Obama Losing Popularity And Credibility

I'm not surprised. Back in 2008, before he even took office, I predicted that he was going to be the worst president that we ever had! I knew it! But I was slammed by an Obama supporter on this blog, and I will always remember what she said. In fact, I still have it on this blog I believe. And I told everyone I could see the warning signs!! They acted like they didn't believe me. Not only did I have that premonition, but several others had it too, including my ma, who like me is an excellent judge of character. I get it from her ya know! :)

Well, when he was elected into office, which I also predicted would happen, I sat back and said "OK, let's see if this guy really can fix the economy like he said he's going to." It was more than just that, I wanted to see if he was really as spectacular as all these liberals were saying he was, and that included the INXSaries that came on here and slammed me because I didn't like Obama. I gave Obama one chance after another and after another. I even did searches every time I heard a rumor about him (or what I believed was a rumor), to see if what was being said was true. I found that the only people who denied that Obama has done any wrong so far are all his supporters. That is, people who have read his autobiography, and supported him even before he was in office, and refused to see the red flags that were up even then. Those are the people who are blind, the ones who are going to ruin this country! If I am still being slammed because I don't like Obama, well then that is just too bad for them. I don't care.

One of my used-to-be readers, Freckle Face, even said that she knew that the people of this country were going to wish in a couple of years that they hadn't voted Obama into office, and will be screaming to get him out. It looks like she was right too. Just as she stated, in a couple of year's time. But nobody listened to those of us who did not like Obama. I knew his spending money like crazy was going to lead to something horrible. He could not have kept that up for long and expect the economy to really bounce back. And what about putting the money into where it is really needed? Like I heard people on Social Security are not going to be getting any more raises for 2 years. Obama should be putting money into that, instead of paying for his billion-dollar vacations around the country!! Like I said many times before, he is using this country's money like it's his own private piggy bank! He's not thinking anywhere near about the long-term effects his constant spending is doing to this country. Before we know it, we're going to become like one of those third-world countries. It won't be pretty. Maybe this will be the beginning of the end of the world!

Well, I tried to warn everyone, but I am just one person. And I work alone. For me to try and convince everyone to look out for the warning signs well, it's tough! Especially when their minds are already made up that they are going to support Obama no matter what. I've seen just in one day, about 3 different articles implying Obama's impending demise. People don't like him like they used to. And that's what happens when you put an inexperienced person in the presidential office! But everyone wanted him, so all I can say is "you've made your bed, now you can toss in it!" Some people only wanted Obama in office because he is black. To those people I say "OMFG!!! If you want a person as president because they are black, get a more reputable person!!" MC Hammer would have made a better black president!! IF that's all that the public wanted!!

Well, anyway, here's one of the articles I found today. Don't just read the article, I say look at what the rest of the public says! It has over 80,000 comments now, and it was just posted today. Incidentally, the person who slammed me because I didn't like Obama, is the same one who said that INXS will never take JD back, which I also said from day one, was wrong! INXS and JD are still together now! :)

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20100819/ap_on_bi_ge/us_obama#mwpphu-container

Happy Birthday Tim!!!!

I want to take this time to wish my most favorite musician of all time the bestest birthday wishes!!! I still love you LOTS!!! I hope you get this message Tim. I know someone from Australia looks in on this blog from the INXS website. Several people in fact. I think I am going to post the video I did last year on YouTube for Tim's birthday. I don't know if he saw it, but I think he'd sure get a kick out of it if he did. The thing is, the introduction was so LONG!!! Introductions should be no more than 20 seconds on YouTube. One video with an introduction that was slightly over a minute I completely lost interest in!! Plus it had rap music besides, and I do not like rap music. Although Timmy has done a rap before on a song. It was brief though. Tim can do anything! He is multi-talented, just like the rest of the guys of INXS.

Well, I've been a fan of Tim's since 1998, especially after I acquired the video "In Search Of Excellence". That was when I discovered what a funny guy Tim really is! But my love for him was overshadowed by a still lingering love for Michael. Even though at that time, Michael was already dead, I still loved him, as did many INXS fans. Some have never lost that love. I cannot say I lost it completely, though with me it has toned down considerably. I still see some pics of him that is worthy of a second glance. I didn't like him at all with straight hair though. I loved him better with the long, curly hair he had when he did Kick. But Michael with long, straight hair, he did not look good to me then! He should never have done that! He didn't look like himself. He didn't look like the man I knew and loved. He didn't look like the man I kissed at the concert in 1991. LOL! But Tim is a whole other story!!

I can't even think of a time when I didn't like how Tim looks. He was good looking in Simple Simon, just as handsome as he is today!! Michael wasn't even that good looking in Simple Simon. He looked like a pimply-faced little boy. I'm sorry, I hate speaking of Michael that way, but it's so true!!! He looked like that all the way through to the Listen Like Theives album. It wasn't until Kick came out that he went from being an ugly duckling to a gorgeous and beautiful swan! But Tim, he was a handsome man from day one in his career! I saw him in the video for Simple Simon, and he was still so handsome!! And he was only 20 then. There aren't many 20-year olds that can make me turn my head, in fact there are none! But Timmy back then, if I were a teenager when Simple Simon came out, I would have fallen madly in love with Timmy!!! But I was only a baby then. I didn't even listen to rock music back then. LOL! I was still listening to kiddie music, and watching Big Bird on Sesame Street. Now, I just watch the classic Sesame Street to rekindle old memories.

But enough about that, this is Timmy's day!! Well, it's actually on the 16th, but it will be the 16th tomorrow where he lives, and it will be the 16th again here the next day, and I want to make sure I've wished him well for his birthday. He deserves it. So I want to say....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIM!!!!!!! I love you lots, LOTS, LOTS!! May all your dreams and wishes for this year come true!! Also, I hope your wife, Beth, is doing very well, and continues to do very well! Hope she has a speedy recovery. :)

Two Deinognathid Screen-Tests

I've been spending a lot of time working on these videos. The first one was fairly easy, it is Deinognathus roaring. It's always tough to get the sound just right, and the motion. I did these drawings first back in 2004, when Metazoica first got started. I wanted to make up more movies, but I never got around to it, and they were hard to do in flash. But rather easy to do in Windows Movie Maker. The only problem was getting the motion just right. I still think they need some work, and I will be trying to make up some more in time. But these are basic screen tests. They are not supposed to be perfect. Well, anyway, here is the first one, Deinognathus:

Here's the second video. It's Carnodorcas, another Deinognathid. This one took longer to complete, and it was a little more complex. Back in those days, I didn't label everything the same like I do now. This one took me all day yesterday to complete. The drawings are primitive, but the way I put it together seems OK enough. So here is Carnodorcas:

I posted these videos on YouTube, Katrina said about the Deinognathus that I should send that one to eat up Hobofart and his crew. LOL! I told her that even then, I believe they would be acting all brave. And then while the animal was swallowing them, they would still be pointing at the animal saying "You fail, I win! LMAO!"

Holli Won!

I knew it was going to be her who wins on Hell's Kitchen tonight! I saw it in her performance. I hope Anna saw it, because it was a good show. She is still in Billings having what is hopefully a lot of fun! I always watch this program every year. Around June, I usually look for it to begin. I just love how Chef Ramsay is a combination of a tough and crusty coger, and yet he tempers it with gentleness and kindness. That's what I like about Chef Ramsay. I always watch all his shows, Hell's Kitchen, Kitchen Nightmares, and now Masterchef. I keep thinking I should enter Masterchef. I'm an amateur chef! Everyone raves about my cooking too. Especially my boyfriend (one of the ways I won his heart). No one can cook like a fat woman! I certainly live up to that fact. Some people have said that my cooking is not up to par, but then they have mostly been people who were not fond of American cuisine.

