INXS Inspired Stories

As you all may know, I have a lot of stories on UMG Productions that I wrote. All my stories are either inspired by actual events that happened in my life, or someone's life that is close to me, or by special events that I was a witness to. For example, I have several stories inspired by Mount St. Helens. One of them even involves the men of INXS going to the mountain. The Johnston Ridge Observatory opened in May of 1997, the same year Michael died. But I still have him going there with the rest of the guys. He was still around when the observatory was completed and opened. But he had that Marlo Thomas hairdo. LOL! In the story, I made him look more like he did in the Full Moon, Dirty Hearts era, because that was my favorite look on him. Same thing with Timmy. There actually is a video, and I have a small clip of it, of Michael chasing a tornado! So he obviously had some fascination for things like that. He was very young in the video, I would say it must have been taken around 1985 or 86.

Anyway, I have several stories that in some way, were inspired by INXS, or my love for the band. INXS Goes to Mount St. Helens is just one. I am also rewriting that story and will re-release it soon. Hopefully by the 22nd this month. If not, soon after. I still have to work on some drawings of the guys for the story. I redid the cover pics and they look darn good, if I do say so myself! I asked Jon Farriss what he thinks of them and he hasn't responded to me. LOL! Maybe he doesn't like them. Well, they look better than the last set did I think. Cairo and I both worked on that story together. Well, he came up with some features in the story, and I worked on the rest, and the illustrations. This story does not, and is not meant to, display the true personalities of INXS. In fact, I got the idea to play on Jon a little bit in the story, him being the youngest member of the band. I am also the youngest in my family and got the same thing, so I played on that a bit in the story with Jon. Timmy, being one of the oldest band members, I made him the "alpha wolf" of the band. LOL!

I actually have several stories where I made caricatures of different public figures. The Twister has the most show up, including a meeting with a larger-than-life Jack Benny and Elvis Presley. There is also a story I did back in 1991, and I haven't decided if I want to put it on the site yet, but Roxette appears in the story. I still have a picture preview I did of that story from that year. I made them look pretty darn good too! So I think! I also did a story where Bin Ladin appears, I haven't put that one on the site yet. In the story, Katrina and Eva get lost at sea and find themselves stuck in Afghanistan. That's where they meet Bin Ladin, whose intent is only on "killing the American animals!" LOL! Then there is an old, OLD story, from 1984, where Caroline meets the Marx Brothers. But I need to hit my supervisor up for that story to see if it's good enough for the site.

Anyway, back to the subject. After Michael died in November of 1997, my stories were a bit more dark and sad for a while. Well, that kinda goes without saying, as I was sad Michael was gone. After he died, the first story I wrote was Gracie's Odyssey. And production on that story began just days after I got the news about Michael. The idea for the story was actually Cairo's, because he said he's never seen me so down before. The story was unplanned, unmediated, I didn't kick around ideas or anything for any length of time when I helped him write the story. I just put down what I felt at each moment. Cairo put them together, I did the pics, and we came up with an awesome story! It's one of my personal favorites. The only flaw with that story is I have 2 different endings for the same story. I thought up 2 different scenarios. In one version, which is the original version, Gracie's baby grows up in a small zoo in Australia, and is sold to go live in a home for wild animals in Toutle, WA. Incidentally, it is the exact same home Gracie lives in in the INXS Goes to Mount St. Helens story! LOL! How ironic!! But this story is older than the INXS story. By then, she is living in a zoo in New Zealand. In the original version, Gracie is not really reunited with her baby, who is all grown up when she sees him again.

Then there is the alternate ending, which I completed and perfected in 2012. But Davy (Gracie's baby) is still a baby when he is sold to Lisa and her father. He turns out to be Lisa's 15th year birthday gift. At one point while he is still little, he is reunited with his mother, but Lisa refuses to let Gracie have him back. Months later, Gracie tries to get him back again, this time without the help of her friends. Well, I won't give the ending away, so, check it out on UMG Productions. It's coined a masterpiece!! But the story was originally written based on my feelings about Michael.

Then there is also Hutchess: A Picture Diary. This story is also based on actual events that happened in the early summer months of 1998, when I got a cattle dog puppy and only had her for a week. I thought I would have her forever, but GOD had other plans for her. Anyways, INXS was mentioned a lot in this story, I even named the dog after Michael. And after she died, it was INXS that got me laughing and smiling again. Especially Michael and Timmy. They both had a good hand in making me feel like my old self again. The story will explain it all. It's easier with pics to help tell the story.

What Would I Do?

After watching Never Tear Us Apart, the Untold Story of INXS, which is still my top favorite movie, I often wondered what I would have done if I had been in Michael's circle of friends. If I had been the person he called that night needing someone to talk to. He called several people in need of a caring hand that night before he died. Michelle Bennett was the only person who responded right away. She was the only one who picked up the phone immediately when Michael called. She has reported that Michael sounded drunk and was crying. Just thinking about that breaks my heart! I only got close to Michael once, and when I was, I saw a very happy person, with the biggest smile I've ever seen!! Of course that was back in 1991. I never saw Michael in person after he had his accident the following year that changed his life.

The way I heard the story, Michael was in Copenhagen at the time, on a date with Helena Christensen. He bought the both of them some food and was in the middle of the road eating and having fun when this cab driver came up on them. The cab driver shouted at Michael, and Michael retorted. After that, the cab driver got out of his vehicle and walked up to Michael and just punched him to the curb. Michael hit his head very hard on the cobblestone road and this caused him to lose his senses of taste and smell. Being a connoisseur of fine food and wine, and loving the scent and taste of a woman like he did, this is when Michael became depressed. The other band members and his personal friends all said he was never the same again after that incident. Makes me feel so bad for him! I often ask why Helena didn't do anything to stop that cab driver? She could have stood between them, assuming the cab driver wouldn't strike a woman. Maybe the cab driver would have just left things the way they were and went on his own way. But then again, how could Helena know that is why the driver was getting out of his car? Perhaps she thought all that would happen would be nothing more than a mutual exchange of cuss words and phrases. But no matter what, if I were Helena, I think I would have stood between them, just in case!! Cannot be too careful in this day and age!! I'd have done whatever I could to protect Michael from ANY potential threat! But maybe Helena's instincts sucked!

If you ask me, that cab driver doesn't deserve to live!! Looking at it in retrospect, I wonder if the cab driver often thought about what he did to Michael and if he knew he had some affect on Michael killing himself the way he did. That's blood on the cab driver's hands, and he should pay for that!! It's partly his fault Michael is no longer here with us!!

Now as for Michael being a different person after that incident, I heard he went into rages in a flash. I wonder if those rages he had were brought on by the Prozac he was taking, or if he was upset that he could no longer smell and taste anything, or if he was angry with himself because he did not fight the cab driver back? Could have been either or. I was on Prozac after I lost Groucho because I slipped into a deep depression. But I got the giggles. I didn't get rages. I cannot ever say that I know how Michael felt losing his sense of taste and smell, because that never happened to me. I did once know of someone who could no longer taste anything and she took it in stride. It did not depress her at all. To me, it would be a blessing, because all the healthy foods, the foods I should be eating, all taste terrible!! If I could eat them and not have to taste them, I'd be so glad! As for being mad at himself for not striking back at that cab driver, I know exactly how that feels!! When I was relieved from Patti's clutches after enduring her bullshit for 3 days, I got mad at myself because I never told her off. I essentially let her walk all over me! Just so I could try to get along with her. For quite a while I was mad at myself for allowing that to happen. Even though intellectually I know it wasn't my fault that Patti took advantage of my kindness. I know Patti was the one with the problem, not me. But still!! I was mad at myself for letting her walk all over me, when I know I could have put her in her place, then at least I would have said something to shut her up!! Who cares if it would have gotten me kicked out! I was nice and respectful to her and still got kicked out anyways. If I'd have at least told Patti to shut up once, I could be feeling better about that incident now because I would have stood up for myself. So, I know how Michael feels if that is what caused his rages.

