A New Experience

Well, last night, as you may already be able to see, I changed the background of this blog. I wanted something a little more exciting. Though I noticed that it does take forever to load!! I don't know how to fix that except maybe over time, like when this new Blogger template deal gets out of the BETA stage, it might become faster. I don't know. I didn't think I'd ever know how to call up that template maker. But I figured it out, and decided to change the whole look and feel of this blog. To those who are new to this thing as much as I am, please be patient! I think it looks good myself!

Well, on YouTube, many of you might know this guy who calls himself CopperCab. He's become quite famous for his hot-blooded rants about gingers having souls, and yadda-yadda-yadda. I actually kinda like the boy. He and I have a lot in common. He stands up for what he believes in and is obviously very passionate about it. I tend to be too, but I try now not to let angry passions get in the way. But he needs to fix a few things. He keeps saying how he doesn't care what people say about him. But it is perfectly obvious that the opposite is the truth. If he didn't care, he would not get so pissed off and make videos that constantly tell the haters to f*** off. Most of his videos is about this.

Well, he saw this video of a South Park episode where Cartman is mocking him. It's supposed to appear in the new season, and probably already has. Personally, if it were me, and I was appearing in any way, shape or form on a program that I like (which he did admit he still likes South Park) I would be flattered. Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery. I told him in a situation like that, he has one of 2 choices, he can either sue South Park creators, or he can be flattered that they love him enough to copy him. Personally, I would be flattered. Life is so much easier to live if you can just laugh at yourself and move on! So that's what I do! It beats getting angry at every little thing out there. I found that if you let little things get you angry, you get to be pretty miserable in the end. Like the other day, when this commenter came in here and started blasting me because I don't like Jon Stevens. Do you think for one second I'm going to let a random, anonymous stranger bother me just because I was saying what I felt? If you do, you don't know me at all. I said I only care what my friends and family thinks. Don't get me wrong, I don't want to slam someone because they have a different opinion than mine. But I just want to point out that I will not let the haters get to me. In fact, I was laughing at her post. And I still hate Jon Stevens. :) She's not going to change that no matter how hard she tries or how hard she slams. No one is. This is who I am and how I feel. I don't have to explain anything to anyone. I usually just choose to do so :)

I always accept all comments anyway, no matter how hard they slam me. Just because that's what I feel the comment feature is for. Everyone has a right to say what is on their mind. So many people have come in here saying things to the effect of "You are a joke!" and I just laugh at them! Really, I do! Because they're silly. And that's what makes life so enjoyable. The ability to laugh in the face of things like that. Someone made a video of me once calling it "The Tale of a Stalking Whale". They thought they were going to piss me off. They didn't! In fact, I was flattered. I love whales. On the contrary, their video is what has turned me into this highly confident person that I am now! Whales are beautiful and graceful animals that are highly intelligent. I sure don't take it as an insult when someone calls me a whale. I love it! I'm so confident now thanks to their video, some people think I am being narcissistic. Well, maybe I am to a degree. But it's better than what I was before they made that video about me. :) I was a wreck! Because I had just lost my Groucho and I was really down in the dumps because I missed her so much.

Well, writing has always helped me come to terms with things, and I wrote a couple of stories about Groucho. It helped a lot. Anyway, I know this kid is troubled. Someone I subscribe to has actually spoken with him, and says he has some problems in his life. Though this same person said that slamming him is illegal. I don't know about that, but I do feel it's wrong when adults slam on minors. Just as I feel it's wrong for minors to slam on adults. But when the minor starts it, as they usually do in my experience, they are fair game! I always say they're lucky I'm not their mamma! I'd slap them if I caught them slamming on adults like they do! Boy my sis Eva does on her kids!! She doesn't give a shit that laws have been passed to prevent parents from spanking their kids now! She does it anyway. I've seen her do it. And you won't find any kids today that are better behaved than her's are. Eva's attitude is "I'm the one who carried these kids for 9 months, went through 48 hours of hard labor (and I do mean HARD), and was lying on that table screaming my eyeballs out to bring them into this world, and I'll be damned if the laws are going to tell me how to raise my kids!" LOLOL!! That's what she says all the time!! Gotta love Eva! She means it too. She doesn't spank them all the time though. Only when they need it, and she only gives them one or two swats. I've never even seen her swat them 3 times come to think of it. So, I wouldn't call that abuse like some people do! And Eva is pregnant yet again! Her latest baby is due in July. Ya know I think she was serious about having 20 kids??!! She's got 8 now, and now another one on the way! When is she going to stop is what I want to know. Well, at least she doesn't have to claim this one in this year's census.

How about that census thing? We had to fill one out this year too. I hate that! But I remember working for the 2000 census. It was good money! But the job it's self SUCKED!!! I always ran into some pretty crappy people! One woman was so scary, she made me want to carry my can of pepper spray to work every day! If I had it when she charged at me, I would have sprayed her ass!! Believe me! I felt threatened. She came barreling out of her house screaming and fussing, and waving her arms and then got right up in my face. She was damn lucky I didn't have my spray with me!! So was I because I probably would have got fired then! LOL!! All that just because she didn't want to fill out the long form. I didn't blame her! I mean that long form asked a bunch of dumb questions I couldn't even ask my closest friends! Let alone a stranger! But I would definitely NOT have handled it the way she did! hehe!!

Worst People on YouTube

One thing I've noticed that besides the usual trolls that just happen to pop up everywhere, the rudest people on YouTube are the self-proclaimed computer geeks whose videos show nothing but their video game playing skills. There was a girl who commented rudely on a video of mine a couple of weeks ago, and she was a self-proclaimed expert at Star Craft, or something like that, I dunno. I don't know the video games these days. She didn't have a single video about anything else except to show off her game playing skills with this video game. Ya know I never saw the point in posting videos of yourself playing video games? Aren't there other websites for that kind of BS? I mean I think posting yourself playing a video game on YouTube is pointless and stupid.

Perhaps this proves I was right about why today's kids are much more rude and obnoxious than I ever remember them being before. I blame it on video games and anime cartoons. We had those when I was a kid, and yes we did have our share of rude children. But they seem to be much worse today than they were back then. I couldn't be rude to anyone because if my ma ever caught me saying the kind of things I've seen today's children say to adults on the internet, she would have slapped me shitless!! Even if it was on the internet!! Parents really need to watch their kids, even on the net! And beat the tar out of them when they do something they shouldn't. But now you cannot discipline your kids today because of Bill Clinton. It was all his idea to make it illegal to touch your own kids! Pretty soon, a parent won't be able to hug their own children without the threat of being thrown in jail! I know nowadays a teacher cannot hug a child, even if it is to comfort them. And that's a shame! I can remember an incident where I was running and playing and I slipped and fell, scraped myself really bad. My teacher put her arm around me, gave me some soothing words and it made me feel better. Then she took me inside and bandaged me up and I was right as rain. This was before my transformation. By the time I got into my high school years, I didn't trust anyone and I hated to be touched. I think I should point out though that that was the fault of the other kids, not the teachers. But still. I think this helps point out why kids today are worse than they've ever been before. But I would be willing to bet that the same kids who were really bad back then, were also kids whose lives at home centered around playing video games.

Well, this was just an observation. I'm kinda having second thoughts about putting video games in Metazoica. But there is one I think would be really good and I've been thinking of it since I first got this idea back in 1998.

Who Do You Prefer?

Well, I know we cannot bring Michael back to INXS. Such a crying shame too, because he was out of this world. No pun intended. When I first saw an INXS video, Michael was what caught my attention first and foremost. I've never seen a band like INXS. Almost all the guys are good-looking. Compared to other bands where only one or 2 members are good looking. Usually the front men. But back then, I even thought Kirk was cute. That's not to say all bands are like that. I've seen some bands, like Guns n Roses, where all the band members are ugly. But never have I seen another band where all the band members had equal sexual charisma like INXS does. I'm not normally a celebrity hound, but I always felt a little bit starstruck when I was around INXS. I always wanted to meet these guys. It was a shame I never had a formal meeting with Michael. Just an informal kiss on the face. But when I was growing up, my ma always told me that when celebs meet the fans, they always forget the meeting the next day, or they will act nice to the fan's faces, and turn around behind their back and talk shit about them. I never even thought about meeting INXS when I saw Michael in concert because at 17, I would have been heartbroken if I even dreamed any of these handsome men were like that. Now, I wouldn't care, but as a teenager, you kindof expect your idol to love you as much as you love them. No matter how I was raised.

Well, I thought INXS was dead after Michael died. It was a shame I only got to see them once, I had wished I got to see them more often with Michael leading. But that's what happens when you grow up and have boyfriends of your own. I lost interest in INXS. Between the times of 1991 and 1997 (when Michael died), I had 3 boyfriends. One I almost married, one was an on-and-off kind of relationship. And the last I did marry, and eventually divorced. I'm just not the marrying type. I liked to travel and he couldn't because he would always have to work. Marriage was too confining to me, so I divorced. Simple as that. Well anyway, I had no interest in seeing INXS again after Michael died. Just didn't seem the same to me. I was living in Toutle at the time (near Mount St. Helens), and it was hard enough really getting to the one concert I did manage to make it to. Looking at the listings on inxs.com, I realized I didn't remember if I went to the concert in Seattle or in Portland. It could have been either-or. So I put that I went to both of them! LOL! I don't remember because that was long ago and I didn't do the driving. In fact, I was asleep most of the way back home. It could have been the one in Seattle. I think the one in Portland was cancelled. Not sure.

