So What About Getting Older?

As I am getting older, I notice a lot of things are different. How the world perceives me is different. People used to just call me a fat whore. I was fine with that. But now, I've noticed a lot of people are adding the word "old" to that phrase. So now, I am not just a "fat whore", but also an "old fat whore". Getting old is different. LOL! My feelings and cares are also changing I noticed. The things that bothered me when I was younger, no longer bother me as an old person. I guess because a person gets my age, they get used to certain situations and become numb to it all. I became numb to "fat names" ages ago, and it stopped bothering me when people would call me "fat". Hey! At least it's true! I am fat. But this is who I am. I can live with the name calling, even learn to love it! Yes, you read that right; "love it!" My sis never could handle the name calling, which I guess is why she wanted so badly to lose weight. I say let them call me names all they want to. It's their right to free speech. I get called names all the time, believe me when I say it has zero affect on me. What I really want is for someone to come in to one of my videos and come up with a more creative name than just "fat old whore" or "fat old cunt". Those are pre-school-level names. I still have a $50 prize waiting for anyone who can come into my videos, without quoting any comedy acts, and come up with the most creative insult they can think of. So far, no one has been able to claim that prize. Not that I believe they will accept it.

When someone resorts to name-calling, they are either hurt or feel insecure by the person they are targeting. I am stubborn! I admit that. I'm sometimes proud of my stubbornness. Any time I haven't been proud of being so stubborn has not been because of anything that happened online, believe me! LOL! When someone online calls me names, I know I either hurt that person's feelings sometime in the past, or they see how strong I am, and how I won't back down, or I called them out on something they did not want to be called-out on, and I made them feel insecure because of it. That has almost always been the case, if not ALWAYS been the case. Name-calling is a last resort. It always denotes a weak person, which is why I rarely call anyone names. I call a spade a spade. I am fat, so I expect people to say I am fat. I have been called "fat" in a non-aggressive manner too. Though I would prefer higher-level name-callings than "you fat old cunt" or "fat bitch", I don't think that's likely to happen any time soon. I guess people these days just don't have the brain-capacity.

Anyways, what I don't understand is what is so wrong with being old? When I was in middle school, in English class, I had this teacher, who must have been in her 60s named Mrs. Gee. Well, in that class I had to sit next to a big, fat girl named Sandy Tincher, who was the most negative person I think I ever met in my life. Her whole hour during that class was spent saying things like "GOD I hate this class!" and "I hate old people!" and calling the teacher "stupid" and other things like that. Fat girls like her give fat people like me a bad name. She was worthy of the title "fat bitch" because she was fat and bitching was the only thing she had a talent for. She was the classic model of a fat girl being a bitch. Anyways, she'd be my age now. I wonder if she feels different being an old person herself. I'll tell you, I don't understand people who use "old" as an insult. Unless you plan to kill yourself when you reach 35, it's going to happen to you too! You're all going to get old. I never made fun of old people. Ever! I always found old people to be fascinating. Even when I was a teenager. But anyone who makes fun of old people, I always wonder what they plan to do when they get old? Or do they plan on just ending their lives before they get old. We don't get younger, we only get older. All these young people today who make fun of old people, I wish for them to become invalids when they reach old age, with no kids and no spouse to take care of them. Or if they do have kids, stick them in a home for old people. Maybe that will make those people think for a change.

Or what about their parents? How do these people, who hated old people when they were younger, feel about their parents getting old? Well, that would be hard to say as it seems kids don't love their parents anymore. Maybe they would be happy when their parents die? I don't know. I do know a lot of people who are the same age as me who have lost one, or both, of their parents. I've been lucky so far. I don't have any grandparents anymore, but both my parents are still here. However I do know, and dread, that inevitable day when my parents are going to kick the bucket. I feel bad for my friends whose parent, or parents, are deceased. That is why I thank GOD mine are both still here today. I'd like to enjoy the time I have left with them, however with both of them living so many miles away from me, that's harder now. My father is now the most untouchable, because he lives in Arizona, which is too hot for me! And too far south. And dad told me he would never move to Arizona!

Well, that's one of the many mysteries I will never understand about people. Fuck me! LOL!! But I am an old person. I am happy with the person I am, young or old. I don't care!

Let me tell you all, I wouldn't be a teenager today if someone were to pay me! The schools suck today, the TV shows suck, the music sucks!! Everything teens are supposed to love today SUCKS!!! I love being old. I love looking back on the things we had when I was a kid and remembering how lucky I was to have it in my life. I'll tell you, I probably never would have known about INXS if I had grown up in today's world. When I was a teenager, (most of the time) kids were innocent. We had better cartoons coming on TV in the mornings and afternoons. Sesame Street was still Sesame Street, the way it was meant to be with the little cartoons and skits and everything. Music was real and true, and came from the heart of those who sang it. And captured the heart of those who played it. We didn't listen to fanatics, whiners and radicals. Everyone had a dog, few people owned cats or paid them any mind at all. There was no such thing as "political correctness". We had better role-models. We went outside to play at our friends' houses instead of playing on the internet or video games.

But what have today's kids got?? Nothing! They're dumber than they were when I was a kid, far less innocent, the only role models they got are crappy ones today, all the good cartoons are no longer played on TV because they had to give way to "political correctness". Sesame Street should change it's name full-time to "Elmo's World" because that's the only character they seem to highlight nowadays. Kids today don't watch cartoons that are good and genuinely fun, but instead want to watch anime-style cartoons, which is nothing but crap! There are no real musicians today, Michael is gone so there is no INXS. Just Beyonce who does not sing about subjects she believes in, but instead has a group of writers to make up songs for her to sing just to keep her paycheck coming in. You couldn't pay me to buy a Beyonce album! She is so phony it's unbelievable!! And Kanye West is terrible too. Seems the only musical genre anyone today thinks is worth anything is rap and RnB and that is totally SAD!!! Today's schools are nothing but crap, and they are serving salads now instead of burgers and pizzas for lunch, which I also think is sad! Part of the fun I had in school was sitting down to have a nice burger and fries or a slice of pizza. If all that had been served back in my days was salads, I'd have rather brought food from home! And who are their role-models today? Donald Trump and a stupid grumpy cat!!

Yup, you couldn't pay me enough to be a teenager in today's world!! I'm glad I am old and we had the things we had when I was a teenager.