Katrina and I talked for quite a bit tonight. Mostly about her vacation over the weekend. I told her next weekend she should come here with the kids. Now that Anna is out of the house, I get rather bored easily. So bored, I spend literally hours trying to figure out what to do with the rest of my day (after I have my walk). I am working still on another chapter of my animal book. Amazingly, I found a program I am particularly fond of! I absolutely LOVE MS Publisher 2010!!!!!! It is AWESOME!!!! It has features I never thought Publisher would get! I can even add page numbers and begin on any other number besides 1! It helps a lot on those large books that have more than 100 pages and I have to break up the chapters. I recommend the upgrade! Publisher 2007 sucks by comparison!

I also want to give Jon Farriss a shout-out today! Happy Birthday Jon!!! I met the guy several times and he was always so kind and caring. I also want to congratulate him on his upcoming baby! I'm thinking (actually hoping) he's going to have a boy. I predicted he'd have a girl last time and he did. I'm thinking this one is going to be a boy.

So, Have You Read It?

Today, I noticed Hobofart visited the UMG Productions site. He down-rated the story written by me and Cairo about INXS going to Mount St. Helens. This is the second time he's done it, and he hasn't even purchased the story (Trisha, my supervisor, keeps track of all purchases from the site). I know it was Hobofart, or definitely one of his cronies. Well, when I noticed he had been in there, I actually posted a question to him asking him if he had actually read the story, or if he was just down-rating the story because I wrote it. I wrote the comment, but when Trisha saw it, she said she had to remove it because it really has nothing to do with the story. I told her about Hobofart and his cronies. Trisha really does not want anyone to rate any story unless they have read the story. She told me to let her know if it happens again, and she will make rating only available to members of the site. Or remove ratings altogether. She does not like stalkers any more than I do. In fact, it is against the site rules to stalk any member of UMG Productions. I told her about Hobofart being a pedophile and how he never follows the rules, not even on YouTube. She was disgusted by him just being a pedophile. LOL! I even sent her the e-mail message that I got from "Strope" yesterday, with the comment he left on this blog. That gives her an indication of the character of these "people" (and I use that term loosely). I even sent Trisha the link for Katrina's video, as well as other videos made by Hobofart and his crew. She took the words out of my mouth when she said they are evil. But still, as contemptible as they are, Trisha said I cannot respond to posts left on the UMG Productions site. She wants people to feel good about leaving their comments on the site, and she says it is a learning experience for all of us.

So, I will ask Hobofart here. Did you actually READ the story you didn't like? I mean, I don't mind that he didn't like the story, as long as he actually read it and knows for sure he doesn't like it. I put up my latest video about stalkers vs. trolls. In the video, I urged Katrina to block Hobofart and all of his toads, and to do it NOW!! Strope keeps subscribing to her and I cannot understand why. I think it's for far more than meets the eye! I don't think he's interested in seeing what other videos she comes out with. Katrina told me she has really no plans to make any more videos. As much fun as she had making that one, she adds, "It's just not my thing." I personally have fun making videos. Well, at least I know Hobofart saw this video. I can always tell when he sees the videos :) Simply by instinct. I wanted him to see this video. Well, he cannot comment anymore on any of my videos because I blocked his butt from my channel. Serves him right!! He can rate my videos all he wants, he just cannot comment. He should have listened when I told him to get lost! LOL! Like I said in my video, he just cannot handle rejection. Sad little toad he is. Well, I don't know what Katrina is going to really do with her account at YouTube. She hasn't been on there in a couple of days. Of course it was because she was on a little vacation over the weekend with her husband and kids. I cannot deprive her of that. Gotta let those kids have fun! Katrina's oldest starts school here soon. Then he's tied down for the next 12 years until he graduates!!! Barring any complications. LOL! Katrina did speak of just tearing down her YouTube account. I don't want her to do it because of the damn trolls though. She said it would not be that at all. She just would do it because she's not into making videos. I want to make that clear now! I say thank GOD!! I hate going to her channel and looking at that ugly guy in the mask!!! LOL! Looks very evil!!

YouTube The Unreputable Video Site

It's true. It may be hard to believe, but it is true! YouTube is not a reputable site. Google is becoming more interested in money than they are in their users. I'm slowly working my own way off of YouTube because it seems that they are not as reputable as I was led to believe. Not if they allow trolls to take over. This BWC Productions company seems to be taking the fullest advantage of the glitches in Google to power their own little shitty embassy. I don't really care that they have my address now because Anna and I are planning to move to Billings anyway here very soon. Been planning it for a few months. I didn't want to go, and I still don't really want to, but I have no choice. I can't really see any way out of it. I'm not going to stay there long anyway. No more than a couple years. After that, who knows where I will move to? :) It may be back here, it may be not. But it seems they have used all the glitches in YouTube to hack into peoples' accounts and shit. Yes, I said "hack", a hysterical word to the dirty dozen mob, but what Bill Waggoner and his crew do to people is not hysterical. They are going to get in trouble for it. But you tell them that, and they just laugh at you. But it's going to happen one day. Hobofart is in there under several accounts, some of them are different variations of the name "hoboctzarandco", like a letter is missing, changed or something (he does that to fool people into thinking he can unblock himself from their channel).

I really do hope one day YouTube hypes up their security and customer service measures, and comes down on this gang of bottom-feeders. One of my friends and subscribers was so upset about them hacking her account that she has given up YouTube altogether. I'd like to give up YouTube, I really would, but I can't. I have several people that I am subscribed to that I cannot find on another video site, and I really enjoy them a lot! Like Viperkeeper, SnakebytesTV, and ReverendBurn. I love their shows! I like FatRants too, but she hasn't made anything new in quite a while. I just can't give up YouTube. I've taken the first step in completely ignoring Hobofart. Though I mock him quite a bit because he is silly, and seriously disturbed.

I'm just going to let karma take over. Ya know, what someone does to someone else always comes back on them, and it always comes back on them 3 times worse than what they do to others. I feel bad because this friend decided she could not handle the lousy customer service and insecurity of YouTube, and she is giving up her account, and gmail and stuff. I told her that now the trolls are going to think they won. Yesterday when she posted a video, f-ing off Google, she was very upset because she has posted several complaints to YouTube about these damn trolls, and no action has been taken. That's why Hobofart and his stupid cronies are on YouTube, and wreaking havoc, because they know that YouTube will let them get away with it. They would not survive very long on any other video site. Most of the other sites are very reputable. I am on one now that has a higher ranking in customer service than YouTube does! YouTube is only interested in the money. This other site is interested in money, and cares about it's users. Not surprisingly, Hobofart has been reported many times before, under all of his aliases.

I remember once another friend, MzKillaNeden told me that Hobofart only does things like this because he thinks it's funny, and he doesn't mean any harm, and that he's holding a grudge against society because someone gave him coal for Christmas. The last one had to be a joke! Either that or the World really hates him. Having seen his online character, if he is the same offline, I would have just given him coal too! But you know what? I don't hate Hobofart. That may come as a shocker to some of you! I'm not even mad at him. I feel sorry for him. He's too young to understand that, but the only thing I can do is feel sorry for him. Because karma is going to kick in before long. Like I said, what goes around, comes around. And when it comes, it's going to hit him 3 times worse! That's the rules of karma! Hobofart and his crew absolutely HATE it when the same shit they do to other people, is done to them. They go to each other's channels and whine and gripe because "Timmygal shook her saggy tits at me!" or "MsRandomosity said I have MPD!" and yadda-yadda-yadda. But Hobofart not meaning any harm? I hate to say this to MzKilla, but that is bullshit!! He very much means harm! And it's going to come back on him someday. So, all I can do is feel sorry for him. Nothing more. I can't hate, and I can't be angry. I can only feel sorry for him. This whole Bill Waggoner crew are nothing but a bunch of hypocrites, cowards, and whiners. I feel bad for the whole lot of them!