If I could go back in time, to any time in Michael's life, I'd put myself in Michelle Bennett's place on November 22, 1997, when Michael called her, crying and needing someone. I would have hot-footed and high-tailed it over to Michael. But before that, knowing how sad he was and that there was a potential of him to hurt himself, I'd have said to him on the phone, "I'm out the door now baby, don't do anything until I get there! Then we will have some fun!" I remember right after we moved to Bozeman, my sis was depressed, called me crying and needing some cheering up. So, I took her out on the town, and by the time the evening was over, she was feeling MUCH better, smiling and laughing again. I'd have done the exact same thing for Michael.

I remember just before Michael died, I had taken a 5-year break from INXS fanhood. But about 2 or 3 months before he died, I slowly began to get back into them. I would look at old, dust-covered pictures I had of INXS, and at Michael and my heart would pound faster and faster every day, the more I looked at him. It was a very slow process at first, but it did gradually build up. But by the time he died, I was not fully into INXS yet, but just enough that his death had an effect on me. I cried that night when I went into the bathroom to get ready for bed. And then I cried myself to sleep. I often wonder if the Godly forces were preparing me for that event? Or if GOD was signaling to me that eventually Michael would need some serious help from a loving, caring, compassionate person such as me, who once loved Michael before as a performer. I don't know! I don't know what I could have done, since Michael and I were never friends. I only saw him live once. But there are other people who were MUCH closer to him than I was. Much, MUCH, MUCH closer than I was!! Why I got those feelings rebuilding in my body just a couple months before he died, I have no idea and I may never fully know the answer. But that's what I would have done if I could have been there for Michael. We should have been friends. Michael might still be alive if we had.

Most and Least Favorite INXS Song

I have a lot of most favorites among INXS songs, for many different reasons. I think I would have to say Kick would be my most favorite INXS song. Mostly because I used to consider it my life's theme song. When I used to go into the old INXS web chat room, I called myself Kick87 regularly. Unless I was feeling sad, or ashamed, then I would call myself KickMe. Or if I was pissed off, I called myself KickAss. LOL!! But in the lyrics, Michael sang "sometimes you kick--sometimes you get kicked", and that is so true!!! I am living proof of that! LOL! But the times I have gotten kicked have made me stronger. Today, I am proud of the person I am. Believe it or not. And I love Michael for writing those words!! I added that song to the story INXS Goes to Mount St. Helens, mostly because of when Michael sings "When the mountain moves away" while he is singing in front of the mountain, I think of him pointing back at it as he says that line.

Now, I love INXS, but there are a couple songs they wrote that makes me ask "Why did you write that?" I really do not like Never Tear Us Apart that much, because I think the music could have been better. But it's supposed to be a ballad. Some lines in the song I love, like when Michael sings "Don't have to tell you--- I love your precious heart." I always find myself answering him back saying something to the effect of "I love your precious heart too baby!" LOL!!! Another INXS song I don't care too much for is Baby Don't Cry. I dunno, it's so long and drawn out, the words are. Makes the song kinda suck! In the video, Michael has this python wrapped around him, and I don't think I ever seen him look so sexy as he does there!!! He even sings to the snake at one point!! The only animal in that video they should never have got was that stupid panther!! Ugly-ass thing!! It was a total eyesore!!! Ruined the video for me! Other than that, the rest of the animals were awesome!

One song by INXS that I used to not like, but now cannot get enough of, is This Time. I used to not like that song at all, and I would fast forward through it on the Greatest Hits video I have. Now, I love it! How I got to love the song is quite a story. It happened after I lost my cattle dog puppy, Hutchess. I was so distraught after losing her that I did not eat for 3 days! Well, the third day, I was feeling weak and so I needed to do something to cheer up. The one thing I knew I could count on to make me feel better was my INXS videos. So what I would do is just pop them into the VCR, rewind them all the way to the beginning and just let them run. I didn't want to forward through anything, no songs, no scenes, nothing. I just put the videos in and let them run all the way through. Well, when I got to the song This Time, I actually got to hear how cool it sounded, it actually made me head bop and my heart flutter. I loved the song after that day was over. Now, I even have it on my MP3 player. This whole story is mentioned in the story Hutchess: A Picture Diary, from 1998. And every time now that I hear that song, I think of this and it makes me smile.

Well, those are the stories of my best loved songs by INXS.

Lesson Learned: Ignore the Damn Press!!!!

Since this is Michael's month I thought I would not post anything this month that is not related to, or about Michael. I thought this was a very interesting article.

Michael's Hauntingly Prophetic Words Before He Died

This was an article done just a few days before he passed away. I read it and believe me, I feel his pain!! The same shit has happened to me many times. Just like Michael, people have made me out to be the bad guy too. Sometimes it may be well deserved. I mean really! I have been known to be an asshole now and then. LOL! But at the same time, I can be very sweet. I can be the best friend someone ever had. If I really like someone, I am very loyal to them, I love to laugh and have fun. I like to make people laugh, whether they are laughing at me or with me, I don't care. I just like making people laugh and feel good. I also like to think I will always be there for my friends, through thick and thin. But also I couldn't care less if someone doesn't like me or gets angry at me. No skin off my nose!!

One example of something that Michael said in this interview that really got me was this:

"It would be so easy for me to say that I hate what I've become, but then, what I've become, certainly in the public eye, I've had no control over.
"I don't like that.
"It concerns me a great deal that every move that I make is looked at, photographed, and made into gossip, some f---ing sound bite that doesn't resemble the truth."

I know exactly how he feels! I remember when the delusional fans forum went up, they were in their stupid-ass forum saying shit about me too. Catsredrum even designated one of her dumbass friends my "official stalker". That was the one called Mayday06. I remember that came even after months of me not even mentioning them on my blogs or anywhere else. Yet they were still hounding me on their forum, which conveniently for them was closed to the public. But still, I knew some of the people who were members of that forum. I saw their names on the member's list. So, sometimes I wondered if those people were reading what these dipshits were saying about me, and actually believed them. Most of what they were saying in there about me was just their own speculation. But you know how gullible people are!! Catsredrum and her friends took my words and twisted everything I said around to mean something they pulled out of their own asses. People who actually know me in person, and have known me for a long time, would know I would never do any of the things the delusional fans forum was accusing me of doing. But someone on the internet, who doesn't know me as well, would read that stuff and actually believe it's true just because someone said it. So I know exactly how Michael felt.

But then there is this other side of me that says "what you can't control, use it to your advantage." After the people in the delusional fans forum got their stalker situated on me, one of them made the stupid mistake of saying that I killed my dog, Groucho, just so I could attend a concert. She died just before I was due to attend a concert and meet and greet with INXS in Portland. What they didn't know was that the tickets for that concert and meet and greet was bought before Groucho even got sick. It was a birthday gift to me from my sisters. But I do admit that I was concerned about going to that concert because I thought Groucho, who was pregnant at the time, might have needed someone to watch her. But I would never have killed her to go to that concert. In fact, if I thought for one second that it would bring her back, I would have given up going to that concert completely. Well, once I found out one of them accused me of killing my dog, I said "this has got to stop!" You can say whatever you want about me, I don't care. But you cannot accuse me of putting a concert over my animals!! That's a no-no!! I don't tolerate that!! Some lies are just not forgivable!! So what did I do? I got some professional stalkers of my own and told them to go into the delusional fans forum and bring me back some good things I can hound them with. They did, and so I had my own fun, putting their shit right back in their faces!! I don't have to tell you all that it did not take long for them to find some stupid shit they said about me in there! LOL!

If only Michael knew how to do that himself. He could have had some fun with the press. Screw not hurting their feelings! Do what you gotta do! They said Michael was one of the most hated people in the UK. That's bullshit!! Lots of people still love Michael. But do you think the person who said that cared if he hurt Michael's feelings or not?? I don't think so!! Michael should have turned that around to his advantage. It can be done. Even people constantly taking his picture. Someone even did that to me at a gas station once. And I looked terrible!! I had been standing on my feet for hours then. I was tired and my hair was all messed up. But I even made a joke about that. I said "If I had known she was going to take my picture, I'd have fixed my hair up and smiled!" I dunno, maybe that girl was looking for candid shots. LOL!! I should have been angry, but I wasn't. Making jokes about things like that helps a lot. It did me, anyways.