Calling All Nations!

Wouldn't it be wonderful if Michael could be immortalized with his own star on the Walk Of Fame in Hollywood? I think it would be. I would love to see this happen! So they need more people to contribute. Michael's sister Tina and another helper have put together a campaign to help make this become a reality. I think Michael deserves it. I for one would love for this to happen as soon as possible. There is no reason why it shouldn't. Michael was the #1 trending subject on Facebook for his birthday this year, that's a very good sign. Maybe this will be the year Michael gets his own star in Hollywood. The fact he was from Australia should not stop something like this from happening here. Lots of foreign celebrities get their place in the Walk Of Fame. So why not Michael? Why not INXS as a whole? I loved these guys! They deserve to have lots of attention. They deserve to never be forgotten or left out of anything. So why not make this become a reality? Tina has been so nice in responding to all the contributors too.

When this does happen, I would love to be there to make a film of it going in, and maybe make a film of the celebration, if there is going to be one, or if it's just a simple gathering, get that on film too. Either way, I want to be able to make a film of this for my friends who may not be able to be there. This has been an on-going idea for quite some time now, I cannot wait for it to come forth. This may take as much as a year to come to life, but I totally want to be there when this thing is revealed to the world. I want to be one of the first to catch it on film. That will be the ultimate make-up with Michael. All those years I spent ignoring him, this will kindof make up for it. I did contribute what I could to the campaign. Believe me, if I could give more to it, I would! But I am doing all I can to spread the word, and I would hope other INXS fans would do the same. Meanwhile, I will try to save to get myself down there so I can make a little movie of it to put up on YouTube and show my friends. I think I will more display this film on my group, Tim-Hutch Love, than on my page. It is, afterall, a group for people to go into to remember Michael and Timmy.

Now, I wonder if Timmy would be there for something like this? Not sure, as he still lives in Australia, and he and Michael's sister were apparently not on the best terms. But it would be a great idea if all the guys of INXS could be there to see this come to life. I know I want to be there. I know Garry lives in LA. I don't know about my partner, but I would love to make it down to Hollywood just to attend this little gathering. I will bring it all to you live from my site! If you'd like to contribute, click on the link below.

An Interesting Experiment

Well, I can honestly say, this trolling for fun has taught me some interesting things. But ya know, I think it's time to move on, because I have an even more interesting idea in mind. Not sure when I will do it, I have to prepare myself emotionally for it. The idea came to me yesterday from an encounter with a hit-and-run troll who called herself Nini Beauty. I was thinking what if I were to go into a video for dog-lovers and do exactly the same thing with them as I have been doing with the cat-radicals? How would they react? I don't mind the cat-lovers. It's the radicals I hate. By doing this trolling for fun, I've found that the cat-radicals are no different than any other radicals. But what about dog-radicals? How would they respond to a person who hates dogs? Are they as bad as the feline radicals? Are they worse? Do they even exist? I've never encountered them myself, probably because I have 2 dogs myself and I love them more than life it's self. But this Nini Beauty implied they are very bad. So, I am kinda interested to see for myself.

I thought about maybe finding a video somewhere on YouTube, which is like this one about people who hate cats, go to that video, and tell everyone I hate dogs. I want to see how they would respond. See if they act the same way the cat-radicals did. Or if they are worse. Or if no one responds at all. This would be a very interesting experiment! But like I said I have to prepare myself emotionally for this, it's going to be hard pretending I hate dogs with such passion. I hope Minnie and Vegas never reads my responses. This is going to be much harder than it was to pretend I hate cats with such passion. I mean, teasing the radicals is fun, but to be honest, I really don't hate all cats as much as I portray on that video. I still love siamese cats. I like black cats too. It's really just tabbies I hate. I just did it because I love to harass the radicals. LOL!! It's fun pissing off radicals. OK, so I turned troll for this venture, but if I do the same in a dog-loving video I would have to turn troll there too in order to get the full-effect.

There are some things about dogs that I do hate. I hate their butt-sniffing behavior! That is the worst thing about dogs. Cats are butt-sniffers too. That's why they hold their tails in the air. Its a mutual-exchange "You sniff my butt and I'll sniff yours and we'll both be happy together forever!" It's just that cats are daintier than dogs when they poke their nose in your butt. I used to have both a dog and a cat, and I slept with the both of them in my bed occasionally. I woke up in the middle of the night once, and felt someone's nose in my ass. I thought it was the dog. I felt down there and grabbed the nose out of my ass, and it turned out it wasn't the dog at all, it was the cat!! Up until then, I never knew cats did that either. I thought that was strictly a dog-thing! Over the years of dealing with cats, I've seen many cats poke their noses in peoples' behinds. So, dogs are not the only ones who do that. Dogs though also like eating crap, and I hate that too! That's something cats don't do. Big dogs are especially notorious for that! I'm not saying smaller dogs don't do that, just that I've seen that behavior more from the bigger dogs. I once had an australian shepherd that would stick his nose in the cat's behind while the cat was trying to take a dump, and lick the crap as it was coming out, and eat it. Obviously, if you are eating right now, you may not want to read this blog post! LOL!! But those are a couple things about dogs that I do hate.

Well, one of my friends (and only one) has a siamese kitten and he posted a picture of himself holding that kitten, and I said "That is the cutest dang kitten I've ever seen!!" It's an extreme wedge-head too!! It's a beautiful siamese!! Good to see at least one of my friends has a cat that isn't an ugly old gray tabby!! Another friend recently got a cat and announced it to everyone, and it's an ugly gray tabby! I didn't congratulate her. I just thought "is that the best you could find in a cat??" An ugly old gray tabby!!! I hate them! They are the biggest eyesore in the cat world. I find black cats to be the friendliest of all. Yet, people still have suspicions about them. Oddly enough. Oh well. Not my problem, I still would never have another cat myself. But I cannot tell the people on this video thread that I don't hate cats as much as I portrayed on there. LOL!! That would tip off the radicals. Well, some have already got the message that I am trolling for fun! But it's also added a great deal to this experimental thing. I accurately predicted Superior Scream's actions, and I am proud of myself for that! I still got it!! LOL! I'm still good at pinpointing a person's personality. And back in the days of the old INXS Fan Forum, Penny said I was "way off" in knowing what people are really like. LOL!! I would say on her I was definitely right, but I always judge how a person is by their actions on the internet. Of course I know you cannot judge a whole person by their actions on the internet. But you can get a good idea. Especially when you've never done anything bad to said person, and they still treat you harshly. Penny did. I didn't like Penny! She was something of a bully. And an asshole. Anyways, that was the way she presented herself on that forum.

