Whew!! I Think I Am Done

I just finished a massive cull on Facebook. Believe me when I say it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do on Facebook! I haven't felt this bad in a LONG time!! Some people I may even have culled out by accident. Such was the case with one person! LOL! But I got that one person back. hehehe! She was a good sport about it too. This was not easy!! It was tough trying to figure out who should stay and who should go. Because of the couple of people who unfriended me that I thought were loyal friends, I could not let recent communication be a deciding factor. Even if that recent communication was seemingly "friendly". Most of the people I have left are people that I really, really, REALLY love and trust, or people I want to get to know a lot better. If the ones I want to get to know better decide it's not going to work out, or if I decide, they'll leave I'm sure. Anyways I am glad that's over! Now is the point where I start all over.

I like to think of myself as being a very loyal person. Very trustworthy. Very forgiving. I tend to ignore the drama going on with anyone I consider a friend, as long as that person has always been good to me, there's no reason for me to get involved in the dramas that go on. The sad thing is that if you are that way with the wrong kind of people, they will take full advantage of it. It's tough though to find the right kind of people, because someone who can seem nice and friendly could possibly just be putting up a front. To your face, they could be saying "Oh Dee you are so funny and cute!" But behind the scenes, they're probably thinking "Dee is a stupid bitch, I hate her so much! And her Timmy squeal gets on my nerves!" That's why if I have a problem with someone, I'm going to tell them. And I have MUCH more respect for people who are not afraid to tell me how they feel about me. Kinda like on YouTube, when I get commenters saying "I hate fat people because they are disgusting!" I have actually a lot more respect for that person than I have for the person who says "I hate fat people because they cause my insurance rates to go up!" I have zero respect for someone who says that because I don't buy for one second that they are grouping all fat people into one category and calling us names because they are concerned about the cost of health care. Otherwise teenagers wouldn't do it. Really, anyone who knows anything about obesity wouldn't do it. But that's another story.

I dunno, sometimes I think I need to stop being so loyal and trustworthy. A lot of people don't deserve it. But I can't stop. This is who I am. I love the idea that I can help some person in need feel like I'll always be their friend no matter what. I like the feeling I get when I hear a person say "I have had a hard day, and Dee, you made me feel so much better!" I like to think I can be the one who understands how they feel when they're going through a rough time in their lives. I've had many of them myself. I like to think that when I do my Timmy thing, I've made someone smile, even if just for a moment. I like to laugh with my friends, even cry with them. I like to offer prayers and well-wishes to those who need them. I love to post pics of the guys that make my friends happy. I just can't change!

Well, it has literally been years since I did a cull. I normally hate deleting anyone. There have only been a few times in my life I've ever done it. This really is the best thing I've ever done! I'm now hearing from people I thought were long gone! I am grateful to GOD for the people who have deleted themselves. They saved me the trouble of trying to figure out who the radicals are! Good riddance! Don't ever think of coming back either! I don't want radicals among my friends. And if they're thinking "She's a crazy bitch!" I'll just say "Thank you!" I'm an artist and a writer, I'm supposed to be crazy. In fact, you'd be hard pressed to find a good artist of any kind that isn't crazy. I'm more offended if someone says I'm not crazy than if they say I am. LOL! If I ain't crazy then I ain't a worthy artist or writer! Simple as that. I remember one of the guys who deleted himself from my friends said he was a writer, but at the same time, implied he was a normal person. Well, if that was really the case, then I don't want to read his stories! I've read stories from so-called "normal people", and believe me, they are BORING! Well, his thing was zombies and I am not into that myself anyways. My best stories were all written whenever I just turn my mind loose and let it run wild. But then I've become quite famous for my slapstick humor.

However, maybe some people are just not really aware how crazy they are. Maybe they only see it in others because they haven't come to terms with their own craziness. I came to terms with mine back when I did the UMG style Batman stories. Up until then, I thought I was "normal" too. But I found my stories were a lot better when I let my crazy side take over. That was when I always wrote the best stories. Some of them became masterpieces. I was never more crazy than I was after Michael died. That was when I wrote my best story of all. One that took me years to complete, literally! The idea was there, but I did not really complete the story until 2012. The only kind of stories I could see a normal person successfully write would be an autobiography. Surely NOT a fictional story! You need to be crazy to write good fiction. It's almost an unwritten requirement.

As for art, my thing is mostly cartoon caricaturist. Mostly animals. Like I said, I connect better with animals. Actually, I can do most anything I put my mind to. I've even done painting. I don't do it very well, but I figure I could with some practice. My paintings are not too bad really. They do need work, but all-in-all not a bad  beginning. But you can compare my temperament to Van Gogh. Or Picasso. LOL!! Yup, there I go again comparing myself to Van Gogh and Picasso! Well, I don't paint like they did, but I do have the artistic temperament. LOL! What I wish I could learn to draw very well is men!! I can draw women with no problems. But I can never draw men! The only reason I do women so well is because I was my own model for a long time when I was younger and thinner. When I do try to draw men, I tend to make them look too feminine! Even the guys of INXS. Or somehow I just don't make them look right. I need to work on that.

Special Video Blog

A special message to everyone.

Special gift to my friends. I've always loved doing video blogs. This is one I've put together for this site. I'll have a shorter version up on YouTube, but this one was made specifically for this blog. This one is different because I added a song to it, Don't Cry For Me Argentina by Madonna. I'm not a fan of Madonna, but this is a good song, especially the snippet I included in the video. I don't want my friends to worry about me. Just understand me. That's where I am coming from. This isn't designed for the radicals, this is for my friends who have stuck by me to this day. I'm still working on a massive cull-out. Nothing personal against the people I cull out. I just need to lower my numbers to those most trusted friends. I'm trying to get down to under 300, I think that's a nice manageable number of friends for someone like me. Again, it's the wild animal effect. Usually when a wild animal is brought into captivity, it attaches it's self to only a few people. I need to find those few people. And I'll never find them if I have 400 fair-weather friends. So, I am grateful for the ones who culled themselves out.

I'm a loyal person. Always have been. I don't get involved in bullshit stirred up by other people. I stand by people I like no matter what drama goes on or what they've done. I'm just not like that. I always hope that others would be the same way about me. But let's face it, I'm too complex for most people. Too spontaneous and too unpredictable. Well, those who have stayed by me will be rewarded. I will see to that, in a great way! I have still yet one good pic of Michael that I've never shared online. It's never been online. It's been in my safe, tucked away. Maybe I will share that pic with those people. And ONLY those people. :)

INXS Fans Unite!! (I Hope)

OK! THIS SHIT NEEDS TO STOP!! I AM GETTING ANGRY!!! NO WAIT, I HAVE BEEN ANGRY SINCE THE FIRST TIME I FOUND OUT THIS IS HAPPENING! THIS IS WAY MORE THAN A LITTLE OUT OF LINE! THIS IS DOWNRIGHT INSANE!!!!! AND IT MAKES ME MADDDD!!!!!!  I AM SURPRISED MICHAEL'S OWN FAMILY HAS NOT SAID ANYTHING AGAINST THIS. I MEAN REALLY! I BELIEVE IN FREEDOM OF SPEECH, BUT THIS IS REALLY SUCKY!!! KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT???? I AM TALKING ABOUT THIS:

THIS WAS SENT TO ME BY ANOTHER FAN TODAY, AND I SAW IT AND IT MADE ME ANGRY!!!! I LOVE MY MICHAEL, I CARE ABOUT HIM VERY DEEPLY!!! TO MAKE A MOCKERY OF HIM LIKE THIS SHOW HAS MAKES MY HAIR STAND ON-END!!!! SUICIDE IS NOT FUNNY!!!!! IT SHOULD NOT BE MADE A MOCKERY OF!!

