Two Worlds Collided -- Yatesfags United

I got a very interesting PM from one of my friends, saying that Maria How has taken the pics I posted of Michael and Paula with Paula's face blacked out and crossposted them on the MH & His Life fan page, sure enough just like I predicted, all the Yatesfags came out of the woodwork. Ya know, I offered to do that for her yesterday and she wouldn't let me. Now, all of a sudden, it's allowed. Apparently, they are shit-talking me on there because of those pics. I told this friend "That's fine." LOL!! I said it with a smile on my face too. Then this friend told me that the Yatesfags crossposted those to the Two Worlds Collided group, then I burst out laughing!!! LOL!! I love it!! Now, I wouldn't be surprised if they started flooding my inbox with all kinds of hate messages and other BS. Well, it's not like it's never happened before. I can even have some fun with it.

I said to this friend, I should post more pics with Paula blacked out. This poor friend was worried about me, but I told her I'm not worried at all. Maria is only making herself look bad, not me. Well, I can't say I wasn't warned about Maria before becoming her friend. But you all know me, I have to give everyone a chance. I was warned by my friend Jim and by Roberta, both warned me that Maria is not a good person. I didn't believe Roberta because she was like the only reason she seemed to not like Maria was because her group was not "an official INXS group" and she was not "an official INXS moderator". Well, really neither is Roberta! Jim at least even admits he does not work in close proximity with the band. He has no connections with them. I told Roberta I like Maria, and I am still her friend. Back then I was still friends with Roberta too. I love my loyalty. But I remember what it was like when I was a kid and some person would tell so-n-so not to like me just because they had a problem with me. So, I tend to not listen when someone tells me someone else is a bad person. I'd rather get to know them myself, then make a judgment.

Well, I blacked out all of Paula's images because I don't need her! I save those pics to look at Michael. Not Paula. I don't want to look at Paula!! And they are pics on MY hard drive and I will keep what ever parts I want to keep, and black out what ever parts I want to black out. And that is MY group, and I will post what ever pics I want to post. I obeyed Maria's rules religiously on her group (once I found out what her game was), she should show me the same respect on my group. Well, I don't know if the Yatesfags know about this blog, I'm not sure Maria has told them about it. I hope she has! Maybe I'll give her a reason to show them this blog. Here's some more pics where I blacked out Paula's face...

The headless slut.

OH! That's another thing! Maria said I called Paula a whore on her group (although she still has not pointed out when). So that caption should really pique her interest! LOL!

Michael sits by a yellow balloon and his baby.

If you're gonna do something, ya might as well do it right! LOL! Come get me Yatesfags!

Ya know what is so ironic to all this? Maria said I was being "childish". LOL!! I love that statement coming from her!! LOL!!

Michael with Lily.

I do hope Maria told Jannah what I said about her, that she needs professional help. I do hope she gets it someday.

Oh boy! You think that's enough? What'll the Yatesfags say? Oh who cares what they say!? I sure don't!! They can call me every name in the book, it won't matter. I never give a shit what a bunch of radical tards say! I don't like radicals anyways. LOL! Let them come and slam me!

Oh wow! This just in! LOL! One of my friends has messaged me about the conversation taking place in the MH & His Life fan page. This is where Maria How goes catshit crazy! LOL!! Just like Maria to bring up people who have nothing to do with her group after kicking them out. I really expected this, and it's better than I thought it would be. Notice I left in all of the grammar errors, lack of caps and improper punctuation that Maria is famous for...

Maria How: This is what dee timmyfan is posting in her group and there are more the same disrespectful to paula michael and tiger im livid what sort of woman does that eh 

Like I said, it's MY group. I'll post what I want on it. And so will my visitors!

Maria How's photo. Seen by 31 (5 people like this)

Comments: Anne Every 

(I think she was tagged here)

Maria How: i think its terrible anne 

Really?! How does it feel to look like a hypocritical ass Maria?

Maria Bierens: Ridiculous! Is she crazy to fuck up a photo like that????

Crazy and proud of it, ya fool!! I'm an artist, I'm supposed to be crazy.

Maria How: No need for it if you dont like her fair enogh but to take it to this extreme 

Hey! You brought it on motherfucker! What did you think would happen to post a pic like those to a group full of Yates-tards?

Maria Bierens: There's no excuse for this! 

Who needs an excuse to have fun?

Anne Every: I know! It's disrespectful to cut people out of photos. She is/was Tigers mother. 

I don't care! She also abandoned Lily. Does that sound like a responsible "mother" to you? ANYONE could have had Lily. Paula was NOT special for that.

Maria How: No very childish there are more the same  

Oh! The irony of this statement!! LOL!! So saving the pics I want and cutting out the parts I don't want is childish, but bringing up threads like this on a group I am not on just to invoke responses against me is not childish. OK got ya! LOL!!

Tammi Melinda Wheeler: Jealous fan 

LOL!! I don't even know this idiot, but I love how she thinks I am a "jealous fan"!! LOL!!

Maria Bierens: It's a bit aggressive even. 

Judging by her first comment on this post, I'd say this comment was ironic too! LOL!

Maria How: im sure michael would love dee for doing this  

I'm sure he would! Especially after he found out Paula was going behind his back and tipping the press off to their whereabouts.

Maria How: Unhinged

Nice to know you know a few words with more than one syllable.

Maria Bierens: If I were to write a thriller, I would make her the psychopath who would destroy photos in her spare time. This really is a bit bizarre. 

HAHAHAHA!!! Tell me, if you were to write said thriller, what kind of psychopath would you have Maria How play? LOL! As a writer, I can tell you what I would do; I'd have Maria be the kind of person to kidnap people, lock them in a room, only to come in once in a while to probe at them with sticks and knives to make them angry, then leave, locking that person in the room again.

Maria Bierens: But then again, I never heard of her and I don't want to offend anyone who might be a friend. 

Hey! It's OK. Like I said, I don't give a shit what you Yatesfags think. I'm just having fun here responding to your posts because you're such a dumbass.

Frances Walsh: Why cut out Paula face & just Michael face on it that's. Not nice to that to anyone who's dead or alive guys that sick Frances x 

That's who I am. I keep only what I want and chuck out the rest! And if I decide I only want to see Michael in these pics and not Paula, it is MY choice!

Silvia León: (frown emoticon) really sad ... If you don't like any person, just do NOTHING ... just let anyone be who they can / could. 

Sadly, Maria How's obsessive-compulsive mind won't allow her to do that. I think she needs help just as much as Jannah does.

Which reminds me, I wonder why the little wench hasn't chimed in on this thread yet!

Paula Abraham: I am not a Paula fan at all or Bob fan for that matter but I have seen a lot of negative things and photos on Bob. It's shouldn't be just no negative posts on Paula. After all Bob raised Tiger like it or not and he is her father. Why is there a double standard? I simply scroll past something I don't like. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions but it shouldn't be limited to just negative stuff about Paula 

This poster is one of my friends, I love her to death! And she's got some cute dogs!! And this is the only post in this thread that makes any sense. But again, it's Maria's obsession with Paula. I think Maria may have even had a fling with Paula Yates at one time!

Nyree Pickering: That's so mean 

And this thread isn't? LOL!!

Rubia Suicida: Very strange & how would Michael feel, this being done to the woman he loved & mother of his child. 

Oh shut the fuck up!! You are the whiniest damn thing I ever met in my life!!!

Sabrina Therese: Wow she has jealousy issues. Badly. 

GOD I hate people named Sabrina!! LOL! Young woman, don't make me laugh! If there is one person on this planet I am NOT jealous of, it's Paula Yates!! She's loony (I mean loonier than I am), she's too skinny and has a face like a lion's ass! Think about it, this is the thing Sabrina thinks I am "jealous" of:

"Duhh, what's going on? Did I overdose on heroin again?"

Maria Kay: Yeah dee timmyhutch doesnt like Paula at all... shes not shy to say it 

Nope, I never have been, and I'm still not!

Sabrina Therese: Maria to be so hateful towards a dead person is pretty petty. Jealousy. 

HAHAHAHA!!! Look above fukwit!

Teena Riffe: If people would take out the time to know Paula she is a great woman funny as can be...she had a great job I would love to have my own music show.... 

Actually, I have heard conflicting stories. Most people who actually did meet her said she was not very nice at all.

Kelly J Pettigrew: People blame Paula for Michaels death. You cannot blame his death on anyone. Michael adored Paula, but some of the female species are so obsessed with Michael in such a psychotic way they are actually jealous. Let it rest. I would hate to be the soul trapped in a body that had so much hate and jealously for Paula. 