Well, I told Hobofart that if he thinks I am such an animal abuser (which he still believes), he can call the PAWS office here in Ocean Shores (360-289-2924), if he has proof he can provide that I truly am abusing my animals (including witness names, phone #s and addresses), have PAWS raid my home. He can do it if he wants to. But then watch PAWS come here and see my dogs living the life of luxury!! LOL!! I have PAWS on the speed dial on my phone. LOL! I use them quite a bit myself. So now, for your entertainment, I will show you the video Katrina made. It features Hobofart behind a mask. This is the video that got Hobofart and his stupid cronies all pissed off. But you know what, they do the same shit to other people, so really they cannot complain!

Damn it! The video's gone!! Katrina told me she did not delete it before deleting her YouTube account!!

New Breakthrough

Well, Hobofart has a new identity, now he's a woman trolling around YouTube, who calls himself "MsLulzALot", and he has figured out my address. But hey! It's OK. Katrina was on lunchbreak at work and looked at her YouTube, and then told me about how they posted my address and everything on her homepage. I know what happened. Hobofart visited my MySpace and got my name, and there is a website where anyone can get the address of anyone as long as they have that person's full name. I know all about it, my stepfather told me about it and it is free. Of course he didn't have to go all the way to MySpace, he could have got my name on the UMG Productions website. I regularly use my name on my books.

I'm OK with Hobofart having my address, because I know he's not going to come here anyway. By the time he will be able to, Anna and I will probably be in Billings. Of course I don't plan on staying in Billings for very long, but after that, who knows where I will move to next? I might come back here to Ocean Shores. Or I might move farther north. Rialto Beach is nice! Or Vancouver Is. Or I might move south, Coos Bay is also nice! :) That's as far south as I dare go!! I hate California!! Well, I guess the cat's out of the bag, isn't it? hehehe!! Guess it's too much to hope for that Hobofart send me a Christmas card though. LOL!

I also know why he did it. He was hoping to get Katrina's address. Katrina and I share a lot of things, but her physical address is not among those things! LOL! She lives in Chehalis, 100 miles away from me. I live here. Hobofart can look all he wants, and he will never find Katrina's address anywhere. There are ways of having your info removed from those sites too ;) And Katrina knows it. And she does not put her address up anywhere. I let her use mine, Eva lets her use her's or Katrina uses an old address, whatever, but she does not use the one she has now. So, sorry Hobofart! LOL!

What's Interesting...

Today, I was looking through YouTube and Katrina got a rather ominous threat from someone who is subscribed to her. StropeFromBWC said that he contacted a man named Bill Waggoner today and apparently this man is upset because Katrina is mocking Strope and Hobofart on her channel. He said that if Katrina's channel was not taken down by midnight tonight, that Mr. Waggoner was going to brute force her password. I guess that means he's going to phish her password so he can gain access to her account. But first, let me give you a little history about this guy Bill Waggoner....

He apparently owns a movie production company, called BWC Productions, that operates on YouTube, and some of his members are Hoboctzarandco, and ReverendJandea, as well as this StropeFromBWC, which is actually Hobofart under one of his many aliases. Everyone knows he has more than one. If you go to his site, which I did (I made that mistake), all it is is a corny introduction and a chatroom with a webcam option. I posted on Katrina's homepage that this BWC Productions company cannot be a very reputable company if they send out trolls all over YouTube to harass random people that they do not know, and then gripe and cry when the same thing is done to one of their members. Katrina added "And also threaten to brute force someone else's password." You've all been reading these blogs, you know the kind of bullying and harassing hobofart has done with me, and Anna, and we are just the beginning. And let the record show, that I did not start any of this business with Hobofart. He started with me. He even continued to harass me after I told him I wanted nothing more to do with him, and stopped responding to any of his posts. I even deleted them unread. I had to go so far as to block him from my channel, which I always hate doing. Katrina's only on YouTube to "get in on the action", so she said last night. LOL! Because of that, ReverendJandea calls Katrina's account a "sock account", apparently still thinking Katrina is me. LOL! But still, I wouldn't want to become a member of this "company". It's only a matter of time before this BWC Productions company is raided by the FBI. They need to quickly find better things to do with their time.

I think it's funny that Katrina is so hard on them that they are now threatening her. I mean, "brute force her password"?? How does that make his company look? Report Katrina to the YouTube gurus, and maybe you might not look as bad, but to take the law into your own hands makes you look like Adolf Hitler! Well, Katrina said that if something does happen, she will just create a new YouTube account. And if anything happens to that one, she'll just create another account, and then another and another, until this BWC company gets the message that she is not going anywhere, and not bowing down to kiss their butts. This is what she told me tonight. I say, You go girl!! Hobofart is not the only one that can create multiple accounts just to harass people!!

Another Downed Worker Killing Spree!

I was looking through my e-mails and I noticed that there was another article about someone who worked at a beer distributing factory in Conneticut, and was fired from his job there then went on a shooting rampage! UGH! One has to wonder what this world is coming to. Why would someone do that? You know why? Because people are dumb, that's why! People cannot accept rejection. I was watching I Survived... the other day and one of the stories presented was the story of the Columbine High School shooting back in 1999. The story told was so sad! But one I know can happen all too often. Kids today just are not being taught right from wrong. Now, I was not one of those so-called "popular" kids in school. There was even a clique of teachers that did not like me in middle school, because of the actions of my sis before me. But it was only a clique of 4 or 5 teachers, and one of them seemed to be on the fence about me. But for the most part, I was loved by the rest of my teachers. :) But then they were ones that didn't know my sis. LOL! She didn't do anything particularly bad, she was just a little unruly in middle school. She wanted to do her own thing, and I think this little clique of teachers were expecting the same thing from me before they even knew me. I can tell you that because of them, and the people who used to make fun of me because I was smaller than the average teenager and had my own ideas of what makes a teenager, I sometimes felt like shooting the school up. But that was back then! And I knew better not to do it! Sometimes though, I would lie awake at night thinking of ways to do it, but I knew I would never do it. Because I had this little voice inside of me that said how wrong that is, and told me how bad I would feel knowing that that undetermined number of people were dead because of me. So, I knew not to do it. LOL! OK, so I got that story from an episode of Gomer Pyle, but still, I know what it feels like to be harassed, and made to feel unliked in school. Like I said, I've gotten harder in my old age, I no longer have thoughts like that. I treat everyone like equals, and if they like me, OK. If they don't then OK too!

I remember when I worked at the Puyallup Fair and Tracy terminated my employment there, I swear they look at you as if to expect you to stick a knife in their back!! LOL! But she would not have got that kind of trouble from me, because I did not care at all that she terminated me, that was what I wanted. I hated that job! I never wanted it in the first place. Why that section of the fair called me to begin with I will never figure out! I could live to be 100 years old and try to entertain every conceivable acumen as to why I was called in to that job, and I will still never come up with a reasonable explaination. I applied for a job with someone who was going to sell tropical fish there. But unfortunately I never got that job. When I applied for it, I was told to call someone in Canada, and I did, and got an answering machine and they never called back. And my pa was hounding me to get a job at that fair!! I don't even know how Tracy got my name and number because I did not even come close to applying for a job at her section! I applied everywhere except rides and concessions. Everyone warned me about the supervisors in that section, even someone who worked for the hiring hall warned me about them! That's how bad that job was! That's why I never applied. I wasn't that fricken desperate for a job!!! The only reason I took it when they told me I was hired was because if I hadn't, my pa would have razzed me something fierce!!! You would have had to know what my pa was like back then to understand.

I thought though it was kinda funny how Tracy was expecting trouble from me. I'd have bet if I went behind her and said "BOO!" she would have jumped a mile in the air! LOL! That's how tense she looked. Tracy was a 30-year old woman back then, and she argued with me like we were both in high school. I had just finished my run in high school back then, I didn't need to go back! Until I met her though, I never knew a 30-year old could be so immature. She was the first one I ever met like that. I've met many more since then, but I guess she is what happens when a person never gets laid and doesn't have children. Both Eva and Katrina have kids, and they told me it makes you grow up quickly!! Katrina is 24 years old, and even she is more mature than Tracy was when I knew her (she was 30 back then, she would be in her mid 40s by now). I'd bet she is still acting like a high school girl!!