OK, I admit after the post I made a couple days ago I'm not the best candidate to speak of this. But I was not trying to make a mockery of that person. Whether you believe it or not, I cannot make light of mental illness and depression because I have been down that road myself. That is why this pisses me off. Besides the fact that I care deeply for Michael. I loved that man! I always did! The fan who sent me this told me that this was aired on TBS. I want to write a letter of complaint to the company that puts shit like this out! This has to stop! I don't have any idea how long ago this was made, I don't watch Family Guy at all. But this isn't the first time I've heard of people mocking my Michael! Someone once mentioned somewhere there was an episode where this kid took a leather belt and tied it around his neck. The father remarked about Michael in that episode too.

Well, since I now have everyone's attention on this blog, I just thought I would announce this. And you should know how I speak my mind by now. You know damn well I'm going to say something!

This Is Not Easy!!

I did a massive cull last night. Still working on it today. I cut out nearly 100 people from my friends. LOL! I'm trying to figure out who to keep and who to let go. I don't want to say delete, as I am not doing this out of malice. This isn't easy, I'm telling you!! I have to go back and look at who has communicated well with me. Though that is not necessarily the finalizer. Some people I thought were trustworthy packed up and left themselves. One person was even friends with my sis as well. Funny that. She didn't even have anything in common with my sis. I honestly don't know why she asked her to become her friend. My sis is not an INXS fan, just so you all know. LOL! Oh well. But the point is, this is not easy! I also left most of the larger groups. Just for now. I really want to keep my own friend count down to a bare minimum. I think that is what is best for me. It's either that or give up Facebook altogether. I can't really do that. My family and closest childhood friends are there. Took me forever to get back in touch with my childhood friend, I don't want to lose her again!!

I just don't think I am ready for a lot of human contact. I may never be ready. I just don't understand people. I probably never will. Animals at least are much easier to understand. And really, I don't like people! I don't even like myself half the time. LOL! That's a joke, BTW. But I am unpredictable, and it is because of that that I think it's best I stay in my own little circles. I am still in some groups, but they are small and intimate groups. I'm still in my own group. I have to be there! That's where I go to post my favorite pics of INXS, and share them with other fans. This is actually the best thing I've ever done. Believe it or not! Now, I am seeing posts from friends I haven't seen in quite a long time! I couldn't see them because they were taken up by a bunch of useless posts from other people who have contributed nothing (or not much) to my Facebook page. Well, I always say everything happens for a reason. Good or bad, and this proves it. Maybe I will get closer to those I still have. Maybe I will learn to trust people again. But don't count on it. Like I said before, I will just never understand people. It's hard to trust something you don't understand. But the people I will keep around are people that I have some amount of respect for.

Another thing that is hard for me to let go of is dog-lovers! One person told me I can delete her and I said it's hard for me to delete dog-lovers! Seriously. Dog-lovers is such a rare thing these days among INXS fans. Cat-lovers are a dime a dozen. Now, I am not saying I don't appreciate my friends who do like cats. But dog-lovers are very rare and a treasure usually when I can find them. But if this person wants to delete herself, she can. It's OK. All I ask is that she kiss her baby for me one last time. I miss my own dogs!

I wanted a puppy. I had begun saving for a puppy! But I did a chat with my sis last night, and I need to finish taking care of the dogs I have with her. Vegas needs his teeth cleaned. So, I must take care of that. I promised to pay half if she takes care of the other half. Well, this is what being a mommy is all about, even a doggie mommy. We make sacrifices. What a shame!! I still want to get a puppy sometime down the line. But I did some tall thinking last night after I had that chat with my sis, and I am thinking perhaps I'd better wait. I also want to take a trip to Australia for a movie I want to make. If I get the pup before I go, I'd have to have someone here to watch it, and I still don't know anyone here. I have quite a few breeds in mind that I want, I won't mention them here. I intend to make the announcement when I get the pup, and I don't want to say I'm going to get one breed and wind up with another. Don't worry dog people! I know what I am doing. I know my breeds! LOL!

As for my movie in Australia, well, hopefully that will be out next year. I know exactly what I am going to do and how I am going to do it. I don't intend on going there and making this movie while looking like a fat ugly old crone!! I'm going to have myself made up, and looking like a real actress! heehehe!! Well, most of the movie is going to be myself sitting in front of a camera reading my story, but I've also got an idea to put a few little surprises in there. When I make this movie, you're going to see an all-new me! Hopefully by then I'll have lost some weight. One thing I don't want to do is go there and contribute to this stereotype of a "fat American tourist". I also hope to bring home some souvenirs. Maybe meet some kangaroos. I'll try to get them on film. LOL! As for availability, now it's a toss-up, whether I want to put this movie on YouTube or just on UMG Productions for rent.

A Tough Decision

I don't know what is the right thing to do now. Hmmm. Looking back on some of my actions on Facebook, I'm thinking I am just not ready to associate with people yet. And no, it's not  just because of what's been happening over the last week. This kind of thing goes on all the time with me. I'm thinking of just deactivating my account on Facebook. Not deleting it, just deactivating it. Or maybe if I keep it, just keep around those INXS fans that I really REALLY trust very well. And of course family and personal friends. Let's face it, I will never understand people. Ever! This is a tough decision. I'm either going to do one or the other. This will lower me down in the number of friends quite considerably, but that's OK. I always said I would much rather have 1 or 2 good friends than 400 fair-weather ones. Really, I don't want to lose Facebook, because that's the only real way I can chat with my family now. Except by phone. So, most likely, I'm just going to do a mass clean-up. Nothing personal against those people I delete. I just need to close my Facebook account to outsiders. At least until I think I am ready. I have no idea how long that is going to take. I may have to also drop out of groups until I am positive I am ready.

Again, think of me as a wild animal. A wild animal that has to be acclimated to people a little at a time. I think for my own sake, it's best to keep just a few close friends around until I learn to understand and trust people again. I've always had trust issues with people, and I thought I was rehabilitated when I joined more INXS groups over the past couple of years. Maybe my having too many friends just went to my head and it was confusing to me. Maybe. Mind you, I am not making excuses. Just saying what is real. I'm going to stay in my own group, Tim-Hutch Love, but that will most likely be it. Anyone wants to contact me, they can do so there. But my friends can contact me any time they want. Those that remain. I will also keep family around and my closest friends. But I am going to reduce the number of INXS buds on my Facebook. For the time being.

I think my mind is made up, this is what I am going to do.