It doesn't hurt, believe me. And once again, check out my response to Sabrina.

Polly Varnado: Very childish & disrespectful. It's a Shame to say an adult actually did that. 

LOL!! Wanna see childish? Look at Maria How's picture. There's the face of immaturity.

Good Judging Character!

Oh my GOD!! I am so good!! I knew this all along. I knew this would happen!! This morning I got in a fling on my group with some of the people from another group. I referred to the Yatesfags on her group as drama queens. Well!! They ARE!!! That's what I call those Paula Yates fans who jump on people who don't like Paula Yates. One of them kept asking me who these drama queens are. I used Jannah as an example, because I remember her the most as being the one with the biggest mouth. Honestly, I don't remember half the people I have these flings with, so I couldn't remember the names of the rest of the Yatesfags.

Well, I remember when I first heard about the group called Two Worlds Collided, and found out Jannah is one of the moderators, I was like "oh dear", and I wrote about it in this blog. I gave a detailed arrayal of what I think that group is going to be like with her as the mod. Well, it looks like I was right! I got quite a few friends there and most of them describe that group as being the same way! LOL!!! One of them describe it as being one big bitchfest after another. I should have warned all my friends to stay away from that group! One of the biggest drama queens on Facebook runs that group! I was saying I am so glad I'm not a Paula Yates fan! But I also added that even if I was, I would NOT join Two Worlds Collided!!

I've always been a good judge of character. Always!! I knew the outcome of that group run by Jannah even before my friends told me. Because I know the kind of person Jannah is. I've dealt with people like her before. She reminds me a lot of DonnaG's little "army". And I used to hear about them all the time! I knew for sure Donna was telling people not to have anything to do with anyone who disagreed with her, especially after I joined this one forum in 2006 that was devoted to JD and INXS that was called "Hardstar: INXS". One of the mods there, who called herself Metallison, was a Timmy fan, and we were getting along fine. That is until I posted some pics of me and Donna in LA, and she told me what a wonderful person Donna was, and how she'd met her in Atlantic City. I told her Donna and I are not friends anymore. After that, this woman never spoke to me again. She went silent, and I attributed it to Donna, or one of her cronies, telling this woman not to have anything to do with me anymore because I don't like DonnaG.

I suspected that was what happened behind the scenes then. And then when I later heard some other friends describing much the same kind of incidents happening to them after a fling with DonnaG, I was positive that was what was going on. The stories they described to me were exactly like my story, and there was no way they could know about my story at the time they told me about it because I hadn't told anyone yet. I wasn't 100% sure then.

Well, now Maria is accusing me of calling Paula a whore, and I asked her when I ever called Paula that on her group? It's been months if I ever have. So far, she hasn't given me a straight answer. She also said that I bitch at people on the group who do like Paula, and I asked her to tell me when I ever did that? She still has not answered me. I'll tell you why she hasn't answered me, because she can't find anything. I call Paula a whore on here, not in her group. But this is MY blog, and I'll put what I want on it! She can't stop me from doing that. And I have NEVER EVER gotten angry at anyone who likes Paula. EVER!!! I've never even gotten mad at anyone on there who may not like Timmy. That's just not how I operate. That's what kids do, not someone in her 40s. Maria was so adamant that I answer her question, now I want her to answer mine.

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Well, Maria and Rubia flew the coup and unfriended me. Oh well! No big deal! LOL! I think I was also kicked out of the MH & His Life fan page. Well, I'm not disappointed about that either. But it does prove that Maria can NOT handle people with opposing opinions. My first thought when I saw they had gone was to Maria, "Hey, you deadbeat!! Aren't you going to answer my questions??" LOL!! Like my ma said, people like that have no business being in my life. The MH & His Life fan page was fun in the beginning, when I first started going in there, but then all these damn Yatesfags started coming in and taking over, and they all get angry at the slightest little thing. So to both Maria and Rubia, I say if that's the way they feel, then good riddance!! Sorry, but your group just wasn't any fun anymore.

The Person Inside

Ya know, I know I curse show breeders a lot. At the same time I realize how important they are to their breeds and preservation of the breeds. I also cannot forget the lessons I learned as I was dealing with show breeders. My experiences with them made me look at the world in a different manner. Most of them, not good! Show breeders taught me all about the dark side of humanity. Before I used to get into pet forums, I must have had on a pair of rose-colored glasses. I thought there was always good in most people. I thought pet people were the best people. I thought conversing with adults would be totally different than conversing with teenagers like the ones I knew in school. Well, there was this group of show breeders who pointed out how I used to get so outrageously angry at little things. I actually agreed with that statement, and it did help me change. These days, it takes a LOT to make me angry. I'm no longer that person that used to flip out at the slightest things. Some show breeders pointed that out, and I was able to look at that and change my attitude. It took a while, but I think I managed quite well.

Well, that was one good thing they did. You all now know I started my group to admire Timmy and Michael. Well, already I have begun to run into some problems. I thought this would happen. I invited a lot of my friends (though I haven't gotten around to inviting every one yet), most have stayed on the group, but some have quit. Well, I don't want to force people to stay. I'm not out to do that. Though it would be nice to have all my friends there, if they don't want to stay, then they don't want to stay. I'm not going to twist their arms. That is not why I created that group. But I think I might know why some of them did leave. In the group, I showcase a lot of pics of Michael and Timmy, for everyone to drool over. I do also post some pics of other band members for those who like all the guys. I do discuss their songs and lyrics a little bit, but not much admittedly. But the group is there for us to share pics, stories and lust over the guys. I remember one of my friends brought this up in another group, and that was his biggest complaint, in other groups there was little discussion about INXS's music, and more lusting over the band members. And he didn't want to hear it.

Well, that's the kind of person I am. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE INXS's music!!! Their music has always been a source of inspiration to me. But I mean, let's face it. One of INXS's biggest selling ploys was how handsome these men are!! Another of my friends mentioned someone on Instagram saying Michael was not all that handsome. I said she's got to be blind, or a lesbian or insane! No girl otherwise can look at Michael and say he's not that handsome! Well, back in 1983 and 84, he wasn't much to look at. Looked like a teenage boy then. But by around the Kick era, Michael had blossomed into quite a handsome young man!! I fell in love with him on first sight, and that's something I don't do loosely. Well, that's one of those things I also learned when I was dealing with show breeders all those years. Look at the person first, THEN look at the persona. That also applies to INXS. Unfortunately, it was looking at the persona instead of the person first that was not good when dealing with show breeders. Because most of the time, they were sucky people. Not all of them, but most of them were. I have met some show breeders (admittedly not many) who treated people like equals, were willing to help, didn't look down on those who haven't been breeding/showing as long as they have, and knew how to mind their own business.

Now, show breeders like those in the dirty dozen mob, who gripe when their privacy has been invaded but turn around and spill all kinds of private info about other people, I don't trust them as far as I can throw them! Most of them don't use their real names, and won't tell you if you ask them. Most good, decent breeders will gladly share their real names with potential customers. Or, I always called them "clients". But one thing I learned when dealing with show breeders back in those years, is don't look at a person's persona first!! Look at the person. Show breeders may hate to admit it, but they are people too. Shoot! Even I hate admitting that!! LOL! Some wannabe show breeders will look at them as show breeding deities, and will suck their dicks or lick their clit. I don't do that. I'd rather stand aside first and watch them to see if they are truly good people. THEN I will look at them as accomplished show breeders. And I'll tell you, that used to drive the other show breeders absolutely CRAZY!!!!!!! LOL!

For example, this one show breeder who started it all with me, who called herself Bischi, or Bischis. Back then, I wanted to do right by breeding chihuahuas, and was perfectly willing to listen to those more experienced. Apparently Bischi had many show-stopping chihuahuas. But there was one problem with her, she sucked as a person! She was hateful, spiteful, a liar, cruel, a hypocrite, everything bad that a show breeder is as a person! Yet because she was such a top-name show breeder, everyone else thought I needed to kiss her ass and lick her clit in the midst of her acting like an asshole and totally ignore her bad points. Well, that's not how I operate. I often hear that you can tell how good a person is by how they treat animals. Well, that is true, to an extent! But it doesn't stop there. There's a lot to be said about how you treat people who have done you no harm, and never intended to do you any harm. I never did anything to harm Bischi, in fact, I was willing to even make friends with her at one time. But she ruined it with her lies and deceiving, and hypocritical ways. Now, I realize people are naturally hypocrites, but show breeders claim to hate hypocrites (I never met one that didn't say that) but then they turn around and abuse the privilege themselves!! Especially those like Bischi! She thought nothing about slamming my personal info all around, but when I asked what her name was, she hesitated to tell me. Her real name is Barbara. I think I may even know what her last name is, even though she wouldn't tell me that at all. It's OK. I am almost 99% positive I am right.