Well, everyone on that video now thinks I am the wicked witch of the west because of the way I talked down at the radicals. But I do truly hate radicals. I got to have my fun with them, but I think I want to prepare myself for the next experiment. But if I am going to do this, I need to create a mock-account because if I don't, people will see I have dogs in my videos and know that I am lying when I say I hate dogs. But still, I have to prepare for this emotionally because it's going to be hard for me. But if I am going to receive the full effect of this experiment, I must hold my ground! I don't know when I will begin, and I have no idea which video I will do this on. But let's see what happens. It may be a while. I have to cut all ties to this cat-haters video. LOL!

Trolling For Fun

Yes I admit it. I am trolling for fun on this thread on YouTube. I love having fun with the fags/tards/radicals whatever the fuck you want to call them! This one person on this thread confronted me with it yesterday, some dude who calls himself Superior Scream. I told him yes I am trolling and I am loving every minute of it! For one thing, it's good mind-exercise. I am loving trolling these catfags and I love when they troll me back. LOL! I know that sounds strange, but when they troll me back, it gives me a chance to exercise my creativity. This Superior Scream guy was especially fun to work with. I was upset yesterday because of some things that have been happening so far this month, but I must say, Superior Scream made my day!! LOL!! He's been the most fun to work with so far. Another good thing about trolling, it's great training. It's interesting to see how well I hold my ground when faced with people slamming me and cussing me out for having my own opinions. That's the purpose of the fags/radicals, whatever! The day I start losing that ability to hold my ground, that's the day I give up the internet.

Well, if they want to point the finger at anyone for me being this way, I'll tell you, one person is my mom. Now, I am not blaming anyone, my mom had a huge hand in making me the person I am today. She always taught me to speak my mind. I can be nice about it if I want to. I don't go into a thread outright calling random people names. I only troll the radicals. The ones who deserve it. My mom had a positive impact on me growing up. But it was my encounter on the Acmepet site in 2001 with Kallie that had the biggest impact on me. Kallie taught me that if I am going to give my opinion, I'd better be prepared to stick to my guns! If she were to read this today, she would say "Oh NO! Don't try to pin this on me!! You are acting on your own!!" I know that is exactly what she'd say, or something to that effect. But yes, I can actually pin it on her. She totally, and possibly, inadvertently taught me to stick to my guns. I know this because up until I had that experience with her on the chihuahua forum at Acmepet, I gave my opinions, but never really took standing my ground seriously. The worst feeling I ever had in the world was the feeling of having to lie to her just to get her to like me again. It feels much better to be hated for who I am than to be loved for who I am not. Believe me when I say a LOT of people hate me because I give my opinions and stand my ground. Happens ALL the time. I've completely come to terms with it though. But on the other hand, there are lots of people who like me for it too. I've become a powerful person, so you can believe it when someone says "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger". I am a much stronger person and I am still alive today. If I die, I hope to still be strong in my next life. Hopefully stronger than I was in the beginning of this life. So, if anyone wants to point the finger at anyone for me being the way I am, you can thank Kallie. She is why I am so stubborn with my opinions. It was a lesson well learned!

Well, Superior Scream completely lost his shit last night because he said:

"So in short, you like to make people feel bad, basically because you can, and you're not ashamed to admit and endorse your actions because "catfags" do it too?

Ah. You're one of the best people I have ever met. Know what? You should kill all cats and the people who like them because they're scum and you're correct about everything. 

You're an awesome person."
Well, my response to him was this (his full response included):

+Superior Scream So, in summary:
1. People who like cats or people you don't like in general are "lowlife scum."

Catfags are not just cat-lovers. I have friends who are cat-lovers. Catfags are a whole different story.

2. You coin a new term to offend both gays and "cat people" and you're "okay" with that because you THINK they deserve it.

A "fag" is basically a cigarette. It has nothing to do with gays. That's something modern society made that word to be. But it's the perfect metaphoric terminology to describe hot-headed wussies like yourself. And yes, they deserve it!


3. You're judging/trolling people to get the point across that judgments are wrong? So you're hypocritically assuming that your opinion is the only good and useful opinion? 

I'm saying fight fire with fire. If they can go around saying "if you hate cats then I hate you", then they are willing to accept the consequential actions of making such judgments.

So in short, you like to make people feel bad, basically because you can, and you're not ashamed to admit and endorse your actions because "catfags" do it too?

Hell yes! Let them see how it feels. Just telling them not to judge would most likely not work.


Ah. You're one of the best people I have ever met. Know what? You should kill all cats and the people who like them because they're scum and you're correct about everything. 

So why don't you do that? I personally don't think it's right to stoop to killing people for what they like, but it seems you think that is OK. People can learn. But sadly most don't unless it is put on themselves and someone comes and says "now, you didn't like that did you."


You're an awesome person.

Thank you. :p I would say the same about you, but I don't like fags (radicals). Sorry dude.

Where he says "You're an awesome person", I knew he was bullshitting!! LOL! That's why I trolled him, and that is what set him off. His next response was this:

+Dee Timmy-Hutch-Fan 

Go to hell. You're a dog rapist in denial. Stay away from dogs, you nasty troll.

And I said to him this is the part I love the most. The part where the radicals completely lose their shit! hehehe! I had to do my nightly workout on the treadmill, so I left him alone for a while. But before I got back online, I said Superior Scream was going to have done either one of 2 things (or possibly both); either he was going to go to every post I replied to and call me things like "stupid", "idiot" or "moron" or all 3 --OR-- he's going to go to my videos and watch several of them and leave hateful comments on them. So I said "Let's see which of them he does" when I signed back online.

Sure enough, Superior Scream's predictable behavior went on a tirade throughout the video, saying things like this:

+Dee Timmy-Hutch-Fan 
You're a special kind of stupid. You need to get smarter. Maybe go to college and major in biology? 

Or give a stray dog a blowjob? Make your lips useful for once.

And...

I'm done arguing with a delusional retard. I hope Dee, in time, sees how stupid they truly are.