The Last Thing

OK, I took down last night's post. Relax people. I was just speculating. I didn't mention names so I was not meaning to hurt anyone. One of my friends, one of my most loyal friends, confronted me about this. I don't want to upset her, because I like her a lot. I like her even more now actually! She's earned my respect very well. And really, I was not trying to be vindictive. If I was, I would have mentioned the person's name and posted her pic. But I didn't want to go that route. However, I don't always know when I am being vindictive. I see other people doing things, and I believe it to be OK. Just saying, not making excuses or anything. Well, the person who told me, I like her a LOT. The last thing I wanted to do was upset her, so I took last night's post down. I am at peace now.

I'm an introvert, I don't always know when I hurt someone else's feelings. My feelings are not easily hurt, so I often think other people are as hard-skinned as I am. I usually laugh in the face of adversity, that's how I am. Think of me as being like a wild, undomesticated animal. I do what I do, if you play with me, I may get a little too rough, but I don't know I'm hurting you. Not unless you tell me. I commend this friend for confronting me on this matter like she did. I'd have more respect for people if they came to me themselves and told me how they feel. But most people don't. Especially on the internet. They just turn and walk away without saying a word. Or, in the case of Facebook, just delete you without saying why. It doesn't help me understand them at all. At least if I delete someone, they're going to know why I did it. One person I deleted recently, I sent her a PM before I did it to a link to this blog where I discovered she had slammed me behind my back. I'd have preferred she'd have slammed me to my face. I'm still going to avoid the person I spoke of last night at all costs. LOL! I still want to go to Australia though. I want to do this video! It's something I've never done before. And probably will never have the chance to do again.

Like I said before, I may be an introvert, but I am not an evil person. I have more respect for people who tell me how they feel when I do something, right or wrong, than I would have if someone just slams me behind my back. Who likes being slammed behind their back? Yes I talk about people on this blog, but my blog is open. The comment section is a free-for-all. If you have something to say about one of my posts, you have the option to say it. You won't be blocked, your comment won't be deleted. Just say what you feel. I won't always respond. I don't even guarantee it will be read by me. LOL! Cuz that's just how I am. Usually I respond only to comments that are not anonymous. And I don't cover-up either. I'll come right out and confess. I was brought up to always tell the truth, no matter what. But believe me when I say it's not always easy to be honest. But John Lennon was right, it does get you the right kind of friends. Even he has earned my respect too. I never considered myself to be a fan of John Lennon. But he does have more of my respect now that I know what he's talking about. LOL!

However, I want to keep these up. Because I thought they were funny...

The radicals viewing my blog before.

The radicals viewing my blog now.

And if you don't like what I say online, send me a PM. I may not respond right away, but I do eventually respond. I don't always stay on Facebook for long. I pop on and off of Facebook like Christmas lights. I may be there one second, and not there the next.

Did You Ever Notice?

Did anyone ever notice how today's movies suck?? You know the last movie I ever saw in the theaters was A Night At The Museum, and I didn't even want to see that movie. I wanted to see the live-action version of Charlotte's Web. But I was with a group of people and I was outvoted and forced to see what they wanted to see. But the last movie I voluntarily saw in the theaters was Jackass 2. I enjoyed it. Though I don't know if it really qualifies as the same kind of movie as Charlotte's Web, it's more a reality-based movie. I grabbed Katrina that night and asked her if she wanted to go see this movie with me, and of course she said yes. She loves Jackass!! But that was the last movie I saw voluntarily. I saw Happy Feet too, and it was OK. Not great, but OK. I thought I would like it better because I'm such a lover of penguins and seals. But let's face it, movies today kinda suck! I think personally it's because today's directors and producers don't have what it takes to make a good movie. Movies started going downhill in 1999, and have never recovered. Now, don't get me wrong, there are some good movies from that era. But nowhere near as good as they were before then.

Sometimes I want to look up to the heavens and ask "Michael baby, are you upset that the world is going on without you so you're putting a curse on the world today?" Look at the things that have happened since he's been gone. Major volcanic eruptions, major tsunamis, hurricanes, tornadoes, bad movies, bad food, etc. The world is obviously cursed for some reason.

Anyways, I saw a video today about some of the worst movies that were based on actual events. One of those movies was an animated film about the Titanic. Strangely enough, it had mice as passengers instead of people. Well, there were a few people, but they were set off with a bunch of mice who dressed up and acted like people. Why do so many cartoons have mice as one of the main characters? Is it because they are small? If you ask me, there is no place for mice in a story about the Titanic. And there are enough movies being made with love in the plot. That may be why today's movies suck so much. All the stories center around love, and the directors have run out of ideas. Love scenes can only be strewn about in a topic just so many times before it becomes too predictable, and boring!! If you notice, just about every movie has someone falling in love with someone else, or is married to someone else, there are so few places for love scenes to go now. The only thing I haven't seen anyone do in any movie is have a gay person fall in love. That's something that should be done, I think. At least it is something that has never been done before. Not in any major motion picture anyways.

OK, so I know it's not funny, but it would make an interesting movie!

Anyways, there are enough movies about love. Cannot really blame the directors of today, love usually is what people like to see in movies and in books. Some of the spiciest novels involve romance of one kind or another. Very few of my books involve romance. Most of them centers around family. I do have some where some of the characters fall in love, even one where a couple of them gets married. But I think every love scene has been created in every movie now, to a point where it has all become kindof cliche. That's why so few of my stories are about love. But I have not completely left out the subject of love in my own stories. Look at the story about the marriage between Candi and Leopold. Then there is the St, Helens Tribute story, where Candi, as a 17-year old groupie, develops a teenage crush on David Johnston. Even the INXS story, where Candi develops a crush on Tim Farriss. I didn't include Leopold in that story, as her marriage with him would have happened after that story took place. Instead, she just acts as a caregiver to this group of animals.

Anyways, the point is this is the kind of thing people want to see. I notice a lot of movies that did not do well in the theaters do not involve love. I think by far, the worst movie I ever saw was Deep Blue Sea. My sis and I went to see that movie while it was still in the theaters, and it was so bad, we were the only ones in there to see it. I thought it was going to be somewhat like JAWS. But it wasn't. The sharks kept killing one person after another, after another. Not too much action between those killing scenes either. They were too close together. I saw that movie and I said "I could have done this movie better". LOL!! But it was a fun day out with my sis. But since that movie came out, I noticed movies have been getting worse.

Maybe part of the reason movies with love scenes are so bad now is because we're getting new directors who have no real idea what love really is. So they're taking ideas from previous movies with love scenes and applying them to their own movies. That's my theory. This is the problem with kids coming from single-parent homes. They don't know what love really is. That's something that cannot be learned in school. So it affects adults, not only in their love life, but also in their careers. I guess it is true that it takes more than love for a child to raise it.