Well, after Michael was gone, INXS hired this ugly goon named Jon Stevens to do the singing. He has absolutely NONE of the sexual appeal that Michael (or even JD Fortune for that matter) had. On one of the pictures of the guys with him on the site, I wrote "To the ugly SOB on the bottom center (Jon Stevens) Get the F*** out of my way!! You're blocking my view of the Timster!" I absolutely do not like him at all. And it's not because he was taking Michael's place. I just don't like Jon Stevens. Though going back it appears that my comment was deleted. Oh well! They can delete my comments there, but not here. And they cannot stop me from thinking that! I've seen people who think Jon Stevens was better looking than JD and I'm always like "You've got to be kidding me!" Maybe it's just me. I fall in love better with guys who have dark hair. In fact, when Jon F. turned his hair blond back in 1997, it tarnished my image of him for life. LOL! I love Jon F. but that was a big mistake he made. I'm not saying blond people are ugly! I'm just saying I have a tendency to be more attracted to dark-haired men. Sort of ironic the man I married was blond himself! LOL! My sisters think I must have been doped up on meds when I married him. I was taking a sleeping aid at the time, but that was not true!! But it did happen we were only married a couple of years. But his hair color had nothing to do with that.

Well, I didn't like Jon Stevens. I didn't think he was that good of a singer, and he had none of the sexual charisma. I never saw him perform live, but I have seen videos of him. Now, JD was different. But I am not even a huge fan of JD's. But to be realistic, he did have the closest vocals and sexual charisma that Michael had. I mean let's face it. If JD had let his hair grow, he could have almost been Michael. Though I know that's not what he wanted to go for. I like JD. Don't love him like the rest of the band, but I like him. Simply because he was the best match. His vocals matched Michael's IMO. Some don't feel that, but I do. Those that resent JD seem to always be those who say he is trying to become Michael, and I don't believe that is true. Though I always say people have a right to believe what they want. I don't want to take that away from anyone. But I believe it was JD who said he didn't want to become Michael, he just wanted to move foreward with INXS. I also notice people who say they have met and loved Jon Stevens have said that Tim was always drunk when they met him. One person even said he was a complete douche. I was like "wow!" Tim was never like that with me. But everybody's experiences with each of the band members have been different. Kirk was the one I had problems with, but everyone else raves about how he was always so into the fans. I never saw that though.

Now, I've heard the stories about Timmy being drunk at the concerts with Jon Stevens. I don't think that was anything to worry about. I think at that time, he was still trying to come to terms with losing Michael, and maybe drinking was his way of "getting away" from the grief. I was the same way when I lost Groucho. Though I didn't take to drinking. But different people handle grief differently. But I can tell you, I can still be a complete douche myself sometimes. Though I usually like to remain civil and graceful. I mean, why be mean and nasty when you don't have to? So I don't. It helps a lot that I never go into forums. Unless someone has guts enough to say what they have to say on my blog, anything they say about me in the forums just falls on deaf ears :) I have nothing at all to do with the forums, and I don't pay any attention to anyone (except friends) on inxs.com. They have where they show on the homepage members activity, and unless I see something from someone I like, I don't even click on their activity. What those people do is none of my business. I go there to talk INXS with friends, and to support the guys. I don't care about anything or anybody else!

For Those Who Don't Know Yet

I posted this on my Metazoica blog, but I think I'd like to post this here too. Just in case people who read here do not read my Metazoic blog, and want to check out the Metazoica site. This video I created shows you how to view the site. So far, I've only worked on 2 categories (families), and I've just been a bit too busy to work on any more. Today especially was too nice to stay inside and work on the computer, so I used that time to finish my bird cage. Anyway, here is the video:

Update On My Bird Cage

Well it is a sunny day outside, not a single cloud in the sky, and it was rather warm too. The perfect kind of day I figured I could finish putting the poles up on my cage. The cage has been sitting undone for quite a long time. I like to work on these outside, so I've been waiting for a day just like today. I took my unfinished cage outside to drill the frame in, and it looks pretty darn good so far! Took a lot of work to get the screws drilled in place. It's not as easy as it may look! But I've got all 4 poles in place now, all I have to do is order the acrylic sides, and a solid wooden back, make a hood, and I'll be finished. This cage still is not what one would call "professional quality", but it's good enough for me. Since I am the only one really going to be seeing these birds and stuff, the cages do not have to be professional just yet. Though when I get started on the gecko, tree frog and dart frog cages, I'm going to have to be a little more careful. Those cages are going to need constant misting, so I have to build it good enough for that. There can't be any gaps at all, everything has to be measured perfectly down to the last decimal. Partly because I don't need misting getting on the floor and also because these smaller animals are excellent escape-artists.

I also have an acrylic sealant that I used to seal up some of the cracks. This way the birds don't get hurt if they happen to get on the floor level of the cage and their toenail might slip into a crevice or something to that effect. So maybe next month I will be getting some varnish and some paint-on water sealer. Then maybe the month after that I will be ready to get the acrylic siding. We shall see!! I still need to make something in the way of a groove to put the acrylic in so it doesn't slip and the birds don't figure a way to get out.

In other news, my web designer finished the Meet The Mammals section of Metazoica. I invite anyone to check it out. So far, it looks great! Or I think it does. I still have to give the instructions given to me by the person who designed the template to my web designer, and see what he can do with it. He's been very good so far. I really like him. He said that I need to create a more eye-catching site and I totally agree with him! I need to start with the banner and work my way down. I've been thinking of a 3D-movie type banner, with some animals from the site racing across with the word "Metazoica" in the background. That would be very eye-catching!! People love 3D animation now. I don't like anime, but I can agree about the 3D animation. So I thought why not have a 3D animated banner for the site? There's no reason I could think of that that wouldn't work! But that's just one of the improvements I'd need. I'm trying to go by some of his boss's suggestions. He knows what he's doing, I'm sure. At first I was going to have a flash banner, but after I thought about it, I thought an animated banner would be better.

That's not the only change that Metazoica is going to be going through. I'm also going to have a members section where I will have movies about some of the animals. I've been thinking more along the lines of having them cartoony-style, like the animals on the movie Madagascar. Only less of the extreme features. Have them look somewhat real and somewhat cartoony. I've also been thinking of having some video games up. And a rating system for members to rate each animal on the site. That should be cool!

I recently wrote to the creators of the new inxs.com site and suggested they put up a section where members can upload video onto the site. He wrote me back and said that sounded like a great idea. Then he hit me with a trick question. He asked me if I have any videos already up on YouTube. I was thinking he meant like INXS videos, which I do not have yet. I was not sure they were legal! Though I've seen other people post some. Since my skills as a still photographer suck tiger balls, I thought instead I could take videos of INXS when I go to the concerts, and post them up on inxs.com. Everyone raves about my videos. Though mostly because they are funny. I will also be adding comedy to these videos as well. It's not going to be all concert clips. I told him I have videos I have done on YouTube, but very little has to really do with INXS. But I told him he is more than welcome to check out the videos I do have, strickly to show him what I can do with videos. I looked back again at some of my other videos that do talk about INXS. I heard the video again that talked about the site being up. I was like "Oh my! I hope he doesn't take that the wrong way!" LOL! That video was supposed to be funny. I was making fun of myself in the video more than the site or INXS. So far, one other fan has seen it and taken it seriously. Oh well. I still kinda hope that the site manager considers my suggestion. If not, well, I will continue to share my videos here, on MySpace, Facebook and YouTube.

"I Hope You Never Get A Dog!"

This is a video I did for this person who trolls my guestbook on my Chihuahua website every year. She's done it for the past 2 years, and I am expecting her again soon. She always says something to the effect of "I hope you never get a dog!" I always find it kinda funny because I know who she is, and I know exactly why she believes I should never get a dog. So, I decided to make a mocking video about it, explaining the whole idea. At the end, I ask the experts about how I am with my dogs and if I should get another dog or not. I mention that only these experts are the ones whose opinions count to me. So far they have no complaints. So if they have no complaints, neither do I. But it makes for a funny video anyway. Enjoy everyone!

When Opportunity Knocks

Funny how I was thinking about this last night when I was watching a program about hording. They said that excessive hording always coincides with excessive shopping. I couldn't agree more! This one woman the show was portraying last night happened to mention that if she goes shopping and sees something she wants and doesn't get it right then, she does nothing but think about it until she does get it. That triggered a memory of something that I remember from my teen years. A big thing that taught me a lesson I will never forget! Well, it was big to me! To others, it may just sound like something insignificant. But being a teenager with her heart set on something, it was a big thing to me.

When I was a teenager, I loved penguins! In fact, I still love penguins. I'm a bird-lover, what can I say?! I also loved collecting plush animals from the World Wildlife Fund Endangered Species collection. They were my favorite because they were so real looking! One day I went to the mall, and there at Waldenbooks was a collection of WWF plush animals that they were selling. They had a whole bunch of them all displayed on a stand, but the one that caught my eye the most was this full-sized emperor penguin. But there was one problem, that penguin had a price tag of $40. And at the age of 14, $40 might as well have been $1000 to me! There was no way I could have saved that much. And I feared that by the time I could raise that much, the toys would be gone. Well, I had to leave it put, but if I didn't know any better, I would have shoplifted that penguin!! But I knew that was wrong so I didn't do it. I left that store empty-handed, and went home, but when I did go home, I thought of and talked about nothing but that some day I was going to get that plush emperor penguin.

Well, for the following 3 months, until summer, I continuously went back to that store just to see if that plush penguin was there. Sure enough it was! All that time, it was still there. Well, my grandma somehow heard of my dilemma, and she wanted to offer me $40 to paint and finish the drawers in her bedroom, so I said OK. It was now summer vacation, and I was going to stay there a couple of weeks and work on her drawers. The weekend before I left for grandma's, I went back to that mall to see if the penguin I wanted was still there. Sure enough it was. I figured it has been there for 3 whole months that maybe it will still be there when I get paid in 2 weeks. I managed to have it almost finished in a week. And then grandma went nuts one day. So I spent the rest of that day just working on her drawers so I could go home the next day. I didn't like staying at her place when she was going nuts. She'd start crying and get freaky sometimes and I didn't like it. Don't get me wrong, I loved my grandma! But I hated it when she would get all nutty.