Well, before I learned to laugh at myself, I did get upset a lot with people who would say shit about me on the internet. I do get depressed still sometimes, but I work hard at it not to let it all get me down. But it is very hard being myself. Sometimes I wonder how I've handled it all these years, just being the complex person I am. But I know I cannot change, and I don't really want to change. Some things I admit needs work, and I am working on them. But for the most part, this is as good as I am ever going to get. Take it or leave it!! And it's just as fine with me if you leave it!

Michael was also very insecure about his singing, which I don't understand at all. He also said he has no real friends, which I also don't know why he said that!! He has more friends than I do! And if he was as shy as everyone said he was, I find hard to believe. I guess he was just a likable guy!! I liked him. And I am VERY shy!! Not only am I shy, I am also very reclusive. I'm very reserved around other people. I don't go out and chit chat with people, I don't even smile at anyone when I am walking around. Unless they smile at me first. That's just how I am. I used to smile and talk to everyone. But then too many people have given me evil looks back when I smiled at them. So, I just don't do it anymore. When I saw Timmy walking around outside the Paramount Theater that one time I had a picture taken with him, it was a LOT for me to even ask him if he would allow me to have a pic taken with him. I love Timmy! But like I said, I am very reserved around people. I've been hurt by people WAY too many times. I remember at that meet and greet with INXS in Portland, I smiled and said hello to Kirk, and he just totally snubbed me. That hurt me really bad! Because I used to love Kirk!! He wouldn't even look at me, let alone say hello. I didn't understand it, and won't try to. But it's incidents like that, where I really liked someone, and it turned out they just don't like me, that has made me so reclusive. Now, I just don't care about that anymore.

I know Kirk is just a public figure, and he didn't know me. So he couldn't know if he liked me personally or not. But if I am standing there in front of them, smiling at someone and I say hello to them, that's rare for me! I'd have to really, REALLY love someone, and feel comfortable around them, in order to do that. And I really, REALLY loved Kirk! When he snubbed me like he did, it really, REALLY hurt bad! Actually I have yet to hear of any fans who are as large as I am that said they had a good experience with Kirk. So, all I could deduce is that he just doesn't like oversized fans. Doesn't make me feel any better about him as a person, but it may shed some light on what his problem was with me. I just don't like him anymore. And I will never again try to be nice to someone like that. I can forgive him though, and I am trying to work on that as we speak. But I will never forget it. I'll just know, next time I see him, not to even try to be nice to him. And just for the delusional mods, I am not going to hurt him!! I'll just ignore him. That's one thing the delusional mods always said about me is that I am crazy enough to shoot someone through the head. Like what happened to John Lennon. But no. I may be crazy, but I would never do that to anyone!

"TimmyHutchFan"

So I have decided to just go for it and change my nickname on Facebook! I now call myself "Dee TimmyHutchFan", because lately I have been eyeing Michael more than I have over the past 10 years. That'll give the dirty dozen mob something to talk about! LOL!!! Or, in their case, something to gripe about. LOL!!! Remember folks, I'm supposed to be "hiding" behind the nickname Dee Timmyfan. LOL! Personally, I barely call it "hiding" seeing as everyone by now knows who Timmyfan is. But that's the dirty dozen mob for you. Now, everyone will know who TimmyHutchFan is. I thought it was only fair to add Michael to my nickname, I am still very much a Timmy fan. But lately I have been looking at Michael like I did back in my early days as an INXS fan. Back in the early 90s I didn't even know Timmy's name. I only learned Michael's name. He was the only one really back then that I cared about. Though I always thought Timmy had the best set of buns in the band!! Him and his AWESOME ass!!! LOL!!! I love you Timmy!! But I didn't learn the names of the rest of the men until Michael died. Even though I did go see them live back in 1991. And I kissed Michael then too (LOL! Always have to add that!)

Well, this month is Michael's month. This is the month I celebrate his life. I love him so much!! Even when I wasn't a huge fan of his, I never did let this month go without celebrating Michael's life. Michael did so much in his life that I am so grateful I was there to enjoy it!! Some people were not so lucky. I mean really! Look at the role models around today. Nothing but a bunch of talentless nudniks like Justin Bieber and Jonas Brothers. IF the Jonas Brothers are still around. But all of today's musicians seemed to have done nothing but got their start on reality tv shows like X Factor and American Idol, or childish channels like the Disney Channel. And I am sorry, but I have ZERO respect for musicians who got their start that way. INXS got their start the way any good musicians should; seasoned and flavored by years of performing in front of real drunken music lovers in a bar who demanded good entertainment!

I am still miffed because someone said Michael was a cat!! YUK!!!! I can compare Michael to a lot of animals, but cats are NOT one of them!! I mean really! What have cats got? Saggy bellies. No buns. They can't sing. They can't dance. All they got is this dumb look constantly on their faces. When panthers do try to sing, they sound like a toilet flushing. So it kinda irks me that some people out there think Michael had a saggy belly, no buns, a stoned look constantly on his face, and could not sing. And they think when he did sing, he sounded like a toilet flushing. That's not how I see MY Michael. Michael had beautiful eyes, more like a lemur.

Michael had a cute smile, much like a dolphin.

Michael had cute buns, like a puppy dog.

And I LOVE his monkey-like poses!!!!

 

And Michael could sing very well, just like a bird.

And his moves were sexy, sensual, and graceful, like a slithering snake.

Ohh baby!!! That is how I see MY Michael. The Michael Hutchence we all know and love so well. He definitely does NOT have a saggy belly like a cat. He doesn't sing like a toilet flushing like a panther. And he definitely had buns. Unlike a cat or panther. Cat butts are UGLY!! Next to their saggy bellies, their butts are their ugliest features!! I know I said I love Siamese cats, but I would not have one unless I was absolutely desperate for a pet. So far, I've not been THAT desperate!! And even if I did have one, I would NEVER touch it's belly!! YUK!!!! IMO, that would be as gross and disgusting as someone sticking their bare hand in a pile of cat shit. Unlike Michael. If Michael Hutchence was alive and standing here right in front of me now, I would LOVE to touch his belly!!! And several other places too. hehehehe!!

Well anyways, this is his month. I've been thinking of offering the INXS Goes to Mount St. Helens story again for free to friends. I am working on the story now, trying to make it better, and make the drawings better too. I also want to offer my other INXS story "One Day In November..." to friends as well for free. But only on the 22nd. I am not trying to make money off these books, so I don't mind offering them for free. Not really fair of me to make money off of INXS. Even though I did do the drawings, and usually I would be compensated for that. But that is why I often offer these stories for free. Because I am not trying to make money off the backs of INXS. That is not right to me. I love these guys, I would NEVER do anything that is unfair to them. I just have to charge something on the site, because the platform I use charges me each time someone downloads a story. But for my INXS stories, my profit is very small.

Life In A Van

Boy! This is an adventure!!! LOL!! And yet I am maintaining a positive attitude. Well, things could be worse. MUCH worse. For the past month, I've been here in Seaside, OR, basically living in my van. All my things are in storage, and I am looking for an apartment. Sometimes I stay in the local shelter, and have made friends with the person who runs it. Her name is Alisha. She's really nice, but lately I have not been staying there, because believe it or not, the van is actually more comfortable. I made up a little bed in the back of the van with my old mattress toppers, and it is really quite comfortable. I sleep very well at night. My ma and pa are worried about me sleeping in the van, but Seaside is actually a very quiet town. Nothing bad happens here, not that I have seen. Pretty much I stay in the Safeway parking lot, because their store is open until 1AM. So, if it's late, up until 1AM, and I need to use the restroom, I can just go in there and do it. And usually by 1AM I am already asleep anyways. I become quite narcoleptic when I first move into a place, I don't know why. Stress, I guess. I remember how pissed off Patti got with me because when I first moved in with her, I slept most of the time. But moving is HARD work!! So far, of all the moves I have made through my life, this move has been the most stressful, and has been the least prepared for. I had to move out FAST in order to get here in time for the orientation. If you miss that orientation, you get taken off the list. Then that's 4 and a half years of my life that is wasted!! I am hoping to find an apartment soon. I've got all my family and friends saying prayers for me.