Well, anyways that is why I am the way I am. I see Michael Hutchence and Tim Farriss as people first, with feelings, ambitions, personalities of their own, and a soul. Well, Michael has none of that now, as he's moved on to the next world. But Timmy is still here, and Michael did have all that when he was here. The fact that INXS makes awesome music is just like the icing on the cake. But I think I would have loved Michael and Timmy even if they were not such talented musicians. While I do love their musical side, they were people before they were musicians too. So that is how I see them.

Singing "I Told You So"

HA!! This is a pip! Bob Geldof was going to try and put on some concerts, but it looks like now that's going to flop because he had to cancel 3 gigs already because he wasn't selling any tickets. Karma at it's finest!! Bob Geldof has been having some pretty bad luck lately. His ex-wife dies on him, then his daughter, and now, the big goon can't even sell tickets to a concert to save his life! I've mentioned it on here before, you can't piss off a man like Michael and get away with it!! Now Geldof has the curse of Michael on his back! And it's only going to get worse unless he makes good with Michael's family and the remaining members of INXS. All they ask is that they get to see Lily. Not difficult is it? So allow Michael's sis and the remaining band members to see her, and maybe things will start working out for Geldof again. What goes around, comes around! And Geldof has treated Michael's family terribly! After killing Michael too!! So, hahaha!! I said this would happen and it did! Shame-Shame-Shame on you Bob Geldof!! You'd better shape up or be prepared to ship out!!

I still can't stand Bob Geldof!! I don't even like capitalizing his name! LOL! That's how much I can't stand him! He killed my Michael! That is an unforgivable sin to me. I could have had Michael, and he could have been happier. Maybe. Well! You never know!! At least he wouldn't have inherited Paula's problems if he'd gotten together with me. But I know it could never really happen. Like I said before, rock stars NEVER marry fans!! EVER! It just doesn't happen.

Well, I may be getting a pet soon. I won't say what kind or where I am getting it from, as I am not quite sure yet. But I am tired of living all alone with no companionship of some kind! So my Facebook friends recommended I save up to get my own pet. So, I am trying to do that, long and hard!! I'll just get the bare essentials for the next few months. By the time I am done with those few months, I should have quite enough to get the pet I want. Having the dogs back here just made me realize how lonely I was. So I decided it's time for me to save up for another pet. I don't care what it takes! I don't care if I have to do completely without for the next few months! I just want a pet to love, play with and cuddle. So, it's time for me to save earnestly.

I have a name all lined up and I have an idea of the video I want to make when the pet does arrive. I promised my friends I would make a video of the pet I get. Me, dancing with it to INXS music! hehehe! That would be cute!! My sis is going to help me. But that's all I can say for right now.

My New Group

Well, I got a new INXS group now. A group devoted almost entirely to Michael and Timmy, my 2 favorite men of INXS. Though I don't care if the other guys are discussed on the group. It is INXS afterall. I invited all my wonderful, beautiful friends to the group! But I wanted to put it here too that this group is open. The link is https://www.facebook.com/groups/771537872956639/. I do hope to see many more INXS fans there.

Well, one of the rules is not to post too much of pics of other guys from the group besides Michael and Timmy. But I will give a little bit of leeway with that rule. I don't want to be too strict. They are a band and there are more guys than just Michael and Timmy. I just want most of the focus to be on Michael and Timmy. But I won't kick anyone out for posting pics of the other guys too. I love all the men of INXS, let's be fair. I also wrote not too much cussing. LOL! Like I never do it myself! LOL! I do it all the time. It was my co-moderator's idea to throw that one in. But I will overlook that rule myself. As long as it doesn't turn into a name-calling war. Like I don't want to see the word "cunt". I never use that word myself. I also don't want racial slurs, that I am a little more strict on. But I have no worries about that really. None of my friends do that kind of thing! No INXS fans I know of in fact do that kind of thing. Not even some of the really bad ones.

Though I remember back when I used to get into the chatroom back in 1998. One person who got in there, and called himself "Streetcar" used racial slurs on me once. He thought I was African-American. Only because one time I quoted one of my favorite shows (the Martin Lawrence Show) and called him a "sukkah". LOL! I was being my usual silly self. So next thing I know he's calling me the "N" word over and over again. I told him that I am not really African-American, and he still continued to call me the "N" word. I was young and dumb back then, just learning about internet etiquette. I wasn't even aware of what a troll is. Well, Streetcar told everyone that I was "a black person who wishes she was white". I told him I am not white either. I told him I am Hispanic. Its not white nor black. Its in the middle. That shut him up. LOL! I'm not sure what someone like him would call a Hispanic person. I don't know the slurs for them. I don't want to know either, I don't need to know. The only reason I know the N-word is because first of all, I hear African-American people calling each other that all the time. Also I used to hear it a lot from my grandma. Grandma was from the early 20th century in the south. They ALWAYS called African-Americans by the N-word.

Well, the first 2 rules I'd let slide now and then. No problem. The only rule I am very strict on is the rule not to crosspost pics or videos or posts from people to other groups. With that rule, I am mostly referring to personal posts. YouTube videos and other public pics and videos are fair game. I don't care if the members share those. But anyone caught crossposting personal pics and videos shared on the group, I will immediately ban them from the group. Like this video I did last night. I took one of the podcasts I had recorded from when Timmy hosted the radio talk show "25 Years In 25 Days" back in 2009 and made a video out of it. I didn't post it to YouTube, just to this group. So it's a personal video. That cannot be shared unless that person has my permission to. I worked on it myself, I worked hard on it too. So I would prefer to have someone ask me before sharing the video. That one cannot be found anywhere else, not even on the radio station's website. I kinda want to keep that video exclusive to my group. I'm really proud of it. Timmy talks about the year 1997 in that podcast, and mentions Michael at the end. He even dedicates 2 songs to him.

Other than that, I'm all for free speech, and encourage all INXS fans to join up and have fun!

My sis was here with the dogs a week ago, and now I miss them. Especially the dogs! One of the reasons I wanted to have her come over was of course so I could see my babies again. But also, I wanted to show her my favorite movie "Never Tear Us Apart". At first, she didn't want to see it. My mom, GOD bless her soul, told my sis that it is a dumb movie and that I watch it too often. So my sis had a fixed idea in her head that the movie was going to be stupid and not worth watching. Well, let me tell you all something about my mom. I love her to death! But she is not the best judge of movies on this planet. I told my sis to remember the quality of movies ma likes, and then tell me she's right. My mom (again, GOD bless her) watches a barrage of the STUPIDEST movies I've ever seen in all my life!!! They're not movies one can really get into. But then that's me. She likes corny fictional tales, I love true stories. Also, I think my sis expected it to be all concerts and interviews put together to make one movie. I know she's seen enough movies about rock groups that have been like that. While there are some concert clips, I don't deny that, and some interviews depicted, they are done in a theatrical way. It's not like these reality shows or YouTube videos.

Well, in the end, my sis said the movie was interesting. I wanted her to understand INXS and why I love them. I even gave her a bit of my own commentary throughout the film. I think she enjoyed it. She enjoyed it far more than she thought she would. But that's a good thing! I always believe in giving something a chance to prove it's self. I remember I used to diss the Lion King. Well, I still don't care for that movie. But at least I watched it from beginning to end and then I made the decision I didn't like it. My sis said she didn't even want to show that movie to me, but I asked to see it. I wanted to say I officially saw it and didn't like it.

Shirley Phelps-Roper Refusing Interviews - Westboro Baptist Church

"Arrogant of him to ask to do an interview with Shirley"?? HAHAHA!! That's a laugh!! I know this is old, but I saw this on my feed on YouTube and I just think it's hysterically funny these people, of ALL people in the world, would say it's arrogant for anyone to ASK to do an interview with anyone!! LOL!! They don't seem to know what arrogance is. So, let me spell it out for them...



Arrogance is going all over the country holding those obnoxious signs and tell complete strangers their deceased family member is in Hell.



Arrogance is having the colossal gall to stand with those stupid signs at a funeral for someone who has no personal or emotional connections with you, and tell their friends and family that that person's parents raised them for the devil.



Arrogance is calling people names and belittling them because they don't agree with how you run things. Something all members of the WBC have done on a regular basis.