The very next day I headed for home, and I got some extra money that I had been saving that I thought would be good enough to cover the tax on that plush penguin. Then I caught the bus back down to the mall, all the way singing to myself "I'm going to get my penguin!" I was high on anticipation! It was bright and early when I took off, I was going to quickly run down to the mall, purchase my penguin, run home and go back to sleep, caressing with my new plush pet! That bus could not get there fast enough for me. When it finally reached the parking lot, I ran out of that bus, all the way into the mall and back to Waldenbooks, all with the greatest excitement. I fully expected to see that shelf again, with all the plush animals sitting on it, including my penguin, just like I saw them only one week before, and every time I went there for the previous 3 months. But when I got there, all the plush animals, including my penguin, were all gone!! It was like an arrow had pierced me right through the heart! Just when I had finally got the money to purchase this item, it was gone!

The first words that came to my mind was of course "Where are they???" So I asked the clerk. He told me the plush animals were not selling very well, so they sent them back. I even went so far as to tell the clerk how I'd scrimped and saved for 3 months to get that penguin, and about the job I did for grandma. All he could give me was a half-assed apology, which was more like a brush-off. I asked him when they would ever have those again and he said "Maybe at Christmas." Well, you could imagine my disappointment. There I was with the money I had saved for months, and the last bit I worked so hard at. And nothing to show for it. I was really upset! That's probably the most upset I ever have been in my life. At least at that time. It taught me a lesson too! It taught me that from then on, when I see something I really want, I need to find a way to get it right then! Because it won't wait till I have the money. I had just seen that penguin only a week before, and up until then, had been there for 3 full months, so the thought of asking the store to hold it until I got paid didn't even cross my mind. I figured it would still be there then. But the clerk told me they had just sent the plush animals back only a couple of days before I got there to purchase it.

Just FTR, in case anybody was wondering, Waldenbooks never did get those plush toys back not even for Christmas. And today, you can't get those plush toys anywhere! I've looked! Even on ebay they don't have them. I looked on ebay, Amazon, even on the World Wildlife Fund's own website. They are nowhere now. Even stores that used to always have them don't have them anymore. So that was one opportunity that I completely missed out on, and would never get back again. Just goes to show you! When opportunity knocks, you'd better answer the door! To this day, I wondered what GOD's plan for me was there. Why was I not able to get that penguin, even though I wanted it more than anything? I guess I will never know for sure.

Still Learning The New Site

I've got so much on my plate, I just go into inxs.com when I can. I got people who want the Metazoic site finished NOW. It's just me working on it now! So I juggle it into my schedule when I can. But I also have to live a little thing called life. I don't want to disappoint my viewers, but I am a busy person. I work on Metazoica when I can. I'd like it to be faster myself, but since it's only me working on it, I can only do it at my pace. I barely have much time to get into inxs.com. Most of my time online is spent doing the Metazoic site, or with fans and other people I enjoy. I don't go into inxs.com with the intent of conversing with anyone. Particularly not strangers. So, my friends from Facebook, or MySpace, if I haven't responded to you, please accept my apologies. If they want to say anything to me, they know where to find me anyway. I think by now all my friends know about this blog, and they all can reach me in Facebook or MySpace.

Yeah, I know. I might as well be known as a cyber-hermit. You all know by now how I got this way. Or you should. Now, anyone who isn't on my Facebook or MySpace, I have NO interest in conversing with. :) Anyway, I was thinking about the new INXS site. They have where fans can upload pics. But since I am such a lousy photographer, they should have where the fans can upload videos. When I go to concerts, I'm going to be taking videos, not still pics. I only have one camera, and it is so old, and eats up batteries like nobody's business!! If I thought I was any good at photography, I would get myself one of those $1500 cameras and equipment. But my skills as a photographer SUCKS!!!! I'm much better at making movies. Of course I will be condensing these films so I can post them up to YouTube. I will also be in the films, adding a bit of comedy and narrative relief. But don't expect me to film the lead singers, whomever they may be. My primary focus will be Tim!! He is the only one I really go there to see. I still don't give 2 shits about Brandon Flowers!!! All I want to see is my favorite men of INXS. I may capture some JD if he is there for my JD loving buddies. I will also be posting these videos up on Facebook for my friends to see. Those videos will be longer. YouTube only allows 10 minutes, so I will only be posting 10 minutes of the video there. But Facebook allows up to 20 minutes. I can much easier fit 2 hours of concert into 20 minutes. We'll see what happens. :)

INXS Website's New Vibe

Looks like there isn't going to be any forums or anything of that nature. But they have got where we are allowed to post on pics and other bits on the site. Pretty cool!!! I had a look at the mods of the site. Doesn't look like DonnaG is one of the mods, but it is full of her supporters. This is the list of mods I got today:

Drumbaby
Aussierocks1
duran2inxs
Libby
Dees

I only know Drumbaby and Aussierocks1. They're pretty cool. The rest I don't know, or don't like at all. Duran2inxs, she's one of those fans who thinks her shit doesn't stink. I don't like her at all! She can seem nice at first, but she's only nice to you as long as you agree with everything she says, or you give her something, or you're one of those other fans who is very popular, or has had drinks with the band. Libby, I only spoke with her once, and that was enough! I don't like her either. I didn't like how she approached me. She approached me like a rabid gorilla when she thought I was talking about her on here, which I wasn't at the time! But she approached me like a madman anyway. She'll probably read this again, and approach me the same way, but if anyone wants any proof of how evil she can be, I still have the e-mails she sent when she *thought* I was talking about her. I'll post them up if I have to. Dees I have no idea who she is, but I know she's a DonnaG supporter. So I think I'll stay away from her too. Gosh, I hope they cannot see my ISP #. Those last 3 I'm sure will share my info with Donna! Scary. If DonnaG finds out where I live at, I'm surely going to report their asses. You can bet on that!
 
Well, now. Everyone knows I live in Ocean Shores, but only my friends know exactly where. And these friends I trust. I know they wouldn't divulge where. I have made a few posts, on some pics mostly. I hope my inquiries didn't go to these people!! Then I know I'll never get any assistance. I signed on to create a new account, but for some reason, I couldn't get it to send me the confirmation e-mail. So I wrote to the people behind the site. My friends told me they're probably getting thousands of messages, and not to expect them to respond. Some of my friends said that they were able to sign in using their old login info. I didn't think that was possible with me because before the old inxs.com site shut down, I deleted my account there. I'm so glad I did too! I wouldn't have wanted to pay for another year only to find out the site would shut down in the middle of that year! Everything happens for a reason. Perhaps I felt deep down inside that would happen so my interest in INXS waned off a little. Maybe. Who really knows?
 
Well anyway, I tried it, and sure enough, I was able to sign in with my old info. But I didn't want to be known as "TKGsChihuahuas". That was my old screen name, and I had it when I was breeding chihuahuas. Now, I only have 2 chihuahuas, both are spayed/neutered, and one papillon, also spayed. I'm not a kennel anymore. So I changed the name. I still show up under the fan info as "TKGsChihuahuas", even though I changed it to Timmyfan1. That kinda sucks!! I had to use "Timmyfan1" because "Timmyfan" was already taken, by me in the other account I could not get verified! It's silly! But oh well!! As long as those last 3 people on the admin list cannot access my info, I don't care what happens!

The New INXS.com

Well, I stopped into the new INXS website, and it seems to be OK. However, it apparently would not accept my old e-mail address. UGH!! So I had to use my Yahoo e-mail. I mostly reserve that e-mail for Facebook notices. Well, I signed up and I never received the verification e-mail. So I wrote to the manager of the site. Strangely enough, I can still view member-only content. I even left a message on Timmy's page, just to see if I could. I did! I don't understand it. I know I said I wasn't going to comment much, but my comment was directed to Tim, not the fans. I said I wasn't going to have much contact with the fans (outside of those that are on my Facebook or MySpace page) and I won't. There are no blogs or forums. I guess they decided they weren't going to put up with that this time. I had a look at some of the fans on the site, and I noticed even the guys have their own profile. Amazingly enough, JD is even on there. Don't know yet if he is still counted as a member of the band. Though it looks like he may be. We'll see! Maybe they just excluded him from this tour, who knows?

Well, at least the new site is up and running and looking pretty good. Can't really expect anything to work on the first day. It's pretty cool that they allow us to comment on the bands' individual pages. I just left one message to Tim, telling him I'm showing him some lovin'!!

Ya know, I had a dream about Andrew last night! LOL! I dreamed that he came to my home, and we had dinner. I made him my famous home made pizza and he loved it. Then next thing I knew he and I were sitting in the living room and we were watching television together and making comments about what was coming on. We were just like 2 friends conversing. I loved Andrew, but I remember feeling in the dream that I wish it was Tim there instead of him. But I still liked Andrew. hehe! That's a weird dream though!

While inxs.com was working on their site, I've been adding a few entries to my Metazoic site. I've got 3 working right now. It's good for a start.

Culling Friends

Very theraputic. Everyone should try it. Well, I normally don't do it. I don't like to. But for me, it all started this morning when I got a friend request from someone named Rachella Browna. I always accept every friend request because I like to give everyone a chance. There have been times when I've accepted requests even from people I knew all along would not work out. I do it anyways because that's my nature. Anyway, this Rachella she was just starting out, when I accepted her request, she had only 5 friends. I didn't know her, but then I have a lot of people as Facebook friends that I didn't know at first. And many of them turned out to be OK people! So I just came right out and asked this girl if she is an INXS fan. I didn't expect an answer right away. So I carried on about my regular day. Well, by this afternoon, I still hadn't heard from her and I was getting rather curious. So I went back to her page, and I noticed now she has over 100 friends!! Wow!! What a fast worker!! I tried to look for the message I left on her page, just to see if she'd responded to it and I just didn't know it. I went all the way back to the beginning, and the message I sent her had been deleted. Not only that, but one of the people she requested an add from had written her another message asking "Who are you?" That it's self told me a lot about this person! She's just whoring friends! Young people typically do that! They will go around to hundreds of random people and send them friend requests, just so they can go to school, college or where ever, and point out to others 'Hey! Look at my Facebook (and/or MySpace) page! I have a lot of friends! I rule!!' It's a status symbol for them.