I was completely approved for one apartment, but then the landlord did not want to deal with lowering the rent through housing in the first year. Especially since it's just me and it was a 2 bedroom apartment. So that apartment fell through. Bummer!! It's been the only rental I've seen so far that has a washer/drier hookup!!! But I've done shed my share of tears. No use crying over something I cannot control. But finding a one-bedroom unit is damn-near impossible!! I almost have no choice but to go with a 2-bedroom unit. This town does not give me a heck of a lot of choices!! But we will see. I keep telling myself something will come up! Meanwhile, I keep my days pretty busy driving and looking around, hoping against hope that I can find something before my time runs out. If nothing else comes available, I may have no choice but to move back to Reno. I really don't want to. My sinuses were so bad in Reno!! Here at least they have gotten back to normal. And here when I buy something expensive, I don't have to pay tax. When you get up in the $100 range, taxes build up heavily!! I hate that!! But if I do move back to Reno, ma, John and I are going to have to discuss moving into a 3 bedroom rental home and split the rent 3 ways. I am not moving back in with Donna!! No way!!! One of the things about moving out of her place that I don't miss is that darn kiddie bed she had me sleeping in! I'd have it hauled away and replaced with a full size bed at least! That bed was the reason my leg went so bad. Now it is back to it's old self again and I can climb stairs once again. I struggled every night to stay on that damn bed, and I think that's how my leg got weak.

I will never forget that one horrible day I found out how weak my leg was! I tried to climb the 3 stairs that led up to the front of the porch. I stepped on a step, and my leg just buckled!! Completely collapsed! I did not expect it, and I went down. I sat on the steps and just wailed "I can't climb stairs anymore!! WAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!" I think everyone in the neighborhood heard me, but since most of them are Mexicans who don't speak English, I don't think they understood what I said. Or why I was sitting on the steps, crying out loud. LOL! Well, now I have been working on it, and my leg is almost back to it's old self again, so I can take a second-floor apartment with no trouble.

Well, I have even made some friends with some furniture dealers here, and they are willing to work with me. So, as soon as I can get an apartment, I have 2 furniture stores that are ready and willing to help me out with new furniture at payments I can easily afford.

Pleasant vs. Honest

Everyone knows the truth hurts. What is true is not always what we want to hear, but the truth is the truth. I'd rather someone be honest with me than to just tell me what they think I want to hear. I cannot believe how many INXS fans out there do not want to see the new movie about INXS because they say Michael was portrayed in a distasteful way. Well, I always say "Maybe it's the truth?" I don't know, I never lived with Michael. But the movie was supervised by Tim Farriss and Chris Murphy, and these two people spent more time with Michael than anyone else. I have to take what was created in that movie as the gospel. Well, most of it anyways. Rockstars are usually edgy, and Michael had some hardships in his life I know that. I also know what hardships can do to a person. But people are afraid for Lily's sake. They don't think Michael should ever be portrayed that honestly because it may hurt Lily's vision of her father.

Well, there is no denying her father had a hard life. He was battling depression. But just because we don't want to know the truth about Michael does not mean it should remain hidden. I personally do not care what bad shit Michael did! I still love him. He could have been a hatchet murderer behind the scenes and I still wouldn't care. I love Michael for his grace and beauty, I love him for the inspiring words he wrote and sang to the world. I love him for his comforting voice which has cheered me up out of bad days many times in the past. That is why I love Michael. It's like Dian Fossey. I am a great admirer of her's, always have been. Always will be. I don't care about how she treated poachers. Some people say she went too far, that she mistreated everyone around her. I don't care about that at all. I love Dian Fossey for her accomplishments. She was like a pioneer in wildlife conservation. I love her for that! I know she burned down villager's houses, I know she used to whip poachers in the genitals with stinging nettles. I know all about her shooting the cattle of local herdsmen. But I don't care about none of that. She is still my hero because she single-handedly saved the mountain gorillas from extinction.

Ya know, I think Dian Fossey is the main reason why I was so tolerant with Patti! LOL! I put up with a lot of Patti's shit in the days I lived there, and I still was kind and respectful with her. I think deep inside I was thinking which one would be worse to live with? Patti or Dian Fossey? LOL! Probably Dian Fossey, and I love her to death! There was a difference though. Dian Fossey loved kids and animals, and a person with that kind of morale cannot be all bad. Patti did not like kids, and was fanatical about rescuing animals from shelters as opposed to breeding. Besides that, she was shallow. She thought of nobody but herself. So, there was NO good whatsoever in Patti.

Same thoughts about Michael Hutchence. I don't care what he did. I don't care if he tried to punch Timmy in the face, I don't care about the bad shit he did portrayed in the movie, whether it was the gospel truth or not. I'll always love Michael, no matter what. He always has been, still is, and always will be my most favorite lead singer of all time! To the people who did not want to see the movie because they thought it was in bad taste, all I have to say is get over it! I got nothing against these people personally, but Michael's life was not all roses and unicorns. No one's is. We all have our ups and downs. We all have our good points and bad points. I can overlook them. If I can, then anyone can. *smiles*

I look at Michael's life and I think mine was not too far off from his. I love the movie, Never Tear Us Apart. I think Luke Arnold did a fine job of portraying Michael! Shoot! If I were 20 years younger, I would have fallen in love with that man!! He has a nice ass!! But he's only 30 years old (born in 1984-- a great year BTW!) But he's too young for me. Another complaint I typically hear is people complaining because Luke looked nothing like Michael. Well, I found a pic not too long ago where he does. I still think he did a fine job! Other people were giving their ideas about who would have been great to play the part of Michael. Someone suggested some actor named Gavin Rossdale. But he's OLD!! He may have been great to play the part of Michael as an older man, but not as a young teenager, when his career as a singer got started. Another suggested a guy named Aiden Turner, but he looks far too mean!! And he's kinda ugly too!

Michael Hutchence had this look on his face, that was halfway between dangerous and innocent. That is very hard to mimic! That's what I like about Luke Arnold playing the part of Michael. He almost has that look. There will NEVER be another Michael Hutchence!! Not even among modern actors. Even his own brother Rhett doesn't look anything like him!! Michael was a one of a kind! Finding someone who looks exactly like him is impossible. Luke Arnold came close, but could not go all the way. No one ever will. So if other INXS fans are looking for an actor who is going to look exactly like Michael, with his voice, they are going to be very hard-pressed. There just isn't another Michael out there, and never will be.

Well, in personal news, I am going to OR this weekend. I am leaving here on the 5th, and have to be there by the 8th. I am giving a little leeway for any trouble that might occur. But I have a slew of people praying for me. It's kinda bittersweet because I am going to have to leave Vegas with my sister. I need to concentrate on finding an apartment, and the very last thing I need to worry about right now is if that apartment will allow pets. It's only for a year, and Vegas will at least be with family. Once I've lived there for a year, I can move to a more pet-friendly area in OR and get Vegas back. But looking on the NW OR coast, it's been nearly impossible to find a pet-friendly place. I don't know why it is! NW OR is so not pet friendly!! I don't know what I am going to do during that year without a booby to cuddle!! I guess my favorite guys of INXS will have to be my surrogate "pets". LOL!

Hutch-Sightings

Someone posted an article not too long ago in a Facebook group I am a member of, saying that it's possible that Michael Hutchence is still living today. It was based on a video someone posted of him that was shot after 2005, and said that it was Michael in the film. The video was put up on YouTube and went viral apparently. Well, forensics in Australia are very much open to interpretation, but I doubt this to be true. Though there are some unanswered questions, like why did Michael's money run out after he died, leaving Lily with nothing? Who the heck was using his estate while the courts kept it in limbo?? The article also stated that there have been several sightings of Michael since 1998.

Well, don't get me wrong, as any INXS fan from the beginning, I would LOVE for all this to be true, and to know that Michael's death was really nothing more than a bad nightmare. The problem I have of this is that Elvis fans have been saying the exact same thing since Elvis died. The so-called "Hutch-sightings" are most likely nothing more than impersonators of Michael's, or look-alikes. I cannot take the word of this article unless I actually see a video or picture taken of Michael himself that is dated after November 22, 1997. Believe me, I have been looking at Michael's face for a long time, I would know him! Michael has a very unique look. He has soft, innocent-looking eyes, his nose is somewhat long and pointed, and his lips would be what gives him off to me. They were not too pouty, and not to small. Just right. I love Michael's lips!! I think they were his sexiest feature!! Timmy's got his beautiful, sexy buns, and Michael had sexy lips! hehehe!