Katrina's a funny character. She called me last night about her little run on YouTube, and we had quite a chat! LOL! She is mature until she gets on the internet, then she turns on the "Sadist Katrina". You know I think people think she is someone else. There is another person who calls herself TwiztedAsh that everyone seems to have a problem with now. I think people think she is her! I dunno. Her boyfriend sounds a little like Katrina's husband, he's into boxing and Katrina's hubby is into martial arts. Katrina's hubby is oriental, I don't know what nationality TwiztedAsh's boyfriend is! TwiztedAsh lives in Vermont (according to one of her videos) and Katrina has always lived here in WA state since she was 5 years old (before then, she and her pa lived in BC, but she was born in Sydney). There are some similarities there, but so few! TwiztedAsh is like me, and Katrina could get lost in my fat rolls!! Sorry Twizted, but it's true. Though Katrina would make a much better juggalo than me (or juggalette). From what I read about them. I told Katrina a little about juggalos, I couldn't say much as I am still not 100% sure what one is!!

Well, Hobofart and his friend was trying so hard to get the better of Katrina, and it looks like they couldn't. Hobofart doesn't seem to know it (probably because of a complete lack of intelligence), but every time he talks to Katrina, he's digging his own grave ever deeper!! Hobofart's most favorite argument is to tell everyone "you fail! I win!" And every time he says that, it digs his grave ever deeper. Katrina started telling him that his words tell her that she's actually the winner here. She told me on the phone that she feels so 'gorked' using his "win-fail" argument against him like that (to replace the word she really used with a better choice of words). LOL!! I told her that's because when you're good and you know it, you don't have to say it! Hobofart is too immature to know that! But Katrina loves it when he says "You fail" to her. In any way, shape or form! She said it just empowers her more. And I believe her. I feel the same way when he goes around YouTube trying to get me to respond to him, and I just delete his posts, unread! I made my point with him, and I know it. I don't feel the need to troll him back. But then to Hobofart, trolling is a thing he does to boost his ego, because he is lonely in life (probably still lives with his parents), and has never gotten laid, and probably never will, because from what I see, he thinks sex is disgusting. It's kindof a shame anyone thinks that because when it is done with the right person, it is FUN!!

The next paragraph is rated PG-13. Parental guidance is suggested, especially if this is Hobofart reading, and I know you are! ;)

There are some things I love about having sex and there are some things I don't love about it. Like I don't like having a guy stick his penis in my vaginal opening (the reason I never had kids!) But the rest of it is fun. But the last time I ever did it was when I was married. Haven't done it since. Then there was a long period I didn't have a boyfriend after my surgery. I just started up seeing men again after I moved here. I had one temporary guy friend, I still think I have him too, he is among my Facebook friends. I've been nervous about contacting him again, since I met this other guy. The one I have now. But I haven't yet got close enough to him to do 'it' with him. I've only known him for about a year now. It's not that I don't trust him or anything, it's just that I have to really REALLY get to know someone before I lie down with them. I've had fatal relationships before and they've kinda hardened my being. But I am keeping the last one in mind in case this relationship doesn't work out. And that's all I will say on this subject. :)

LOL! I can always tell when hobofart has been in here, even though now he's erased his IP. I can still always tell he's been here. Which is cool! He always gives every post the thumbs down. :) I seriously doubt he even reads any of the posts he down-rates! But that's OK! I'm doing my job! He can down-rate my posts all he wants to! It won't change anything. So far, he's been the only one that has even used the rating system on here. So, come on people! Tell me what you think!

What Is "Fat" To You?

I don't know, I guess everyone's opinion of what is "fat" is different. I always thought I was what someone would call "fat". Someone who is slightly chunky is what I call "overweight". I never thought someone who stands 5 feet tall and weighs no more than 100 pounds is what anyone would call "fat", but I found someone on YouTube that actually thinks someone of that size-frame is fat. He called himself ReverendJandea. To him, Katrina is fat. Katrina is NOT what I call "fat"!! Because the very definition of fat does not describe Katrina's body stature. She won't let me put a real picture up of her, and I have to respect that. The only one I can put up is one that she always uses on forums and social networks. It's one that I made of her:

Her hair is longer now, but she still pretty much looks like that. She does not put her pics on the internet, she said it's because she is such an asshole sometimes she knows someone will put her face on a picture of a horse's behind! LOL! She's got a cute sense of humor. But don't get your hopes up guys, she's married and has 2 kids now. Her oldest is starting school in September. But she takes a lot after her father, who is a close family friend, and is 5'5" and weighs about 120 pounds. He's scrawny!! Her mom is unfortunately dead, died of cancer back in 1991, and my sisters and I have been acting as her big sisters since she was about 5 years old. Sometimes I still feel the need to protect her, but I don't have to!! She's quite a spitfire herself!! But she is not what I call "fat"!! But to ReverendJandea, she is. I told Katrina that I think he's mistaken my videos for being her. I let her use one of my videos (the one I made to Hobofart) for the production of her own video. ReverendJandea saw that video and thought when he saw me, he was looking at Katrina. But my video has already been posted, and it is exactly the same footage she used in her first video.

Katrina said "Oh well, let him think what he wants." But I went to ReverendJandea's channel and told him myself that the fat woman in Katrina's video is ME! And I called him a stupid ass. I know I cannot expect Katrina to get on YouTube a lot, but it sure is fun when she does!! LOL! What she said next well, I want to keep that a secret. But this just goes to show everyone, I guess what one person thinks is a thin, slender, attractive woman, another person might think is a fat woman. But then I believe that to ReverendJandea, "fat" is not a reference to size, but to attitude. And he does not like Katrina's attitude because she is strong.

Open The Door

I was watching America's Most Wanted last night, and there was a story of an elderly couple. It was after dark in the story, and there was a knock on their door. So what do they do? The woman goes to answer it. Seemingly without even thinking about it, she goes to answer the door. She opens it up and is shot to death right there. For an older woman, that was really dumb of her!! I don't mean any disrespect but someone her age should know not to answer the door after dark!! I never do!!! I barely answer to strangers during the day! And I live in a town where crime is virtually unknown! My grandma knew better, in fact she kept her door bolted. She would always ask who was at the door, and if it was someone outside of family, she would tell them to go away. I'm afraid I'm getting to be like her! I don't much like strangers myself, and I will not open my door for them.

I remember one day I was here all by myself, and I was on the computer, and someone knocked on the door. I went to the window to see who it was and it was a guy I didn't recognize at all. So I opened the little window, and I asked him what he wanted. It turned out it was the guy who we used to call on a lot to fix our car! Apparently he moved, and he looked different! He'd shaved his hair! Once I realized who he was, then I opened the door. But I was a bit scared at first. But watching the story on AMW last night, keeps me in mind of why I never answer the door at night.

I remember when we lived in Lakewood, I used to hear people knocking on our door at night all the time! I never answered though. But that was scary! It happened more than once. Whoever it was would knock a couple of times, then turn around and walk away. I remember once it happened while I was reaching in the medicine closet for my meds. I heard someone knocking on the door, plain as day! And it was about 3 AM. It was a rather rapid knocking, and they did it a couple of times and then gave up. But I wasn't even coming close to opening that door!! Lakewood is a crappy town, and it was known for it's gangs and crime at that time. So I don't know who that person was, but obviously someone with a total lack of intelligence if he thought for one second I was going to open that door!!