Well, I always look for the mutual friends box, and I looked for hers and noticed she didn't have one. Which told me she and I had no mutual friends. That, coupled with this message from one of her "friends" and the fact that she had deleted my post, all told me this person is just looking for people for the numbers, not to really be friends with them. So, I wrote one last message to her saying "OK, bye!" and I deleted her from my friends. I updated my status on Facebook saying "I ain't that fricken desperate for friends on here!" So I went back and culled a few more people, most of them were people who probably only had me in their friends for the same reason. To me, friends are friends, not numbers to be displayed as a status symbol! I'll NEVER be that desperate for friends!!! I like to build lasting friendships with everyone on my list, I treat them all as equals. I usually do not send requests to anyone, for the simple fact that I feel like I'm forcing myself on them. Don't ask me why I feel that way! I just do!! I've been that way since I was a kid. I don't send requests, but I always accept them. But today, I did some culling, which is something I don't normally do. I do it like once in a blue moon. Today was one of those days where I said I'm going to do this. So I did. There was one person I've had since the beginning, and I deleted her because we've NEVER communicated in any way and we had nothing in common. I've been meaning to get rid of her, but I just never got around to it.

So today, I went from having 94 friends on Facebook, to only having 89. :) But I'm not unhappy.

The INXS Curse

I'd better not bad mouth INXS again, I think they voodooed me! Last night I had to go out because my looney sister didn't put her school money in the bank! So I had to go and do it myself so her book purchases wouldn't bounce! She never listens! I told her to put that money in the bank, she could have done it after she got out at school. Unfortunately at our bank here in town, you cannot make after-hour deposits. So, I had to hurry on over to the branch in Aberdeen to prevent the account bouncing and us having to pay an extra $28 for each bounced item. I asked Anna why she didn't deposit the money herself and her only answer was she was hungry and wanted to get home and eat. Also yesterday, I noticed INXS.com had a ticker on their page counting down the next 2 days. I kept saying "I hope this leads to something and it had better be good!"

Well, as I was walking out the door to go to the car, I was trying to keep the dogs from following me out. I tried closing the door really quickly, so quickly that my left hand was caught in the door way and I didn't even know it!! I wound up slugging my 2 middle fingers between the door and the frame, and it hit pretty damn HARD!!!! My fingernails immediately turned black! It hurt so damn much it induced me to laugh! Believe it or not, I have this whiny laugh when I am in pain. I couldn't do anything about it then because I had to hurry into Aberdeen, but the pain and lack of mobility in those fingers made driving extremely difficult!! How I made it, I don't know!! Even now, trying to type this blog is torture! It's taking a lot longer than it normally does for me. I was thinking INXS had cursed me because I said that about their countdown page. I blame that and I also blame Anna for making me go out there as well!! Instead of her depositing the money herself while she was in Aberdeen like I told her to yesterday before she left for school!!! The only good thing about this is that I am grateful that it wasn't my writing hand that was hurt.

Today, it still hurts like Hell! There's no swelling, but it still hurts bad!! I just want to stay home today!! Stay home and look at my pics of Timmy and dream of the new website. I wonder what the site will have? I don't know what I want to see personally. But will there be any fan interaction like last time? I don't know why I care about that at all! LOL! If I did go back, I think I'd find that I'm the most hated fan on the planet. Like I said in my bullying video; mostly, if not entirely, because I don't follow these so-called "popular fans". I'm not into that. I like whom I like and that's it. I don't like someone just because they have interaction with the band! In fact, those kinds of fans I have found to be the worst! Because most of them think their shit doesn't stink. I don't think I'll be interacting with the fans at all. And most of my writing will probably be here on this blog. But they are more than welcome to read here if they want to! I don't mind at all.

Maybe This Is IT?

I keep going back to inxs.com and seeing the same thing I saw when the count down stopped. I'm starting to believe that this is it. This is the new website. Perhaps we were the wrong ones in thinking there was going to be something like what we had before. Maybe there isn't going to be a forum, no blogs, no band bios, no fan interaction, no videos, no pictures, no discography, no nothing! I'm thinking this is the whole bowl of wax; a free newsletter that you sign up for. And they send you alerts saying "this is when INXS will be going touring, and where they will appear", and yadda-yadda-yadda. I'm beginning to believe that! Because for days, it's said "It's Finally Here", and that means it's here at last. This was the final wait. Well, maybe it wasn't what we expected, but I guess this is going to be it. Maybe there is no more. hm. Rather dull if you ask me! But then again, who did ask me? LOL! Maybe INXS didn't want to deal with having a big, spectacular site that they would have to monitor or something. I don't know.

**********************UPDATE*********************************
INXS has just announced on Facebook that the new site should take off in 48 hours TOPS. We'll see about that! I just want to alert all fans to keep their eyes open. Maybe something will change.

Metazoica Now Being Updated

Well, now that I have picked my web designer, he has been hard at work. I like this guy a lot! He is a very hard worker, and is doing everything he can to make this site work. I was so glad this time I let my instincts do the picking. If I had done that when I was picking someone to do the UMG Productions site, I would be 1000% more happy with the work than I was and right now, the site wouldn't be having a problem. My instincts are impeccable, what can I say? I never would have hired the guy that I did hire if I had used my instincts then. I used my eyes and ears then. Not good! He made himself sound like he was the answer to all my prayers, like he was my work angel sent from Heaven. There was another guy who I liked a lot better, and I should have hired him! But I felt this worker was good because so far, he has been very quick to respond to my requests without putting up too much of a battle. He does exactly what I want and when I want it. That other guy, I couldn't even get him to remove those banners I kept telling him I didn't want!

I took down my last post about Timmy blocking me. I found out what the problem was, and I mostly did that post to be funny. But I don't want anyone getting the wrong idea about how I feel about Tim, and I was afraid that's what that post would be doing. I still like the guy a lot. Besides, I found out it wasn't that he was blocking me. I tried donating to someone else on that site and I still found that I couldn't. So it wasn't Timmy blocking me at all! LOL! I was only kidding anyway when I said that!!! If I can't tease Tim Farriss, who can I tease? It was the site it's self that was blocking me, because what I have is not a real credit card. So I said what the hey! I cut my hair for leukemia awareness, that it's self was a huge sacrifice for me. I just wish I could have done a lot more.

Well, barring a few problems, the new Metazoic site should be up and running soon. That's why I like this guy, I have a knack for being able to tell who is good and who is not, when I rely on my instincts. And I knew this guy would be good. I even told him that later on, I might want to hire him again to do the UMG Productions site. But I better draw out a plan. A much better plan. I think I know exactly what I want for that site. This one though I have to discuss with my supervisor. Even she is upset that the site is now down. Fortunately we are also very good friends, so she hasn't fired me yet over this. LOL! I told her about this guy the other day, and she agreed I should hire him to redo the UMG site. Well, I wrote to the old web designer, and am giving him one last chance to respond. If he doesn't respond by the end of this week, he's going to be toast!

OK, I'm Over It Now

I was angry with INXS last night because the website was not yet launched. But I think I am over it now. I don't feel so angry anymore. One of my Facebook buddies reminded me of a morbid, but valid point. Timmy's wife has cancer. So the last thing on their minds is the website now. Timmy at least, now has greater worries. The health of his wife should preceed ALL else! When she mentioned that, I thought about it and I was like "she has a very good point there", so I saw no need to feel all that anger toward the band anymore. I have some wonderful Facebook friends!! Some of the best! I couldn't believe I didn't even think about that at a time like this. So, my apologies to Tim and his wife if I seemed insensitive in any way. Most of my last video was meant to be funny, rather than just a solid rant. People think I'm funny when I'm pissed off, so I capitalize on it. What can I say? Anything for a laugh.

There was a little bit of miscommunication with my web designer and I didn't even know it until this morning. I told him when I started this project that I'd been using Yahoo's own SiteBuilder to supply my Metazoic site with pages, and that was how it's done. That's how I was doing it. Well, this morning I started to discuss the other pages on my site, and he gave me this quite surprised "What??" I told him I have over 100 pages on my Metazoic site and still growing. Well, then he basically asked me why I didn't bring that up before and I told him I did. I wanted to know if Yahoo's SiteBuilder would clash with the work he's done so far and he said it would. So I told him I want to be able to add pages as I need to. I'd better not bother him with anything else. He was afraid his boss would fire him. I told him to send his boss to me and I'd be happy to explain this situation. He said he couldn't. So, he had to deal with him himself. He told me his boss was going to take away his 10% for the job and give it to the actual workers for overtime. I told him *Maybe* I can compensate him for that 10%. It was partially my fault. I should probably have made myself more clear when I said the site will be growing and adding more pages. I thought he knew what that meant!!

I have another problem with telling a friend something I think she should know. But how to tell her?? I have no idea! I don't like to pry, but I also don't want to see this friend hurt. I truly care what my friends think. But I hate to see them hurt by someone, and I'm afraid that's exactly what will happen to this one.

Timmyfan Discusses: What's The Deal INXS????

OK, nobody seemed to be interested in my April Fool's joke, so I took it down. I was shocked that inxs.com was supposed to be launched today, and it wasn't. I was upset and so were a lot of my friends. So this is a ranting and raging video. My sis said that I spoke so loud that she was trying to read and couldn't concentrate. Well!!! I was pissed!! I'm sick of waiting for INXS to do something and making promises and nothing happens. I was thinking it was a cruel April Fool's joke when the site did not appear once that ticker was done counting down. Ya know, one of my Facebook friends brought up, when the countdown started, that it was ironic that inxs.com was going to be launched on April Fool's Day. So I guess, ha-ha the joke's on me. But at the same time, I'm a little bit angry.