Arrogance is expecting strangers to have higher standards than you do and then calling them fags when they don't.



Arrogance is going to towns you don't belong in just to spite the people of that town.



Arrogance is telling grown people "you don't get to do this" or "You don't get to do that!" HA!! I'll tell you right now, I "get to do" any damn thing I want to!! Fuck yourself if you don't agree with it!! And I'll say that to these dumbasses faces!! They "don't get to" control me in any way, shape or form! I control myself!!



You can tell just by the way those people word their sentences that they were abused and hated by both their parents all their lives.

Time-Traveler

I was watching some more videos on YouTube yesterday, and one of the videos that stood out was about time-travelers actually existing! There is a popular video that is shown from a 1920s Charlie Chaplin film where a woman appears on the street, talking in what is believed to be a cell phone. This is unusual, because there was nothing even close to being cell phones in the 1920s. Yet this woman has what appears to be a cell phone and she is seen talking into her hand and even laughing.

Now how does one explain this pic? Someone said that she is possibly holding an ear-horn, an early device, before there were hearing-aids, that amplified sounds so the hearing-impaired could hear. But those ear-horns were much bigger than what that woman is holding in her hand. Ear-horns look like this:

That does not appear in the picture. And when you watch the video, you see the woman talking into the device she has in her hand and even laughing. So, it could only be a cell phone. Unless the woman is a schizophrenic. Or she's holding up a favorite stuffed animal and she's talking to it. Like some people talk to their teddy bears. I've even seen adults do that!

Anyways, I always thought it would be awesome to be able to go back in time to see some of the sights that were seen before the age of the internet. I was thinking about it last night. I'd love to be able to go back to Sydney on November 22, 1997, and be at the same hotel Michael stayed at, and possibly I could talk him out of doing what he did that morning. Someone needed to be there for him. It would have been great if I could have been there, deflecting his mind from his troubles. Maybe he'd still be alive today and Lily would still have a father. But then again, there is another side of time-travel most people don't think of.

I remember back in 2000 or 2001, one of those early years, mama told me about a show she saw on the Sci-Fi network about a group of teenagers who traveled back to the days of the dinosaurs. Before they went, they were told not to touch anything because it could offset the balance of history. So the kids went back in time and walking along, noticing the dinosaurs and other animals around at that time. All of a sudden, one of them was attacked by a mosquito. So the kid smacked the mosquito and killed it. The others told him he shouldn't have done that because they were told not to touch anything. But the one kid thought "It's just a mosquito! How is the swatting of one mosquito going to change the course of history in the 21st century?" One never knows! Everything happens for a reason.

Well, when those kids made it back to the 21st century, everything was different than they remembered when they left. There were big wars going on, famine, holocaust, dictators, all kinds of horrible things happening, all because the one kid swatted a mosquito that he shouldn't have when he visited the days of the dinosaurs. So the kids had to go back, and not swat the mosquito that attacked them, and then they came back to the 21st century and everything was just how it was when they left the first time. Its so easy to say I would have loved to have been Michael's savior that fateful night. I'd love to have him back on stage singing with the rest of the band again. But perhaps that wouldn't be what is best for the band it's self. I thought about this last night as I was thinking about that video about time travelers.

I'm not saying I am at all happy that Michael is gone, but it did do INXS some good. Elegantly Wasted did not do so well as an album when it was released just before Michael died. And Christina said the band never treated Michael very kindly either. That to them, it was like he didn't matter. Well, one never knows what they have until they've lost it. Michael's death made everyone realize what a truly fascinating person he really was. INXS became more appreciated after Michael died, because the fans all realized what they lost. And now, INXS are back in the top 40 charts all over the world with their release of The Best of INXS album, and the miniseries on TV. If Michael hadn't died, there would be no miniseries. INXS might still be making albums that went by unappreciated, and more fans wouldn't be saying "Oh how I wish I had gone to more shows when Michael was alive!" They would have just gone! They could have enjoyed the wonderful performer that Michael was.

Internet Lynch-Mobs

Oh GOD!! Now, I just watched a video where someone said that this thing with the dentist who killed a lion has been receiving death-threats, had his name, address, phone number, social security number, the names of his children, credit card info, and all kinds of other personal info of his posted all over the internet. The panther-fags are all now being told to go to this dentist's home, send him more death threats, call his home and hang up, crash his windows, etc. Oh GOD!! You wonder why I hate panthers and panther-fanatics? Geez! None of this happened when an elephant was killed and it's calf mourned over her lifeless body! This is all because this was a damn lion! And I don't know anyways why people go to these kinds of lengths just to get a point across! Man! If you don't like someone, it's simple. Just LEAVE THEM ALONE!!!!!!!!

This reminds me of the dirty dozen mob. I remember mcgillicutty posted my info on Myspace, next thing I know some idiot is calling me, breathing heavily and hanging up on me. Probably one of their bunch. It's not just the dirty dozen mob either. Its all animal lovers, especially show breeders. I remember growing up, I used to think animal lovers were the best people. But as I started going into more and more internet forums where the focus is on pets and animals, I found that theory to be nothing but bullshit! Animal lovers have been some of the WORST people I've ever met in my life!! I mean really! I love animals too. I also hate people. But I would NEVER post someone else's personal info, call their house only to hang up on them, and generally just be a nuisance! That's not my style! I think it's very wrong to attack someone just because you don't agree with them by using their own personal info. If I don't like someone, I just leave them alone. Unless I find out they are still harassing me, even after years of having nothing to do with them.

That's the only time I've been known to attack. I still do it in a diplomatic way though. Like that one time I had those problems with Catsredrum and Netrage and their forum. They started talking about me, I recognized a story Catsredrum told about me picking up one of Timmy's guitar picks he threw at me at a concert, and kissing it. hehehe!! Yeah, I admit that was silly, but that's who I am. I like being a bit silly sometimes. A girl's gotta have some fun now and then. LOL! Besides, I wanted to show Timmy I appreciated his gift. And besides all else, it brought me good luck. Well, I went into their little forum and set the record straight. Well, I was attacked by them and their stupid-ass friends hiding behind anonymous names. After toying with them for a few days, I left and didn't look back. I even stopped talking about them, knowing instinctively that would only give them the attention they were ever-so-desperately craving. So, I left them to wallow in their imaginary cesspool of their own self-worth and went about my own business.

For several months, I didn't talk about them. Not even a mention on my Myspace blog about them. Nor my MSN blog. Then I mentioned I was going to go to a concert in Portland's Schnitzer Hall. My sisters had pitched in together and got me a ticket with a meet and greet with the guys as a birthday gift to me. I was so excited! I did talk about that for some time on my Myspace blog. Never once mentioning anything about Catsredrum or any of those others. I had even tried for several months to forget those people even existed, and had succeeded! Until one of my friends, who was in their forum, sent me a PM. She told me that Catsredrum and Netrage crossposted my blog from inxs.com to their forum about my impending trip to Portland to see my favorite men. She said for me to be careful, because they'd been talking about it a lot on their forum. My first thought when she mentioned this was "Do I need to get a police escort?" I thought they were perhaps going to try jumping me from behind a building.

Well, I had been banned from Catsredrum's forum and really didn't care to go back myself. So, I got some friends to go in there and see what these patrons were planning to do to me. I found out that they had been in their private forum, talking about me for several months. Even when I had completely gotten them out of my mind. I mean, you could not scroll past a single post on that forum that did not mention me at least once. Even posts that really had nothing to do with me. I also found out then about Mayday06. She was the dim-witted whore that Catsredrum got to follow me all over the internet. I even went so far to set a trap for her! LOL! And she fell right into it! Later, I would get these same friends to help me turn things around on this INXS-fan lynch mob! One of the things that was mentioned in their forum, that made me madder than anything else, was someone accusing me of letting my Groucho die just so I could attend the concert in Portland! She didn't say that in those exact words, but I knew what she was implying! It was clear as day! That was when I said "This has to stop!" and I sent my "spies" to their forum to bring me back some things I could jeer at them about, and I did! I don't think Catsredrum or any of her friends was expecting that! LOL! My problem is I'm too kind for my own good! It gives people like them an invitation to bully and harass me.