Now I can officially say I have a stalker on YouTube. Hobofart (HOBOCTZARANDCO) has been following me around YouTube. I had to block him from my channel, and I knew it would lead to his getting angrier and following me to other videos I comment on and trying to get me to respond to his drivel. Most of the time, I just delete any posts from him that show up in my inbox, I don't even read them, I just delete them. I said as long as he doesn't show up at my house, I don't care what he does, or says, on YouTube! At least on YouTube, I have the option to delete his posts, and I never have to look at them if I don't want to, and I usually choose not to. It's probably all the same things he's always accused me of anyway: animal abuse. He's trying to convince me that I abuse all my animals. And I know I don't abuse animals. Everyone who knows me knows I never abuse animals either. So, what he says really does not matter. Some morons may believe him, but think about this: he's never met me or my animals, he's never been to my house (and never will), and he does not know any of my friends or family. So he's just speaking from his ass. He lives all the way on the other side of the country. For him to come all the way over here, for someone who does not care about him, and does not want to know him, and just to tell me to put on a bra, would be kinda dumb IMO. But then it wouldn't be the first stupid thing he ever did, I'll wager you! But on YouTube, if I see his name in any of my comment responses, I just click the little box next to his name and click delete. I don't even open them. :) That's probably going to piss him off more, but that's OK. :) I don't usually like blocking people. But when they become obsessed like Hobofart, I have no choice. Until he cools down, which I doubt will ever happen.

He says he is 22 years old, so he hasn't matured yet. Maybe he will mature in about another 20 years? Some guys don't mature until they are well into their 50s. Poor hobofart must be terribly lonely. The only time I've seen behavior like his is from obsessed men whose girlfriends decide they don't like his frenetic ways and leaves him, only to be confronted by him later with him carrying a gun and shooting them to death. Ever seen the movie "A Cry For Help: The Tracy Thurman Story"? It's a good movie! Hobofart (his real name is Lance) reminds me so much of that husband who just cannot accept the fact that his former wife just does not want him around. So he keeps harassing her. Well, the police in that movie would not help Tracy, but I've actually gotten to know the cops here. Just in case Lance tries to come here, I will not hesitate to do what I have to to get him away. :) I love how Lance complains so heavily that "my ma never taught me manners and decency", and look at what he does on a daily basis. LOL!!! I have to question what kind of person was his ma? Or did he even have a ma? Maybe his mama was a sea turtle that just left him on a beach to hatch, then swam away never to see him again.

Thankfully though there is no crime here. I love this town!! We only lived in Lakewood for a very short time, I could not stay there any longer than we did, because it is such a crappy town!! I have no idea who it was that always knocked on our door at night there. One night I was at work and Anna was home alone and that happened. She said she looked out the window to try and catch a glimpse of who it was, and it was a black guy in army duds. That was what she saw, and she had already gone to bed at that time and the lights were mostly off. She said that man headed for a car driven by a white dude. I told her I was so glad they gave up and moved on! Because I was still at work! What if that had happened and I was just coming home? I wouldn't have wanted to see a stranger on my doorstep going to a car with another stranger parked in front of my house!!! I was also grateful that Anna did not answer the door! I know she knows better. I think if I saw that idiot on my doorstep, and another car parked in front of our house at that hour, I would have pretended I didn't belong there and moved on, hoping they would not recognize my car! I really do not know if every time there was a knock on our door that it was the same person. I have no clue! I was not in a position to see the front door like Anna was in that house. And I wasn't foolish enough to look out the front window. That would have been like putting my bare hand in a rattlesnake cage!! Because that person could have had a gun!!

I just live my life day by day on one simple rule: DON'T TRUST STRANGERS!!!!! Strangers can turn out to be friends, but get to know them before you think of them that way!! Believe me, I've been down the road the other way before with strangers. It's no picnic!! Better to have a stranger hate you than for you to think they are a friend, only to get burned by them later on.

Minnie the Timmy Fan

No one will ever believe this. I know I wouldn't believe it either if I hadn't viewed it with my own eyes. Yesterday morning I was just chillin' with all 3 of our dogs on my bed. My sis Anna was upstairs burning some CDs on my ma's computer, so I was babysitting with Odessa. So I had all 3 dogs on my bed. Well, Minnie started off about to have a little snooze, and then all of a sudden, for no apparent reason, she got to her feet. About 2 feet up from my bed I have a bunch of pictures of INXS, the lowest pic is one where Michael and Timmy are most prominent in the picture. That seemed to be the one Minnie was looking at. When I saw her put her paws up on the wall to seemingly get a better view of that picture, I said to her "Are you an INXS fan too?" Minnie immediately looked at me and waggled her tail. So I asked Minnie if she is a Timmy fan like mommy, or if she is a Michael fan. When I mentioned Tim, she mouthed my nose, and I guess I had my answer! She is a Timmy fan, just like me! hehehe!! Like mommy, like baby. Now I feel ever closer to my Minnie-Muu because of this. Well heck! I always loved all the dogs, but this makes Minnie seem even more human to me. LOL!! I never met another dog that is an INXS fan like this. I cannot explain any other reason why Minnie just rose to her feet like she did, and went to the wall and looked at my pic of INXS. This theory seems to be the most tempting to believe.

Like Me, Hate Me

Either way, it doesn't matter. But when I've gotten along good with someone so well, losing them as a friend does kinda bother me. I mean, I've lost friends before, some I never look back at, others it does tend to bother me when I lose them as friends. Sometimes I am left to wonder what it was I did. So far, the only friend I ever lost that I felt really bad about was a girl named Jennifer. She was like 6 years older than me, and she and I got along so well! We went places together, she was always so sweet and kind, we even exchanged Christmas gifts, and other little gifts that were given for no special reason. I looked up to her like a sister. There were times I was closer to her than I was to my own sisters! She and I even collaborated a couple of times on stories. We gave each other ideas and all that good stuff. And we both shared a lot of love for animals and nature, and especially a fascination for Dian Fossey. Once she even fixed me up with a boyfriend and she and I went to the theater with our boyfriends, and watched a movie called Cape Fear. The guy she fixed me up with was not bad, but he and I just didn't click. Jennifer wanted to see me have a steady boyfriend, so that's why she brought me and this guy together. This was after my truly steady boyfriend, the one I was about to marry, moved to South Carolina. Or was it North Carolina? Well heck it was one or the other!! I remember he wanted me to move with him, but I just couldn't. That area gets too hot! I like it here. The one incident that I can remember well with her, that totally sealed the friendship between us, was when I lost a favorite book in a rain storm.

I remember it was back in the very early days of 1990, the start of the 90s decade, and on this cold, dark, rainy and windy day I was walking from my class to the bus stop, about to head home. The wind was very fierce! It was so strong, it literally blew my umbrella right out of my hand, and I had a load of books and magazines in my arm at that time. One of the books I had was a magazine I had with an article and pics of Dian Fossey. It was my most favorite book of all. I kept it with me so I could always read it during my free periods. It was a magazine that my previous boyfriend got for me, so it was very special in that way as well. I still remember the day he got it for me, but that's a whole other story I will save for a later post. Well anyway, when that gust of wind knocked my umbrella out of my hand, it also made me drop all my books and magazines and stuff. Another nice guy, who I typically saw at the bus stop there, came over and helped me pick up all my items and even caught my umbrella for me. The wind was strong enough that I just pointed the umbrella back towards the wind and it got back in it's normal position once again, and I continued on to the bus stop to wait for the bus. Well, I was almost positive I had all my stuff once again. So, I went home with a clean conscience.