I love to write stories, but I think I missed my real calling. I should become a movie director!! LOL! I have a couple of stories of my own that I would love to put into movie form. The story of Gracie and her baby is one of them. The problem with that story is that people today would see it and think it's a rip-off of Finding Nemo, even though that story is much older than Finding Nemo. That's just a case of great minds thinking alike. The original version of that story is quite different from the version I have on the site. But even the revised version is older than the movie Finding Nemo. I put Lisa in that story originally in 1999. But the scenes were perfected in 2004. But they were by no means based on Finding Nemo. I say "perfected" because it used to be a lot longer and a lot more dull, according to my sis. So, I took out a LOT of pointless scenes. But that's what you do when you write a story. Or even a movie. A lot of scenes get deleted in movies because they were pointless and add nothing to the movie. Same with stories. But a lot of the movies today are just pointless.

Links to the stories discussed in this post:

INXS Goes to Mount St. Helens

A Tribute To Mount St. Helens

The Wedding

Gracie's Odyssey

International Women's Day

Oh Wow. Now I've heard it all. Women get an international day all to themselves. I love being a woman, sometimes. LOL! It has it's good points and it's bad points. Last month I swear I got PMS. That's one of the things I hate about being a woman. Women also put on weight faster than men. So there's another thing I hate about being a woman. I'm one of few women that doesn't give a shit about this feminist movement, so that makes me somewhat unique among women. But then I am always unique. I'd prefer to be a lady, rather than a feminist. I was brought up to act like a lady, so I try. I can be a bitch too, but it's only skin-deep. LOL! I'm sure being a man has it's good points too. They don't have to pull their pants completely down to take a wizz in the woods. Did I say "wood"? LOL!!

Well, a lot of women have gone on to do some magnificent things. My #1 hero is Dian Fossey. I look up to her as a source of strength. Yes, I learned a lot of my strong points from her. She battled for what she believed in. She even laid down her life to save mountain gorillas from extinction. If I had to go by a manmade tragedy, I'd rather it be as I was fighting for what I believe in too. I've been an admirer of Dian Fossey's since 1988. I could not wait to see Gorillas In The Mist when I would see the advertisements on TV, before it was in the theaters. I read her book from cover to cover, several times. I love it. When I was thinner, I thought I even looked like her. IMO, she was the greatest woman ever to walk the earth! She did not succeed in stopping the poaching of mountain gorillas, as I hear it is still going on today. But she did slow it down, and she did bring awareness of what was going on between the gorillas and people. For that, I admire her. And I will always admire her.

However, she is the only woman I admire. Well, unless you count my family. I admire my sis because she is a great sis! She ambitioned to lose 100 pounds and she did! My sis has made sacrifices for me too, and I admire that. I admire my ma because she too has made sacrifices for me and my sis. She has also changed through the years, and she never stopped loving me and my sis. I even admire my stepmom, she kicked breast cancer's ass! She cleared that hurdle. I admire that. I also admire my friends. Now, I can honestly say I've got the most loyal friends ever on Facebook. Oh yes! I got down to 401 friends. I expect the numbers will still drop. But for now, it's good to find out how many real friends I have! Some of my friends are worried this will get me down. I tell them no. Please don't worry about me. This is my job. It's what I do. I keep everything honest. If I lose so-called "friends" because of that, well, they were not worth keeping in the first place anyways. But I love my friends for their concern.

At the same time, I understand how hard it is for people to stay loyal to a person like me. I'm an honest person, sometimes brutally honest. And I have lost friends over the years because of it. It comes with the territory. LOL! I fight for what I believe in, and many people find that intimidating. They can't take it so they leave. But I won't change. I've been on the other side before and it was the worst feeling in the world!

Anyways, Dian Fossey is about the only famous woman I can think of that is worth a mention. I don't take well to female singers or musicians. I'm not saying they cannot be good musicians. I'm just saying I don't take to them very well. There are a few I like so, I can admire them. But IMO, and this may not be popular opinion, music is mostly a male-dominated occupation. Or it could be just because I am a woman, looking at the good-looking men in rock n roll, I take to them quicker. But there are some songs sang by women that I do like, and I've got them on my MP3 player. But as singers themselves, I am not into them. Even when I was a fan of Roxette, it was Per Gessle I admired. Not the woman, Marie Fredriksson I think is her name. I don't take to female TV personalities. Some look nice (as women go), and are nice people I'm sure, but I just don't take well to female celebrities. Again, it could be because I myself am a woman.

Now I wonder if there is an international men's day. Gender equality. LOL! That'll be the day to celebrate my men of INXS. Well, I am always celebrating them anyways. I love those men! They are the greatest!

Well, the saga continues this morning. One of the Yatesfags tried to join my group last night. I rejected her because I don't believe her to be an INXS fan. But I have the feeling I am going to be antsy about letting any new people in there for a while. This girl, I'd seen her before, and she was one of the radicals. So my guess was she was going in there just to stir up shit. If she wants to stir up shit, she can do it here. One of my friends pointed out she actually likes small, intimate groups like mine. So maybe my group growing larger would not be such a hot thing afterall.

Goodie! How Exciting!!

My last post was crossposted to the MH and His Life fan page. Good!! I'm glad! Go ahead and post this one there too. Ya know you people can post comments on my blog. There is that capability. Ah heck! They won't do it because they're spineless. And chances are I probably won't respond.

Anyways, I wanted to touch up a little bit on what I was thinking when I wrote that last post. Someone I know and love dearly was bullied on one of the groups for having her own opinion. I won't say who, but it doesn't matter to this story because I have seen it happen all across Facebook. I will forever stand up against bullying, and also will stand up for free speech. If it upsets people that I was upset hearing about someone I adore being bullied, well then that's the problem of those people. I suspected the bullying to be from "Fag Central". But I was not sure. I just wondered because I myself was harassed for having my own opinion. I was also banned for having my own opinion too, and I believe that to be a violation of my rights of free speech. Not only that, but they posted about me on the group AFTER I was kicked out, and also on a group that I was not a member of, never had been a member of, and never wanted to be a member of. I am not an evil person. They could have said what they wanted to say while I was in there. Or they could have said it on this blog. The comments are open, even to anonymous commenters if they wanted to stay hidden.

Yes, I said that the mods there acted like dictators. Because they DID! I know these people hate honesty, but I'm gonna say it whether they like it or not. I'm always honest with people, I believe that to be the way to be. I expect the same thing from them. As for my hatred of radicals, there is a BIG difference between a radical and a fan. I am an INXS fan. I've had people say to me "INXS sucks" and "I don't like INXS" and "INXS bites". But I don't care. That's their opinion. That's not my opinion. That's what makes me a fan. I've said this before, radicals are the ones like the mods in this group, that kick people out because they don't like the same things the mods like.

I wondered why when I looked in on my Facebook page today I was missing a lot of friends. This has to be some kind of record. LOL!! I went from 412 friends to 403 friends in one night. LOL! The numbers will probably keep going down. But hey! That's my job. I know I did my job well when I start losing friends. Like I've said, I'm not a politically correct person. I will voice my opinion, especially on my blog, because I feel I have to. And I will always stand up against bullying. I was bullied as a child, so I know what it feels like. I find even as an adult, there are still bullies out there. If I see a friend being bullied, yes I'm going to react. I'm not trying to be hostile. I just feel the bullying should stop. Once it does, I will stop speaking against it. But unfortunately this is a big world and people are cruel. So, it looks like I will always have to stand up against bullying.