This went on for several posts. I was right! I am always right!! LOL!! It never fails. When they cannot have their way, people like Superior Scream always resort to calling people who are right things like "stupid" and "idiot", and then usually it's followed by some kind of comments about sex. Well, this was his closing response to me last night:

Superior Scream

Yesterday 6:07 PM

 

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+Dee Timmy-Hutch-Fan

Because you're a coward hiding behind internet anonymity.

This was how I responded to him:

Dee Timmy-Hutch-Fan

Yesterday 8:03 PM

 

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+Superior Scream Well seeing as how I have videos of myself on YouTube, I wouldn't say I was "hiding". :) So, do you have any videos of yourself? Let's see.

So I went to his channel and looked. There were no videos or even pics of him at all! So, this was what I said...

Dee Timmy-Hutch-Fan

Yesterday 8:05 PM

 

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+Superior Scream Hmm no. So using your own logic, I'd say you are indeed a coward hiding behind the internet dude. Sorry to burst your bubble :) LOL!

Well, this seemed to make Superior Scream even more angry. His response to this was...

Superior Scream

Yesterday 8:10 PM

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+Dee Timmy-Hutch-Fan​

How's that smiley face working out for you? You use them way too much when commenting.

You stupid, immature jackass. I would love to see you walk in PetCo and yell "catfags" at the top of your cum-filled lungs. You'd be called out about how offensive and stupid you're being. You wouldn't have the balls. Fuck you and fuck your poorly lit videos. I'm done with you. Go to your dogs. Maybe they'll "love" you and overlook your stupidity.

LOL!! He completely lost it. Well, I left the room for a minute, came back and watched a few videos on YouTube. But I also said to myself that sooner or later some sock-puppet is going to come in and pat Superior Scream on the back. I knew it was going to happen. Sure enough, it did! Someone who calls himself Victor Nega-Bunny (who I later would refer to as "the bunny-guy") came in to stroke "Superior's" ego...

Victor Nega-Bunny

Yesterday 8:14 PM

 

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+Superior Scream
Nice burn, bud.

I was still laughing at Superior Scream. I gave 'the bunny-guy' only one response, because I knew he was just there to make Superior Scream feel better. This is all I said to the bunny-guy:

Dee Timmy-Hutch-Fan

Yesterday 8:17 PM

 

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+Victor Nega-Bunny Nice try anyways. Didn't burn though :)

No, there is no way Superior Scream could "burn" me. NO way whatsoever! I never take radicals seriously. In fact, I was having the most fun with Superior Scream! Got me laughing again last night after what was a hard day! Well, now that this sock-puppet, the bunny-guy, was here to stroke Superior Scream's ego, I knew they were going to start griping to each other about me. That's where it really got funny! They did not respond TO me directly, they just talked to each other ABOUT me. It was funny!! I guess they were hoping I would give them further responses so they could intentionally ignore me, but that wasn't going to happen. But I did look in on their griping about me and laughed a LOT! LOL! Sure enough I was right. The next time I saw them, this is what "the bunny-guy" had said to Superior Scream:

Arguing with trolls is pointless. In their minds, they either justify their actions or literally don't give two shits about how stupid they sound. Or things like common sense and reason. Personally, I like dogs and cats. Who's hating but Dee?

Just FTR, I do not hate people who like cats. I have friends who like cats. I even told this to Superior Scream, but it seemed to go way over his head. But I have no friends (and don't want any) who are cat-radicals. The radicals are the people who say "if you don't like cats, then I don't like you". Those people are the ones pushing others to agree with them. They are the ones who bully others for having their own opinion. If you were to look carefully at the comments I made on that video, you would see it's the radicals I am mostly trolling. Not the true cat-lovers. In fact, you could say I am downright sweet to the people who are just cat-lovers as long as they are not radicals. Radicals ruin everything for everybody. They always do! They are scum!!

Well, I toned down the use of the word "fags". LOL! I actually got that from Encyclopedia Dramatica. But one person who I did respect on this video asked me not to use the term "fag" negatively. He said please. LOL! That does get my attention better than anything else. I could call them "cat tards", but that makes me think of cat turds. LOL! Then I thought "Well on the other hand, maybe that is a better terminology!" Call them "cat turds". They are full of shit afterall. LOL! But all-in-all, they are radicals, so I guess to fit with modern society's meanings, I'll call them radicals.

Radicals are shit-heads! They do ruin everything for everybody! Look at what feminism has done! Chivalry is dead because of them. And all the things feminist radicals fought for, I don't even care about!! I have never voted, in all my years of being old enough to vote. I love my kitchen (obviously more than I love any cat that has ever been in my house) so I don't care when someone says "A woman's place is in the kitchen". I would never strike a man, so I don't worry about being struck by a man. Besides, for self-defense, I could just sit on them until they turn blue. I actually laughed my ass off last night watching one video where a feminist slapped some man, and then practically begged him to slap her back, and when he did she started crying and walked away saying "How could he slap me??" She asked for it though!! Men do not care anymore. Feminists want to be treated like equals, so they have to take the bad along with the good. Or what they think is good.

That's why I hate radicals. They *think* they are doing the world some good. But in reality, they are just ruining everything for everybody. I hate radicals with a passion!!!

Speculation and Michael

I hear this all the time, people who were close to Michael do not like people speculating about his life and stuff. Even the guys of INXS avoid it. I know it's not right, as I did not know Michael that well, and only spent like one second with him. But what can I say? I was born to speculate. We all want to seek some kind of pattern in something, even in what happened to Michael. When Michael got in with Paula though, so many things about him changed, and I am the kind of person who just wants to know why. What happened to Michael? Why did he become so immensely depressed? Why did he always look so sad in pics after he met Paula? In his early days he looked like the hard-rocker type. After he met Paula and got in deep with her, he always looked so sad, even "not all there", in pictures. It could be the change in his hairdo that gave that illusion. Or maybe he "toned down" the attitude because of the kids. But he doesn't appear to ever smile as much in pictures after he got in with Paula as he did before he got in with her. I loved Michael more than anything in this world! I wanted to marry him! And when I saw him, he was the last person I would have ever expected to even dream of killing himself. He had a smile that lit up the room! Naturally, I am going to look for some kind of pattern in what happened. I have nothing personal against those people who were close to Michael and don't like people speculating about him. It's just this is my natural response to what happened. I know it may be wrong, and Michael would be hurt by it, but its in our nature as humans to seek patterns in anything.