Well, when I got home, I discovered something terrible. I discovered my favorite magazine was gone! I looked and looked in my pile of books, over and over again, thinking maybe I overlooked it, but no. It was just GONE!! I felt so bad, I layed down in bed, put the covers over my head and cried my eyes out! Anna came rushing into the room wondering why I was crying, and when I told her, her attitude was like "Oh is THAT all you're crying about? Because you lost a stupid magazine??" To Anna, it was just "a stupid magazine." But to me, it was a wonderful and exciting array of pictures and words, put together by Dian Fossey herself, and was given to me as a gift by my ex-fiance, who was now also gone. And it made me sad. Well, Anna wouldn't give me solace, neither would Eva, and pa sure as Hell wouldn't! He accused me of acting like a child, and said he wasn't going to "baby" me anymore! All I was looking for was a shoulder to cry on and the one time I needed him the most, my father was accusing me of acting like a baby??!! It was like a nightmare landscape! I was surrounded by insensitive morons! I did find a wee bit of solace in the computers at the school, where I could sit and write about this horrible night the night before. Even back then, I still always typed my diaries on the computer! Well, at the time, Jennifer and I had just met, so I was still in the "getting to know her before I get too close" phase. Well, she came up and sat next to me at the computer, and asked me how I was and I told her I was miserable. She asked why and I told her of the events that happened the night before on my way home. I was having a typical "woe is me" moment. LOL! Believe me, those moments were rare for me back then!!! But to my surprise, Jennifer offered her alleviation. She put her hand on my shoulder and massaged it in a friendly manner, and told me that it'll be OK. I was half teary-eyed, but I looked at her, and I actually felt the sun shining through. I began to feel progressively better as the day went on. Soon, I was not sad anymore. From that day on, Jennifer was like honey and I was like a bee. We became very good friends after that! Or so I thought, for the following 3 years.

Jennifer and I were friends for about 3 years, then in 1993, something happened. I don't know what happened, but for a while, I tried calling her home and all I ever got was an answering machine. At first I thought nothing about it and left a message, knowing she was always good about returning my messages. So I left a message and waited. I waited for about a week, and still hadn't heard from her. So I called her back and left another message, then hung up and waited again. I cannot tell you how every time I heard the phone ring I hoped it was her returning my call, but it wasn't. I must have tried about 3 more times, each time leaving a message and never heard back from her. The thing is, I have no idea what happened to her! She all of a sudden went from being my best buddy and almost a big sis, to just brushing me off like we had never met before, and I had no idea why. I can only speculate.

One theory I had involved this other guy named Bob, who was looking for a roommate to share his apartment expenses. All I was ever going to become was his roommate, so he and I set up a day and time to meet up and he could interview me. Well, somehow my pa caught wind that I was going to meet someone that I was thinking about moving in with, and he forbade me to go. Unfortunately he was my only way of getting there back then. So if he wasn't going to take me, I couldn't go. I could not call Bob and let him know the circumstances, so I called Jennifer, and got her answering machine. I asked her to tell Bob that I just could not go, and my father would not let me move into his apartment. Whether she told him or not, I have no clue! But I did call and I left that message on Jennifer's answering machine. Maybe she thought I was dissing him? Maybe she never got the message due to some kind of malfunction? Maybe she thought I was making excuses, I don't know.

Another theory I had was that my sis and I put an ad in the local newspaper, and well, someone called one day while the ad was in the paper, and she spoke in a whispery voice. I thought it was Jennifer because she had a sort of whispery voice naturally. So I stayed on the line and talked as if it was her. But the more I talked to this woman, the less she sounded like Jennifer! She was kinda weird!! I didn't say much once she started acting off base, but I knew this was not my friend. So, I asked this young woman what her name is and she answered "Cindy." She never spoke above a whisper, which I thought was odd. I asked her if there was something wrong with her voice and she said no. Then she asked me "You know what I'm doing now?" and I said "What?" Almost knowing what I was going to hear next, and not wanting to hear it!! But Cindy answered, "I'm touching myself." I got pissed and said to her "BIG DEAL!!" and banged the phone up in her ear! Well, wouldn't you know it, the phone rang not too long after that, and I didn't know if it'd be her again, or someone else about the ad. This time though Anna answered the phone. She said a woman spoke, and did sound whispery. Well, Anna wailed into her, saying "I know who you are, you called here earlier and bothered my sister!" She told the person on the phone to get off the phone and never call here again. To this day, I often wondered if that may have been Jennifer? I wish to GOD I knew for sure!! But I have a gut feeling that it was my friend!!

Well, both of those incidents happened within days of each other, and I did notice that after that, Jennifer stopped speaking to me. So it had to have been because of one of those events that she and I are not friends anymore. Anna should have asked for the person's name before going off on her. I wish I had answered the phone instead of Anna!! Because I would have known if the person who called really was Jennifer, or just that prank caller, Cindy. I would be able to tell the difference then. Anna couldn't. She didn't talk to Cindy, I did. And frankly I don't think Cindy would have called back! All I told Anna about Cindy was that she didn't speak above a whisper and the things she said and how weird she sounded. Well, at first I thought she was Jennifer. I was kindof expecting her to call because of the message I left on her answering machine about Bob a couple of days before. Jennifer too, like I said, had a whispered voice, for her it was natural. So that was why at first I thought Cindy was Jennifer. Well, for a long time I felt bad about losing the friendship with Jennifer, simply because we were such great friends for so long.

I've grown harder in my old age, and now, losing friends only means something if I've known them for a long time and got along so well with them. This also includes no feelings of treachery coming from them, which I have a sixth sense about. I've been around enough phony people to know when they are going behind my back and saying or doing shit that they shouldn't. And I can literally "feel" if a person holds any degree of resentment towards me, even if they do act nice to my face. Even on the internet! I just have impeccable instincts. Well, one person who I am Facebook friends with, she posted a video about lions up a few days ago. A day, or so, before that she posted a video about the club-winged mannakin, which is a very interesting bird. I love birds a lot! Still hoping to get some of my own. But I hate lions. Well, this person doesn't seem to like the idea that I don't like lions. I told her my favorite animals are lemurs. Well, they are! She keeps asking me why I don't like lions, and I already told her. She didn't know what lemurs are, so I told her to do a search for them, well she did, and came back with this video of a tarsier opening it's eyes slowly. A tarsier is almost a lemur, kind of an intermediate between lemurs and monkeys. But they are not strepsirrhines like lemurs are. So, she seemed to want to know more about lemurs, and asked me to chip in more information. Well, I didn't have time to do it last night, so I waited until today, when I had a spare second or two, and I posted on her wall a couple of pics I had of sifakas, which are my most favorite lemurs.

Really, it is my decision, no one else's. All I ask of my friends is not much, but that they understand that I feel the way I feel, and I cannot change. I've heard all the arguments about lions from biased panther-lovers, I've even been called every name in the book by the more uneducated versions of panther-lovers! NONE of it has any impact on how I feel about panthers. Well, tonight, this friend asked me what my 3 most favorite animals in the world are, and to summarize why I love these animals.
Well, my 3 most favorite animals that I can name right off the bat are lemurs, dolphins and otters, pretty much in that order. All these animals have one special thing in common, they are happy, lively animals that seem to epitomize the joy of living. Dolphins and lemurs even have an extra bit of a personality bonus: They can sing! And they sing really well! As good as any human. Lions? What do they do all day? Nothing but eat, shit and sleep, and they kill for fun. When a lion kills a hyena, do you think they are going to eat it? If you do then think again. When a whole troupe of lions brings down an elephant, do you think they will eat the whole 9-ton carcass? Again, think again. A whole pack of lions may consume about 300 pounds (thinking of maybe a pack of 30 lions). What's left? They leave behind about 95% of the carcass to scavengers. So IMO, lions do kill for fun. They are no better than poachers are in human society. IMO, lions don't even have any compensating qualities. They're still ugly as sin. They try to croak out some sounds, but I've heard more melodious noises come from a dying cow. Sorry, but nothing anyone can say will make me like lions ever again.
************NEVERMIND!!! It was all a joke! And a good one on me! LOL! :P

Animal Love

Well, for as long as I can remember I've always loved animals. I even love animals that no one else likes! I'm well-known for that. Yet, I tend to not like animals that everyone else likes. I don't know why half the time. Maybe because hearing about them, and seeing too many documentaries about them gets old after a while. But for as long as I can remember, I've always loved animals of one kind or another. I first became aware of this love for animals when I was in preschool. I think I was about 3 or 4 years old. The teacher brought in a little tiny toy poodle. That thing was soooooo little and sooooooooo CUTE!!!! And it had the cutest little smile on it's face when it looked at me. I don't remember much from when I was 3 years old, but that vision of that little tiny dog is so fresh in my memory, it feels like it just happened yesterday!