I Let Another One Go, But I'm Not Upset

I had to let another potential worker go last night. Usually that kind of thing upsets me, because I don't like to tell someone "you're fired!" but this guy pushed the wrong button. I never would have known he was like that. He wrote me a note last night to clarify what I want. Upon first reading it, I was like OK. So I will write back to him and give him more info. But then I got to the end of the note, which he wrote "I am trusting you won't turn around and use my page on your site without payment. Don't let me regret it." All this when I already told him in the previous letter that I wasn't going to be using these mock-ups on the site! It pissed me off when he said this!! It kinda hit me like an 18-wheeler on the highway! At the very first instant, it didn't register, so I continued to write the note giving him a better explaination of what I wanted, at the end of that letter I wrote "Why on Earth would I use your page when I said I wasn't going to???" Then the more I thought about what he said, the madder I got. I almost was not going to do this, but I did. I wouldn't have felt better if I hadn't. I wrote back to him again with this message:

"Listen, let me do this, I'll just let you go. I believe that the relationship between a worker and employer is sacred. And if you cannot trust me to keep my word then there's no relationship there. I'm sorry. I wish you all the best. Please disregard my offer to accept your work. Thank you."

As angry as I was, I tried to keep a civil and professional position. I'm serious, he really burned me up with that remark. He may be a young 20-year old who does not yet know that what he says sometimes can lead to harsh consequences. I was that way when I was 20 too. And it wasn't like I didn't tell him that I would not use these pages on the site. All I needed was a visual. I only need that because my understanding of coding and anything related is so poor. I need a visual! I wouldn't ask for it if I didn't need it so much. Well, as I said in my last blog, I knew this was not going to be an easy choice. So many people have sent me such wonderful ideas, it's going to be tough to choose the right worker for the site. But this is the first time someone I was about to hire has ticked me off and I've let them go because of that. No one else has ever talked to me like that when I was about to hire them. I treat all of them with the greatest respect. Some people can feel it I guess while others can't.

It was supposed to rain today!!! But it's sunny out there!!! I hate it! I've seen the damn sun all damn week!! It has wreaked havoc on my sinuses!! My nose is constantly bleeding now!! I knew this would happen! It almost is never rainy at this time of year here. It rained last night, but this morning, it's sunny and cold, the worst kind of weather for me. The weather girl said last night we were supposed to have rain ALL WEEK!! I knew it was too good to be true. Instead we got the stupid sun!!! And I thought it was moist here all the time. Before we moved here, that's how it was. That's why I moved here. That's what happens when I move to a place. I've always been unlucky in that way! The first year, it's fine, it rains when it's supposed to. But after being here for a year, the sun starts to show up all the time. And now it only rains at night. The days are sunny, cold and dry! Wanna bet when we move to Bozeman, it's going to stop snowing? Those will be worse days, because there for sure it gets sunny, cold and dry!!! And stays that way for months.

I Never Figured This Would Be Easy

I'm still in the process of trying to find a designer for my Metazoica site. I've been deleting people who I didn't feel clicked with me, and I know I've broken a few hearts in the process. Well, today, to help me make a final decision, I asked all the applicants to turn in a mockup page displaying a picture and the text to accompany, par my specifications. So far, I've gotten a couple of submissions. I got one guy who couldn't do a mockup until April 19th. I told him I absolutely could not wait that long. Much as I liked him and knew he could do a great job on the site, I had to let him go. I told him I was sorry. I have a lot of other applicants whose raw work I'd love to see. And I felt it wouldn't be fair to leave them hanging on for an answer until the 19th. Some of them are rather impatient, and want answers NOW!!!!

Well tonight, one of my favorites submitted a mockup, and he did rather well! He made a really dynamic, eye-catching website for Metazoica. I added him to my favorites on the site, and I added him to my MSN messenger. I also added him to my Facebook. I really like his work! But he hit me with a trick question tonight. After I had viewed the mockup site, and told him how wonderful it looked, he wanted to know right then if he could begin working on the site. I told him as much as I'd love to say yes, I cannot. I still have to think about the other applicants. I have to save time for them to show me their work. I hated to let him down, but I felt it would have been rude of me to just hire him without giving the others an opportunity to show me their work. And I told him all this before he made the mockup. I hoped it was clear and he understood. I told him I could not make a final choice until the end of the month. That's plenty of time for others to submit their work for me to review. Well, he backed off, saying he was no longer interested in working with my project, that he has a couple others to work on. It struck me like a lightening bolt. I thought he understood!! But I was wrong in thinking that I guess. I just want him to realize, I did not reject him voluntarily!! He rejected himself from my project! I told him he was actually quite close to winning the position. But he still wasn't interested. He said he needs a job right now. I feel bad for sure, but it's his choice. And I surely don't want to keep him from a sure job. So, I took him off my list. I hated to, but he made his choice.

I asked everyone to submit a mockup, it'll help me make my final choice. This has not been an easy, or even a restful, journey. I hate telling people I am not interested in their services. Especially when someone has so much potential. I just sit here wondering how many more people are going to react like that one did before I make my final choice?? LORD have mercy!! I may have no one left to choose from and I'll have to continue to do the site myself. UGH!!! Oh well, I've managed this far. But it would have been nice having the site professionally done. I'd just rather not post the job on a place like elance, they don't allow you to ask for mockups. And I am sooooo poor in figuring out internet language, I need a visual aid just to understand. I don't want to risk hiring someone like the guy who did the UMG website! I won't go through that again!!!! If I remember correctly, he wouldn't even do a mockup.

Well, in other news, one of my Facebook buddies told me about Joan Rivers saying shit about fat people in general. I made a video telling her what I think of her saying that (fun or not), I told her to kiss my ass. Well, I was never a fan of her's anyway, but the comment she made on Twitter just downgraded my opinion of her. Well, it struck a chord with a couple of Joan Rivers fans already, LOL! I have the feeling there will be many more! hehehe! Oh well. Like I said in an earlier video, it just goes in one ear and out the other! hehe!

A Loss of Thought

I don't know what to do. I have been in the midst of hiring a professional to redo my whole Metazoic site, particularly the Meet The Mammals section. I want to make that section a little more streamlined, and I tried to do it all by myself. No such luck!! I suck when it comes to programming! So I noticed Yahoo has joined with a site called Odesk. It seems to be a good site where you can find professionals and hire them for a specific job. I set a rate and got several responses. I can only spend so much on this project. It's not like the UMG project where there was nothing but books to purchase (the site is still down and I'm thinking of moving it to a different server!) But I only have one page devoted to selling some things, and even that is just a hobby. I haven't sold anything yet, and I really don't expect to. Not saying I couldn't fulfill my obligation to, but that's not entirely what Metazoica is all about. It's a virtual zoo. I take donations that keeps the site up and running. That's also the extent of it. I will also have a members area in the future, to showcase videos and even video games depicting these mammals. That's something I've always wanted to do. But that comes much later. Right now I want to just add a few simple features to the site. I have eliminated a couple of people for whatever reasons. Mostly because their quote was too high, or they didn't have the skills I am looking for. I cannot spend too much on this site. However, I have one worker who has offered to redo the whole site for $350 and I am almost considering taking him up on his offer. But then I had another person tell me that programmers from India don't know what they're doing. I wasn't sure whether to take his word or not! My last programmer was from Pakistan, and he didn't seem to know what he was doing, and he abandoned my project! So, I'm not going to pick someone based on their location. It could have been some kind of hijinx or bitterness even. I don't know.

There's another guy that has applied and he also sounds great! He can do this project and I like his prices on animation. I might also consider him, if nothing else, for the help in animation! I did tell him in the future I plan to have movies available about some of the more interesting mammals on the site. He can do movies at $300 each! Not bad!! Well, that's one of the better prices I've seen for animated movies. I wonder how the movies would look at that cost?? Of course whoever does the movies would have to be able to add furry textures on the animals. I wouldn't want it any other way. And I'd want exceptional quality. Oh well, not now. Later!

This is a very tough choice, though I think I am going to go back and eliminate some more workers. I hate that part!! I know how Timmy used to feel on Black Wednesdays when he was doing Rockstar: INXS. Eliminations are always difficult! I hate to destroy a person's chances of a job. But I want someone who can really make me smile with this work. I even spoke to one of the applicants last night, and he sounds good too! UGH!! This is not going to be an easy choice. But it's something I have to do. I want to narrow the field a little more. I want to make the right choice. This time, I'll let instinct do the thinking. hehe! I don't want another worker like the one that did the UMG Productions site!! I want someone who will always be there when I need them, and do what I want them to do. That last guy, he never even removed those banners I kept telling him I didn't want! They were an eyesore!! I want someone who can do a better job, and make Metazoica a real eye-catching site. Maybe I'll go with the guys who wanted to revamp the whole site. That would be a nice switch. Like I said, this isn't going to be an easy choice! What to do? I don't know! Someone's going to get this job. I know the others will have other work sources, so I guess I need not worry about that. I'd like to give some young sprig starting out a chance too. hehe! That'd be good on them. Ohhhh but this is one of the hardest choices I've ever had to make.

