I never did that much to begin with! I simply hate fast food! I did not get fat because of McDonalds or Burger King or any other places like that. I just love to cook! And everything went into my mouth to either test, or to finish off a little bit of leftovers in the pan. That is how I got fat, coupled with the meds I was taking, which made me lazy, so I couldn't work out. That was how I got as big as I am now. Well, now I am off the meds, so working out is a lot easier.

I was topless one day in the bathroom, and looking in the mirror, and I noticed my lovehandles are disappearing! They are not as big as they used to be! That's good too because they were starting to be painful! The weight loss is definitely working! So, if the trolls, haters and negative people want to make fun of me for being fat, go ahead! Do your worst while you still can! My day of reckoning will come soon enough.

I once saw a person, who used to comment on my videos. He actively sought out videos of fat people, just so he could spread his negativity. He commented twice on my Fat People Sucks video, about 6 months apart. He said that he always calls out fat people on the streets. He probably only does it as he is passing by them on his bicycle, which makes his butt the cowardliest of all cowards! No doubt in my mind he would not do that shit if he was standing in front of a fat person and couldn't get away. Anyways, I saw on another video he posted a comment to the person who made the video. The person announced how she has lost a lot of weight and was feeling good about herself. Well, this jerk commented saying something to the effect of "You're no better than a rapist who rapes a child and then says I'm sorry. I hate you for getting fat in the first place!" After I saw that comment, I blocked him! He's obviously nothing but a troll and a bigot. I hate bigots! So, I blocked him. I didn't ever want to see his ass ever again! Yeah, call fat people names on the streets, while you're sitting tall in your bike, passing by them like the wussy-ass bitch you are! Instead of saying it to their faces! The only reason people don't do that is because they know they will get clobbered by the person they are talking shit about. When I was leaving Bozeman, and people were pissed off at me about my blog, I was proud of myself in how I stood my ground! It proved to me I am stronger than I ever thought I was! So now, I am not afraid to say anything! And I don't shout at people from a moving vessel either!

People like that bigot don't seem to realize they are actually part of the obesity problem. Most people who binge eat do so for comfort. Everyone likes to feel comfortable. Everyone finds comfort in different ways. I find comfort in writing my stories and listening to music. Some people binge-eat. You never know who those people are who binge-eat for comfort. When they hear a bigot like this guy, calling them names when they are outside, walking and trying to lose weight, it makes them feel bad. So what do they do? They go home and eat to make themselves feel better. That's common sense! Not rocket science! Bigots should not exist at all. I hate bigots of any kind, whether they hate fat people, thin people, black people, white people, short people or tall people, etc, etc, etc. I just hate bigots!! The worst thing about bigots is they don't realize all the damage they do. Not just the person they are targeting at that moment, but it can also destroy the family life and their friends. The only thing I am bigoted against is bigots. And gray tabby cats, but that's an animal! It doesn't count! LOL! And people always excuse cats for everything anyways. People are just dumb! That's why I hate people.

10 Things You Didn't Know About UMG Productions (Because I Never Mentioned Them)

I decided to have some fun, I've been thinking about some facts about UMG Productions that I have never mentioned online before. Though those close to us did know these facts. Anyways, I decided to compile some facts about UMG Productions that nobody knows on the internet. Maybe it'll make our company a little more interesting. But I don't know.

1. UMG Productions was called Black Panther Studios from 1979 to 1988 because the leader, Trish, has a life-sized plush black panther as a decoration in her home, which became the studio's mascot.

2. Bandit was the first character created in the studio in 1978, followed by some friends in 1980. But they were dropped in 1982, due to a popular story that came out called Creepy Day, with a bunch of ghost dogs haunting a single Pomeranian dog named Sabrina. This led to the Halloween Hall series that lasted from 1982 to 1986.

3. Martin's "gang" began in 1988, with a few characters, himself, Timothy, Lamont, and Bill. The rest were added early in 1989, these included Bucky, Mushmouth and Odel.

4. Pablo was added in 1990, and used to have a sister. Her name was Lady, and she was only used in stories 2 times. By late 1990, Lady was gone, though no story ever mentions what happened to her. She was simply dropped.

5. Bandit's real name is Trish, same as her creator. But in stories she is only referred to as "Bandit".

6. UMG Productions is basically a hobby. Not to make money from.

7. Swen arrived in 1992, and was briefly a member of Martin's "gang". But went solo in 1993, and in 1995, teamed up with Odel, who was also dropped from Martin's gang that year.

8. My best story ideas come when it is raining. For some reason, the sound of raindrops on the roof makes me think better.

9. There has been more than one character named Brad in our stories, and they are not all the same character. Same with the name Katrina.

10. Until Metazoica was created in 1994, I was never satisfied with the species of animals being used, so they constantly changed about every 4-5 months. Which is why in a story from the summer of 1989, one character looks very different than he did in a story written in December of 1989.

Well, that's 10 odd and unknown things I never mentioned about UMG Productions. If I think of more, I'll post them on here.

Bonus: Rosa's real full name is Rosalyn Mary Addington. Candi's real full name is Candice Marie Rivera. She used to be called DeeAnna. Lisa's real full name is Lisa Lynn Raphael. She used to be named Melissa.

Sketchbook Originals

Well, I recently heard from Sam. I asked him if he had anymore of my books, because these were not exactly the books I was hoping to get back. He told me he found these books at a Goodwill store in Lakewood. I was not sure whether to believe him or not. Why would Goodwill sell books like that? They are hand-written, not published books. At least, not yet! They will be when I get through with them, as there are still a couple of stories I want to have published from those books. I'll be working on them today.

The worst thing about the idea that Goodwill was selling these books is that my others may be out there somewhere, and someone else has them. When I got these books back from Sam, I noticed a lot of stories, and even several pictures, were unfinished. I have to go back through my memory bank and try to remember how I wanted these stories to finish. That's not easy! First, I have to go back to the year 1989 and think like I did back then, IF I can remember it!! Heck! Looking at the cover, I even just realized I called gay people "fags"! That was very common in the 80s though. Well, I am in for quite a task!! Better get to work!

Just thought I would touch up, as I haven't made a blog post in quite a while. But if anyone has any of these sketchbooks, let me know! If they really were sold in a Goodwill store, most likely in the Lakewood-Tacoma area. They would have dark yellow covers, and be either 11"x17" or 8.5"x11", and have weird pictures of animal faces all over the cover. That was my style back then. Send me pics, I'll pay for shipping, and let you know where to send it to.