I was  watching a documentary the other night about INXS remembering Michael, and Timmy showed off a picture of himself saying "There I am with my awesome-AWESOME ass!" Every time I come to that part of his interview, I always laugh!! I say "Well, at least he knows it!" Probably thanks in no small part to me! I mention it all the time. Hell, some INXS videos I only watch just to get a good glimpse of Timmy's awesome ass!!! Mediate is basically a dull video, until the end when you can see Timmy's ass! Then it's totally AWESOME!!! Same with the video for Don't Change. Timmy's just got the sexiest butt I've ever seen on anyone! I love good buns on a man!!

Well, I would love nothing more than to see Michael come back to life. It would be great if all this about his death was not true. I hate it that INXS is now retired. I guess they just gave up looking for a new lead singer. Well, it is very hard to find one. Michael's sexual appeal is no doubt what made INXS go as far as they did! JD, he was a great singer and a nice guy, but he had NONE of Michael's sexual appeal and charisma. Nor would he ever have it. Michael was Michael and JD was JD. JD could never be Michael. In the end, JD just got dumped. Ciaran, some like him, some don't. I haven't seen him perform yet. As a person I like him though. He must be a very nice person. But again, he can never be Michael. No one can. Michael was totally irreplaceable. We can search for a thousand years, there will never be another Michael. GOD made him once, and threw away the mold!

We may find another good songwriter like Michael, but I'd bet he wouldn't have Michael's good looks. We may find someone else with Michael's good looks, but I'd bet he would suck at songwriting! Face it, Michael had it all. He was part of what made INXS successful. Not to mention, the rest of the guys are good looking too. I personally think Timmy is more handsome than Michael was. Don't get me wrong, Michael was sexy! But Timmy does it for me! I wish Timmy would have kept his hair long. I loved that look on him!!

Why Not Call It Obese?

I was reading some articles this past weekend on Yahoo. There was one that mentioned not to use the word "obese", to just call fat people "fat". Well, I have to ask, why not? "Obese" actually sounds a lot better than "fat". Makes the person using the term sound a lot more intellectual. A person who simply says "fat" by comparison, sounds uneducated and stupid. I am obese, I admit it! "Fat" is a catch-all term that can refer to anyone of any size. There are people who are a size 6 that are merely "fat". I am not a size 6. I'm too big right now for a size 6. Actually I have no idea what size I am. Whenever I go to get clothing, I like getting size XXXL, because I like my clothing loose. I don't like anything that's going to hug against my skin. Though I can fit comfortably in a size XL. One shirt that I have that is a size XL is now very loose on me. It used to be somewhat snug.

I think political correctness has gone too far! Now, there are people complaining about others using the term "Christmas", because it's based on religion. I tell those people to suck it! That is why I keep blogs, I say what I want to on here. If you are looking for a blog that is inoffensive and politically correct, then I suggest you look elsewhere. I say what I want to on here! I don't care if it offends anyone! If you're that big of a wussy, then please leave and don't come back! I call a spade a spade. I call myself fat, or I might start calling myself obese now. That is what I am.

Now, just because I call something what it is does not mean that I believe in shaming fat people. I've heard some people do that to "encourage" fat people to lose weight. I have mentioned this before on this blog. I would guess those people that say that have never been fat before, because if they had, they would know that fat-shaming does not "encourage" a fat person to lose weight! It might work with some people, maybe a handful of people. But it does not always work. Fat-shaming only makes the person feel worse, not better. If they feel bad, they are going to go home and eat to make themselves feel better, and I have also mentioned that before on this blog too. Well, I also found an article that supports my theory. Check it out! http://www.bbc.com/news/health-29155765. Why don't these bigots just admit they do NOT shame fat people just to encourage them to lose weight! They do it because they are miserable with their own lives, so they feel they need to bring others down to their level of misery. That is the real reason why they do it. Don't believe anyone who tells you otherwise!

Even when I was thin, I never made fun of a fat person. I don't judge a person based on race, religion, beliefs, or whether they are fat or thin, I judge a person based on whether or not they are an asshole. One of the things I love about other INXSaries, so far, I haven't met one that has made any remarks against me just because I am ugly or obese. Not even the ones who are not so friendly. I sure cannot say the same thing about other groups I've been in. Sure cannot say that about show breeders! LOL! I wish Michael was still here. It's Bob Geldof's fault he's not! For that reason, I will forever HATE him!!!! I still say he deserved to lose his daughter! I am very sorry for Lily, but Bob can only blame himself for that! He should have been kinder to Michael and his family!

I remember when I was in high school, there was this girl named Tanya, and she was FAT!! Not only was she fat, she was blond and had an attitude, and she was weird. She was unfortunately the kind of person a lot of people think of fat people to be. And that is why fat people get judged harshly. Let me tell you how weird Tanya was. She was so weird, often when I passed by her in the hallway, she would be literally either barking like a dog, or meowing like a cat. I mean, she would actually go "woof-woof-woof!" or she would say "Meow-meow-meow!" That's why these cat fags who go "meow" whenever someone mentions a cat creeps me out! Because to me, that is just plain weird! And I see that a lot in people nowadays unfortunately. Well, Tanya was fatter than me, and one day when I passed by her in the hallway, and she said "meow-meow-meow" to me, I came within nanoseconds of saying back to her "Oooh, nice fat kitty!" But I couldn't say it!! I couldn't bring myself to say it, because I knew how it felt to be bullied and called names. I think she only did that to me probably because she knew I love animals. People used to make fun of others who loved animals back then.

Well, I used to be obsessed with animals. I'm finding now in my old age, I am not as obsessed with them as I was back in high school. There are some animals I find I just don't like. Everyone by now knows how much I HATE panthers of all kinds. I don't like baboons too well. I can't stand hyenas! I'm not too crazy about big dogs, or most house cats. I can't stand bugs or spiders. I like mice, but not in my house. I don't mind pet rats though. I guess what I really love is birds. I've never seen a bird I don't like. I don't trust large hookbills, but I don't hate them. I would just never want to touch one. Anyway, Tanya was the perfect example of someone I could have made fun of, but chose not to. I could have called her fat names up the wazoo, and it wouldn't have hurt me (back then), because I wasn't fat. A lot of people did make fun of her because she was fat. I remember one incident that happened, Tanya was the office attendant for the last hour of high school, and it was her job to go around through all the classes and pick up the attendance sheets at the end of the day. Well, when she got to the class I was in, this boy named Terry, who was sitting right next to me, started calling Tanya all kinds of fat names when she entered the room. Tanya kept telling Terry to shut up. Everyone in the class was laughing as Terry continued making jokes about Tanya. Everyone but me. I know I didn't like Tanya and she was weird as all-be-heck, and I was a friend of Terry's, but I just couldn't laugh at his jokes. It's different when you know how it feels to be called names like that. I knew that even back then.

The next day, my friend Robert said to me "wasn't Terry funny yesterday when he made those jokes about Tanya?" I answered, "Well, I just couldn't laugh at his jokes. Because I know how it feels to be made fun of like that." I'd faced it since I began school. Kids would call me all kinds of nasty names. I wasn't a fat child, but I often was called names that referred to me being skinny or ugly. Robert was saying how much Tanya deserves it because she is an asshole to everyone. He said Tanya is one of those types that only likes people she thinks are 'cool'. Well, I had no idea what Tanya's idea of "cool" was, but I still didn't think Terry's jokes were funny. I liked Terry and I liked Robert, but I just could not say Terry's jokes were funny. Now, I would, because I can even laugh at myself. But back then, I hadn't learned how to do that yet.

Free Ebooks Today!