But that was not my first encounter with an internet lynch-mob. I remember when I was in the Pluba forum, mcgillicutty revealed my blog to the members of that forum, as well as the people in the old email group I was on The Rabbit Press. I don't know to this day why they called their group that! LOL! But I had written a lot about them on that blog, as I still do sometimes. Well, John Cipollina (remember him? LOL!) came onto my blog to gripe (like he ever does anything else). One of the things he putted out was "it was not the lynch-mob mentality that you portray". I said to him "Yes it was! Maybe it didn't feel that way to YOU because you were not the one who was attacked for no reason!" But it was indeed a lynch-mob. Any time there are show breeders, there's going to be a lynch-mob mentality. That's what they do! Not only was I attacked, but so were some people who were trying to be nice to me even after John Cipollina attacked me. I said I was very proud of the dogs we have, and I was! But in their eyes, it seemed I was wrong to be proud of my dogs because they did not have titles to their names. Nevermind that they were good enough to be shown! I mean, they were not Taco Bell dog lookalikes! I did not get them from pet stores or shelters, but from other well-known show breeders. Yet, I was wrong to them for feeling proud of my babies because they did not have titles and had not been shown to their championship. That's how I was always made to feel when I was around show breeders, and that is why I hate them so much now. Besides the fact they seem to get their jollies out of picking on other people.

Recently, I went back into the Craigslist pet forum and looked, and I noticed the show breeders are still picking on the newbies. Nothing has changed at all! I made a post, for the first time in a few years. I said "Well, well, well, I see nothing has changed. You guys are still tearing each other apart like show breeders typically do! I guess this is what it's still like in life among the savages!" LOL!! They didn't like that! I got lots of negative points on that post, but I don't care. I might go back and have some more fun. Not far from that post, I noticed some stupid show breeder bragging about winning a point on their dog, and I almost posted "Big deal?! All it proves is that you need your dog to make you feel like somebody!" LOL!! Oh man! And I bet she would have charged at me with a shitload of hate messages! LOL! I should have posted it anyways! Just to take those damn show breeders down a notch! They deserve it!! Hateful, ornery old beasts!! I hate show breeders so much!! Next on my shit list is rescue people! Those people who blame other people because dogs wind up in the pound, when it was most likely some show breeders' fault the animal was in the shelter in the first place! Well, it can definitely be traced back to a show breeder somewhere! I've mentioned that before, several times.

Cecil The Lion

OMG!! For the past 2 days I've been seeing and hearing nothing except about a damn dentist who went to Africa and killed a fucking lion, named Cecil!! Enough already! I am sick of it!!! It's old news now! And really, anyone who only cares because it is a stupid lion is pathetic! Apparently, this lion was what most people call "special". They say he was an "African icon". That's malarkey!! That's nothing but a load of leopard gas!! A lion is a lion! You seen one, you've seen them all! This lion was no more "special" than any other lion, or any other animal that has ever been killed by trophy hunters over the past years. Well, you all know how I hate lions! I hate ALL panthers. And lions are my most hated panthers of all. I can't stand the sight of them. To look at one literally makes me physically ill. I couldn't care less that one more lion is dead. What I don't agree with about this article is trophy hunting.

Most people seem to be more upset that it was a dumb lion that was killed. Who cares?! It's just a stupid lion! It doesn't have a soul, it is NOT the "king of beasts", and I don't buy that it never hurt anyone. It's just a big, fat, ugly, stupid, sodden-brained, dim-witted, good-for-nothing, psychotic-minded, addlepated, lazy-ass lion!! And I don't buy that it never hurt anyone. Imagine how many hyenas unnecessarily died in Cecil's jaws! I imagine lots of them. One less lion now to worry about. Not that I am a huge fan of hyenas. But lions do kill them for nothing but pleasure. Just like this dentist killed that lion for pleasure. I am totally against trophy hunting! I think it's a waste of life. But I would feel the same way if it were a wolf, or a fox, or a sitatunga that was killed just as a trophy. It's not fair. But let's face it, there have been trophy hunters before, advertising their hunts. No one has ever cried as loud as they do now for this stupid lion. The guy who killed Cecil probably didn't even know it was Cecil. Would you be able to tell just by looking at him? Think of it. Is this Cecil?

Or is this Cecil?

Or is this Cecil?

Or this?

Those are all different lions. Can you tell which one is Cecil? I can't just by looking at them. They all look alike to me. But surely one of them IS Cecil. I just bet you can't tell which one it is, unless you happen to recognize his picture, because it's been posted all over by now! One of my vegan friends posted a thing on Facebook, asking why people are getting so upset about the death of a lion, when people are responsible for the deaths of cattle, pigs and chickens? Well, I responded to her post saying "It's just another propaganda ploy being used now to glorify panthers." It isn't going to stop until they get everyone in the world to love panthers. Well, none of it will work on me. I used to like panthers a long time ago, and I outgrew it. I'm glad I did too! I am not ashamed to admit that it does not bother me that one more lion is gone from this world! However, I am sorry that it ended in a trophy hunt. I just never agreed with trophy hunting, I couldn't care less if it was a lion that was killed, or what ever animal. I just don't agree with trophy hunting. Killing an animal (like a cow, pig or chicken) for consumption is one thing. But killing an animal just to display on your wall is horrible! If you want to display an animal in your living room, BUY A POSTER!!!! No need to go off and kill a creature just to display as a trophy!

Shoot! I don't even agree with Paula trapping Michael so she could display him like a trophy, even though the end result with him was the same. But there will never be another Michael Hutchence! There will ALWAYS be other lions. One dies, another one will soon come along and take his place. No gaps are left whatsoever. There's no shortage of lions out there killing for fun. They all look the same, they're all ugly, disgusting and lazy beasts, someone out there will give them names, but it makes no difference. A lion is a fucking lion. Nothing changes. Get over it!!

Life In The Deep, Dark Web

Did you all know the internet has layers? There is the top layer, the visible layer. That is the internet most people typically use. Then there is the deep internet, which is only accessible through special browsers. Then there is the dark internet, which is only used by law enforcement and the military. I've been on YouTube, looking at some videos, and I've seen a couple of people who regularly browse the deep internet. It's a scary place!! I've also heard some horror stories about the deep internet, and I will tell you about those in a moment. If you want to access the dark web, well, you can't. Only the military and FBI are allowed there. I think I heard it's only accessible via passwords. Nothing interesting there anyways. And the deep web, it's very interesting, but usually not in good ways.

The deep web is only accessible through specialized web browsers. One such browser I heard is called Onion. For obvious reasons! Though I think someone once said in a video that you can also access it through Google Chrome. They don't have a search engine like Google, and no sites from the deep web can be found on Google either. Their websites are usually small and unimpressionable. Their web hosters only allow so much bandwidth, so the sites are not very flashy or dynamic. They get right to the point. I've never browsed the deep web, and I never want to! The browser, Onion, is not very protected. It leaves you open and vulnerable to hackers. And believe me when I say there are a lot of hackers that access the deep web! Its like an underground alley or something. Lots of people get in there and sell things like electronics, very cheap. Like, you could get a 30 GB iPad for less than $150. But don't buy it! Chances are, it's a stolen item. You can also buy black market items such as guns, grenades, ammo, all the way down to children, and hitmen. You can also rent a hacker. There is no access to Facebook, ebay or Amazon in the deep web, but they do have their own currency system known as BitCoin.

Well, there is a very good reason I steer absolutely clear of the deep web. I've heard some pretty messed-up stories from people who have visited the deep web. Some are downright scary! Going to the deep web is like taking a walk through a neighborhood that you know is a bad neighborhood, at night, alone. It can get really scary sometimes. Like I said, it's crawling with hackers! One truly messed up story I heard, someone was browsing the deep web one day, visiting a site that sells guns. While he was visiting the site, a chat box pops on the screen and says hi. So, he thought he would be social and say hello back. Worst mistake he ever made!! The other chatter said "Do you like the site?" and the visitor answers "It's OK." The other chatter and the visitor make small talk, and the visitor said he had to go. The other chatter got a little upset and said "Hmm, I see your name is Michael and you live in *************, Massachusetts." Well, immediately the visitor got chills up his spine, because the hacker was right. But he tried to make it out like he was wrong. The next thing the visitor knows, he sees a screen pop up, looks and sees himself and what he is doing right then. He suddenly realizes his webcam is on! So, he closes his laptop. It shakes him up pretty bad.

Another scary story I've heard involved a man who supposedly went to the deep web to meet up with what he thought was a woman. He would meet her in a chatroom. Well, it got to be a little much for the guy and so he cooled off the relationship. When he did that, the woman told him where he lived, which kindof gave the guy a jolt because he'd never told her where he lived, but she had his full address up there on the screen! She said "You're only about an hour from me, I'm gonna come and see you." He closed his laptop and went about his business. Suddenly, some time later, he gets a text. It was from that girl! She said "Hey! I'm in your neighborhood now!" About 1 minute later, he gets another text from her and she says "I'm pulling into your driveway." and she sends him a picture of the front of his house. She then sends him another text saying "I see you" and she sends him a picture she just took of him sleeping on his sofa, which is exactly what he was doing at that point. It creeped him out!!