As for calling the MH and his Life fan page "Fag Central", I did not mean EVERYONE in there are radicals. There are (or maybe WERE) still some people in there that I like and that I remained friends with. But then the mods began acting more like dictators. And I really do not care to go back or have anything more to do with that group. Some people have dropped me as a friend and I am fine with that. Believe me. Those that are still among my friends, thank you. I will continue to love my most loyal friends. Those who stay with me, you're awesome!! I must say, you are the strongest of the strong!!

No More Groups

Hmm. I remember after the INXS miniseries came out, I joined several groups dedicated to INXS, and became quite active. It was fun at first, but as the year went on, and some moderators began to act like dictators, it became far less fun. One group that I became quite attached to in the beginning, but it quickly lost it's luster was the Michael Hutchence And His Life Fan Page; the page that I now refer to as "Fag Central". Why? Because it's full of fags (radicals). And they are not Michael Hutchence radicals. They are Yatesfags. They should probably change the name of their page to "Don't Join Unless You Are A Yatesfag Page". Of course I wouldn't like them any better if they were Michael Hutchence radicals. I just plain HATE radicals! If I had the power, I'd take all the radicals of the world, put them in a huge concentration camp, and nuke them all off the face of the earth! The world would be a better place if I did that, that's for sure! But unfortunately, I don't have that power. Only GOD has that power. But why GOD created radicals I'll never understand. Or maybe GOD didn't create the radicals. I think radicals must be a product of the devil. It makes sense! They ruin the world for everybody, so they must be creations from Hell.

Well, more and more radicals are deleting me from their friends on Facebook. There are a couple still among my friends that I think are very questionable. We used to be friends, and I was always nice to them, but since the incident with the Yatesfags a few months ago, I've noticed a few of them have stopped communication with me. So, they might be fags. I should delete them! I was also quite close to Matt Burney, and he deleted me. Not only that, but he also blocked me on Facebook. LOL!! I say GOOD!! I used to like him, but once I found out he was a fag, he was dead as far as I was concerned! hehehe! He's gone and I am glad. One less radical to look at. And I never would have guessed he was a radical. He squealed himself out. Eventually, I figure, they ALL will rat themselves out because radicals are dumb. They cannot keep their mouths shut forever when facing so much adversity. Either they will delete me or I will delete them. I should post those pics of Paula blacked out on my Facebook page, that'll weed out anymore radicals that may be lurking around. And really, the mods of the Michael Hutchence And His Life Fan Page have no room to talk. Maria How has actually posted pics where the other band members have been cut out. And then there is Karin H. She takes pics of Michael and Helena, and any other chick he is with, and cuts their heads out and places her own head on their bodies, just so she can make it look like she's standing in the picture with Michael. Basically that's the same thing I do with the pictures with Paula, and they all love it when she does it. So there is a double-standard there.

Anyways, another victim was claimed by this crowd of bullies in a group. I won't go into detail about who it was or what happened, as it is very personal. All I will say about the person is I've never known her to be anything but sweet and kind and very respectful. She's never argued with anyone ever, she respects other peoples' opinions. She's definitely the farthest thing from being a radical that I've ever seen, besides myself. But some bullies in a group just decided to harass her for saying how she felt. I noticed that now seems to be a trend. Especially for those groups that are growing. Once they reach 1000 members, the mods start running their groups the way Kim Jong-Un runs North Korea! I pray to GOD I never get like that. Well, I always try to keep my own moderation to a minimum. I prefer to let people have their own opinions, and I let them know that too. The only time I would get involved is if it turns into out of control mud-slinging. But what other people might think is mud-slinging, I may not consider it as such because I have such a thick skin, and I see things differently from other people. Some people are extremely sensitive. To them, just the act of disagreeing with them is enough for them to lose their shit. For me, it doesn't get bad until it turns into name-calling. Cussing I can handle. Name-calling there is no rational reason for.

Ya know, its funny I would say that, knowing I call radicals "fags". LOL!!! While in my language, I am not meaning to demean gay people, that is how a lot of people take it. Modern society are the ones that put the word "fag" on gay people. But you notice, their cause is not called "fag-pride movement", it's called "gay-pride". Really, a "fag" is a cigarette. I call radicals that because they are hot-headed, just like cigarettes. And they stink just like cigarettes too! LOL! Well! Blame Encyclopedia Dramatica! I got it from them! LOL!

Well, I notice fewer people are commenting on groups now, my group is nearly dead. I lost several people just this past week. But you know, I feel that GOD does not want my group to grow any more than what it has. I think HE thinks maybe that it may not be good for me. I never wanted to be popular when I was a kid. Though I did get a taste of popularity in the groups, it didn't change me. The only thing it did for me was let down my guard. Maybe that is why GOD does not want me to have any more friends than I have now, and why HE won't allow me to have any more visitors to my group. That is my guess. That's the way it's been working out lately. The most I've had on my group has been 357, now I'm down to 355, for the third time. People come and go a lot. But after losing that many viewers that many times, I begin to believe it to be an act of GOD. It can't be me, as I do everything I can to make that group a lot of fun. Perhaps there is more I can do to improve the group. But mostly now, I post as many awesome pics as I can find, I let people voice their opinions and I don't judge anyone. I don't even take my miseries to the group at all. I don't tell people to go out and attack those who do me wrong. I don't even use the group to attack people who have done me wrong. I'm not Maria or Roberta!! LOL! I only use the group to post pics for viewers to lust over. That could be another reason GOD does not want the group to succeed. According to the Bible, HE does not like lust.

Well, I do have big plans when my group reaches 500 members. Well I have "A" big plan. I don't want to reveal what it is here, but it will involve all the members of the group. That is IF that magical day ever comes. But I think with GOD having HIS plan in place, I may never see that number in my group at all. Even a couple of my friends have noticed whenever they post something in any of the groups, no one responds. I've been to some other groups and they are all dead. I mean, people post sometimes, but there are very few responses, despite the fact there are more members of those groups than there are in mine. I think it may be because they are afraid of being bullied. But no one bullies in the groups I am in, yet most of them get few responses. The most active group I am in is the Australian INXS page. I lurk in there sometimes, not often. I like the group well enough and I like the mods, but they censor things. Too many posts get deleted in there for no reason. I remember last year one post, from a Garry fan, went on for a few days with no mud-slinging going on at all. Suddenly one day the whole post was deleted. The original poster didn't know why it got deleted, but it upset him. I couldn't even understand why it was deleted as there was no fighting of any kind in that post. I've seen people in there thanking the mods for making that a positive place to post. But that kind of moderation does come with a price. It costs us our free speech rights, which I believe whole-heartedly in. I let people battle out their differences, because I feel nothing gets solved if people censor others. To me, that is not right. And if everyone agrees with everyone else, the world would be one hell of a dull place!! No one learns anything if someone does not criticize them. No one can change that cannot accept criticism. Those are words I live by. I take those words to my facebook page and my INXS group.

What’s The Best Way To Meet Your Neighbors?