Stand Up Against Fat Discrimination

There is a new group on Facebook, and I'm hoping all who have weight issues will join me in this group as well. This is a group about standing up against fat discrimination. Even if you don't have weight issues, please join, and show you support fat acceptance. Fat people are being discriminated against all the time, for jobs, medical insurance and even having fun in amusement parks, movies that have seats made only for skinny folk, and we cannot even go on a helicopter ride because they tell us we're too fat. If you are sick of this, if you have relatives that are overweight, or friends who are overweight, or if you yourself are overweight, and you're just sick of the discrimination just because you weighed a few extra pounds, join this group on Facebook! If you are sick of going out of your house and you can't go a single block down the road without some jerk calling you a fat name, join this group. It'll give you some support. If you are trying to lose weight, this group will give you words of encouragement, and even show you the best way to lose weight. If you are a jackass who gets his jollies making fun of fat people, don't join! The group leader warns you will be deleted. But I urge anyone who has a friend, family member, or who is themselves overweight, to join this group. You'll be glad you did!! Here's the link:

http://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/Lets-stop-fat-discrimination/107247585967873?ref=mf

Sweepin' The Clouds Away

Well, today we got a big surprise, it's sunny today, and it was supposed to be raining. Well, I want to say happy St. Patrick's Day to all my viewers. My ma traditionally celebrates this day with a dinner of corned beef and cabbage. She's almost 50% Irish in background, so she kinda grew up with her grandma carrying on this tradition. Oh boy! I personally HATE corned beef and cabbage!! Funny eh? I guess the Irish genes are just not that dominant in me. hehe! That's a joke BTW. I definitely have those well-known characteristics, I am a little bit sweet and a little bit salty at times. In my case, more than ma's, I have a lot of characteristics thrown together giving me a balance in my temperament.  I'm almost 50% Mexican, so I have a lot of that Latin temperament as well as the Irish on top. I also have the rather hot temperament of the Scottish as well. A lethal combination. But I also have some Scandinavian softness added to my background. It's probably that that prevents me from completely flying off the handle and staying that way. But then it's run over again by the French/Italian in my background, which can also be quite temperamental. I get angry, but I get over it rather quickly. Sometimes when I blow up at someone, I usually think back and say to myself "Oh GOD how I wish I hadn't done that!" LOL! Sometimes when I get pissed, I can really get PISSED!!! That's when I do the things that has me wishing I hadn't done them in the afterthought. hehe! I'm still working on cooling off. Well, today I am celebrating with making some mint-chocolate cookies. I found some Andes mint chips in a store, and I thought that would be cool made up in a batch of my famous deep chocolate cookies. Where I usually add chocolate chips to that batter, today instead I am going to add mint chips. It's gonna be GOOOOOOD!!! Yes I admit it, I like to splurge in sweets once in a while.

Well, I found out Hutch's Strangest Party is going to be sending condolence cards to Timmy's wife, Beth. I think that's a very nice thing to do and I would love to send her a card myself. So I will definitely be a part of this. I never met the woman, and I barely know Tim! But shoot, I cut my hair for people like her. I feel like I need to do something great in addition to cutting my hair. Cutting my hair was a radical change for me! I'm so much more used to having it long. Well, last night, I had Anna dye my hair, kinda turning the clock back a little. As if that's some big thing!! I've been gray since I was 10 years old!! My ma was an early grayer and so is Anna. She just doesn't have as much gray hair as me. Everyone seems to like my hair better short. Maybe I should keep it this way.

I also got another interesting e-mail, from the so-called "Better Breeders Corner". Apparently their forum has been hacked. Looks like karma is rearing it's ugly head for them! I can only look at that message and laugh. Well, I laughed for a while, then I tossed it away. I don't ever go in that forum, and have no interest in what happens to it or anyone else in that forum. Well!! I do have a few buddies in there, and I do care about my buddies. But the rest I couldn't care less about. Most of the people in there are the dirty dozen mob. And they like to look up other peoples' personal info and put it on the forum. Ya know, the time and effort they put so much into poking their noses in other peoples' business, would be so much better spent doing something useful, like I put some of my time into helping out with Leukemia awareness. Oh but look at whom I am talking about. Most of the dirty dozen don't even know how to hold scissors, much less how to use them. And I doubt they care anything about leukemia awareness. If it doesn't affect their cats or dogs, I doubt they care about it.

Timmyfan: The Night After

I put this video together last night, it adds a bit of comedy relief to my "cutting my hair" video. I haven't had short hair in over 15 years, so I thought I would play a little on that, and show what I was first thinking when I saw myself in the mirror for the first time after cutting my hair. This is strictly for comedy, nothing else. I'm not trying to make fun of people who are bald or have short hair. I'm sure not making fun of Timmy or anyone with leukemia. My sis Anna almost ruined this video because she took my whining too seriously. That's how it is in this house. hehe! Anyway, hope you all enjoy it. :)

Tim Farriss For Leukemia Awareness

Tim Farriss sports a new look with his "hair-dresser". He shaved his head for charity. He did it for leukemia awareness. He did that, and is asking for sponsors in his cause. I could not give any money myself, but I did what I could to show him I am backing him up in his quest. I cut my own hair. I made a video of the event myself and placed it on YouTube. My hair was growing, it was down past my hips. To cut it was a huge sacrifice on my part. I wanted to let it go down to my feet! But I wanted to support Timmy in his cause.

It wasn't until after I recorded this video and put it together that I found out the reason Tim was going for this event. His wife, Beth, also has been stricken with leukemia. I cannot tell you how sorry I was to hear that. I told Tim my thoughts and prayers are with him and his wife as well. Hope she can get better. I truly do. Also, I am hoping to hear something about another friend who was striken with cancer, and hope all is well with her. I haven't heard anything from her in about 2 years, and I have been quite worried about her. So I did this for her too.

I have said in the past that if Tim ever became bald and weighed 300 pounds, I would still love him!!! LOL! Well, I know he doesn't weigh no 300 pounds, but now the little bald guy comes out. And I think he's just as cute as a button!!! I want to kiss his little bald dome!!! hehehe!! He looks better than me! My hair hasn't been this short since I was in high school! And I was skinnier back then! I look terrible! But, it's for a good cause. It's the best I can do right now. Anyone who would like to support Timmy in this venture, go to this link: http://my.imisfriendraising.com.au/personalPage.aspx?registrationID=343735&langPref=en-CA

Cages Now In The Making

Well, I've got some cages now in the making! This first one I am working on will be for birds. Finches and softbills mostly. I bought my stuff for the cage when I went to Oregon last week. I bought wooden planks, screws, hinges, clasps, wood glue, silicone, and some other things. I had them cut the planks right there in the store. In my little car, I had no idea how else I was going to carry them home. The next day, I discovered I needed a sander, I had a lot of splinters in the wood! So I went and bought a sander. It's a nice one! And sanding was the easy part! That was the fun. I spent 2 days sanding every piece of wood I had. Including the scrap wood, which I know I can find some use for. Next I had to screw each piece together. My father lent me his drill and bits, and I tried to use them. They kept breaking! I couldn't figure it out so I went to the hardware store here in town and I asked for the strongest drill bits they had. So that's what I got. I came home and started using it and it worked like a champ! Now I was happy, I could drill the holes to screw in the screws, and now I have made a half a box.  But then I realized my shorter planks to go on the ends, were too long! I hadn't counted on that so, I needed to cut them down. I was going to go to the local lumbermill and ask them if they could cut it down for me. But my father came up yesterday and said he would do it. I asked him if he could cut a perfectly straight line and he said yes. So I said OK.

We went out with my father and stepmother yesterday. While I was out with my pa, he asked me what I will be putting in this cage and I said birds. He said "Are you going to have a lot of birds like you did when we lived in Toutle?" and I said "For sure!" He told me not to get any birds. He argued that birds carry diseases and stuff. Shoot! Cats carry more diseases than birds do, and stepmom always has to have a cat! I just stuck my tongue out at him, I wasn't in the mood to argue with him about what I can and cannot have!! The man still believes he owns me. He still thinks he can tell me what I can and cannot do. Typical father I guess. I never get birds that are big and noisy, like macaws. I'm not interested in them. I like little birds, like little finches and softbills. I'm thinking a few pairs of gouldian finches for this cage. Along with maybe some diamond finches, or perhaps shaft tail finches. Maybe put in a couple of diamond doves as well. Make this an aussie cage! hehe!

Well, father was wrong about his being able to cut a straight board!! The boards came out a little bit crooked!! My own fault!! I should have followed my first instinct!! DOH!!! But anyway, the bottom is almost finished and it weighs about 100 pounds!!! But hey! The foundation must be solid. All I have to do is put the wheels on the base and it'll be done. Then I can make the frame. The frame will be made up of 2x4s. I'm thinking of putting a solid back on the cage. That might look better. Then the front and sides will be made up of acrylic. I got some price quotes on acrylic and I will soon be ready to put that in. I'm even thinking of finishing off the cage with a coat of paint and even stencil a little design on the frame. Maybe some birds and leaves. It'd be cool!!!

Later, I will be making the lid, and I will have to install some lighting fixtures, which is easier than it sounds. I'm going to put in some UVA and UVB emitting lights, which are important to the health of the birds. As well as heat bulbs. So I need to install fixtures for both. Since these are all grass birds, I should simulate a grassland environment. Petco often sells terrarium grass. Let's see what happens! Next cage I am going to build needs to be perfect. I will be creating a cage for day geckos. Their cage will be recreating a rainforest environment. I'll be installing a sprinkler system in that one so it needs to be perfect. No gaps, no holes, no mistakes! Then maybe another bird cage. One for small waxbills like St. Helena's. They're cool! And Cordon bleus which are really pretty! Maybe purple-cheeked waxbills too. And if I can find them, pygmy doves. Those are very hard to find though. I've only seen them available once and that was 10 years ago at an exotic bird and reptile expo.

Well anyway, that's been my week. That is why I haven't blogged much this past week, been so busy.

Tsunami Tscare

Well, we had a bit of a tsunami scare here, but it turned out to be false. Though the waves did kick up a little bit. My ma was out all day, she got herself a new car. Yippee!! It's a Ford Focus. Bummer!! I hate Fords!! They are the most unreliable cars there is. Well, I heard there may still yet be a tsunami in Japan. There was a bit of one in Hawaii, how bad it was I don't know just yet. I'm hoping my friends and family still living in Hawaii are OK. I have a godmother there. So, I hope she and her children are OK. Of course her children are all grown!! Not sure if they still live there or not. I remember her name is Gladys, and last time I heard from her was in 1995.