I grieved for Michael from the moment I heard the news. To this day, I still blame Paula and Bob for Michael's death. That may be wrong of me to say that, but I cannot help it. No amount of bullying, yelling, screaming or anything from the Yatesfags will change that. Believe me when say I want to truly believe that Paula was innocent, I want to say she was not like the wicked stepmom from Cinderella, but more like Mother Teresa. But I look at pics of the two of them from the tabloids, and how Paula looks and acts so indifferent, while Michael is completely losing it, and hear stories about how Paula tipped off the press to their whereabouts, and it makes me just hate Paula even more!! She knowingly did something to Michael! Exactly what, I cannot say, as I don't know. But I can tell you this; it was obviously something I never would have done!

I recently confronted another Yatesfag who said that Paula was smarter than Michael. Well, as much as I hate to say it, it is true. She was indeed smart enough to trap him in her sick world. He replied with "He was dumb enough to fall for it." I just stated "For a dumb guy, he sure knew how to sing! Something I don't think Paula could do at all." I think Michael was plenty smart. I think he just was desperate for a family. See, there I go speculating again. I cannot help it. My life centers around speculation. LOL! I never said though that Paula was stupid. That's one thing no one can ever honestly say that I have stated. Paula was smart, like a fox. A crafty fox. She was also a filthy whore with bad hair! I would say she had no fashion sense and wore the ugliest clothes I've ever seen! But let's face it, I don't exactly have the best-looking clothes either. LOL!! I remember some dumbass on Youtube told me that once, that DaPhil character. I said to him "My clothes may not be pretty, but they are very comfortable. To me, that's all that counts." LOL! That shut him up right away! I haven't seen him since. And I think he deleted his account. Even the blanket Paula kept Lily wrapped in was ugly, with those dumb leopard spots!! YUK!!!

Well, there are a lot of people who hate Paula. She committed a sin! She should have stayed with Bob Geldof, the two were made for each other! They're both filthy gutter rats! Or whatever the fuck you call them! Paula should have left Michael alone. I think it is safe to speculate about celebrities, as long as it doesn't go too far like that Mark Chapman did! And that is one thing I would never do! Whether I like someone or not, I'd never kill a person. But celebrities put themselves out in public, Paula was not special. She is not exempt from criticism. Well, what else should she have expected putting herself on TV doing celebrity interviews wearing nothing but her underwear?! Of course any decent person is going to look at her and think she's a filthy whore! Who is going to think otherwise? No one with any ounce of decency, that's for sure! Her show would be banned in the USA. If she had done the interviews in a night gown, or a robe, that'd be different. But she was in her underwear!! That presents the picture of a skanky whore.

I'll tell you, I go on YouTube wearing far more than Paula did in her programs, and I still get a lot of shit from viewers. Believe me I do! But I expected it when I began putting myself out in the public view. I knew there was going to be some people who like me and some who hate me. I accepted that. I mostly just laugh at the haters and say "fuck them!" and move on. Those who enjoy my videos, I appreciate them. And I let them know I appreciate them. I respond to them. I don't respond to the haters. Though I admit sometimes I am tempted. But when I feel I am tempted to, I usually just remove their comments so the temptation goes away. Although I truly hate removing comments! But it's better in the long run than responding to the haters. I don't want to encourage haters to keep watching me. I was saying to one viewer that I would rather have just one loyal viewer who enjoys my videos than 100 viewers who are just coming in to hate my videos. I'll take quality over quantity any day!

Things I Did This Morning That I Hate

LOL!! I thought this would be an interesting subject. Things I did this morning (alone) that I truly hate! Well, I didn't do them actually, they were things I saw this morning that I hate. So, revamp the title a bit. Anyways, these are some things that I would absolutely love it if I never had to see them again in my lifetime. But unfortunately I don't think any of these things are going anywhere, just going to become more popular.

1. Videos that you have to read!
I hate these!!! They are videos people on YouTube make that have loud music and you have to sit close to the screen in order to read them. And unless the videos are done by professionals, the words are never up long enough for anyone to read them!! I have one video like that myself, but out of literally over 160 videos, it's the only one, and I did it for UMG Productions. But I am a pro. I put the words up long enough for people to read them. This is the kind of thing that should only be done by a professional video editor. Not by the average Jo-Blo who can have an account on YouTube! Unless you want your video to be seen only by speed readers. But not all of us are speed-readers.

2. Donald Trump
No, I did not "do" Donald Trump! I hate that guy!!! I can't stand him!! I don't ever want to see his face again as long as I live! But unfortunately it looks like he is fated to become our next president. He's ahead of everyone in votes. Seriously, what the fuck is wrong with America??? Why are we only drawn to the worst possible candidates we can ever encounter for president???!!! We haven't had a decent president since Jimmy Carter. I guess for the same reason that stupid grumpy cat and the Kardashians are so popular, because everyone now loves things that don't deserve love. Things that do nothing for fame except just being famous and having their ugly faces plastered everywhere! Geez!! It's a sick world we live in!!

Well shoot! I thought this was going to be a long post, but I guess I was wrong. There really isn't much I hate. Sorry Dirty Dozen Mob! LOL! Oh fuck 'um! Everything else I saw today I loved. Some pics of Michael and Timmy, and a video of a movie that I've never seen before that played Never Tear Us Apart (the song). The movie was not even about INXS! It's wonderful to see INXS being used now in other movies and TV shows. I'm also stocking up on cookbooks, ha! I know I don't need them, but there are some I would love to have back, so I am getting them again. I'm still waiting for one that I ordered to show up. Then my collection will be complete. I think I even found a book that shows how to make truffles like the Sweet Shoppe does in Phillipsburg, MT. I LOVE their truffles!!!!! I could get a whole box of them and be happy! Now, I think I've found out how they make them. That's good! Now, I can make my own here at home.

Is My Group Invisible??