Amazingly enough that when I was that age, I remember I hated dogs! We had an Irish setter when I was that age and I absolutely could not stand that dog!!!! I hated to go out into our backyard because that's where we kept him. His name was Baron. Thankfully he didn't last long at our house. My ma was scared of him too. But that little toy poodle was nothing like an Irish setter!!! Toy poodles are little and cute. Irish setters are big and ugly! I still can't stand irish setters!! Though I like gordon setters. I would never want to have one though. The first pet our family had that I really enjoyed was an old cat named Pepper. I named him that. He just showed up on our patio one day and our family adopted him. I have a picture of me at 4 years old, on Christmas morning, holding that cat in my arms. He looks so huge too! I guess because I was a small child. I don't mean small in age, I was tiny at 4 years old!

I was a cat-lover for a lot of years after that. Ya know, I think all little girls are born cat-lovers?! I don't know why. May be their gentleness. Some of us outgrow that. I know I did! I liked cats up until I was about 5 years old. When I was 5, ma got a puppy once that changed my way of thinking. It was a skye terrier she named Sir Knight. I still remember the day she got him. Well, it was night. She was gone for hours, and I had no idea where she was. I knew at that time she'd been thinking about getting a puppy but I didn't think for one second that was where she was at. But sure enough, when she came home, there she was holding this little tiny black puppy with long hair covering his body. The first words out of my mouth was "Is he ours?" ma said "Yes. His name is Sir Knight." At exactly the same time, our close family friend also got her children a puppy and named it Fifi. Their's was a terrier-poodle cross and cute as heck!!! If I recall correctly, Fifi looked almost sheltie-like. Well, Sir Knight didn't last long at our place either. We only had him for 2 months. My ma was like that though! She wore out of pets too quickly and I always hated that about her!!! I would keep a dog forever and ever, if it was my own choice! But I was at the mercy of my parents, and ma would keep a pet for a few weeks, tire of it, and then give it away, and that caused a lot of stress on me as a child because we would get these pets, I'd get attached, and no sooner than I'd become attached that I would have to say goodbye!

The next pet we had was a cat named Midnight. Midnight and Pepper looked a lot alike, both were black and white domestic shorthairs. But Pepper was much bigger than Midnight. Well, I loved Midnight a lot! I remember we got her while we were living in Toutle, and when Mount St. Helens blew, Midnight had had kittens, and she and the kittens moved with us to California. I remember one of the kittens had deformed back legs, it was an unusual anomaly, and it actually healed it's self when the kitten got older. I remember that kitten went to a friend of some relatives we had living in California. This person actually named the cat "Retardo"!! UGH!!! She named the cat that because of it's deformed legs. I named that kitten "Ashley", because of Mount St. Helens. I would have felt a lot better if this friend had kept that name. Well, while we were there, I saw the kitten get older, and as I mentioned the leg problem she was born with actually healed it's self. Unfortunately that cat later died. It was killed by a dog. At that time, I was strongly into dogs, but because it was a kitten from my Midnight, who was also at this time gone, I felt especially bad by the loss of this cat.

Well, before Ashley (sorry, but I refuse to call that kitten "Retardo"!) was killed, we got another dog, her name was Dolly. She was a half collie and half St. bernard dog, and about 8 weeks old when we got her. I was so thrilled when we got Dolly, it was actually her that turned me into a dog-lover! I was about 8 years old when we got her. I never knew having a puppy was so much fun. My mind had become a lot less fuzzy, and frankly, my memories of Sir Knight had been wiped almost completely out. But not totally. But it was getting to know Dolly that made me a true dog-lover. And that love for dogs lasted for about the following 3 years. Well, Dolly had a problem. We had a houseguest at the time we got her. A woman named Pam, who was a friend of the family's. She had come to stay with us, and when she did, she spoiled Dolly. Dolly had actually gone from being a sweet, gentle puppy, to a monster! Pam came and stayed with us for about a month, then left. When she left, ma tried to get rid of Dolly by giving her to some other friends of the family. I was miserable when ma told me that she found another home for Dolly, and I began to weep. At exactly that moment, my pa called me on the phone. He knew I sounded sad and upset and asked me why I was crying. I told him it was because ma had gotten rid of Dolly, and I wanted her back. So pa said he was going to phone ma and talk her into bringing Dolly home. So we got off the phone, and I sat there in hopes pa would be able to convince ma to bring Dolly back. Well, he did, and ma brought Dolly home once again.

Well, once again, the plans were spoiled because Pam moved back in the house. This time, she stayed for about 2 months! I kept wondering if this odd woman, whom I didn't really know, had somewhere else she could go because every time she came over and stayed, Dolly would become loony! Well, this time when Pam moved out, ma said she was going to send Dolly to the pound once and for all. I begged her not to, but she didn't care. Pam had ruined Dolly's disposition. I was miserable again! I went to school hoping and praying that ma would reconsider. When I got home from school that day, it felt so strange not having Dolly jump up to greet me. I went to my room and cried my eyes out, for days!! So far, the only pet we ever had that has withstood the test of time was Midnight. We had her for a year. Most of our other pets were gone in only 4 months. That's about how long we had Dolly, and she was the longest-lasting next to Midnight.

Well, after Dolly, we got a german shepherd-like dog that I named Nanu, after a favorite character in a movie, played by Jan-Michael Vincent. I had a major crush on him when I was 8 years old!!! We had Nanu for about 8 months, and he broke Dolly's record. Well, he had a crush on the neighborhood wanderer, named Sleepy. Sleepy was a GSD/collie cross, and well known and liked. But her owner let her wander around a lot, and Nanu used to play with her all the time, like she was his big sister or something. Well, one day after church I came home, and usually one of the first things I did was get my play clothes on and play with Nanu in the backyard. Well, I went into the back yard, only to discover that Nanu was not there. I asked my father where he was and he didn't know. He said the last time he saw Nanu was when he was playing with Sleepy. So I went to the home of the guy who owned Sleepy, and asked him if he'd seen Nanu. He responded in a rather funny way if I remember correctly. I knocked on his door, and he answered. I told him that my dog was missing and was last seen with his dog, and asked him if he had seen Nanu. He said "No. Goodbye." and slammed the door in my face. I thought that was odd, but didn't think much of it because I was always brought up to trust the words of an adult. Nowadays I look back and I say "I'd be willing to bet anything that guy had a hand in Nanu's disappearance!" I don't know what he did to Nanu! But if I could find him and somehow slip him a truth serum, I'd find out he had some hand in my dog's dematerialization. Nanu was GONE!! I looked in every conceivable place, called the pound, called as many vet offices I could, even asked everyone who had met Nanu. No one had seen him. I never saw any trace of him again. Although my sis Anna claims she saw him late one night roaming in front of the house. But I would think if it had been him, he would have come into the yard and got back in his dog house, which he loved!! Well, if Nanu was still alive and just found another home, I hope he spent his years in a happy place. And if Sleepy's owner did have a hand in Nanu disappearing, I hope karma comes back to bite him HARD!!!!