Well today's been a full day! Ma's been gone with my stepfather, I've been working on this book about mammals of the Metazoic, I got called retarded white American trash by someone on YouTube. LOL! Been a full day! hehe! I seriously need some help with the Metazoic site. My old buddies keep asking me when I'm going to do something new and different. I keep telling them I don't know. I've got a lot on my plate now as it is. I simply cannot wait till Monday!!! I'm going to get my stuff and begin building my bird and reptile cages!! I am also on pins and needles about the upcoming new INXS website! Oh boy! Is that ever exciting!! If they are going to have a forum, and let mere fans moderate it, if I may, I'd like to make a suggestion for the owners of the site. Have anyone who applies to moderate the forums go through some kind of rigorous test or something. Or online moderation classes or something because I don't think it's fair to have posts deleted just because they cause a little bit of a debate on the forum. The site needs action and a debate will do it. Like I said, as long as there are no personal attacks involved. But last time I was on that forum, I noticed one of the mods erased a whole thread simply because someone she didn't like posted on that thread, which was as stupid an act as I've ever seen anyone perform!!! My advice is DO NOT allow someone like that to moderate again!!! Of course if that person does, I won't be going in the forum, but I'm just laying out a bit of advice. They can take it, and create a forum that is peaceful and fun, or tell me to shove it and have a forum that is so sensitive it won't be any fun at all.

I think personally, ONLY posts that present a personal attack on someone should be removed. But because a post causes a few people to disagree does not mean that the thread should be deleted. There are ways a person can disagree and still maintain a respectful, graceful position. I've done it lots of times myself. Here's some examples of a good and bad debate for someone to go by:

Good debate:
Mikessa: I don't want to worry about world hunger when I am facing problems of my own.

Timmyfan: Hello Mik, sorry to hear about your problems but world hunger is a growing problem that should be the concern of everyone.

Bad debate (including personal attacks):
Mikessa: I don't want to worry about world hunger when I am facing problems of my own.

MadameX: oh shut up about your problems, who cares about you when there are starving children in this world you moron!!

The latter type of comments are the kind that does nobody any good and should be deleted. I understand that people can get upset when there are disagreements, believe me I used to!! Sometimes, without either party realizing it, the debate can lead up to the kind of comments like the one from "MadameX" simply because someone like "Mikessa" in the example, holds fast to her beliefs. That's to be expected. So her comment should be deleted because it has a personal attack involved, and if possible, would be better if it was taken to PMs. But it wouldn't be worth it really if Mikessa is going to just hold on to her beliefs. Then MadameX's arguments would be futile. hehe!!! :)

Anyway, I hope this clears the air a bit.

Andrew Koenig Found Dead

It's true!! The child actor of Growing Pains was missing in Vancouver BC for some time. Police and rescue teams have been searching for him for a week. Well, he was found today in a rather remote forest where he usually liked to retreat to, after having killed himself. I don't know the guy, but I'll tell you his story is no different than any other child star story. As sad as I am to hear this news, I mean no death is a picnic, this is how a lot of child stars end up. Either dead at an early age or imprisoned. My sis says it's because as adults, they usually realize their glory days of stardom are over. As adults they are usually not wanted in movies or any other TV shows. Not all of them get rejected though. Look at Melissa Gilbert. She was still in movies and on TV even after she became an adult. Granted they were low-budget movies.

Well anyway, my prayers go out to Koenig's family. May GOD give them strength in this horrible time of loss.

Speaking of losses, UMG Productions is going to be down for a while. We're experiencing some technical difficulties at the moment. The site will be up again just as soon as we can get these problems resolved.

Pure Ecstacy!!!

I just found out that INXS.com is going to be back. I am a very happy camper now!!! I cannot wait! Am I going to join again? Maybe. Will I be an active member again? I have no clue! If they are going to have a forum again, I want to know who is going to be moderating. I like Drumbaby a lot, but I just wish she wasn't so sensitive when it comes to moderating the posts. A little rebellion isn't going to hurt anyone. If all the posts on the forum were to be nothing more than a kumbaya love fest, it'd be pretty damn boring!!! I'm just stating facts here. As long as the person isn't specifically targeting any one person, the way Catsredrum and the rest of her delusional dim-wit friends do, I say there is no harm in having a debate on the forum. But personal battles probably should be taken to PMs. But if certain people are going to moderate the forum again, I will not become an active member. One of them, last time I checked, still lives in this state and I don't want her to find my house and possibly poison another one of my dogs again! That's also one of the main reasons I will not join any INXS forums. Because I know this person and the mods are siding together, and I'm pretty sure they would be more than happy to share my personal info with her. So, before I'd make a single post on that forum on INXS.com, I'd want to know who is moderating. If it's someone I don't trust, I won't post at all. If I have no idea at all who is moderating, I won't post at all. Simple as that! If the site has blogs again, I might just use them. Maybe. I feel safer here though.

This reminds me of the Biblical book of Revelations. LOL!! Well, as of this typing, inxs.com will be back again in 34 days, 20 hours, 19 minutes and 21 seconds! LOL! They have it all pinpointed to the last second! This is so exciting! I cannot wait to see these guys again. I heard their concert in BC really rocked! As they always do in my opinion. I saw a pic of Timmy this morning. Is he going back for that mullet look? His hair was standing on end. Timmy, please!! Let that hair grow!! I love it long! :D No matter what he still looks good to me. I cannot wait to gaze into his magnificent eyes again. I cannot even begin to describe how I felt seeing a new pic of him today! I realized, I miss him more than I first thought. I can't wait till they go back on tour, I just hope I'm not too busy to go to a few concerts. With my cages being built and Anna moving to the dorm at MSU. I hope she can stay there. She had trouble at the dorms in Yellowstone. She snores too loudly, so they almost kicked her out of there. When we were bunking in a room together in Bozeman last year, I didn't hear her snoring. But then again, I am a sound sleeper! An earthquake couldn't wake me up. Also, there is a reptile expo I want to try and make it to in Anneheim, CA. Not sure why I want to go! Most everybody there is probably going to be selling nothing but man-made mutated reptiles!! It'd be a big disappointment and waste of my time because I prefer the natural colors. Sometimes though I like to take my chances.

Well, in other news, did anyone hear about the SeaWorld worker who was killed by a killer whale??? I did! The trainer's name was Dawn Brancheau, and some say she was taken underwater and violently shaken. Others say she was simply drowned. This is so uncharacteristic of killer whales!! I remember hearing of 2 other incidents where killer whales have actually killed humans. The first was in 1991. The second was in 2000. And now, 10 years later, another trainer is killed by an overamorous orca!! I wonder if this really is signaling the end of the world because now I am noticing animals are not acting like they used to. I can remember polar bears used to never attack adult walrus. Lions never used to hunt elephants. Killer whales never used to hunt people. Killer whales are intelligent too! They should be able to know the trainer is a friend. Well, SeaWorld said they are going to keep working with this whale, even though it attacked someone already and killed them. I'm not so sure that's a very good idea. If the whale killed once, more than likely it'll do it again. Not the best idea to allow people to work with it again. But that's just my opinion. My prayers are with the family of this worker.

I knew this would happen! PETA is having a field day with this news!!! As usual, they want to close Sea World and turn it into a simple sanctuary for marine animals. All the stupid celebs that also support PETA are getting in on the act. I wonder if the celebs that support PETA are in any way aware of their "sea kittens" campaign?? Maybe not. Because I'd think if they were, that would have made them stop supporting, knowing how stupid it makes them look to support an organization that creates such dumb ideas. PETA seems to think it's GOD or something. LOL! Wanna hear what one stupid celeb PETA supporter is doing about this? There seems to be no remorse for the worker who was killed, they blame it on the people. Anyway, read this article. I advise no one to sign this idiot's petition!! It won't do no good! Zoos are educational places for people to see and learn about wild animals. Just turning it into a sanctuary is not going to help the animals at all. PETA is using celebs to get out their stupid campaigns and it only proves that these celebrity supporters are at least as dumb as PETA is!! I left a comment saying such.

Small Dogs Connection With The Middle East

I always knew this. I first read that chihuahuas actually came from China back before I got my first chihuahua. The original chihuahua, the dog from Mexico and named for the capital city, originally weighed about 50 pounds. The Aztec royalty used them as heat pads on cool nights. Hence the term for a cold night a "3-dog night". The cooler it got, the more dogs were piled on to a person to keep warm. And chihuahuas really do seem to keep you warmer than any other dog. They also guarded their masters viciously. That's why the modern chihuahua has a plucky, terrier-like temperament. The only thing that has changed is the size. That changed when the Chinese invaded Mexico and took these canine heat-pads to their land, and their emperor. The dogs were fed a diet of rice and pork, which stunted their growth and over time the size stuck. Today, you may still see some throwbacks to the original breed, but none are 50 pounds anymore. The largest purebreed chihuahua I've ever seen was a whopping 25 pounds. It was tall, and fat. Today, with mock registries taking over and mediocre breeders continuing to breed dogs like that, I'd question if that dog really was a purebreed chihuahua. But that one did have AKC registration. I saw the pedigree and all. It was just a mediocre specimen.

Any time you see someone using ACA (American Canine Association) or CKC (Continental Kennel Club--not to be confused with the more reputable Canadian Kennel Club) or APRI (American Pet Registry, Inc--also known simply as APR) you simply must question the dog's ancestry. People who use these registries typically cross breeds, or have no accurate records of their breedings. Then there's the registries themselves. Look at their site, they register designer mongrels. Bad idea for any registry's reputation! Anyway, here's the article I found. I thought it was interesting.

http://news.discovery.com/animals/small-dogs-middle-east.html

Small Dogs Originated in the Middle East



These miniature mutts were the descendants of gray wolves, which also happen to be smaller than many other wolves.
 