I dunno, I feel kindof insulted by my buddies on Facebook! I have this wonderful group where anyone can go to view unique pics of INXS, pics I've had floating around on my hard drive for years for some of them, unseen by the public. The group is set to closed, so not just anyone can view these pics. I started this group for fans to come in and admire the beautiful men of INXS. I also work hard to keep my group going strong. Well, I kinda flecked off during the holidays. But I am back in the game now. I allow everyone to post whatever they want, I allow freedom of speech on my group. Every post that was ever made on that group is still up today. Well, with the exception of a post made by a troll who hacked a member's account. But that post was obscene and had nothing at all to do with INXS. It was a picture of some chick sucking a horse's penis. If it had been a pic of some chick sucking Michael's or Timmy's dong, it wouldn't have bothered me at all. At least it has something to do with INXS. But there are only a few people posting! Including myself. Most posters all go to the other groups and post and don't even give any concern about the members in my group. And these are people who are members of my group too. It's not like they're not in the group. So, I feel insulted!

At first I thought they were not posting because of the "for sale" feature that I used to have on my group. I know a lot of people complained because they could not figure out how to post without that feature popping up. So, I turned that feature off to help make things easier. But most of these people are STILL going to other groups and posting, instead of in my group. I just cannot understand it. I cannot force people to post there, and I won't try. But when I see people who are members of my group bypass my group and post their pics and stories in other groups, well it makes me kinda sad. It makes me think perhaps I am doing something wrong. But I don't know what, and no one has the guts to tell me. I'm like "Come on people! This is a forum of free speech! I won't ban you for saying what you want to say. Why don't you like posting in my group?!" The only thing that would make me ban someone is if they are just coming in to spam or troll. I don't tolerate that.

Now, don't get me wrong, I am a member of several groups, and I do enjoy them. But to keep my group alive takes up all my time. And why should I comment on other groups when I am trying very hard to keep my group alive and well? That is why I have stopped commenting too much in other groups. I am in the Australian INXS/Michael Hutchence group, but frankly, I do not like their rules. I love the group and the mods, so don't get me wrong. But they don't even allow people to post links to other groups on there. That's kindof wrong. This isn't supposed to be a competition. I am also on the INXS/Michael Hutchence Fan Fiction group, and I do post there sometimes, when it is about INXS fan fiction stories. That is, after all, what the group is all about. I don't post there at all unless it is about one of my INXS or INXS-related stories. But to look at and admire pics of INXS, that is what my group is set up for. That is why I call it "Tim-Hutch Love", because it is about loving and admiring these handsome men and the work they put into their music. So, when I see someone going to other groups to post things that my group was set up for as well, and completely ignoring my group, yes it does make me feel kinda sad. I feel like something is wrong with my group that I am not seeing.

When I first started this group, one of the things that I feared the most was that it would whither and die after a few months and nobody would come in anymore. Sometimes it feels like I am right. The only thing I can do is keep trying to keep it alive. Even if it means completely giving up the other groups I am on. I'd hate to do it! I really would. But if it comes down to that, I may have no choice. I want to keep this group alive, even if it takes every last bit of strength I have left in my body. It's very important to me. I do thank the people who have continued to post to my group and help keep that place going. All I can say to those who do not post, or rarely post, and have never started a post, is tell me what am I doing wrong that you don't want to post to the group anymore? Why do you not like Tim-Hutch Love? Tell me so I can improve the group. Well, I do have a plan for when I finally reach 500 members. When that happens, IF that happens. A very special, big surprise!

Well, I want to do this INXS compilation book if I can. It'd be great! It would be nice to be able to include the work of other people in that compilation as well. I even sweetened it with a reward for those whose work(s) we choose to use in the book. But so far, no submissions yet have been sent. But we have until the end of May. And if no one submits anything, then that is fine too. I will just continue with that compilation book as planned using my own work. No big deal. Then at least the reward all goes to me. hehehe!

Judge Not

HA!! The Young Turks on YouTube has just answered a question (or maybe just confirmed) that has been burning in my mind for many years, ever since I began associating with dog show breeders. LOL!! I know I talk a lot about show breeders and how much I despise them as people. This video had nothing to do really with show breeders, it was about religious kids. But it spoke of why religious kids are more judgmental and less forgiving than non-religious kids. But these are qualities I have also noticed in a lot of show breeders I have encountered. They are always judgmental, and not at all forgiving. One thing I noticed when dealing with show breeders, they are very good at carrying grudges. Once you have clashed with them, they never forget it.

Well, several years ago when I began this campaign against show breeders, I theorized that the reason show breeders are so judgmental is because they get judged by the dogs they breed, so they think it's OK to go around judging other people on little things. It's the same mentality The Young Turks mentioned is the reason christians are so judgmental towards others. GOD judges them, so they think it's OK to judge others. I admit to judging people too, we all do! Let's face it, it's human nature. It's a survival mechanism. Part of it is instinct and part of it is experience. This is also true for show breeders. But the difference between how I judge someone and how show breeders that I have seen judge someone, I have an open mind. I don't completely form an all-ending opinion of someone based on one single meeting with that person, or their online personality, or something someone else has told me about said person. Show breeders I have seen, both online and in person, are very much the opposite.

For example, I met Rio Bellon through someone who bought a puppy from me back in 2001. That puppy was sold as a pet to the person who introduced me to Rio Bellon. On the first introduction, I greeted Rio pretty much like how I greet everyone; with a smile and a hello. She however, was quite standoffish and somewhat aloof. As time went on, I learned she resented me because of the pet-quality puppy I sold to the person who introduced me to her, even though I did not have the female who produced that puppy anymore. She had been spayed and adopted out. But Rio continued to carry that grudge, even when I asked her for mentoring. That alone should have told her I wanted to do breeding better, but she turned me down, again because of that one puppy that was produced by me in 2001 by a female I didn't even have anymore. I bet if I was to meet up with Rio again today, even though it has been 14 years since that puppy was produced, and 12 years since I adopted out the mother of that pup, I bet you all, Rio would still be bringing up that puppy and thinking that I am producing bad-quality chihuahuas. Even though I have not bred any dogs at all since Vegas was born back in 2006, 9 years ago. I would try to tell her that, but everything I say to her seems to go in one ear and out the other immediately. Nothing sticks to her brain. She's like the first computer my grandma bought back in the early 90s. It had a keyboard and screen, and you could type on it, and the words showed up on the screen, but it had no memory, no hard drive. So, anything you type on the screen would not be saved. That's what it's like talking to Rio Bellon. Poor old fool, she probably has the early stages of that Alzheimer's disease.