But by far, the creepiest, most disturbing story I heard about the deep web was from a video I watched last night. This man in Australia posted a video of his on the deep web, and well, this guy talks about it himself. It's a 30-something minute long video, but he describes everything.

 

Can you imagine that? He talks about this guy mutilating a child, then making items like T shirts with pictures of this mutilated little girl to sell!! It's sad! My jaw dropped 6 feet when I saw that! But this is a really good reason I never visit the deep web!!

So, enjoy the internet! But beware of the deep internet! Don't go there!! Unless you enjoy being hacked and stalked!

Oh Lawdy Lawd!!!

I am so glad I am not a fan of Paula Yates!! UGH!! One of my friends announced that there are 2 groups dedicated to Paula. One group is run by a woman named Sheila, the other group is run by Maria and Jannah. OMG!! I am so glad I am not a Paula fan! SO glad!! And I must say now, I would suggest the Paula fans go to the group run by Sheila, and stay clear away from the group run by Jannah! I'm not saying Jannah is a bad person. I don't believe she'll come to your house, park in your driveway and wait for you to come out of your house to mug you. But Jannah definitely has some serious emotional issues! Can you imagine what she'd be like as a moderator in a group? You'd say one thing she doesn't agree with, and she'll get obsessively angry at you before booting you out of the group. I imagine it to be pretty much like this:

Dee: The sky is blue today.
Jannah: The sky is never blue. It's a sea-greenish color.
Dee: No, the sky is definitely blue.
Jannah: It is NOT!!! I'm right! You're WRONG!!!
Dee: When I look out and see the sky on a clear day, it's always blue.
Jannah: I don't care what you see when you look outside! I say the sky is sea-greenish and I don't appreciate you contradicting me!!!!!
Dee: OK, so you see the sky as being sea-greenish, I see it as blue. Let's leave it as that.
Jannah: Oh you are just about the rudest, most obnoxious person I ever met!! And if I were the Battlestar Gallactica, I would HATE you for contradicting my vision!!!!
(Dee goes to type a response only to find out she is unable to respond because Jannah has kicked her out of the group).

That is what I mean. You disagree with Jannah, and she will most likely boot you out! If you like a challenge, I say go for it, join that group. I'd never join a Paula Yates fan group anyways. But if I ever did, it wouldn't be one that is moderated by Jannah! Maria is OK, I like her. But there is a definitely good reason I never asked Jannah to become my friend on Facebook. Also why I am glad she has me on ignore on Facebook! I hope she never takes me off ignore. Of course if she did, I could just put her on ignore in turn. I don't care if she likes Paula. I am not shallow enough to not like someone just because they don't like the same things I do. (Don't listen to the dirty dozen mob!) What I don't like about Jannah is how she gets so outrageously angry over little things like someone disagreeing with her.

Take it from me, I've dealt with people like her before. I know what the outcome of that group is going to be like. A lot of people have even given up the MH & His Life fan page because of people like Jannah. She has blindly and viciously attacked everyone who does not like Paula, including Michael's own sister Christina. And Christina was there when Paula did all that shit to Michael behind his back! Jannah wasn't. I have a great deal of fortitude, I can handle a lot of lashings and hatred. But I'm the kind of person that can take people or leave them. I don't care. But if you're trying to make friends with Jannah, well, I just suggest don't even try! She hates people who disagree with her. She will turn on you at the drop of a hat if you say even one thing that she doesn't agree with. The sky is blue argument is just a sample (it didn't actually happen) of the kind of little things that sets her off. I think she needs therapy, and if I were her, I would get it before I even dream of moderating any group.

Condolences To Nick Cave

I don't know Nick Cave, but I do know he and Michael were friends. Michael was inspired in a lot of ways by Nick Cave. Well, Nick had twin boys, and one of them passed away yesterday. He was only 15. He died falling from a 60-foot cliff. Today the authorities in Australia are saying the kid committed suicide, that it wasn't an accident. That is so sad! I felt sad yesterday after hearing this news. I'm not even a fan of Nick Cave, at all. I've never heard his music, he's not overly handsome, I never heard him sing, but this is just terrible. The kid was only 15! That's the fact I cannot get over.

It saddens me when someone that young dies. Think of it! The kid never really had a chance to grow up. He never got to have a career, he never finished school, never got married or had children of his own, he never even got old enough to get a driver's license. It's sad! I've been in school and a couple times got news another fellow student passed away. The first time was in 1984, a young girl in my class was riding a horse when the horse stumbled and fell on top of her. She was in a coma for 3 days, and the family finally decided to pull the plug and she died. I was really too young back then to understand what happened. I understood death, but I wasn't put together enough to realize the impact something like that would have on her family, or the opportunities she missed by not being able to grow up. I couldn't go to her funeral, I'd never been to a funeral in my life, and I couldn't bring myself to go to that of a friend's. But several of my other friends did go to her funeral. There was a great deal of sadness that day.

About 2 years later, in 1986, another incident happened to a much older student. I don't remember his name though, but some of my friends knew the guy. He was out with some friends one weekend and driving around, getting drunk and they got into an accident. The driver accidentally crashed their car into a tree, this boy was thrown from the car on impact and he died instantly. Apparently, his head hit the ground really hard when he was thrown from the car, and crushed his skull and brain. One of my teachers actually saw him after he was in the morgue. The teacher described his face being all scratched up and his head was crushed. The boy's mom was in the attendance office to fill out a discharge from school form. When asked for a reason, she simply replied "deceased". I don't remember if they had funeral services for him in that school, not like they did for the other girl in my last school.

Aside from also losing a few teachers in between those times, those were the only times I'd heard of anyone close to my age passing away. Well, until now, but this doesn't count, I'm getting older. At my age, death is closer to me than family. When my time comes, I'd like to think I am ready to go. There's just a few things I want to complete before I make my final journey.

Up At 4AM

And nothing much to do, except browse the internet! I officially HATE M&Ms now! LOL! I ate some last night, when I knew I shouldn't have, and I ate too many and now I feel sick and weak. This really sucks!! But at the same time, it's pretty cool too. But the M&Ms are not the reason I woke up so damn early. I just couldn't go back to sleep. I had the same problem a week or so ago, when I woke up at about 3AM. I heard what sounded like running footfalls outside my window. Then, I heard a black man's voice shouting "Get back here before I fuck you up!" I assumed what I was hearing was a bit of a domestic dispute. I hate it when they bring their bullshit outside at night, right in front of my bedroom window!! Seriously!! Once the girl runs out of the house, LEAVE HER THE FUCK ALONE!!!!! Your stupid arguments between the two of you are not my business! I don't want to hear it, I don't want to know about it, and I don't want it broadcast in front of my window when I am trying to sleep!! That was the night I was having a nice MH dream too!

One of my friends this morning was saying how she saw someone wearing a shirt that said "Addicted to Jesus" and it made her angry, just the sight of that shirt. So angry, she said she wanted to punch that person in the face. I told her I feel the same way every time I see anyone wearing a shirt that has a picture of any kind of panther on it. I see grown people wearing shirts that have pictures of lions, tigers, or leopards and I feel so angry I want to punch them in the face, and then stomp on that shirt. I don't want to see those ugly faces staring at me when I walk by those people! And believe me I've seen a lot of panther radicals! They make me sick!! I think I'm even over that business of wanting to get myself a kitten. Know why? It's all thanks to this stupid panther-fanatical wussy on YouTube who calls himself "TYRANTZILLA Fastlife". Normally, I don't respond to negative people on YouTube anymore, but I wanted to have some fun with this dumbass. It led to a nearly week-long battle of wits. Well, Tyrantzilla had no wits at all. His biggest insult was calling me "gayass", his reason is because I don't like lions or any kind of panthers. I call him a wussy because he does like panthers. I also call him a dumbass who has no brains or creativity of his own, also because he loves panthers.