This does sound like a fun way to meet new neighbors. I need to try this myself. The problem is there is a little monster inside of me. His name is Social Anxiety. Every time I try to meet new people, he comes out and messes everything up! Either I wind up saying the wrong thing when I meet a new person, or I don't say what I should in time, or I just don't say anything at all and walk away. I'm not meaning to be unfriendly, it's just that's the way it always seems to work out. I have tried everything to push him out of the way so I can meet new people. But people tend to scare me in general. It's always in the back of my mind, what if I screw up? What if I say the wrong thing? What if I walk up to this person and they just walk away and don't want to say hi? There have been cases in the past where I have said hello to someone and they turned out to be very unfriendly and just told me to fuck off. After an incident like that, it's hard to build up that trust again to approach anyone else in that sort of friendly manner. It feels like I am a gazelle trying to make friends with a hyena.



There is also another monster inside of me, a much more welcome one (to me). Though I like this monster, other people tend to not want to invite him to their parties when they get to know him. His name is Brutal Honesty. He comes out at the cost of political correctness. I admit, I am not a politically correct person! I don't believe in that shit. I think political correctness is for wussies. Everything is there for a reason. Of course there are some things I know not to do because they would be uncivilized. But I am full of blatant honesty, and a lot of people find that to be uncomfortable, mostly because they have been lied to all their lives. But I lie to no one. Either how I feel will show up on my face, or I'll flat-out tell you how I feel. I have lost friends over the years because of this monster, but that is not as bad as it may sound. A couple of sayings that spring to mind is one I heard was quoted from John Lennon, and he said "Being honest won't get you a lot of friends, but it'll sure get you the right ones." If a person cannot handle you being honest with them, then they are weak-spirited. Imagine what having that person as a friend would be like!! They're not a real friend IMO. Another favorite saying is "Be who you are and say what you feel because the people who matter don't mind and the people who mind don't matter."



Plus, I have a serious passionate hatred of radicals, and there are too many radicals in the world! Like I said in my last video, the unfortunate thing about making friends with people sight-unseen is that you don't really know who they are. They could be radicals posing as friendly people online. And you have to weed-out the fanatics in order to find your real friends. If you don't have a thick skin (like I do) it can be devastating. Even discouraging. Though I don't let the internet define my real life. My problems with trust stem back to my childhood (before the internet). I was bullied mercilessly because I was this shy kid, and once I would start talking, would very often say the wrong things. Or do the wrong things. Face it, I was a dumb kid. But I was a survivor! I made it this far. I've about reached the status of being a hermit, but I made it to my 40s!

I Hate Feminists/Paula Yates/Radicals of ALL Kinds!

This video basically puts into a little detail how I feel about radicals. You all should know by now I hate radicals! The only thing I am radical against IS radicals. LOL! I used Groucho Marx there as the thumbnail, because I like how he put his definition of politics. Yes, I do think radicals and politics go hand-in-hand. You cannot really refer to one without talking about the other. I had a little bit of fun in this video. LOL! I brought my stuffed animals up from the van (finally) and have them all lying around my living room. I included them in this video. I talk about how radicals are over-PC crybabies, because they are. I also talk about the guy who I used to be friends with, and then found out he is a radical. I am glad he is out of my life completely, even though he gave me that magazine. I still have the magazine. Not that he is getting it back. LOL! This guy Matt, I should have known he was a wussy. More than once he's talked about deleting his Facebook page due to "bullying". Well, I never saw any bullying on his page, nor did I see anyone bullying him. And, judging by his reaction to people who disagree with him, I would venture to say there really was no bullying at all aimed towards him. Someone probably just didn't agree with something Matt said, and Matt called that "bullying". Like I said, he's a wussy! To think, I even named one of my Metazoic critters after him! Well, he wouldn't be the first person that I have one of my animals named after that I don't like anymore. It was a type of antelope of the Metazoic. Oh well. It's there, cannot change it now. LOL! Generic names of animals sometimes change, but not usually the species names. I want to keep up Metazoica the way real science keeps up modern taxonomy.



Well, that incident with Matt made me look at my own position among INXS fans. I'm learning to trust people from Australia and the UK a LOT less than I used to. Though I do still have friends from Australia and the UK, I'm just going to have to be more cautious if they ask to become my friends. I think, if they are INXS fans, I should put a disclaimer on my Facebook page saying something to the effect of;



"Before you send me a friend request, you should first know I can't stand Paula Yates, I don't give a shit if she is Lily's mom, I feel ANY woman could have had Michael's child, I don't feel she is special, and I especially don't feel Paula Yates is any more exempt from criticism than any other public figure. If any of this bothers you, then bugger off and do not click the button that says "Add Friend". You are an ass-kissing radical fag and I want NOTHING to do with you! But if you are fine with me having my own opinion, feel free to add me as a friend."



This would help to eliminate all radicals from ever adding me to their friends. Believe me, I have the most awesome friends on the planet! And they get better and better as the "hidden" radicals get weeded out. In the end, I might wind up with only a few friends. But that's fine with me. I'd rather have 2 awesome friends than 400 fair-weather "friends". Quality over quantity. In fact, I think I should do a complete clean-out of my friends. If I did that though, I would have far less than 400. I think that's the way GOD wants it. LOL! I think HE wants me to only have a few good friends.



Well, I am trying to get rid of my van. Though I think I can only sell it for scraps. I've been getting the run-around. First, I called Heritage For The Blind and tried to give my car to them. I figure if someone is going to take it away from me, it might as well be for a worthy cause. And this place also gives vacation vouchers so I thought that makes it worthwhile too. They told me they would get a tow car out here as soon as the next day. The van still doesn't run, and the manager wants it off this lot, so I must get rid of it one way or another. Well, the next day rolled around and I got a confirmation letter from the Heritage for the Blind, saying a tow car has been dispatched and they would be out here that day. I waited and waited. No one ever showed up. So, I called the charity again, they said if I don't get a phone call by their opening the next day to call them and let them know. I did get nervous when on the email, it said the tow company is in Portland, 100 miles away. I asked them "Would they really come out here? They're 100 miles from where I live!" But I was always assured it is OK.



Well, the next day, I called the tow company and they told me they have absolutely NO record of having to come out to my place to pick up a car. So, I called the charity again, and I was put on hold for 10 minutes at a time while they tried to straighten this out. Well, when this business was all done, they informed me that the tow company did not want to go as far as to my place, which is what I kindof figured I would hear. But it was a big disappointment!!



So, I tried calling another charity, this one was to save lost children. This one doesn't give vouchers, but I didn't care. I need that car to go. I'm planning a move very soon and I cannot leave it here. I told them first off that I live in Astoria, and asked them if their tow company is actually willing to come out this far and they said that would be no problem. So, they took down all the info they needed, and said the tow company would be contacting me shortly. So I waited again. No one ever called. So, I didn't bother to call this one, figuring someone would call later. Well they did, only to inform me that no, the tow company does not service my area!! I just told them "Thank you for letting me know". I was so glad I didn't put too much emphasis on this one part of my day. I'd have been disappointed. But due to what happened to me with the previous charity, I thought it was best not to get my hopes up too high with this one either. So, I didn't. And it was not as big a disappointment as the first one I dealt with. So now, I'm just trying to sell it. No takers so far.