Anyways, she was a great example of a show breeder who was a good breeder, but sucked as a person, and was far too judgmental. I still remember how she jumped to the conclusion that my sis and I went to one dog show with both Groucho and Odessa in heat, looking for stud service. Not 100% true. Yes, I was looking for stud service for Groucho, but Odessa was already pledged to have stud service done when we got there. We were just unable to find the person who was supposed to take her because unbeknownst to us, she was showing a different breed in a different ring. I was going to breed Groucho another time. She just happened to be in heat at the same time as Odessa, don't ask me why. Ask mother nature. But the reason I had both Groucho and Odessa with me is because I didn't want to take one and leave the other one at home alone. No point in that. But Rio continued to judge me and my sis because of that. She thinks that was the only dog show I'd ever been to. She couldn't have been more wrong. I went to several, in Washington AND Oregon. But she was not always there when I went. So, she can stop believing whatever falsehoods got set in her brain because she refused to listen to facts.

Another example of a show breeder who was judgmental, there was this other breeder from Memphis who called herself Amberleigh. She had nice dogs, but as a person, she sucked!! I remember her telling the story on the Pluba forums about a meeting she had with a person at a rest stop, as she was walking her own dogs around, this woman with extreme Taco Bell dog lookalikes was walking towards her, and asked Amberleigh what kind of dogs she had. Amberleigh told her that she had chihuahuas. The other woman doubted her and said her Taco Bell dog lookalikes are "what chihuahuas are supposed to look like". Amberleigh said she lost it and the only other thing she remembered was her husband pulling her back in her car and driving off. I thought to myself "How is that helping educate someone?" Funny thing about Amberleigh, she was once judgmental against me, when Bischis brought up my name on the anti-merle chihuahua forum. And then she tells that story, and I think she sucked in the way she handled that. I sure wouldn't have handled it that way. I would have asked that woman "How many show wins has your dogs had?" and "Has your dog been analysed by a certified AKC show judge?" If the answers to those questions was anything like "I don't need an AKC judge to tell me my dogs look like chihuahuas. My vet/customers/neighbors/kids in school/little old lady in a grocery store motorized cart tells me my chihuahuas are the cutest they've ever seen and they all want one like them" I would remind that woman that those people are not reputable sources, and to look at the chihuahuas on AKC's website for comparison. I'm glad I never met Amberleigh! If I did, I think I would need to carry a baseball bat!! Not the wooden kind either, one of those heavy aluminum bats, in case she tried something like that with me! LOL! But more likely to happen would be I'd ignore her and just admire her dogs.

But anyways, those are some examples of the mentality I have seen in show breeders. They are loony!! Well, there is something wrong with them. I can't figure out what. I can't see any reason to attack a random person at a rest stop just because that person was uneducated. Or, I don't see any reason to keep digging up dirt on someone over a single breeding that took place years before, but had since wanted to improve her results, and then turn around and not help that person just because of a single breeding with a female that person doesn't even own anymore. I kinda wonder how these people are with their families. I can kindof imagine it being like Sophia and Dorothy on the Golden Girls. For example...

Let's say Rio has a daughter named Heidi. At 4 years old, Heidi draws a picture of a green elephant. Rio yells at her and says "Elephants are not supposed to be green! Do that picture over again and do it right or I'll send you to your room!" So, Heidi does what her mom says and draws a big, gray elephant on a piece of paper. Rio looks at it and nods, "That's better!" 16 years later, say Rio and Heidi are visiting a zoo and sees an elephant. Heidi says "That is such a majestic looking elephant!" Rio says "And he's not green. Is he?! You think he's green though!" Then when Heidi is 40 years old, she is visiting Rio and they sit to watch a documentary on TV about elephants. Rio turns to Heidi and says "Now look at that! That is how an elephant is supposed to look. They are not green! Got me? Stop thinking elephants are green!" Heidi says "Mom! I haven't thought elephants are green since I was 4 years old! Why do you keep bringing this up every time we see an elephant?" I would put an answer to this scenario here, but I have no idea what Rio's problem is. All I know is that this is what it's like talking to her.

And what about Amberleigh? LOL! Oh my GOD!! Let's say she has a daughter named Amy. Amy wants to read a story she learned to Amberleigh, it's called the Little Engine That Could. She opens the book and begins to talk... "Once upon a time there was this bear cub who wanted to pick a flower in the forest and asked some friends to come and help him. So he went to the house of this chicken, and then went to the house of this rabbit and they all went into the woods..." Amberleigh says "This is not what the book says! Why are you making this up? You are not reading the fucking book! You need to stop making shit like this up and read the damn book you little moron!" and starts hitting Amy over the head with the book. I mean really! People usually tend to treat strangers better than their own family, as most of us don't want to make enemies. But not show breeders! Show breeders, at best, seem very anti-social. And I never have met a more judgmental group of people in my life.

But it's not just show breeders. Rescue people and even backyard breeders are very judgmental too. Backyard breeders are just a little bit less judgmental than the other groups. I still remember the little quarrel I got into with the people on the Craigslist pet forums. I was called names, judged harshly, accused of doing things I never said I did, never even implied I did. Yet I still managed to keep my cool. They totally lost it though. But that's how animal people are. Or so I have noticed. And once these people get that idea that you are that certain way that they don't like, they hold on to that forever! It's like the federal government! You cannot pass gas in front of them and not expect years down the road they are still going to bring that up to you. Even if you present them with facts, and possibly character witnesses, they still believe you are a certain way and they hate you for life because of it. Even if what they are thinking is as far from the truth as the sun is from Uranus.

Celebrity Smack-Down

I should have wrote this a few days ago, but I've been busy working on a different kind of video I want to put on YouTube. It's not a videobook or a vlog. It's Eva, the Trollinator. hehehe! It's going to be my new way of calling out trolls and dislikable people on YouTube. It's going to be a semi-animated series. I know I didn't ever want to give the trolls any more attention on YouTube, but sometimes a troll comes along that is so incredibly stupid it makes me laugh so hard, I just have to give them some kind of notification. This one will talk about some piece of work who calls himself SMDTURBO. He's probably the dumbest troll I've seen on YouTube in a long time, and this video will explain why. It should be up within the week.