I am taking one big, huge risk! I am giving away free copies of UMG Productions ebooks! For me, it's a big risk. I gained a little confidence giving away copies of my story about my thoughts on Michael, but I am still nervous. I made a category for free ebooks today, and only for today. After tonight, they will not be available anymore for free. So, go to this link: http://www.umgproductions.com/search/label/Free%20Ebook download as many as you want! They are safe for all ages. Just remember to post a comment on each book you read. I would really appreciate it! Thank you all!

Unfortunately for this sale, I do not have any adult material available. I didn't want kids coming to this sale and getting adult images or words in their minds, and then the parents come back to me. So, no adult material is included in this sale. Also, the newest entries are not included either. Sorry about that too. Maybe next year.

9-22-2014 The sale is OVER. It was for ONE DAY only. If you missed it, well, don't blame me. Just hope I have the same thing next year.

WAY Better Than Oasis!

I keep getting more and more back into INXS each day! Could be because I am ovulating, I don't know. LOL! I always heard women are most lovey-dovey when they are ovulating. UGH! Anyways, I've even begun kissing Michael's pics again, which is something I have not done in many a year! But it started off with me looking at him again. Between 2005 to the present, I hardly ever gave Michael much attention. I was focusing mostly on Timmy. Well, don't misunderstand me, I still LOVE Timmy!!! I am still a Timmy fan. But I guess I am now a sprouting Timmy-Hutchy fan. LOL! I was a fan of Michael's long ago, before 2005, it was always Michael that led me back to INXS fanhood. Then in 2005, that changed. I saw a pic of Timmy standing, looking so sexy, and it was him I became more sweet on that year. After that, Michael kinda slipped my mind. Well, there is just no denying Michael is DEAD! I cannot escape that fact. But I just don't like looking at him and thinking "Well, he's just a dead guy now." It may be true, but it just sounds so disrespectful to me, after all Michael did in his life. He always made me feel so good with his singing. He was beautiful too! That's another fact I cannot deny. But I guess part of the reason I stayed away from looking at Michael and even thinking of him is because it was just too painful to remember him.

Another reason I was not into him back then is because of the Hutch fans I met. Or perhaps I should say they were Hutch fags. Just like with cat fags, there is a BIG difference between just loving Michael Hutchence, and being a Hutch-fag. GOD willing I hope I never become a Hutch fag! If I do, I want someone to take me into the field and shoot my brains out! I love INXS, but I refuse to become one of their fags. I almost became something to that effect about Timmy. But I learned to stop myself. If someone else does not like Timmy, I say that's fine! I don't get angry at them or cuss them out. I love Timmy, and that is all that counts. I don't demand everyone else loves him. But at the same time, I don't want people saying I should not like him, or trying to convince me of their reasons why they think I should not love him. I can judge that for myself. I'm generally very forgiving with people I like. I love INXS. The only band member I don't care too much for is Kirk. But I don't hate him. I never hated Kirk. The feeling I have for him is more like disappointment, not hate. Matter of fact, Kirk makes me laugh sometimes. He'd have been a great stand-up comedian. But my meetings with him have always been a less-than-favorable experience. But I will say this; the guy who played Kirk in Never Tear Us Apart was awfully CUTE!

Anyways, I met these Hutch fags on the VH1 forum back in 2005, and they were shit-talking the remaining band members of INXS. There was also a forum devoted entirely to Michael back then. So, I invited them to join me there to talk about Michael. Well, this one member responded exactly how I would expect a Hutch fag to respond. She refused to go into that forum at all. She just maintained she could post any damn where she pleased. I told her to suit herself, but not to get all pissy at me because I would be talking about Timmy on a forum devoted to INXS, which she had gotten with me before then. I love Michael, but I totally refuse to become a Hutch fag! No way! That's not something I would be proud of! I believe everyone has a right to their opinions and beliefs, and I want to keep that for the rest of my life. If someone does not like Michael, well it's not my place to tell them they have no right not to. Because I believe they have every right not to if they don't want to. I love Michael and Timmy, to me that's all that matters. But I believe it was meeting those people that made me get out of Michael and not want to go back. But like I said, they were just Hutch fags. Not real fans. Well, they are fans, but they are the scary, over-obsessed type fans.

I heard that at the beginning of one of Michael's last songs, Elegantly Wasted, Michael says "I'm better than Oasis". LOL! Gotta love Michael! He is WAY better than Oasis! I mean really! If you were a young teenage girl with sense, getting into rock music for the very first time, which one of these bands would you go for? Top or bottom?

I would go for the ones on the bottom. More cute guys in the bottom picture. The guys on top look dirty! And I mean dirty as in unclean, like they need good, long showers and hair scrubbings! I can't stand Oasis! I've heard them sing before and I don't like them. Then when I heard Michael presented them with the Brit Award they said something to the effect of "Has beens should not give awards to gonna be's" I wanted to slap the jerk for saying that! Made me so mad!

 

I have to ask Noel, "Gonna be" what? "Gonna be" a loser! That's what! They aren't even popular anymore! And most INXS lovers hate them. I hate them! And look at them. They look terrible! Michael is WAY better looking than them by a longshot, not to mention he's got more talent. So yes, he was WAY better than Oasis! Though I am so sorry to say now INXS are "has beens" But they will always be "somethings" to me. I still love them, and each day my love gets stronger and stronger. I almost feel today the same way I did back in 2005, when I had gotten back into INXS again for the first time in like 5 years. DOH! Seems when I take a break from INXS, they always last 5 years. But I always bounce back to them. I guess INXS is my "safety net". They are my one link to music that I still enjoy.

Another thing I always hear, people ask if anyone else thinks Michael Hutchence looked like Jim Morrison. I say HELL NO!! Michael was WAAAAYYYYY better looking than Jim Morrison!!! Not to mention he sang better, and his songs were better. The Doors SUCK!! I can't stand them! I don't think Michael looked even one little tiny bit like Jim Morrison!

There is just no comparison there! Morrison had smaller eyes, that were too close together. His lips are too curly, short, almost Neanderthal-like. His hair isn't curly enough, and he's WAY too skinny!! Michael at least has beautifully, proportioned lips, eyes, nose, curly hair, and some muscle on his bones. Michael is definitely more beautiful!! And I don't like ANY song by the Doors! I love almost all of INXS's songs! Yes, there are some I don't like, but they are few, and I chalk it up to everyone is entitled to have one song that's not up to par. And other INXS fans like those songs, so it's not like my opinion on those songs is the only one that matters. Only on this blog. hehehe! But ask me which of the songs by the Doors I think is best and I will tell you NONE. I hate them ALL!

Well, thanks to Never Tear Us Apart, I am again becoming a Hutch fan. I just hope it doesn't progress to being a Hutch fag from here! I don't think so though. I'd be lying if I said sometimes I don't get bothered by people who don't like Michael or INXS. But it's just not my place to tell anyone they should, and I understand that. But I also hope others understand they have no right saying I am not a real INXS fan either, just because I take occasional breaks from the band. I've been in a slump with them, but like I said, I always bounce back. I think I've been in a slump with INXS since I moved to Bozeman, I know I once wrote about it on this blog. I notice though my INXS slumps last 5 years, or close. And when I bounce back, I bounce back strong!

I Am Amazed!

MAN! I didn't know I could write so good! Yesterday, I was working for most of the day on a short story. The other night, I was thinking and I got a brain storm. Every INXS fan has a story to tell about where they were when they heard the news about Michael's death. I tell my story a lot. I always said I could literally write a novel about what I was thinking, second by second. A lot of thoughts went into my head just during that 30 second news clip I saw on MTV. So, I finally said to myself "Why don't I give it a try?" So I sat down at my computer and gave it a shot. I did a damn fine job!! I had gotten 11 pages into the story, and I printed it all out, what I had so far, and read it out loud to Vegas.

I don't mind telling you all, when I got to the part where I described each thought each second as I sat there listening to the news clip for the very first time, I was crying! It has been a LONG time since I've cried over Michael. Well, first the movie Never Tear Us Apart got me started on that again! Then writing this story, I guess it just brought back old memories. But before I could get to describing how I was when I heard the news, I had to build up my character in the story. I had to tell everything that happened in my life that made me an INXS fan. Some things may not seem to have anything to do with INXS at all. And I was a Roxette fan before I was an INXS fan. So, I had to tell why that was. In the end, the whole story comes together. Even those parts you read in the story that you believe have nothing to do with INXS or music at all. I even talk about what we were doing that weekend before I heard the news! I remember it very well!