I truly believe people who love panthers only do so because they are followers. Either they were foolishly influenced by that stupid movie "The Lion King", or that disgusting program "Big 'Cat' Diary", or they are just afraid. Afraid of feeling rejected because they don't like what everyone else likes. I'm just exactly the opposite. The more popular something is, the less I like it. In the case of panthers, it's because I got so sick of hearing about them and seeing them on every nature show, it just became nothing but a pile of cat shit! I hate panthers. I hate the entire cat and panther family. I'm proud of that too. That's what sets me apart from the rest of the people. That's who I am. And I love being different. Believe me, I'd feel worse if I did like panthers. I'd feel like I wasn't being true to myself. I've experienced that feeling once before, all because I wanted some idiot people to like me, and it was the worst feeling in the world and I swore I would NEVER do that again!!! My self-respect is a million times more important to me than the respect of strangers.

One of the big reasons I hate panthers so much is because of the panther-fags like Tyrantzilla. You know, people will forgive panthers where they won't forgive any other animals? For example, if a lion kills a hyena, all the cat-fags will say "That's nature", or "the lion is just protecting it's family". If a lion runs from an attacking crocodile, the panther-fags are like "lions don't take unnecessary chances with another dangerous animal", and they seem to understand it. But if a hyena fends off a lion, the hyenas are suddenly the "bad guys", or they are "evil, disgusting creatures that deserve to be killed". Or if a hyena runs from a lion or a crocodile, the hyena is labeled a "coward" by the panther-fags, and they suddenly don't understand it. People don't seem to know that hyenas are a considerably older family than the felines. I don't like hyenas myself, I think they are ugly and smelly, but I do find it fascinating they have been around so long (40 million years as opposed to true felines only being around for 20 million) and are still going strong!! Hyenas are very successful, in spite of everything! They don't take unnecessary chances either. They didn't survive all these years by being stupid. Unlike felines, hyenas don't go out looking for fights. They do what they are programmed by nature to do, and that is eat to survive. Felines, on the other hand, have only been here for half as long, and they are not faring very well since humans have taken over the scene. I'm not talking about "cats", I'm talking only about TRUE felines. Other animals known as "cats", like the civets and mongooses, have been around for a good 50 million years and are secretive, but as a family they're mostly doing OK.

The oldest carnivore family though, by far, are the canines. Foxes, being the earliest representatives of that family. Canines first came on the scene when Tyrannosaurs and Triceratops were roaming the Earth. They survived the extinction event that killed the dinosaurs. They were what all modern carnivores are descended from. That includes felines. Yet, canines are labeled by the panther-fags as being "cowardly", or by cat-fags as being "stupid". Having studied canines for many years, I can honestly tell you, NO canine is any of this!! As a family, they are doing far better than the felines, despite the fact they've been around for many more eons. Wolves were wiped out at one point, but they are back and have been extending their range faster than bobcats, lynx and mountain lions. The difference is dogs aim to please. Being descendants of wolves, they are programmed by nature to do what the leader tells them to do. Cat-fags don't understand this, and what people don't understand, they either feel fear of, or they just loathe. Not everyone is like me. I hate panthers because I do understand them, and I know they are WAY overrated! They are the most over-embellished creatures on the planet thanks to cartoons, movies and over-worked panther fanatics and cat-fags.

Well, I must say I am not too different from other people. Not in every way. I just have my own point of view, just like everyone else. One guy I am subscribed to, was talking last night on a video about faith, and he said it really hurts his feelings when his family, who are Christians, tell him or their friends they hope he, who is an atheist, comes back to having that faith in GOD that he used to have. He said people who believe in GOD do so for comfort, because they don't want to face the unknown by themselves. GOD provides them with some security, something to lean on. He may be right! I think the same thing about show breeders! I've met many show breeders, when I used to get into pet forums and go to dog shows, and that wretched email group I was on just before my Groucho died. One thing that seemed to be mostly universal, show breeders seemed to be very insecure people! Remember that John Cipollina guy, the guy who ran Maestro Chihuahuas? I thought it was very unusual how he just got so angry with me for almost no reason at all, it was also very suspicious! I'd be the first one to admit if I'd done something wrong. But he acted like I murdered his family and he just wanted to tear me apart for it. When all I really did was fill out a survey that I thought was going to the whole forum to fill out. No one told me it was only supposed to be directed at one person, it was sent over email to everyone, and I thought we were supposed to all fill it out. And I did! I also gave my opinions honestly.

Well, when John Cipollina read that, he blew his top clear off!!! LOL! He was yelling, screaming, and I think I may have even felt the veins in his head popping. Or I heard them! LOL! He could have handled it diplomatically, and sent me a PM kindly pointing out exactly what it was I said that offended him. He could have wrote me something like this:

"Hello Cassandra,
I'm glad you decided to join our group. I hope you can learn something new about the breeding game. I am just writing you a PM because I found what you said in your survey to be quite offensive, not only to me, but also could be taken wrong by some of the other breeders on the group. Like, when you said ...(insert offensive breeder line here) I just want to make sure you have your facts straight on this subject. For example, (insert factual breeder info here)"

And so on. I would have been understanding. I was trying to do breeding the right way, I welcomed constructive criticism, and really the last thing I wanted back then was to offend anyone. John Cipollina, and everyone in that group for that matter, might have even got a public apology from me. But no, John Cipollina was not even nearly that tactful. And he was no gentleman! I was slammed at by him with a barrage of hate-filled tirades, anger soaked in venom, verbal assault and the like. And not just by him, but also by his dumbass show breeder "friends". And I do use the term "friends" loosely, because I don't believe any show breeder can ever be a good friend to anyone else, except for other show breeders, and only for as long as they are winning show breeders. I haven't seen anything of that John Cipollina in a long time. I wonder what ever happened to the old fart. Not that I truly care! It's partly because of him that I hate show breeders so much now. Most of the show breeders I've met have been a lot like him. Judging by his outrageous attitude, he probably had a heart attack. Anyone who gets as angry as quickly as he did, they've got to be suffering some blood pressure problems, maybe some heart problems too. I hope it killed him too!! That would be wonderful news! hehehe!

Anyway, I think the reason he was always so mean and hateful is probably the same reason a lot of show breeders are mean, because maybe as a child he was neglected. Maybe his parents never showed him any love. They probably spoiled him more with gifts and possessions than with love, understanding or any physical contact. This makes people like him feel insecure, so he breeds to give himself a sense of accomplishment. He probably also shows his dogs to give himself that much-needed ego boost. That's one of the reasons I never showed any dogs. I don't rely on my animals to give me an ego boost! I have other ways of getting that. My Metazoic site for one thing. My love for INXS is another. INXS friends are the greatest!! MUCH better than show breeders ever were!

The Sparks of Love

Ya know, they say when the right man comes along, the woman knows it. I've felt love in the past, but only one man ever gave me those sparks and see fireworks. It was the only man I ever fell in love with on first sight. It was Michael Hutchence. I did manage to see him live in concert only once, but it was a memorable show! I even reached out and kissed him at that concert. But it was my first sighting of him that made me fall madly in love with him. When I first saw him on TV. When I saw him, sparks flew, I heard and saw the fireworks, I went totally weak in the knees, and I could think of no one or nothing else after that. That is what they say it is like to fall in love. That is the point where the woman knows it is going to be true love. That same day, watching that same video, I also fell in love with Timmy's buns! He has the best set of buns in the whole band!! At the time, I didn't know if Michael, or Timmy for that matter, were already married or not. I just saw them and fell in absolute love! I figured handsome men like them must be married!! Well, I would later find out it was true for Timmy, but not true for Michael. Back in those days, I found that a little harder to believe. Both were handsome men! But for different reasons. Though Timmy has the better figure and personality, for me, it was Michael's moves, cute face and flowing hair that attracted me.

Well, I did used to joke around to friends that I would someday marry Michael. I was so deeply in love with him, I wanted it to happen, but knew deep inside it would never happen! No other man has ever made me feel the same way Michael has! I never felt those sparks with any other man. Not even the man I eventually did marry! There were a few barriers in place though that made me not want to even approach Michael in that matter. One of the reasons I never approached him about the subject of marrying me, let's face it, rock stars NEVER marry fans!! To them, all we are is fans. People who admire them for their songs, performance and in Michael's case; his sultry good looks. I don't think rock stars think a fan would love them for who they are. So, they don't take it seriously when a fan approaches them and says "Hey! I want to be your girlfriend forever!" or "I want to marry you!" So, that was just one idea why I never approached Michael in that way for that reason. But that's not the only reason.