Small dogs the world over can all trace their ancestry back to the Middle East, where the first diminutive canines emerged more than 12,000 years ago.
A new study, which appears in BMC Biology, focused on a single gene responsible for size in dogs. Researchers found that the version of the gene IGF1 that is a major determinant of small size in dogs probably originated as a result of domestication of the Middle Eastern gray wolf, which also happens to be smaller than many other wolves.
In terms of which came first, big dogs or small dogs, the answer is now the former.
"Archaeological studies suggest that ancient (dog) remains found in Belgium, Germany and Western Russia, which date to 13,000-31,000 years ago, were most similar in body size to the Great Dane, while those from the Middle East dating to about 12,000 years ago were most similar to a small terrier," lead author Melissa Gray told Discovery News.
For the study, Gray, a researcher in the Laboratory of Genetics at the University of Wisconsin, Madison, and her colleagues traced the evolutionary history of the IGF1 gene. To do so, they surveyed a large sample of gray wolf populations, other wild members of the Canidae family, and numerous breeds of dogs.
Gray and her team first confirmed that all domesticated dogs trace their heritage back to gray wolves. She indicated the jury is still out as to when and where the world's first dog -- of any size -- emerged.
All small dogs, normally weighing 20 pounds or less, share the variant of IGF1 also found in Middle Eastern gray wolves, the scientists discovered. This means the gene must have surfaced early in the history of small dogs, but after dogs in general were first domesticated.
The DNA studies, combined with the archaeological record, then suggest that at least 12,000 years ago, the first domesticated small dogs entered the world, with humans playing a major role in the process.
"(There) could have been a mutation arising early in the history of dogs," said Gray, "which was maintained by breeding and artificial selection by humans, or could have been an adaptive trait that developed during domestication as a means to coexist with humans."
The timing and location provide intriguing clues, as Middle Eastern societies then were moving away from the hunter-gatherer lifestyle and towards agriculture-based communities.
"Small (dog) size could have been more desirable in more densely packed agrarian societies where dogs may have lived partly indoors or in confined outdoor spaces," Gray explained.
"It is unlikely that dogs at that time were used as a source of protection, but more likely that they were used initially for their fur, as a food source, and possibly companionship," she added.
Reduction in body size is a common feature of domestication and has been observed in other animals, such as cattle, pigs and goats.
David Macdonald of the University of Oxford and Carlos Driscoll of the National Institutes of Health point out in a separate paper in the Journal of Biology that most of the Western barnyard animals were domesticated beginning at around the same time 12,000 years ago.
Dogs stood out from the rest, however, because they were "in the role of not just a treasured companion, but a precursor to wealth and inequality" since "dogs are likely to have become status symbols as well as being intrinsically valuable," Macdonald and Driscoll wrote.

Wax Hutch Figure

Hm. I don't think it looks anything like Michael. I found this among my Facebook articles this morning.
http://www.michaelhutchence.com.au/home/forum/topic/michaels-madame-tussauds-wax-statue-he-posed-for-in-1997

Perhaps the hair is what throws it off, but I don't think it looks like Michael at all! The moderator of that forum says it was a figure that was made in 1997, and Michael posed for hours for that thing. I don't know. It could be the hair that throws it off. Looks like a rather cheap impression of a ladie's wig. That's just my opinion. And the eyes kinda look evil. Michael had a much more innocent expression than that. The tips of the eyebrows are a bit too low. Michael's were more level. This guy looks pissed off. If this person did an impression of Michael, she should have done all of INXS. I kinda wonder what her impression of Timmy would have been like? LOL! He's a little more evil looking than Michael! hehe!! :P

Well, I was happy, I found an old buddy from an e-mail group I used to be a member of. Well, I am still a member there I think! LOL! I don't really know, I don't get into e-mail groups much anymore. But one thing I always remember about this guy, he was always nice, and he was sometimes very funny. I know one e-mail group kicked me off because I posted a link to my website, but I really didn't care at all. Simply because I don't use the groups much anymore. Kindof a shame. I wanted to get their opinions of my website. But eh! 'Tis OK. That was a group I almost never posted on to begin with. I find I am getting banned from places like that more and more. hehehe!! I must be getting evil in my old age. If indeed posting a link to an author's site on an author's forum is considered evil enough to ban someone. I don't know. I do know everyone has their own opinion of what is evil. Heck there are people on YouTube who think someone calling a fat person names is not an act of evil. But it is! Look at the people who do it. Many of the ones I've seen doing the act also have a look of pure evil in their eyes. And you notice they never do it to fat people who are obnoxious. They always do it to the sweetest fat people you could ever meet. That's been my experience.

Speaking of fat, I posted a video on YouTube about people calling fat people names. It's viewable on my channel. Actually the conversation goes in all directions. LOL!! That's me! That's my own unique brand of pillow-talk. I also talk a lot about my friends and family. I actually recorded the video a week ago, but I didn't complete the editing until last night and then I posted it on YouTube. I've been seeing so many people on YouTube just shit-talking fat people left and right. And you know who thinks they can get away with it?? Fat men!!! That's who. I told them no you can't. You're just as disgusting if you are a fat man as you think any fat woman is. So don't think your gender should let you off the hook of being seen as ugly or disgusting. Personally, I love a man with a little meat on his bones. Not obese, but I like a little meat. I don't really like skinny men. Someone like Timmy is what I like, and I always fall in love with men of his stature; dark hair, usually wavy or curly, with a somewhat huskey build. That's what I like. I think if I were a man I would be attracted to women who have a little meat as well. LOL! But I am not a man! Not even close. Just saying, meaty is my style! Though I have seen some attractive women who are full-figured. I've even seen some attractive women who are fat. But there are people who think just because a woman is fat they can't be attractive. But I am here to say that is not true!! I've only seen a relative handful of fat people who are not attractive. Sadly, I'm among those fat, unattractive women. Let's be honest here!! I have compensating qualities though. When I really like someone, I can be that person's very best, most loyal, friend. All of my friends compliment on how good of a friend I am to them. I may be a bit nutty, but my friends all say that is what adds a lot of spice to our friendship. Part of my attractive nuttiness comes from being so spontaneous. That's something I refuse to give up. I told one of my friends about how one time I went to Reno for dinner. hehehe!!! I did! I truly did. It was fun too. He said that's what he likes about me. The spontaneity. The only thing was that I had just lost my Groucho and it was the first long trip I took without her. So I wasn't happy all through that trip. But once I got to Reno, and saw all the lights and games and stuff, and the Peppermill where I had dinner, it made me happy again.

Fad Diets

My sis and I have been putting up some videos on YouTube about dieting and such similar subjects. I put those up in the hopes of helping others in the process of losing weight. I always say diets don't work. They don't!! That is something that I learned a long time ago. It's not about diets, the trick is training yourself to eat. Well, this morning I noticed someone commented on one of our videos, thinking it was a joke. I told her not at all. She's obviously a teenager who has probably only been on one diet in her life.

Well, we went in a variable circle, she says I am "jealous" because diets didn't work for me. I found that comment completely laughable!!!! There is no way on the planet I could ever be jealous of something like that because I know they typically don't work, and I am not the only one who has received results like that. Like I said, it's not about dieting, it's about retraining yourself to eat. The only way to accomplish that is to eat 6 small meals a day. Not large ones, like I'm not saying that you should eat 6 complete steak dinners every day!!! But 6 small-portioned meals is what is recommended. For example, here's a sample menu I received:

1. Breakfast can consist of 1 egg and a piece of dry toast (no butter, margarine or jelly).
2. 2 hours later, have an apple half.
3. Lunch can consist of a sandwich and some low-fat chips (check serving sizes).
4. 2 hours later, have the other apple half.
5. Dinner can consist of a small meat, like maybe a strip steak, veggies, perhaps a small baked potato, light on the butter. No cheese or sour cream though, unless it's low-fat.
6. 2 hours later have maybe a little dessert, like one of those 100-cal packs, or a cookie, or a small candy bar.

That's it! That's your food intake for the day! In between those, drink LOTS of water!! No soda, no beer, or any other alcoholic beverage, you can have one glass of juice, for either breakfast, lunch or dinner. I prefer fruit juice, like apple, orange, but I make sure I look at the ingredients to see that it is ONLY fruit and perhaps water. No sugar! Sometimes I get the cocktail juice, like cran-apple cocktail, or grape-apple cocktail juice. I like those, they're good, but the main thing is to make sure no sugar is added. I'm learning to love pomegranite juice. It is rich in anti-oxidants, which will aid in weight loss as well. Pomegranite juice takes some getting used to. When I first tasted it, I didn't really like it because I thought it tasted like this grape and cherry cough syrup combined with this codene syrup I used to have to take!! UGH!! But after a few weeks of drinking it, you learn to like it.

Well anyway, this girl proceeded to say I'm "jealous" or I'm "attacking dieters" and yadda-yadda-yadda. She said that losing weight quickly is better than being obese. I basically just sat back and laughed. I've seen idiots like her before! She's basically letting the haters run her life. She is losing weight for them, not for herself. I'm losing weight for myself, not to impress anyone else. I said to her she is misinformed, and then I basically said I'm through getting through to her. She's obviously one of those types that thinks the only way to do anything is her way or no way at all. I'm not about to waste my time with her! People like her, it's just so much better to let them find things out for themselves. I told her that in her search for the right way, I hope it doesn't kill her in the process. Then I blocked her. I should stop making other peoples' problems my problem!! That's my problem!! LOL!! I think too much of other people, and I need to stop that! Especially when the other person is an asshole who would deserve whatever happens to her! Bad or good.

Well, I thought about it, and I felt it wasn't right to block her, so I unblocked her. But I know her type so damn well, I know what her response is going to be once she finds out she is unblocked (if she ever found out she was blocked). What I said is going to make her worse. It's not going to make her think about what she's doing to herself, losing weight as fast as she is. But, that's NOT my problem!!! She's not my friend! If it kills her, that's her problem! I'm not explaining anything to her anymore!! She's either going to wind up dead, twice what she weighs now, or with severe medical problems and my only hope is that I get to hear about it. I'll be singing over her bedside, "I told you so!" I've seen it all before! Believe me. I will continue to make these videos, in hopes that they help someone else understand. Though I have no idea why Anna said that protein and iron are vitamins!!! I told her to talk about B-12 and she didn't do it!!!!! Not until the last minute! I should have pre-read that speech she made. But the rest of her video was well done.