It Seems Men's Brains Are Unattached

UGH!!! This one thread about a man hitting a woman in the face and knocking her down has gotten a lot of attention. I did say a real man should never strike a woman. That's true. But I also believe a real lady should never strike a man. Real ladies do not go around putting their hands on other people. However I do know some women, especially feminists, take too much advantage of the idea that a man should never strike a woman. I understand that, I am not a feminist. Not by any stretch of the imagination. I may have said this before, but all those things that women have fought so hard for over the years, I don't even care about. I don't care about having the right to vote. I never vote anyways. I think politics is nothing but a bunch of baloney!! I don't care if a man thinks a woman's place is in the kitchen. I love my kitchen. As long as he does his share of the work (that is, bring me a nice paycheck home every other week) I am fine with that. I'm an introvert, so I don't care much about going outside the home. But what I get a lot of on this thread is stupid men (and I do mean STUPID) who say things like "You women need to learn your place" (as if I forgot it! This is MY home) and "Real women should not strike men", which I already stated in my original comment, and I got an especially dumb one this morning, named Evan Kirton and this is what he said:

Evan Kirton

5:51 AM

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+Dee Timmy-Hutch-Fan this whole video is self defense. The "real man" striked her because she put her hands on him. She deserved to get hit because she touched him without consent (your gender has a term for that that is gaining popularity - "rape" I believe?) I read your comment and your responses. Totally nonsensical. I hoped you learned a thing or two from the people who responded to your post because if you try the foolishness that the young women tried on a man in the streets, you will be the next person we are laughing at :)

Seriously, if he had really read my comments, he'd know I never even implied anything he's saying I said. Apparently my original comment seems to have attracted the lowlifes of YouTube that only have a single brain cell between them to come in and respond. Sometimes I can understand why some women just want to smack men. They're dumb! Though not my Michael and Timmy, they're great guys! They aren't dumb at all. But surely the men who have responded to me on this thread have been nothing short of insipid. Though it is hilarious for a while. Having to spell everything out in simple terms every time someone comments and repeating the same things to each one of them over and over, gets old and boring. I think in order to save my sanity, I'm going to have to stop responding, because talking to these people is like talking to a 6-month old. They seem to know you're talking to them, but it's a roll of the dice whether or not they know what you are saying because they're too dumb to know.

Well, I did try to explain what I was saying to little mister Even Kirton in the most simplistic terms I can think of, what I was trying to say in that thread. Yes I believe in someone acting on self-defense. I've known about that for years. I knew that long before I even watched this video. Self-defense is one of our basic instincts. I say if I go up to a random stranger, and we have a verbal disagreement for what ever reason, and he strikes me just because we don't agree, that is not self-defense. But if I strike him back, that is self-defense. I'm not a violent person anyways. I'd never go up to anyone, man or woman, and just hit them for no reason, or just because I don't agree with something they said. I was brought up not to fight anyways. I was brought up to believe a real lady does not go around picking fights with anyone. Believe me, if I were the "warring" type, when I was living with Patti and she trapped me in the kitchen one night and would not let me go to my room, I'd have put her ass on the floor. But I am not that type. I wanted Patti to get to know my gentle side before she knew my dark side, even though she showed me her dark side already. She also told me her ex-husband was a beater. She would say things like "As long as you're not like my ex-husband we'll get along fine". But having lived with her for 4 days, I totally understood why her ex-husband beat her up. She stayed with him for 8 years and he beat her. I was nothing but nice and respectful to her and she kicked me out after only 3 days. So, there was something about her ex-husband that she loved. Oh well, that is water under the bridge to me, the fact is I am not the warring type. I am more the nurturing type. I prefer to nurture my man rather than see him hurt or beat him up.

And I just love it where Evan Kirton says this:

Evan Kirton

5:51 AM

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I hoped you learned a thing or two from the people who responded to your post because if you try the foolishness that the young women tried on a man in the streets, you will be the next person we are laughing at :)

This comment has got to be the absolute pinnacle of stupidity. Trust me dude, I know more than you will EVER know. I knew it all before you gave your little nasty-ass opinion, which I hope I don't need to tell you where you can stick it. And prepare yourself to be miserable, because like I said, I am not the warring type. You're not going to see me going up to a man OR woman on the street and "try that". Thusly, no one is going to have the need to make me "the next person you will laugh at". :)

That is how I live my life. I live it going about my own business, doing what I need to do and just moving on. I may say hello to someone now and then, or smile, but that's it. I just continue my walk, or take my shopping cart and go, or just go ahead and do what I need to do. I don't generally talk to no one, and I don't pick fights with people. I post most of my opinions on here, my blog. So any time you would see me hitting anyone would be in self-defense. And I even hesitate to do that unless I really feel threatened.

In other news, Kanye West is seeking donations from people to help him get out of debt. LOL!! Oh GOD!!! I couldn't believe it!! So a man, who is the self-proclaimed "best musician in the world" cannot get himself out of debt??? Give me a break!! I wouldn't donate 2 cents to his shitty cause!! Let him get himself out of debt. Or suffer for all I care, I hate that guy!!! I can't stand him!!! I think he's ugly, he cannot sing, and he does not know what "real music" is so he cannot very well call himself "the best musician in the world". Rap is not real music!! INXS is real music. Queen is real music. Even Toad The Wet Sprocket is real music. Rap is nothing but a nonsensical conversation with background noise made to sound generically like "music". I would give NOTHING to help Kanye. Here is how much I hate that guy; I would give to a charity to help save the tigers before I would give anything to Kanye West!! And that would be pretty low of me!

Slamming Deceased Luminaries

Oh boy! I commented on a friend's thread where she posted pictures of Paula feeding Lily as a baby, and she always had her breast out in public. Now, I do believe there is nothing wrong with breastfeeding in public, even here in the USA it is allowed. Most decent women prefer doing that in a private setting. But they are not arrested or anything if they do it out in the open. It's perfectly natural. I wish my ma had breastfed me and my sis when we were babies. She didn't believe in breastfeeding though. My mom never believed in anything natural. Paula's got huge boobs, about 99% of which are nothing but plastic and silicon. If I feel sorry for anyone, it's Lily. She was born and grew up with the taste of silicon being forced into her mouth every day! LOL! But hey, that's Paula's problem. Not mine. Though I still think Paula was a disgusting whore.

Well, I responded to one comment another friend made on that thread. Now, mind you I have nothing against this person. But he too was saying how disrespectful it was to be saying such hateful things about Paula, and reminding everyone how she was Lily's mother. I told him I don't care. Paula put herself out there in the public view (don't pretend you don't believe Paula did not tip off the press to Michael's and her whereabouts). She made herself fair game for hatred and criticism. It's going to happen. Anyone who puts themselves out there in the spotlight is opening themselves up for criticism. There are some people who are going to like Paula and some people who are not. Those who do not have just as much right to express themselves as those who do. That's free speech and that is what I stand for. I put myself on YouTube, I expected people to watch my videos and not like them and even not like me. It happens. Yes I am still here to defend myself, but I usually don't because I feel even haters have their rights to their opinions. I just don't listen to the haters. But it's like the old saying that goes "if you can't take the heat, don't go in the kitchen!" I feel if Paula didn't want to be hated and scorned, she would have stayed out of the limelight, in her home, and left Michael alone. Michael was already with Helena, and Paula was married to Bob. She should have stayed with Bob. Marriage is a sacred promise. If Paula was expecting Lily while she was still with Bob, then she's a slut who deserves nothing but scorn. In the days of the Bible, she would have been stoned to death. She was lucky western society is not like that anymore.