My ma used to live in Salem, OR, and she would come up to visit us and grandma on the weekends. Saturday, which was Nov. 22 for us, she spent with grandma, going around town doing her things with her. Sunday, which was the 23rd for us, she came and visited me and my sis and we went to Buckley that day, and looked around in antique and thrift stores. My sis and I had some fun looking at some old antiques. Ma left that night to go back to Salem. The next day, Monday the 24th for us, was when I heard the news about Michael. In this story, I went into full detail about everything I was thinking as I watched the news that night.

Really, it takes a lot to make me cry, I do mean a LOT!! I have NEVER cried reading a book before. I've felt sad before, but never cried reading a book. Even the best of them has never made me cry! But this one does! I should hire and editor to help me make this book 1000% better, because I am so notoriously bad at endings!! I'm just stuck on an idea for a title for this book. I'm thinking about calling it "November 22", or "One Day In November..." or simply "22" because that seems to be Michael's number! Michael was born on January 22, his one and only child was born in July 22, and Michael died on November 22. So, 22 was definitely his number!

When you read this story really well, and you read my other favorite story, Gracie's Odyssey, you can actually see the connection between them. Gracie's Odyssey was based entirely on my feelings about when Michael died. Though you don't see it at first, the symbolism is definitely there, and you can see it very well when you read this story I am now writing. Gracie's Odyssey began production within less than a week after Michael died. It would have been completed by Christmas, but the author got busy with other things at that time. It was completed in January of 1998. It helped ease the pain of losing Michael a little bit. And in some other ways, made the pain stronger, because it became clearer to me as the months went by that this is REAL! This is DEEP!

Anyways, I am amazed because I just never knew I could write things so deeply!! If I can make myself start crying reading this story, I KNOW I am a damn fine writer!! I never realized that before. Not until I wrote this story and read it out loud! I'm thinking of offering this ebook for free to my Facebook friends, just so I can get some unbiased opinions about it.

Gotta Love Jon!

I gotta hand it to Jon! He was challenged to pour ice cold water over himself in the name of ALS, and he did it! One of my Facebook friends challenged him, and there was no doubt in my mind he'd do it. This friend also challenged her own husband, who also did it, and Adam Ant, who to my knowledge has not taken up her challenge. I told her I honestly don't think Adam Ant will do it. He's too much of a wussy!! If he even pays any attention at all to his fans. I don't know, he seems more like the self-important type to me. I don't think Adam Ant even cares anything about his fans OR ALS. This friend said she's going to convert me into an Adam Ant fan and I said "mmm, I don't think so!" LOL! I don't like wussies. I only like 2 songs by Adam Ant, that does not constitute fanhood to me. Part of the reason I love INXS so much is because they are so good at interacting with their fans. And not for self-righteous reasons either. Anyways, here is Jon's Ice bucket challenge:

 

He loses his shades in the process, but at least he did it! I love him for it!! I didn't even know he has a YouTube channel! I subbed him. It's rare I sub anyone really, if I do, it's because I LOVE that person's videos. Well, I just love Jon. He's a good guy!

I gotta tell you, this movie Never Tear Us Apart is my new favorite movie! I love it! I cannot wait to see the next INXS movie! I heard Richard Lowenstein is going to come up with his own INXS movie. I can't wait! I want to see if it has the same affect on me as this one did! Very few movies actually can bring tears to my eyes, this one did! The only other movies that have had that affect on me was Amadeus and Gorillas in the Mist. I first saw Amadeus in 1986, in school, and it was so sad, I wept the first time I saw it. My friends tell me it's just a movie. Well, it's a true story about Mozart's life. Most of the movies that are sad to me are the true stories. I've seen The Color Purple, and I have heard people say they cry at the end of that movie too. The ending makes me smile, but never makes me cry because it's a fictional movie.

I also cried at the end of Gorillas in the Mist, it's a good movie too, about the life of Dian Fossey. I knew about her before the movie came out, I'd seen her on TV and heard her name several times. But when I saw that movie, I became a confirmed admirer. I still am! Although I have stopped crying at the end of watching that movie, I'd seen it so many times. Now, Never Tear Us Apart is my new favorite movie. Been a long time since I've cried over Michael, this darn movie has got me started again!!

The Worst Words in Use

I will never understand people! Especially young people. Why does the younger generation always want to be so hateful to one another??!! I'll just never understand it. And why also use such vulgar language too?! You wonder why I like animals so much better than people, well, this is why. Though I don't know. As I said in a previous post, maybe animals do think this way. We just don't know it because we don't speak their language. We always say animals do not judge us. Well, maybe they do, and we just don't know it. Anyways, back to the original subject. One of my friends posted a picture that I totally agree with. Take a look for yourselves:

Now, Isabella is a BEAUTIFUL little girl!! How someone can look at her and call her ugly or retarded is absolutely beyond me! Like a few months ago, I saw a news clip of a woman who posted a picture of her baby boy, who has Down's Syndrome. He is an adorable baby boy to me. But some dumbass got on the picture and posted that he's ugly. Well, that mom had some words for that troll! She was kind and polite to him, but she told him off! Ya know, it's people like that troll that are the main reason I don't want to have a child with Down's Syndrome. I'd be scared to death my child would get bullied, NO kid should have to go through that! And what if I'm not there to protect my child? What if he or she gets bullied to a point they just want to end it all? With a non-Down's child, it may or may not happen. With a Down's Syndrome child, it's almost guaranteed. Sad as that is, it's the truth. I would NEVER want my children to go through what I went through. I guess that's why I just don't want kids. I'm scared to death I'd have a Down's Syndrome baby. And it's not that I don't think they're just as adorable as any other kids, or that they cannot have good lives, and cannot be upstanding, kind and loving people. I just don't want to have that child subjected to the bullying I happen to know kids with disabilities are sure to be on the receiving end of.

Autism runs in my family too, so I know, first-hand, the amount of bullying a "different" child receives. I also know it can destroy a bullied person's life. I'm lucky in that aspect. I am much more jaded now than I was when I was a kid, I stay away from people, I may not be the friendliest person anyone ever met, but I survived the bullying and teasing. But if I had a child, even a Down's Syndrome child, I would not want him or her to become like me. I would want them to have a magnificent life. In a perfect world, I guess they would. But in a world like this one is, where people think it's funny to put others down, and hurt someone else that they think is not up to their standards, no. Most likely each day in school will be like a trip into the 7th circle of Hell!

You know, I don't believe I'd ever even heard the word "retarded" until my family moved to this house in inner-city Lakewood. Then, I heard it all the time. My first day going to school in that area, all the kids were asking me if my sister was retarded. I had no idea what that meant. Most of the time when I answered them, they would walk away laughing. So, I knew it couldn't be something good. When I saw the first kids (mostly 6th graders) ask me that and then laugh at my response, I got a cold, clammy feeling in my belly. I thought "Wow! That's odd!" And then Valerie, who was Paul Casler's sister, constantly used that word over and over again. I knew Paul before I knew Valerie, and I knew Paul was not a good person. I did know Valerie was Paul's sister though. So, I figured if Valerie was using that word, then it's confirmed, it can't be a good word! I remember that first afternoon I went home and asked my ma what the word retarded meant. She told me that it's a vulgar word people use to describe someone who is slow or different.

As I got older, I started to understand that this is not a word that people with intelligence use. But it seems to be very common. Even when I worked at the Puyallup Fair, I heard one of the workers in the time office for the rides section using that word. I only knew about it after my sis told me that one of the workers in that office said that. I think it was the short, fat, dumpy, black-haired dumbass woman who was working in there. I did not like her from the first instant I saw her at the orientation. She looked too full of herself. Apparently I was right! And if she uses the word "retarded", then it's confirmed she needs lessons in decency.