Anyways, the reason I am writing this blog, I want to give a shout-out to Garry Beers of INXS. The poor man was cornered and stomped by a big, dumbass bully whose name is Robert McGuigan. It's all because of Garry's dog getting loose from his collar and getting into McGuigan's yard and greeting his dog. Because of that, McGuigan kicked my Garry in the face, and I don't like that!! I hate bullies!! I just hope Garry is OK. Garry, as I understand it, tried to calm the situation down, but McGuigan would not hear of it, he just kept punching and kicking my man!! If I had been there, I would have slammed down hard on McGuigan, believe me!! Garry did manage to get his dog back on the leash, and he walked off, to my knowledge, he did not touch McGuigan. Just got his dog and walked away, and you'd think it would have ended there. But no. Because McGuigan is a dumbass bullshit bully, now I heard he is stalking Garry, threatening him with further harm, driving by Garry's house, shouting at him with all kinds of obscenities. Seriously, a normal person would have just let this go. But then again, a normal person would not have gotten so outrageously angry just because one dog wanted to greet another dog. I don't know what McGuigan's problem is!

Well, I wish McGuigan would just leave Garry and his family alone!!! Why does he feel the need to carry on, stalking and harassing my Garry? Garry is such a nice guy, he was always good to me when I met him. And before McGuigan reads this, IF he happens to, and gets some kind of horseshit idea in his pea-sized cranial-glob, I just want him to know that Garry and I are not close! He did NOT put me up to this! He just happens to be the former member of a band I still love very much, and I don't want to see him hurt!! So, my advice to this McGuigan character: LEAVE MY GARRY ALONE!!!!!! JUST LEAVE HIM ALONE!!!!! YOU MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS AND HE WILL STAY IN HIS CORNER, FAR AWAY FROM YOU AND YOUR WRETCHED KIND!!!!!!!!! I wish I was able to get down to LA myself, if I hear of this idiot harassing Garry again, I'd make my way down there and I'd sit on McGuigan until he turned blue!! You don't want a fatass blob of a woman sitting on your damn face do you?! If so, then keep on harassing Garry and I will eventually! If not, then just leave him alone!!

As for my words to Garry Beers himself, don't blame yourself man, this is not your fault. From what I read, it was just an accident. I guess the thing they got going around now where they say you should leave 2-fingers width between your dog's neck and his collar is not good enough. A dog can easily get it's head through that. I was taught when I walk a dog, especially a big dog, to use a choke-collar. Though the animal-rights activists seem to be against that. I'd never leave that on them, I'd only have it on to walk them. With little dogs, you don't really need it, but bigger dogs would because they are so much more powerful than an average person. I do so hope that Garry is OK. I hope that he stays OK. I'm going to be looking out for this story, if there's anymore details that come up, or if there's any new developments. But my prayers are with Garry that he and his family stays OK. He has a restraining order against McGuigan, but it does not seem like McGuigan is honoring it. Poor Garry was torn up so bad by his encounter with McGuigan, he cannot even go to rehearsals with his new band. I feel so bad about what happened to him. I don't want him living in fear, or having to worry every time he steps out of his house that some psycho savage twat is going to jump him. I want Garry to be happy. Right now, that would make me so happy. Even though INXS has disbanded, I still love these guys so much. I lost my Michael. I don't want to lose another one. I will keep praying for GOD to keep his safety angels with Garry and his family until I know everything is safe for them.

I love you Garry. Keep on doing what you've been doing. I wish you very well with your new band. I hope to see you performing someday. GOD be with you all!

In other, more exciting news, my Michael was the #1 top trending subject on Facebook for his birthday!! Ohh, I am SOOOOOOOOO happy about that!! It does melt my heart that new fans are popping up everywhere. It's good to see that INXS is still very much appreciated. I still love these guys so much! I always will. Like one of my friends pointed out this morning, if I live to be 95 years old, I will still be bopping my head to their music with enthusiasm! I love them all so much!!

Michael Turns 56 Today!

That's right! My beautiful Michael turns 56 today! I love him and miss him so much! He was my world, he was my inspiration, he was my joy, my soul, basically he was my everything! I know this is beginning to sound like a cliche coming from me, but I loved that man with all my being. All my heart and soul. I never loved any man as much as I did Michael Hutchence. I heard when a woman meets the right man, she knows it. Well, I never felt the sparks I did with Michael with anybody else. Not even Timmy. Though I do still love my Timmy, today is Michael's day though. But yes, I do still love Timmy with everything I got left. He means everything to me. But today is my Michael's day. It is merely the 21st here in the USA, but in Australia, where Michael was from originally, it is now the 22nd.

Well, I've basically said most everything I've had to say about Michael. I just wanted to give him a shout-out for his special day. I love him so much, and I will always love him. I will always live for him. I wish he was still here. But he's not and it's all thanks to Paula and Bob. GOD I hate those two!! The band may not want to blame them, Michael's remaining family members may not want to blame them, but I will forever believe Paula and Bob were the cause of Michael killing himself. Why else would Paula kill herself and leave Lily to fend for herself? She was feeling guilty because she realized she was the cause of Michael killing himself. I say she should feel guilty! That is why I now refer to Paula as "the savage beast", because she killed my Michael.

A lot of people say not to blame her, because it would have happened had Michael been with any girl. But I do not think so. I truly believe Paula did something to him. I don't know what, but she did do something. He looked more miserable with her than he did with any other woman he was with before her. Even Helena, and he was with Helena for a long time after his accident. He still looked happier with her than he did with Paula! Paula was the one being unfaithful to Bob too. Not that I truly care, I mean, that's none of my business as I am not even a fan of either one of them. But to drag Michael into her affair just because she wanted to tout him like a trophy, it's sick! Makes me sick to think about it! Had he stayed with Helena, he'd probably still be here, probably living happily ever after. Think about it, Helena's little boy could have been Michael's. Probably would have inherited his luscious curly hair and talent, then we'd have another Michael in the world to love and admire once again. As long as he didn't go emo. Or Michael could have been with me, we'd have a dozen kids and we'd be happy together. I know I would be. But I wouldn't even let him look at another girl. LOL!

Anyways, Michael baby, I love you so much! I miss you so much! I wish you were still here with us. Happy birthday!!

Michael and his Lily-bud.

I'd swear this is one of Chris Cuffaro's pics.

I always love his hair!

Rest well in Heaven my beautiful! I'm such a nurturing person, this picture just makes me want to give him a nice, tender kiss on top of his head.

To quote my other former favorite band, He's got the look!