I feel there is no standard when it comes to celebrities. Even I expect to get slammed after I die, because I will still have videos out there. If I have kids before I pass on, I will prepare them. If they hear of people hating on me, I will tell them "Mommy set that up herself, by creating videos. Hatred is to be expected just as much as admiration." Lots of people still say bad things about famous people who have passed on. Look at Hitler. A lot of people still say bad things about him, and rightfully so! The man was responsible for the deaths of literally hundreds of innocent people. But the fact of the matter is he is dead now, and there are people still saying bad things about him. No one says "you shouldn't say bad things about Adolph Hitler. He's dead and cannot defend himself, and he has kids and grandkids now." But Hitler did put himself out there, and on top of it did some rotten things. There is not much difference between him and Paula Yates. The only difference I see is Hitler was a man and Paula was a woman. Hitler killed hundreds of innocent people, Paula killed one innocent man. Hitler started World War 2, Paula started the war between Michael and Bob Geldof, which snowballed into Michael warring with the paparazzis, his family and the band too. In the end, Hitler killed himself, so did Paula. The Yatesfags deny Paula had anything to do with Michael's death, I'm sure there are a lot of people who oppose the fact that Hitler caused a mass genocide as well. Hitler was sly, so was Paula. Hitler promised the Jewish people a "better life", Paula apparently promised Michael a better life as well. Hitler ran concentration camps, while Paula lured Michael into her home with her kids. See where I'm going? But nobody says anything to the effect of "talking about Hitler being a bad guy is disrespectful. He's dead he cannot defend himself". But Hitler put himself out there. He did horrible things. So he opened himself up for criticism and hatred. There are some people who like him and some who don't. I hate him! And I hate Paula Yates too! Nothing will change that. Even Michael himself couldn't make me change my mind if I don't want to.

**************************************UPDATE**************************************

The man I had that conversation with, named Matt Burney, has decided he couldn't handle me having my own opinion about Paula, so he and I are no longer friends. Hmm, what a shame. I still have the magazine he gave me too. LOL! Well, I will continue to keep it. Thank GOD no money exchanged hands, and he will NOT be getting it back! So, if he is reading this, don't even try to go there dude. You gave it to me fair and square.

Don't worry, I am not bothered by it. I've lost so-called "friends" before because of my opinions. Not going to change who I am. Just continue to weed out the weak "friends" and keep the stronger and sturdier friends close.

I Am An Introvert

I think I knew this all along. Well, I always thought I was a recluse, but I guess "introvert" is a better word for what I am. I am who I am. I am an introvert. So, what is an introvert? What makes a person an introvert? Well, they are many different things. Some people looking at them from the outside may say they are stuck-up, mute, or even idiotic or retarded because we have our own way of thinking that is outside the normal realm. Some people may even think we are "other-worldly". Introverts do not talk much. Usually we only speak when spoken to. We do not shake hands with people, or become "instant buddies" with people. I have tried to become instant-chummy with people before, always with disastrous results. I guess that is part of being an introvert. Few people looking at us from the outside would understand us. We are somewhat secretive people, who usually prefer to stay in our homes. We question EVERYTHING!!!!! We don't have a lot of friends at any given time. In fact, we may have only one good friend throughout our lives. Our friends are usually among the most loyal and dedicated people anyone could ever meet. I know it takes a very special kind of person to say they are my friends. The kind of people that is rare in today's world. Introverts may even go so far as to avoid people, even to the point of only going outside at night.

I know I am more uncomfortable around people. Like I said, I've tried being instant-chummy with people, and it's never lasted. I've had people who have said hello to me, I greet them, shake hands, smile, try to hold up a conversation with them, and within hours, they are looking at me as if to say to me "GOD! You're an idiot!" Or "My goodness! You're a moron!" Who knows why? But I think that may be commonplace with introverts. We don't talk much. We don't make friends very easily. A person would have to work hard to keep the conversation going with us. At the same time, any person who wants to get to know an introvert, I would say would have to have the patience of a saint! It takes a lot to spark my interest. I'm a different kind of introvert. I am completely uncomfortable around people. I don't even understand people who say they are more comfortable around kids than they are around adults. I can't understand that at all. I'm much more uncomfortable around kids than I actually am around adults. Kids are cute, at a distance. But I am more uncomfortable around them than I am around someone who is over 25. Especially the little kids who cannot even talk and you cannot understand them.

Well, being an introvert is not such a huge crime. Many of us, because we are big thinkers, go on to create some of the greatest paintings, books, most mind-boggling scientific discoveries in the world. That is why I often compare myself with Da Vinci. He too was an introvert. But look at all the things he's predicted over his lifetime. My mind is also always on overdrive, so I do a lot of thinking too. I remember I was the first to bring up using buffalo urine as an energy source, because I once read that it was flammable. I remember I brought that up in a forum full of kids with scientific minds and they laughed. Well, now they wouldn't laugh so much today because scientists have actually been working on a way to turn animal urine into a source of energy. So, all I can say to those people who saw what I wrote before and laughed is "IN YOUR FACE!!!!" Before long, using urine as an energy source will be a normal procedure. It's cheaper and environmentally cleaner than fossil fuels we use today. So that is why people now are looking to begin using it instead of oil. Here's some predictions I have for our future that I've been thinking about...

We will never have cars that will fly like miniature airplanes, but we may, in about 50 years, have cars that hover.

We will begin to keep foxes as pets instead of dogs (they are cleaner and require less care than a dog).

We will have computer screens, and possibly even TVs, as thin and flexible as a sheet of paper.

We will be able to access our bank account anywhere using a single fingerprint. That includes paying for items at the store.

In about 100 years, we will be building houses on the ocean and people will live there full time.

We will have cell phones no bigger and no thicker than a credit card.

Now, do I know for sure these things will come true? No I don't. But there are many clues being given off today that makes each of these things extremely feasible in the future. Cell phones for one thing, they keep getting smaller and smaller, and people these days love things that are small and portable. I say in the future, we will have cell phones that are the same size as a credit card, being run by a single, tiny chip. I don't think that flying cars will ever happen, though we do have electrical cars. But I think that hovercars will be the thing of the future. Kindof like hoverboats, and hoverboards, though I would hope that hovercars would be safer than hoverboards. But hovercars would completely eliminate the need for tires, no skidding on icy roads, no getting stuck when driving on beach sand (which has happened to me more than once) or on mud. Accidents will have fewer fatalities, IF any at all. And I would totally love to have a fox for a pet!!! They have all the instincts to protect that a dog has, with the independence of a cat.