I remember when someone posted a link to a blog where the writer told of herself being the only person that Michael communicates with from beyond the grave on one of the groups I am on. I checked it out and had a great laugh over it. But there was one comment made by someone on there, well, he is among my Facebook friends now, and he seems like a nice guy. He's a bird-lover. But the comment he left on that blog made me kinda glad I never approached Michael. This guy is best friends with Michael's brother Rhett, and he told about how he used to hang at the INXS headquarters back in the day. They would get fan mail and most of it would wind up in the recycling bin. But he and Rhett would dig some of the letters out, read them and have a good laugh over them. One particularly creepy woman sounded serious about meeting Michael and becoming his lifelong girlfriend (I swear, it wasn't me who wrote that!) LOL! Well he said she showed up one day at their office in Sydney, and the scary part is she was nothing like how she described herself in her letters. He said she was 10 years older than Michael, not even remotely attractive and as big as a hippo. His words, not mine! LOL!

Well anyways, it was that reason also that I never approached Michael. I never thought of myself as being attractive. Not even when I was thinner. I guess I'd been told by bullies in school so many times that I was ugly, it sank in too deep. And while it didn't bother me if the bullies in school said it, if my Michael had said that about me, even behind my back, it would have broken my heart if I ever found out he said it. I always thought I was too ugly for such a handsome guy like Michael. I mean really, who would marry this?

That was me from 2000, but it would give you a general idea of what I looked like at the time Michael was alive. I always hated my smile! I look more like I am half frowning! I hate my hair too. I hate how it just lies all over the place! Plus, I was way too skinny! I just never thought of myself as being attractive. So, I was afraid to approach Michael. But then again, look at what he did almost wind up with...

This must be the reason he killed himself, if indeed he did commit suicide. Though that thing is the mother of his only child, it's ugly as a lion's behind!! The only good thing about Michael being with Paula, is I look at her, and I think maybe I would have had a chance with him myself! Even being fat, broken-down and bald, I couldn't look worse than Paula!! But maybe if I had married Michael, I would never have gotten fat, Michael might still be alive today, and his daughter might have had a more decent name! Well, I would have probably called her "Heavenly Hiraani Lily Hutchence", her call-name would have been Hiraani. Leave out the "tiger". That part of her name is ugly!! Michael really wanted her call-name to be Hiraani, so that's what we would have called her. It's pretty and it's unique. And it doesn't represent an ugly, lazy beast like the name "tiger" does! Tigers are cursed by GOD. With a name like that, I fear Lily will fail in anything she tries.

Dian Fossey named one of her gorillas "tiger" too, thinking the name would fit his personality. Well, judging by his namesake's current position in the wild, she was indeed right! He failed to find a mate and reproduce, and he died a lonely bachelor gorilla with no offspring whatsoever.

Well, a lot of people agree with me about Paula. One of my friends told me it's mostly the people from the UK who defend Paula. I think she's right! People from the UK and Australia defend Paula. Not all, but I noticed that pattern myself. People from the UK think Paula was the equivalent of Betty Crocker. But she killed Michael! I'll never get that out of my mind! Those of us from the USA, you can't pull the wool over our eyes! We saw through Paula's little scheme!! I'll never forgive her for that! Lily may hate me for saying things like that about Paula, but that's OK. She should hear the truth. And remember, Paula threatened to kill herself AND Lily if Michael ever left her. And Paula did kill herself via a drug overdose. Doing those kinds of things, does that sound like something a responsible mother would do?? Not to me! So if Lily wants to hate me for hating Paula, so be it! But she should know Paula wanted Lily dead if she couldn't have Michael. Paula was selfish for sure. No one can ever make me believe otherwise!

"Today Was A Bad Day, But Tomorrow's Another Day"

There was always that aire of doubt in my mind if I truly loved this band, because of my former feelings about Kirk. My meetings with him have been disappointing, to say the least. The last time I had a chance to talk to him, I paid $300 for the privilege. I know, it was my sisters' money, but still! It was for a birthday gift for me. I stood in front of Kirk like an idiot, smiled and said hello, and he never spoke back to me. For many years, I thought it was personal, like he didn't like fans who were overweight, like me. What else could I think? He spoke to everyone else around me (fans who were not as fat as me), but just totally snubbed me. It made me feel very sad, because up until then, I loved Kirk. I never said anything bad about him, and he was right up there with Timmy as one of my favorite band members. A couple of times, someone came in this blog, pretending to be Kirk. While it would have felt good if it had actually been him, I knew it wasn't. Well, admittedly at first, I did think it was, but I knew nothing about him then. But then one of my friends, who used to come in here, pointed out a few features that she said were very un-Kirk-like. hehe. Well, she told me she had communicated with him many times on Myspace, so she knew a lot more about him than I did, and she said the comments did not resemble his writing at all.

Later on, a not-so-friendly reader (probably DonnaG, or one of her cronies) came in and said pretty much the same thing my friend did, but that person's timing was considerably late. LOL! My friend had already told me the news by the time she chimed in. But it did act in a way to confirm what my friend said and my own suspicions. So the next time someone came in and did the same thing, a year later (I think the posts are still there), I was better prepared. Though the posts did seem to come from someone in Australia, I highly doubt they were made by Kirk. I suspected it may have been posted by someone from the Rockband Lounge forums. They hated me there because I did not like DonnaG, and she was kindof the mods' "pet" on those forums. Anyone who didn't like her was slammed mercilessly on that forum. So, I always made sure I slammed Donna on here just to show those mods that they do NOT control me. I control myself! I decide who I like and who I don't like. And I don't give a shit if they slam me or not!

I was on that Rockband forum for a while. I didn't like it at all. There was only 1 or 2 friendly people, everyone else was one of DonnaG's little robots. You couldn't make a post, the mods there had to be the ones to start the posts. The posters were only allowed to respond to those posts. That was why I quit that forum! I tried to start a post and couldn't. You had to have at least moderator status in order to begin a post. That's fucking STUPID!!! Why open a forum and not allow the members that were not mods start a post? It didn't make sense to me. So I left and never looked back.

Anyways, my respect level for Kirk has increased 1000-fold! He kicked cancer's ass!! I admire him for that! Especially after I heard his wife say he would have his good days, and his bad days. On his bad days, he would say "Today was a bad day, but tomorrow's another day." I gotta admire someone with strength like that!! He didn't let the bad days get to him. I never had cancer, and it doesn't run rampant in my family, but I always felt if it had ever happened to me, I don't want to cry or moan "why did this happen to me?" I want to be strong, like Kirk was, and just take one day at a time. And if GOD forbid, HE did decide to take me home, my only thought would be "Well, if GOD feels it is my time to head home, it's HIS decision, and HE needs me there more than I need to be down here." Only one person in my whole history ever died of cancer. It was my great-grandfather. I never knew him. He died of prostate cancer in 1960. As far as I can determine, he's the only one in our whole family to ever develop any form of cancer.

I've basically got good genes! There's no cancer in our family, there's no heart attacks in our family, although my grandma did have a weak heart. The doc thinks that was linked to her having only a vegan diet when she was younger. The worst thing in our family is obesity, from my mom's father's side of the family. But that can easily be overcome. I am working on that now as we speak! My father and sis has insomnia, but I think the only reason my sis has it is because she drinks coffee late in the afternoon, instead of in the morning like a normal person does.

Anyways, I worked hard to forgive Kirk because of my last meeting with him. Looking back on some of the posts I've made in the past on here, I was downright cruel to him!! Like in one post from 2010, I told Kirk to "go suck a stonefish"!! LOL!! Sorry Kirk! That was indeed mean of me to say that. I saw that and I thought "OMG!! I am nasty!!" Well, I was still feeling upset about my last meeting with him. But I worked hard on forgiving him. I wanted to make that my goal for this year. I'd say I accomplished it nicely. I wanted to be able to say I love INXS 100%, and mean it! Now, I can. Kirk may not want to forgive me for being so mean and hateful to him in the past, but that is OK too. I wouldn't blame him at all. I said some pretty fucked-up shit to him. Things that now, I wish I hadn't said. But I do admire him a great deal now, for the way he kicked cancer's ass!!

I remember back in 1998, I became a companion to a woman who was dying of cancer. She had cancer of the stomach that spread to her pancreas and liver, so she was going pretty fast. I became a companion to her. I remember what her bad days were like. By the end of June that year, she had succumb to the disease. But I remember her as being mostly a happy and cheerful person, even in her suffering and the constant threat of not waking up the next morning. I do miss her. But during her bad days, she looked weak, tired, pale and all she wanted to do was sleep. So, I know Kirk's journey must have been a difficult one. But he pulled through. That's the important thing. And I am back on the sidelines cheering him on, clapping my hands, and saying "Way to go boy!" And I mean it.