I also see it all the time among atheists on YouTube. Like that Alex Gorecki guy I encountered some time back. I said on a video, though now I don't remember what video it was, that as long as atheists don't try to push me into believing what they do, I don't care what their beliefs are. And then Alex posted "Retard alert" in response to my comment. IMO, his remark was TOTALLY uncalled for! I said NOTHING bad about atheists! Well, I was totally sick of atheists making me out to be "retarded" just because I don't believe what they do. I could have given Alex a much harsher response. But then that may not have helped my cause. So instead, I just took his own words and threw them right back in his face! LOL! I turned the "retard" remark around on him, and added that he is also a dim-wit and a dumbass. You know, I have not been back to that comment since! I get notifications every now and then about people responding, and even 1+ing my comment, but I don't care to go back to that thread. Most of the people who are responding to that comment are probably some of Alex's own fucktards trying to convince me that Alex has some kind of point. But he doesn't have any point at all. All he's got is just a head with no brains on his shoulders. Because someone made the mistake of putting his brain down between his legs! If he did have a point, it was lost the instant he used the word "retard". Only people with no class and no morals use that word. So, I don't care to read the responses in that thread at all.

You know, people like Alex, I really hope someday they get to have a child, and I hope that their child is born autistic, or with some kind of disability. That way people like Alex Gorecki can see how cruel it really is to use words like "retard". But if he's really as bad as I believe he is, he'd probably call his own child that name too. People like him are the reason I gave up atheism! Kinda the opposite of MrRepzion. He gave up religion because he was bullied (he was a catholic--huh! Big surprise! NOT!) I gave up atheism because of the number of atheist bullies I have seen. I don't want to be a part of ANYTHING that people have to bully others over. That is also why I am not a part of any organized religion either. I know about the religious bullies. I've been there, I've seen them. And I wasn't even catholic. Catholics are the biggest group of bullies there is in religion, next to muslims. I want NO part of them! My "religion" is very simple. I believe in GOD, HE loves me, HE has my life all planned out, HE sent Jesus to Earth to be my savior, I follow and listen only to HIM. It's not a real religion, it's just a belief I have. I don't call it a "religion". It's not my job to convert anyone or recruit followers. I just obey my GOD. You'll also never see me standing on the side of the road holding picket signs that says "GOD hates" anyone! I believe HE loves everyone! Even gays.

I dunno, I don't see the point of bullying at all. And I always hear people say "Ignore the bullies and they will go away". Well, that doesn't always work. I ignored the bullies, and it didn't make them go away. I remember Dr. Phil saying "Tell your parents about the bullies and get them together with the teachers". Well, I did that too. It only made the bullying worse. The only real way of getting away from bullies is to home school. If I had a child that was disabled, and being made fun of, that's exactly what I would do. I would homeschool them. ANYTHING just so my child would not have to deal with bullies. Because no matter what you do to ignore them, it always gets worse. Not better.

Do Not Feed the Trolls

LOL! There is this guy who has commented in a couple of my videos, and he keeps pushing for some recognition. I can tell because each time he comments, he gets more and more obnoxious. LOL! I just keep on ignoring him. He has some kind of greek name, and all he does in his own videos is play video games. You all know what I always say about kids who are into playing video games. I saw his comment on one of my videos a month ago, I accepted his dimwitted comments then, but did not respond to him at all. Then I saw him comment on another video yesterday, I accepted his dumbass comment again, but still did not respond. He keeps pushing for a response. He was pretending yesterday like he'd seen me for the first time. I knew he was bullshitting though. I'd seen him before on my videos. He's looking for recognition from me. He didn't get it a month ago, he didn't get it last night, and I still ain't gonna give it to him today! LOL! I am not going to mention his name at all. Nor what videos he commented on. But I just think it's funny how he tries so hard to get my attention. I laugh every time I see him commenting. Now, a month from now, he'll probably comment again, trying to get my attention by saying how fat I am (as if I can't already see that! LOL!) I mean really! I call myself fat in my own videos. Do dumbasses like this dude think I don't already know I am fat? I mean, how can I not see that? But I am still working out at the fitness center. But NO WAY am I going to tell him that! Let him find out for himself. So far, he seems to not have seen my latest videos. Only the old ones, from before I moved here.

Well, I'll let him comment till his heart's content. Oh wait a minute! He hasn't got a heart! LOL! Trolls never have hearts. They only have the brain between their legs to control them. So, I'll let this bigot comment until the brain between his legs is content. But I will still always ignore him. I am not going to give him the attention he is craving from me. I don't reward trolls with responses. I only ignore them. I reward positive people with responses only. I like to only encourage the positive people to come back to my videos. So, I only respond to positive people now. No longer to negative people. That's the way it's going to be from now on. No matter how hard they push.

I see negative people all the time trying to push me for a response. On Facebook, I just totally ignore strangers. There are some exceptions though, but not many. Sometimes when I see a stranger post my name, all I look at is my name. But most of the time my feed blocks their comment. Most of the time, I just don't push the link that says "See all ## comments" or "see more". It's better that I don't look. They are strangers who do not even know me at all. I don't want them corrupting my friendship with the mutual friend we have. On YouTube, the same thing. I may accept a negative person's response, but that does not mean I take it to heart. It does not mean they will get a response from me either. There has been a few times I have wanted to respond to negative people. But I always  refrain from doing it, because I know that is what the trolls are after.

The one time I can remember recently that I did want to respond to a negative person, I was talking to a friend of mine, and I told her I just totally ignore strangers. Well, one of her friends, a VERY negative person, said to me "Dee mind your own fucking business!" Oh GOD I wanted to respond to that person so very bad!! I wanted to say to him "I am minding my own business. I was talking to my friend. NOT you! YOU DUMBASS!!!!" That's one of the few times I really wanted to respond to a negative person. But I just had this feeling that that person was nothing but a troll who was just yanking my chain. Like if I had said what I really wanted to say, his response would be "I thought you said you ignore strangers! hur hur hur!" So, I didn't say anything. But it's one of the few times I did want to respond to a negative person. And I wanted to slap that person too! LOL! Just for being so disrespectful.

Unfortunate that now it is illegal to slap someone's face! There have been many times I wanted to do it to people, even those on the internet. I kinda miss the days when you could really punch a negative person in the face without worrying about being sued. But anyways, that is why I totally ignore strangers. That incident was probably the only time recently that I have read a comment by someone I do not know. But I sure did want to respond to that person, and a lot more than that too. LOL!

Well, in other news, I finally got a copy of Never Tear Us Apart: The Untold Story of INXS. I got it from one of my good friends on Facebook. I always wanted to see it, and now I have. I gotta tell you, I almost never cry at movies anymore, but I seriously started crying at the end of that movie. And Donna was in the kitchen at the time, and I was trying to keep it quiet, I didn't want to attract her attention and see me crying so hard! LOL! I was glad I had the movie on fairly loud. Well, I wanted to put it onto a DVD, but every time I've tried to burn DVDs on this computer, they don't play on my DVD player, so I went out last night to Staples to buy a DVD burning program. I got one that I am familiar with, and usually never have trouble with. But the first time I tried to burn a DVD, it didn't work. It got to 97% and then froze. So, I had to try again. The next time, it recorded the menu, but nothing else. So I had to trash that disk. I tried again, and this time the third time was the charm. I got it onto a DVD. So then my next task was to find out if my DVD player would play it.

Let me say, what I got is an old DVD player/recorder. It was manufactured in 2005, and has been refurbished. And now, I am running Windows 8.1 on my computer. So every time I have tried to burn a disk from a freebie program, it wouldn't play on my DVD player. I always thought it was that way because the player is so old and my computer is so new, that they were just incompatible. Well, last night, it was kinda late when it finally finished, but I put the disk in my player and it played very well!! Thank GOD!! I thought for a while there I would have to go to my ma's and burn the disk on her computer. I really did not want to do that! LOL! But it works beautifully, and now I have the movie! I love it too. I highly recommend it to other INXS fans! Though there are some fans that are going to find everything wrong with something, just because it tells the truth about Michael. And let me tell you, Michael is not an innocent angel! He actually went crazy at one time in his life, near the end. And Luke Arnold as Michael UGH!!! Man is he gorgeous!! If I were 20 years younger, I would have fallen in love with this man!! He actually has a better looking body than Michael had! LOL! Don't get me wrong, I still love Michael Hutchence. He was a great man! And kissed very well I might add! LOL!