Well, I spent my younger years favoring dogs and cats as far as animals go. But then in 1985, that all changed. We had another dog, Andy, who was a papillon. Well, one day I was watching TV and ma came in and bent down to program the VCR to record something. While she was bent over, Andy reached up with his nose and began sniffing ma's butt! I never knew dogs even did that until I saw Andy doing it that second! From that moment on, I was disgusted by dogs! Even now, dogs still do things that disgust me. However, I wouldn't trade having these little dogs for nothing else in the world!! But dogs were no longer among my favorite animals. About this time I began turning my animal love to other domestic animals. Among them, cats, goats, sheep, pigs, horses, cattle. We also lived on a farm, so I got to know these animals as well. Well, the following year, 1986, that all changed. I saw Rikki-Tikki-Tavi, the story of a mongoose, and I liked it. It kinda inspired me to learn more about these animals, just to see if they really are anything like the animal portrayed in the cartoon. The more I learned about mongooses, the more I loved them. The studying I did on mongooses also inspired a story by a friend, now deceased. It was the story titled "The Mischievous Mongoose", and yes in a way (indirectly) it was inspired by Rikki-Tikki. The book is on the UMG Productions site, check it out!!

Well, this interest in mongooses sort of inspired interests in other exotic animals as well. Besides mongooses, at the time I was studying about marsupials, especially kangaroos, raccoons, weasels, otters, and panthers. At that time, I especially learned to love panthers. Yes, you read right!! I said I LOVED panthers!!! You name it, any kind of panther. Lions, tigers, leopards, jaguars, I loved them all!! I think actually cheetahs became my favorite. And that lasted for about a year and a half. Then again in 1987, that all changed. That year, I was staying home from school sick one day, and I watched a documentary about lemurs of Madagascar. Well, I gotta tell you, they changed my whole outlook on animals! I'd recently gone to a zoo, and I would eyeball the panthers, but nothing compared to watching these lemurs jumping around from one tree to another! They were so good at it, they made it look easy! But I know it's not. It was due to this that I saw panthers in a very different light!! What I used to think were big, beautiful, majestic animals I now saw as ugly, lazy, boring animals!! When I was at the zoo, I realized, all they do all day long is just lie there on their bellies and backs! No action, nothing. So obviously, the documentaries I used to see on television about panthers exaggerated their lifestyles! Watching lemurs rocketing through the trees became much more fun and interesting! Like watching a very well choreographed ballet! Only these were performed by animals. Lemurs to be exact. I never saw anything of that nature performed by any panther!! The closest was by leopards and even their movements cannot even come close to comparing to those of lemurs!!! Lemurs are obviously more graceful, more mobile, better-looking, and more interesting than the panther family. And I believe that even to this day, 23 years later! I loved lemurs, left panthers behind and haven't looked back since. The only panther I give any amiability to today is the snow leopard. And well, even I cannot deny a family group their ONE good-looking relative. Snow leopards are truly a diamond in the ruff!! Every family has one!

Well, that's the story of my ever-changing love for animals. Nowadays, the only animals I don't like are arachnids and panthers. Both for different reasons. People actually think I'm joking when I say I hate panthers, but I am not! I truly do not like them. I get asked why a lot, and while I think it's a stupid question, I answer it anyway. Because I just do!! That's MY choice. I should not have to explain it to anyone really. If a person hates me because I hate panthers, then they are pathetic!! But take me as I am, and you're awesome!!! :)

Gay Rage!!

LOL! OK so I don't normally make fun of gay people, but yesterday, after my daily 3-mile walk, I signed back on to YouTube to check my messages, and I noticed this one from someone who calls himself daphill awaiting approval:

"EAT A TWINKIE...OR 12!!! YOU DON'T EAT MUCH??? YOU DRINK WATER AND WALK EVERYDAY??? CRAWL UNDER A ROCK??? OR A CHAIR??? YOU'RE RIGHT IT AIN'T GONNA HAPPEN BECAUSE YOU COULDN'T CRAWL UNDER MOUNT EVEREST!!! YOU MUST STINK AND YOU'RE GONNA DIE YOUNG!!! I DON'T HATE YOU. I JUST THINK YOU'RE GLUTTONOUS AND PATHETIC. IT IS OBVIOUS YOU DON'T CARE BECAUSE YOU DON'T TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. YOU'RE A MASOCHIST!!! YOU CARE ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS....THE DONUTS!!! hAHAHAHAHAHAHA "

Keep in mind, I never met the idiot, and I know nothing of him. At first I thought it was HOBOFART back up to his old tricks, but then I looked at the person's profile and noticed he's not. But I did notice he is gay, and he is indeed a troll. He even goes around shit-talking other gays. Obviously a hypocritical dim-wit!! And what's this:

"IT IS OBVIOUS YOU DON'T CARE BECAUSE YOU DON'T TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. YOU'RE A MASOCHIST!!! "

BWAHAHAHAHA!! Too funny! As if he knows me!! LOL! I actually had to stop reading his comment when he said "IT IS OBVIOUS YOU DON'T CARE" because I had to laugh so hard!! I love it when people get so pissed off because I don't agree with them that they start acting like they think they know what kind of a person I am. They really have no clue. But I like to interact with all my viewers. Whether they are good viewers or bad ones. Finding out he is actually gay helped a great deal in allowing me to have a little fun with him. Not that I like him, but because I just like poking at people like him. People like him, who are gay, face almost the same kind of persecution fat people do. Not that I agree with it or condone it, just with people like this guy, who think that now that they have all the rights they could ever want, now they can go around and shit-talk others. This dude is a nutter, that's for sure! hehehe!

Anyway, this was my response to him:

"Look who's talking. You're GAY!! You admit it yourself. So maybe you have AIDS. HAHAHAAHAA!!! YOU'RE GONNA DIE YOUNG!! I DON'T HATE YOU EITHER! I'm just showing you how stupid you sound by judging all fat people just because you happen to not like them. :) "

I didn't really believe he has AIDS, I was just mocking his stereotypical ways. Now, I have gay friends, so don't misunderstand me. Most of them are scientists. I have nothing in the world against gays. I just don't like the ones that are like daphill. Believe me, I know his type all too well. He thinks the world owes him everything and has to agree with everything he says or believes, otherwise they have to face his rage. He's mad because I don't like Joan Rivers. Well, I never did like her, and I never will. Her shows are boring to me. I never found her the least bit funny. And I see no reason to think differently now. Especially now knowing people like daphill are examples of the kind of people that like her. Not for me!!

Well, his tirade went on and on and on, I suppose he was thinking that the more he argued and called me names the better his chances were of changing my mind. But no it didn't work. I still don't like Joan Rivers. I'm not that easily swayed!! I looked at his profile some more, and apparently he lives in Paris, France (now I know why everyone says the french are assholes!!), and he's rich (which I don't believe for one second), and that he has tons of friends from all over the world (again, I don't buy it!) I wish to GOD I had a nickel for every troll that used their financial status as an argument, I'd be able to buy and sell Joan Rivers!! I have friends who make 6 and 7-figures annually, none of them would ever get on the internet and talk about it!! Especially since I didn't bring it up!!

Well, today I felt like I had so much fun with daphill last night that I decided to poke at him again this morning just for the Hell of it. LOL! Yea, I know I'm a little devil. LOL! I wrote this specifically to him this morning, almost in hopes he would see it, but remembering too how last night he said "I have a life and I don't spend that much time on YouTube", but I did hold out some hope he'd see it. This is what I said:

"Well, the next day and I still say Joan Rivers sucks ass. LOL! So, I guess your little tantrum didn't change anything. BWAH!!! :P "

And then I went back and noticed YES!! He did respond to me. This is what he said:

"Yep...another day and you're still a fat, foul-mouthed uneducated mess...or should I say mass. And Joan Rivers probably made another million making jokes about you. "

I especially thought this was hysterical coming from his mouth, since he was the foul-mouthed uneducated mess that started this. Or should I say "mass"? He's probably a fat-ass himself. He'll probably come in here and deny it but I wouldn't believe him if he posted a picture. Well, I responded to him simply with laughter, and reminding him that Joan Rivers still sucks ass. :) He can say what he likes, but I will always believe that. Just because a person is gay does not mean I have to treat them with respect, even though they have faced years of persecution. Gay people can be just as good or as bad as anyone else. And the only good thing I've found about daphill is knowing that because he is gay, he will never reproduce. :)